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And He Made The Blind To See
It is quite amazing...the human mind that is. Immagine that all our emotions/actions/thoughts/memories are all done by electrical impulses and neurochemicals. It's amazing! but i'm not here to talk about biology. I'm here to talk about how people think. It amazes me how people can be so blind to the obvious sometimes. People place themselves into endless cycles of pain...they know they are hurting...yet continue. Why? No...i'm not agianst making risks and being shut down. What i am aginst is continuing what you can't fix. Example....a girl is always in distant relationships. She wants to be happy but she can't get close to her significant other without being unconfortable. an explination is your past. this girl that i am thinking of...no...not you cause your reading this...you know who YOU are thats reading this thinking it's you...anyway. this girl had a past where her dad left her. She had seperation in her family and that chaos became what she needed. Why

And He Did It.... :p
I have to admit that I am really shocked that my dearest best friend Bill has actually gotten out of the National Guard... :) No, I take that back. I am NOT as shocked as I should be. But this was a LONG time coming according to him, since he has been doing the whole thing (Army, Navy, Marines) before the Guard, and he really needs to slow down some. But then again, he doesn't know how. Tonight he is going to go and sign up for the State Guard. (I didn't even know we had one to be honest) and so he is going to do that. Atleast that is over. We have also defined our relationship a little more. Yes, he is my best friend, but he is also the big brother I never had. I have to admit that I have had my fair share of problems and he has seen me get myself out of most of them. But also as his little sister I have to tell him at times that the girls he picks are not worth the time nor energy especially if they are treating him ugly. I won't stand for anyone treating a member of my family ugl

And Here I Am, Drunk Again
what did you expect And what did you expect That because I didn't value the act of sex You could break my heart Did you think I didn't notice? Notice that she was prettier? Notice that she was younger? Notice that she was dumber? Excuse me for not being that! I'm sorry I'm sorry so much Sorry I'm not dumber, prettier, younger, skinnier Sorry that I have a sence of right and wrong Sorry I don't use men for money or connections Sorry that all I ever wanted was you for you I guess I should have better reasons I should want you for my emotional void because I don't know how to give I should want you for money because I don't know how to earn I should want you for dinner tomorrow because I don't know how to eat I'm sorry for wanting you for you I'm sorry for wanting you for what you thought I'm sorry for wanting you for what you've been through What was I thinking? Skinny, young, pretty, I should have stuck with that Instead of believing you wanted me

And Here We Go Again
Heres the link to his blog...Seems as if we are heading back down the road to my baby being sick again...heres the link to what he posted today http://fubar.com/blog/17490/449554 Hope to catch up soon

And Here I Sit...
WAITING. I was supposed to leave for Arizona three days ago...but apparently our moving company had other ideas. First, I was told they were running late leaving another job. Then, I was told that they were on the road 65 miles away and would be here soon. THEN, I was told that the brakes on the truck needed repair and they wanted to wait another day. THEN...after I complained about waiting...at 8:30 pm, two Bosnians with a limited english vocabulary pulled up to my house in a UHaul too small to carry all of our stuff. GRRR. So, I hired another moving company. And here I sit...waiting. I'm wondering if THIS one will frigging show up. I want to get the hell out of this frigging state. For you, sir. And I'll let you pet the real ones when [and if] I fucking get there.

And Here Is Another
a star up in the sky goes slowly passing by, the lights below...they spell out your name. you're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time. and lot's of feeling that i can't explain. i won't spend another night alone. out of every girl i met, no other can compete i'd ditch em all for a night with you. i know you don't believe you mean this much to me but i promise you that you do. if i had one wish this is what it would be... i'd ask you to spend all your time with me, that we'd be together forever. IDK WHERE I GOT THIS FROM SAYS I GOT IT FROM A FRIEND BUT IT IS SOOO SWEET!! HEHE

And He Walks Into The Fire . . .
You see a friend walking blindly into what is equal to the fires of hell, what do you do? Do you sit and watch this person burn slowly or do you turn your back and walk away? I know it is a metaphorical mess of a question, but none-the-less the type of thing I am faced with today. I have a friend who is in my mind is put in a situation where he is in essence walking into the flames, and I am not sure I can bear to watch him go through that pain. Ok, the situation is an ex coming back that hurt this person very badly . . . VERY badly. This ex now wants forgiveness and blah blah blah and I can’t tell my friend to accept the apology and take her back. I can’t watch him go through that bullshit again. I can’t sit back and watch him suffer just so she can be happy. The relationship was not that good the first time around but he would have never believed that, he loves this woman and never would have heard an ill word spoken about her. Which, honestly I do not know her so I can no

And Here Is The Random Thoughts That I Am Dealing With
Ok, I am all for this to make sense, but I am sick of being treated like I have no mind...Thanks to my "brother" Bill, I have made a decision about several things that I feel I have to do, if not to save whatever is left of my sanity.. I have a friend who is completely jealous of my friendship with Bill (all because he is not into her) and because he calls me and does come out to the house to see me and she can't stand that.. I just feel like there is no way around that anymore. Time to cut the apron strings. I think it's funny right now, tbat she is acting like a child and doesn't see that she is destroying a friendship over a guy. Well, in any case, I am not playing the game. If I have to choose, it's going to be a 20 year friendship over a five year...

And Her Heart
"where do you go young soul?" "i go where the river takes me" "do you wish to cross this river?" "charon, i do not have the payment" "then forever will you reside here" What have you done to the pure impassive second to best was her in show reaping the last of the bits from masses suckling upon his toe.. the burden of all in the whispers... never cloaking for the suffering all she was spent from the lush and the push yet she withered at the becon call! Yet here you stand sword in hand for the bitting to come succumbing to the bitter winter frost she ascend by amends to the distant shore forever with the ruthless beastial lust! "abandon all hope... ye who enter here..." Prize mine eyes for they see a window to the soul shackle down forced to drown in the whipping cold severed limbs to within her heart was broken by the man whom she thought she could LOVE!!!!

And Here I Am
My life has become such a bore lately. All of my friends (seriously, ALL of them) are now married and/or have kids. It's like they all got together without me and decided to get married. So now they do the married thing. Stay at home with the family, do family oriented things. Some of them are trying to pressure me into finding someone and settle down. But after my last few relationship disasters, I'm not in the dating mood. So now here I am, Saturday alone and bored. I can't think of anything entertaining to do. I've watched movies, taken care of chores, took a nap, ate dinner..everything is done for today. I really don't feel like going out alone. Bored.

And Here All Along Ive Been The One Keeping It All Bottled Up Inside
....for the future! "breath, kid! BREATH!"... yeah, it's what they keep telling me to do...but I have no choice but to breath oxygen all the time, otherwise I wouldn't be able to live on earth, ya know?yeah, deep, consentrated breathing is considered a cure for a lot of things...and yes , people still want to lecture me to this day on how to breath and heal myself.... so look bitches, I'll try and be ZEN about this shit and tell you that I am a new age revolutionary shaman gankster, with a natural retro thing goin on...and when you're sitting in my oxygen bar in the year 2011, breathing it up and supporting the economy as well as my altruism and service, you're going to be thinking to yourself, "just breath, man....just breath..." and so to all you winey bitches, I wish you good fuckin luck.Sorry some of you people out there too fawking impatient to hear these words come out of my lips...so take your own fucking advice and... "just breath, douchbag"

And How Is Your Week Going?
Anyone who has read my other blogs knows that i have been through some adversity in life. This ive grown accustomed to and accept that in life problem-solving is a 24/7/365 job for me. This has usually only extended to my personal life. Professionally I've not dealt with it much having worked up until recently exclusively in health care. Then I took this job. I work for a 50 year old Greek man who owns too much property for his own good. 4 Hotels, 2 gyms and numerous residential rental properties. Guess who manages them all by herself? Dumbass here! I took this job when I came here as manager of the hotel. He pissed off the bookkeeper by calling her a fucking bitch and she quit in April. I AM NOT A BOOKKEEPER! This he is fully aware of but doesnt seem to recognize or give a crap about. He is verbally and mentally abusive, threatening and just all around evil. I've been told to "get out of his fucking face i fucking disgust him." That "i dont fucking care about any

And Here Comes The Dark
It's dark outside But I see the light Then darkness I see the light again And here comes dark It's dark outside I am lonely and sad But I see the light You ask my name Then darkness You take my hand I see the light again We fall in love And here comes dark It's dark outside I can't find you But I see the light You were right there Then darkness I have my doubts I see the light again You say I'm wrong And here comes dark It's dark outside I reach for you But I see the light You don't reach for me Then darkness I feel alone I see the light again I read your face And here comes dark It's dark outside I want to leave But I see the light You're come to me Then darkness I feel your grip I see the light You're hurting me And here comes dark It's dark outside I try to scream But I see the light You have my throat Then darkness I can not breath I see the light For the last time And here comes dark

~and Here's Your Sign~
*********A Real Ball Buster.********* A drunk gets up from the bar and heads for the bathroom. A few minutes later, a loud blood curdling scream is heard coming from the bathroom. A few minutes after that another loud scream reverberates through the bar. The bartender goes into the bathroom to investigate what the drunk is screaming about. "What's all the screaming about in there? You're scaring my customers! "I'm just sitting here on the toilet and every time I try to flush, something comes up and squeezes the hell out of my balls." With that the bartender opens the door, looks in and says, "You idiot! You're sitting on the mop bucket!!!" *Don't Laugh Too Loud..you may know him.....LOL* Peace.

And Her Back
****** If You've Had Back Surgery.. Please Leave Comments!! ******* So if any of you REALLY know me.. You know all about the day after day Chiropractic Appointments, Acupuncture appointments so on and so forth Today My DC (Chiropractor for the non-medically trained ones) is asking for an MRI Which leads me to think Im scared shitless of having back surgery.. I've heard you lose up to 40% or your flexibility Which... as a dancer, and a yoga enthusiast.. I Need my back and every ounce of flexibility I have in me still My back is Incredibly tattooed (obviously) that it's not worth risking my ink. But in order for me to be back to normal. I would have to. Which SUCKS something major for me.. This would push me into thinking... I would qualify for a reduction.. Paid for by the man.But then i lose. Every once of who I am. THIS would be the only option Ughhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm not liking where this is leading!!!!!!!

And Here I Am Another Day
And here I am another day Brushing back the streaks of grey While pushing forth in steady run With tired dreams I chase the sun Yet in my mind there's still some time My heart's strong rhythms beat A searching soul forward will go Toward a dream someday to meet Today life takes another year While I choke down some lonesome fear I've long surpassed the starting gun With tired dreams I chase the sun And though I know not why I run Some voice inside pushes me on It tells me tales of better days And gives me strength to go beyond And now life moves in record time While I slow ponder of it's rhyme And learn this race is never won With tired dreams I chase the sun But, won or not I still must run Or slip and fall to darker days Without the chase I'd lose the sun And lose my dreams along the way And though life asks another tear I'll chase the sun another year For death waits where the day is done With tired dreams I chase the sun

And He Separated Night And Day !!!
I do not wish to discuss religion in this blog. But I do use references to it and sprituality in order to describe more closely what I am trying to say. My question is this: If in the land before time, the Universe or to some of us, God, separated night and day, and pitted brother against brother, nation against nation, man against woman ??? What was its purpose ??? To allow us to go to war with each other ??? Or was it so that we could find it in ourselves to understand the differences and love wholly beyond those differences. In separating the qualities that oppose and compliment, did he also send human beings into the material world to, find their equal and opposite that completes them (ie. their soul mate) or did he send them out in order that they may learn tolerance and 'put up' with what they found. There is only one night and day, the reference to which reflects upon Yin and Yang. There is a dark and light side, and each side compliments the other to come

And Her Beauty Lesson Began!
Because the light was beginning to fade, Lenny went to the doorway and switched on the parlour light for Edgar. Edgar took Henrietta’s personal details and then he inspected her for flaws and warts - noting anything he saw. Henrietta was not sure whether she wanted the ‘all-over’ treatment and looked across to the list of available treatments. Henrietta asked if he would just give her a wash ‘n' buff, huff and blow. “Dearest Henrietta, you’ve come here for a treatment so you will have what we think is best for you and not what you want! If all our clients took that attitude we would soon have to close up shop and never roll in the clover again! Tell you what; I’ll give you a special offer to entice you back for further treatments. What do you say to that?” he said in an endearing fashion. Edgar gave her a questioning look and without giving it much thought Henrietta agreed - she really loved a quiet life and decided to take the usual line of least resistance. Edgar asked her

And Here I Go Again On My Own...
Going down the only road I've ever known... That song was perfect for the end of "Old School". Well I stopped working at my job today. It was the end of the summer and we parted ways with an understanding. It was good to work again but after a year at college and 3+ months of back breaking manual labor I am going to take some time off. I set a goal at the beginning of the summer. I started out nearly broke from paying tuition, rent and other stuff. Over the course of 3 months I was able to get a whole stack of high society (10k) in the bank while keeping up with my bills. So here I am, back at the start. I have a college degree, I'm in decent shape and I have a stack of high society... I'm going to take the next few weeks to sort out my next move. The leading contender for my next job is interesting. I could work for a company that would send me to South Korea for a year to teach english. It looks like a solid idea, they pay me a decent wage and pay for my flight

And How Is This Nsfw?!?!?!!?
OK, I'm getting so sick and tired of all the childish, petty NSFW FLAGGERS!!!!! WOULD SOME ONE PLZ TELL ME HOW IS THIS PIC NSFW??? I FIND IT SO AMAZING HOW I KEEP GETTING pics like this or a simple wolf pic flagged yet, my master/slave folder unflagged... I am very pissed and irritated with whoever goes round doing this......this IS AN ADULT SITE, IF THEY CAN'T HANDLE IT THEN THEY SHOULD TAKE THEIR TICKLE-ME-ELMOS AND GO BACK TO THE ROMPER ROOM!!!!

And He Let Her Get Away.
She was always "the one that got away". Nobody could ever measure up to her or seemed good enough in his eyes. As much as he claimed to me that I was his ideal mate. I always knew he longed for her and her presence; although absent; tormented his very existence. She was most men's idea of the perfect girl. Blonde, petite, intelligent and drop dead gorgeous. The pain she caused his young heart forced him to believe he could never trust another women. Thus, ruining future relationships. Long ago I stopped pursing a relationship with him. We were better off as friends. We were two lost souls thrust together by circumstance; we both needed someone at the time so we could heal. Contact became scarce over the last year or so. Life took us in different directions. Yet, we always knew when each other was about to hit rock bottom and made sure we were there for one another. The last time I contacted him he told me he was spending time with her. "The one who got away". A few days ago he

And How It Goes
and how it goes she stared at the pictures briefly as she deleted each one. she wished she could rid the memories locked deep her head. too long she had played into his games, coming when he called and obediently staying away when he found others with whom he'd rather stay. her breath caught in her throat when she came to the cuddled pictures of them, a rare occasion she smiled so big. stopping on the last picture, him kissing her, she paused and couldn't help but feel disgusted on how quick he played her. the last picture deleted she threw down her phone and took another drink. closing her eyes, alone she feel asleep.

And Here We Are
I like that he stops to listen to everything I have to say .( even when I know damn good and well he has no clue what I am talking about . ) He just nods .And it leaves me with the sensation that someone was listing to me . And for a moment I don't feel so alone . The illusion that someone else might be here that understand me Lingers..... making the day go by faster . Wait .... No I think that is more of a dellusion . Yea .... that fits better . I love the idea that I can talk to him about anything at all . No matter what it is . I can talk and talk and talk .But he never gets tired of listing . No , He just smiles . Hanging over every word I say . Untill i relize I am rambling . And cut the conversation in mid sentence . Usually to only be followed by a ..... -Finish what you were saying .... Only I never do . I love that I am no longer defined by pre-wraped enchanted lines . No more walking on egg shells . The feeling as though I am a fumbling around a darkned room full of antique ,

And Here I Write
and here i write endless, aimless for you unending wait, relentless regrets a failed attempt to explain where are my words what do i say what tells you i am true how do i tell you - i am true a moment of of pause a few baby steps a silent prayer here, i am again untouchable, ugh, ugly my mirror hates me hands folded in prayer hope on my lips the horizon barren endless, aimless horizon barren....

And Here..we...go!
So..Friday i'm adding to my gallery of body art. I have much to do since the shit head artist I used to go to when I lived in N.O. didn't know the first thing about actual tattooing. Just because you have a tattoo machine and a shop doesn't make you an artist. Trust me, I know. So...I'm adding to my "darkside" theme on my left arm and I'm gonna get a lil something for my stomach. I don't have abs of steel but I don't care. My caring days are over! if you want a sneek peek at what I'm getting..I've made this blog NSFW so don't whine n bitch if you're some goody-two-shoes feminist. You were warned.. You have entered The Tiger's cage!

And How
If you could touch me Where would you begin my neck, my lips my hands, my hips Would you reach for whatever part was exposed and take what ever I was willing to give... would you make sure that every breath leaving my mouth somehow said your name without words could you steal my heart even for a second... force me into thinkin you are the only one would you push your way into everything I am and take nothing in return except the moisture of my lips would you create a reason to stay just one minute longer only to hear say more in silent stares and heavy breaths would listen for the moment when it was all euphoric and still reach for me only to break me into small pieces of passion and exhaustion If you could touch me Where would you begin my neck, my lips my hands, my hips......

And Here I Sit Once More
Here I sit once more, thinking of my life and what I have made out of it ..which is nothing. I wish I could re do it all over again and change somethings. Like get a career, take better care of myself. I have no friends to speak of, because I am so anti social only cause I am sick of being judged by family and peers Tired of people who seem to have it all , and here I am trying to make sure my family have food on the table and take care of the bills and pray we dont lose this shit hole of a house. I am bitter yes you betcha, am I lonely dam right. I may have a family but I am still alone here. I feel like im soooooooooooo gawd dam non important, taken advantage, not respected. Soooooooooooooooooooooooo yeah would I if I could start my life over yes in deed.......would first ask for a new family to grow up in......as mine was nothing but abuse and mental cruelity. All I want is to be loved by a man who respects and appreciates what I have done for him. I dont want or thi

And He Wants To Get Re-elected!!!!
An old West Virginia Hillbilly saying: You cannot get the water to clear up until you get the pigs out of the creek. *SOME OF YOU MAY APPRECIATE THIS AND SOME OF YOU MAY NOT.**I DO NOT APOLOGIZE FOR POSTING THIS BECAUSE OF IT'S TRUTH.**If any other of our presidents had doubled the national debt, which had taken more than two centuries to accumulate, in one year, would you have approved?**If any other of our presidents had then proposed to double the debt again within 10 years, would you have approved? **If

And He's Not Even From Ohio!
Odinsbane: hi sexy, you enjoying yourself? 2:53pm Suga Lips: Sure 2:55pm Odinsbane: i bet you are with how hot you are hehe 2:56pm Suga Lips: Ha. Right. 2:57pm Odinsbane: im actually being very naughty 2:58pm Suga Lips: How nice. 2:58pm Odinsbane: yeah im doing something ive never done before lol 2:59pm Suga Lips: Putting your balls in a mouse trap? 2:59pm Odinsbane: lol no 2:59pm Odinsbane: why would i do that 2:59pm Suga Lips: Sounds like fun to me. 3:00pm Odinsbane: it does have to do with my balls and dick tho 3:00pm Suga Lips: Yeah, I bet. 3:00pm Odinsbane: im sitting on a couch next to my mom and sister secretly rubbing my cock under a blanket 3:01pm Suga Lips: That's pretty fucked up, dude.

And I Quote
"And I Quote" You were born an original - Don't die a copy Dream as if you'll live forever... Live as if you'll die tomorrow A broken heart continues to beat Follow your heart... but take your brain with you Growing old is mandatory, but growing up is optional Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death I'm old enough to know better, but too young to care Fall seven times, stand up eight times You never lose by loving, you always lose for holding back You don't fail by not succeeding, you fail if you refuse to get back up Listen closely to your enemies, they tell you your faults Always forgive your enemies - they hate that You may regret things you do, but you regret the things you don't more Don't be sad it's over - be happy it began - so don't regret the past - you can't change it When your life flashes before your eyes, make sure you've got plenty to watch

And It Begins
Today the Wolf Pack Struck........... Tomorrow it could be some body else that plays on peoples emotions..... Join the Pack and be protected,,,,,Avoid the pack and be watched,,,,,Challenge the Pack and well......Lets just say justice will come, one way or another. First read "The Wolf Blogs" they will be continued as i finish them. Pack members will not sit by and allow preditors to prey on other people. We will speak up, we will be heard. First we will warn the targets of the danger. Then we will warn the "scum" that they are being watched. We will be creative and stealthy not to disturb the lounges atmosphere. We will not speak of our actions to anyone but other pack members. The Alpha Male is the only one to allow new pack members, although others may recruit and give council. There will be ground rules for new recruits. The Biggest Is a trust factor. We must not let it be known who are Pack members. So they can work in silence. If you want to know if someone is in the pack

And I Told The Truth For Every Question
You scored as Shadow walking. You have the ability to walk in shadows. A rare power not posessed by all vampires. Follow me, and experience all the powers the vampire enjoys. Come play with me!Shadow walking94%Shape shift56%Telepathy50%Perception38%Mind Control25%Charisma19%What vampiric power do you most possess?created with QuizFarm.com

. . . And I'll Get Up And Walk Away
Don't you know you cannot hurt me Don't you know I do not care Don't you know you can walk all over me And I'll get up and walk away Don't you remember when you tried And you're the one that cried At first you felt like flying And now you feel like dying And I still sit here smiling Got a cold one in my hand Got a new truck in the Driveway And you just hit the Highway Your friends told me you were lying They told me what you're hiding Tell your stories . . . I'm not buying You can sit there crying And I'll get up and walk away Don't you remember when you tried And you're the one that cried At first you felt like flying And now you feel like dying And I still sit her smiling Got a cold one in my hand Got a new truck in the Driveway And you just hit the Highway You finally went away Feels like a Holiday I'll mark it on my planner The day you went away I'll mark it wit

And I, Your Submissive
And I, Your Submissive He whipped her chest and struck her thighs. He cut her arms and relished her sighs. He battered her box and flicked her lips. She screamed out his name and thrust out her hips. He punished her nipples and flayed her back. He aimed for her pussy and gave it a whack. She begged him for more and let out a cry. Any more pleasure and surely she'd die. She called him her master, he called her his pet. She cried out in passion, he asked her how wet. She opened his legs and allowed him to peek. He leveled his hips, her pleasure to seek. She cried out in exctacy, he moaned out as well. The fire between them was hotter than hell. He thrust himself forward and completed his lover. She screamed in release and begged for another. Five hours later they were panting and soaked. Her kitty he pet, his manhood she stroked. They lay there exhausted, sharing a bed "Forever I love you my pet," he said. And she, "And I y

And I Love Water Too...
Your Element Is Water A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful. What's Your Element?

And It Begins
so what prompts people to actually tow someones car? i mean i ponder the reasons why some fat slob in a chicken stained wife beater decided it would be a fantastic job to snatch up someones vehicle. "lookey here cletus, heres a car that aint paid for the parkin today. lets take it" fucking jackass red neck fucks. I mean, first u make me think that someone stole my goddamned car, then u tell me it costs 186 dollars cause "its got city fees and some other stuff in there u gots ta pay too" *spits copenhagen* you tow drivers make me sick. go make your money the another way- like selling your fat to cancer patients fucking cuntcakes

And I've Read Most Of His Plays....go Figure
Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

...and I Love It!
What is your Paranormal gift? Control of ElectricityOohh.. electricity. It snaps, zaps, crackled, and booms, and is also your gift. You can be seen outside on a stormy night on top of an old building, laughing as you make lighting fall from the heavens. But who said that was a bad thing? It can be fun to give your friends a friendly jolt every once in a while.Take The Quiz Now!Quizzes by myYearbook.com

And I Was So Lookin Forward To Being Bad!
You Are a Normal Girl You are 60% Good and 40% Bad Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past. But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl. Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

And If I Were Black?
White Thinking Black Through the crowds I walk Into the crowds, they talk. Eyes on us! Let us catch the bus! Feeling the breath of a whisper, I hear... "What's that black man doing, Mister?" Into my soul I feel the look... Do they see me as a crook? As I walk by, they grab their bags, She clutches her purse, Only thinking the worst. Does my color spell out sin? Am I too dark for them to comprehend? I mean, what is it with my skin? Do they not see God God within us all? Black, white, little, small... Even tall? Through the crowds we walk, Into the crowds we talk. God walks, God sees, God smiles,... God is Black, God is Brown, From this earth, This very earth, We came... From this very ground From HIS own creation God will NEVER frown, He made black,white and even brown! Lyllian Crenshaw-Sapp 04/17/02

And I Thought That It Was A Best Ass Contest.....
If I had known that it wasn't just a best ass contest but that it was a naked ass and pussy then I wouldn't have entered the contest. How fair is it to everyone else if some of the pics in the best ass contest had bare naked pussies showing in it. That is what I would call cheating!!!!!!!!!! I would say for you to go and see for yourself but I am not going to even promote this contest that I am in...I would rather lose the contest than to lower myself to have so little self respect to go and show the world the trash that some of thesepeople are showing, I can't call them ladies since they don't act like ladies........... So, since none of you are my mother, doctor, or husband then none of you will ever see any naked pics of me or anything close to it.....I will ALWAY'S have clothes on !!!

