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No Really. Drugs Don't Make You Stupid!
Police say a driver passed out in his car at a Tennessee gas station while a batch of methamphetamine was cooking in the back seat. An employee at the gas station in Murfreesboro, about 30 miles southeast of Nashville, called police because the car was sitting at the pump for about an hour on New Year's Day. Police say a chemical process to make the drug was in progress. Some meth-making ingredients can be explosive. Murfreesboro Assistant Fire Chief Allen Swader told The Daily News Journal that gas pumps were shut off as a precaution. Thirty-one-year-old Nathan E. Beasley is being held on a $15,000 bond on charges of driving under the influence, driving on a suspended license, reckless endangerment and manufacturing meth. No attorney was listed in police records.

Completely Serious Issue!
I live with 3 males.... I have some hygiene issues with these males that I need to resolve.. Please help any advice is good advice 1. Leaving Toilet Seat up a. I have to touch it to lower it, which means im in direct contact with pee! b. using my foot and slamming it down at 4am has not worked c. im thinking about crazy gluing one toilet seat so it will be mine all mine d. I do not want in the middle of the night half asleep to sit on the pee that you have left on the rim... 2. Why can you not courtesy flush? a. do you not see that you left something behind? 3. If you choose to have Pubic hair a. rinse the shower so I when floating around in the bath do not have a mustache b. the toilet seat just needs a quick glance when your done cause i sit on that 4. Shaving your face a. I dont like your beard let along nose hairs on my toothbrush b. you leave me no choice to ever have bar soap c. See the Lysol wipes i left on the counter those are there for you.. I know ther

Can't Brain Today, I Haz Teh Dumb
This week has been an awful emotional roller coaster. I can't think straight. I refuse to try to turn my brain back on, so I doubt you'll see anything witty spewed by me today. That is all.

My Fate
I will wander through life,Never knowing what could have been.He took her away so fast,As quick as he did send. This stone in my chest,Now weights me to the ground.I look for any meaning to this,For me none can be found. Now as I walk through life,Never seeing the sky.I have become nothing but a shell,And not even wonder why. I seek nomore mysteries,I chase nomore dreams.Truely I am already dead,At least thats how it seems. Till my forever comes,For joy there will be nomore tears,Nor a smile to come from me,For all the rest of my years.

Embarrassing But Funny
Ok... so this is embarrassing but funny so I'm gonna share it anyway. Figured if I can laugh at myself, you all might as well too. Wednesday I noticed that my black pullover was covered in dog hair on the front so being out of those sticky rollers you'd normally use I grabbed the vacuum cleaner. I attached the hand held upholsery tool with the spinning brush thinking... well it IS made for removing dog hair from furniture. Yeah... so... I proceed to vacuum the front of my shirt while still wearing it. Well it worked great, the dog hair was all but gone .... when suddenly my OWN hair got caught in the upholsery tool's spin brush. And I know what you're thinking... ouccchhhh.... well... no... THAT part actually didn't hurt. But when the upholsery tool quickly shot UP my hair and hit me in the mouth, splitting the inside of my bottom lip open so that I actually required stitches... well THAT did hurt. Yeah... How many people you know can actually injure themselves removing dog hair f

The End
The End Birth. . a human cycle beginsso far from remember whenLiving for what? We turn away. . from the last chapterall are shown someday. Try to remember, light in your eyesthe beginning is. . no one dies!Our thin entropic skinholds an entity that has no endwe are infinite . . every spiritual coreyou won't believe what you came for !How close you are to the real meaningmeans nothing to you if it's always raining.You will have your place in the sun againthe beginning was. . there is no end.

Modern Warfare 2 And Heartbreak
Okay, This is more or less of a rant... A few weeks ago, I was playing Modern Warfare 2 and in a match I came across a female gamer (NO she's not on GTP so you ladies are safe). Of course, I am joking with her back and forth between matches since she was on the other team, and eventually I got a friend request. I accepted it thinking no harm no foul.... The next day, I invite her in to play with the rest of my clan. She was respectful and cool with all of us, and we decided to let her in the clan. We would game daily and so forth, and eventually she started playinig with us more often, and then back and forth she would message me on XBL asking me for invites and all. As time passed on, we decided to exchange Yahoo ID's. She finally saw what I looked like, and told me she was attracted to me. I was flattered, since I saw what she looked like and I was attracted to her too. Eventually we exchanged phone numbers and all, and we would talk on almost a daily basis outside the clan.

Poem
When I look at you my heart starts to race. My head is spinning, I'm lost in your gaze. I know nothing of the world around me, Life is just a blur. Your presence consumes me. I think of your face, your laugh, your smile, I hang on your every word. You control my thoughts, possess my dreams. I long for your embrace. Not a day goes bye when I don't think of you. If only you knew.

Maybe
Maybe ... we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.Maybe ... when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't even see the new one which has been opened for us.Maybe ... it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.Maybe ... the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.Maybe ... the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures, and heartaches.Maybe ... you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the thin

Sometimes..
Sometimes we make way to many mistakes,And always seem to say the wrong things.When Anger consumes large amounts of you,and the constant feeling of being used. Feeling lost and always confused.Over time this changes, who you are and what you do.Walking thru the days with stress on your soul,Ruins the way your eyes may see things.Yelling at walls, or nothing at all.Picking up pieces, making up excuses.Your head is out of control.Little reminders of the past can bring boil to a still pot.And I don't care what anybody says..That changes you ALOT!Trust is more important than you may really know,it makes people react different and your love may be hard to show

A Prairie Home Companion
Even though I don't get the radio show over here, I do get the e-newsletter, as it's a good way of keeping up with what Keillor's doing at the moment. Enjoyed his response to this week's Post to the Host POST TO THE HOST To the Host: What is your reaction to the ELCA's recent decision to allow congregations to bless same-gender unions and/or call openly gay pastors? How are the decisions playing at Lake Wobegon Lutheran? Jeffrey S. Winlock, WA -- My reaction, Jeffrey, is that I wouldn't want to be the historic First Gay Lutheran Pastor and walk around with a plaque on my back. People would expect you to be a saint and to give off radiant beams of light. They would await miracles. Pastors are servants and in the Lutheran church, congregations call their own pastors, so this decision is simply a matter of honest labeling. If a congregation wants a hetero pastor, they should have one and if they want the other brand, they can have that, too, but let the clergy be honest about w

Sunnydale Chapter 20
Sunnydale We drove for what seemed hours. “Turn here Edward, this is the road that leads us straight to Sunnydale” I sped along the road and we were in Sunnydale within a half hour. I had no clue how we were going to find Spike; I figure we’d just ask around, but of course it would have to be at night. We pulled up to a Hotel in the heart of the town; the sun had already set so we didn’t need any cover. I parked the car and got out. “Alice go and get us a room, once we’ve checked in we’ll start the search” I waited for her by the car she was back quickly. “I think the library would be the best place to start looking, old news paper articles should help us in the search” We decided to walk, this way we could question people that we saw. We got to the library and went immediately to the computers. There were a ton of articles and it seemed that one person was in all of them. Buffy Summers was the key to finding Spik

Searching For Answers Chapter 19
Searching for answers I ran quickly back to the cottage, I needed to talk to Carlisle. I entered the cottage and found Bella, Carlisle and Jacob sitting on the couch watching television. “Carlisle can we talk for a minute?” “Sure son” “In private please, let’s go outside so we don’t disturb Bella” I told Carlisle everything that had happened in the meadow. I asked him some questions that he was shocked even came out of my mouth. “What’s going on Edward? What are you thinking?” “I’m not sure if it will work Carlisle, but I’m going to give it a try. I will be gone for several weeks, trying to figure this all out. I will however be calling to check up on Bella” “Alright Edward, do what you must, but please hurry back the baby is growing rapidly” “I’ll try to get this all sorted as quickly as possible Carlsile” I said as I walked out the door. I started

My, I, You.
My passion, my desire is rising. I long to touch your vibrant skin, to taste your lips, to drink your health. My thoughts are turned a half and around once again. I long to revisit your peaks and your valleys. My exploration is not yet finish. I wish to map out all your secret hideaways, to reveal all the treasures locked within.

A Old Mantra Made New
Greetings Neighbors: 2009 is over and I must ask, 'Can I get an amen?'. Yes, if that last statement was any indication, last year sucked 'nougie' flakes for me personally and it showed. I found myself running here and there trying to put distance between myself and the present situation I was in. You see, neighbors, we became another number of the many people who were granted the chance to own a home, but in truth, could not afford it. Therefore, we started 2009 in a rental and to keep things brief, we were never truly happy there. The other low lights of last year are as follows: Not able to spend anytime with my daughter, Tru. Trying to start a business with any knowledge of how to make a profit Taking care of my grown children with no extra income coming in. Moving back into the house left for dead only to leave it behind again Having a disagreement with my family one time too often You get the general idea. 2009 was really not much different from any other year. We all face

Help Stop The Ban On Pythons And Boa's
help put a stop on the ban of pythons and boas plz www.natpet.org/index.php/legislation/federal-legislation/158-python-boa-ban-action-center. if the ban is passed this means no selling breeding shipping,moveing of these animals what so ever. i know there aint alott around who likes these kinds of animals but to the 1s who do have them and care 4 them are pets and family to us just like ur dogs cats and other animals are to you so plz help us with the stop of the ban. reptile produce 3.2 billon dollars a year in the united states alone. if this ban does pass that mean less money for the us and hurts everyone even so much more than it hurts now.. www.natpet.org/index.php/legislation/federal-legislation/158-python-boa-ban-action-center

How Birds Got Thier Wings
how birds got their wings A long time ago God had a great many burdens that He wished to have carried from one place to another on Earth. He asked the animals to lend a hand, but all of them had excuses for not helping: the elephant was too dignified; the lion, too proud; and so on . . . Finally the birds came to God and said, "If you will tie the burdens into small bundles, we'll be glad to carry them for you. We are small, but we would like to help." So God fastened upon the back of each bird a small bundle, and they all set out walking across the plain to their destination. They sang as they went, not minding the weight of their burdens at all. Every day the burdens seemed lighter and lighter, until the loads seemed to be lifting the birds, instead of the birds carrying the burdens. When they arrived at their destination, they discovered that when they removed their loads, there were beautiful wings in their place. Wings that enabled them to fly to the tree tops and soar through t

You Are My Forever Love
Your friendship and love, And all the wonderful things That they bring into my life, Are like nothing else I have ever known. My heart is complete With the love we share, And our love grows more Beautiful each day. I love you, And as long as we are together, I have everything I need. You are with me always... In a smile, a memory, a feeling Or a moment we share. You will always be My Forever Love

A Dream Come True
Feelings that once were hidden Are now expressed to you. Days that once were stormy Are now the brightest blue. Times that once were lonely Are now filled with pleasure. All that once was mine alone Are now things we both treasure. Nights that once were cold Are now comforting and warm. Fears that once were very real Are now gone with the storm. A heart that once was broken Can now finally mend. A person once alone in life Can now call you a friend. Dreams that once were longed for Are now all coming true. The love I once thought was gone I have now and forever in you.

Waterfalls
Tasting the tearsThat run down the gutter two teeth makeTears in routeRunning a groove in your cheekWaterfalls leave smooth rocksWhen the river dries upYou can determine where a river once wasJust by examining rocksYour face never forgets a cryLike trace remnants of acid in your spineThe erosion cries causeMake whiskers prematurely sprout in menAnd in womenHomogenize complexionDiluting pigmentUntil the whole face is washed with a slight mascara tintYour face never forgets a cryLike trace remnants of acid in your spine - 'Waterfalls' by Why?

Pain
People tend to love to deeply and hurt just as bad, but that is what makes us human. People tend to push other people away when they were hurt by that person and in the end only hurt themselves. But that is what happens because who wants to be in pain all the time. People also rush into something when they have been hurt just so they don’t feel pain anymore but in the end they only hurt themselves more when that turns bad as well. No one likes to be lied to and no one wants someone they love lie to them. Normally when someone is lied to they tend to lash out to hurt that person because that entire lie only hurt them. But the thing is the person who lied knows it hurts the other person and does it to do it because either they were hurt or mad. When someone is hurt by the one they love with all their heart they tend to get really depressed and either try to get that person back or do something stupid. And worse when that same person see

Why We Look For Someone Else
Ok, so i wanna pose a question to the world. more particularly to all you single, or "semi single" people out there. Do you really enjoy being single. I mean sure maybe a few years ago when you were 18 19 or 20 yeah, bein single was fine then. cuz you were in college or you were getting your carreer started, or you were takeing that break in europe. whatever, anyway, now....now do you enjoy being single? Now that your 24 25 or 26 or older? Now that your out of college, now that your carreer is started and off and running, and your "too old" to be seen at some of those party scenes you went to back in the day, now do you really enjoy that single status, no ring havein, sleepin with people every night but still always wakein up alone status? I pose to you that i really hate bein single now. I wish i could find that girl, that one that will last a lifetime. but i think that is my problem. I think that because i am so ready for commitment that i come on too strong and scare away a perfect

Let's Blow The Roof Off This Mofo!!!!
I AM GOING FOR BROKE!!!! FRIDAY, JANUARY 08, 2010 **** 2PM TIL 2AM FUTIME **** WHAT I AM LOOKING FOR??? BOMBERS, RATERS & BLINGERS!!!! THIS IS GOING DOWN!!!! AUTO 11'S 6 CHERRY BOMBS HAPPY HOUR FRIDAY AT 8PM 4 TICKERS TO PROMOTE THIS RECEIVING POINTS FROM MY #2 FAMILY (RUNNING AUTOS & BOMB(S)) PAYING 25K PER 100 PIC RATES!!! 2100 RATES = 525,000 FUBUCKS!!!! PAYOUTS WILL ONLY BE PAID FOR RATES THAT ARE RECEIVED WHILE AUTO 11S ARE ACTIVATED AND THERE IS A HAPP

Amy Hempel
Seems like I don't do that many book blogs, cos I read so many comics and magazines and internets these days that my previous devotion to actual books has kinda gotten lost. But I do always have one on the go, and last night I finished this one that my homeboy ZombieMonkey turned me onto. And yeah, the woman's a formidable writer (Amy Hempel, I can't speak for Zombie Monkey). I struggle with the short story form - I ain't the brightest guy, and where a novel has the luxury of space and time to get its ideas across, a good short story is a well-crafted concentrated hit (much like a smaller painting isn't less work than a big one, and often the detail is that much finer), and as such, usually way over my head. But I can still enjoy the craft, and this is as well-crafted a collection of writing as you'll find anywhere. Moving, funny, thought-provoking, and exquisite in its composition. When I was a kid, I used to want to be a writer, but it's work like this that makes remember not t

Sarah's Homework Assignment
***Sarah had an assignment for her psychology class..not sure the exact paper-subject,but this is what she turned in!! I almost cried when I read it!!! Remember...our kids remember EVERYTHING we do good and bad!!(don't know her grade on on yet!!)**** Childhood MemoryBy: Sarah Cerutti This rare, 1974 album of J.D. Blackfoot’s Crazy Horse is an item that I have had since I was two years old. My dad took me to an old record store down in Maplewood. He can’t remember the store, but he thinks the name was Disconnection. J.D. was collecting blankets and signing autographs. He is part Indian, so the blankets went to his reservation. My dad actually gave him one of my old baby blankets and asked him to sign this album. He signed, “To Sarah. Stay Happy.” Even though I have never listened to much of this album, I will always cherish this item from my dad. Growing up I was always around classic rock. I would come home to my dad and my brother blasting the big K-Horn Klips

Why Cats Are Better Than Women?
Some of the cutest guys I know here has cats as their pets. Why cats and not dogs? Someone told me dogs are needy just like women. Anyway, for a good laugh.. A cat doesn't know what a remote control is. A cat loves you until it dies. You don't have to tell your cat you love it - it knows you do. A cat likes to be petted, anywhere, anytime. Cats don't expect breakfast in the morning. Cats don't ly, quibble, argue, pout. Everything you do is interesting. Cats need little space, a sunny spot in the window will do. Cats don't smoke, drink, do drugs. You don't have to tell a cat it's pretty. A cat doesn't care if you haven't shaved for two days. A cat doesn't want to borrow money from you. Cats love to scrap bills and taxforms. You don't need to buy your cat expensive presents on it's birthday. You don't need to buy your cats mother expensive presents on her birthday.

Poetry, Art Work And Etc.
I have traveled oh, so many paths; that you have not yet had to walk.... Learned hard lessens, both old and new; now those wisdoms that i have learned- I got to share them with you . Always let your kindness spread; like the sun that shines down upon everyone.... Embrace those who are bitterly saddened by grief; Respect their dignity, give them a sense of joy- Leave them with a feeling of comfort.... and glad that you were their for them. Forgive all those who want to hurt you; Put aside your pride and listen....

Not Titled Yet
your burning eyes of hatred seek mine your hands are roughly on my shoulders as you push my back against the wall no, i quietly say to you, no you grin evilly your mouth preys on mine... ravaging my lips as your teeth dig into them your whole body forcing against mine your muscles taunt with excitement at the capture my hands push at your chest half heartedly as already your lust is feeding mine i moan involuntarily as your teeth tear into my neck your fingertips bruising my cleavage... to be continued... maybe

End Of Week 1 (3 Days)
I hate lazy people. I'm hoping we'll weed out the weak on Tuesday... got some dead weight to drop off the roster. I have the protocols memorized and while I'm not saying I'll get a perfect I think I have a comftorable enough margin I won't fail. Anyway, time to take some time off from this crap... I'm sleeping in tomorrow morning!

How To Save A Life
Dispatched for a 7 year old female seizing... would have been kinda nice if they'd mentioned she was barely breathing. That girl's bedroom looked like a bomb had gone off in it after we were done with our equipment, and the back of the ambulance was worse. All I could do not to run with her in my arms to the ambulance (tripping would def have been a no-no, so I settled for the briskest walk I could manage once she was ready for transport). Within 5 minutes of rolling into the ER they had a helicopter en-route Priority 1 for a transfer to a specialty facility. I'll probably feel good about this tomorrow but it took too much out of me to feel anything now. Goodnight all!

