Ever know someone who you thought was just so cool, so sweet, damn near perfect, but something always pops up to raise doubts about that someone?
I swear this certain someone, and I'm not mentioning any names, seems to be damn near perfect on so many levels. Sweet, funny, sexy as hell, and down to earth (sometimes lol). We get along so well, and seem to have a decent connection. But anytime we decide to do a little bit more, something always comes up, and the times when that happens, the reasons or excuses seem flimsy or ill-timed at best.
Honestly, I know that things happen in life that you can't predict. And I'm flexible and accepting with that. But every time? There's no such thing as a coincidence when it involves the same person over and over. The funny thing, that's not the must frustrating and upsetting thing about it.
It's the afterwards part. Instead of trying to make up for what happened, she just avoids me and the situation altogether until it "cools" off. Like I did something wrong and I have to make the first move or contact to make things "cool". So anytime these situations don't fall thru, I just accept it for what it is, and say it wasn't meant to be. And try to be the bigger man and still be a good friend.
But she turns around and swears up and down she does feel me and would like to maybe do more than just be friends. But yet again, it has happened. And again, avoids me because she assumed that I was still bent out of shape over things not working out like we planned. Now I'm sorry, I just feel like if you feel like you upset someone over something you did or didn't do, you would try and make an effort to talk things out with them and make sure things are on a good level.
She would rather avoid the "drama", even if it's her "fault" that things went down like they did. But if you feel someone like you say you do, I just don't see why you would avoid them, regardless. You would want to make the person you're feelin, feel better about things, at least in my eyes. Especially when that other person has shown genuine effort, and shown to be an open-minded and understanding person.
But to come up with more excuses on why you can't talk to me, when those excuses don't hold any weight, especially when you're online shopping and chattin' it up, just a little of that time could've been used to just send a message or text to me. But all that tells me is that this was all a game, and I'm the big fool to believe that it was more that what it was. My bad. So on that note, I'll just leave it there and say.....Well, I tried :(