And I Quote...
So I was watching the local news about an hour ago, they were talking about the possibilitie of bringing a casino to our city, and therefore were interviewing some people at the casino closest to us. They interviewed this man who said, and I quote, "I am in between jobs right now, so I figured I would come here and try my luck." Now, is it just me, or is that the exact OPPOSITE thing you should be doing if you have no job? LoL I guess they happened to interview someone with a gambling problem. I don't know, I just thought that was amusing. I have yet ANOTHER test I have to study for, blah! Goodnight all. Feel free to send me a message or something for the AM ;)

And I Am The One In The Wrong?????
MANY TIMES IT HAS BEEN ME THE ONE TO SAY SORRY MANY TIMES IT HAS BEEN ME THE ONE CRYING MANY TIMES IT HAS BEEN ME THE ONE TO FORGIVE YOU AND I ASK MYSELF ONE THING JUST THIS ONCE WHY SHOULD I ALWAYS BE THE ONE TO SAY SORRY TO SHED THE TEARS AND TO FORGET AND FORGIVE YOU SHOW NO REMORSE FOR THE WAY YOU MAKE A PERSON FEEL YOU SHOW NO SYMAPTHY FOR THE WAY YOU TREAT PEOPLE AND OF COURSE YOU NEVER SAY YOU ARE THE ONE IN THE WRONG WELL THIS IS THE END OF THE LINE AFTER SO MANY CHANGES FOR YOU TO BE HERE IN MY LIFE WITH ME I AM FINALLY GOING TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN ITS GOING TO BE LIKE THIS EITHER YOU BE THAT MAN YOU CLAIM TO BE OR I AM GOING TO BE THAT WOMEN WALKING IN THE OTHER DIRECTION BECAUSE THIS BITCH ISNT TAKING THIS ANYMORE I AM NOT GOING TO SAY SORRY I AM NOT GOING TO CRY ANYMORE TEARS AND I SURE THE HELL AM NOT GOING TO FORGIVE AND TO FORGET ANY LONGER SO THIS IS MY WAY OR IT WILL BE THE HIGHWAY CAUSE LIKE I HAVE SAID BEFORE "LOVE HAS NO LIMIT"

And It Begins
Well was waiting for it too happen now it has its 6am and I still havent slept yet was waiting for the insomnia too kick in and here it is...not sure what im stressing about guess its just the fact that ive let myself go abit and now i have too do the physical fitness standard or get sent to "fat" camp..which will put a major hickup in my military plans.

And Im Broke Again
well i thought i was gonna start saving money but i guess not quite yet. i got my phone bill, and since it has a bunch of service charges for starting my internet and stuff it came out to 200 which i wasnt expecting. i knew it would be around a hundred but that seems a bit high. so ya im broke now, im pretty sure ill have enough for my rent tho. i wanted to pay off all of the damage deposit next month but i dont think ill be able to, i guess ill just have to keep paying 100 of it at a time, s'pose itll still be paid off in 2 months anyways. i donno, ill see how big my next paycheck is, should be bigger then the last which was a pretty good one, and ill be getting a tax return in a few months, i should get like 600 back or so i would hope but im not going to count on any return, because i dont want to go oh shit if i dont get one or as much as i expected. im tired :/

And It Ended 5/17/2006
Yes The tropical night embraces Sticky sweet and lingering Native insects circle swirling Whirring in the breeze Leaning on the rail His scent weighs heavy Rising from his shoulders Natural and so male His naked chest rises Heaving with each breath Pierced protruding nipples glint Winking with the moonlight His eyes squint serious Peering toward the distance Change is in the air Seeping from the seams In silence our connection deepens Guarding against the world We two standing together This moment must be the test He turns to me My bare feet planted firm He takes my waist And my arm Something’s happening I feel it too It lies behind his eyes Travels to his tongue He crouches to one knee Right there before me My mind’s puzzled The obvious it denies My own breath is stifled I feel a tear in my eye He fingers my skirt Playing with the hem A devious smile flashes And then he digs in His tongu

And I Cry Out
I dont know how it feels so alone scared unforgiven And i Cry out Inside i feel such pain sadness, etched on my face tears dried and stained I saw myself in the mirror and i didnt recognize who i was I am nothing, left to fear Silence like chains And your words left me Beaten, Dead

And I Am Still Her Child
And I Am Still Her Child A day dream came With me today And sent me to This poem to say This poem to say Became a rhyme A rhyme that sent Me back in time And I began to sing along With all the elements Came this song And I am still her child A child forevermore Many things I kept inside And I have brought this lore A story to become a song O Child, this child I had kept in so long As the Eagle Clipped his wings As the Stag The Hunter Brings As the Pine And green shall hold The colors merge A Sculpters hand shall remold And tis not all yet dip thy hand A screen of what may be untold Across the Land What Gold? A Fools Gold that he has found? Again I say from past Tis a reflected noun And I shall knock On every door To find truth and to explore And I am still her child A distant seeking Sun And I am still her child Protected and as One For in the Moon Reflected She The Earth And Sky The Fire And Sea And I am still her child And shall e

And In Other Penis Pump News...
Bristow, OK- Judge Donald Thompson was sentenced to four years in prison for indecent exposure after he was caught masturbating under his robes with the aid of a penis pump. The pump's whoosh-whoosh sound was audible on a tape of a murder trial, and investigator's found semen on Thompson's chair and robes. The judge claimed the pump was a gag gift. "In 20/20 hindsight," he said, "I should have thrown it away."

And I Dream
Peace....the deep feeling of empty space combined with joy, a night of sleep where all of your troubles are simply washed away for a few hours. This morning I write of a simple place, a place where my body lifts itself above the earth and I look down upon my bed......And I Dream. Dream with me this morning as I reach to once again touch those who read me. I release my hands from their evening's grip on my pillow and with coffee in hand, my rested fingres touch their home on my keys as I write...... And I Dream Each night I lie down on a bed of lessons, learned from today. My head falls gently upon my pillow, made from memories yet to be created. I close my weary eyes And I dream… Of an angel’s touch upon my body with a kiss of feathered wings and the softness of skipping rocks across a glasslike lake. Of bubblegum kisses from lips as soft as clouds. With an inner peace found only in deep sleep, my body turns, try

And It Was Then
You came and asked me my name. I knew it was a come on. You wanted to know all about me, while watching only my breasts. Don't bother, you won't meet them later. I watched you for hours move, from woman to woman, you needed too much from others. I could have charmed you into giving me all. Your ATM, your credit card, Instead I told you "look at me, AT me. What do you see?" No answer but a question on his lips. "Do I look like someone who cares, do i strike you even for a minute as friendly. I am reading and you are a gnat in my day. Hours from now I will not remember you." we've talked every day for three years. Who knew the truth could set you free. And still I don't stop. THen yesterday you kissed me, I was floored and I was tempted. No, I cannot do this, the feeling still stands. A romance can be gone in an instant. but a friend lasts forever. I would rather be a friend, then some chick you fucked. And still I look like I don't care, and when I have tha

And It Was Not Anymore That I Saw It
Whispers in the dark. Screaming suns. And Bleeding saints. On burning streets paved with souls. Melancholic I am as I walk down it all. The Harbor it beckons, It has since the day I forgot. Since the day I forgot my dreams. The water, black and thick. polluted and tained with sin. It calls to me to sink within its embrace. just because I forgot the dreams. And I can not withstand its call no more. The dreams are gone and never coming back. And now I drown in a sea of black. And to never return, to never again dream Copyright 2006

And I Love Her
I give her all my love That’s all I do And if you saw my love You’d love her too I love her She gives me ev’rything And tenderly The kiss my lover brings She brings to me And I love her A love like ours Could never die As long as i Have you near me Bright are the stars that shine Dark is the sky I know this love of mine Will never die And I love her Bright are the stars that shine Dark is the sky I know this love of mine Will never die And I love her

And I Thought Boston Had No Sense Of Humor
Three commercials from the Super Bowl are drawing a little "fire" from certain groups for being "offensive." In my view, "offensive" is a pretty subjective analysis. Some examples are simple. A black guy calling his friend "my nigger" isn't generally considered offensive. A white guy, wearing a white hooded sheet, calling a black guy "my nigger" is, not surprsingly, considered offensive (unless you're white guy in the hooded sheet or you're in the deep south, in which case, I hear it's pretty routine). On the other hand, some examples are esoteric....like, perhaps certain Super Bowl commercials, subtle innuendos, etc. Or...maybe they're not so esoteric at all and, in fact, it's just that a vocal minority wants to impart upon us how the rest of us should live our lives. The key factor to consider, in my humble opinion, is the context in which these so-called "offensive" statements are made. It's not hate, it's not offensive and it shouldn't hurt your precious little

And In The Meantime I Have Nothing To Say... I'm Here In Vain
…today I crawled out of bed I can’t stand my shadow is to heavy o lift… look how low I’ve sunk don’t ask me to rise I’ll lose you when I’m high… On Sunday I was at a friends house and on my way to the car my heel got stuck and I hit the floor my right knee is (only) bruised but the left one still looks really awful and started to bleed again last night. Well somehow it’s funny to have girls knees again… speaking of old times since I hate when people forget here’s a little warning: next month on the 26ths is my birthday. No I am not asking for presents but for nice messages I wouldn’t forget it if I were you I can be veeery bitchy about that. PS: Did you notice how many stupid people are here on cherryTap?

... And I'm A Cheap Sinner
I'm a coupon for cheap porn, and I'm a victom for lust, I think I want to shoot a god, and I think I'll like it, I break my fingers and I grind on my teeth as they bust, I think I'm a cheap ticket for sex, I'm disposable, missused and always full of shit, I'm filled with pussy, I killed the president because he was my scapegoat, Jeffrey Dahmer was my only sworn hero, am I sorry to be around, my sex is like a bomb, as a preast gets his ass beaten, his skull bashed and a dick shoved into his mouth, like earths decievers, I'm no believer, and I'm a sinner, I've fallen from a prison, my father is Jesus, my sister is Mary and I fucked her too, I've firmly been deleted, I'm only a cheap imitation, and I don't know how I am alive, I thought the people wanted me, the president fucked his aunt and I'm a pggy for watching, suffering is better than living, I'm a work of art, I'm crucified and when wet I drip and shrivel up, i may not be a sinner but I ate your mother and broiled your sister, I cr

And I Am Given
the sigh in the wind, a sweet melody the dance in the breeze, with the beat of my heart air fresh, brisk and cool, in the early dawn the morningstar, flashes like a strobe inhale of new life, inhale of a new day not another start, but, the continuance a breath of fresh air, lifts the heart fills the soul with love of self movement of the spirit, awakening of mind visions of past, now, and future an understanding of the DANCE a sudden burst of air fill a rush of spirituality to my body like the breath of something great in my chest, the feeling of heat the feeling of light, like a pulsating glow in my spirit and joy beaks free, like cold water on your body and breathe, air fills my lungs, inhale prayers, songs, words, thoughts the beauty way, goodness, life I breathe, air exits my body, exhale the negative, the ghosts that haunt anger, sadness, tears of yesterday the dawn of something, I have been waiting for I le

And I Stand!!!
I break, I fall, I crumble, I crash on piece at a time, a shell of yesterday the mold of who I am today, breaks loose and sets me free, I live today because of strength that reached down, and touched my heart and I stand my days seem to be the same everyday the hurt and pain, just wouldnt go away there were times, I've thought over and over with a blade in one hand, an uncovered wrist sometimes, I drive and think, should I there were days, I carried a rope, somewhere far away thinking, nobody will miss me anyway then, words whispered in the wind to find the words I felt at the moment do I believe, or am I just really that crazy was just too much, tears fell and I was lifted, I was awakened and I stand the whispers touched my heart, and I saw tomorrow, the chain reaction of my actions and it was more to it, my thoughts, just thoughts had caused, everything around to me be as it was my attitude, the way I presented myse

And It's About Time
well after asking a question in my mumms. I did confront her. we didn't argue. We decided to be friends instead of lovers and I respect that. Now it's off to enjoy life again... So ladies in Indy watch out ....he's BACK !!!! LOL

And It Has Begun...
The storm of neverending gift giving.. First is Janelle (But honestly, who cares) Then it's Dean. Then it's Tierre. Then it's Jacob. Then it's Mother's Day. Then it's Amy Then it's Father's Day Then it's JJ Then it's Lis' Mom Then it's Sibi Then it's Mami Then it's Mandy Then it's Lis Then it's DJ Then it's Papi & Jamie Then it's Christmas

And I By Ciara-one Of My Fav. Songs
Ciara And I Lyrics [verse 1] I dont need me a basketball player All I need is somebody thats down for me And he don't have to have money his love is just like honey its so sweet to me He could have everything in this world but he'll sacrifice it all for me and I made up my mind im in love this time and it feels so real [chorus] and I know that he won't break my heart and I know that we won't never part its time,time for us to settle down and I wanna be with him forever [verse 2] they can say that i am crazy for making him my baby but its how its gone be see I done been through many changes but this time i aint changing it's gone stay the same I can have everything in this world [ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ] but i'll sacrifice it all for him and I made up my mind im in love this time and it,it feels real [chorus] and I know that he won't break my heart and I know that we won't never part its time,time for us to sett

And I Digress.. (in 3 Parts)
"Any kind of honesty is rebellion" -Yevgeny Yevtushenko part 1. I made a mistake that time. I put into my head enough thoughts for both of us. the unknown is what I need what you think. literally. Like a jar that will not open no matter how many men you ask and how much pride you give up. take it back to when he sat next to her and listened for moments of disaster but all she could think was "he's sitting across from me and we are not in class!" We are agreeing. we sit. not worrying of time. but now, time is disasterous. avoiding each other at every step, every instance. When did i become the kind to feed the fire to beat the dead horse I must think he'll wake up. When we put ourselves in a room with the door closed, blinds closed, not more than a foot apart. Our chairs rolled, swiveled, back and forth. Her wanting to move closer to him found the only time he did not back away. But she knew she would ruin everything if that room had become a confessional boo

And I Am...
Who exactly? Is it a good sign for you that I am so easy to break in...? Or a bad sign for me...? Both...? Neither...? Feels so right...leaves my mind so wrong... Had it all for a moment...yet today has me more lost than ever before... And of course...I'd do it all again...and again...and again...oh and sometimes right after lunch... Because some days I just wanna be a missing person... Just need to find something useful to do with myself once I find me... (*edit*) ...hahaha...Man I'm stupid... ...oh and as it turns out...no good either...

And If You Thought Yesterday Was Funny
How I even got any sleep last night is beyond me. Too many things going on at once and what gets me is that when everyone thinks that I am so level headed (this is when I need my best buddy Bill to calm me down) they don't realize that I'm lost in my own little world at times. There are SO MANY things I want in life that I have yet to see happen. I wanted so much to have a child, but so far no luck. I dealt with that and faced it the way I was supposed to. If I got upset over it in the beginning I finally learned that maybe I am luckier than I thought. My parents were blessed with three grandchildren (thanks to my brother) and I know that is the most important thing. They have grandchildren that are loved and pretty much missed. But back to this blog. I normally try to be open about myself like what I dream about for my future, and you have to understand that I never expected to really be able to find someone who would essentially love me for myself. I think that's why things have

And In That Moment I Swear We Were Infinite
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be. I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't. I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop s

And I Would
Stand out in the middle of the busiest street in the world with one deep breath I would scream "I love you". I would scream so hard and so long that it would burst all the blood vessles in my throat. As my vocal chords are irritated to the point that blood spews from my throat and out my mouth. I will not dodge the traffic, traffic will dodge me. The vessles in my eyes will explode also turning them dark pink, and leaving me seeing red. Loving. Holding. caring. cherishing. Growning. screaming. adoring. Falling. crawling. moving. Living. dying. Dreaming. thinkins. seeing. hearing. ....all for you.

And It Begins...
Yup, I have decided to Blog. Granted, I realize that the vast majority of humanity would rather read a shampoo bottle than read my thoughts and inner demons, but I figured "what the hell?" and decided to do it anyway. Write more later, after hang-over dissapates.

#4 And I Think Last For The Day
Charlene`s Song Current mood: creative Category: Friends Bleak and cold would be my world, if ever you said goodbye; Without your friendship, my soul would want to die. Like sweet cotton candy, and warm summer rain; Having you in my life, helps to ease the pain. you`ve been there for me, for quite some time; to lose your love now, would be far worse than a crime. You mean more to me, Than you will ever know; When one finds a friend like you, They should hold on and never let them go. An Original work by: Carol Hamilton. This poem has a copyright @poetry.com. Please do not copy and try to use as your own original work .

And I Dream No More Of Love.......
In dreams, love comes sneaking into your heart. When you least expect it, love can come and steal your heart away. Sometimes, if you are lucky, it stays with you and fills your life. Other times.....it leaves, and a void remains that no one will be able to fill. I let myself love somone not so long ago, and in spite of the pain he gave me, I love him still. Unfortunately, loving someone isn't always enough......trust and respect are a part of that vital equation. I knew that. He knew that. The problem seems to have been not in what either of us did or did not do to each other in our pain, but rather in what was done because of the pain another had inflicted upon us. Trust was broken by others, and it poisoned the relationship WE had. It's so difficult to let him go, even though it was he who pushed me away......It's difficult to let those feelings go when they have become a part of your very soul.....a part of who you are and always will be. I am forever changed. I know now th

And It Came Down To This....
Okay, so here is what I know: My ex husband may have to file for bankruptcy. His wife CLAIMS that she may have to let her two boys stay with the grandparents that may challenge her again to another custody issue, since my ex and she can not handle their finances. Also, my ex is getting "bitched" by his command about how he should have been well prepared for a divorce, hence he should have gotten a lawyer too. Hmmmmm, I wonder where his lawyer money went to though...buttering up his wife to be and getting two vehicles that they have to pay an arm and a leg for, a brand new tahoe and truck. Okay, so once again my ex and his wifey point fingers at me as they always have since I am getting more than half of my ex's pay..."It's all the ex wife's fault for putting me in my financial problems"....okay, so my ex was making good money being stationed in Italy, and while he was still there, the divorce was finalized...and that was how I got my support as it is now. MY lawyer had gone by his

And It Just Gets Better......
Finally, I have come to the conclusion that my ex is nothing but a baby making machine and he will get so far deep in dept with having another baby on the way....I do believe that that is why his stupid blondie wife was trying to see if she can sell her birth control on ebay...lol...its just too damn funny. WOW...and they just had a baby in December too. So here I am, just waiting on my child support to get here and my ex again doesnt have the balls to tell me that I will not be getting any support for the month. So, Im calling the NE Child support Enforcement and the agents right and left were telling me that my ex has a credit to his account, when I know damn well that there is "no" credit...and my stupid ex is livin well now knowing that he doesnt have to support his two children this month. And then I hear that my ex and his family go to Atlanta, GA in their big tahoe vehicle...knowing that they are low on cash these days. It hit me today that, they were spending the child supp

And I Thought I Was Having A Rough Couple Days....
My friend was thrown in jail last night. Big story i know but its how he was thrown in jail that really ticks me off. His bail is set at $600 and i can pay 200. Another friend is paying 300 and i dont know who will cover the rest. How he was thrown in your asking, by a crazy ass wife (soon to be x-wife) that took out a restraining order on him. This was made after he threatened to kick the shit out of the guy she was having an affair with. Well, she kept bothering him, calling him obscene names, and just being a bitch. Well, being an idiot he was he went over there not really knowing what to expect. She wants to fight bring a ballbat outside swings at him, misses, he catches her gets it out of her hands. While the whole time her new lover (which is also her cousin) is inside the house just watching. Another cousin of her's walks up, we dont know if she was sleeping with him as well, he lets go of her and she picks up the bat again. Well, this time when she swings she do

And I Have Been Thinking
I have been thinking about a lot of things (all good) that has helped me become the person I am today. First of all, my friend Colonel_Deckard and renactor are just one of the best examples as to who I am. Sure, Renactor doesn't know me as well yet, so he still has quite a bit to learn about me. But Colonel_Deckard is the one who can tell you the things that make me tick. Think that is why when I need to talk about being frustrated he is always the one I go to, and he does the same for me. I have so many friends on here that it doesn't go without saying that you guys are definitely the best in the world. Today my parents are celebrating 39 years of marriage which is something I have been grateful for as one of their children. My parents basically had their marriage while my dad served in the army right out of high school, he met my Uncle who fixed my mom and dad up together. 39 years later and they are still together. Love is something that either you know you have it or you just fa

And I Wonder What This Might Be All About....
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And I Love You.
Good times, hard times. Long times, no time. She sleeps. She wakes. I promise her. I mostly beg her. Can't stand the perish the thought. Take me in, let me loose. Let's just love. Let the rest sort itself out later. A gasp? A pop? A very tired sigh. Why can't my love just make everything perfect? Why can't I just magic away the pain and fatigue of a new world. A world that should be exciting, full of passion and sweet, quiet smiles. moonrises... black feathers... live unknowns... Please love, only smiles, and soft warm kisses. Let me shower you with ecstasy and envelope you in comfort. Content. I fear my brittle heart will die after every line of worry, another tired sigh, another angry retreat from my arms... Can I do anything right? Our love... I believe in our love. I believe it can headbutt through wal

And I'm Really Bored
Guess what? Yeah, that's right. I'm really, really bored. So I want to laugh some. Let's see just how funny you are. Leave me some funny, gross, weird, sexual, whatever comments on some of my pics. I need some entertainment please.

And I Did Get My Highlights Done And Other Things That Had Gone On.
Since I had a hair appointment, I need to say that I am grateful that Bill (aka Colonel_Deckard) did call and wake me up this morning since it was apparent that I forgot to turn on my alarm (had the time set just didn't turn it on) and I guess after talking to him last night until about 2 this morning you can realize that I was tired. The relationship between Bill and I is very complex. To me he is the big brother I never had, and wish I did have him for a brother because he and I get along so well. But then again, he also knows me too well as it is. When you have known someone for over fifteen years, you learn more about them than they possibly will ever know about themselves. The same goes for us. But I know I can trust him to listen to me when there are problems. He does treat me like a sister. He understands that there is more to me than just what is on the outside. But we talked about his going to drill this weekend, and I know how it is. He didn't want to go, but he gets out

And In The End, The Love You Take
Okay, I'll admit it: I'm a little surprised that Blake didn't win. He's got a more mainstream contemporary pop sound than Jordin, which is not to say he's a better singer, just that mainstream young pop has been a winner since the music business discovered in the 1950s that teenagers were an even better music-buying audience than adults, at whom popular music had been aimed since minstrels roamed the streets of old Europe with lutes and drummers spoke to each other on the African veldt. But in the 1950s, when record players suddenly became cheap personal accessories instead of expensive pieces of furniture that families displayed in the living room, the music biz underwent this sea change where young folks started driving the bus. This wasn't all good or all bad, but it was different. Songs followed the market, of course, and soon the popular songs of the day were Chuck Berry singing "Sweet little 16 / she's got the grownup blues / tight dresses and lipstick / she's sportin' high

And I Wonder Why They Call Me Moron...
So last night I went to the local gathering place to talk over some business.. well I placed a 50,000$ bid and got a bit excited because I have a really good chance of getting the job.. so i started drinking a bit heavey and me and a friend were chattin away when 2 young hotties came up and made passes at us, so we all load up and head to the Dance Club up the road and it was packed, well I ran into a few people I knew there too and was getting even more snockered.. so the plan was at 3am it closes and we were gunna go to a my friends place for the after party / night cap... with these girls... well i wanted to take my truck so in case I got ready to split I could.. I somehow passed my friends drive way (maybe due to the large amount of tequilla, bourbon and other assorted beverages)..So I begin to turn around and there was a ditch on one side you couldnt see due to high weeds, lazy bastards didnt even bother to weedeat their ditch.. so I get out, my truck unhurt, but stuck...so I trie

And It Went Kinda Like This...
...so last night my rosie girl was about to go cook dinner, and being my usual Debinaire self, I said "so when ya gonna marry me?'; to which she quickly retorted, "how about tomorrow?". So here it is tomorrow and i'm about to marry the greatest woman in the world. she is purrrrfect for me. she knows me, the good the bad and the ugly, and she still loves me. she is an angel for sure, and i will forever love her with all my heart and soul. she is THE BEAUTY OF A TATOO'D ROSE.