Real Life Still Exists
Sorry havent been on much guys and gals. I have been doing some thinking and taking time away from the computer. Theres so much more to life than fubar/the internet. Some people take this site way too serious. I shouldnt just say this site. I should say the internet PERIOD. It creates keyboard gangsters who are pussies in real life, It creates a place where whores feel loved... Um note to self ladies, The only reason your loved is because they jerk off to your pics. Have you ever researched just how many people are tracked down and murdered from online sites by sick stalkers? Or all the people that claim they have so many friends online. Ummm you have NONE in real life so that makes you an internet LOSER! Then you have all the lazy fucks who sit there and talk about what all they have when they dont really have ANYTHING! They sit on their parents computer and brag like they have something going for them in life. I pitty these people that spend hundreds of dollars just trying to be popu

Mom...can You Hear Me???
Mom, Can You Hear Me? it's been 45 years, mom...a lifetime for me,but not for you...so please don't go!the earliest yearsweren't shared asmother and daughter...my soul was shatteredby the son youdidn't watch close enough...and you ran in shamefrom the placeyou held in my heart.i never understoodwhat i'd done wrong,why you stopped loving me....i never understoodwhy grandma took over me,and grandpa held mecloser to his heartthan he did the others....i never understood,no,never understood,why i always felt sougly,so inhuman,so completely invisibleto you afterthat day...and i was only 4!mom,he raped me,said, done,can't be undone....it took 22 more yearsfor you to tell meit wasn't my fault...that you believed me,that i wasn't unlovable....that it was your guiltthat kept you back,that kept our heartsnot apart,but jaded toeach other...and that it was fromlove that you gaveme to grandma and grandpa!they were dead whenyou finally told me...too late to raise me then,too late to make ital

Nemi's Mom
Nemi's mom has got it goin' onNemi's mom has got it goin' onNemi's mom has got it goin' onNemi's mom has got it goin' onNemi, can I come over after school? (after school)We can hang around by the pool (hang by the pool)Did your mom get back from her business trip? (business trip)Is she there, or is she trying to give me the slip? (give me the slip)You know, I'm not the little girl that I used to beI'm all grown up now, baby can't you seeNemi's mom has got it goin' onShe's all I want and I've waited for so longNemi, can't you see you're just not the Boy for meI know it might be wrong but I'm in love with Nemi's momNemi's mom has got it goin' onNemi's mom has got it goin' onNemi, do you remember when I mowed your lawn? (mowed your lawn)Your mom came out with just a towel on (towel on)I could tell she liked me from the way she stared (the way she stared)And the way she said, "You missed a spot over there" (a spot over there)And I know that you think it's just a fantasyBut since your dad w

Devastated
DEVASTATED hatred entwines my soul,as i banish YOU from my heart....you gave me companionship,then robbed me of its comfort...you gave me love,then robbed me of its joy....you gave me a child,then robbed me of its life....i gave you my entire being,and robbed you of NOTHING...so,why have youtorn my life apart?i grew to love youmore than any person should....you encouraged me,only to leave mewithout a word....how could youhave been so cruel???didn't you realizei couldn't turn offthis sudden,foreign surge of emotionas abruptly as you did???why can't you seethat beyond thiswall of despair you've instilled,i just can't stopbeing in love with you???why did youdo this to me??didn't i care enough,or was i justanother toy inyour endless worldof games???i've fought so hardto free my heartof you,but the hatredi now desirejust won't hold....so,i struggle forwardforever on my ownwithout you.....yet more with youthan ever.................~~Robin Dawn 'ChinaSwan' Palmer~~~12-15-09~~remem

Bleeding You Gone
Bleeding You Gone I stand posed,another goodbyeabout to leaveyour lips....another blood dropletplops to the floor.I hear the phone ring,I ignore the caller IDin favor of anotherslice into myself....forcing the knifeto bleed you from me.The phone falls silent,and I stare in painat the only signyou may have cared...and my toes dipin the red puddle beneath them.I swipe at the tear,denying its affectsupon my dying heartas another dares to fall....and I open my skinto let you flow free of me.Another ring,assaulting my franticefforts to void myselfof every memory of you...the knife falls to the floordisappearing beneath thered lake all around me.I grab the phone,choke out 'I love you'and 'be happy,goodbye'.....my nails tear the fleshwhere the tears had betrayed me.My heart slows,I feel everythingabout you draining away....you were everythingto me.....My eyes close,a final image ofwhat wasn't oursto share imprints my memory.....quietly I fade away,forever free of it all....Within

And Then All This From Her
:(Between You and Christine Christine January 7 at 9:42pm ReportI dont what your prob is but now im blocking youClay January 7 at 9:46pmwhy what did i do, i was saying sorry for getting you confused on another site facebook is confusing and i always leave it on on accident, gosh, sorryChristine 9:47pm Reportwhen you write on my wall everyone can see that until i delete it. That wasnt called forClay 9:50pmoh the how did we meet thing, oh ok sorry, should have liedClay Cummings January 7 at 9:51pmno one has a sense of humor i guess.Christine at 9:52pm Reportthats not funny...at allClay at 9:53pmk sorry, how many times do i have to say it SORRYChristine at 9:54pm ReportStop being sorry and think before you actClay at 9:56pmk...sorryChristine at 9:56pm Reportno sorry :)Clay at 10:01pmi am saying sorry now and back away slowly.....wont talk anymore i think your sister is ganging up on me now too, going back to fubar where my bad taste is ok...k...that all nowChristineat 10:02pm Re

Hinder-running In The Rain
She cuts herself to forget him And every time her wounds get deeper Tonights the night she's gonna shed her skin Cause she's thinkin that he doesn't need her She's wishin all this would end And she's gonna try to take her own life again Wait, I know your hearts been shattered But there's someone worth the wait There's so much more that matters And I know you will be alright, just try to love the little things in life Like running in the rain He drinks alone to forget her And every time the room starts spinning He starts to thinkin 'bout where they were When she told him that she doesn't need him He's wishin all this would end And he's gonna try to take his own life again Wait, I know your hearts been shattered But there's someone worth the wait There's so much more that matters And I know you will be alright, just try to love the little things in life Like running in the rain She's wishin all this would end And he's gonna try to take his own life again Wait, I know your hearts bee

Games X Wives Want To Play On Facebook., How Did We Meet?
Christine HOW DID WE MEET? :-) Everyone play this game! Copy and paste this phrase on your profile, you will find it amusing to remember how you met, and how you know each of your friends! Before you do that, ANSWER FOR ME! Let's have fun with this.. hood mood we met on the 4th of July and then went to your house and had sex...let me guess...blocked right? your such a wimp a few seconds ago ·

To My X Wife Who Doesnt Know Any Better
Christine, sorry for saying "shut up slut" i didnt know i was on facebook or that facebook has chat i thought i was on fubar. and to find out you blocked me on facebook really breaks my heart cause my own mother wont accept my friends request and the other night on my b-day cause i am at my folks right now with Cameron (thats our son) i was sleeping in the guest house with this choice peace of fubar trim that came up for my b day and in the middle of the night, you know those blue lights on the front the of the direct tv boxes that are bright as fuck, yah its aliens are in your room and you wake up and your like who is this girl, and then your like oh yeah sweet, but then your like why is she blue like smurfet and then you realize you need to get that blue light to turn off so you stand up and spill beer everywhere and then walk straight into the wall and then try to turn the computer off and stumble outside and get attacked by wild animals (i am not shitting you, maybe a little about

50 Years From Now
Three elderly gents were talking about what their grandchildren would be saying about them fifty years from now. "I would like my grandchildren to say, 'He was successful in business,'" declared the first man. "Fifty years from now," said the second, "I want them to say, 'He was a loyal family man.'" Turning to the third gent, he asked, "So what do you want them to say about you in fifty years?" "Me?" the third one replied. "I want them to say, 'He certainly looks good for his age.'"

I Shall
I shall find that which is hidden For whatever is within me is for you to see and what is within you is for me. I shall turn every shield For you need no protection from me nor I from you. I shall climb every wall and those I cant I will simply walk around. I shall find that which has been lost For anything that has been lost can be found again. And what can be found was never lost just misplaced. I shall always remember who i am and never forget who you are For who i am wants to be where you are.

A Friendly Lounge Site You Should Join
please help me i need my friends here on fubar to join fubar/lounge/satinsensation please message me or chat me about more info on the lounge and the link im the promoter on the site looking for more fumembers to join in the fun meet and make new great friends whilst listening to cool music its never a dull moment in the lounge whilst were haveing a laugh and partying hard and tell your friends to join and say wayno send you the invite and i would like to say thank you for taking the time to read my blog more blogs to come with this lounge keep an eye out for them thanks again

Retaste
A scream of woe, That is what she called it. Like the sound of a young girl the first time her knees kiss the asphalt. Innocence lost, vanished or at least tarnished by time. Trauma relived with all survivors calling for control. I set the tone inviting it in with bleeding eyes. Salted droplet sting my cheeks Wide eyes with evaporated sparks Recreation, experimentation... I fear my desire, my taste for the darkness

Le Petite Mort
Kryptonite red head playing cat and mouse wanting to get caught. Anticipation rolling through waves of energy thick with poweress and sexual tension eluding to the fact that I am off limits That just makes it more fun. He licks his lips like something fierce finger exploring a saturated wonderland Alice fell in love with the queen of hearts and I fell into lust with the mad hatter. He toyed with me on puppeteer strings evoking ancient unspokens urgency upon my lips, he tasted like incense something mysterious born of the darkness hidden within the depth of me.

Lillies In Love
lilies in love I am fragile but never frail. My petals fold into themselves introverted delicacy of self containing gratification. I told him he was my sexual Mozart and I his musical instrument of secret long lost pleasure. My cries and moans his carefully composed song. He says rather, the softness of my flesh is his canvas on which to draw out his emotions. He wants to be my Picasso. So it shall be forever artistic. He wants to play my Monet with fingertip tickling paint brushes blushing flesh craving to be colored by his artisan roughness, revolutionizing the waterlilies.

Lustly Scented
Lustly Scented With the colonge of lust piercing my mind, stimulating the ancient ruins, my memory swirl of sheets, a dingy hotel room became His palatial bed while rummaging in the glittery gutters of my multi-fasceted carnal minds I am enamored once again with the danger of entangling bodies with the wolven. Throaty growl, primal instinct, enveloping over taking the swelling pleasure cupped close over running ability to speak clearly dark utterances became our communication as I breathlessly give in to the rapture of your touch moaning lingustics speak volumes for fabled beliefs enriching the feelings and emotions pounding into my overly sensual needy heat I crave the carnivore you have become arching my back to feel the full depth of the escaping essence held by embracing your kiss. My lotus blooms before you in delicate aroma Sweetly spreading, succulent, something to savored my divine nature filling in the longing blanks for my salivating yet starving ego.

Runaway
Run Away I want to be the rabbit bouncing away from the confusion, startled I freeze with a case of lock jaw clearly my throat is not slit breath still lies in my body the same body that betrayed me to be held with your gaze eyes evaporating to cold steel pinned to a bed until atonement is achieved by my screams I am a rabbit trapped just waiting for you to skin me. - Nicole Lilly

[it All Fell Out Of An Open Hatch]
My styrofoam cup from a month ago is vibrating to the beat.It's making a pretty damn cool sound.Gramma says if I keep losing weight I'll just be a shadow. ... she fell down again. But the real problem isI'm starting to think phase 1.We're past R/D now. And... I'm losing her in the chaos.there's some rollover that has to happen.Some damage control I guess.Seeing as how she's across the building now. I'll work something out, I always do.-_-meanwhile my dog is totally eating snow. She's not supposed to be. I don't wanna take her out to pee at 4 in the morning. So I work out phase 1. The phase I was in prior. Can't eavesdrop on her and tardsy boyfriend any more, and there's a new blockage since she's reconnecting with her sister while she's at work. She's less available to talk to on break. I don't have to come up with itrightnowbut I do have a minute. Then there's phase 2. "so how does this all work out" "you stay with your rich muscley boyfriend and remain my unobtainable muse

Leno Will Be Cancelled
Who ever thought Jay Leno was going to be a big draw at 10PM should have had their head shrunk. Why NBC put Conan O’Brien in the Tonight Show seat is still a mystery to me. Because of terrible ratings Jay’s how will be cancelled and according to TMZ will be moved back to the Tonight Show. Who’s running NBC now, some retards that were just released from the loony bin? My expert suggestion is to put back the way it was. For more http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/01/07/lenos-future-air-rumors-swirl-hes-moving-late-night/ No need to move BlastFM. It just keeps on building the Big Mo. Go Baby Go! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Life Is Good
LET ME SEE IF I GOT THIS RIGHT... IF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR. IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY. IF YOU CROSS THE AFGHAN BORDER ILLEGALLY, YOU GET SHOT. IF YOU CROSS THE SAUDI ARABIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE JAILED. IF YOU CROSS THE CHINESE BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU MAY NEVER BE HEARD FROM AGAIN. IF YOU CROSS THE VENEZUELAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE BRANDED A SPY AND YOUR FATE WILL BE SEALED. IF YOU CROSS THE CUBAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE THROWN INTO POLITICAL PRISON TO ROT. IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET A JOB, A DRIVERS LICENSE, SOCIAL SECURITY CARD,

Black
Kind of hard to think , especially when I excessively drink. Why is it I am feeling numb, some people think drinking is dumb. Just let me drown in my sorrow, I will be better tomorrow. They say you cant keep a good man down, but I continue to have this frown. Sometimes I just cant help myself, do you think I need some help? I really don't do this all the time, last time I checked it wasn`t a crime. Now I am going insane, having bad thoughts inside my brain. Cant keep being so slack, and my whole world has become BLACK. Does that make me out to be bad, and yes now I am getting mad. All I wanted was to drink some, now a monster is what I have become. Stat away you may not want to see, what there is deep inside of me. Hey at least I don`t smoke crack, but that doesn`t stop me from being BLACK!!!

Loved By All
All three of you are idiots. One thinks she's a model. The other thinks she's not fat and poses naked all the time. (there she mentions me)You stay on welfare your whole life. Please, strive for something better then the gutter in your lives. left by chasity_ an hour ago that dumb chick wants me she can't stop talking about me even when I'm not on the site any more rofl rofl rofl.

Stupid Encounters #34
SO THIS CONCLUDES BEWARE WHOM IS BETTING ON YOU IN THESE OWNED CONTESTS! HE SAID HE'D PAY ME ON THURSDAY... IT'S BEEN 3 WEEKS SENCE THE YOU KNOW GRINCH STOLE CHRISTMAS AUCTION. YEAH YEAH SO... ANYWHO I'VE HEARD FROM MANY OTHER WEMON ON HERE THAT HAVE SAID THE SAME THING ABOUT HIM AS WELL AS HIM BEING A PERV. BUT I GUESS THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT IF YOU HAVE NUDES TO GET WHAT YOU WANT... BUT COME ON GIRLS REALLY YOU GOT TO PROSTITUTE YOURSELF OUT TO GET STUFF OFF FUBAR? DEGRADING! ANYWAYS... HAVE FUN WITH THIS ONE! LOVE YOU ALL! I LOVE YOU THE MOST SURREAL THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT GUY TO ME!

Silly Little Man
you ever dance around without a care, maybe in a crowd as people stare, sometimes i even play air guitar, i even drink pickle juice from a jar, nah, well maybe you should , loosen up a little if you could, we only live once,so be happy when you can, go ahead and tell me i am a silly little man, i don't care, i like to have fun, like going to the park and eating hotdogs in a bun, why shouldn't we all have fun once in a while, what that ain't really your style, sorry smiling makes me happy, better than always feeling so crappy, so can i please see you smile, sitting here writing, i`m on the kitchen tile, there you go see you are pretty, don`t smile alot that is a pity, that`s why i am writing all this down because i don't like to see you frown, so go ahead and lets see those teeth so white, you know you do have a right, to express your feelings whenever you can, i know i am being a silly little man, again!!

01/07/2010
Genesis 18http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+18&language=english&version=31 Genesis 19http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+19&language=english&version=31 Genesis 20http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+20&language=english&version=31 http://BiblePlan.org/3/niv/ Bible Reading Plan -- Complete NIV Bible in a YearRead the NIV Bible in a year, reading three chapters daily and five on Sundays.

I Will Show You What It Is To Burn
suffer in silence i shall do no more.Anger tears away the face of angelspink flesh turns pale sickly sweet smell of deathi will show you what it is to burnfight fire with fire the smell of brimstone so closefor those who know they will rot in helli will show you what it is to burn.violent convulsions as you scream to godFORGIVE ME FORGIVE MEGod can't save you nowtake my hand for it is timei will show you what it is to burnBrandi S Weaver 2009

Burden
Porcelain white and rougeblack to cover up the tearspainted on to make her look sanebut underneath is another story...She Swollows her Emotionsletting them be seen will only bring her downhide behind the porcelain mask that gives her security when she knows that the truth will only cause you pain. long sleeves can cover the scarsthe truth can only hide for so longsolitude makes her lonelythe frustration finds a home inside her for a brief second she no longer aches.she is bearing a burdenso heavy that even hell refuses hereventually the mask will crackthe shirt will tearand she will be left nakedconfronted by fear and hatred~Brandi S. Weaver 2009

For All That Is Me
subconsciously you wreak havoc apon my temple.the only place where there is rest for the wickedbelongs to me no longerfor it is over run with the thought of death and daggersMy most sacred thoughts become you this hideous creature who has all control over menolonger do i see myself in the mirrorsi see you.My darkest fears control my life nowhideous vile being that I created you whisper this is the end sweet childinto the depths of my soul.No longer does my temple stand for peacefor it is over run with the chaos that my demon created

A Cup Of Two Day Old Coffee
A cup of two day old coffee four walls lookin' in the mirrors gettin' easier these days that old friend anger is losing its hold on you the key to survival in this crazy world and it's good to see you're still standing strong not too long ago you were tearing at a world that would never let you in outcast turned away you kept your face to the ground and fought the world with your silence and so the seasons change and the people change and the good times come and the good times go found yourself in a winless race fighting for a cause you never believed its easy to regret not so easy to forget all the stupid things that used to hold you down you gotta brake that chain and move on cuz I know I've seen it in your eyes before to surrender now to throw it all away is to sacrifice but you can't repay in a world that don't owe you shit you gotta think for yourself and fight every bit of that piece of mind that keeps you going on gets you outta bed and out that door step back take a look around

King Of Coins.
There's a soundand a crevice falling towards mea vaguely familiar scentone which I once trustedone that beckonedimperceptible to eunichsuntouchable to the purecleansing to the lovers. Dewy flecks on her shouldertastes like strawberries peachwood and mangosdefinitely mangos.Something exoticwithout the antagonistic spicesomething icy smoothwithout the cruel chill. Something I can hold on my tongueall day and forget to tire of it.Someone I can lend an ear toand never bore.Something I can holdand forget to free. Some place without fear.Without judgement.Shady and sanctified. Disentegrating in dawn's lightsandy sculptures falling apartat the slightest breezethe gentlest touch. Some star to wish uponbut ours has devoured the diamondsthe dark silk and my lucky disappearing coin. Offering no warmthonly bright, judgmental glare. Hours such an unfathomable eternity til my next retreat.

Down On His Luck:
A short guy is sitting at a bar just staring at his drink forhalf an hour.When this big trouble-making biker steps next to him, grabs his drink,Gulps it down in one swig and then turns to the guy with a menacingstare As if to say, 'What'cha gonna do about it?The poor little guy starts crying."Come on man, I was just giving you a hard time," the biker says. "I didn't think you'd CRY. I can't stand to see a man crying.""This is the worst day of my life," says the little guy between sobs. I can't do anything right. I overslept and was late to an important meeting, so my boss fired me. When I went to the parking lot, I found my car was stolen, and I don'thave any insurance. I left my wallet in the cab I took home." He continues, crying even harder. "Then I found my wife in bed with the gardener and my dog bit me. So, I came to this bar trying to work up the courage to put an end to mylife, then you show up and drink the damn poison."

Obama !!!
I bet you thought this would be about Obama didn't you? What gave you that idea?... I blogged about blogging so that I could just blog. But in blogging about blogging for the sake of blogging just to say that I blogged about blogging so that people would read this blog being blogged about blogging. ...I am bored so shoot Me... *unzips* oh yes, dance for Me baby haha Okay am bored, was asked what sites I am on Fubar, I mean really yes I have a fubar account if you did not know already! Myspace, yes, I have 7 Myspace accounts, if you ask nicely I might just add you on one...even though I am rarely on... Deviant Arts... Yup I got Me a deviant art page, for the most part it has some of My writings I posted her, BUT it does have a few pieces of writing that have not, and shall not be posted here... Gr when I told a friend what I was naming it she said I should tell My feelings on Obama You want My feelings on Obama, okay here goes,I would not say thus far of his presidency he

"gods: Greek, Roman Etc."
"Gods: Greek, Roman etc." Various gods such as these figures often represent idealized desires, obstacles, powers, or relationships. The presence of the god figure often comes as a superlative. Some examples of this include: Thor as the most strength, Zeus as the most wisdom, and Eros as the greatest sexual desire. We may either encounter these figures directly or feel ourselves as persons occupying their bodies or adopting their attributes. These experiences show us important features of ourselves as agents of action in the world. We are confronted by these superlatives and are either thwarted by them or become more self-aware in who we need to be in the circumstances and relationships of life. If you are a student of mythology, it may be useful to investigate your dreams for themes of power, problem-solving, and self-awareness.

