When am I going to realize that he does not give a crap about me and never has? Ugh!!! When will I get it thru my head that I meant nothing to him? When will I realize that this was all a game? When will I realize that he is the biggest loser I ever dated? I was his embarrassmenr, his pawn, and his secret from the world. He could never acknowledge me as his and be proud to say "That's my girl, my baby who will always be there for me", nope that certainly wasn't him. It took 3 other guys and 1 female to show what he couldn't. I forgave this man for ripping my heart and my world apart years ago and it still isn't good enough. If he felt bad about what he has done, he would not still be running the same damn game from years ago. Geez dude, grow up and man up for once in ur sad little pathetic life. Ugh I want him out of my head and I need to stop thinking he gives a damn because clearly he doesn't and never will. He talks the game so well and knows how to get to me, just wish I was strong enough to let it all out towards him, but I just can't do that. I need to walk away for good.