And I Can't Sleep Again
There is so much on my mind right now that I can’t sleep even after more than enough sleeping pills to do the trick. It’s amazing isn’t it how when there is something on your mind that needs to be dealt with that your body will react however it wants despite all logic and reasoning. I’ve been taking stock of my life the past few days, evaluating what I think of myself and others, figuring out what exactly I want and how exactly I am going to get it. It all started with a look at my life . . . So, I am 30 years old. I am single. I have a son who is almost 13 that I have always raised on my own. I have an attitude that bothers most people. I have a wall set up around me and my life that takes a very special person to break through. I am a bigger sized girl and damn comfortable in my own skin at this or any other size. I have a past that I am not 100 % comfortable with reliving just yet; though working my way to it. I am not ashamed of nor do I regret anything in m

And I'm Back
Finally got my satellite set up, took awhile I know but the Internet access at work is not as restricted as my last place so I wasn’t in to much of a hurry. But I missed all of you on fubar and just had to get back online… Yeah.. that was a lie… I miss my porn… hahahah It’s been 2 ½ weeks and I’m getting settled in. A lot less walking than the last place, I’m in a room with 3 other people (yes that sucks) but only one other person is here now. The showers and toilets are about 20 feet away.. indoors.. W00T!!! so that is freaking awesome of course!!! The gym is 50 feet away but I still make excuses not to go.. lol The store, food and work are all really close so that’s nice, I’m the only contractor at my job so that is very nice. I have no boss! Really.. I really have no boss…. The closest thing is another tech who is an hour away by plane.. life IS good. But… hanging in there… don’t know what all to say since I’ve been gone for a bit, just hanging in there, keeping my head down

And I Fantasize...
I look across the room, meet your dark eyes and sweet smile...and I fantasize. The taste of...sweet sweat mingled together, your readiness as I lick you, our mingled juices at completion. The smell of...your skin close enough to be inhaled, spicy-sweet juices dripping down my thighs, vanilla and lust mixed together. The sight of...your perfectly proportioned body above me, our limbs entwined for mutual ecstasy, tawny forest eyes staring into green depths. The sound of...breathing rising in tandem quicker and harder, exclamations of pleasure and delight, rain on the roof coaxing changes in our rhythm. The feel of...strong fingers cupping my breasts, being pulled open as you push into me, tightening around you as we finish together. I look across the room, meet your dark eyes and sweet smile and I fantasize...

And I Saw You
Today I looked out at the world, and I saw you I watched the blushing clouds float by, and I saw you A gentle breeze is kissing the tree, and I saw you Fireplace laced with miniature embers, and I saw you Raindrops tapping out melodies, and I saw you Children playing, laughing with glee, and I saw you Leafs chasing each other as they fall, and I saw you Nature singing it’s beautiful song, and I saw you I drank up the cool night air, and as I closed my eyes I saw you. LSR 7 October 2007 1849 hours Seni Seviyorum Sinan Lori

And I'm Gonna Be A Parent
just a random event worthy of documentation. the night started with me home alone, eating pizza and playin my 360. earlier that day at work, some friends of mine said they'd be over to hang and drink some beer. my bud DUI is the first to arrive. he's got some jeager, redbull, smokes, and the newest avenge sevenfold album. we go ahead and down 2 jeager bombs and retire to the garage to smoke and jam to his CD. (i don't smoke, nor am i a "social smoker" as some douche bags excuse themselves as, i just enjoy one or two cigarrettes to add to my alcohol buzz) DUI sits on the abandoned recliner we have yet to throw to the curb for the crack heads, and i hoist myself on Kris's bike, goin back and forth every few feet. we just sit and bull shit, enjoying our alcholic buzz and tastey cancer. we go back inside, i know DUI isn't as enthused by video games as i am, but he doesn't mind watching me play, even if he did i'd still play. when i'm drunk and in a geeky mood, as i often am,

And It Keeps Getting Worse
my asshole of an ex messaged what looks like EVERYONE on my myspace list!!! IM getting messages left and right from people wanting to know what the fuck is going on! Can shit get any worse? Ok so if you are a friend of mine on myspace....please ignore any messages from tom the truth telling duck, if you feel you want to talk to him let me know!

And I Will Go (not A Poem, But A Letter)
I wish I weren't as selfish as I allow myself to be. In the moment my minds eye becomes clouded with anger and rage that I can not see the fault of noone is none other than my own. And in the end through those I have hurt, the pain pierces my self image as well. You no longer want me around regardless of my past,present or future self because they are all the same.I am sorry I have wasted your time and hurt your pride amongst other things. Mostly i am sorry that I was unjust with children, your children. I am also sorry that I mistaking thought myself a parent as I am not, I have limits nor did I or do I have the right to test those limits. I have no excuse that will be good enough, and excuses really are lies we tell ourselves to feel justified in an unjustified act. I dont blame your anger for my actions and reactions. I don't blame the children for my anger nor you. Nor do I blame your lack of love or want of me. I am my own victim and in the process I have so made you and "your" ch

And I Digress
Digressions, Impressions are lost along the way, Lessons and Directions are the reasons why we pray. Forgetting all we know and remembering all we're not, Lies are told within the words, tied up in a knot. The sand is sold and blown across the memory of our time, The disillusion, subconfusion memory in a rhyme. Fate has brought us here and now, exactly where you wanted, You believe in something so much, and then cry when you think its haunted. Stand in line and wait your time, the judging will be soon, The life you live and the path you chose will bring you to your doom.

And It Took Me How Long To Realize This?
And that's how it goes. *sips his coffee* Now, before anyone makes any assumptions or what have you, this is not a sob story, or similar to it. It's actually what I have learned, and of course, this is where I put my thoughts down. Generally, it's a disclaimer, so if anyone is thinking it's a DeGrassi Jr. High thing, it's not. *laughs* More like an amusing kind of thing. I learned something. Anycrap... Over the course of a few weeks, I had some issues I had to sort out, and this past weekend was to me, a revelation of sorts. I started to (Figuratively) connect the dots, and realized what I have gone through. It was just a matter of time, before I woke up. But that of course, explains why Sis snapped at me alot. It's wasn't to be a bitch, she was trying to get out of that timid state I was in. It also explains the mood swings, as well as the blue periods and being stumped on what to do at times. I can finally put it to rest. Or on the backburner at least. I expla

And I Am Slave.
Over the years I have heard numerous times about Goreans stating that the Master/slave relationship is "deeper" than the BDSM or D/s relationship. I would like to address this issue, not defending either side but to shed some light. All relationships start with nothing. Both parties know nothing of the other person. As you talk or witness each other in social situations, you begin to make judgements of the person. One person who has been in #DominateRadio a lot lately said "Tal" to me. I was elated to find another Gorean but actually he said he was taking a stab, but that my actions lent to the fact that he thought I would be Gorean (I took it as a compliment though I’m not sure if it was intended as such J). We assess situations and people and decide whether or not to include them further in our lives, if we have a choice in the matter, which SHOULD be the case. (Yes, some countries still have arranged marriages.) As we get to know the other person, we learn about them. This bri

And I'll Search The World Over, For My Angel In Black.
Give expression to the noble desires that lie in your heart --Gordon B. Hinckley it's been an arduous week and a half on the homefront, the particulars of which, i won't go into here, but it has landed me at a particular destination. or at least, lead me on a line of logic that has culminated into this blog that i'm posting now. the holidays are creeping up, people are becoming more and more aggressive as each day passes and each toy flies off the shelf, occupational anxieties are increasing, the weather gets colder as we dive into the isolation of winter and the divergent events that have happened to me recently, have lead me to something that i don't normally talk about for personal reasons. it's a subject that i feel gets a little to much exposure because everyone seems to be wanting or looking for it. not that i think that noone deserves it, because we all do, but that doesn't mean we have to gorge ourselves on it, which we often do. overconsumption breeds

And If I...
If I had eyes in the back of my head I would have told You that you looked good As I walked away You could've tried to trust the hand that fed You'd never been hungry But you never really... More of this or less of this Or is there any difference Or are we just holding onto the things We don't have anymore Sometimes Time doesn't heal, not not at all In or out of Love Again I doubt I wanna win you back When You got eyes like that Won't let me in Always lookin... Out

And If You Don't.... Now You Know...
Born And Rasied In BedStuy "do or die" Section of Brooklyn NYC. Now Resting In The Los Angeles Area of Cali. I'm Pretty Much A Laid Back Kind Of Guy---> Quiet, Intelligent, Multitalented, Open Minded, Creative, Adventurous and Sincere. I Prefer Listening Over Talking Most Of The Time Because You Learn More. " A wise man learns more from a fools questions than a fool learns from a wise mans answers." I Also love To Travel And New Unique Experiences.

And I Am A Downrater
gerryh just sent you a message! · ~Daisy~ just checked you out! · gerryh rated you a '1'! · gerryh just checked you out! from: gerryh date: 2008-03-01 21:16:01 subject: sorry read receipt: No replied: No block user sorry about that I am hit the wrong button I was trying to rate y'alls pics and I have been drinking since noon and it is midnight now and I accidently blocked you I am trying to fix them all now WROTE AFTER HE DOWNRATED AND BLOCKED ALL THE FU BRATZ

And I Just Keep Adding!
Yummy! As promised, I have added a new members area to the infinite fun one Adult can have online on one site. Filled with content from a well known real time Dominate and producer of fetish films that not only state extreme, but also give some fun to the play time, Dr. Kink (aka Master Leonard.) Not only can you sneak a peak to see some of his films in My membership area, I also give you a place to buy the whole film and see it from start to finish with a Video On Demand section. I have priced memberships to your liking were a 1 month is cheap but a 3 month is even cheaper! Have any films that you haven't seen? Maybe some fetishes? I will do my best to line up the camera crew and a few good models very soon to offer a rounded out feature of new video and galleries that fit your liking. You should be seeing some good CBT films, spanking and whipping films, male bondage and more in the future. Just remember, you are probably not going to see these intimate insights to these

And I Thought *i* Had Self-esteem Problems...
Hmm... So, as February closed, a certain someone told me in no uncertain terms that I should stop pursuing her affections. So, I stopped. I ceased all contact with her. She has been showing up in my "Who Viewed Me" tab every other day since then. Each time she shows up, she has her status message set to indicate how much she loves her new boyfriend, and most recently, has her primary pic set to a salute photo where she shouts him out. At first, I thought about blocking her. Yeah, in the first day or two it stung looking at anything that had to do with her: blasts, the occasional Support Lounge visit, her just being online (she's still in my Family list; I can't be arsed to remove her). She could be rubbing it in my face, or she could be doing this completely innocently (*coughbullshitcough*). Then, I realized... I'd be letting the terrorists win if I reacted at all. People do silly things like "passive harassment" when they want to show they can still push buttons a

And I Thought She Was A Friend!
http://fubar.com/user/671637# ROXY...Wow...Where do I start?...Well, She was my friend for almost 2 years and everythin' was cool but as soon as she got her VIP she changed...180...I mean now she thinks she's better then EVERYONE else who aint a VIP and she NEVER returns profile comments, gifts, picture ratings...Nothin...So, Anyway...Today she asked me to vote for her 1 and I said NO...And she snapped...I mean she called me 'Alil punk bitch, Spoiled ass bitch'...All kinds of shit....This is comin from a woman who's in her 50's-60's...I mean GROW THE FUCK UP! P.S. Becareful if you come across her.

And It's Name Is London..
There's a whole in the world that's a great black pit and the vermin of the world inhabit it... Yesterday was my birthday. I am finally 23. woo? Not much of an exciting day but over all not too bad I suppose. Mom had given me my gift(s) a while ago. Maternity jeans, nursing bra, and new tires for my car. Yesterday she also handed me some pretty smelling stuff. So far nothing from anyone else. I started getting upset at one point because my dad hadn't called me yet. No card from him- hell no email even. He did get around to calling and said he was going to go shopping after today (since today is payday.) My brother sent me a text message, and my aunt and grandmother called. Got a few texts and emails from friends- a few who I didn't expect. Also apparently today I should be getting a package from my aunt and grandmother. ug... that all sounds so greedy and materialistic doesn't it? Honestly the STUFF I couldn't care less about. I felt like most people had just forgotten my birt

And I Just Realized This..
I'm in a selfish point in my life right now. I honestly can say that I enjoy having time for me again. Not having to worry about calling a man, doing things for him, or making sure his needs are met. It's actually the first time in a long time that I have been able to focus on me. I have put so many guys needs before my own. Weird thing is I'm not terribly lonely. I thought I would be. I thought I'd be struggling with not having sex but it has been amazingly easy. I have turned a few guys down, or just walked away from the situation without giving in. I'm pretty proud of myself, as this is not who I was almost a year ago. Me, last year around this time would have gave in because that was what the guy wanted. I was always so eager to "please" and to be accepted. Now, I'm like "fuck it" either the guy likes me for who I am, or he can find some other girl to fool around with. I refuse to lower myself to have meaningless sex with just anyone. I want to have a meaningful

Andi Rocks
She been a GodMother for far too long. Lets work on this giveaway so she can get a Happy Hour! Getting a Happy Hour will help her drop a butt-load of points! So get in here and bomb her! And while you're at it go show her page some love! ☆™©CantSleepClownsWillEatMeღღ~ ☆Clown's Posse Leader☆@ fubar This bulletin was brought to you by the one & only, never duplicated, super spazzy... ♥Miss Andi♥ - I am SpAzTaStIc! *Clown's Posse*@ fubar (repost of original by '♥Miss Andi♥ - I am SpAzTaStIc! *Clown's Posse*' on '2008-05-13 13:26:11')

Andi Did It Again~
This chicky needs some luvin' She's such a cool person. I know her in real life and she's a great friend. If you don't know her yet, you really should... ☆™©CantSleepClownsWillEatMeღღ~ ☆Clown's Posse Leader☆@ fubar Once you have added, fanned, and rated her you should go bomb her in this giveaway. She's trying to get a happy hour! This pimp out bulletin was borught to you by the one & only, never duplicated, super spazzy... ♥Miss Andi♥ - I am SpAzTaStIc! *Clown's Posse*@ fubar (repost of original by '♥Miss Andi♥ - I am SpAzTaStIc! *Clown's Posse*' on '2008-05-13 20:21:19')

Andi Strikes Again!
There is a Happy Hour on the way.... Make sure on June 4th you save all your 11's for 1 pm fu-time This lovely lady is having Her 2 year anniversary here on the fu! Make sure you show her love ☆™©CantSleepClownsWillEatMeღღ~ ☆Just Me☆@ fubar and remember.... Wednesday, June 4th, 1 pm pst/4 pm est (repost of original by 'Miss Andi Owner of βûṨṪḜṞ ἯὛṁḁᾔ' on '2008-05-29 16:57:41')

And I Stood Still...
Waiting for him to come back into my arms, i cant wait to be back in his warm embrace. I miss him with everything i have and i still am here sitting and waiting for that day he tells me "baby, im coming home." But i dont know when this day can possibaly be. I will just wait, and atleast try to be patient for the day my love coems back to thee. My eyes well up and here comes the tears as i lay in my bed and my make up starts to smear...I just wish so badly you were here. I miss you more then you could ever know. I know this hurts you too. I know that you miss me and love me so much. Baby, im right here for you. I love you more then i have ever loved anyone and that does include myself. I will just take the love in my heart i have for you, save it in a jar and keep it safe on my shelf...I love you more and More, the more i dont get to see your face or feel your sweet breath on my skin. Tim, i love you. I know that you know that i do deeply so. but like i said to you before, i dont think

"...and I'm Still Hungry"
EVERYPLACE I'VE BEEN, NO ONE COULD GIVE A DAMN. I'm amazed at the reception ANTHONY BOURDAIN receives when he shows up on the doorstep, at the peir or hotel placid faced and puppy dog looking, never failing to remind the chosen host that "'''he's hungry." Mind you, the man is a CHEF. CHEF: a person who cooks food for a living. That's a synopsis of the word. Despite WEBSTER or WICCA's assumption of what he "should be doing" this is the one "chef" that never cooks. I admit he does do a number of trips under the blatant sun... heat zones visited by him could COOK anyone's brain, but then you have to be sober enough to know it. What am I getting at? ON THE COLLEGE CAMPUS i was a lowly knowledge seeking independent and energetic student/single mother who had to be extremely creative the first month of my first semester (I started in January after returning from a late notice mandatory MILITARY TDY school stint which began August 21... after I applied to start college courses September 1) wi

And I Don't Give A Damn
how can a single note, or word change so much in a person's life? are we really that easy to control? or are we just that connected to our emotions more so than most would like to admit? i spend a lot of time talking about things that don't really matter. for the most part. but really i've just been having a hard time writing anything i find important enough to share with strangers online. as i've stated on numerous occassions i'm extremely shy and when it comes to my writing i'm my own harshest critic. i'm getting better about just writing, but fuck is it still hard sharing it with other people. basicaly this blog is more for me. i'm using it to rebuild confidence in my writing again. and it's slowly working. now will i put up something of great importance on here? i'm sure, but i don't see that happening anytime soon. so until then bare with me when i put up stupid pointless drival.

And It Begins.....
well I had my first radiation treatment today. It wasn't bad...but it is the first one. I have 6 1/2 weeks to go...wish me luck~ I am off and on here so catch me when you can if you want to chat.... ~~smooches~~

And I'm Tangled Up In You...
We buried an older gentlemen the other day. Years before, his wife had passed from Cancer. The day of the service, his daughter arrived with a beautiful, blue, silk dress. It was the dress she wore for their 50th Wedding Anniversary. In his will, he stated he wanted the dress rolled up and placed under his pillow with him in his casket. Even in death... That's love. -REL

And In That Moment I Felt Infinite
This piece is great, I couldn't help but be in thought of myself and more importantly of others while I watched. What an awesome project this must have been to be a part of. How awesome was it that they put those lil robot toys in there and how they grouped them. It worked perfect with the message. And In That Moment, I Felt Infinite from Karen Abad loves Dinosaurs. on Vimeo. -- The Producer says, “Yet it is in this loneliness that the deepest activities begin. It is here that you discover act without motion, labor that is profound repose, vision in obscurity, and, beyond all desire, a fulfillment whose limits extend to infinity. I suppose what makes me most glad is that we all recognize each other in this metaphysical space of silence and happening, and get some sense, for a moment, that we are full of paradise without knowing it.” – Thomas Merton This project was inspired by Patrick Moberg’s MellowTron: stuffedrobot.com/images/public/regular/b233b0cac59564623

And Im Back With Another One!
WHY DO WE WORK SO HARD TO GET PPL TO TAKE THEIR WALLS DOWN, ONLY TO TOSS THEM TO THE SIDE? I MEAN IF YOU REALLY DONT WANT TO SEE WHATS BEHIND THEM WHY BOTHER? YOU FIGHT SO HARD TO BE THE PERSON THEY WANT YOU TO BE AND YOU FORGET ABOUT YOU. WHEN YOU START TO FORGET YOU, YOU ONLY END UP HURTING YOURSELF JUST AS MUCH AS THEY HURT YOU. THE HURT WE ENDURE WE HOLD SO CLOSE TO US, AND REMEMBER IT ALWAYS. YET WE FIGHT ON FOR ANOTHER DAY. WE BUILD OUR WALLS FOR REASONS, NOT TO LET THE HURT HAPPEN AGAIN. WE HIDE BEHIND THEM THEY BECOME PART OF WHO WE ARE. YET YOU CAN ALWAYS TELL A PERSON WHO HAS BEEN HURT BY THE LOOK IN THEIR EYES. AND YET WE FIGHT TO BREAK THEM DOWN, WE ARE CURIOUS WE WANT TO SEE WHAT LIES BEHIND THEM. WHAT IS IT THEY ARE HIDING FROM? YET DO WE GO INTO THIS VENTURE WITH AN OPEN MIND, NOT TO BE AFRAID OF WHAT IS BEHIND THEM? NO WE GO IN FEET FIRST AND PRAY WE LAND STANDING. AND WHEN WE GET THERE, WHAT DO WE DO......WE RUN. THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN SHOULD JUST BE LEFT ALONE IF YOU

And I'm The Jerk?!?!?!
Ok so I'm over at the hh persons pics rating and hear my sb, thinking its my BEAUTIFUL WIFE!!!, i look up at it to see.... texascount...: hello are you single? do you like to talk on the phone? do you have yahoo messenger? what's your id? can you please answer all 4 of my questions please? so i reply..... ->texascount...: if You want an aswer to all these questions go read my about me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! alls he ahs to do is look in my staus and my about me to know the answers, hefck he never even checked me out or did F/R/A.... and his reply to mine... texascount...: if i want to ask questions then i'll ask them you jerk How, pray tell am i the jerk????? I AM SO TIRED OF THE RUDE MEN AND THE STUFF THEY PUT IN MY SB!!!! ANY ONE ELSE GETTING LIL TIRED OF THE STUPID SHIT MEN SAY?!?!?!

And I Think To Myself...
93-year-old froze to death, owed big utility bill BAY CITY, Mich. – A 93-year-old man froze to death inside his home just days after the municipal power company restricted his use of electricity because of unpaid bills, officials said. Schur owed Bay City Electric Light & Power more than $1,000 in unpaid electric bills, Bay City Manager Robert Belleman told The Associated Press on Monday. Thain says hid nothing from BofA NEW YORK (Reuters) – Former Merrill Lynch Chief Executive John Thain defended the acquisition of the brokerage by Bank of America Corp (BAC.N) and said the bank knew of Merrill's losses and bonuses before the merger closed. In a memo to Merrill employees, Thain also said he plans to reimburse Bank of America for $1.2 million spent to renovate his office a year ago, including $35,115 reportedly spent on commode and $1,405 reportedly paid for a trash can. He called the expenses "a mistake in the light of the world we live in today."

And Ignorance Comes In All Forms!!
Recently, it comes more and more clearer how lazy we in this country have become and it is seen here 24/7 on this site. I'm not just talking about those that make it a point to bouncer you every other rate but those lame and lazy types that won't re-rate...I have perfect examples of those. I don't say rate every picture, but give me the same time and respect i've shown you...if I give 25 rates why can't they?? See I made a comparison earlier to reflect how people get treated and said listen it's like showing consideration to someone that served their country and those at home wouldn't do the same for them....well the reply was this there is no comparison between the two and was called a douchebag.. That was nice see this hmmm individual if she would of taken the time rate any of mine would of seen I spent the time doing that job and will to the day I do face the reality of the pain or suffering it caused by giving a decade of my life to her freedom. Do those that serve get tr

And I Think We Are Gonna Go Again Next Weekend.
I went to the Renaissance fair on Saturday. I went with Tracy and we met up with 3 other people later. I had a 5 hour energy shot before we went in and then almost immediately got a glass of wine. Then another. Then another. The last two were doubles. We met up with Patty and I got my palm read. The palm reader was an old lady with gray hair and and huge boobs that kinda spilled over her gut. She looked liked she was really over Renaissance fairs. She told me some random stuff. Something about if I want to have a kid I am probably gonna have it out of wedlock. There will be A big love affair but not for a while. I will be traveling a lot. Some other stuff. I have had a palm reading before and she pretty much said the same stuff. Well except for the getting knocked up and going on the lamb thing. After that I blacked out. I think the energy drink plus cheap fair wine caused some kind of crazy reaction. I kinda remember walking around. I think I might have had a burger. The next d

And Internet Dating
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And I Love Him...
Its the kind of love that happens only in fairytales. The kind of love you never thought could ever be felt by any human nor spirit. The kind of Love which words cannot explain... An overwhelming sensation that rocks you with such energy and such enthusiasm...unrecognizable. The only emotion you can use to explain it with are tears of happiness and pure joy. The kind of love, where if I had the choice between winning the lottery or being cradeled in his arms, Id gladly go to his arms. I'd stay forever. The kind of love that can split rivers and move mountains with the wave of a hand or a kick of a foot. Such words cant be explained...it goes so much deeper than I have mentioned... And I love Him.

And I Love Her
AND I LOVE HER She is my breath of spring, my shade in the summer heat. And I love her. She is the scent of jasmine in the air, the comfort of a soft rain, the wonder of a star-filled sky, and I love her. She is the sun in my sky, the breeze on my cheeks, the sound of birds in the air. And I love her. She caresses my senses with the touch of love, the wonder of peace, the joy of pure contentment. To the world, she is simply a person. To this person, she is simply his world. And I love her… copyright jas 2007

And If
You are my sunshine, My light at the beginning of everyday. You are my longing breath, The exhale I so deeply crave. You are the moon in my sky, The shining in my vacant darkness. You are the softness in a whisper, That keeps harshness at a distance. You are my compass at sea, Whenever I am lost, you are my North. My body reaches for your touch, You are my feeling and emotion. If a flower was to be, You would be the fragrance. If a clown was to laugh, You would be the smile. If a bird was to sing, You would be that song. And if a sunset could blossom, You would be the vibrant color. You are my longing day, That keeps me from persisting night. You are my sweet in chocolate, That melts in my mouth and not in my hands. And my trust in you is strong, Like the ancient mountains that still stand. The stars in the sky belong to you, In the mere blackness you are radiant light. You are the joy at tearfall, Where every moment counts. You are my lake of calmness

And In Between...
On a clear day I look to the west And see the beauty of a sunrise A new day dawning On a clear day I look to the east And see the beauty of a sunset The pink purple of a day gone by But what about in between Do we notice the warmth of the sun Falling in the day upon our face The gentleness of it all? Do we notice the coolness The stillness of the night And the beauty of the stars in the sky? Life's little blessings There to be enjoyed. Are you taking advantage of it?