Hmmm- A Ponder???
I have been asked......what is life without love? Consider this....what is love without life? I am still pondering this. One thought leads to another. I say that we should experience ALL the emotions in life. Without those not so pleasant ones, how would one learn to really appreciate the truly pleasant emotions? What with nothing to compare it to. Any thoughts?

Just Some Thoughts....yeah, Mushy Ones.
Limitless possibilities Across the horizon I see All the opportunities That are there for you and me It’s not to be questioned Only allowed to move ahead Having so many options Is something special said Grasping every moment Every second that presents Not to waste a single chance Of emotions so intense Accepting what is given

Forbidden Fruit
Everyone has a tree of forbidden fruit, you may not notice it at first, but its there, calling you name , until one day you turn to look at it, hanging there looking soooo ripe and beautiful. You walk over to it, wanting to taste it, but you know it not right. So you walk away, making it through another day. Only to awaken with it calling once again. So you walk over and touch it, then taste it only with your tongue, mmmm so sweet, so you bite it and as the juices flow down your throat, you close your eyes enjoying the pleasure of its taste and feel until its gone.you walk away and all the while need and wanting more. Trying to get through the nights, but its in your system so deep it consumes you. Having you in the middle of the night needing the next taste, and with every bite stealing your soul, your mind until it controls your every move, want every waking moment until you can no longer think for yourself. Losing more and more of you, Whats is ur forbidden fruit,and are you ready

Happieness
For once in my life I am finally happy. I'm with a very beautiful woman named Kelly. She makes me feel alive. She accepts me for who I am and has been what has driven me and inspired me to be the man I am. We have so much in common and we're feeling closer each day. Most of all what I love about her is she has fought for me like no one else has. She has gone through the worst 3 months of her life and it's all because her family made her choose. Them or me and guess who she chose? You'd think a normal family could get over it but not them. They didn't and they made her feel like shit for choosing me but she never gave up and yesterday she has made the decision to leave home and be with me. Her parents FLIPPED and it has been like fucking world war 3 ever since but she still loves me with all her heart and THATS what makes her so special. She's unlike any other woman I've been with and she has my love FOREVER!!!

Thoughts Of A Shattered Existance
my depth perception quickly changes this light brightly blinding me even god would cry out in anguish at the pain you have caused your mockery will never cease it was you who i believed pulled me from the darkness yet you smile so politely as you push me back into abyss this life I once pictured bright and vivid has faded to near black and grey as i burn the picture of you out of my memory. your bullet penetrated my heart and instead of dying from the blood loss it merely shattered me into a thousand pieces and left me to be carried by the frost @ Brandi S. Weaver December 28, 2009

Wth Does This Mean? Dumb Computer
What does this mean? The procedure entry point PowerReadACValue could not be located in the dynamic link library POWRPROF.dll. It pops up everytime I restart the computer, and every here and there when I'm on the internet! Doesn't give me any options...only an ok button, and I have to click that 5 or 6 times before it'll go away! GRR annoying

A Nightmare
Can you feel how heavy the air is. breath shallowed by fear heart racing, and about to explode the pain in my stomach grows to stabbing proportion.. words that want to come slip from my grasp face down in mud and dirt the blade glistening in moolight as its pressed against my kneck you sick fuck infecting my every thought destroying the vessel that i called mine taking what was never rightfully yours screams of horror off in the distance. silent killer, escapes reality through inexistance knife in hand, ready to slit the throat of innocents conflicted and terrified my thoughts drift to a place where i am safe only moments pass but it feels like hours my body and soul ravaged to their very core this morbid erotic connection is at its end for a moment i almost wish it wasn't awake in darkness swallowed by utter desperation still feeling your hot breath in my skull and cold seraded edge against my jugular was this a dream or of real exista

The Eyes In The Mirror
the eyes in the mirror deviant disasterous windows that hide chaotic secrets blind me so i no longer have to look into you soul lies that multiply with time cannot be seen behind a veil thats in league with hell eyes of snakes are more convincing than those the devil gave you icy and vengeful piercing my core with a glance my life turned cold with the sight of you fresh blood streams down my cheeks let me rip them out and cast them at your feet so no longer i suffer hypnosis by your traitorous eyes modern day medusa casting her stone gaze in my direction i long for darkness so i smash out the sun blacken the skies so i no longer see your face in the mirror. Brandi S. Weaver january 7, 2010

Thursday Three-fer. Two Fakes & A Con Exposed.
So I had a bad day. It’s so cold I woke up to frozen water pipes this morning. When I have a bad day, that usually means someone eats pavement somewhere. And today we have a two - fer special going on right in on this blog. The first one really isn’t a “fake” persay, but it’s a con to a certain degree..check it out here… ♆ Viᶍᶍᶍen Fuwife of Quicksilver@ fubar

Why Would My Sister Fall Silent
Why would my sister fall silent? I've not only cut the biostolic but stopped the aspirin. The 2.5 are being saved so that they can be cut in half. I have dead lines to meet and I want the scale in the favor of Dr. Viswanath and others. I want their prophesy of me to beocme a reality. In order for me to consider any hospital everyone has to be known to me with pic and all personal information so I can go public with it. From A to Z and all your personal information in the public. From the stranger, strange woman waving good bye, and to who ever was dumb enough to place in my PO Box political literture of Rep. Andrews because I'm in a different district to Liberty. Oh, start the cycles and vehicles. Public. Norio

Jewelry
ood Mood ...: by the way the MARTYRL ON WIKIPEDIA IS http:... marinagirl...: oh see Hood Mood ...: you told me Hood Mood ...: ALL OF IT marinagirl...: now you know marinagirl...: I have one that I got in New Zealand that I need to get resized, its a moonstone like my necklace that I got in OR when I was visiting my folks, the chain I have had forever, it came from my dads jewelery store, the earrings, my 1st hubbys dad got them for me for xmas Hood Mood ...: i am all about non sense right now Hood Mood ...: at least at first Hood Mood ...: normally the one that means the least Hood Mood ...: kidding Hood Mood ...: YES but one to rule them all Hood Mood ...: hahahahhahaahaahhhahHAH Hood Mood ...: so now i know marinagirl...: thats is, there are 3

Sb Idiot
This one just made me laugh. What an idiot?!?! Read from the bottom up. Amykins ♥: lol riiight airforcech...: ur the one looking like a fake ass bitch airforcech...: oh whatever it was a joke Amykins ♥: piss off fake! airforcech...: lick my huge dick baby as i eat ur pussy and watch football lol Amykins ♥: cheaters! airforcech...: longhorns lol

Story Numero Uno...
It started with us sitting in a lounge, watching TV, chilling, and just having a nice time. Anyway, you kept brushing my thigh or my neck as we sat there, pretending you weren’t doing anything but giving me a look that said you knew just what you were doing. I retaliated by giving you a quick squeeze of your leg when you asked for my hand. I gave it to you, and you took me upstairs to a bedroom, locking the door behind you. You walked up to me and started kissing me softly on the lips, our hands running through each other’s hair as I moved down to your neck, opening up your shirt and kissing you along your collarbone. Then you pushed me onto the bed as we rushed to take our clothes off, leaving you just in your underwear and me in a pair of boxers. You climbed on top of me, straddling and rocking back and forth on my crotch, making me hard and yourself wet as you rubbed against me. I ran my hands all over your curves, one hand on your hip, the other tracing circles along

A Note For The Mothers Out There...
I never really gave alot of thought to birthdays in general, until my son had his 1st one. Naturally, to any parent this is a milestone and wonderful reason for celebration. But on that day I was given a gift, a beautiful white gold and diamond pendant in the shape of a mother and child. When I asked why, I was told that because even though it was our sons life we were celebrating, on that day one year earlier I was the one who went through the miracle (and pain!) of bringing him into the world. So for my son it was a birthday, and for me, an anniversary. Ever since, I have made sure to let my own mother know how much I love and appreciate her on my own birthday, and I just wanted to share this with all the other moms out there. Love to you all, Bonnie xoxo What my life is all about Hear the NewsAm filled with prideTo learn I have A life inside..... and I already love you. Aches and strainsAnd labor painsThen you arriveLook in my eyes.... and I love you even more. Yo

The Puckered Sweet Blow
You kiss me, the design of your lust is printed on my nude body, your hands on me spread on my very flesh like a forest fire. passions burn wild and uncontrollable. your hand clutch my breasts and your lips stir to my erected nipples , kissing and sucking on them. my heart beats forcefully my breath weakened and broken up. my pussy wet i feel a craze lust for you. i slide down your chest ,belly and work my tongue to your erection, hard stiff pulsing with blood rushing firmly to make the hard appeal that is like eye candy for me. i cling my hand to your cock teasing the tip with my red plush soft warm mouth. mmmm pre cum excitedly exits the stiff cock . a single thin strand ladders across from my lips to the cock head of your dick. mmmm yes so tasty i can hardly Wait to taste your nectar sweet. i grasp with my other hand your balls and i take a breath and i take every last inch of your man hood, into my mouth mmmmmm yessss thick cock sliding in and out more rabidly as i coax i

My Theme Song
My red pucker Theme song! My pucker brings all the boys to the yard, I kiss you and make you beg for more! I can kiss you and make you beg for more. la la la la la If you want me, then you better show me, yes you better show me. I have lips for your desire My pucker brings all the boys to the yard, I kiss you and make you beg for more! I can kiss you and make you beg for more. la la la la you know that I'm always in charge my pucker is so sweet and creamy

Anal Curious? - M4w - 22 (tupelo)
I am a clean disease free white male looking for a girl who would like to try anal sex. I only have four inches so it isn't going to hurt too bad or anything. From what i've read i'm actually the ideal size because i get to your nerve endings but not so deep that it hurts. If you are interested then send me a message. I also like to do role play and will try to fill any requests you have. lmfao I'm sorry about all of the posts, but this one made me laugh out loud. How do you even work 4 inches?

Are You Looking To Cum - M4w - 48 (aberdeen)
white male looking for some pussy to eat, all ages 18 to 80, white or black......if your interested in a good hot tongue, Respond with pic/description, no websites or bs responses........put "eat me" in subject line Lets picture that 80 year old pussy. :/ om nom nom Way to be picky, dude.

I Am Down 80 Pounds! What I Learned About Health And Fitness
It is a brand new year and I know my people are setting new goals, resolutions, and promises to themsevles. If there is one change that I have made in my life to better myself, it is dedicating myself to health and fitness. This change I made in my life in September of 2008 has been the best decision I have ever made. I was getting so big in early 2008 that I could barely stand my own reflection. I would sometimes shower with the light off just to avoid seeing my body in the mirror. I would eat my feelings, I was lazy, and everyday I got worse and worse. So a year and a 3 months later I want to share some things that I have personally learned and gained for the change I made in my life. I hope to help some other men and women achieve their personal health and fitness goals - no matter what they are. To begin - Strength is not in how long you run on the tredmill, not how much you bench press, but how you believe in yourself and give more when you feel like giving up. - Morning cardio is

Lend A Hand? - M4w - 29 (starkville)
Married white male looking for an attractive white female to "lend a hand", watch me, maybe watch each other? Just see what happens...you never know! Please feel free to contact me any time. LMAO..how is this under 'platonic'?

Perspective
Yeah so i wrote this after i just got done reading Ant's blog ''Tell me how fucked up your life is'' So thanks for the inspiration Ant. look at your life what are you complaining about? bitching about, how you're grounded and can't go out or if you to old to be grounded your ego takes flight your probs consist of hoping your laptop stays charged all night well do me a favor alright, google world hunger and gain insight into the plight that the world's in, you let depression sink in about meaningless things, while others want their world to end you live in a 3 story house with the white picket fence you own a world class restaurant that the real hungry can't get in leftover food in the garbage even though the homeless coulda ate it hands reach out to you but you quickly evade it no eye contact cus if you seen yourself in the eyes reflection you'd hate it look at yourself, i bet you might feel like shit in your gated community cut off from the rest of the world that sometimes lose t

Black Sisters, I'm Looking For Advise... - M4w (new York City)
I'm looking for your sincere advise. A year ago I met here in CL a beautiful and sensitive black woman from your area. What started as an inocous beginning of friendship and continued as a very hot and passionate love. We spoke on the phone for hours. We made love on the phone. We faught both with text messages and talking on the phone. We declared our deepest and sincerest love on the phone and e_mails... All this for one year. After a while since the beginning, she told me she had met a guy who was after her. And who was pampering her with invitations. She told me that she couldn't be alone by herself (divorced with two children) there but that, even if she went out with this guy, I was her only and real love. He clearly noticed her weak spot and kept pampering her with trips and gifts even if he knew (or so he told her) she really was in love with me...or so she said. Should I believe her ? Now she has been silent since New Years Eve when we spoke for the last time in lovin

Ode To My Father
Why do you hate me father tell me whyy Do you know you bring those tears to my eyes Father should I take my life and die Why do you hate father me tell me whyy Do you know you bring those tears to my eyes Father should I take my life and die What did I do to deserve all the pain All the things that go wrong I get all the blame Everytime we fight it makes me go insane Your words whip me like the end of a chain I don't know what I'm doing here I don't know why I feel this way Everything that you say And everything that you do It makes me weak and sick just like the flu Who knew about the abuse you put me through Drowning my emotions until my mind grew My life is no fun, it's turned into a chore I'm crying with a roar and my throat becomes sore I'm doing what I'm told and I'm feeling like a whore When I look into your eyes all I see is your anger Telling me to die like I was a stranger Or maybe you should have killed me in the manger Why do you hate me father tell me whyy Do you know yo

[what A Racket]
Alright, now as some of you may knowthe video game rental industry has gone straight down the shitterso a lot of times consolers are kinda forced to demo a game (rarely) borrow it, or buy it to play it at all.Since new games are $60 I either have to have +++ faith in the franchise/producer/friend that recomended it, or I have to go on a FUCKING VISION QUEST to play it before I buy it.That being saidI have some games I bought and suffered some buyer's remorsethe only thingMOREblowful than the rental industryis 2nd hand.I bought Resistance 2 on franchise faith thinking "how can they fuck this up? resistence two was fucking GREAT" well, by abandoning the predecessor game systems and making a COD/Halo clone on railroad tracks and a 2 gun inventory ... of course.I tried to take the ONCE loaded and played game backwhich was within my returns agreement had I bought it anywherebut bestbuyso I had to trade itGame I boughtthat day, no damage, no fingerprints even on the manualI traded for $22 an

Tell Me How Fucked Up Your Life Is... No Really... Tell Me
"VIP IS RUNNING OUT... FML FML FML" I figured I would give people the vapors and some perspective... not trying to trivialize your troubles but the world is bigger than you, me, them, us.

I Had To Run
I had to run I couldn’t see the sun. I had to hide, Thought you were on my side. It has been a tough ride. I built a wall, Thought I heard you call. Thought I was strong, But I was so wrong. Like every rose I watched you grow. I want to cry, Don’t want to say goodbye.

Walk Away From Your Mortgage!
Credit: http://www.nytimes.com/2010/01/10/magazine/10FOB-wwln-t.html By ROGER LOWENSTEIN Published: January 7, 2010 John Courson, president and C.E.O. of the Mortgage Bankers Association, recently told The Wall Street Journal that homeowners who default on their mortgages should think about the “message” they will send to “their family and their kids and their friends.” Courson was implying that homeowners — record numbers of whom continue to default — have a responsibility to make good. He wasn’t referring to the people who have no choice, who can’t afford their payments. He was speaking about the rising number of folks who are voluntarily choosing not to pay. Such voluntary defaults are a new phenomenon. Time was, Americans would do anything to pay their mortgage — forgo a new car or a vacation, even put a younger family member to work. But the housing collapse left 10.7 million families owing more than their homes are wo

11 Rules
A friend brought this to my attention. These are "The 11 rules of Life" as written and spoken by Microsoft CEO Bill Gates Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it! Rule 2: The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself. Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with a car phone until you earn both. Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity. Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault; so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them. Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before

Am I Stuck Up?
It's come to my attention that I appear stuck up... 2 different people have mentioned this to me so it can't just be the one person that thinks it because they don't like me. I admit I like nice things and are used to a certain way of life...but stuck up? I thought there was a difference between having standards and being stuck up. Well...am I? I know most of you, being my friends would be all like 'NO wai! blah blah blah'...but I'd like some brutal honesty please. :) Pretend it's a mumm.=D

January- Edited 1/21
Just a place I can keep track of the books and graphic novels I've read. Don't mind me... January Hack / Slash Omnibus Vol. 1 by Tim Seeley | Graphic novel | 300 pages | B+ Hellboy Junior by Bill Wray & Mike Mignola | Graphic novel | 120 pages | C- I *love* Hellboy and Mignola, but Hellboy junior was only in a couple of stories, not many Mignola illustrations and the rest were disgusting (not disgustingly funny) random Wray "stories". Sooo disappointing.... Peter & Max: A Fables Novel by Bill Willingham | 376 | A+ Beat the Reaper by Josh Bazell | 310 | A Don't Tempt Me by Loretta Chase | 355 | B Romance Without Tears by various | Graphic novel | 160 | B | "50's love comics- with a twist!" Cheesy but charming. Single Issue Comic Books Cinderella: From Fabletown with Love #3 by Chris Roberson and artist Shawn McManus | A- Seduth by Clive Barker, art by Gabriel Rodruguez | 3D art- A (great looking comic!) Story: I have no idea what to give it, it made zero sense to me.

Yesterday
Yesterday we we're together and happy.Yesterday we laughed in the warmth of the sun.Yesterday the world was ours for the taking.Yesterday you asked me for my hand,and I gave you all of me.Today I sit in silence in an empty room.Yesterday I gave you my heart and you welcomed it.Yesterday you opened my eyes to a whole new world.Yesterday you showed me what life is supposed to be.Yesterday you gave meaning to my exsistence.Today I am cold and alone,You are nomore.

Deception
Fooled by her beauty,And a smile that would not end.My heart fell so fast,I could not see its end. Her deception so cleaverly clouded,I was blind to all her evil ways.So wrapped up in her outer shell,My nights were blurred by my days. I left my heart unguarded,And she tore through what was left.She left me so broken,I begged God for my last breath. My mind lost,my body in pain,My heart may never again be found.My eyes still stinging from the tears,My mouth crys out with no sound. For now a lost soul,Wandering,no longer able to dream.Now in a constant shock,All because in her I did believe.

The Cost
To me you are an illussion,A facade is what I see.Your not being true to yourself,This is not who your supposed to be. If only you could look in the mirror,And see the true you.Maybe you would open your eyes,And realize what you should do. Maybe you'll also realize,How many you've pushed away.People who would have stayed,Till your last breath,your last day. Hopefully you'll open your mind,and you'll see what you've lost.Remembering the friendships gone,And exactly what they cost.

