NoAngel's blog: "Complications"

Well, I can now say that both of my exes are offically gone now. The one who has been gone for almost 6 months kinda hurts that he walked but it is what it is. He couldn't be honest with me these last few years and so much for being a friend when he once needed someone to lean on. My life got complicated and apparently his did to. He still crosses my mind and haunts me in my dreams from time to time. I am to that point where I will always be attracted to him and that will never fade but I can honestly say that Iam no longer in love with him but I will always love him as a friend. He hasn't given me any reason to still be in love with him after all of these years because he sure the hell doesn't love me anymore and can't say that I blame him though after everything I put him thru when we were kids. He let my heart go and he chose someone else and of course let his friends influence him as well, story of my life. We weren't strong enough to get it to work out for another go around and I wasn't strong enough to break her spell. Oh well of he's happy then so be it. He stays on his side of town or in whatever state he may be in and I will stay right where I am.

Now for the scumbag, womanizing, lying, cheating ex, it has been almost 2 months since he walked away. Still the same bullshit as before. He doesn't know how to be honest to anyone and I wish to God I never met him. I don't love him anymore and I wonder just how he would react if he knew that I lied about being in love with him still. Please did he actually think I was going to do the same song and dance routine of running back when he felt like being with me. Sorry dude u burned that bridge years ago and there is no coming back from that. I fill with hatred everytime I figure out his game just as the feelings are returning and everthing he says sounds so good. Ugh he is nothing to me anymore. Have a nice life with your fiance/soon to be baby mama. So glad he is someone else's problem for the rest of her life and feel sorry for that kid he is having knowing tjat that kid will be scarred for life with an asshole like him for a father. He got his wish finally and all I can say is "See ya loser!"  I hate everything about him. I was his pawn and his embarrassment but no more of that. Should the day come when he has another "thought" where I am concerned, yeah it will be nasty.