And Im Crazy?!!
All i can say is that when you think youre ahead youre really not. so im told after my one little fuck up that i need to see a threapist and all kinds of shit. i mean hell i knew i was nucking futs but i dont need to pay 600 and hour to have some one tell me about that.

And I Want You To Know
I know that you know that I adore you. There is no one else like you. I want to know if you know how much I appreciate you.I know that I don't deserve it,but there was a spot in my heart and I reserved it.For that place you took, but that is okay. but I slowly learnTo take it easy and wait for you, so i hope your heart I patiently earn. Hey,I really respect the fact that you respect me. I admire your true integrity,complex mentality,distinguised personality,Everything about you that compliments our similarity.If mishaps should occur and I happen to die and there is indeed another life, I pray that I come back with more appreciation, andmore joy for you, and hopefully as your hero.

And I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For.
Hi,I saw your pic and would love to know what are you looking for here. I got this in a private message yesterday. Of course it's from someone no higher than grasshopper. Of course they live in Florida. And when I went to their page, I found they only had one picture and their friends list consisted mostly of women from Florida and the usual points whores. They didn't send the question with a drink or a rose or a teddy bear. They didn't rate all my pictures and leave a bunch of comments. Very unusual. He is obviously new here. This isn't how it works Mr. Grasshopper. You're doing it all wrong Mr. One pic. guy. You'll never get any where with this sort of thing. I just thought I should let you know that. You have to first rate all my stuff and leave comments about how pretty I am and how my dog is just the cutest. You have to read all the captions and the come up with clever responses. And when you come across the "please stare at my boobs" picture you have to say, "can do" or some

And It's Not So Easy...
there used to be a point in thisbut i can't seem to remember what it wasor where it went, in the nightin all this clingy darkness it leftand i'm left with the right there used to be a time, a daywhen everything worked right and well and looked kind of prettyin an odd sort of perverse kind of waybut the face has been torn offthe facade left in shambles, a broken wallof mortar and the last few bricks it was left to burn, smouldering and sparkingready to light again, at the right timewhere were you?where did you go?said you'd always stick aroundbut you're nowhere to be foundit's kind of funnyhow i could believe your talesjust the samelike all the resttried not to compareto look on the side of hopebut i've given up on hopei wish i still had your supposed idealismi wish i still had your beautiful hand to holdi wish i still had something more than this flaming shit, the bricks lost in the smokei thought i could have been something morei wish i could have been something moremore to you, more

And I Had A Good Comment.
So I'm MuMMing and all that stuff. I left Goober a nice comment and then went to another one. Since I don't feel like doing a lot of screen caps for it, enjoy my copy paste. The MuMM: "to everyone that isnt on my friends list.....you are all either stupied bitchs or stupied asshole you choose" Here are a few commments that made me giggle: "spellcheck is your friend, it's not "stupied", it's "stupid", fucking moron" "Irony.It's what's for breakfast." "The fuck is 'stupied'?Pot, meet Kettle." Then what I WAS going to say, but the MuMM got deleted before I could actually post it. "lmao. You're spelling and lack of any other form of intelligence is why you aren't on my friends list. ;)" Thought I'd share.

And It's Only The 12th
I thought tomorrow was suppose to be the bad luck day. I've been awake for about an hour and I've already burnt my breakfast, spilled coffee, almost fell down stairs, and almost managed to get my kid hit by a car. =/ Plus I have to work with my possibly drug induced boss today...joy! Time to enjoy my "breakfast". Cake and coffee.

....and It Begins
so most of you start your holiday season with thanksgiving...well not this family...our holdiday season begins the day before on what we call "black wednesday" lol i been delivering newspapers since 2000 and for the last 8 years the day before thanksgiving has been the nightmare from hell!!! lol a paper to every home and business in branch county...18,000 in all...and 1200 of them mine! ugh!!! filled with xmas ads for thanksgiving and the day after (black friday) so this year...all in all it went well...except that i also added a shoppers route to my job list which was another 290 papers that christa and i did on tues nite...and only took 2 hrs which i was very pleasantly surprised about! christa and i go to the office yesterday about 830 or so and were out the door by 11 am which sucked cuz that was an hour later than last year...but the day went well...we had a lot of laughs...picked up Jr after school and he pitched in to deliver when my hands gave out and christa had to finish

And I Miss You By Sade
Step off the train, walking down your street again Passed your door, but you don't live there anymore It's years since you've been there, and now you've disappeared somewhere To outta space, you've found some better place (chorus): And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain And I miss you, oh, like the deserts miss the rain Could you be dead? You always were two steps ahead And eveyrone, would walk behind where you would run I look up at your house, I can almost hear you shout down to me, where I always used to be (chorus): And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain Back on the train, I ask why did i come again? Can I confess? I've been hanging around your address Years have proved, to offer nothing since you've moved Now you're gone, I can't move on (chorus): And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain And I miss you, yeah, like the deserts miss the rain, i miss you I step off the train, I'm walking down

And I Thought Pa Was Wierd...
So yeah, I used to live in Beaver PA, which is right down from - you guessed it, Big Beaver, where they run the ad in the paper every sunday "exotic dancers wanted, all shapes and sizes accepted, apply at Big Beaver Plaza" The airport is in moon, everyone knows about Blue Balls and Intercourse and I've even been through Eighty-four, Mars and Slippery Rock... but WTF there's a Ware, Mass. Where do you live? Ware. Ummm, that's what I asked, where? Yes, Ware. The place where you live? What's it called? Ware *shoots self* Enjoy... Alabama Aimwell Bobo Burnt Corn Eclectic Intercourse Muck City Alaska Chicken Deadhorse Eek Lefthand Bay Nightmute Unalaska Arizona Bagdad Boneyard Bootlegger Crossing Bumble Bee Carefree Chloride Floss Goobertown Goodyear Many Farms Nothing Show Low Strong Surprise Three Forks Tuba City Two Guns Why Winkleman Arkansas Bald Knob Beaver Biggers Blue Eye Experiment Fannie Fifty-Six Flippin Gassville Greasy Corner Grubbs Hasty Hooker M

And I'm Wrong?
Ok so this is just pretty much a CYA blog, nothing of real value besides showing my former hotties that I care about that I do not shit talk them. This is FUBAR it's not real life and it's something apparently that is confusing for others. I was tired of the bullshit and drama. And this is how it was ended.... I have taken out a certain name in here only cause she had nothing to do it with she was just got mixed up in it. To the hotties ~ I love you girls, you know who you are. I'm here for yall if you need me! Thanks for everything! XOXO HOTTIE LOVE!!! ( oh fyi my convo with the other party involved is a lil mixed up in here. lol but work with me. I copied and pasted ~ obviously the copy and paste didnt want to work the way i wanted it to work ) Firechief Chief: I meant what I wrote Ok peace promiseFirechief Chief: Hey going to offer u due to all the great work u have done and as close as u and I were to come back no ? before I remove your mods we love u and so do the gi

And In The End We Learn We Chose What We See As Real
Time's runnin' out and I have been betrayed Gotta cast my stone into the lake (it didn't work, I didn't feel it sink in) That's all it takes my son then you are safe When the end comes, everything's okay (we take it back, you take it away) Take my skin, we're diving in It doesn't make a difference if I sink or swim Theres a line drawn thin or so they tell me I'll never know the difference if we..sink or swim! Is it real, the choices that we make (is it real) The smiles that we fake (is it real) I know it hurts but is it real The choices that we make The smiles that we fake for my own sake I know it hurts but is it... I can't help feelin' like I've been betrayed Shoulda cast that stone into the lake (stone into the lake) Chased in the wrong direction, led astray And I know you don't believe a single word you say (I can't believe that you can) Take my skin, we're diving in (we're diving in) It doesn't make a difference if I sink or swim Theres a line drawn thin or so they tell me I'l

And I Wanted More...
I woke up this morning hot and wet.. Figures get fucked crazy last night and I want more. Its not really just the more that i want, I want bigger and better. For christ sake Im an american we always want it bigger and better! I want a big cock... Not huge mind you but the pride of the town might be nice... Something big hard and juicy that i can suck on and he can take... this time I want him to fuck me while he takes some mans monster and I WANT to get fucked out of my pretty little goard by both of them. I want to be so filled up with cock and cum that i cant walk sit or think for at least a week I mean honestly is that alot to ask? So the hunt is back on for something, anything that could qualify! But today thats not all I will be looking for, i am also going to try and find a woman to help me in fucking him, a nice submissive woman who will lay down and be petted and licked, sucked nibbled and fucked, I want that too. I was wondering if I could do them both... how much time is l

And It Makes Three
It's just a blade, just a blade dragging across the skin and sinking in, bringing up the liquid of life letting it run down and pool in shallow mirrors of disillusionment. Just a gasp, a rasping, heightened catch of air driving through the throat and bumping along the lungs to heave in and out, head tilted back to let eyes roll up and over. Fingers clutching, reaching, grasping for something to hold onto, anything to let the electric feeling that spread from stomach to limbs to quickly moving fingertips escape, to share the blissful feelings moving through nerves so wound the world felt like it would explode. And release came and the tide of overwhelming feeling, raw, unadulterated feelings tingled away from the skin sinking back down into muscles, tissue and bones, all melting gently after the backlash of the flooding feeling. And it was just a knife, a simple silver flash of light and steel, magnified through the eyes of the obliging prey, fingers gripping the hilt of the hunter'

And I Will Make Love With You
I want to make love to you and feel you inside of my inner-nessI want to be so good to you, I want to be your bestI want to feel you inside me morning, noon AND nightI want to kiss and caress every part of you just- rightAnd I will make love with you….When I make love WITH you…You will be my king and I’ll be in love with youI’ll be like your genie in a bottle making your wishes come trueYou’ll want me in your life as your wife and as your queen ‘Cause I’ll be giving you things that you could never dreamAnd I won’t just be your friend and lover-I’m your partner in crime And for you, for you I would give my last dimeAnd I will make love with you….I will hold you and lend my shoulder when you need to cryAnd every one of our little ‘secrets’ baby, I’ll keep until I dieWhen we touch…. your heart will race out of controlBoo I want you to want ME until you’re 99 years oldAnd every night before you la

And In Blessed Bemusement.
I was starch once. Molded, aptitudious, but still bewildered. Starch. Moxicombed, meddled, metitosized. Yes, it's punny. Obviously. Oh crap. And then we bemuse and bewilder. Ontitosent. It's a line, divine. Omnitosent. Beville. To stop or ... wait. Oh yeah. They say and they don't, or what. And. Yeah. Well that was sensicle. Whimsicle. Popsicle. Lunch! No, I am not dietting. It's not a haiku either. Jesus. A flair a toast. An omniroast. A popsifreeze. To better please. To antiwrite. To behold unsmited. It's perturbed. Bewildermerved. In preparation. Behisteration. Literality. Mistermeanor. Blistremenous. Ness. Eeeee... Proverbialitism! Egalitarianism! Coin! Flip Undo! Copy, paste! Shit! Can I... NOOOO!!! Mostmoximer. Ooohhh... Polimoxy. Yeah, haha. DAMNIT! They said not to get mad. Rape! D: Oh, chhh-tsss. Erh-eh-erheh. Hi Alex. IT'S HIS BLOG POST. YEAH, DON'T WRITE IN BLOG POSTS. IT'S UNWARRENTED. YELLING. HI. Capsl

And Im Hoping A Couple
Diana Mathesons 92nd minute, stoppage time goal led Canada to a 1-0, bronze medal victory over France in womens soccer at the London 2012 Olympic Games. Bernard Pierce Jersey . This is Canadas first medal in a traditional summer team sport since picking up a silver medal in basketball at the Berlin 1936 Games. As time was set to expire in the second half, Canadian midfielder Sophie Schmidt broke in on goal and fired a shot that was deflected away by a French defender. Following up on the play, Matheson found the loose ball in the box and fired it into an open net to earn Canada the victory. "It feels amazing, we felt as a group that we were going to earn this and we did in the last minute," said Matheson. "Our goal coming in was to be on the podium and was had the perfect opportunity to do that, that is what we were focused on." She also feels this victory could be big for the future of soccer in the country. "It means so much to us, we came in wanting to leave a legacy for Canadian so

And Im Excited About What Theyve Been Doing
SAN DIEGO -- The San Diego Chargers will give several running backs a chance to replace last seasons leading rusher, Ryan Mathews, who had surgery Friday on his broken collarbone and is expected to miss four to six weeks. "I like the guys we have here, and Im excited about what theyve been doing," coach Norv Turner said. Mathews was injured on his first carry of the preseason in the first quarter of the Chargers game against the Green Bay Packers on Thursday night and did not return. Mathews led the Chargers with 1,091 yards rushing and a 4.9-yard average last season, earning him a trip to the Pro Bowl. Entering training camp last month, Turner said Mathews was in the best shape of his career and should pile up bigger carry and scoring numbers this year because hed get additional snaps near the goal line. "That play could have happened on his 360th carry or his first carry," Turner said. "Ryanll come back healthy. Hes on his way to having a great season. I dont think this w

And I Was Lost For Words In Your Arms
I was lost for words in your arms And I was lost for words in your arms Attempting to make sense of my aching heart If I could be just everything and everyone to you This life would just be easy Not enough time for all that I want for you Not enough time for every kiss And every touch and all the nights I want to be in you We will make time stop and listen for our sighs Make time stop in our fight against the end Making love we are immortal We are the last two left on earth And I was lost for words in your arms

And Just When I Thought It Couldnt Get Worse
it does... I dont get it. There is apparently something very wrong with me that I just dont see but he does. I graduate in 6 months. I will have an amazing career. Im a pretty nice person. I dont bring drama. I have no kids. Im honest to a fault...and ive been told im kinda cute.. but still he hurts me. I dont get it. I loved him so much. this isnt the first time hes hurt me. but I still came back because I loved him... and I guess I thought that he loved me too.. or at least gave a damn about me. I needed him this weekend...one of the few times EVER.. and he was nowhere to be found. I got a phone call after he avoided me for several days.. I just assumed he was busy with work.. never in a MILLION years did i see this coming. I cant even begin to comprehend it.. it doesnt make sense... I didnt even hear it from him.. I give up.. I just wanted him to love me. I didnt think I was asking that much. I would have done anything for him.. but apparently it wasnt good enough.

And Just When You Think Life Can't Get Ne Worst
well fuck just when i thought my life couldn't get ne worst and thought that it might be getting better someone came along and yet again knocked my dick in the dirt and well i am really getting fucking tired of this shit cause well i was in formed lastnight by my roommate that i have 2 weeks to find a new place to live and well now i have no fucking clue what in the hell i am going to do cause what friends i have left have no way to help me out for 1 and for 2 live to far away for me to get to and i know there is no way with thing the way they are right now that my family will help me out besides i don't know if i could really deal with that again cause there is alot that gose in with that and i already have enough stress from trying to figur out what i am going to do and then dealing with my roommates yelling at there kid every 5 sec cause he is a little pain in the ass that don't listin and dose some of the strangest fucking things i have ever seen but in away i knida understand wh

And Just Like That You Were Gone
with dust in the lights of your eyes, you left one waxy photograph; a melting memory in my hands. clocks were numb as emptiness, and time meant nothing as raindrops crouched on my skin. the whole world sighed in silence, stopping to wonder if you looked back over your shoulder would you finally see we love you?

...and Justice For All?
Ok, in most things I am the cynic. However, sometimes, my husband is the King of cynicism. On the issue of justice, I guess he reigns supreme as cynic so I thought Id ask "net land" for opinions other than ours When it comes to "justice", do you think there is any? Do you believe there is justice in the world? Is justice a thing of the past, a fanciful word whos implication is from a bygone era or best left in daydreams? If you are wronged, do you expect to get justice? Does it shock you when/if justice eludes? Do you actually get justice? Have you? If so, when? Do you get justice in court or are you the one who walks out feeling more wronged than when you entered the building? If you get duped on eBay, do you contact support and actuall get justice or do you just have to bend over and take it up the ass? When you stand in line while ignored for 20 min, does the person who just walked in get tended to first or do you get justice? What's your take on "justice" in todays world?

And Just When I Thought It Couldn't Get Worse......
The commitment phobe of a guy that I'm talking to decides today that he needs space again. Like I was crowding him, or forcing him to commit to me for the rest of his life. I went to his house to hang out on Mon. Called him when I got off work on Tues. like he told me to and he didn't answer or call back. I tried to call again on Wed to no avail. When I sent him a text today (Thurs) he tells me that I need to chill. WTF...over Can someone tell me how 4 phone calls and 3 text msgs in 3 days equates to me getting attached to someone who is just supposed to be P.O.A. in the first place? Come on Duckman you know the rest of the details, yes it's the same guy I told you about last month, enlighten me. Can someone clarify this for me 'cause I'm confused. I really am about to be done with guys.

And Just When You Thought I Lost Your Attention...
Well it seems that I have told myself i would write a new blog today before i catch my next ciggerette outside. Not to sure anymore if anything I'm writing is coherent enough to even be taken as anything; or if im yet again just rammbeling away with a point that stretches over more points then most veteran porn stars. Being back on the market after being taken for a little over 3 years should be more of a welcome to the freedom im experiencing... but i seem to just fall back and forget what all i really can and should do. Most of me says wait and dwell... sit and see... pace and absorb the surounding... but why??? I don't want to... I never have... and i sure as fuck hate thinking like that. Could it be just in the nature of acting? Acting on bullshit instead of imbeded impulse from previous experiences. It's as if I'm the mouse latched to the electrified piece of cheese... being shocked over and over again. Starving for the substanance and not caring about the consequence seems to be

And Just Like That, He Is Gone...
Well, David left on Friday. I am burnt to a crisp on my shoulders and back and chest. My friend Lindsey was there with me saying good bye to David. We have TONS of pictures thanks to her. The reality of this deployment hasn't set in yet because some of our friends are staying with me until transportation can get their household goods. I had a great wake up call this morning. It was from Kuwait. David got in early this morning my time. It was a short call, but it was great to hear his voice. Anyhow, I am off to shower and change then off to the movies to keep my mind occupied. If you want to see pictures, message me and I will show you.

And Justice For All
For a while I found myself in a Calvinist church. Calvinists believe that everybody deserves to be punished by God so therefore every good thing that happens to you is God's mercy. There is some truth to that but it seems to me that there is something wrong with Calvinism. Because they leave out justice. According to the Calvinists nobody really deserves justice. I can't help but feel there is something flawed about that kind of thinking. My faith in God tells me that God is a God of justice. We must have justice. Maybe people don't really think about justice until they are on the receiving end of injustice. That's what started the United States. Injustice drove people to seek a place, or try to create a place, where there is "liberty and justice for all." Without justice, people wither. There has to be hope that wrongs will be righted, that punishment will be meted. Does everybody always get justice? Obviously not. But its something that people deeply ye

And Just Leave Me The Hell Alone
Stop! Start listening! Shut the hell up and read my lips! Just leave me the hell alone! Stop telling me what to do! I'll live my life the way I want to, I think and I feel the way it damn pleases me!!! Let me drown in despair, within the very dark corners of my soul! It doesn't matter what you want! It's my life to live it or leave it, It's none of your damned business! Keep away from my sorrow, From my anger and rage go astray. I don't want anyone around! You're not to do a thing about me For that is simply nothing you can do. That is nothing you can say to make me smile, No joke, no word or sentence will keep me From feeling that I could never be more lonely. So just stop! Just stop to listen Because nothing more is there to do. Listen to the pain that runs within my empty heart and veins, To the hurting that causes my confused mind to hurt. Stop trying to show me your way For it is not mine to run it. My feet walk only the path my mind tells

And Life Just Sucks Alittle More
I just got back from the doctor! To be informed that i can not got back to work for another 2 weeks. Yes i will get paid from workmen comp. But wonder when i will recieve that check! So YEAH NO WORK but no money to do anything!! lol I have a brace i have to wear all day but sleeping and take prednisone (which can cause insomnia!) Oh yeah more sleep i might lose!! lol oh well on a bright note more time with my son while there is no school! One day I hope that life gets better!! SOON LOL

And Lastly
Wednesday, February 07, 2007 Chain letters Hello, my name is Cliff and I suffer from the guilt of not forwarding 50 billion fucking chain letters sent to me by people who actually believe that if you send them on, a poor 6-year-old girl in Arkansas with a breast on her forehead will be able to raise enough money to have it removed before her redneck parents sell her to a traveling freak show. Do you honestly believe that Bill Gates is going to give you, and everyone to whom you send "his" email, $1000? How stupid are we? Ooooh, looky here! If I scroll down this page and make a wish, I'll get laid by a model I just happen to run into the next day!" What a bunch of bullshit. Maybe the evil chain letter leprechauns will come into my house and sodomize me in my sleep for not continuing a chain letter that was started by Peter in 5 AD and brought to this country by midget pilgrims on the Mayflower. Fuck 'em. If you're going to forward something, at least send me som

And Life Gets Better, Or Is Worse
To my friends and family here on CT I must apologize. At the moment my life is flopping on the deck life a fish fighting for a breath of air. My girlfriend is away in basic training and it is driving me nuts. I come on long enough to read a few messages, but mostly I have just been lying in my bed thing of the woman I miss so madly. To my friends in contests past I am sorry I could not help you and pray for you forgiveness. Mostly right now I need some friends to help me through this. My faith value is pretty damned low at the moment.

18 And Life - Skid Row
Ricky was a young boy, He had a heart of stone. Lived 9 to 5 and worked his fingers to the bone. Just barely got out of school, came from the edge of town. Fought like a switchblade so no one could take him down. He had no money, oooh no good at home. He walked the streets a soldier and he fought the world alone And now it's 18 and life You got it 18 and life you know Your crime is time and it's 18 and life to go Tequila in his heartbeat, His veins burned gasoline. It kept his motor running but it never kept him clean. They say he loved adventure, "Ricky's the wild one." He married trouble and had a courtship with a gun. Bang Bang Shoot 'em up, The party never ends. You can't think of dying when the bottle's your best friend And now it's [chorus] "Accidents will happen" they all heard Ricky say He fired his six-shot to the wind - that child blew a child away. [chorus]

And Life Goes On.....
Ok so um yeah...take that last blog light it on fire and blow the ashes straight the fuck away....woopdeefuckindoo huh? Oh well life is peachy anyway other than the fact that my wisdom teeth are straight kickin my ass. I gots good friends to heal a broken heart....friends who every1 swears to God Imma hook up with but wutever right? My heart isn't really broken not really I went thru too much shit to even give a fuck at the end I went numb sumwhere in it all. I feel nothing for any1. I love my friends as friends and thats it I love my family cuz we share the same blood and thats it and I love my daughter cuz shes my world....tada there ya have it. Everything and every1 else can kiss my fat white ass for all I care. I know wut I gotta do so so I'm doin it...Y give a flyin fuck about people who don't give a flyin fuck about u? And y deal with the shit that spews out of people's mouths when u know that they have no clue about wuts really goin on. I know who all is true to me and who isn't

And Life Goes On
What do you do when lonelyness hits you and you realize that you have no one? For months,I've waited and wanted to hear those three litle words that I never hear anymore. I've had my share of relationships, but nothing that lasts long enough to get really serious. Love seems to be somewhat out of my reach but that's not what hurts. What hurts is the fact that life feels more empty without someone special. I guess my time will come, but the wait just seems long and lonely.

And Life Just Keeps Pissing On Me.
O.k. Last time I told you basically what was going on with my wife, obviously I didn't tell you everything, but there are some things that don't need to be said. Well, today my job decided to bite me in the ass. I've been working at Discount Tire for six years as an assistant manager. I work fifty hours a week on a salary. I though things were going pretty good even with all the crap that was going on at home. Apparently I was wrong. It seems that i wasn't leaving my personal life at home. I guess everyone could see this but me. I was told that if I couldn't keep my personal life from affecting my work, that I would only be hurting the company. I understand this. So to me the options that I could see were to, one, try to tough it out and keep going. I knew that I wouldn't be able to do this, the hurt I feel isn't something I can hide like most of the things that happen to me. And that being the case, they would have to let me go for poor performance. Option two was to ta

And Like A Smack Of Spite They Threw Me Down The Stairs
I'm tired. I'm tired of people telling me to let things go. I'm tired of people telling me that to err is human. I'm tired of people telling me that sometimes we are poor judges of character. I'm tired of people telling me that sometimes the people we think we know really are strangers. I'm tired of people telling me I need to chill out. I'm tired of people telling me to just walk away from it. I'm tired of people telling me that it's going to be ok. I'm tired of people telling me that it's no big deal. I'm tired of people telling me I'll get over it. I'm tired of people telling me I'm the better person. I'm tired of people telling me the other person is losing out. I'm tired of people telling me all the things they're telling me. Therefore... I'm telling people telling me these things "Thank you...now piss off."