Someone's "about Me" Section
I saw this when I was perusing some profiles. "3. YES I HAVE NSFW AND NO YOU CANNOT SEE THEM! UNLESS YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU CAN DO TO GET IN THAT FOLDER DONT THINK THEY COME FOR NOTHING! IM NOT LIKE THAT SO DONT EVEN ASK UNLESS UR READY TO BUY BLING PACKS/VIPs/HAPPYHOURS OR SOMETHING OF THAT NATURE! GET IT GOT IT GOOD!" Now, this makes it sound worse than just showing it to someone. I mean it makes this woman sound like a WHORE. I have nudes but you have to pay type of thing. Yes, these our are people. And, people wonder what is wrong with the gene pool. That is all Dit Peace baby I will need to come up with my own finishing number how about Thats what she said

[sardines]
I want them to be good.I really do.Little bits of very good for you fish in adorable filets or cylinders of meat and bone.Sadlysardines are not eel.And are often "smoked" (blasted with exhaust piped from chinese shit farms)So I bought a couple tins today, followed my instincts after tasting someand created something ediblebut not terrific.Drain it rinse itsmother it in aromaticsbreadcrumbstomato saucebalsalmic vinegar *sigh* edible but not great.So I did what I do in all these situationsdrinkwaitno.Consult my spanish cook book. Gorgonzola was a pretty good idea though. More on this topic later.

What If?
Ferk it.....Im bored!!If you won the lottery, what's the 1st thing you would buy?Land on the coast.What if you found out you were adopted?I'd be happy I didnt shoot out of the mom I had LOL!!What would you do if you walked into your house only to find your boyfreind and your mother making out?Nothing my mom hasn't done before, she did it to my sis. I'd prolly shit green twinkies sideways!What if a stranger told your your partner was cheating on you?investigate for myselfIf you could adopt one personality trait from someone, who and what?Now that Im not entirely sure.What would you want to experience if you found out you were dying?The northern lightsWhat if you or your partner found out they were pregnant tomorrow?Not possible so meh...What if you found out your BFF was sleeping with your partner?plan Revenge.If you could have avoided living one year of your past, which one and why?The year I went to Scott valley Jr. high. I was belittled and teased relentlessly.What if your dog crappe

Sexual Affenders
Friday, December 11, 2009 ARE YOU SORRY Current mood: disgusted Category: Life "Are YOU Sorry"Are You Sorry??????????I don't mean to rememberIt's true that I dream less oftenI'm not ashamedOf that long DecemberYour hand's coming down againI close my eyes and brace myselfI only noticed your faceNo matter what you're gonna build my shellNo matter what you're gonna build my shellI'm falling (falling)I'm shedding my skin (my skin)But it's not time I'm toldI am aware (am aware)Of what you mean by thenI'm only FIVE years oldClose my eyes and brace myselfOnly noticed your faceNo matter what you're gonna build my shellNo matter what you're gonna build my shellMy scars are yours todayThis story ends so goodand I understandThat you stood where I stoodClose my eyes and brace myselfI only noticed your faceNo matter what you're gonna break my shellNo matter what you're gonna break my shellI'm done healingI'm done healing

Safer World For Women
The fair haired woman at the bus stop cried loudly and turned away as her male friend shouted into her face. He then slapped her loudly across the head with a plastic bag which I assumed must have concealed a bottle, for the crack that she suffered made my teeth grind and crush as I heard the impact. He stood there, his bald head red with anger, his other fist trembling in rage and his face contorted into that of a snarling bull dog. The blonde woman simply moaned and bent over holding her head after the bottle made contact with her scalp. "Leave her alone you crazy freak!" I screamed and stepped between him and the moaning simpering woman. "Don't say anything." - The woman lifted her dazed face towards me, pleading with her frightened eyes. I knew exactly what she was conveying with her eyes. "If you upset him, I get it more" is what she was saying. "If you stand up to him, he will beat me worse in private." Those feelings stirred up old memories within my furious brain. The b

Eight Systems Of Consciousness
The Eight Systems of Consciousness by Robert Anton Wilson from Cosmic Trigger: The Final Secret of the Illuminati Tunnel-Realities and Imprints To understand neurological space, Dr. Leary assumes that the nervous system consists of eight potential circuits, or "gears," or mini-brains. Four of these brains are in the usually active left lobe and are concerned with our terrestrial survival; four are extraterrestrial, reside in the "silent" or inactive right lobe, and are for use in our future evolution. This explains why the right lobe is usually inactive at this stage of our development, and why it becomes active when the person ingests psychedelics. We will explain each of the eight "brains" briefly. I. The Bio-Survival System This invertebrate brain was the first to evolve (2 to 3 million years ago) and is the first activated when a human infant is born. It programs perception onto an either-or grid divided into nurturing-helpful Things (which it approaches) and noxious-dangerous Thin

Pics
Ok i gotta rant and this is to men or women so that their is no mistake if you are taking sexy/nude/tease pictures and posting them on a website for all to see keep this in mind STANDING BESIDE YOUR KIDS TOYS WHILE A CARTOON IS ON TV IS NOT FUCKING SEXY ITS DOWN RIGHT DISGUSTING TO EVEN IMAGINE THAT U AS A PARENT ARE DOIN THIS SHIT IN FRONT OF YOUR KIDS AND 1 MORE THING i dont care what kinda pic it is clean up your nasty fuckin house you fuckin slob then take a pic you standin there in a mirror in what looks to be a waste disposal unit really really is a turn off just sayin k im done lol

New Phantom Psalmz
Wherever You GoSons of the tide of the music insidewe forgot we all have to gochorus of feelings in a single imagestill, there are many now who knowthat it is all, based on faithI know there is no other wayare we born to learn love. .then pain, and feel lost?My loneliness won't leave me alone today.Are we just souls, along for the rideremembered images of love insideentertaining angels who play music to angelsno loss on the other side!Just give me my music so I can forgetwho I was, for a little bitjust give us our song, it's where we belongwe believe we can understand it.no need for before, another closed door no going back, this I know-I can say "I love you" if you listen to meI'm with you . .wherever you go.Wind over the Wasteland Leaps of trial and errortransforming to a singular blind jump of faith...maybe if we waitor lead it off a little bit we won't have to try too hard to relate to ithigher vibration controlthe lower ones inside infinite soulThese lives surely must beon a

Devil In The Church
One Sunday morning, everyone in one bright, beautiful, tiny town got up early and went to the local church. Before the services started, the townspeople were sitting in their pews and talking about their lives, their families, etc. Suddenly, Satan appeared at the front of the church. Everyone started screaming and running for the front entrance, trampling each other in a frantic effort to get away from evil incarnate. Soon everyone was evacuated from the church, except for one elderly gentleman who sat calmly in his pew, not moving... seemingly oblivious to the fact that God's ultimate enemy was in his presence. Now this confused Satan a bit, so he walked up to the man and said, "Don't you know who I am?" The man replied, "Yep, sure do." Satan asked, "Aren't you afraid of me?" "Nope, sure ain't," said the man. Satan was a little perturbed at this and queried, "Why aren't you afraid of me?"

Jessica
At a distance she was not clear,But still I needed to see.When I got up much closer,Her beauty shined on me. From her eyes to her smile,Her beauty grew in my mind.I knew I could never leave her,Could never leave her behind. If she would walk with me,A friend today and from now on.I will make her beauty smile,From her lips it will never be gone.

Celibacy
it was fine when i wasn't having sex because i wasn't interested... but suddenly.. because i said "no sex till i lose 100 pounds" i really REALLY wanna get laid... its bad enough that random things get me worked up! ie... i leaned back and my hair caught on something and it pulled... i turned into super horny chick instantly

Fuck Fubar
what the fuck cant i delete my fuckin page i dont want to be on here but everytime i try to delete it the fuckin bouncer id guy wont let me even when i type in the right letters its fuckin stupid and im gonna keep talkin shit until i get help fuck this place

Do All You Can Do To Save America!
Do We the People Have the Courage? created @ 01/6/2010 04:14 pm expires in: 7 hrs [FRIENDS] Share this MuMM: A scary MuMM it actually has some bite to it. 2010 is an unique year as ALL 435 Congressional Seats are up for re-election or election in a case or two due to being vacated or retirement. This is the House of Representatives only.Unless I have been asleep and something has changed I do not believe that anyone can believe the United States is healthy and that Our Representation is ALL it should be.My Question:Do the We the People of the United States have the necessary will to elect an entirely NEW Congress, that is to say to put aside political party and elect 435 NEW (Never been there before) Congressmen? It would be a Non-Violent Revolution. Do We the People have the strength to send a Loud and Clear message to Washington to CLEAN up and serve US?

Life
life can really mess u up. exspeacaily after ur husband of 18 yrs divorces u then a year later comes back into ur life,buys u a wedding ring and then a week later leaves u again for another women!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beginning Of The End
"Beginning of the End" The irritation we're pretending not to show Has replaced the motivation That I had not long ago I know that I don't ever want to be the one to make you forget it to make you resent it to make you repress it I don't ever want to be It's the beginning of the end And I don't know where we lost control It's the beginning of the end And I know that I am all alone Interrogation has replaced the trust we had Your misguided accusations Helping me to turn my back I know that I don't ever want to be the one to make you divide it to make you deny it to make you deprive it I don't ever want to be I thought that we would find our way I thought our life would be ok I thought that you believed in me But now it seems so far away The life we knew before is gone There is no compromising The life you save will be your own To find your inner senses

Nutshell
"Nutshell" We've chased the misprinted lies We've faced the path of time And yet I fight And yet I fight This battle all alone No one to catch you No place to call home My gift to self is raped My privacy is raked And yet I find And yet I find Repeating in my head If I can't be my own i'd feel better dead

Giving In
"Giving In" Will you, walk me To the edge again Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again Woke up tonight and no one's here with me I'm giving in to you Take me under I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight I'm giving in to you Watch me crumble I'm giving in to you I'm crying tonight I'm giving in to you Caught up, in life Losing all my friends Family has tried, to heal all my addictions Tragic it seems, to be alone again I'm giving in to you Take me under I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight I'm giving in to you Watch me crumble I'm giving in to you I'm crying tonight I'm giving in to you (Oh fuck) I look forward, to dying tonight Drinks 'till I'm myself, life's harder every day The stress has got me I'm giving in Giving Giving in, NO! Take me under (I'm killing all the pain) I'm dying tonight (i'm sick of all this pain) Watch me crumble (I'm killing all the pain) I'm crying tonight I'm giving in to you Take me under I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight I'm giving in to you

Wait For You
"Wait For You" I never felt nothing in the world like this before Now I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my door Why did you have to go? You could have let me know So now I'm all alone, Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand And all my tears they keep running down my face Why did you turn away? So why does your pride make you run and hide? Are you that afraid of me? But I know it's a lie what you keep inside This is not how you want it to be So baby I will wait for you Cause I don't know what else I can do Don't tell me I ran out of time If it takes the rest of my life Baby I will wait for you If you think I'm fine it just ain't true I really need you in my life No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you It's been a long time since you called me (How could you forget about me) You got me feeling crazy (crazy) How can you walk away, Everything stays the same I just

Have You Heard This?
This song is amazing. I heard it a month or so ago. It's full of win :] (Chrous)Shorty just text me, says she want to sex meLOL smiley face, LOL smiley faceShorty sent a twitpic saying come and get this,LOL smiley face, LOL smiley faceShorty called my phone, i was busy (i was busy)cruisin in that benz round the city (round the city)then i felt my phone buzz, i know that she like us,im a bad boy like diddy,then she sent a text, that read, baby im at home,then she sent another one that says shes all aloneso i text her smiley face and said do the grown,she said lol, boy you crazy, come onthen she said actually, you aint gotta ask mesent the lil face with the tongue cos im nastyim on my way, girl make way, twitter me a picturelet me see that ok,[Chrous]Shorty just text me, says she want to sex meLOL smiley face, LOL smiley faceShorty sent a twitpic saying come and get this,LOL smiley face, LOL smiley facepull up my page(?) and follow and if you got a body like a coke bottle.

Ravanna Rose
Like a hammer on an ice block,Is what you've done to my heart.Little shards of it lay everwhere,Completely ripped apart. How could someone,Who's love we did share.Destroy my whole world,And did it without a care. Cruel and ruthless you are,Leaving me standing all alone.Your love I will never forget,But one I wished I'd never known.

Wish For Spring
Winter now so deeply apon us,Forever it seems skys are gray.Makes me long for the summer,And bright sunny skys all day. Winter digs in without caution,Putting its cold into my bones.I look at the empty streets,And I feel so alone. It never shows any mercy,Its cold plowing into my core.It prenatrates my body each day,Worse than the day before. I look for the sunlight,Through clouds it does not flow,But still out into it,From my home I must go. Weeks will pass before its gone,And each day I must carry on.How I wish for spring,And winter over and done.

I Make Cute Sick?
On new years eve I did a sick, me and my friends were talking about our night the other day and she said 'Your sick was all pink and fluffy, kinda like candy floss.....even your sick is cute'. :o

Followup To King Without A Crown
I am doing this for the 1 or 2 people who were nice enough to take the time and give me advice on this conundrum I am having... As far as the blind date was concerned, it went better as expected according to her. Kinda left me a little dismayed, and drama ensued within my clan being one of my clanmates put her in a private chat, this being after I signed off to talk to another clan leader about some issues he was having. The head of the clan saw this and reamed him a new asshole for this since he knows I am starting to develop feelings for the girl. Even kicked him from the clan which I never asked for but anyway..... Yesterday, I texted her hey whats up... and next thing that comes up is... I heard you wanna have a talk with me... I am like yes and she flat out asked me did it bother me that she went on that date. I said yes, and she mentioned this private chat to me (without even asking about it). I said to her since we were just texting and both at work that we should talk late

Problem Solved.
So I made a MuMM asking if I should call in to work so I can get the extra day to rest. Looks like I don't have to do that. My boss, the one that I say is psycho, just called me and told me that since she knew I was sick yesterday and her brother left a note saying to send someone home at noon, I don't have to come in today. As much as I can't stand her sometimes, I'm starting to think that she's really not all that bad. The last thing she told me was that she hoped I felt better. Now my yountest is sick and I have to take him to the doctor. Everyone here is getting sick. I don't know what's going around, but I hope it goes away soon! I really want to be able to see John this weekend. On top of everyone getting sick, we are suppose to be getting snow. They said by the end of the weekend, we'll have close to 6 inches. Ugh.

My Salvation Chapter 18
My Salvation I ran swiftly back to the house, the reality of everything hitting me, I was going to be a father. Did this change the way I felt about Bella? I need to be alone with my thoughts, need to think this through. I was still baffled about her calling our unborn child EJ. Why after everything I have done to her would she give him my name sake? I had to admit to myself though, I kinda liked it. I got back to the house and Esme was standing on the porch. “Edward?” she said turning to look at me. I turned towards her “Yes Esme” “What are you going to do? Bella’s pregnant with your child, so it’s time for you to face reality” she asked. “I know Esme, I’m trying to do the right thing for everyone, but I’m not sure what the right thing is now” I stood there looking up at the sky, it was a cloudy day not once piece of blue anywhere to be seen. “I really need to be alone and think this throug

The Shocking Truth Chapter 17
The Shocking Truth We got to my house and everyone was waiting for us outside. Bella walked towards me and Jacob, taking both our hands. We all walked into the house together. Carlisle and Esme were sitting in the living room. “Carlisle, we have a problem” I said as we walked into the room. I helped Bella to the sofa and sat her down. “What’s the problem Edward?” he said all confused. “Come over here and I’ll show you” Carlisle walked over to where I was sitting with Bella. I lifted her shirt gently and showed him the bruises. Rosalie wasn’t too far and she hissed when Carlisle touched Bella’s stomach. “Calm down Rosalie. I’m not going to hurt her” Carlisle shook his head “I’ve heard about this, but never thought it was a true legend” “What! you’ve heard about this” “Well I actually heard of a legend of a Vampire that would visit woman, bewitching t

First Meeting
The first guy I ever met from a dating site was a good person. We hit it off immediately. We ended up spending the day together. Unfortunately, we were not a match for each other. He preferred petite, waif-like women. I am far from that... lol. We became really good friends, and still are to this day. I went to visit him one day, and he showed me the type of women he goes after. Nothing wrong with his perferences, and I didn't take offense to it, but man, when he showed me the type of women he goes after, I just wanted to FEED them all! HAHA! He has a girlfriend now, but we still talk almost daily. He spent a lot of time mentoring me in the ways of online dating. He got very upset with me when I didn't tell him I as going on a meeting with the guy I pushed out of my car, and chastised me for not being safe. I've since learned my lesson, and I call him every time I go on a meeting to let him know exactly when and where where I will be. If he doesn't hear from me within two hours, he

Wanna Be My Friend
What is a true friend. Someone who takes you in no questions asked. The person that sticks bye your side, through the good times and the bad. The person you know you can call any time or day and lend you a helping hand. Someone that travels 450 miles just to hang out. A person in your life that you can ask anything, and they wont judge you. No matter who you are, what you say, or do, or even look like, you or accepted for who you are! Silly with some, serious with others, and never hold back on what you feel. Unconditionally you are willing to give, as long as you recieve also . Sitting around not doing nothing, but still enjoying your time together. Being able to know what to say, to get a smile. But, of all the things I consider a friend, knowing something is bothering them. Knowing when to leave them alone and knowing when to lend them a shoulder to cry on.

Accuplacer
So, I'm going back to school for my associates, but they have a test called the accuplacer. It tells you if youcan move on to college classes or if you need extra help. I suck at math so I'm wondering if I should take the accuplacer to see how I do, or if I should just sign up for the extra help classes. What do y'all think?

Just For You
Here is another one just for you, don`t know what it is that you do. When i think of you i smile, she has her own special little style. Yes I do notice when you are not around, and sometimes you make me feel like a clown. I told them how your eyes are hazel, forgot to tell about your cute little navel. And how you dance around the room, even do it sometimes with a broom. She even likes to sing her favorite song, when i know it i will sing along. Very independent, has her own place, she likes to have a lot of space. We stay up at night and play games, tells me about her friends, cant remember all their names. She wears glasses so she can see, doesn`t know what she means to me. Sometimes I think she is on her own cloud, and yes she can be somewhat loud. Talked to her on the phone the other day, asked me if i can come over and play. Oh yeah and bring over a friend, it was just me and her in the end. Brought her a book she can read, already has everything that she needs. Well maybe not rea

Untitled
friends surround me everyday, glad they are able to stay, you know i couldn`t go the day, without you here to even say, thank you for you all being there, if you weren`t here i`d pull out my hair, it shows me that you really care, we laugh so loud the people stare, wherever we go we have fun, you wouldn`t believe the things we`ve done , we even made fun of a nun, but that was really kinda dumb, for that we are surely going to hell, i hope you laugh,but please don't tell, i can here the mission bell, going down to find the things they sell, it seems to me that most friends come and go, in my mind that really does blow, the pain in my face lets it show , thats why i always drive to slow, don`t let life pass you bye, whatever you do give it your best try, i am your friend so why should i lie, even though i am a regular guy , so take these words and take them to heart, grabbing life would be a good start, if it goes to fast for you let it cart, you away and build a new part, so my friend f

Outside Looking In
I don`t know why I bottle it up inside, I really don`t have a place I can hide. Writing all this down to let it out, even though I have no idea.... what it is all about? Angry at myself for letting people push me around, Yeah I wish I were six feet in the ground. That way I would just be rid of myself, then you can put me on my own shelf. You think you know me, but do you really? The way that sometimes I can be silly. That is just me on the surface... You cant see all the anger and pain inside, that is all the bad stuff that I hide. You want to know me, then walk in my shoes, then you will know why I always have the blues. That is why sometimes I cant sleep, then there are times when my mind gets so deep. Why do i feel like a doormat? Sometimes you make me feel like that. Sorry that I never told you so, is it time for me to just go? Get as far away from you as I can, maybe I will find the real man. The one that has been bottled up inside, and the one that no longer wants to hide.