And Lust Is Wedded To Woe...
Actions that wreak of disregard and self-satisfaction yield a blindness. You see nothing. Elated in a phantom court and donning a crown of royalty, you think yourself an object of abject desire. All must grovel, bow, and hunger at your likeness for these mortals must either lust and harken after you or remain caught in the pangs and throes of evny, jealousy, and resentment. And from what spring hath the proclamations of immodest and haughty hubris sprung? Those whom would lust after you boast only of ignorance and desperation. In truth, in eternity, and in all ways, you disgust me. Your lies spew forth as water from the falls. You know not loyalty, nor honor, nor candor. Remarkable as it may be, self-loathing is here even obscured. Upon you I would not waste my spit and as concious now dictates you are unworthy of even my resentment. - Mordrid 8/30/07

2007.. And Looking Ahead
I'm determined to make 2008 a positive year. 2007 was pretty crappy. I think with 2007 I started off on such a low after Carrie's games that I just never got back on my feet. I felt lost from the beginning.. lost and confused. The trouble was that I continued the trend throughout the year. I was distracted from work and from life itself. Towards the end I found a best friend, one that was a real life best friend, I thought. How that story ends is something yet to be seen. While there were so many failures in 2007, adversity makes a person grow stronger if they face it and learn from it. So what can I change in 2008? Well at times I think being more cautious in trusting people would be a start, I don't think it will happen. That's just who I am.. I believe in people. And I forgive. But maybe what I can do is take those things that happen, deal with them better and then put them aside. I worry too much about fixing things. But one cannot fix things when it takes 2 to fix

And Last But Not Least.....
TECH SUPPORT: "O.K. Bob, let's press the control and escape keys at the same time. That brings up a task list in the middle of the screen. Now type the letter "P" to bring up the Program Manager." CUSTOMER: "I don't have a 'P'". TECH SUPPORT: "On your keyboard, Bob." CUSTOMER: "What do you mean?" TECH SUPPORT: " 'P' on your keyboard, Bob." CUSTOMER: "I'm not going to do that!"

And Ladies And Gentlemen.........
It only gets Better~!!!!!!...NOT!...so here i sit...in the library area of Lakeland regional medical center...ive been here now for two days, im bored to death , i have no answers and im scared out of my wits...Long story short...oh wait...there is no way to make this short...WELL FUCK ME RUNINING ....here goes...well as you know im a female so i tend to get a menstrual cycle...well i got it over two weeks ago...and it decided it wanted to stay instead of going on its merry little fucking way...the last two days before i made a trip to the er concerning it...it was so heavy i was border line hemorraghing ...so they prescribe a "hormone"...actually it was birth control...thats kinda comical considering im unable to have children...and never have been able to...i was kinda giggling...So they send me home i take my pills and wake monday morning with a very large cramp in my calf...so i ignore it LMAO...wait...u must understand...with diabetes muscle cramps are common...so tuesday comes an

And Life Gets More Interesting...
So not only am I dealing with the fact that my cousin is still missing (the sheriffs department decided to reopen and take over the search as of yesterday..)buuttttttt, my cousin Tiffany called me yesterday, in tears. Her grandfather, or my great uncle, has to have open heart surgery. Originally they were gonna do it next month, but they received the tests back yesterday, and 2 major arteries are clogged, which means they bumped his surgery up to tomorrow. The doctors have very little hope he'll survive it, because its that bad. I have the FABULOUS job of being the bearer of bad news and letting my parents and my nana know.. GREAT. I'm 99% positive Darien didn't survive the crash, and I sure as hell don't want to lose my uncle in the same week... Oh, and then. My fucktard I-wish-he-would-die ex, Jay decides to email me because he "wants to talk." So me, being nice and giving him to grow balls and admit the truth, talk to him to see what he has to say. I get the whole "I'm still

"and Love Said No"
And love's light blue Led me to you Through all the emptiness that had become my home Love's lies cruel Introduced me to you And at that moment I knew I was out of hope Kill me I begged and love said no Leave me for dead and let me go Kill me I cried and love said no Kill me I cried and love said no Love's icy tomb Dug open for you Lies in a cemetery that bears my name Love's violent tune From me to you Rips your heart out and leaves you bleeding with a smile on your face Kill me I begged and love said no Leave me for dead and let me go Kill me I cried and love said no Kill me I cried and love said no And love said no And love's light blue Took me from you And at that moment I knew I was out of hope Again Kill me I begged and love said no Leave me for dead and let me go Kill me I cried and love said no Kill me I cried and love said no And love said no

And Let Death Be Thy Destination
For far too long, I have watched and waited I have delved into the depths, and rose to the heights I observed and recorded the behaviors of mankind, in all manner of being. I have seen the blood lust of the kill,in men and women and children Smelled their appalling stench of rotting flesh, as they pass me by Heard the multitudes of oaths and blasphemies uttered from their dead lips. There is no redemption for the filth that walks the Earth No absolutions for the men, nor the whores they inject themselves into No mercy for the killers of flesh, mind, and soul. Selfish, narcissistic children of all ages Who would not even piss on someone in flames Who only seek the pleasure of their carrion flesh. I look upon this world, this modern society, this cesspool of sperm and ova I feel revulsion come over me, and I turn my back on it all No more.... Let their putrid, decaying, debauchery continue....And let death be thy destination.

18 And Life To Go (skid Row)
18 And Life Songwriters: Sabo, David; Southworth, Rachel Bolan;Ricky was a young boy, he had a heart of stoneLived 9 to 5 and he worked his fingers to the boneJust barely get out of school, came from the edge of townFought like a switchblade so no one could take him down, oh noHe had no money, no, no good at homeHe walked the streets as soldier and he fought the world aloneAnd now it's 18 and life, you got it, 18 and life, you knowYour crime is time and it's 18 and life to go18 and life, you got it, 18 and life, you knowYour crime is time and it's 18 and life to goTequila in his heartbeat, his veins burned gasolineHe kept his motor running, but it never kept him cleanThey say he loved adventure, "Ricky's the wild one"He married trouble and had a courtship with a gunBang bang shoot 'em up, the party never endsYou can't think of dying when the bottle's your best friendAnd now it's 18 and life, you got it, 18 and life, you knowYour crime is time and it's 18 and life to go18 and life, you

And My Aura Is......
Your Aura is Yellow You're a deeply happy and content person, and you enjoy sharing your cheer with others. While you may seem like a simple optimist, there is a lot of thinking going on inside you. The purpose of your life: bringing joy and a better life to others Famous yellows include: Conan O'Brien, Jenny Mccarthy, Jim Carrey Careers for you to try: Athlete, Actor, Yoga Instructor What Color Is Your Aura?

And More Sub Space
Sub Space SUBSPACE - This term generally is used to describe a moderate to deep trancelike condition experienced by persons in the submissive position in a D/s relationship during interaction with the person in the Dominant position in the relationship. TOP SPACE - I will start by regarding top space or normal space. This is operational ground zero. The submissive in top space often appears quite aggressive, assertive and dominant. They will be hustling their children off to school, dominating their Dominant mate by organizing him/her off to work, cleaning and straightening the house, sending themselves off to work or to take care of business. They are the Commander of the ship, the General of the Army. Hustle, hustle, hustle. This is a submissives TOP SPACE. MARGINALLY DOWN SPACE - This space occurs when the Dominant in the relationship directs attention at the submissive. This may be a glance, a light touch, a small sound or any combination of these triggers. This marginal a

And More
Why Wiccans Suck. Fluffbunnies, Bicca, and Playganism. WHY WICCANS SUCK Copyright 2003 Faelhach. All Rights Reserved. I'd like to start this informative masterpiece by saying that if anyone is offended by this, they can go suck themselves. I would also like to say that if you are here for an in-depth, thoughtful analysis of Wicca, Paganism and any other subject related to the two, you'd best be looking somewhere else. This is a rant. So deal with it. Now then. Let's get down to business. Wiccans suck. Every last one of them. Why, you ask? Because. Now, J. would want me to expand upon my reasons for exactly why Wiccans suck, so I'm going to oblige him. He also says that I should change my blanket statement to only include contemporary Wiccans, but I think that this is more fun. I suppose I should start with a background of my personal experience regarding Wicca. I believe it was during my freshman year of high school that I first was "enlight

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Thursday, February 16, 2006 Top Ten Dick Cheney Excuses Current mood: hopeful Top Ten Dick Cheney Excuses 10. "Heart palpitation caused trigger finger to spasm" 9. "Wanted to get the Iraq mess off the front page" 8. "Not enough Jim Beam" 7. "Trying to stop the spread of bird flu" 6. "I love to shoot people" 5. "Guy was making cracks about my lesbian daughter" 4. "I thought the guy was trying to go 'gay cowboy' on me" 3. "Excuse? I hit him, didn't I?" 2. "Until Democrats approve medicare reform, we have to make some tough choices for the elderly" 1. "Made a bet with Gretzky's wife" 4:55 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Wednesday, February 15, 2006 King of Hearts Current mood: contemplative Entry for February 15, 2006 King of Hearts I woke up this morning and went for a walk. As I was strolling through a parking lot I came across a playing card. It was laying face down. I picked it up and it was a King o

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Thursday, February 02, 2006 April Kaitlin Sobotka Current mood: rejected Category: Depressed Romance and Relationships I love you April Kaitlin Sobotka. I miss you dearly. 8:48 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Edit - Remove Wednesday, January 25, 2006 April Kaitlin Sobotka Current mood: depressed Category: Romance and Relationships I still think about Kate all the time. I miss her so much. But why did she do what she did to me. What did I do to deseve it? And now I think I have a lonliness complex. I feel like I will never be cured until I find a woman better than her to fill the hole she left in my heart. 8:03 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Edit - Remove Tuesday, January 24, 2006 Love Current mood: depressed Category: Romance and Relationships ...never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. 10:59 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Edit - Remove

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Sunday, January 28, 2007 What Does Freedom Really Mean Current mood: sleepy Category: News and Politics What does Freedom Really Mean? "…man is not free unless government is limited. There's a clear cause and effect here that is as neat and predictable as a law of physics: As government expands, liberty contracts." Ronald Reagan We've all heard the words democracy and freedom used countless times, especially in the context of our invasion of Iraq. They are used interchangeably in modern political discourse, yet their true meanings are very different. George Orwell wrote about "meaningless words" that are endlessly repeated in the political arena*. Words like "freedom," "democracy," and "justice," Orwell explained, have been abused so long that their original meanings have been eviscerated. In Orwell's view, political words were "Often used in a consciously dishonest

1,2,3, And More
take a shot for me two to make it better three to open me up four to completeness five to a little closer six to you seven for me eight still not enough nine still not open ten here i am eleven WOW you've got me twelve extasy now.... i need nothing..... original by dawna wright 3/30/07 at 4 am

And My Family Grows....
I am go glad that so many of my yahoo family is coming to cherry tap...and yes I know that not everyone will of us it all the time....and we all have myspace...but hey...I am having fun...and I hope you all do to.... I love ya'll Di A GREAT SONG TO MY FRIENDS...

4 And More??
the sweet Rob doctor(please add pic to my slideshow guestbook)@ CherryTAP and swampy!! Swampfox5050@ CherryTAP AND ANTHOER DOLL.. BO Bo@ CherryTAP Mr. MoJo Rising!! :P DOMINIQUE~drama free zone ~~@ CherryTAP kiwi!! licquor86 - K1W1@ CherryTAP loyal cal! toony_ca~Jaw Breaker of "Lollys Candyland Candies"@ CherryTAP lovable player! tjeplayer@ CherryTAP dj william yo! dj eternalis~owner of club bewitched~dmr dj~ dj passion's husband~ commander and chief of the A.@ CherryTAP BONES!!! BONE@ CherryTAP amazing Daddy, Christopher caspiian@ CherryTAP Rock out with.... JONES

And 2morrow
Today is filled with anger fueled with hidden hate scared of being outcast afraid of common fate Today is built on tragedies which no one wants 2 face nightmares 2 humanities and morally disgraced Tonight is filled with rage violence in the air children bred with ruthlessness because no one at home cares Tonight I lay my head down but the pressure never stops knawing at my sanity content when I am dropped But 2morrow I c change a chance 2 build a new Built on spirit intent of Heart and ideals based on truth and tomorrow I wake with second wind and strong because of pride 2 know I fought with all my heart 2 keep my dream alive

And My Tab Is...$$$$$$$$
Have you ever.... -Smoked pot -- $10 -Did acid -- $15 -Ever had sex at church -- $25 -Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you-- $40 -Had sex with someone on MySpace /360-- $25 -Had sex for money -- $100 -Ever had sex with a Asian -- $20 -Vandalized something -- $20 -Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10 -Beat up someone -- $20 -Been jumped -- $10 -Crossed dressed -- $10 -Given money to stripper -- $25 -Been in love with a stripper -- $20 -Kissed some one who's name you didn't know --$10 -Hit on some one of the same sex while at work-- $15 -Ever drive drunk -- $20 -Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50 -Used toys while having sex -- $30 -Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20 -Went skinny dipping -- $5 -Had sex in a pool -- $20 -Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10 -Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20 -Cheated on your significant other -- $10 -M

And My World Come Crashing Down
as a few on here know i have been trying to get my youngest son back.(for a year now). he was put in foster care because of something his dad did.(his dad had custody of him). well today my world came crashing down, i was informed that the state of washington was not going to approve the icpc and that my son remain in long term foster care until he turns 18. there was also talk of both my ex and myself signing over our rights to him, (the ex did). monday in court it was stated that it would hurt and cause damage to my son if i had to, so really that is the only good thing at least i can still see my son, but i have to wait a year in a half before he can come home. this is why i am dyeing inside. that you all for taking the time to read this. adirah

And, More Adam
Since I refused to bitch like i did in the previous blog... in a blog about adam, we're making two :D CCUUUUZZZ, it's 630 in the morning... I woke up and due to stuff, wasn't able to get back to sleep. SOOOOO, anyways, I was like, literally dreaming about Adam.... specifically, making out with him in wal mart over by the bikes.... lol fun stuff I'm telling you :D *sigh* Is it crazy to miss someone like this? Cuz, well, I do... and it seems a little crazy... But, I got up this morning at 505 to talk to Adam. It's soooo freaking awesome. God, I LOVE hearing his voice... it just, sets my whole day RIGHT it seems :) just, being able to sit and talk to him... it, really, seriously, makes me happy. HE makes me happy. We sat and talked for hours last night... which is by no means something new... it's just, so amazing. I'm really falling for this guy... I mean, yeah of course, when you find someone "new"... it always seems like they're perfect, and etc... because you overlook thei

And My World Comes Crashing Down 2
this holiday season is going to be very hard on me. i get to go see my youngest son the day after Christmas and have an overnight visit with him and i cant wait. on the 27th there will be a meeting and that is when we will tell my son that he is going to be placed in long term foster care until he turns 18 (he is 16 now) and we go to court on jan 10th. i found all this out today about what is happening on the visit and the court date and it has been weighing heavy on my heart. i just needed to get this out in some way. thank you all for reading this a mothers ramblings. dolphin

And More????????
WASHINGTON - A woman found in her home with the decomposing bodies of her four daughters will remain in custody while a grand jury investigates, a judge ruled Monday. ADVERTISEMENT Superior Court Judge Frederick Weisberg found probable cause to order 33-year-old Banita Jacks to remain held on murder charges. The bodies of the girls, ages 5 to 16, were found Jan. 9 when U.S. marshals served an eviction notice at the family's apartment in southeast Washington. The medical examiner's office has said there is evidence that the oldest girl had been stabbed and that the other three girls had markings on their necks and other signs of trauma. Police detective Mitchell A. Credle testified that Jacks told investigators she did not want her oldest daughter to be a bad influence on her other children. Credle testified that Jacks told investigators she had had two physical fights with Brittany and had called the girl "Jezebel." Jacks also told police the girls were possessed by demons

And More Pain, I Thought I Only Kew Him So He Said
My Shoutbox ->Spooky.DeM...: if that is all he said then yeah..your missing alot Spooky.DeM...: Is there something missing that I should be aware of Spooky.DeM...: He said after 3 yrs..or after her.he didnt date anyone Spooky.DeM...: I'd ask..why did they split..he said..long story..I ask..does he see his son..he says no..that she has full custody Spooky.DeM...: That was taken place last night.....that he was with someone for 3 years they lived together had a son..then she took off..and part of him still loves her..and he had his ex gf.and son tattoed to his arm..he lives on his own..he dont work ->Spooky.DeM...: his situation ->Spooky.DeM...: what has he told you about his life Spooky.DeM...: That flying deal is still to early Spooky.DeM...: Yes drinking Spooky.DeM...: Oops I meant I wasa little buzzed ->Spooky.DeM...: buzzed?? Spooky.DeM...: Lol...honestly...he was a little buzzed ->Spooky.DeM...: are you going to fly out to meet him Spooky.DeM...: It w

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Shoutbox Spooky.DeM...: *Nods*..so who is lying now eh ->Spooky.DeM...: now if he really likes you more than then he would do it Spooky.DeM...: He took one crush to crush him...talk about a fool ->Spooky.DeM...: lol..nice Spooky.DeM...: Oh yeah..he told me to that ..you would get pist if he would to take you off his crush ->Spooky.DeM...: not yet...web cam Spooky.DeM...: Go figure..practice what they preach eh Spooky.DeM...: Evidently he's lying to himself.. ->Spooky.DeM...: pretty much Spooky.DeM...: Yeah he says.he will never believe what people say on the internet...hm..would that include you and I ? Spooky.DeM...: Have you met him in person? ->Spooky.DeM...: yeah..he tells me that too but he also tells me he loves me Spooky.DeM...: He tells me that he likes me alot/ tons..and he dont like many people..which I dont blame him..I hate people too..however he cares what happenes to me.................Should I laugh ? Spooky.DeM...: Dont see how he can tell

And More Wicca..
You know 73% more the other Wiccans Super Job! You have achieve the level of 2nd Degree Priest/Priestess. This means you are ready to take a leadership role and help others. How much Wicca do you knowTake More Quizzes

And More Useless Info
Are you dating the last person you kissed on the lips? no i'm not It's 4 in the morning,your phone rings, what do you do? depends who it is when i look at caller id What's bothering you most right now? tryin to figure out how to deal with my *addictions* Is there someone you will never forget? oh of course there is When was the last time someone saw you in your underwear? to recently for comfort lol Is there anyone who doesn't like you? i'm sure there is somewhere Does anyone have feelings for you? depends on what kinda feelings u mean... luv, hate, jealousy... they are all feelings Where were you at 9am this morning? wa

And More Storms To Come
Many Remain Without Power After Severe Storms PITTSBURGH (KDKA) ― Click to enlarge 1 of 1 CBS Close numSlides of totalImages Related Slideshows Storms Move Across Pittsburgh Area The storms on Wednesday night knocked out power to thousands of people all across western Pennsylvania. Many residents remain in the dark this morning as crews continue to work to restore power to all of them. Officials with Duquesne Light reported that as of 5:30 a.m. that they had about 12,300 without power. The most are in the eastern suburbs, like Monroeville, Penn Hills, Forest Hills and Churchill. Officials say they hope to have all power restored late today, between 8 p.m. and midnight. There are a

And Miles To Go Before I Sleep
This may seem like an odd blog entry, but I currently find it fitting. This blog will be incomplete with out your participation. What I want is for each person who reads this to post a poem that means something to them, that touches them, and if they are willing, to also post WHY it affects them. To be fair, I'll start: Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening by Robert Frost Whose woods these are I think I know.His house is in the village though;He will not see me stopping hereTo watch his woods fill up with snow.My little horse must think it queerTo stop without a farmhouse nearBetween the woods and frozen lakeThe darkest evening of the year.He gives his harness bells a shakeTo ask if there is some mistake.The only other sound's the sweepOf easy wind and downy flake.The woods are lovely, dark and deep.But I have promises to keep,And miles to go before I sleep,And miles to go before I sleep. This is my favorite poem. It speaks to me of beauty and death. It reminds me even in m

$15,000 And 15 Miles Don't Make You A Biker
Remember when you could afford another Hog, a new pick up truck, or Carhart work clothes. Cause some dudes will pay what ever it takes we all gotta...pay! Remember when you could count on the other biker in the bar to back you up, and not be some lawyer (to want to sue fer ya), or some dentist (to want to fix yer knocked out teeth), or some gutless weezel who runs for the door when the first glass breaks. MAN....I see all these shiney new scoots with riders in t-shirts from places they never been, brand new engineer boots, chain drive wallets, black carhart jeans, and not a fuggin beard, tatto, or long hair among em. Is dis that yuppie scum shit I been hearin about? How did they get on my mountain? How do I get rid of them....? And now you yuppie says to me you got a computer and a web page....an I says, I never walked around in high waters with a pocket protecter and slide rule. I admit I'm a computer geek wanna be......why you actin like a Biker! Ya....I know

And More...
A gasp of breath, a sudden death, the tale has begun. -BoCS- Night has patterns that can be read less by the living than by the dead. -BoCS- Night can be sweet as a kiss, though not on a night like this. -BoCS-

And Moving On.
Sometimes life gives you lemons and you make lemonade. Other times life disqualifies you before you even get the lemons. I don't know how that works but it does. Only you can't be mad about anything when you saw it coming before you even tried. Lesson being, never give anything a chance that wouldn't give you the same in return. Het is tijd te ga rug. I should have been on my way back in the summer. Where the hell is my passport?

And Map The Battle Chart
All wars are planned by older menIn council rooms apart,Who call for greater armamentAnd map the battle chart.But out along the shattered fieldWhere golden dreams turn gray,How very young the faces wereWhere all the dead men lay.Portly and solemn in their pride,The elders cast their voteFor this or that, or something else,That sounds the martial note.But where their sightless eyes stare outBeyond life's vanished toys,I've noticed nearly all the deadWere hardly more than boys."

... And Not Always Something Good
yes, it's not being a nice day few things happened yesterday night, and now i feel depressed... i can't do my work (and i need to be concentrated because it's programming) and my coworkers started to notice i'm not very well and they keep asking what happens but i can't hide it, and my face tells everything... i'm listening this song, and trying to follow what it says... and i just pray so the pain i feel is gone soon... ..... Thats not the beginning of the end Thats the return to yourself The return to innocence. Love - devotion Feeling - emotion . Love - devotion Feeling - emotion . Dont be afraid to be weak Dont be too proud to be strong Just look into your heart my friend That will be the return to yourself The return to innocence . If you want, then start to laugh If you must, then start to cry Be yourself dont hide Just believe in destiny . Dont care what people say Just follow your own way Dont give up and use the chance To return to innoce

And Now...life
Now, I will go onto life, for I have taken part in that, I have a son, and I was there when he was concieved, I was there when he was born. That was another memorable occasion, seeing a life brought into this world. My son's birth is a rather funny story. I was stationed 150 miles from my now ex-wife (at the time we were not married yet) and only came home on weekends to be with her. It was a Friday night when I came home, and payday, so on the way to the apartment she wanted to stop at Wal-mart because she had to buy an entertainment center. I pretty much always let her have her way, so we stopped, one of the stockboys helped me put it in the car and we headed home. When we arrived home, I was on my way to ask a neighbor to help me carry the center into the apartment when my stubborn ex-wife grabbed the box and started pulling it out of the car by herself. I asked her if she was crazy and told her to wait, but that wasn't happening. (let me insert a few details here, like the fact tha

And Now...the Rest Of The Story
The law of unintended consequences, often cited but rarely defined, is that actions of peopleand especially of governmentalways have effects that are unanticipated or "unintended." Economists and other social scientists have heeded its power for centuries; for just as long, politicians and popular opinion have largely ignored it. The concept of unintended consequences is one of the building blocks of economics. Adam Smith's "invisible hand," the most famous metaphor in social science, is an example of a positive unintended consequence. Smith maintained that each individual, seeking only his own gain, "is led by an invisible hand to promote an end which was no part of his intention," that end being the public interest. "It is not from the benevolence of the butcher, or the baker, that we expect our dinner," Smith wrote, "but from regard to their own self interest." Most often, however, the law of unintended consequences illuminates the perverse unanticipated effects of legislati

And Now For Something Completely Different
The night is for us alone no one else in this world the stars sing our names take these lonely hands teach me to touch you guide my every carress navigate the soft seas my fingers, a gentle stream trickling over every curve waste not our time the sun will come calling chasing away the dream can this never end? live this utopian dream forever you and I and it starts with but a touch

And Not Get Slapped
And not get slapped 01. Talk about a huge breast! 02. Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist. 03. It's Cool Whip time! 04. If I don't undo my pants, I'll burst! 05. That's one terrific spread! 06. I'm in the mood for a little dark meat. 07. Are you ready for seconds yet? 08. Its a little dry, do you still want to eat it? 09. Just wait your turn, you'll get some! 10. Don't play with your meat. 11. Just spread the legs open and stuff it in. 12. Do you think you'll be able to handle all these people at once? 13. I didn't expect everyone to come at once! 14. You still have a little bit on your chin. 15. How long will it take after you stick it in? 16. You'll know it's ready when it pops up. 17. Wow, I didn't think I could handle all of that! 18. That's the biggest one I've ever seen!

And Now, To Lighten The Mood..lol
You Don't Love Me Anymore We've been together for so very long but now things are changing oh I wonder what's wrong? Seems you don't want me around the passion is gone and the flames died down I guess I lost a little bit of self-esteem that time that you made it with the whole hockey team you used to think I was nice now you tell all your friends that I'm the Anti-Christ oh, why did you disconnect the brakes on my car? that kind of thing is hard to ignore got a funny feeling, you don't love me anymore I knew that we were having problems when you put those pirhanas in my bathtub again you're still the light of my life oh darling I'm begging won't you put down that knife you know I even think it's kind of cute the way you poison my coffee just a little each day I still remember the way that you laughed when you pushed me down the elevator shaft oh if you don't mind me asking, what's this poisonous cobra doing in my underwear drawer? honey something tells me you d

And Now I'm Sick
yesterday i thought it was a hangover, today i have a fever, KIR U FUCKING GOT ME SICK! see if i have dinner with you again. heh so i woke up in a pool of sweat and not the good morning head kind... i feel miserable, my ears are stuffed up... i want to sleep but i cant... blah. well at least rent is paid.

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And Now... Something Funny For The Ladies!
Words Women Use: 1.) FINE: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. 2.) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five Minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. 3.) Nothing: This is th e calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. 4.) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! 5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.) 6.) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard befo

And Now, Im's With Idiots
So this guy pops up on one of my IM (note-I have not retouched any spelling and my thoughts during the conversation are posted in blue. Plus , to be kind, I have changed the sn of the guy to "some guy"..."me" is me ) some guy: my gf is making me take a poll what color panties should i wear under a white skirt. me: wow...that's a conversation starter Oh man...not another one some guy: it is some guy: so some guy: dress me up ...wierdo...time to check this guys profile...oh look, it says he's married...so he's wierd and possibly a scum bag...or a wierd liar... me: why is your gf making you wear askirt? some guy: i lost a bet me: and your wife is ok with it? some guy: its my wife me: so why did you say gf? some guy: gf easer to write the wife 2 letters riiiiiight.... me: wow...that sounds kind alazy..well...I guess you should just wear what she says too if she's the one who won the bet some guy: yes but i have to poll some guy: she going to dress me in th

" And Now The Rest Of The Secret"
Hello All: As always my newsletter always create many reactions and some are quite interesting and must be shared with my faithful readers worldwide. I do make people think and react and that is the beauty of being alive and curious, but sad enough some people are not able to auto analyze themselves and are much too quick to judge me and my work. In this newsletter I will attempt to explain a little more about "The Secret". First read those emails. Posted by Leo Dr. Turi........I feel the same way as Crystal. I started to read your post and was excited because I thought you were going to reveal this wonderful code. I was greatly disappointed to find that I would have to pay for it. One of the reasons I love this forum is that everyone is so eager to share their experiences, what works for them, etc. And they ask for nothing in return. I truly believe that when you give, you get more in return. ================ Posted by Crystal Dr. Turi; If you have indee

And Now A Poem I Wrote
I wrote this poem a couple years ago for a friend, and she is still a good friend, one that if she ever left me a part of me would die, I love her a lot, always will to. And no she and I don't have more than friends relationship,so don't get that idea OK. Her nickname caused this poem to ignite inside me, and well here is the result. Be gentle in your comments, this one is really mine LOL Stirring in my bed, I feel you move nearby. I wonder why I love you so much, but I do know the one main reason why. Every morning you wake me, gently kissing whispering in my ear, gently blowing in my ear, saying good morning and how much you love me. Its your kisses in whispers that keep us together, and forever will it, for you always know what words to say, and where to touch, where to kiss. For your kisses in whispers are what I need to survive, for its how you say I love you every morning. As the years pass you still wake me gently this way, for its an expression of our life's together,

And Now, For A Bit Of News.
I'm getting fairly hooked on this CT thing, and, yeah. That's the first part of the news. Second part is, I've found something that I want to try alongside my health improvements and such: JUDO! Or actually, combat sports or martial arts in general. Two different monsters, but monsters i'm interested in taking on... ....and...that's all. Hahaha...

And Now Folks, Some Willie Nelson...
http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/08/24/012518.php This horsemeat thing is a load of crap: I'm not a vegetarian because I love my meat, and I realise that unless I become vegan, I am going to have to kill and exploit another living creature (or consume a creature that has been killed and/or exploited by another) -- whether it be a cow, a tomato, a dog, a chicken, a grape, whatever -- if I wish to eat. Therefore, all I can ask is that whatever I end up ending be treated as humanely and as respectfully as possible. (One could make other arguments in favour of vegetarianism or for a dramatic reduction in our consumption of meat, but these are beyond the scope of my writing.) That being said, I fail to see how cannabis use is unamerican: What's unamerican is the fact that The U.S. government not only banned a substance less dangerous for human consumption than alcohol, tobacco, nicotine, or pretty well any prescription drugs was banned because corporations were scared to compete a

And Not So Good.
If you are truly my friend you have read all my blogs and know about my kids. I posted awhile back about my one daughter Tatiana. She is it one with cerebral palsy. She keeps getting weaker. We had an mri of her brain a few weeks ago. I spoke to the neurologist yesterday and she said there is not sign of stroke in the brain however by the way the mri looked they cannot rule out a small tumor. She has been weak since she was born. She can't squeeze the toothpaste or button her pants, and shes getting weaker. The neurologist is supposed to call me next monday to let me know whats next. We just nead a reason as to why shes getting weak. I assume they will repeat the mri or do a petscan to verify what they saw in her brian.So I have been preoccupied with that and the other BS in my life lately and I just haven't been a great friend here. But my family is most important right now. Thanks to all who have been there for me..it means alot. Heres a Pic of Tatiana...keep her in your thoughts.

And Now For Something Completely Different...
(Originally posted on January 19, 2007)As a different matter, I definitely will NOT be getting a Blu-Ray player.News Story: Sony says 'no' to porn on Blu-ray Disc(Truthfully, I refuse to buy ANY Sony products anyway. I am still pissed off at their rootkit debacle.)tag: Sony, news, rootkit, porn, Blu-ray-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

And Now, A Political Post
(Originally posted on March 8, 2007)There's a lot of people upset with Ann Coulter for using the "F-word" (no, not the four-letter one - she said "faggot") in describing her feelings towards John Edwards, one of the Democratic candidates for the position of the U.S. Presidency.Heck, not only has she lost advertisers and had some newspapers cut her column, even some right wingers are running from her.Yesterday when I checked her website out, she had not only not apologized for her tasteless, insulting remark, she even was bitching that everybody seemed against her and promised she will say even worse things in the future.Mind you, I am nowhere NEAR as upset with her as I am at Bill O'Liely...tag: right wing, faux paux, insanity, megalomania, politics-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

And Now Some Words Of Wisdom From Jay Leno....who'd Have Thunk It?!
Jay Leno wrote this; it's the Jay Leno we don't often see.... "The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right? The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the president. In essence 2/3s of the citizenry just ain't happy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, ''What we are so unhappy about?'' Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter? Could it be that 95.4 percent of these unhappy folks have a job? Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year? Maybe it is the abil

And Now A Breaking Update
DADDY IS GOING TO BE OK. for the most part. it is a long road to recovery. He is off the ventilator tube and breathing strongly on his own. He just has to make it past the hurdles of avoiding pneumonia and blood clots. He is frustrated as his voice is not there yet, and I can only imagine he is a little scared. I am....tired to say the least. now that he is awake I am not at the hospital every moment since it just gets him a little worked up that he can't talk. so I give him time to rest, he is still in ICU and weak. visitation is still family only. I am still dealing with the stress, just a little less than I was. on a small happy note, I will get my net back tomorrow according the cable guy this morning. so once more I will sit for hours on end and stare at my little glowing world. oh... how I have missed it.

And Now Today...
So as I said, one of the poly family members IMed me yesterday in CherryTAP. Words were exchanged (she said I portrayed her as a bitch in the blogs, for example), and several times I asked if we were done so I could go on my depressed, miserable way. She kept talking, so I figured the answer was always no.So this morning I logged into CT and the first thing I got was a message from The Bitch (another poly family member) who said she'd kick my ass if I IMed the other member again, claiming the other member belonged to her (The Bitch). I wrote back that (a) I didn't start the crap, ( b ) I tried ending the crap, and (c) if anybody's ass needed kicking for talking out of turn, it was the other member.(Damn! I just realized that I shouldn't have erased those messages. I would have had damned good proof that I was threatened with bodily harm.)The whole good thing I got out of it was, instead of having The Bitch block me in CT (which she had done before), I got to block her. That means

And Now.... Just Looking At The Screen...
so.. looking off to the side of my profile page.. wondering what to do here now.... Ok.. already got a little bored here.. happens.. not many thing keep my attention for long... anyway... I see the Horoscope... "Frankly, you need to lighten up. Your outside looks calm, capable and collected, but you might be fuming on the inside. Be a little playful with yourself, especially under these circumstances. Your mood will lift." LOL well... looks like it's on the mark so far!! Waiting for the "Lifting Action" to take place. Hopefully it will be an interview for a job I've been wanting... still waiting to hear.. but then, this is State stuff so it's never as fast as you want it to be...

And Now For Something Totally Different
Weird Things You Would Never Know!! (But do now!) A shrimp's heart is in its head. The "sixth sick sheik's sixth sheep's sick" is said to be the toughest tongue twister in the English language. Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, two rats could have over a million descendants. Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the bacteria in your ear by 700 times. If the government has no knowledge of aliens, then why does Title 14,Section 1211 of the Code of Federal Regulations, implemented on July 16 1969, make it illegal for U.S. citizens to have any contact with extraterrestrials or their vehicles? In every episode of Seinfeld there is a Superman somewhere A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why. 23% of all photocopier faults world-wide are caused by people sitting on them and photocopying their butts. Most lipstick contains fish scales. Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is different. If you sneeze too hard, you can fra

And Now, A Quick Update
so I know I haven't really been around much for awhile. my apologies. I would like to say life has been so fabulous that I just haven't had time, but it's more like life has just been so very busy, I only get the chance to pop on real quick and then I am off on the breeze once more. so...........updates for those interested still in the midst with paperwork on Daddy's estate, they say it can take up to a year to close an estate, sometimes longer. so patience is still needed, I guess. the kids go back to school soon (yay) and work will keep me busy for the next few weeks as we have a convention coming up. Hubby is loving the new job still and I died my hair .....yes~ again. there are 2 pics in the gallery and I plan to play dress up for you all soon, when I find a free afternoon, lol. love you all for being there for me in all of this.

And Now For Myself.... I Ask For Ur Help
Ok, so here's the deal. I have a doctor appointment today. I will be having an annual check up, (ladies u know what i mean) but at the same time, i will be tested for 3 different types of cancer. Ovarian cancer, cancer of the uterus, and skin cancer. Yes i said 3. This is the 2nd time i'm being tested for ovarian cancer... :( i have been sick quite often lately.. and the docs just havent figured out what is going on with me, but when they decided to listen to me and realize how much cancer runs in my family, they decided to run tests... DUH!!! Gosh, some of us have to suffer for long periods of time before doctors will listen to us. That's just not right. Please Pray, and keep me in your thoughts... I will let you know what happens as soon as i get any news.

And Now The Aftermath
Ok, here I go again. This time is a little different. I have more people helping me through this. Finally I think that I might be able to find my smile again. Though I don't down shift that quick. The divorce will be final in 2 weeks and a ppo put out tm. Everything is starting to come together to a head and working and talking is seeming to help a bit. I need the children to talk a little more when they start feeling bad about what happened. I plan on making some appts so they can get into a little sessions so they can talk or vent to someone who will not take it offensively and not hold it against them. Like me. My daughter is doing pretty good so far. Though she does act up some times, but its not as bad as her brother. I think that this time will go a little better with others here to help them along. I hope. Positive influence is always better and I think they can give it to them. My best friend tells me it will only get better, but I keep telling everyone that it doe

And Now... A Story.
So Friday the office manager decided to order pizza for the staff because we had a few gift certificates. Apparenlty the traffic manager found out and she doesn't work on Fridays and is PISSED. I think it's lame because she was willing to order pizza when one of the office girls wasn't here. So she's on the war path over this. Pizza. I mean what the hell. Seriously?! Now she's gone and taken the chocolate of the office staff away. Little does she know that I'll bury someone alive for taking my chocolate. She has til she leaves to put it back.

And Now We See The Light
I break I'm shattered I dance in broken mirrors the light it plays it's trick darts at me draws me nearer I fear what I might find tripping on a stray shard I cut the line and drift away The point still unmarred

And Nothing Is All And All Is Sanity
it starts as it ends..silent..cold..empty..tears..cries unheard..breaths heard..the bleakness of nothing..and with that the shadow vanishes and all is left is a il feeling of all the happiness in the world has been sucked away...for the shaow, darkness was hope and the faith the many needed to thrive on another day...til then the fear remains awaiting its return.. the silent stalker that waits the eyes that see the lips that caress the cold as it bites at its warm exposed flesh hold tight that breath the sweat swept from a brow the choking grip of a ivory handle the glint of a metal cold to touch and soft like a razor through butter grinding teeth spit snarls like a hungry wolf waiting for prey deaths harbinger

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And Now For Something Completely Different..or Not...
I'm cleaning up the apartment once again. Not that it's really messy but it gives me something to do. Anyways, I like to have some tunes while doing the boring housework. I threw on a mix cd I have (older house music and acid). Anyways, the song "Pacific" comes on from 808 State comes on. I personally love the haunting sound of a saxophone and this song captures it perfectly. The bass line is thumping, the arpeggio's flawless, the of course the sax. Hehe I said Sax. Anyways, it's one of these songs that makes me sigh. I hearken back to better times. But now is now.... Another tune that I used to really dig is by "This Ain't Chicago-Ride The Rhythm". 909 drum machine,check!,gurgling and trippy 303's, check!,samples saying "Ride the rhythm, ride the floor, ride till you can't ride no more" and the occasional "This ain't Chicago". It's one of those songs that makes me want jump up and get down...really! Plus the sample of someone yelling "ACID!" makes me tingle. Goos

And Now There Is No More
i cant do it .. its just to tough i tried and tried when things got rough i wanted it to be so good and now im just misunderstood i cant be happy i cant be sad i cant forgive or feel glad i want it all forever and a day i want it all the right way i bring ya so far then push you away it hurts for me to be this way i all messed up confused in a daze ................. i want someone to kno how i feel to hold me tight and make it real i want you more now than ever but yet i kno well not ever be together goodnight my sweetheart goodbye my babe i need my sunny sunshine days xxx

And Now For The Main Event...lol
So tomorrow night is the night John and I have our Valentine's Day alone time. It's going to be so great. I'm cooking him a special dinner and maybe even dessert and then he and I can cuddle under a blanket on our couch and watch a movie together...no kids to watch, no one calling, no interruptions. It's going to be perfect! I've missed the fact that we don't spend as much time together, and he's so tired during the week becuase of the whole babysitting thing. With the kids over and one of them a screamer (even when he's in a good mood), he gets woken up or he just has trouble sleeping in general. I want to make it up to him by letting him sleep in until dinner tomorrow. But I want to wake him up early enough in advance that he'll actually be awake to enjoy his special dinner! :D

And Now, The Rest Of The Story (second Entry For January 31, 2006)
Ok, When I left off I was headed downstairs to finish some things that needed to be doen for work and was wanting to drop in and see my new friend. I walked out the door and was coming around the building when I noticed my friend's patio door was open so I popped my head in to say hello. Well, we got to talking and my work never got finished. I woulnd up staying with her all day and watching movies together, we discussed Chris and all for awhile during our time together and both agreed that it was a bad situation that I would be better off seperating myself from, only problem, as we later found out, was that my boss had agreed to give Chris and I a new apartment for free as part of me working there, but when he found out that Chris and I were splitting up he left me with nowhere to go. Upon hearing this my friend offered to let me stay with her until I could find someplace of my own. Well as time went by my friend and I grew closer and more time went by without me finding my own place.

And Now Here We Are At One More Summer
christopher's older sister, lisa, use to babysit my middle son, jake, who turned fourteen in the middle of april. before that though, i would care for both christopher and lisa while their mother worked nights as a single parent. christopher graduated at the end of may. my god....i swatted the behinds of those two siblings when they were in elementary school. i called the first school christopher applied to and recommended they give him the full vocal scholarship that he auditioned for. i did this with neither his knowledge nor consent. we found out yesterday that they gave it to him, so i called them back to thank the head of the music department, whom i'd spoken to previously. when i was told that my recommendation weighed greatly in the positive decision, i got a verbal pinky swear that he would never be told that i called in the first place. some blessings should only be blessings. favors are many times laced with a compulsion for recompense. fuck that. i don't want any

And Now... A Funny.
I'm on the phone wiht Ruby. Big surprise, right? Anyway so she was telling me about this movie poster we'd seen once with this hot guy in it. She finds out it was Teddy Geiger and I said, "This one time, at not quite a man camp..." And she starts laughing and yells, "ew dude! that's just wrong!" ....heheheheh.

And Now A Word From My Brother
Thank you America ( please forward to any of your friends who voted for our next President)‏ From: ED R******, Master Sergeant, U.S. Army Sent: Wed 11/05/08 11:02 AM Well America has spoken. I just want to say thank you for voting for Obama. Now he is going to pull out of Iraq and all our sacrifices will be for nothing, Thank you America for abandoning 25 Million Iraqis. Thank you for making our children to have to go back in few years and fight again in Iraq and the middle east. Thank you from all those who died there, their sacrifice will be for nothing. Thank you from all those who have been wounded, burned and scarred, who suffer every day, be for nothing. I could have retired several years ago, but stayed in to fight in this war I believed in. Now, every day I am in pain, especially from the injury I received in Iraq. My days are filled with pain from morning to night. Again, thank you America, I am glad I could sacrifice for you. I have heard people say now they

And Now For Something With A Little Bite.......
You know when you are searching for something on the net, and you find something you’re not looking for but makes you laugh……well here’s something that I found with a bit of bite for you… from the "rapex" website Anti-rape Device to Hit the Market Anti-rape device created by South-African inventor Sonnet Ehlers is about to hit the market after a long time of waiting for patent verification. The female condom-like device called Rapex has fish-like teeth that attach to the penis. This invention stirred a great deal of controversy all over the world. The main concern is whether the Rapex was a medieval device built on a hate of men or it can be considered an easy-to use devise that could help South African women protect themselves against rape. According to Sonnet Ehlers the process of cheking is going to be up on April 10. Sonnet Eshlers publicly announced her invention one and half years ago and shot to international fame as the invention stirred debates about a

And.....name Crap, Lol.
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And Now, Deep Thoughts By.....
Yeah, nothing deep around here...I'm a shallow biznitch like the rest. Apparently I have time traveled back to age 14 and restarted having a terrible complexion...Wtf?! I'm 26, and suddenly have a pizza face. I take the shortest fu-cations ever. My life is so vapidly empty that I literally need Fubar for entertainment. It most certainly makes me sad, but it beats folding more laundry. Texas trip...T-5 days and counting...I'm stoked. Its been in the 80's down there now for a week. I can't wait to drive through the base and see all the hot soldiers doing PT *drools* I'm also uber excited to eat at Popeye's again. Don't ya just love being tricked into a blog only to read crap that means absolutely nothing to anyone else?

And Now That I Have Vented
i have this fantasy about a perfect kiss...it has to be intense and take my breath away, two hearts speaking the language of union...i am so tired of those kisses that make me feel...nothing....i want to find those lips that hover just above mine and make me whimper in hungry wanting.i am sad that those lips that i have kissed have not been able to do this for me. I wait and search but doubt that i will ever find them. I guess this is my greatest curse.

And Now They Have Moved To Fetlife
And today we have yet another edition of HOW NOT TO APPROACH A FEMDOM...I know many of you are silently giggling and thinkging 'oh joy!'...ok, so not so many...teeeheee Well folks it looks like the CM wankers are finding their way over here to this site where I have found all my real people...the funny part is so many of them are actually finding TRUE community hook ups here and about local events, so they think they might come out...yep folks some them might actually step out from behind their boxes and venture out to our world -- don't say you haven't been warned... The GREAT news is every time I get one of these I check their profile to see which events and groups they are supporting...because they are goofy they always go for the glitz and ditz and not the good stuff...So REALLY the only way you might have a problem with them in public is if you are already wasting your time suporting that local nightclub's monthly LIE perpetuated by that certain retail establishment owner that a

And No I Did Not Make This Up
Tomorrow is NATIONAL GOTOPLESS PROTEST DAY. Women everywhere should show their support for the Decriminalization of Women been Topless in Public. Women should have the right to Bare their chest in Public just as Men do. I have attached a link to the site please visit and sign the petition http://gotopless.org/

And Now For Something Completely Different...
I'm making wallpapers. That's how bored I've become with this place. Anyway...here are some of them. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm obsessed with vampires. Anyway...these are for MY use. But I can make them with any theme. In fact... And... So...who wants one? I'm thinking I might charge Fu-bucks or something...but, we'll see. How frigging lame am I?

And Now For Something Completely Different...
My life is pissing me off on about 42,000,000 levels right now...so I thought I'd attempt to generate a debate that will make me crack a smile, or possibly even laugh. So here it is...who doesn't love Monty Python? Exactly, humourless, stupid people!!! So...what's your favourite sketch? Cast your vote in a comment, or totally trash my vote, I'm good either way. Mine is below. "Every Sperm is Sacred" from The Meaning of Life. For sheer humour and social relevance, it can't be beat.