Butterfield
Just read on twitter than Peter Serafinowicz will not be making another series of shis sketch show for the BBC. Not entirely sure if this is true, or some kind of joke referencing the news that Jonathan Ross has just announced that he won't be renewing his contract... With Serafinowicz it's often hard to tell. So I popped over to his website to see if he'd said anything on there, and long story short, I ended up getting distracted. This time by the rather excellent Brian Butterfield page... Also, I've stashed a couple of good Serafinowicz clips this morning, plus found his statement about leaving the BBC, which has the embedding turned off, but can be found here : Serafinowicz's website

Close One!
Woke up to my alarm going off, went "dammit forgot to turn the alarm off I don't have class..." Thank God I someone rememered before falling back asleep I did have class. That would not have been good.

Melt In Ur Hands
Once upon a time there lived a king.The king had a beautiful daughter,The PRINCESS.But there was a problem. Everything theprincess touched would melt.No matter what;Metal,Wood,Stone,Anything she touched would melt.Because of this, men were afraid of her. Nobody would dare marry her.The king despaired. What could he do to help his daughter?He consulted his wizards and magicians. One wizard told the king,'If your daughter touches one thing that does not melt in her hands, she will be cured.'The king was overjoyed and came up with a plan.The next day, he held a competition. Any man that could bring his daughter an object that would not melt would marry her and inherit the king's wealth..THREE YOUNG PRINCES TOOK UP THE CHALLENGE.The first bro ught a sword of the finest steel.But alas, when the princess touched it, it melted.The prince went away sadly.The second prince brought diamonds.He thought diamonds are the hardest substance in the world and would not melt.But alas,once the princess t

Defying Gravity
So I stayed up last night watching the last three episodes of this show. You know what? It may have been a load of sappy old nonsense, but dammit I loved that show, and I'm sad that not enough of you idiots watched it, and so they're not making any more. Now I'll never know whether they got all those other things, and whether that guy ended up with that girl, and that other guy and girl hooked up, and if they saw all of the space they wanted to see. Dang it.

Brains V. Beauty
I respect the mind. i don't find many people who are able to engage me in conversation that holds anything truly interesting for me. Now however I find a new issue arising. Those precious few who seem capable of providing that ever so elusive conversation, and who happen to be stunningly beautiful. I'm torn. i want to respect them. To ignore the physical side of them and embrace the person beyond. However when their form is rather openly displayed i find that difficult to do. i search for brains over beauty. i enjoy both equally as much but place one over the other. And to be honest it depresses me when i see (and by the way this is in reference to at least three different people who i've met. And yes Kelsey you are one of them.) i see that those beautiful few decide to focus on their beauty. When they have the potential to be more. i'd say that perhaps i was of a more traditional mindset, but i know thats not true because of my active involvement in the BDSM communit

This Blackest Purse
i'm not who, with my eyes from stage, i claim to be,i've only cradled death in my own ending,flesh from far off and abstracted litcandle wick flickeringand when a thing starts finishing around me,i faint or fake a moustache, an accent, or flee,in fear my expired license be pulled by sheer proximityfact: the poseur in the bowler gets shot first,thinks he's the shit cause he can spit and curse,actin' brash and flashin' a pistol that squirts,scowling, and shouting, "shall we dance?"should our heroes hands be holding this blackest purse?mom, am i failing or worse?mom, am i failing?what should these earnest hands be holding?still sportin' my ex-girlfriend's dead ex-boyfriend's boxers,i wanna operate from a base of hunger,no longer be ashamed and hide mytears in shower water while i lather for pleasurei wanna speak at an intimate decibelwith the precision of an infinite decimal,to listen up and send back a true echoof something forever felt but never heardi want that sharpened steel of truth

Missred63
To have such a beautys heart,A great thing for me.My heart would stand so tall,So all could see. One word from her to me,And my darkness goes away.One smile from her,Forever by her side I would stay. She is my reason for life,For her I now do breathe.The warmth in my heart to her,Never will it leave.

The Reasons For The "highs" & "lows"~by Jd
I am the burning flame that will not subside inside your soul, I am the tendency you have to jump head first and think later. I am the rage that swells deep in your veins, Brought forth by the cruel world, We live the hard way the first time over, Some of us were meant to be more stamble to keep control. I am the intuition, I am the ruler of all that is the head and mind, I am the maker or breaker of those around me, Watch me as i stumble a little but never fall. I am the one who is right beside you, Yet in a state of mind that keeps me light years away, I am the one who pushes my way through heavy traffic, I never did like being second place. I am that stubborn asshole that always seems to be so egotistic and out spoken, Well, The truth hurts and life has thought me never to speak whats on my mind. Where would i be today if i exagerated this life that is a constant fight just to reach better days, My heart was meant to be semi numb, This way i always see the world aro

Fighting Against The Current~ By Jd
The swaying branches of the trees call to me, I can feel this uplifting moment of redemption from despair. The waves are crashing all around me, The wind has no limit here, Worry resides and i am gaining focus, This ride has been a trill. Look at me in the eyes, I am serious, I will look right through you and know what will exist. I am relaxed and feeling myself full of endless thoughts, Dancing upon the weeping willows is this anonymous beauty, I am instantly intrigued. Who is this most desirable woman, I find i am lost thinking to find her is a must, I have to know what it will take to lock her arm in my mine, Head spinning, Oh how you dont even know. I am travelling in her direction and there will be no boundries to block me along the way, There were many times i was hellbent to turn and walk away in the past, Surely this one is not the one i want to let go. I am curious, This strange beauty is far beyond anyone else i have ever met, Exactly what dreams are mad

My First Try At A Bondage/dominance Story
"A bit late to be nervous now isn't it?" I asked Leah as I spun her around and pressed her chest against the wall. She didn't reply, but didn't struggle either as I bent her left arm behind her back and snapped the first handcuff into place around her wrist. These weren't the lightweight novelty handcuffst with the easy release button on the side, or a set of those cute fuzzy numbers, these were the cuffs I'd been carrying at work for fifteen years. They had been worn by countless men and women, from trespassers and petty thieves to child molesters, rapists, and on one occasion a man who had just the day before stabbed his wife to death in their Alabama home. I quickly followed suit with the right, and she stood there my prisoner."Rest your forehead against the wall, take two steps back and spread your feet," I told her forcefully. She complied with little hesitation. I grabbed her by the waist and pulled her back against me, her ass pressing against my crotch."We'd better make sure y

Within The Silence Of Night.
The putrid festers of a soul in desperation are not one to be toyed with in the night. Creeping shadows and whispered voices do not go unheard. They along with demonic voices mix inside a tortured mind. The succubus lies in wait to pounce on its next victim if you wander or stray to close to the edge of the pit. The pit is filled with writhing bodies of all the past used and discared souls that seem to be left without shape or form. Be careful where you body treads lest it steals and traps your soul for all eternity.

1-6-09
The shadows that hide behind these eyes tell a story of beauty and loyalty that has yet to be shown truth without drama and secrecy. Will you be the one to break your silence and tell those words that your heart knows must be told?

Quote Of The Week & The Whaambulance...
Quote of the week : “ Living well is the best revenge, so give ’em hell…” And on another note , if I see one more whaambulance claim, one more person crying, one more person saying nobody loves me or going emo imma scream. It’s more widespread here lately than the swine flu. Just a thought. Peace…

Him-vampire Heart
You can't escape the wrath of my heart Beating to your funeral song (You're so alone) All faith is lost for hell regained And love dust in the hands of shame (Just be brave) Let me bleed you this song of my heart deformed And lead you along this path in the dark Where I belong 'till I feel your warmth Hold me Like you held on to life When all fears came alive and entombed me Love me Like you love the sun Scorching the blood in my vampire heart I'll be the thorns on every rose You've been sent by hope (You'll grow cold) I am the nightmare waking you up From the dream of a dream of love (Just like before) Let me weep you this poem as Heaven's gates close Paint you my soul, scarred and alone Waiting for your kiss to take me back home Hold me Like you held on to life When all fears came alive and entombed me Love me Like you love the sun Scorching the blood in my vampire heart Hold me Like you held on to life When all fears came alive and entombed me Love me Like you love the sun Sco

Tori Amos-spark
She's addicted to nicotine patches She's addicted to nicotine patches She's afraid of the light in the dark 6:58 are you sure where my spark is Here Here Here She's convinced she could hold back a glacier But she couldn't keep Baby alive Doubting if there's a woman in there somewhere Here You say you don't want it again And again but you don't really mean it You say you don't want it This circus we're in But you don't you don't really mean it You don't really mean it if the Divine master plan is perfection Maybe next I'll give Judas a try Trusting my soul to the ice cream assassin Here You say you don't want it again And again but you don't really mean it You say you don't want it This cirucs we're in But you don't you don't really mean it You don't really mean it How may fates turn around in the overtime Ballerinas that have fins that you'll never find You thought that you were the bomb yeah Well so did I Say you don't want it Say you don't want it Say you don't want it again And a

Id Come For You-nickelback
Just One more moment, that's all that's needed. Like wounded soldiers in need of healing. Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now Everyday I spend away my souls inside out Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow. By now you'd know that I'd come for you No one but you, yes I'd come for you But only if you told me to And I'd fight for you I'd lie, it's true Give my life for you You know I'd always come for you I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing My mind was closing, now I'm believing I finally know what just what it means to let someone in To see the side of me that no one does or ever will So if your ever lost and find yourself all alone I'd search forever just to bring you home, Here and now this I vow By now you'd know that I'd come for you No one but you, yes I'd come for you But only if you told me

Anam Cara
In the Celtic tradition, there is a beautiful understanding of love and friendship. One of the fascinating ideas here is the idea of soul love; “Anam Cara” may sound like some new French perfume, but it actually refers to the Celtic spiritual belief of souls connecting and bonding . In Celtic Spiritual tradition, it is believed that the soul radiates all about the physical body what some refer to as an aura. When you connect with another person and become completely open and trusting with that individual, your two souls begin to flow together. Should such a deep bond be formed, it is said you have found your “Anam Cara” or soul friend. Your “Anam Cara” always accepts you as you truly are, holding you in beauty and light. In order to appreciate this relationship, you must first recognize your own inner light and beauty. This is not always easy to do. The Celts believed that forming an “Anam Cara” friendship would help you to awaken your

One Of The Songs That Describe Me
Gotta Be Somebody by Nickelback This time I wonder what it feels likeTo find the one in this lifeThe one we all dream ofBut dreams just aren't enoughSo I´ll be waiting for the real thing.I'll know it by the feeling.The moment when we´re meetingwill play out like a scene straight off the silver screenSo I`ll be holdin’ my own breathRight up to the endUntil that moment whenI find the one that I'll spend forever with`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.Someone to love with my life in their hands.There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.`Cause nobody wants to do it on their ownAnd everyone wants to know they´re not alone.There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlightAnd dammit this feels too rightIt´s just like Déjà VuMe standin’ here with youSo I´ll be holdin`my own breathCould this be the end?Is it that moment whenI find t

None Of This Is Real.
Tell me a storyI love the quiet. Hate the lonliness.as the snow smokes from my roofWhen all the lights go outwhen the moon reflects offbounces a few trillion times on blank tired surfaces.Hate to watch this alone. I wonder what you watchwhen your eyes catch the slip between task and tediumwhere do you loungeis it warm there?are you smiling without some subtle referenceamong a room full of strange friendsor just friendly strangers?Do the lights dance like epileptic starsor does the sun beat against your cacao skin? Wherever it is can I stay there?

My Favorite Song Of All Time
Terry JacksSeasons In The Sun LyricsGoodbye to you, my trusted friend.We've known each other since we're nine or ten.Together we climbed hills or trees.Learned of love and ABC's,skinned our hearts and skinned our knees.Goodbye my friend, it's hard to die,when all the birds are singing in the sky,Now that the spring is in the air.Pretty girls are everywhere.When you see them I'll be there.We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun.But the hills that we climbedwere just seasons out of time.Goodbye, Papa, please pray for me,I was the black sheep of the family.You tried to teach me right from wrong.Too much wine and too much song,wonder how I get along.Goodbye, Papa, it's hard to diewhen all the birds are singing in the sky,Now that the spring is in the air.Little children everywhere.When you see them I'll be there.We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun.But the wine and the song,like the seasons, all have gone.Goodbye, Michelle, my little one.You gave me love and helped m

Esto Perpetua
Thursday, June 25, 2009 It’s 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I have the worst song stuck in my head - Neutron Dance by the Pointer Sisters. The cat wont quit licking my face, and I've decide to get up and crack my last beer. I stare at the computer for a few as I wash down my Effexor, Bupropion and Methylphenidate with a cold Keystone Light. You can't buy beer till 6:00 AM, the bank doesn't open till 9:00 AM, and I don't work till 5:00 PM. I feel now is a good time to share my trials and tribulations of the last 2 months. I grew a beard and drank myself half to death on more than one occasion, and cut off, pissed off, or pushed away friends and family. I've endured heartache, self-loathing, loneliness, and regret only to realize that life is a journey to the center of yourself. I put these things in perspective and deal with them accordingly. With the combination of psychiatric drugs, fishing, a warm camp fire and plenty of alcohol; I've managed to rise from this

Doctor Who?
Ok, so as of lately I have been getting alot of flack from a few people who don't like the fact that I don't like Matt Smith as the new Doctor Who. To you I must say... Shut your mouf up bish! I will like who I god damn please! For god sakes I know the show is all about the "regeneration" but I could care fucking less. I will like that pre-pubesent TWERP when he shows me he can be as good and or better than David Tennant. Which being better than David Tennant will never happen. So I will like him when I choose to NOT when you shove that shit head down my throat. The way I see it... he has something to prove to every FAN-GIRL like me. Maybe my love of Doctor Who was just a faze that started with David Tennant and will end with David Tennant. No need to get snotty with me because I refuse to like something that you like, simple as that. Maybe when I watch Matt Smith play Doctor Who, I will maybe like him...It's really too soon to tell. SO! To you Doctor Who snobs that make me wa

Just An Update
Wow I haven't gotten online and been around in a long ass time. Just a short little update on me....I finished my associates degree in psychology and took a couple months off to relax. I am now about to start on my bachelors degree and am excited because it's a bahlors to masters program. Within the next 4 years I should have my masters in forensic psychology. One step closer to my PhD :) Im single again of course...tried a relationship with some jackass loser who was trying to be player...well guess what? Game over lol But life is good I have my health, I am happy and single and ready to have fun and get out there again.

Fuck Your Pot Roast
Engine driver thought he could mess with me and yell at me while filling in at his firehouse... well, I WAS going to be a nice guy and turn the burner off that their dinner was cooking on, but he was being a dick so whoops looks like you should have turned it off yourself einstein :-D.

Good Afternoon, Sir!
Ah the joys of wearing a white shirt. Actually, the fun of having a recruit class next door period. Every time I walk by they snap to attention, give me a loud GOOD MORNING/AFTERNOON/EVENING, SIR! and don't move until I tell them to carry on or finish walking by. They have to do that pretty much anytime anyone who isn't a fellow recruit walks by. Pretty funny, actually. Think I got another perfect on my test... but after only 4 hours of sleep last night and two the night before that, I'm looking to a solid 7 tonight. Laterz all!

Holy Lack Of Punctuation!!!
I'm stalking mike, baby jesus', blog. I'm kind of waiting to see if he approves my comment. Anyway, he approves the comment that had me rolling in the floor. How did this human graduate high school? Okay so maybe he didn't, but you have to be at least 16, I think, to drop out of school......that's a pretty old 1st grader. DJ BADASS MOTHE...9 mins ago-- 565 of 565 ok i hate it when i ask a bouncer 2 check my pics cuz 1 was flagged nsfw and there wasnt nothin wrong with the pic and the bouncers never checked it plus i hate that yall charge so much for inactive lounges which brings me 2 my next point since when do yall charge so much 4 inactive lounges and all the changes yall are makeing it makes it hard 4 newbies to get around on fubar just a few things a hate bout fubar

You Got Me Open
staying away from clichesno comparison to this displayof feelingsi developed in a short timeya sure you're not an old friendor an missed out aquaintancethat i shared a crayonor a slow dance?my white lies, whited outyou know me without a doubton the phonein my facereading my mindmy big dreams fit into your worldsaying we both deserveto be happyall the timeeven if the rest dont fall in lineyou got me openholding my hand tightwalking through the fieldsand swimming the oceansof lifeyou got me openand it's you for meand me for youfor everyone to seeoops!i didnt mean the last partwhat meanit's clicheyou know what meananywaydarling baby sweethearteverytime i begin to startmy friendyou always finish what's on my mindif you dont mind soonmy dancing queen, my mooni'm readyfor foreverif you have that timecause you have me writing poetrymore than that, i'm full of gleefull of needfull of loveand of these things, i have not enoughyou got me openholding my hand tightwalking through the fieldsand swi

Shall I Fight Or No?
Shall I fight for the woman I love that once told Me she loves me, and wanted to be with me?We were in love over our heads!! I really loved this woman more than anything! but now she tells me that she no longer loves me, shall I fight and win her heart back, or let her go?Some more information!She is a FU-legend [red name]she probably said she loved me with each bling I gave hershe more than likely said she was MADLY in love with me when I bought her a bling packwe have NEVER met in real life!A...keep fightingFIGHTING consist of continuously hitting her with bling and bling packs to win her loveB...don't fightNot Fighting means, just get on her friends list so I can continue masturbating to her pics?

Fantasy
As she walked across the roomHer coat fell to the groundShe had my full attentionAnd never made a sound. Wearing nothing but her heelsShe slowly slid on top of meBefore long the lips between her legsWere all my eyes could see. I offered her my tongueWhich she began to grind happily onI could tell by her moans and gaspsFor her it wouldn't be very long. She slid down her fingersTo help me with my taskHer juices began to flow down my faceI knew she couldn't last. Her hips now grinding hardWith fingers diving deeper inHer mound gushing a tidal waveHer orgasim had now began. Her screams echoed throughout the roomThe bed no longer stayed stillEverything inside that roomNow bent to her will. Once over the crestHer movements began to slowA soft sweet smile appearedHer face was all aglow. A look from her eyesHer love for me would never failAs she slowly tongued my dickBut alas, that is another tale.

Just A Little Note...
I'm sure some people have said some ugly things about me. Think I've "forgotten" them or whatever. Here's the deal...I'm working. 6am - 5 pm, 5 days a week. I'm still a wife and still a Mom. My responsibilities don't end when I come home. I'm tired. I have endless things to do. Working OUTside the home and then IN the home at the end of the day has become a challenge for me. A challenge I kind of like. I'm proud of myself a little as well. I appreciate, whole hearterdly, the ones who still come to visit me. But I apologize, very much so, that I have not returned rates or gifts. I haven't even said thank you to anyone. I haven't signed on, only because...I haven't the time. Life has interrupted and I love it. I would like to thank you all for everything. But please understand my distance. Kisses and hugs to James, Latino, Marlboro, Phillies, Killingtime, Blind Pupil, Sheri, DaVe, Phil, poaintx, Bob, Joe and all my dedicated friends.