...and Numbers
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And Now, A Brief Interlude From Our Good Friends Scott And Ash....
ASH AND SCOTTWhat the fuck was that?SCOTTYour sister has turned into a zombieASH AND SCOTTWhat the fuck was that?ASHYour girlfriend was a demon tooASH AND SCOTTWhat the fuck was that?SCOTTShe just ripped my pre-ripped AbercrombieASH AND SCOTTWhat the fuck was that?ASHI got some Shelly on my shoeASH AND SCOTTWhat darkness lurks beyond this wooden sanctum?What the fuck was that?SCOTTDude, these hoes been zombefied!I cannot stay here anymoreI'm getting out of here!ASHNo, we cannot leave, Linda's ankle won't make it, I fearSCOTTI cannot stay, I killed my lay!I must go nowASHYou can't go nowSCOTTI must!ASHYou can't!SCOTTI mustASHYou can't!SCOTTBitches out for blood!I can't take this anymoreASHWe don't even know if there's a way backExcept for that damn broken foorbridgeSCOTTGotta go!Right now!I'll find a road where I'll flag down a van!ASHJust listen to meSCOTTNo I won't!ASHLinda can't walkSCOTTIt's time to go!ASHCannot hikeCan't even standSCOTTThen we'll leave herThat's our brand-new...ASH

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And Now You Wonder..what Is A Larma?
There are two types of the larma fruit on Gor. The type most commonly called for in the rooms is the succulent larma. It is a segmented, fleshy endocarp, often imagined as being similar to a citrus fruit, surrounded by a hard, brittle shell. When a female is referred to as a 'larma', it is meant that her frigid exterior conceals a quite different interior. Larma or other fruit may be offered by a kneeling slave to her Master in a silent plea for his sexual use of her. The second type, commonly called pit fruit, is more similar to an apple with a single seed. The succulent larma may be served whole (the brittle shell is easily broken), segmented, juiced, sliced, broiled (sprinkled with sugars which form a syrup), or as a sauce. The pit fruit may be served whole, sliced, juiced, stewed, baked (with sugars and spices for a wonderful dessert), or fried (as described in the books). ............ I smiled. The larma is luscious. It has a rather hard shell but the shell is brittle and easi

And Now Your Weekend Update With That Random Retard
okay so i got barred from my local pub for shoving a cupcake into a friends face.... stupid i know since i do far worse pretty much every time i go out but the owners wife told me not to and yeah like some ragging cunt is gonna tell me what i can and can't do she thinks i'm supposed to listen to her because she owns the place and forgets her place... i as a parton pay money to go out and enjoy myself among friends(and a bunch of people who probably hate me) she's not my mother and not my employer so i really don't give 2 shits what she has to say... but alas i'm barred well that convinced me to find something better to do so i went to a party last night which was kinda fun 3 metal bands all the food(and beer and liquor but i'm still not drinking) you want, a firework show and live nude body art(unfortunately it was women who i didn't really have any interest in seeing topless) but well it was interesting anyway okay so anyway in about an hour or so i'm heading down to georgia t

...and Never The Ever
...and Never the Ever by Kenneth Matlock on Sunday, July 15, 2012 at 4:55am · Whats that twisting in my head? It keeps me rolling in my bed. So wrought with fear this cannot be. So shrouded dark I cannot see. If I could only make them view. Make them feel how I now do. If I could reach into my chest. Pluck that dark piece from the rest. Lay it out for the world to know. Lay it out for my own little show. Rip into and devour it whole. Cut it's tethers to my soul. This want, this feel, this urge to go I can feel it writhing so... That I cannot let it die. So, instead I do. One little piece from time to time. Some spills out in every rhyme... How I can't just be like you. I can't do the things you do. Though, it's not so easy to turn away Watching in shadows while they all play Little games to pass the years Little games to hide their fears I like games, but not this kind. It breaks the rhythym in my mind. Scratch out my eyes to make it ce

And Oldie But A Goodie
for now one i am going to post old song and videos but still kick ass if it was played in the club started with this one Intergalactic Video - Beastie Boys lyricsBeastie Boys Music Video CodesMusic Video Codes by VideoCure

And Of Course...
Doubt creeps in on the featherlight footsteps of a kitten, subtle, soft, and almost unnoticed. Almost. So now I'm forced to face it, and ask myself, is it simply fear, mayhap? Or worse yet, my subconscious finding clues that I cannot, and screaming warnings at me too soft to hear? Math has never been my strong suit, but even I can see that certain figures don't add up. Now, considering how uncommon the situation is, should I be surprised that normal rules wouldn't apply here as well? Or is that a rationalization I make to myself in an attempt to quell the voices? Fuck. See, the thing is my friends, Matt was a player. Now, I don't mean that I'm some sort of Don Juan or anything, but I've captured my fair share of hearts just for the sake of taking them...simply because I could. For the longest time, it was the only panacea I had to soothe my own self-loathing. I had the theory that if people could feel that way towards me, maybe I wasn't a total waste. It became my drug of choi

And Open Letter:
To the lady that left her panties at the bus stop, i have to say I'm confused. I mean, did something happen? were you getting fucked and just forgot them? Bladder problems? Girl trouble? I mean please, i am fucking mystified. Sitting there smoking a cigarette and like a bad accident i keep staring at these dirty balled up panties... Fuck, i have never left my boxers anywhere in public... if i soil myself i have the common coutesy to throw that shit away... heh.. Anyways, i just want you to know that i dont like you, and think next time you should keep your panties with you... that is all. Sincerely Shannon Six

And On A Note To My Recent Blog!
last night i found out my mom got into a 6 car accident . her car is totaled ! someone hit her she spun around hit someone else then hoped the curb and hit 3 cars in the ron bouchards car dealership. the 2 actual people that hit her and she hit were both arrested for havein outstandin warrents and then the cop looked at my mom and said "thanks for doin your civic duty ! weve been lookin for these too for awhile .you got 2 bad people off the street thanks!" my mother looked at him and said "what the hell good is that to my car!" lol gotta love my mom lol but she is fine lil bumbs and bruses and my sis is fine she was in the car too . lol you could say it was a very long night lol

And Oldie But Still A Fave
What did you think I would do at this moment When you're standing before me With tears in your eyes? Trying to tell me that you Have found you another And you just don't love me no more What did you think I would say at this moment When I'm faced with the knowledge That you just don't love me Did you think I would curse you? Or say things to hurt you? Cause you just don't love me no more Did you think I could hate you? Or raise my hands to you? Now come on, you know me too well How could I hurt you When darling, I love you And you know... I'd never hurt you What do you think, I would give at this moment? If you'd stay I'd subtract twenty-years from my life I'd fall down on my knees Kiss the ground that you walk on If I could just hold you again I'd fall down on my knees Kiss the ground that you walk on, baby If I could just hold you...again

And One More Time
aha, due to this attack of anger, deception, sadness, or whatever you want to call it, i need to do something drastically changes make me feel better, and well, this is not a big one but will help like a candy when your preassure is down... just need to keep walking, like when a princess got one of the heels broke and everyone is watching: keep walking, smiling and with your chin up: weakness is not allowed now you can go visit my NSFW blog, it's marked as nsfw and viewable for friends, so if you got nsfw down or you're not in my list, you wont be able to read it either it has 2 stories for now, i wrote them... i have few more, but still didn't put them here but i promise to post more in the future CLICK HERE TO GO TO "grrrrr hot ;)" BLOG Note: this stories are real :) suffer ;)

And One Mroe Time!
yes, tomorrow one more blood test and one more urine test and a magnetic resonance of my tummy (stomach,liver and all there).... there are many things wrong with me... lets hope they can find what....

And On The Eighth Day
>God Creates the First Teacher > >On the 6th day, God created men and women. >On the 7th day, he rested. > >Not so much to recuperate, but rather to prepare himself for the work he >was going to do on the next day. >For it was on that day - the 8th day - that God created the FIRST TEACHER. > >This TEACHER, though taken from among men and women, had several >significant modifications. >In general, God made the TEACHER more durable than other men and women. > >The TEACHER was made to arise at a very early hour and to go to bed no >earlier than 11:30 p.m.-with no rest in between. The TEACHER had to be able >to withstand being locked up in an air-tight classroom for six hours with a >room full of antsy students on a rainy Monday. And the TEACHER h ad to be >fit to correct 103 term papers over Spring break. > >Yes, God made the TEACHER tough...but gentle too. >The TEACHER was equipped with soft hands to wipe away the tears of the >neglected and lone

And Out Of Nowhere.....
And out of nowhere..a song sings in the middle of the night..and I remember ..your smile..your kiss..your touch..so much time has past...sooo much time..and the tears still fall..my heart still crumbles..how could you steal my heart and walk away..break through every wall..and leave me standing..alone..your love like none I've ever known..beautifull and warm..strong and soft..you broke thru me effortlessly..filled my heart with so much happiness...my soul with peace..my world with laughter..you ..showed me what being in love really is..love..the memories like yesterday... a I thought I had let you go...and...out of nowhere..a song sings in the middle of the night...the tears fall so effortlessly..still.... Myspace Layouts :: Funny Videos :: Music Video Codes

And Open Invite To The Gang From Fireman185 And Myself To Join The Furious Fighting Fire Fighters
HEYA ALL YALL CRAZY COWGIRLS AN COWBOYS OF CT WELL AS YOU SEE FIREMAN185 HAS ASKED ME TO BE HIS SECOND IN CHARGE OF THE FURIOUS FIGHTING FIREFIGHTERS OF CHERRY TAP AND WELL WE HAD TALKED EARLIER AND WE'D BOTH LIKE TO EXTEND A WARM INVITE TO THE THE COWGIRLS AND COWBOYS OF CHERRY TAP TO JOIN THE FFF OF CT BEING THAT HES MY SECOND IN CHARGE AND WE BOTH LOVE YOU ALL TO DEATH SO IF YOU COMMEND FIREFIGHTING AND SUPPORT FIREFIGHTERS THEN PLEASE FEEL FREE TO JOIN UP AS WE'D LOVE TO HAVE YALL IN BOTH WE WANNA THANK YOU BOTH FOR STICKING WITH US AN THE GANG WE ARE BOTH SLOWLY STARTING TO GET BACK INTO THE ROLE OF THINGS HERE ON CT AND I JUST WANNA LET YOU ALL KNOW THE COWGIRLS AND COWBOYS OF CT ARE MY FIRST AND FOREMOST CONCERN AND I AM DEALING WITH THE ISSUES THAT OCCURED THE OTHER DAY AND I WANT TO EXTEND AND AN APOLOGY TO EVILANGEL FOR WHAT SHE HAD TO DEAL WITH AS MYSELF FIREMAN AN ROUGH NECK ARE TAKING CARE OF THIS RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE SPOKEN TO THAT MEMBER AND HAVE ASKED THEM TO REMOVE TH

Andolicious
rant rant rav rav.....I like my Andy babe...hes the shit don't ca' know....now stop drop and roll cause I'm on fire down in my soul yeah that's why this is called randomness....anyways I just wanted to say that this man Andy man...Captian Butthead of the world rules...and he is the only kind of his bread, so everyone else is screwed I got the last model on sale at Big Lots bitches!! =0)

And One More
Tim is being too nice with me :D another one for me! i saw the heavens and i drew my picture why was she there i blocked my mind i saw the heavens and i saw the picture in my mind but can i draw her, only time can tell who will she be why is it my dream where can i see this girl or is just my dreams why does she seem so real can we talk, can we? will that ever happen between my love?

And One Person Helped
So Its Fathers Day I leveled up today but this morning I had 1700 left and posted for some help, you know you have seen them before, only 2800 left to level!! come help , come help me, come help her! go show him some love ...ok I'm not going to bitch all night, about this just going to say Only one of my friends helped me not even on my family list,but they will be on there and some of you are coming off how sad. what did I do to you? ok, hey send me your links to help you out in your next contest or please let me help you level up, Ill give you 11s rate your stash, and then Ill just expect that you forget me when I ask for help, thank you very much, and happy fathers day to me.

The 1 And Only Cherry Express Rides Again!
~~CONDUCTOR'S MESSAGE~~ we ride again enjoy Justa - Club FAR Familia & BBG's Fan Train Rider@ CherryTAP **every time a new private cart is added all carts drop one space.this train costs 7 day blast to join. do not sendme anything.till we speak.if u would like to ride free contact me..ps jusr add and fan me ill try to do the same..but i rarley get to rate back.i have dial up and try not to leave my home page.but ido shout..so your selcome to say hi and ill respond If At Anytime, You Want Your Cart Moved To The Top...1 Sticky, also...if you want to be conductor again just schedule a day and sticky your train ************************************************* private cart reserved for 2 Justa - Club FAR Familia & BBG's Fan Train Rider@ CherryTAP ************************************************* PRIVATE CART RESERVED FOR ANGEL~BABY PLUS 2 ☆ANGEL~BABY☆ ®™ (CT BAD B*TCH) PLZ RATE MY PROFILE **TEAM SHOCKER**@ CherryTAP **PR Mamii****Team Shocker**@ Cherry

And One To Finish For The Weekend
Otherwise known as complex issues, I have realized in the past few weeks that the end was coming for where my friend Angel worked. I knew in my heart the daycare where she was working was bound to close, and the inevitable has happened. Why we are not sure. But one thing is definitely for certain. We both had more thought out about it than the owner probably did. We both realized when the talks had started that the previous owner MIGHT get the daycare back, which is not saying that it wouldn't. We felt that was going to be the worst case scenario. Which we assumed was not an option for the lack of trying. We know the previous owner didn't want it back. It all goes with the territory. There are things you learn when you start a daycare and if you know within five years that the daycare isn't making the profit it should be, then yes you know your time is up and it's obviously time to move on to another venture. What Angel didn't realize is that when I got out of the daycare I DIDN'T

~~and On The Lighter Side~~
Only in America ......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front. Only in America ......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke. Only in America ......do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters. Only in America! ......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage. Only in America ......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight. Only in America ......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'. Only in America ......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering. EVERWONDER .... Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin ? Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed? Why don't you ever see the

And One More Freakin Thing....
If I sit here to take the freakin time to actually Rate/Fan/Add/Rate your pics... at least take the fucking time out of your "busy" schedules to at least accept my fan request, maybe drop by my page, rate my profile, maybe rate a pic or two, some stash... I take my fucking time to do it to your page, show some consideration. *jumping off the soapbox*

And One More Thing....
To all my wonderful "friends" on here.... I joined this site to help out a friend... and unfortunately for me the picture that I posted is one of the few that I have. I took it after I had my son and for those of you who know anything about having babies, a girls boobs get HUGE after having a kid...sooo please dont ask me for dirty pics or x-rated talk. Just buy me a drink and I'll do the same for you. Yes...I am MARRIED *gasp* and as far as I know there are married people on here right? LOL...so take a cold shower, drink a beer, and lets have some nice chats about nothing......

70 And 90% Off
hey there fubar people, just wanted to let you all know that if you live close to a Dollar General store, you need to go check out the big sales. 70% off summer/spring clothes and shoes. 70% off last years winter clothes 70% off certain housewares 70% off spring flowers and some garden supplies and best of all 90% off swim toys!! googles are only 10 cents!!

And One More Thing
you all know we just moved...well, our dogs bark all the time at night. It gets frustrating~! We just thought it was them not used to being in this new place...well on the way home we came over the RR tracks behind the house and there stood 1...2...3 deer! Just as pretty as can be at 10 at night. One did kinda shy away further but 2 of them just stood there looking at us. Of course the dogs were going crazy. There are some woods beside our house and then the tracks. It was weird seeing deer this close to town. At the other house it wasn't unusual seeing deer in the yard under the tree because we lived in the country. Now I know why the dogs bark all the time~!

And One More...for The Hell Of It.
IF U HAD ME AL0NE... Body: IF U HAD ME AL0NE... L0CKED UP IN Y0UR R00M F0R TWENTY-F0UR H0URS & WE COULD DO WHATEVER YOU WANTED, WHAT W0ULD Y0U D0 WITH ME? TELL ME IN MY INBOX... CUZ ITS A SECRET... THEN REPOST THIS IN YOUR BULLETIN... YOU MIGHT BE SUPRISED WITH THE RESPONSES YOU GET. THEY COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH OR EVEN SMILE .. LOL. IF YOU DONT REPOST THIS YOU ARE A COWARD. REPOST IT SAYING... IF U HAD ME ALONE

And On The 8th Day........
"And on the seventh day the lord did drive his Ranchero, and it came to pass that he popped the hood to gaze upon the Cleveland he had created, and he saw that it was good. And the serpent was upon the motor, for there were 8 venturis, and this too was good. So the Lord closed the hood and did drive from the garden of Dearborn, until he came to the house of Chevrolet where Satan was complaining that his cam had walked through his tin can timing cover. And the Lord didst ask "Why art thou persisting with such heresy? Turn thee to the light, and see that it is blue". And satan grunted, for his waterpump-on-a-stick didst fall upon him, and he was of foul humour. Seeing this, the Lord didst spin his tires all the way into 4th, and lo Satan was enshrouded in a curious blue mist that not being of oil, didst confuse him, and he was unable to see the light. And so it came to pass that satan remained loyal to the house of Chevrolet". Amen.

And Old Poem From Me
clear shot by me I am standing in the front of the firing squad Though mine is the only loaded gun pointed pressed against my temple. I twitch as I am weighted down by the indecision of squeezing the trigger. To allow my thoughts to so freely float around the room splatter the walls, incriminate the space with deep crimsons that drip delightfully to the bottom of existence. What a mess could be made with such a simple gesture of things time has not for regret. MRRCP 2002

And One From Today
How much older than you is the first person on your top? 3 1/2 years. Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight? I talk to the people I love daily. Do you own a computer? Several Why is your myspace song what it is? I don't even remember what it is. And I couldn't find the one I wanted. Do you swallow gum when you're done with it? No, and I don't chew gum. Where was your default picture taken? My house Do you like messages or comments better? If it's private, send it in a message. Otherwise, leave a comment. Who was your last call from? None today. What woke you up this morning? Freaking LOUD neighbors upstairs... yet again. Last time you went out of town? Yesterday. What is your current mood? Tired, and more than slightly pissed off that the people upstairs seem to have NO courtesy for the other people living here. What color shirt are you wearing? Pink tank top Ever had a near death ex

And One From Pete
1. DO YOU LIVE IN A HOUSE OR AN APARTMENT? Apartment 2. WOULD YOU SAY IT IS BIG OR SMALL? Big.. 3 bedrooms. 3. DO YOU HAVE A WELCOME MAT? Not that I'm aware of. 4. DOES IT SAY SOMETHING? N/A 5. DO YOU HAVE A DISHWASHER OR DO YOU HAVE TO DO YOUR DISHES BY HAND? We have a dishwasher but it doesn't work.. We use it to put wet dishes until they dry. 6. HOW MANY PLANTS DO YOU HAVE INSIDE? 5 or 6? 7. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE THAT YOU PUT YOUR KEYS? Desk or purse 8. IS YOUR REFIGERATOR STOCKED WITH ANYTHING? Food, condiments, beverages. 9. WHERE DO YOU KEEP YOUR BREAD? counter 10. IS YOUR BATHROOM CLEAN? Yep 11. WHAT IS YOUR BATHROOM'S THEME? Navy blue and pale yellow 12. HOW MANY RUGS DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR DWELLING SPACE? 5? 13. DO YOU KNOW YOUR NEIGHBORS? No 14. IF SO DO YOU GET ALONG WITH THEM? N/A 15. ARE THERE

And On The Eighth Day God Commanded
God said, "Adam, I Want you to do Something for Me." Adam said, "Gladly, Lord, what do You Want me to do?" God said, "Go down Into that valley." Adam said, "What's a Valley?" God explained it to Him. Then God said, "Cross the river." Adam said, "What's a River?" God explained that To him, and then said, "Go over to the hill...." Adam said, "What is a Hill?" So, God explained to Adam what a hill was. He told Adam, "On The other side of the Hill you will find a Cave." Adam said, "What's a Cave?" After God explained, He said, "In the cave You will find a woman." Adam said, "What's a Woman?" So God explained That to him, too. Then, God said, "I Want you to Reproduce." Adam said, "How do I do that?" God first said (under His breath), "Geez....." And then, just like Everything else, God Explained that to Adam, as well. So, Adam goes do

And One More Thing.
->mikeymyea: Sorry sweety, you're not good enough for my yahoo. mikeymyea: yo, what's your yahoo? And Pat's sister actually created extra Myspace accounts just so she could try and message back to me. lmao So pathetic is hilarious.

And Our Elevens Too
Right so Im accomplished albeit slightly ill right now but thats another issue!!!!!!!!! So as you have all gathered by my pics I like to make for friends and family on here and some of you (you know who you are Barb!) like to rate 11 on nearly all of them and then run out of 11s by noon, any way moving swiftly on, unless the picture contains you DONT RATE 11 rate 10 and there fore your elevens will last longer. I really dont mind as long as long as you dont rate lower than 9!!!!!!!!! I KNOW YOU LOVE ME and you all rock but please stop wasting 11s on my pics hey how about you rate this one (minus rates allowed!!!!!!) Leave rates in comments below Im feeling I want a bottle of wine right now any offers????

And Old Country Preacher
An old country preacher had a teenage son, and it was getting time the boy should give some thought to choosing a profession. Like many young men his age, the boy didn't really know what he wanted to do, and he didn't seem too concerned about it. One day, while the boy was away at school, his father decided to try an experiment. He went into the boy's room and placed on his study table four objects. 1. A bible. 2. A silver dollar. 3.. A bottle of whiskey. 4. And a Playboy magazine. "I'll just hide behind the door," the old preacher said to himself. "When he comes home from school today, I'll see which object he picks up. If it's the bible, he's going to be a preacher like me, and what a blessing that would be! If he picks up the dollar, he's going to be a business man, and that would be okay, too. But if he picks up the bottle, he's going to be a no-good drunken bum, and Lord, what a shame that would be. And worst of all if he picks up that magazin

And One More Note, Lol.
Because, I kinda have to. These words are as much influenced by Uncle Hank as Uncle Steve;I just hope I can even attempt to capture that razor-edge clarity.If I succeed, thank them.If I fail, 'tis my fault. (Uncles Hank and Stephen being Monsieurs Rollins and King, respectively.And while they're not blood they're as much family as any of you are.Which is to say, probably damn good company in a pinch.) Correction;DEFINATELY good company when shit gets hinky.Same way I'd trust you, my friends, to have my back during Ragnarok.Hells, we probably WON'T win that one, lol.But we'll damn well die WELL.And our names shall be legend.

And Out Of My Dreams Came You
Deep in silence, one night fall When the moon sat still, and shone bright Came the utterance of one single moonbeam At my window... tapping ever so light And in the flicker of one swift instant I felt it's warming embrace It encompassed me and then I trembled As before me appeared your gorgeous face The the radiance of that gentle smile The love shinning from yours eyes Began to penetrate with the moonlight Straight through me, to deafen my cries Now, no longer am I lonely With each night fall there is you and love so true In the darkness, I seek out my moonbeam And ouf of my dreams came.... you. Samantha Lewey

And On And On And On
dotson: need to see more of you and your baby:P Me: Pardon? dotson: the pics of you and your baby are hot...would be nice to see more of you two together Me: There would be more, but he's not at home right now for us to take any. And thanks for the compliment. dotson: no problem. would love to see some steamy one's:) Me: That's not going to happen.

And On The 7th Day God Said Thou Shalt Exploit Thy Neighbor
Life is all about exploitation, give what you have to and take all you can. no human encounter or relationship will ever deviate from this ideal. you stay in a commited relationship only for what you can take from the other person. only for what that person is willing to give you. when there is nothing left worth taking you walk out and find a new pet to take all your needs from. humans are selfish manipulative creatures. and yes i said creatures. no matter what you think it will not change that fact. we are the only creature not interested in any natural law. survival of the fittest has become survival of the fattest, minority is now majority. and sex still remains a dirty little secret. every body has it everybody wants it, and we all want to talk about it but SHHHHHH its a secret. dont let anyone see or hear you might offend your neighbor who uses sex to produce the maximum allowable spawns to collect the maximum amount of public aid. we work hard and play harder just

[and Other Mild Catastrophes]
Dog's ear is gettin worse.Called my dad and told him to expect me soon. Vet visits there are still 1/2 what I pay here, and I was gonna be down there to see my goddaughter and friend soon anyway.Oh the exciting life of smalltown Kansas.I gotta pay bills and mail off a couple trades.I'm in a bad mood as it is. Being forced to worry about or do anything is not going to improve my mood.I should probably grab a book or two.Things areslooooooooooooooooowdown yonder.And I might wind up being there all of April....yeah...I better grab a dozen books.I haven't quite formed all of my opinions yet.Been up 30 hours again. Fuzzy.I'll probably be scarce.

And On Yearbook Yesterday, And There`s More Then Just Breat Cancer Women Face !
and there`s more then just breast cancer women face, 13 hours ago · Comment · Like · View Becky Leuallen 12 hours ago Cancer Home Pages Information about treatment, prevention, genetics, screening, clinical trials, literature, research, and statistics for cancers that occur mainly in women, as well as other cancers Breast Cervical Endometrial Gestational Trophoblastic Tumor Ovarian Uterine Sarcoma Vaginal Vulvar All Cancer Types Becky Leuallen 12 hours ago http://www.cancer.gov/cancertopics/types/womenscancers

And Out Came Me
Two teenage girls, decided to take a ride. With two other teenage boys, in a strange place at night. What started out innocent, quickly turned into something more. One of them awakened by the slamming, of a door. She woke up alone, her cousin was nowhere in sight. Her heart began to race, as she was filled with fright. Pitch black was her surroundings, the moon lit up the trees. As one of the boys approached the vehicle, she longed to be free. For she was his prisoner, the back of his truck was her cage. Even the fear could not contain, her rage. The other boy walked out, of the woods. She called out her cousins name, but it did no good. For they only laughed and said, call out all you like. She can’t hear a word you’re saying, she’s no longer alive. The girl screamed out with emotion, as he climbed on top. She gripped an empty beer bottle, an attempt to make him stop. Quickly over the side, she went. Running through the darkness, th

And Of The Separation As Well...
i can't stand thisbeing shut up in a cageeven in my best behaviormy insides boil with rageon a daily basisi pretend to bea vague and whisper'd shadowof what i think is melike a dog inside a pena bark signals nothingin remembrance of what not whenthe sound falls upon deaf earsthree times the energy of thosewho would seek to containmy nakedness bares my soulfuck the thought restrainedtwice the dragonof what one can swallowequates six times the sorrowthere is not one who can followthere is not one, not a single oneat least not that i can seeso when each day is over with and doneit is i alone, and down on my knees

And Proud Of It
You are 28% easy You are not very easy. You like to at least date someone before sleeping with them. For you, sex is about more than just the pleasure, although you do get a lot of pleasure from it. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

59 And Pregnant
A woman went to the doctor's office, where she was seen by a young, new doctor. After about 4 minutes in the examination room, the doctor told her she was pregant. She burst out, screaming as she ran down the hall. An older doctor stopped her and asked what the problem was, and she told him her story. After listening, he had her sit down and relax in another room. The doctor marched down the hallway to the back where the first doctor was and demanded, "What's the matter with you? Mrs. Terry is 59 years old, she has four grown children and seven grandchildren, and you told her she was pregnant?" The new doctor continued to write on his clipboard and without looking up said, "Does she still have the hiccups?

And People Wonder Where We Get Our Ideas...
Warning, the video I link to is disturbing in a highly interesting way. But it is definitely inspiring. See video of an eight armed little girl here Also, last week's issue of TIME has an excellent article about inventions/innovations that have come to reality this past year. Scifi readers and writer will probably find some great inspiration there. Some of my favorites are: A wind and solar powered car. (available in 2008) A hybrid steam engine. (prototype) Methane-fueled engine for rockets ships and probes with plans to carry little fuel then just “fill up” from another planet's or moon's atmosphere. (prototype) The StarChase Pursuit Management system, a laser-guided GPS launcher to end high speed pursuits by tagging the fugitive and then planning a better way to stop them. (Available early 2008) Expresso Book Machine, perhaps this should be in a longer post later, but if problems like not enough books being available or this being used as yet another way to self publish

And People Expect Justice From The Courts (email)
found this tidbit EVANSVILLE, Indiana (AP) -- An inmate serving a life sentence for molesting and murdering a 10-year-old girl named Katie was apparently forcibly tattooed across the forehead by a fellow prisoner with the words "KATIE'S REVENGE," authorities say. Anthony Ray Stockelman, 39, was removed from the general prison population for his own safety last weekend after authorities discovered the tattoo, officials said.

And Please Don't Call Me 'sir'...
being on the road right now, i was staying in Taos, New Mexico for a couple days....the night before last and the night previous. the first night there i stayed in a local motel, where i met a rather interesting person, formerly of buffalo new york, where i'd lived for 6 years while my father interned there. the day before, in brandon manitoba, there was an event of unfathomable horror which had just taken place. a young man of a similar age as that of my son got onto a greyhound bus-one that my son is very familiar with, having taken it so many times-and proceeded to sit in the very back, putting on his headphones and discman to listen to tunes and zone out. a man of about 40 got on the bus, having stowed his luggage and proceeded to the back, sitting next to the young man. from witnesses, he was quiet, polite and friendly. friend from buffalo had joined the army and other military factions, eventually being discharged for medical reasons, after having done at least one tour of

And People Wonder Why People Turn Their Shout Boxes Off....
This guy asked me for my Yahoo ID and when i told him No REPEATEDLY he started to become frustrated with me and felt the need to be an ass. Theres the link to this guys page if any of you wanna block him as well. http://fubar.com/user/826770# p.s. Why is it that when someone first meets you they feel the need to say all the nice things about you, but the moment you say no your a "fat ass bitch" haha I LOVE IT!

And People Wonder Why I Dont Like Religion
A NINE-YEAR-OLD girl who was carrying twins, allegedly after being raped by her stepfather, underwent an abortion today despite complaints from Brazil's Roman Catholic church. Police said the stepfather has been jailed since last week, the Associated Press (AP) reported. Abortion is illegal in Brazil, but judges can make exceptions if the mother's life is in danger or the fetus has no chance of survival. Fatima Maia, director of the public university hospital where the abortion was performed, said the 15-week-old pregnancy posed a serious risk to the 36-kilogram girl, AP reported. "She is very small. Her uterus doesn't have the ability to hold one, let alone two children," Ms Maia told the Jornal do Brasil newspaper. But Marcio Miranda, a lawyer for the Archdiocese of Olinda and Recife in northeastern Brazil, said the girl should have carried the twins to term and had a cesarean section, AP reported. News Source

And Peoplewonder Why I Dont Go To Church
Church of 'Holy Ghost' rocked by sex and assassination allegations KSL TV News, Utah/July 2, 2009 By John Hollenhorst Magna - Accusations of sex abuse and assassination threats are swirling around a small religious group led by a man who claims to be the Holy Ghost. He calls the charges a pack of lies, but they prompted a raid by the Secret Service, the FBI, and child protection investigators. Six weeks ago, officers surrounded and searched the Church of the Firstborn and the General Assembly of Heaven's headquarters in Magna, interrogating members for hours. According to the Salt Lake County Sheriff's Office, they found nothing. If the charges are lies, they reveal a most unusual church, torn apart by bitter personal and religious feuds. Two weeks ago, KSL News trailed the church's members as they left Utah in a convoy of vehicles. It was a long-planned move at the direction of their prophet, Terrill Dalton, who says it's been revealed he's the Holy Ghost and the father of Jesus

Andrea
It was during spring, I remember, the time I met Andrea, that magical and wonderful time I met my darling angel. The leaves on the trees turning into a myriad shades of green and there buds peeping shyly from every branch of every tree. I had been waiting at Nino's, the coffee shop, for my boyfriend but, as usual, he was late. The waitress that had brought my coffee kept coming over to check if I needed anything else and, after the third time, I noticed that she had the loveliest dimples: they were like twin shadows that played hide and seek on her cheeks. She was slender without being thin and she looked to be about 24 (I'm 32). I watched secretly from where I sat, watched as she moved from table to table. I was surprised at the familiar tingle in the base of my belly, that good old warmth that started spreading slowly through my groin. I squeezed my legs together and I felt the pleasure surge upwards. What was this? Was this really me, horny at the sight of a 'dimpledwaitress' swi

Andre And The Mojo
Miss Bonzel was known to be a woman of spiritual power, but the nature and source of that power were matters of some discussion. She lived in a large, unfurnished house that had been bequeathed to her by a man who had the misfortune to be eaten by an alligator shortly after finalizing his will. His relatives took the furniture upon notice of his demise. On this particular day, Miss Bonzel answered a knock at her door. A fair-haired boy of seven years stood before her. "Who are you?" she demanded. "I'm Andre Jolevett," he replied. "Why you comin to see me?" "My mama's sick." "Your mama send you here?" "No." "The doctor been to see your mama?" Miss Bonzel inquired. "Yeah, but Doctor Pardieu didn't do nothin but tell her to get some rest. She been in bed for more than a week and she aint no better. I think maybe someone put a mojo on her." Miss Bonzel studied the boy suspiciously. "Did you bring me some money?" she asked. "I don't have no money, but I'

Andrew W.k.-i Love Music
I want you to remember all the things that i said I want you to remember you're not better off dead You only have a minute to go back in the line To bring it on home and make up your mind I want you to remember what you came here to do I want you to remember that im talking about you I Love Music and I Love To feel I love to get through, I love to get through I Love Music and I Love To Yell In my soul I am running getting nearer For many years of only hope you'd never leave You are my faith you are my friend you are my family and I am coming So we can live forever more in total love You're in my soul (you're in my soul) And i am running (i am running) Getting nearer (i am always gettin nearer) For many years (for many years) Of only hope (of only hope) You'd never leave (for many years i hoped you'd never leave) You are my faith (my faith) You are my friend (my friend) You are my family (my family) And i am coming (and i am coming) So we can

Andromeda Galaxy Taken
it was a long and difficult campaign, but my fleets have successfully taken over the Andromeda galaxy. Due to their high concentration of banking planets and metal rich solar systems will have the money and raw materials to expand my military might. Wohoo

Andrew W.k.-we Want Fun
Well if we had our own willing way to go You'd be doing things, and hoping theres antidote! When we saw that we'd give you it all! we're thinkin' you're a lady, yankin' our chains an' all!*** We can get a try! We can get a try! with a 1, 2, 3 You'd be startin' to drown! We can clear the floor We'd give you a bangin' ladies and gentelmen do it together! We want you to give us something more... You have to lay down on us! We want us to get up off the floor... Don't ever lay down on it! We don't want to ever live or die! We gotta get out we can make it today you gotta HEY! HEY! HEY! HEY! make it today! We want fun and you better believe it! We want fun 'cos we desperately need it! We want fun, but you dont understand... ... you gotta HEY! HEY! HEY! HEY! make me a man! We want fun and you better believe it! We want fun either take it, or leave it! We want fun, and we're gonna get pasted! We want to have fun, and we want to get wasted! When we had the tim

Andrew W.k.-not Going To Bed
Upcoming single from Close Calls With Brick Walls, the wild mother fucker is back, but he never actually left. For the last 3 years, he's been in Japan doing promotional work and recording new stuff while putting out a few dvds featuring all the chaos. Get rid of the coffee and check him out.

Andrew W.k.-never Let Down
Never wanna break your heart Never wanna make you cry Never wanna give up and die Even if you can't stand up Even if you lose your life I'm a friend by your side You're never gonna be alone You can never let down Never let down You can never let down Never let down Never wanna make mistakes Never wanna do no wrong Never have a place to belong And I'm never gonna leave you out If you ever lose your way Not alone or betrayed I'm always gonna be around You can never let down Never let down You're doing alright You're doing ok Just follow your heart And don't run away You can never let down You're doing alright You're doing ok Just follow your heart And don't run away You can never let down You're doing alright You're doing ok Just follow your heart And don't run away Never wanna break your heart ---------------- Andrew W.K. Music VideosMusic Video Codes by VideoCure I would have the courage to fight Satan at the gates of Hell

Andrea Questions
private message if ya wanna..i took it from somewhere 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Are you a virgin? 5. How tall are ya ? 6. Do you like to dance ?? HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 11.Would you walk on the beach with me? 12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 13. Do you/have you talk junk about me? 14. Do you think I'm a good person? 15. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)[no sex]? 16.Would you let anything happen in that bed? 17.Do you think I'm handsome ? 18. If you could change anything about me -would you? 19.Would you die for me? 20.Would you come over for no reaso

Andre Maurois
A happy marriage is a long conversation which always seems too short. Andre Maurois A successful marriage is an edifice that must be rebuilt every day. Andre Maurois An artist must be a reactionary. He has to stand out against the tenor of the age and not go flopping along. Andre Maurois Business is a combination of war and sport. Andre Maurois Conversation would be vastly improved by the constant use of four simple words: I do not know. Andre Maurois Growing old is no more than a bad habit which a busy person has no time to form. Andre Maurois If you create an act, you create a habit. If you create a habit, you create a character. If you create a character, you create a destiny. Andre Maurois If you value a man's regard, strive with him. As to liking, you like your newspaper - and despise it. Andre Maurois In literature as in love, we are astonished at what is chosen by others. Andre Maurois Lost Illusion is the undisclosed title o

An Andrew Lloyd Webber Classic
I was able to find Andrew Lloyd Webber's classical Rock Opera Jesus Christ Superstar (1973 Version)Too bad it is in small sections and not 1 complete movie. This might not get the same name recognition as Phantom of the Opera, but it is still an Andrew Lloyd Webber's classic Here is the Movie Trailer. Oh BTW: The rest is in my stash, sorry I didn't find them in order. Enjoy, David WolfEagle1499™@ CherryTAP

...and Recording For All- Metallica Studio Update
...AND RECORDING FOR ALL 3/14/2007 [ back ] Metallica left the comfort of HQ this week to descend upon the greater Los Angeles area to begin recording their 9th original album. This is the first time they've recorded outside of the Bay Area since they spent an eternity at One-On-One Studios recording The Black Album in '90 and '91. The last couple days have been devoted to each band member working out the right sounds, including Lars who remembered to turn on the snare and Kirk who played a solo! The big, shiny red button was finally pushed today - and the wait begins.

Andrew B. Soccer Star.
Ha! Not hardly... but i did score a goal, that was caught on HD video by scott. i'm hoping it doesn't look like a complete accident. Last night the Fashion Valley store played the Otay Ranch store in a game of soccer. This was the first game between the two stores. And thanks to brandon excellent ability as goalie, we were able to pull out an 8 to 5 victory. *** now a brief break for an goofy subject line in a spam e-mail purposely mispelled to avoid junk filters. *** "Shemlae blnode grbas her coock" *** and now back to your regularly scheduled update *** Leave it up to a soccer game to let you know just how out of shape you actually are. I don't mean physically out of shape, i'm actually quite happy with the direction my physical appearance is going in... but damned if i wasn't winded after 15 minutes of running. that game is very humbling. There are some "physical activites" where i can go for an hour or more... but soccer isn't one of them. So i'll probably be

Andre Agassi Hits Wife With Tennis Racket
I bet he makes her tell her friends that she fell down the steps. He can't be looking bad in the public eye. Image is everything. "Steffi Graf required three stitches Sunday after husband Andre Agassi inadvertently hit her in the face with his racket during a fundraiser that followed the final of the U.S. Clay Court Championships. Graf and Agassi were holding hands -- her left to his right -- while rallying with a couple of youngsters when Agassi's follow-through struck his wife in the face." Right. Inadvertent. Ted Kennedy inadvertently drove into an ocean channel once, too.

Androgyny
ANDROGYNE Definition: A biological condition resulting from hormonal miscues during fetal washing of the brain during gender identity development. The patient postnatally merges both polar gender identities displaying an assortment of both masculine and feminine qualities. Alternative names: third sex; unisex What is a person who is Androgyne? A person psychologically, intrinsically and socially intermediate between male and female, displaying physical traits and manifesting a merging of the roles traditionally stereotyped as belonging to male and female. The primary difference between people who are Androgyne and other individuals is that they cannot live life fully as either men or woman because they are intrinsically both genders. Is there a biological basis for Androgynes? Yes. The biological basis for the inborn condition stems from an interaction between the developing brain and sex hormones in the first trimester. There is the formation of a gender syste

Andrew Jackson And America's Shameful Indian Policies
Andrew Jackson and America's Shameful Indian Policies Early in the 19th century, while the rapidly-growing United States expanded into the lower South, white settlers faced what they considered an obstacle. This area was home to the Cherokee, Creek, Choctaw, Chicasaw and Seminole nations. These Indian nations, in the view of the settlers and many other white Americans, were standing in the way of progress. Eager for land to raise cotton, the settlers pressured the federal government to acquire Indian territory. Andrew Jackson, from Tennessee, was a forceful proponent of Indian removal. In 1814 he commanded the U.S. military forces that defeated a faction of the Creek nation. In their defeat, the Creeks lost 22 million acres of land in southern Georgia and central Alabama. The U.S. acquired more land in 1818 when, spurred in part by the motivation to punish the Seminoles for their practice of harboring fugitive slaves, Jackson's troops invaded Spanish Florida. From

Andrea
Andrea,lady so sweet. Gorgeous in all ways,glad i was able to meet. As beautiful as a sunset that she always glows. A Heart so big,it blossoms like a Rose. A precious Jewel,that's what you are. Eyes so hypnotyzing,like a Dimond,can be seen from a far. Blessed us with two beautiful gifts who are our world. Sapphire and Jazmyn,our two wonderful girls. Once together but now apart. Still my Friend,but most important,a woman i love who will always have my Heart. Thank you for everything,lady of my life. Exspecially the Nine years,though now getting Divorced,for being my Wife. My eyes are crying as i write and now sobbing wet. Due to my joy for you,Andrea.A lady so sweet,that i'm glad i met.Just up got on here decided to write thinking of you. Got on here and decided this is my tribute to us,and was imspired to do. Love you my Friend,always will. Just know for you my Heart will always stand still.Andrea,lady so sweet. Hot as can be,though far away but together soon,all the way from here i ca

Andrew C. Mccarthy
June 26, 2006, 7:31 a.m. They’re Just More Important Than You Are Are any secrets more important than the New York Times’s sources? By Andrew C. McCarthy The echo trails off the last defiantly gleeful chorus of “We Are the World.” Reality stubbornly dawns on you: There really are bad people out there. They are the world, too. And they want to kill you. They refuse to be reasoned with. They can afford to. They’re not a country. They don’t have to worry about defending a territory. They are seeped into places that can’t be bombed into submission. They are the world, after all. They are the children — or at least hidden among them. No “Mutually Assured Destruction” here. No, you have only one defense: Intelligence. Superpower power is useless. What are you gonna do? Hit them where they live? Bomb Hamburg? Bomb London? Bomb New York? Not an option. Your nukes, stealth fighters, carpet bombers … they’re largely irrelevant. This is not about killing an advancing brigade.

Andras Pandy:
The Marc Dutroux case left the Belgian government reeling, so judges went back over old cases to see if serious errors had been made. They re-interviewed Agnes Pandy, the mousy then 38-year-old daughter of a protestant minister. Her whole demeanor made her easy to ignore. A lackluster young woman, blank unblinking eyes behind nondescript spectacles, she seemed to be the kind of person who wandered around the fringes of life, always overlooked. Perhaps she had issues with her father. She certainly had seemed a little odd when she first walked into police headquarters claiming that her father had turned her into his sex slave. Her tale was one of imaginable depravity. She talked of how her father, a bookish churchman, had raped her when she was just 13. Her will had been totally subjected to his. By the time she was finished talking, Agnes had implicated herself and her father in the murders of five family members. The body parts that would later be pulled from the mud in Pandy'

Andrew.
Andrew. What more can I say? He is the best guy out there in the world, he is the first person, first male in my life that I can actually say cares for me, the way I need them to. He’s so close to a father figure, something I haven’t known in 12 years. And it brings me to tears every time. He is someone I can call day or night, someone who will just sit there on the phone and let me cry and not ask questions, but just make it better. He’s the kind of guy who will, show up unannounced and say lets go for a drive. He is my guardian. He protects me in the time of need and he makes the tears stop for the time of joy. Ex-marine, so believe me when I say, you can’t make him do anything he doesn’t want to do. I’m his angel and he’ll protect me from end on. Andrew, you don’t know how much you mean to me, you don’t know how hard it is for me to trust you, for me to let you in, when all I’ve known from male father figures is heartache and pain. Please don’t hurt me like the others, please just

Android Oral
Android Oral by partyfairy © I watch him undress. Nervous, shaking slightly, his first time no doubt. I sit, quiet, legs crossed over one another, awaiting his instruction, perfectly still. He inserts the key card, processing the information I understand the request of course. A "number four" for our newbie; "A number four, oral pleasure, use of hands permitted. Maximum time allowed 10 minutes." I stand, shocking him slightly; he tries not to jump, to look alarmed at my graceful movement. Stepping towards him, I place my hand on his chest; I run cold, metallic fingers down his body and find his hand. I wrap my digits around his and turn him 180 degrees, slowly backing him up till he is forced to sit in the chair I had occupied moments before. As I kneel in front of him, he watches my every move; I can see fear in his eyes as well as excitement. He does not know what I am going to do next as I place my hands gently on his knees and apply outward pressure to part them. He

The Android
The Android by barbarianqueen © It was an odd store. There was junk and new things. And things she could not identify. And there was the tall, broad shouldered man in a corner. He seemed to be watching her. “Who is that over there?” she asked. The proprietor glanced over his shoulder. “Oh. That,” he said. “That’s an old android. Ain’t good for anything except to scare my lady customers.” He paused, looking at her speculatively. “Wanna see it closer?” She nodded. He picked up a remote and activated the android. He was graceful and good looking. He stopped and looked down at her. She looked up into his eyes and imagined she saw loneliness there. The proprietor mentioned a price. Well, at least she could afford it. He gave her the remote and an instruction manual. “And it’s as is,” he said. “No guarantees.” She said nothing. She took the remote and left with the android. She lived in an isolated area because she liked the quiet. The android followed her obediently, sat wh

Andrew Lee
Our Andrew Lee was bought in the world a month early. February 20th at 1:38 pm weighing in at 5 lbs 2.4 ounces 17 & 1/4 inches long. Thanks to all my friends you know who you are that helped with kids dogs and such, when in the crunch of getting to the hospital and not knowing what time we would be getting to go home. My sis and baby are fine baby is a lil small and is on oxygen just to help him out. Sis gets to come home tomorrow. Lil Andrew will get to come home in about 10-14 days, after he is winged from the oxygen and learns to suck on his own.I have in cluded some pics of the baby!!!!

Andrea Yates
Ok this bitch just pisses me off beyond belief and all her fuckin supporters telling me to "Feel sorry" for the bitch are out of there god damn minds!!!!! I mean come on now fucking feel sorry for her, the bitch drowned her 5 kids in a batht ub knowing full well it was wrong!!!! Depressed or not is not an excuse for murder. And that is what she is, a flat out murderer. Yes she does have mental issues. But so do we all at times. I have had times, when o0o0o0o I wanted just to shoot my parents and bury there bodies out in the middle of west virginia sticks. But have I ever done it NO!!!! Cause I know it is wrong and that I would be caught. She knew when she put that first child in the water and killed him that it was wrong. But did she stop with the one NO she put in her 4 other children and then layed them on the bed, except for the last which she left floating in the bathtub. Now does that sound like a sincere mother, to leave her dead child in a bathtub, lets just forget the f

Andrew's Hearing
Hi All! If you have read my blog in "Freaking Grrrr!!!" you will know what I'm rambling on about now. If you haven't read it yet, this might make more sense to you if you read that one first. ~Tomorrow~ I'm thinking about the hearing tomorrow, and trying to decide how I will handle the situation. In my past experiences dealing with school officials, I have found that they have made up their minds long before I walk through the door, and talking to them is like talking to a brick wall. Andrew has never been in trouble before, so I don't know what to expect with this meeting. BTW, the kid who attacked Andrew got 7 days out of school/tech. I'm not sure when his hearing is. He might get more. Anyway, I want to defend Andrew in what happened. He has been putting up with crap from this kid for the past 2 months. I want to know what the school is going to do to stop this kid from not only harrassing Andrew, but other people in the school too. Obviously Andrew's instruc

Andrew's Hearing Part 2
It went as I expected it would. The dean of students(not the one Andrew is buddies with...he came in later) and Andrew's instructor were there. The D of S told Andrew that he was not defending himself because he hit back. Apparently their definition of defending yourself is "trying to restrain the person who is attacking you". BS! Anyway, Andrew and I had to sign an agreement stating that we understand if he gets into a fight again, he will be kicked out of the Tech school permanently. Then they suggested that he sit down with the other kid and "talk out their differences". Are they kidding???? I asked the D of S and the instructor what they were going to do to prevent this kid from going after Andrew in the future. They told me they will have another adult in the classroom "once in a while" to keep an eye on things. Wow, now THAT makes me feel better! *eyeroll* They also told Andrew that if the other kid even looks at him funny, he needs to tell the instructor. Basically

And Reality Bites . . . . . . . .
Don’t you find it amusing how we tend to fall in love with those who are the absolute worst for us to fall for? We fall for those that we can’t have no matter how much we desire and long for them; we torture ourselves with the obsession much more than they ever could with their own words. We tend to get ourselves involved in less than ideal situations despite the fact that we know realistically that we never should. We get our hearts broken and our tongues tied of our own doing, the one we fall for does not make us fall for them . . . We do that on our own. Now, it is true that the ones we fall for may manipulate us in some way shape or form in order to make the attraction greater or to speed up the process but in the end that decision to love or care is laid at our feet and not theirs. I just went through all of this in my mind today when I had a free moment here and there . . . I didn’t obsess over it but I came to that conclusion. In the end the pain and disappointment I suf

Andre 2123 Tagged Me
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 15 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 10 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I am pregnant. 2. I love my Husband 3. I have made sum great freinds on Fubar. 4. I like 23 race cars. 5. I like 2 sky dive. 6. I like salsa on my ice cream... yes evan when I am not pregnent. 7. I rub ppl down all day. 8. I am insanly addicted 2 ROOT BEER (takes another drink of ROOT BEER) 9. I used 2 take belly dancing classes when I was younger. 10. I have always wanted to write a book. 11. I lost my virginity in a park @ the age of 14. 12. I hate sea food 13. I could spend an eternity just enjoying each momment in life. 14. I once got lost in a Toys R Us while buying baby stuff. 15. of all the futures I co

Andrew Berson
If you know this name look out.. he invites women to see him in philly pa and he uses them.. he is married lives with his wife and their 2 kids and her other son he will lie to you make you spend all your money then he will show you the real him... he has done this to many women and openly admits to cheating on his wife all the time as if its nothing he wont leave her for you that is also a great game he wants to play he just wants to see how many women will fall for this and spend their time and money on him and to be with him.

Andrew Gardiner 8/7/1980-9/6/2008
After Glow I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one. I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when day is done. I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways, of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days. I'd like the tears of those who grieve, to dry before sun of happy memories that I leave behind when the day is done.

Andrej Nebb
Det finnes mange tragiske og patetiske utganger på livet. Det finnes også noen intelligente og strålende. Men når absolutt alt er tatt fra deg finnes det allikevel noen ledsagere. På veien mot undergangen og ydmykelse. Min ledsager på den veien heter Andrej Nebb. Polakk og med et lattervekkende Donald-etternavn. Han startet punkbevegelsen i Norge ved å skape det eneste bra bandet De Press og hadde senere en eksperimentell karriere med Holy Toy. Men han hadde også en solokarriere. To album, hvorav den første har den ypperlige låta Ikke Slakt Min Hane som åpningslåt. Jeg kommer tilbake til den antagelig. Og han ble seriøs på det andre albumet som kun inneholder tekster av Tor Johnson, en norsk og tragisk dikter.