Unbelievable President
Unbelievable PresidentTHIS HAS GOT TO BE THE MOST OUTRAGEOUS STATEMENT EVER MADE BY A PUBLIC OFFICIAL LET ALONE BY THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES. AND THIS GUY IS OUR "COMMANDER IN CHIEF". HE IS A DISGRACE.HERE IS HIS RESPONSE WHEN HE BACKED OFF FROM HIS DECISION TO LET THE MILITARY PAY FOR THEIR WAR INJURIES.Bad press, including major mockery of the plan by comedian Jon Stewart, led to President Obama abandoning his proposal to require veterans carry private health insurance to cover the estimated $540 million annual cost to the federal government of treatment for injuries to military personnel received during their tours on active duty. The President admitted that he was puzzled by the magnitude of the opposition to his proposal."Look, it's an all volunteer force," Obama complained. "Nobody Made these guys go to war. They had to have known and accepted the risks. Now they whine about bearing the costs of their choice? It doesn't compute.." "I thought these were people who were pr

Obummer Trifecta
A friend of mine who happens to be a girl.... who served in the military had this to say in a bulletin to post and I wanted to share it with you."obummer Trifecta:President obummer just completed the UNHOLY and ANTI-AMERICAN TRIFECTA:---1st president in 110 years to miss the annual Army-Navy Football Game.---1st president to not attend any Christmas religious observance.---1st president to stay on vacation after a terrorist attack.Add to that, he's the first President not to stay in Washington for Christmas for the last 20 years. Past Presidents did not leave Washington for Christmas vacation until after Christmas. This was done so that their staff (Secret Service, Air Force One Crew, Limousine transport, Presidential advancing logistics etc.) could be with their families for Christmas.He's the most narcissistic, self-absorbed President ever elected. And this is just his first year!!"------That's just the half of it :D need I say more?

Andrea
Her eyes burn at me,Through the mist.I wonder from her what it would feel,For just one kiss. Would she take me to heaven,Or make me crash in hell.With fire on her head,envy in her eyes,She knows my heart all to well. She knows my weakness,She says I'm putty in her hand.She has known this long since,This poem first began.

Just General Rants
There has been a few things that have really bugged me lately... So I decided to write about them. Under normal circumstances, these little things probably wouldnt bother me, Might be the end of the Holiday Seasons, or what, I do not know. I went the other day to get me a new Toothbrush, (Why these are called TOOTH Brushes, I don't know considering I have a full set of TEETH) and I'm looking around and I see all these wonderous new designs and everything. Rubber edges, tongue scrubbers, Circular designs, Bent styles, rubber handles for better grip, electric... No effin regular TEETH brushes. All I want is a regular effin toothbrush. I don't need all these fancy designs and colors or whatever marketing ploy they are trying this time. I don't want one that says it's approved by whatever government agency that deals with dentists and thier like. I don't wnat one that has a gum messager or tongue scrubber. JUST A REGULAR FUCKING TOOTHBRUSH!!! or Teethbrush in my instance.

You Just Need To Know!
HOW TO STAY YOUNG1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay 'them' 2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop.'4. Enjoy the simple things. 5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive. 7.

Why Random Acts Of Kindness Are So Important
Lets spread some kindness around!!! Be generous. Give to those you love; give to those who love you, give to the fortunate, give to the unfortunate — yes, give especially to those you don’t want to give. You will receive abundance for your giving. The more you give, the more you will have!– W. Clement Stone Wikipedia says that a random act of kindness is: “a selfless act performed by a person or persons wishing to either assist or cheer up an individual… There will generally be no reason other than to make people smile, or be happier.” Perhaps it is the use of the world random that is misleading, and that it would be easier if we used the word spontaneous or impulsive instead. Spontaneity means we are acting on an impulse, in the moment, freely; particularly, that we are moved to do something for someone without any thought of receiving something in return. Such behavior is surely the ground of a healthy and joyful society, where we happily giv

How Can Someone Tell A Lie, When The Mirrors They Pass Hold The Truth
It seems everywhere i go there r mirrors. Of coarse they r there to show how we look in our performance but then i thought something. Wht if the mirrors one n only job is to show us wht we really r? If tht is the case then they can see past the lies people put around themselves for their own purposes. When rushing thru the hallways, the mirrors will always catch tht glimps of us as we past by, revealing evry detail n evry truth in our soul. But how do u prove to someone tht u r real when there r no mirrors around to show the truth neverything seems against u? This question has been thru all of us at least once, but has anyone truly found the solution. N how can u trust those around u when the mirrors r not present. Some accuse, some belive, n some would completly surpass it all together. With the power of the mirror, is it possible to use as a weapon? The only thing tht is certain is tht anyones tru self appears on the reflection of the glass. The Mirrors see evrythin.

Seniority
Any one know what seniority is in the job place within Federal, State, Municipal, Union, and even in the Military? Here is one. In Gloucester County, NJ there is a position named, County Veterans Affairs Officer or something similar to that. Man is named Romeo or something. He had the position while back at a salary and then went to NJ State EPA and came back to the same position at the salary from the EPA at around 87k. Why is that? It has something to do with seniority. I have a friend Cheryl who works for the state and who is on medical leave. Never in my life have I seen the run around and blocks she has received not only from the state where she works but also the union that represents her. The people where she works do not understand what seniority is or this one in Gloucester County got over didn't he? Norio

Call Me Jose'
Just call me Jose! >> JOE LEGAL vs. JOSE ILLEGAL>>>> You have two families: "Joe Legal" and "Jose Illegal".>> Both families have two parents, two children, and live in>> California .>>>>>> Joe Legal works in construction, has a Social Security>> Number and makes $25.00 per hour with taxes deducted.>>>>>> Jose Illegal also works in construction, has NO Social>> Security Number, and gets paid $15.00 cash "under the>> table".>>>>>> Ready? Now pay attention...>>>>>> Joe Legal: $25.00 per hour x 40 hours = $1000.00 per week,>> or $52,000.00 per year. Now take 30% away for state

01/06/2010
Genesis 15http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+15&language=english&version=31 Genesis 16http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+16&language=english&version=31 Genesis 17http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+17&language=english&version=31 http://BiblePlan.org/3/niv/ Bible Reading Plan -- Complete NIV Bible in a YearRead the NIV Bible in a year, reading three chapters daily and five on Sundays.

It Is True
It is true, you can bring a horse to water but you can’t make him drink. I have tried so hard to help you. I see the strength in you but you don’t see how strong you are. You tell me you are right and that I am wrong. You have beaten yourself. If you don’t believe you won’t ever get out of it. You sit there and feel sorry for yourself, scared, and yet you do nothing about it. You lay helpless. I’ve never seen a wild thing feel sorry for it self. A bird will fall frozen from a bow before ever feeling sorry for it self. It is coming to a point where I am starting to think there is no fix for you, I can’t fix you. It isn’t because there are no means to do it; you have simply given up on yourself. You refuse to drink the water that your so badly need.

Ppl And Their Attitudes
ok so i no a guy i really really like and he nos who he is. well he has a friend that is always like hatin on my bc i like him... like litterally comin 2 me and bitchin me out. well apperantly its wrong to ask for return luv when u luv so many ppl a day... like i literally rate a ton of pics a day and hardly get any return luv.. like whats with that? and well she watches my status so she starts trouble according to that .. ive noticed it.. and then theres the leaving comments... if im nice enough to leave a comment on ur page ... dont bitch bout it bc i wont rate u at all... just bc sum of ur friends dont like me doesnt mean u have 2 take that out on me.... u no its hard to shut off the emotions somebody has when they like u and wanna do anything for u ... but when ppl sit there and treat u like shit it isnt worth it.. i am not the kind of person who would hurt another person.. in fact i help complete strangers all the time since i help run the business and all.... its nice to help ppl

Laundry Detergent
ANYWAYS I JUST GOT ANOTHER JUG OF DETERGENT, AND IT'S TITLE OF FRAGRANCE IS "APRIL FRESH" IT SMELL'S WONDERFUL!!. YA KNOW REALLY I WOULD LIKE TO MEET THE FUCKER WHO CAME UP WITH THE NAME AND PUNCH HIM IN THE JUNK, ITS A FUCKING LIE, U DON'T EVER SMELL WONDERFUL FLOWERS AND SUCH IN APRIL, I ALL GET IS THE SMELL OF UNTHAWING(SPELLING?....LOL) DOG SHIT!!...JUST SAYIN.

Parnoid Conclusion
That I should likely be more paranoid of those who are paranoid of me.LoL I mean to a degree I am used to the normal baiting and hooking that most people do with me in attempts to either pull one over on me or get the upper hand.But when its done in a way that I realize what is being done and what the angle its kinda pointless. At that point Im clued in to the other person and thus put up my guard simply because if there is some reason a person doesnt trust me or thinks Im up to something then its very likely that they themselves are.Granted Im not gonna lie--90% of my life I usually have an agenda and I rarely care what or who gets in my way as long as in the end I am happy--Blame my fathers encouraging my Daddy's Girl mentality, thus inducing the self serving nature I tend to have. Granted, however, in some situations I really dont have agendas and do feel remorse or at the very least sympathy for people who dont deserve the nasty shit that happens to them.Yet it is usually that symp

Patterns
I have a Pattern. This Pattern has ruled my life for years it would seem. I have a Pattern of falling for men and a woman(love you Robin) that are incapible of ever truely being mine and mine alone. I fall for married men, engaged men, significantly attached men or men who just in general live far enough away as to they may as well belong to someone else anyways. Not to say that any of these people or the relationships were/are bad ones. In fact they are the best ones of my life. They have been the relationships that had the least bullshit, the most honesty and in general were the reasons I survived relatively emotionally intact this long. These men I have loved. I have cried for and cried with. They were my best friends. Some where lovers. Some never did more than hold me. But each loved me with all they had and their devotion was complete. Granted for the most part save one or two relationships, every second I have had with them, every I love you, every desire and hope was stolen aw

Touch My Soul
When I look into you eyes.. I see the world of many precious things. I see far more than the rest of the world chooses to see as they fail to look at your beauty reflected in them. They choose to see your superficial beauty but I know there is far more there. I see hope that tomorrow will arrive with us safely in it. I see your faith looking back at me. I see your soul begging me to love you although that is not needed because our souls are joined forever... You clearly touched me deep within my heart showing me all the joyful love that life can possess. The only negative is the heartache your absence causes deep in my soul. I want you to walk by my side, holding me tight, looking deep into my eyes. Can you see the same thing in my eyes? I want to lock gaze and never let you go away.

Cruise Update
ok got a GREAT deal, got the cruise for only $1057.86 total for 2 people inside room, $75 on board credit for 7 days on the carnival dream, can even work with $25 yes $25 DEPOSIT but i would need to talk to u on the phone about it, LET ME KNOW ASAP, $25 can book and save a spot today, pay rest with taxes

C
Even though the skys are grey,My sun still it shines.Ever since this morning,Since you have been on my mind. With you I can see no clouds,Always a warm summers day.I need you in my heart,For me there is no other way. I wait for your hand,I will wait forever if I need.Because deep in my heart,My love has started to seed.

2009 Darwin Awards
A tough choice for THE WINNER this year!! And once again, it's time for the Darwin Award Nominees. TheDarwins are awarded every year to the persons who died in the stupidestmanner, thereby removing themselves from the gene pool. This year'snominees Nominee No. 1: (San Jose Mercury News): An unidentified man, usinga shotgun like a club to break a former girlfriend's windshield,accidentally shot himself to death when the gun discharged, blowing a holein his gut. Nominee No. 2: ( Kalamazoo Gazette): James Burns, 34, (amechanic) of Alamo, MI, was killed in March as he was trying to repair whatpolice describe as a "farm-type truck." Burns got a friend to drive thetruck on a highway while Burns hung underneath so that he could ascertainthe source of a troubling noise. Burns clothes caught on something howeverand the other man found Burns "wrapped in the drive shaft." Nominee No. 3: ( Hickory Daily Record): Ken Charles Barger, 47,accidentally shot himsel

Like The Blog Says
so id hate to sit here and ramble about something you all do not care for so ill make it short and simple maybe you guys have some advise for me or just words or prayer: dec 5th 2009 was the worst day of my life...what happened..i got fired from my job..a place that i had been at for almost 3years thats been the longest ive had a job i loved it there good people good pay..well alright pay...but experience and excitement galoure!!! well i got into a verbal arguement with another officer and slighty turned physical...on their end...i did what any smart employee who values their job would do turn around and walk away and report it... well that wasnt good enough for my department the following week they suspended me and ultimately fired me... for the past month i have been going back and forth with the unemployement office to try and get benefits well im not elligible to recieve benefits...so for a whole month i sat and waited for unemployment to make their final decision..sho

They Belive Brittney Murphy Died From Swine Flu Shot ...i Wonder If Same Happen To ...jimmy Sullivan Aka The Rev...
The day before Brittany Murphy died, she had received a swine flu shot, That makes sense...... Cardiac arrest is exactly what happened to other people who died from swine flu vaccine poisoning. 32-year-old ladies don't just die from natural causes. Swine flu vaccine gives the best explanation to why Brittany Murphy passed away. Presently, the number of cases of swine flu symptoms are declining, but swine flu vaccine deaths are on the rise. i wonder if same happen to ...Jimmy Sullivan aka the rev...

Joss Whedon On Passion
“Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping... waiting... and though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead.” Joss Whedon quotes

My Up And Coming New Show!!!!!!!!!
Hey this is my first blog I hope it brings you joy a nd pleasure.... anyway check out!!!!! WWW.inthefaceradio.com then scroll over to the show schedule, Look for "the melting pot" thats my show crank it up also add me as a friend on FB BuckyELM@yahoo.com if you want to get the deep dish details on and about the show.. hope to see you there.. LOVE YOU GIRLS Bucky

Contessa
To be in her heart,This is a dream for me.Throughout this world,Her beauty is all I see. If I could bring her closer,Have her hold me in her arms.I would promise this one forever,And never cause her harm. For now she is a dream,A wish entrenched in my mind.Someday,somehow to her heart,A way I hope L can find.

Caption Contest
it must be the weather today. i saw this guy scrolling by, and i thought he looked perfect for my "horror of fu" blog, but i'm too lazy to write anything about him. thus i have cleverly disguised this entry as a caption contest so that you will write the entry for me. quite brilliant of me, eh? so what caption would you write for this photo? i was thinking something like "darth greg, dark lord of the uncool"

Harassment On Fubar
I log on this morning to find this private message from someone on here by the name of Animal....http://fubar.com/user/2181414... of course his page is private and his status message is even revolting.... Here's what he had to say.... NOW YA'LL KNOW THAT I DONT TALK SEXUAL WITH ANYONE ON HERE... I WONT EVEN GIVE SOMEONE 23 AND YOUNGER THE TIME OF DAY BECAUSE I HAVE A 19 YEAR OLD SON... IF ANYTHING I WILL TURN YOU DOWN FLAT AND BE A BITCH... SO I WROTE HIM BACK BECAUSE I THINK HE'S FULL OF SHIT.... I WISH HE WOULD COME FUCK WITH ME.... I KNOW I AM HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG BUT THIS GUY HAS WENT TO AN ALLTIME FU-LOW.... PLEASE ANYONE IF I HAVE EVER BEEN OUT OF LINE WITH YOU SEXUALLY OR IF YOUR A MINOR THAT IS NOT SUPPOSE TO BE ON HERE ANYWAYS AND I WAS INAPPROPRIATE WITH YOU PLEASE COME FORWARDS? THOUGHTS PEOPLE? I WANNA KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS REALLY THINK!!

Friends And Friend Requests
Simply, I DO NOT COLLECT FRIENDS. I DO NOT WISH TO BE PART OF YOUR COLLECTION. if you want to be my friend, truly be my friend, id be happy to accept your friend request. i however will not accept your friend request simply to boost your stats and help you level. i do not wish to hear you in my live feed begging for bling and whine because you need a pimp out. honestly, i dont give a fuck. if you enjoy speaking to me, we have common interests, or want to get to know me better... id be happy if you sent me a request. if i receive a blank request from someone that didnt even take the time to read this, chances are it will be denied. presently i have roughly 85 friends. that number will most likely be cut in half within 2 weeks. id rather be a good friend to 50 people on this site and speak with them regularly, than be a typical fu tard and have 1000 friends and dont know 90% of their real names, where they are from, what they do for a living, or any of the other things that friend

Tears Fall
In side this house is lonely,Outside so bitter and cold.I wonder how mant hearts have broke,And was thier story ever told. How many lay in misery,Or sucumbed to thier defeat.How were thier hearts broken,Shattered laying at thier feet. Mine walked on so much,As I look at a cold gray sky.Is life really like this,As tears fall from my eyes.

A Shell
We'll see if you miss me,If not a fool was I.To think I could hold your heart,I set my sights to high. You are so far beyond me,Within my reach never.Thie pain will lock my heart,Not to be touched forever. My soul now wanders alone,Through dark and dessert sands.No longer can it feel,As my heart left in strands. No mood or emotion,Now lingers inside of me.I am but a shell,Of what I used to be.

Let Go
To 'let go' does not mean to stop caring; it means I can't do it for someone else. To 'let go' is not to cut myself off; it is the realization that I must not control another. To 'let go' is not to fix; but to be supportive. To 'let go' is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes; but to allow others to effect their destinies. To 'let go' is not to be protective; it is to permit another to face reality. To 'let go' is not to regret the past; but to grow and live for the future. To 'let go' is to fear less and love more.

Online Dating
Ok, so you know I'm single. Been that way for a while. I live in a rural town, not good for being single. I figure there's no better way to start the new year off than by telling funny and incredibly rediculous stories of my online dating adventures. I guess now's a good time to tell about the first guy I ever met through an online dating site... I met one guy at a pub in his town. Claims he gave his car to his daughter because she was in college and needed it, and he could get around the city without one. You just never know if something is the truth or not, so he lost points on that one, but I met with him anyway. It was an hour drive. Met with him at one of his local pubs. It was very casual, and we ordered a pizza and had a drink. I got up and hit the jukeblx for a few songs. Me being my usual self, I danced a few steps and sang a few notes. Things went pretty well. I drove him back to his place. He started to open the door to get out, then turned and looked at me and said, "W

Big Daddy's Hot Spot And Bar Auction!
Wanna be in one of the hotties auctions ever?! Join us for the Big Daddy's Hot Spot and Bar Auction! Starts Monday January 11th, 2010; Ends January 18th, 2010 Everyone is welcome to join! Send me your offer, photo link and 50k! All staff memeber is free to join!

My Fufamily Tree... So Far....
This blog is mostly for my own record keeping, but please enjoy :p FuSisters: Miss Vanima, Witchie My First Lady: Moet, aka Alexa FuBrothers: Papi, Kins (from alternate reality) Royal Pain in my FuAsseth: Bludgeon FuWifey: Klover, I adore her and so should you DAMNITZ!!! FuAdopted daughter: Klover and I adopted Jasmine. Scary, I know.... Passion's Fire: Jasmine's Nanny, God bless her! First FuBaby momma: Russian Foxx gave me JDW Second FuBaby momma: Pixie gave me... ummm... I forget his name and she sent him away for a better life. Third FuBaby momma: Wicked gave me Jai Jr... and then SAT on him (RIP Jai Jr) Fourth FuBaby momma-to-be: Pixie. We hope it's a girl cuz we want to name her "Pixai". Unfortunately, she's always WORKING thus we never get any play-time *pouts* K, I think that's all.... ...I hope :p

Death Of The Soul
When the body dies it goes to ground, but my soul has been unbound to wonder this earth still in search, for that completness that dwells inside empty feeling and no emotion may try, to get more out of my soul then a contented sigh death frees the soul to find what is long lost and sought, for me i know no what nor care for death has sent me into a wondering with no fear but what brings with the death of the soul when he can not seek what he needs what brings him to be where must one go to be freei if this must be the limbo i must be in for all days to come to rind the wind alone, till that i am undone

Internet Ramblings
No matter what our kids and the new generation think about us, WE ARE AWESOME !!! OUR LIFE IS LIVING PROOF !!! To Those of Us Born 1925 - 1970 : TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED THE 1930s, '40s, '50s, '60s and '70s!! First, we survived being born to mothers who may have smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then, after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, locks on doors or cabinets, and, when we rode our bikes, we had baseball caps, not helmets, on our heads. As infants and children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, no booster seats, no seat belts, no air bags, bald tires and sometimes no brakes.. Riding in the back of a pick- up truck on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water from the garden hose and not from a bottle. We shared one soft d

Epifiania..epiphany
Epiphany (from Koine Greek ἐπιφάνεια "appearance", "manifestation") is a Christian feast day which celebrates the revelation of God made Man in the person of Jesus Christ. It falls on the 6th of January or on a Sunday close to that date. The 6th of January in the Julian Calendar, which is followed by some Eastern Churches, corresponds at present to 19th of January in the Gregorian Calendar, which is the official civil calendar in most countries. On this day, Western Christians commemorate principally the visitation of the Biblical Magi to the Baby Jesus, i.e., his manifestation to the Gentiles; Eastern Christians commemorate the baptism of Jesus in the Jordan River, seen as his manifestation to the world as the Son of God. It is also called Theophany, especially by Eastern Christians.

Driving To Home Depot
so yesterday was going good i was just chillen having a great time when i had to go to home depot which ive never been around here in texas so guess there is a few more here okay well i had to pick one that was a supplier then i got lost needless to say i was driving for 4 hours to go 5 mile from my mom's house to get to home depot when i got there i was like so fustrated at the gps which sucked and my mom for being stupid and not telling me where to go cause i had no idea where to go around where she lives. awwww yesterday bites !

Baby Talk
What your baby would tell you if he could talk: 1. I have my blankie, you have your caffeine. Enough said. 2. Don't be jealous, but I think I'm in love with the ceiling fan. 3. I know where the remote control is, but it'll cost you. 4. To you, it's just an empty egg carton; to me it's PlayStation 2. 5. Actually, I don't mind sitting in a bathtub that I've peed in. 6. Bang a screwdriver slowly and steadily into your gums. That's what teething feels like. 7. Two words I'd rather not hear from you: rectal thermometer. 8. There's no point in teaching me to say "mama" or "dada." My first word is going to be "hat." 9. I've told you five times what cow says. If you can't remember, I'm not telling you again. 10. There is no question that I can cry longer than you can listen. 11. I'm not just wildly throwing my food. I'm exploring the laws of gravity, estimating mass, and testing wind velocity. 12. If you wanted a good sleeper, you should have gotten a cat. 13. Who that baby in the mirror you k

2hot
Her Heart held in balance,Barely by a string.If I could add my line to it,It could be such a wonderful thing. To wipe away her tears,When they start to fall.To hold her always in comfort,And never worry at all. I will keep the smile she had,When I first looked upon her face.If I could take her side,Never would it be out of place. I would hold her life,So far above my own.If given the chance to show her,I am unlike anyone shes ever known.

Japanese Sink The Adi Gil
Famed Catamaran is sinking in the Southern Ocean Six crewmembers Rescued by the Sea Shepherd Ship Bob Barker In an unprovoked attack captured on film, the Japanese security ship Shonan Maru No. 2 deliberately rammed and caused catastrophic damage to the Sea Shepherd catamaran Ady Gil. Six crew crewmembers, four from New Zealand, one from Australia, and one from the Netherlands were immediately rescued by the crew of the Sea Shepherd ship Bob Barker. None of the crew Ady Gil crew were injured. The Ady Gil is believed to be sinking and chances of salvage are very grim. According to eyewitness Captain Chuck Swift on the Bob Barker, the attack happened while the vessels were dead in the water. The Shonan Maru No. 2 suddenly started up and deliberately rammed the Ady Gil ripping eight feet of the bow of the vessel completely off. According to Captain Swift, the vessel does not look like it will be saved. “The Japanese whalers have now escalated this conflict very violently,”

Using A Magnetic Generator To Power Your House
Magnetic generators provide you the opportunity to generate your very own clean, green energy irrelevant of where you live. Click here to read more - Magniwork Review and Permanent Magnetic Generator Greatest Advantage The greatest advantage of a magnetic power generator is that they do not rely on ideal weather conditions. As solar energy is dependent on direct sunlight and wind energy on the amount of reliable wind, both these energies are limited and are not suitable for all homes. Magnetic power is not limited by external factors and will generate power in all conditions. How do Magnetic Generators Work? These devices create energy through the use of magnets. The energy is produced by the ebb and flow created through attraction of repulsion of the magnets. Once the generator has been activated or started, the magnetic pull and push will ensure that the machine continues to run. These machines require less energy to keep running than they produce and as a result you can use this

Leaving
Why is it that when ppl are here, u never really notice them, but the saying, u never know what u have till its gone, is true. Ive had many ppl come in and out of my life, some who have taught me one thing, some who have taught me more than words could say. Ive learned in the past few years, that you should never take advantage of what you have right in front of you. Nobody ever realizes the true hurt you feel, when the ones you love, just up and leave. You know that its for their best, but you always wish you had one more day with them. Some you lose forever, some will show back up in ur life, and some will just be a memory that you cant forget. I have pleny of memories i cant forget, not all of them good. i joke about everything that goes on in my life, to get over the pain i feel. A sense of humor is a great defense against minor troubles Mignon McLaughlin says. Its a daily battle that we all stuggle thru, some are better at it than others, some will wollow in pitty, but no matter w

Good Guys Finish Last
Why do good guys always finish last? It seems that the guys who put the most effort forth, get the least in return. Im not sayin that they NEED it, but every once in a while, they do really deserve it. Unfortunately, ive learned this first hand. Im the type of person that would give everything, for one person to be happy and safe, many times . Ive given everything, to the person that mattered to me, and i got nothin, but troubles. Id give up my time, when i had none, id give up my strength, when i was broken down, i would give up my last breath just to keep them alive, they, would give up.................me, just so they didnt have to lose anything or have to make a decision on their own. Is it wrong to want to help ppl, is it wrong to feel that sometimes in life, u have to give everything u have, to get something in return? At what point is it that u have to just stop, and give up, on urself? At what point is it that i will finally get what i deserve, even if it is just a thank you. I

Pot Shrinks Tumors; Government Knew In '74 (repost)
In 1974 researchers learned that THC, the active chemical in marijuana, shrank or destroyed brain tumors in test mice. But the DEA quickly shut down the study and destroyed its results, which were never replicated -- until now. The term medical marijuana took on dramatic new meaning in February, 2000 when researchers in Madrid announced they had destroyed incurable brain tumors in rats by injecting them with THC, the active ingredient in cannabis.The Madrid study marks only the second time that THC has been administered to tumor-bearing animals; the first was a Virginia investigation 26 years ago. In both studies, the THC shrank or destroyed tumors in a majority of the test subjects.Most Americans don't know anything about the Madrid discovery. Virtually no major U.S. newspapers carried the story, which ran only once on the AP and UPI news wires, on Feb. 29, 2000.The ominous part is that this isn't the first time scientists have discovered that THC shrinks tumors. In 1974 researchers

You......
You.....You are a memory, a mental reflection of what once wasan image in the psyche of a face, the sound of a voicei hear no words, i don't need to, i've heard them beforethe long conversations into the night, about hopes, fears,the past and the futurethe hopes that never came real, the future that no longer existsa different future will come truea different future for me to the future that becomes real for youI have a hope for the future, one just for youthat your fears will remain unrealised and that all your hopes and dreams come true

My Nieces.
First off I want to say sorry to all my friends that I have been short with over the last couple weeks. The last couple weeks I haven't felt like myself. I am taking my nieces leaving pretty hard. I knew I loved them very much but I didn't know realize how much I loved them until they left. I would do anything for them. I would protect them from anything and everything. When I am around them I am smiling and happy. The day they left I hugged and give them a kiss and told them I loved them. That was the day I realized that they hold the key to my heart. They had stole my heart and took it with them. I know this is not going to be the last time I seem them. I will see them again when my niece elora is on break again but it is start kinda hard. I know I will get over it. Until then I am asking all my friends please bare with me. Again I am sorry when if I was short or if I am short with you.

The Empty Hollow And The One Who Made It Whole~by Jd
Staying up all night, Clenched fists and blood shot eyes, Wondering when i will finally stop fighting my forever, Eternity should bow to me. Clearing a path now, Make way, Im full of adrenaline and i wont stand still, Life is screaming in my face, This is not something i shall willingly let burn to the ground. I could say lets all be rational, But love has never been of the righteous kind, I could say i have been jaded forever, But it washed away when i let you have control. Control over my bleeding heart, For once you made me take it off my bloody sleeve, Regenerating the confident man that i once made it so easy to be, You reconstructed me. I believe it became clear one night we were speaking, I felt something enter my physical body, Ever since, I feel like your ten thousand light years ahead of me, But i still chose to stick by your side. Right about now im wondering how your are going to be when the morning is due to come, Never a moment goes by that im not silentl

Avatar Spoilers
Do I take my hat off to Cameron? HATS OFF : it looked amazing. As an exercise in world building, it's unsurpassed, although... HATS ON : the neon night stuff was a li'l fruity... HATS OFF : The 3D is rarely used in a "WHOOOO LOOK AT THIS STUFF COMING OUT OF THE SCREEN" way, and is pretty much entirely a 'giving the film depth' tool. There were more "WHOOOOO LOOK AT MY HANDS" moments in the trailer for some cretinous dance movie they shew beforehand than in the entire movie, so kudos for that. HATS ON : Nevertheless, it's gimmicky and unneccessary, and I want to see the movie in 2D now because I'm convinced it will actually be a better film for it. I'll go further, and say given the choice between 2D and 3D for ANY future release, and I'm going with 2D. 3D gives me a headache, and as far as Avatar goes and how it enhances the effects, it's like baking the world's most lavish and ornate cake, and then deciding that's not enough and gold-plating it. I don't want gold-plated cake.

The Chance
Every time I look at you, I see the pain you have been through. Every time you hold me, I feel how insecure you are. I can not change the past, I can not promis the future. All that I ask, is to be given the chance. The chance of a life time. The chance to fully be yours.

If These Walls Could Talk..
If these walls could talk,you'd know my body is dead,my mind has been taken over,that's why I am so scared,I can't control it,anger is making me blind,I've been left here on my ownchained to a hate of some kind.If these walls could talk.If these walls could talk,you'd know about my fears,about all those nights I screamed for help,about all my fallen tears.You'd know about the demonshaunting me at night,you'd be able to help mekeep my fire alight,if these walls could talk.If these walls could talkthey would say that it's all right,God sends His angelsto look over me at night.They'd encourage me,say though I am aloneit doesn't mean I‘m on my own.He watches me, from aboveand showers me with all His love,if only these walls could talk.

His Sad Song
Sitting in his room,All day long.He is sitting there singing,His own sad song.A song about misery,A song about hope.A song about a problem,and how to cope.He wants someone to love him,He wants someone to care.But when he turns around,Nobody is ever there.He wants a family,and some friends that he can call his own.He wants all these things,So he doesn't have to be alone.He's hoping someone will care.He hears something and turns around,And notices that nobody's there.

Out With The Old... In With The New
Where can i start with this one.. We all can relate. Good times..bad times. Economy has sucked the US dry...jobs are few and far between, you're lucky if you can even get a interview and pray to GOD you'll get a call back for a second interview. If you still have a job, you pray even harder that you don't get laid off. Personally, for me life has thrown me a monkey wrench after monkey wrench this past year. From trying as hard as i can to obtain employment, dealing with my own health issues, to having my teenage son dignosed with a heart condition known as Marfan's Syndrome. Ethan, my son is a very intelligent, strong willed young man who even at 15, surprises me every day. And like every teenager he has his moments where he likes to use the phrase "I know" lmao .. I think that's a parents' worse thing to hear because no they really don't know.. Even as an adult myself.. I don't always know everything. Sometimes, i really don't have all the answers. lol. But, there is a silver lini

Decisions, Decisions
The right thing and the correct thing. Not always the right decision. I picked the right thing to do. Got my ass chewed again, but you know what? THat's what I'm good at lol. People say they are a maverick... I bet most of them never get in half the shitstorms I am lol. Oh well, c'est la vie. I came close to burning out the other day, glad I took a few days off. Tonight reminded me though of what I was missing. Most fun I've had in the back of a firetruck in a while. Rolling the the road tunes blasting... we packed 5 in the back. Was a bit crowded. At least there was a woman across from me who wasn't that big so we weren't in each others laps the whole time lol. Take it easy guys, be safe!

End Of First Day, Almost Start Of Second Day
Omfg. Tired as hell. Day went well despite only getting two hours of sleep. FML I gotta be up in 4 hours to do it again. 2 alarm fire completely shot my planned bedtime to hell. I shouldn't have jumped on the piece, but you know what? That's somebody's home. Fuck it. I'm sure others have done more on less sleep. 'Nite all.

At Arms Length The Angel Rises From Her Knees~by Jd
The rain is falling, My breath freezes in mid air, All i am thinking about is your lingering words, The sweetest i love you. I cannot wait much longer, Forever makes me nervous but im not letting go, let me be your escape and i'll promise we can make it through. Even the thought of being without you leaves me empty and lost, I am willing to break down all my walls and give you my all. I may not be an angel, But i've decided you are all i want in this life, Let me share this world with you, So many times i was wrong let me show you now that this will be right. I am standing here through this down pour, Soaked and in need of your subtle touch, Just to be able to talk to you will never fullfill my need to make you permenant in my life. My eyes are lit up and seem almost to reflect the embers of this flame you light inside my soul, Feeling so overwhelmed and yet so comfortable, Right now is the moment i have figured out i can never let you go. I am just a man who ha

Slipknot-snuff
Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again So if you love me let me go And run away before I know My heart is just too dark to care I can't destroy what isn't there Deliver me into my fate If I'm alone I cannot hate Ooh, my smile was taken long ago I don't deserve to have you If I can change I hope I never know I still press your letters to my lips I couldn't face a life without your lights And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight So save your breath, I will not care I think I made it very clear Is that supposed to be enough? You couldn't hate enough to love I only wish you weren't my friend Then I could hurt you in the end I never claimed to be a saint Ooh, my own was banished long ago It took the death of hope to let y

Rumors Revealed
SOme of you may be asking Are you the real freezie? why were you banned? What happened? as most know i was a crazy bomber, spent lots on this site as well as lots of support, bombed everyone not just autos it didnt matter who you were i randomly picked ppl to bomb, once i got moved up in rank to the 50's some womans account was hacked - how i got blamed for it is stil a mystery but hey the person that did it got away with it right? I took the fall for it, I was also accused of cheating - and i was reset when I was cheating - at that time there was an admin on site that hated ME with a passion for what i dont know but that admin had a huge grudge over nothing. I was Incriminated for a crime I did not do. so to answer all of your questions at once - Yes i was banned for being incriminated for a crime i did not do and i lost everything i spent/worked hard for - because sum lil cheater was sacared to lose they spot in ranks - hope this helps clear things up for u all - comment

It Wouldn't Post To My Status For Some Reason.
One question, one chance, one honest answer. You can ask me one question (to my inbox only). Any question, anything, no matter how crazy, DIRTY or WRONG it is. No catch. But I dare you to post this on your status, and see what people ask you.

Divorce
Divorce Divorce is an excessive commodity now days. A first grader recently said, My parents haven't gotten their divorce yet. Unfortunately, divorce has translated from a social taboo to a rite of passage. Often, it symbolizes anxiety concerning insincere commitment from a partner or underlying resentment toward a partner. It may be represented by other significant persons in your life going through the divorce as a displacement of your anxiety over the matter. Do you have relationships that are very tiring or emotionally draining? Perhaps you are wanting to get someone out of your life, but lack the diplomacy skills to address the situation. Do you feel excluded from or cut off by past friends over a current disagreement?

Unspoken... Heartbroken
Heartbroken as I lay here words unspoken as I die Each word you said like a stab in the heart How is it not clear I dont wanna be apart My love for you was undying until... I sat here lonely without you... crying I just wanted to be together you n I forever our kids, maybe one together but I guess now it means never Heartbroken as I lay here words unspoken as I die with my last breath... n a sob cry I love you baby till the day I... die

Energy Can Neither Be Created Nor Destroyed
The all-encompassing meaning of life for all human beings is to follow the pleasure principle. Everything that you do or think are merely levels of abstraction above seeking pleasure and avoiding pain, and which you believe are in your best interest for following this principle. It can be anything from the basic (eating a cookie), to a bit more complex and abstract (maintaining a healthy diet instead, believing the better health, increased energy, and being more physically attractive will make you happier than eating said cookie, for a longer period of time) to the highly abstract and complex (a father sacrificing himself for his family, say by jumping on a grenade. A variety of issues might come into play such as religion [and further, getting to go to heaven for what is believed to be such a "noble deed"], belief in offspring surviving on as a form of immortality, chemicals involved with love [and possibly thinking it better to die a hero and save loved ones than to live a coward and

Yellow Footprints And A Bad Haircut
I figure it might at least entertain someone out there if I shared a thing or two about the hilarious time I had in The United States Marine Corps. Where to begin, hmm... well, why not the begining? Pretty fuckin' clever for a Jarhead, huh? December, 1998. I'm on a bus entering the Marine Corps Recuit Depot in San Diego. The little bit of idle chit chat has gone dead since we know we're all about to leap into the unknown. The bus stops, the door opens, and all hell breaks loose. "Get off my bus! Get on those yellow footprints!" It was chaos and quite comical looking, I'm sure, but I wasn't gonna laugh or anything, lest the mean looking sumbitch in the smokey hat took interest in my opinion of the evenings proceedings. As the complete and total bewilderment set in for me and these scared young leathernecks to be, it came time for the customary haircut. It got interesting for me, though, since the surly DI took notice of my somewhat overlong hair and decided that I was to be his enter

From A Real Friend
You want to know what I think about you? Well, I think that you are probably one of the most caring men I've ever met. I'm so proud to call you my friend and My Little Brother! You think of everyone else before yourself! I don't know how you do it sometimes to be honest! Maybe I'm just a more selfish person!I do know that whatever lady wins your heart and marries you will be the luckiest lady on Earth!Love you now and always, "Name removed, they know who wrote it"

Test...is Right! Bam Bam Pish.
Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||||| 50% Stability |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Orderliness || 10% Accommodation |||| 16% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 80% Interdependence |||||||||||| 50% Mystical |||||| 30% Materialism |||||||||||||||||| 80% Narcissism |||||| 30% Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 80% Work ethic || 10% Conflictseeking |||||||||||| 50% Need to dominate || 10% Romantic || 10%

Beyonce A Terrorist Sympathizer?
It’s a known fact that most entertainers are part of the liberal kook fringe establishment but Beyonce performing for dictator and terrorist Muammar al-Qaddafi’s son Hannibal is inexcusable. Even DJ Sam Young is perplexed. The Qaddafi’s have a history of violence against women and a rich and powerful woman performs for them. I sympathize with women but you babes have to be consistent. How can you be against violence on women then support those who do it. I’m confused. Here’s the “Huh?” details http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/01/05/beyonce-gives-exclusive-performance-khadafy/?test=faces Get your head right and listen to BlastFM. We love women and treat you like the hotties you are! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Here Is A Biggasshole Who Like To Pick On Woman In A Game
hey fu friends this asshole take a game to far and picks on a lady cuz she dont want him'he has no life he in his late 40s maybe 50s and his mom pays his bills he send the check that the govrment sends his worthless ass on a game to bling hisself http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=25787 thats the asshole ling nave tod whatever id your name is u want to make her life hell on here well i going make yours that way nomatter what turf what u do i going keep after u lets see who breaks frist knightwing like this game i go for neck bitch u can walk away now leave her along keep fucking with her and so much shit your sister told were tostart

Happy New Year Friends.
Hi Friends Happy New Year to all of you, hope it will be a awesome new year it is now 2010 wow imagine that so hard to think I been on here sence 2006 wow I have made alot of good awesome friends and had some good time and great times and bad times of course like we all have this site of course is something else it was alot better back then as cherry tap but of course we all know times and things are for ever changing who knows mite change again sometime huh. I have made some awesome new friends so far this new year and also last yr of course still have a few old good friends from my first start of the day back in 2006 never thought id be on a site this long wow and still single on top of that hmmm hehe but of course those who know me or of me on here know that there is a reason why I am single and stay that way but of course for those who read this and don't know well the reason is because I collect pet snakes its posted right on the front page of this profile even in big letters but

Krysti
She questioned if my words for her,Would be for her and her alone.My words under your picture are only yours,It's the only way I've known. With that now done and said,Maybe I can tell what I see.And you my darlin,Will learn a little more of me. You are a beauty without a doubt,But I know you also have a mind.To see one and know the other,A way to do this,I will find. To look at you,but never really see,Would never do us true.If I only know of your outer beauty,Then I'll never really know you. So if you would please beautiful,Open your thoughts to me.Show me your inner beauty,So the whole you I might see.

Soul & Heartless
I'm the most wicked insane juggalo you never heard of. I puts its down way burrying ya into the ground. 6 feet deep no creep have ya falling off at ur leap. What yo soul you soul to no keep regardless. How you start this to kick with some full mount of piss you diss i dismiss. & ain't whether if you on some shit to try to get yourself fuck delt wit. I'm just as crazy as known insane dementia of what i put in ya. I'm to miscomplicated you straight hated incubated none stated you just faded none equally created. Plauged with sress wit pressed it mishanded. I can't stand it. I'm losing to feel crazed brainless such a mess in a one contest none be the best i'm so fresh. I can kick spit better then the rest. & it ain't no reason to feel on sucess. Cuz to many fucker's are just without they soul & heartless cuz motherfuckers are just to sold what is told niggaz is just to soul & heartless none like the rest shoot 'em down rip they heart out they chest. What they bear now all i ask is wave yo

I Begin To Confess The Only Way I Can, Moving To The Unknown Wit Such A Confidence Tht I Can Nvr Repeat It Off The Spotlight
Dancing is my adrenaline. The movement of the beat impowers me on such a level tht i anticipate each new day in hopes of returning to the floor. I am many personas when it comes to dance. I am a robot during rehearsal, seein n performin all the new things my mentors show me. I am beauty when dancing side by side wit my reflections shown in the mirrors around me showing flawless perfection. I am a dancing junkie in the clubs, getting high off of the cheers n wonderin eyes as i show them tempting entertainment. I am a confessor in the Spotlight, expressing my story to the spectators tht r hidden under the blindin light. They understand and pour me wit anxious applause. I take my bow at the unknown wit such confidence, knowing tht nuthin will evr compare to it off the stage. My heart is in the Spotlight.

01/05/2010
Genesis 12http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+12&language=english&version=31 Genesis 13http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+13&language=english&version=31 Genesis 14http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+14&language=english&version=31 http://BiblePlan.org/3/niv/ Bible Reading Plan -- Complete NIV Bible in a YearRead the NIV Bible in a year, reading three chapters daily and five on Sundays.

My Man Is An Original!
A romantic candle lit bath....and these were some of the words that I'll share....So he says.....it's kind of weird to think that 30 years ago we took baths together which makes this really appropriate....to which I said huh?.....then he popped the ring out of the water and said "Angie will you marry me?" We both cried and of course I said yes. It's like a dream. I've loved this man my whole life. I've never enjoyed taking care of someone so much. I've never been so well taken care of, so loved, so complete. I love you so much, Jason. Thank you for giving me my fairy tale proposal. Any other way couldn't have competed with that.

Blah
People are such idiots.... or.. maybe I am the idiot... I dunno.. and I dun care tbh... I just get sick of people at times.. Why can`t people learn.. Why do they gotta say stuff that makes U mad.. or hurt..... It hurts more then U know.... Especially if Ur like me... the most selfconsious person out there..... I take everything that people say personal.. and I analyze it over and over and OVER.....

Sometimes You Just Gotta Tell It Like It Is!!!
1/5/2010 To Whom It May Concern: My name is [my name]. I am a patient of Sharp Healthcare. I have been a patient for about three years now. My regular physician is Dr. Karen Hutchinson. I have nothing but great things to say about her. She’s caring, confident, discreet, and an all around amazing physician. The only problem I have is that she is off work frequently. In her absence, I am left under the care of Drs: Perry Montoya, Roderick Mountain, Michael Chambers, Timothy Strouse, and Adela Greeley. I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that these doctors do not like Dr. Hutchinson, for whatever reason. I was hoping it wouldn’t come to this, but having also been an employee of Sharp Healthcare from 7/5/06-approximately 10/13/09, I know that I am not receiving “very good care” from these doctors. I have been very patient up until now, but am growing physically wary and impatient. I suffer from many heal

Am I A Freak?
I often wonder if being a Dominant makes me a freak? I don't hide it because personally if people cannot accept who I am they don't need to be my friend. Many misunderstand the lifestyle but its more than just sex its a deeper love and trust that attracted me to it. If it means I am a freak than so be it but at least I am a happy freak hehe......

Rain Or Shine
It was raining quite hard as U.S. Marine trainees assembled outdoors for a briefing. On a blackboard, the lieutenant instructor had prepared a detailed drawing of the tactics he wanted practiced. "Don't think we're going to call this off just because of a little rain," he said. Then he turned to the blackboard which had been washed clean.

I Hate It When People Ur Not Attracted To Keep Hitting On You Sexually Its So Annoying
Dont you hate it when people ur not attracted to feel making sexual remarks or hitting on you it grosses me out they just dont get it..

Personal's
My Misstress posted an add for me as she wanted to find me a Pet of my own.The respone she got back was overwhelming.She selected a few and sent them to me.After going through them I contacted some of them.After chatting with those I found only 2 who were serious about meeting.One mid fifties Bi male and one mid thirties Bi male.Both met all requirements of Hosting & clean.I set up an after work meet with the older one & met him at his apt.After chatting a bit we went to the back bedroom.As I undressed he came around in front of me kneeling down gently stroking my shaft as he licked my balls sucking them as he stroked my growing cock.Licking up the shaft he took me in his mouth slowly working the it all in .Fully erect he laid on the bed putting a pillow under himself so his ass was up.He reached into the night stand for some lube & greased up my cock.Slowly I worked the head inside of his tight ass.He asked how I liked it as he was mmm tight.I replied oh yes as I started pumpimg into

Yay Pain
I am not writing this for attention but just so others understand. I have pain through out my whole body 24/7 so at times I get grumpy other times I cannot even get online. So if I seem grumpy or you don't see me around for a while please understand its do to my pain.

Thankyou All Who Helped...
i didnt wanna deletle this totally so i moved it from my profile to my blog still give them love a pLZ rATE THE PEOPLE LISTED THANKYOU ALL FOR HELPING ME WIN SPOTLIGHT FOR NEWYEARSDAY! I LOVE U ALL! (if i missed u plz tell me in inbox and ill add u sorry..) ღςђค๏tเς є๏г§èтღ™ ÐÐ@ fubarcomputer chords@ fubar Å★44a☆Gir£★™@ fubarJohnnydevil@ fubarRyot Gyrl@ fubarMeL♥.@ fubarmystrangebrew@ fubarvampiregothique666 ~CAMGUY2 @DOGS OF WAR LATE NIGHT LOUNGE~@ fubar☠ [ĸɑу]deigh-Mfkn Licious Lady, Bitch! [Teaser @ Club Fantasia]@ fubarDJ K-Man a.k.a The Irish Stud®@ fubar

Hey Everybody
im amanda, i love playing on fubar, i have met alot of awesome people on here, its amazing how people you barely know act like family... i love all my friends on here... thank you all for being so awesome...

Tell Me Your Opinion Ladies Am I Worthy Of A Fubar Wife?
Hello to all you beautiuful ladies. Now am I worthy to have to have you as a fubar wife? Leave me a comment telling what is that you like to know about me what you would like to do with me!

Crashin
the world i have built up is crashing down around me. where are those i need most? open your hearts to me like have opened mine to you. dont shut me out dont turn me away i helped you anyway i could why wont you help me? i'm losing hope and my faith is fading. where did i go wrong.. what do i do now the world i have built up is crashing down around me.. i'm reaching for you calling your name listen close. for my voice is but a whisper. my world is crashing down please save me.. for i cant save myself.

Canada's National Athem - English And French Versions
Official (English) Official (French) O Canada! Our home and native land! True patriot love in all thy sons command. With glowing hearts we see thee rise, The True North strong and free! From far and wide, O Canada, We stand on guard for thee. God keep our land glorious and free! O Canada, we stand on guard for thee. O Canada, we stand on guard for thee. Ô Canada! Terre de nos aïeux, Ton front est ceint de fleurons glorieux! Car ton bras sait porter l'épée, Il sait porter la croix! Ton histoire est une épopée Des plus brillants exploits. Et ta valeur, de foi trempée, Protégera nos foyers et nos droits Protégera nos foyers et nos droits.

Can Muslims Be Good Americans?
Subject: Fwd: CAN MUSLIMS BE GOOD AMERICANS? This is very interesting and we all need to read it from start to finish And send it on to everyone. Maybe this is why our American Muslims are So quiet and not speaking out about any atrocities. Can a good Muslim be A good American? This question was forwarded to a friend who worked in Saudi Arabia for 20 years. The following is his reply: Theologically - no. . . . Because his allegiance is to Allah, The moon God of Arabia . Religiously - no. . . Because no other religion is accepted by His Allah Except Islam (Quran, 2:256)(Koran) Scripturally - no. . . Because his allegiance is to the five Pillars of Islam and the Quran. Geographically - no . Because his allegiance is to Mecca , to which he Turns in prayer five times a day. Socially - no. . . Because his allegiance to Islam forbids him to make Friends with Christians or Jews . Politically - no. . . Because he must submit to the mullahs (spiritual Leaders), who teach annihilati

Shallow Is The Fog That Runs Beneath The Earth
intiment on the grounds of yesterday's salvation, cling to the hearts of the masses, laying to waste the desperate heros and challenges, walking closely breathing deep the smell of chaos and rhetoric of a forgotten time, the stentch not most know, howling tides of blood lost in sand and snow, the dreary eyes of forbidden damn nation waltzing on the empty hands of eternity, plucked one by one like frail flowers from the garden of Eden, life's fertle cresent depleting breath by breath, walked by God to survive 1000's of demons, empty promises made to woman and man, the empty promise of valor and victory, the price of triumph exchanged for freedom and sanctity, running silently thru the the calm of midnight, blood lust filling the hearts of the beasts, watching and hunting those that we're told to eliminate, the smell of the corpsed fog that runs beneath the earth, inhalent to our adrinaline we rush to the dance, maintaining agility in all that we do, conquored masses stand before us, thi

Running
Running Running is a traditional symbol of health and vitality in addition to being a means of fleeing potential danger. Thus running could be considered a dream of virility, as well as fear. Usually, in a dream of running in which fear is the dominant emotion, you will find that you can either run all night and successfully escape the danger (albeit with a serious emotional drain), or you find that you continue to falter and stumble, making the object of your fear even more terrifying. In the latter case, try to relate the dream situation to a situation in your life where you are feeling incredible pressure. Sometimes a simple change of perception can solve the problem.

Moon
Moon The moon is often an archetypal woman image. In many cultures and religious orders, the moon is identified as a mother figure. This is true in Native American, African, Christian, and Eastern literature and lore. The moon dream may come with or generate an intuitive feeling that someone in the inner circle of your life is pregnant. Another moon scenario is a product of the twentieth century. Specifically, the desire for space travel. These dreams can be based on either the scientific desire to experience the event or the spiritual desire for absolute separation from the churning, tumultuous human experience on earth. The moon can also evoke feelings of magic and mystery.

This Is So True!
10 things I hate about you I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick,it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh,even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, not even close…not even a little bit… not even at all.

Gate
Gate Think of the gate in larger terms as an opening in a boundary or secured area where one is not normally allowed access. Is the gate locked or unlocked? Do you have to open it or is it opened for you? Depending on your answers, these questions may reveal some level of tension concerning an opportunity that may exist for you.What is inside the gate: a building, a sacred or taboo place, or a place of tranquillity and safety? You may see yourself going to such a place alone or with a helper for some kind of ritual experience. If you go through the gate with somebody, it may herald that a relationship in your life is moving on to a different level (for good or bad). Are you at a loss for opportunities, or do you feel prevented from making progress towards a particular goal? The gate may reflect potential progress, or the hope thereof, depending upon where it leads in your dream.

Boundaries
Boundaries Although we rarely dream of boundaries per se, we often encounter uncrossable fences, immovable gates, and other non-traversable obstacles. A Freudian approach would be to discern what might be gained by overcoming the barrier and then attempting to associate that gain with a taboo event. If you have any helpers to get you over, through, or under your obstacle, they may be co-conspirators in the violation-or, your joint conquest of the obstacle may be the taboo in itself. Depending on whether the taboo is anger, sex, or another violation, you may need to look closely at your feelings about what is on the other side of the fence, across the river, or whatever the obstacle is. It can be an eerie feeling to encounter a boundary where either you feel unable to go past or your dream companions keep reminding you that nobody goes over there. It may be that the perceived threat or inability to cross the boundary is the central message of the dream. Perhaps you see yourself a

Egg And A Dare To You
Since you egged me on I turn around and egg and dare you. I was told on february 20th of last year that I had 50/50 chance of making it the year I dare you all Feds, State, Our Lady of Lourdes, Cooper, all the physicians ,and whoever that your gods and all of you are worthless against my God. When I wake up on the 21st of this coming February may all that was intended for me fall upon you all and to quicken this on, your behalf I will cut back and stop taking the beta blocker on your within fives days. I say your gods and you are worthless againsy my God. My God is The Judge Norio

?????????
She wonders is she in my dreams,In my thoughts in the day.Will she ever relieze shes all,Shes all in everyway. She could be the beat of my heart,If she ever wanted to.Everytime I'd see that smile,My heart would run to you. For now on your shelf,Watching you go by.Everyday without you,My heart slowly dies.

Lie To Me By 12 Stone
Our candle burns awayThe ashes full of liesI gave my soul to youYou cut me from behindNowhere to run and nowhere to hideYou're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the liesCuz who I am, is where you wanna beDon't act like an angelYou fallen againYou're no super heroI found in the endSo lie to me once againAnd tell me everything will be alrightLie to me once againAnd ask yourself before we say goodbyeWell goodbyeWas it worth it in the end...You said you were there for meYou wouldn't let me fallAll the times I shared with youWere you even there at all?Nowhere to run and no where to hideYou're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the liesCuz who I am, is where you wanna beDon't act like an angelYou fallen againYou're no super heroI found in the endSo lie to me once againAnd tell me everything will be alrightLie to me once againAnd ask yourself before we say goodbyeWell goodbyeWas it worth it in the endWhy'd you have to up and run awayA million miles awayI wanna close my eyes and make believeTha

Comments I Hate.... Js.... What Comments Do U Hate?
I cant stand being called sexy ....I cant stand people making sexual commentsi cant stand people acting like they know me when they dont ...i cant stand being told shit that you comment the same to everyonei cant stand when people dont pay attentioni cant stand html comments so not personal..Js....what comments do u hate?

Love
A lot of people think they are in love or that things are the best they ever had. My advice to them is to really sit down and think on everything you have. People who say they are in love sometimes don’t even realize that what they feel is not love but lost. You will never know unless you know the person face to face and see if what you feel is passion/love and not just lust. Sometimes people don’t see it as that but trust me it happens more than often than not. What people don’t understand is that to really know you love someone you have to meet them. To touch them to see if there is a fire there. That fire is called passion and without it you won’t last. You have to look into their eyes, hold their hand, to talk to them in person to really see if it is true love. I have seen so many people on the internet say they are in love with someone and that they will do anything for that person. The thing is they never meet and they think they

Screen Name Manda Murderface
Although all I could see was you tounge I'm sure your face was indeed a murdurous one. If judging by your inability to banter an adult manner in a mumm with a sarcastic ass like me is any indication of you personality then I'm glad you blocked me you silly girl. I leave two comments in your mumm and you come to my page rate me a 1 - who does that? And then block me from coming to your page and then block me from your mumm. Tisk tisk... Too bad, I was looking forward to some spicy sarcastic banter this afternoon....ah well. The world is full of pussies I suppose and you my dear are at the head of the class... I hope you have plenty of tissues handy....

R.b
She questions what she feels,Doesn't know where to look.For her right now,Love is an open book. You have caught her eye,And growing deeper in her heart.All her smiles are for you,And shes in sorrow apart. Take care of this beauty young man,To her heart you hold the key.And forever her smiles will shine,And for you they will be.

New
This is mostly a blog of my family members, but I'm starting a new blog called 2010. It's for family eyes only. Sorry to everyone else. I'll still have this one and be updating it quite frequently :P Just saying! I have an urge for a ciggarette too and I hate it. I love the commericals on TV lately though. I don't know if they're national or if they're from the group JEL and only in Iowa or what. But there are commericals of this chick in her office making a drink to go with her ciggarette and a guy stealing a car to go smoke with the slogans "You don't drink every time you smoke, but you smoke every time you drink" and "You don't drive every time you smoke, but you smoke every time you drive" and it's cute. It's so me. I'm a very big social smoker and I always have been. The only time I ever smoked by myself was when I was really stressed out, and 99% of the time when I was driving. It feels weird to drive without a ciggarette in my hand. It's not even so much missing smoking, but it

Monday January 4
Going to TEXAS from Cali! So my day started like this 0100am trying to go to bed couldn't cause i had to meet my shuttle at 0330 could not sleep so i stayed up on here on fubar wowo addicted! lol so i got to lax at 0745 and my flight wasn't till 0910 so was there early then i looked down the line of ppl who was late to there flights the ling was from terminal one which is southwest airlines and united airways to terminal two. was a huge like seemed that it was like an hour wait in line right as i get to the door of the security line to get in the building i got stopped by a lady she said i need to go check my bags in the bag line i was like what?@!? okay so i got in that line took 40 mins to get to the counter not so bad. Weight my bad thinking im good cause online they said i got 70lbs for my luggage so i was like i only have 67 lbs so im good when the guy was like its going to be $50 more for that bag and i was like excuse me he said well your bag is 18lbs over weight i was like wow.

Death
It calls out to me with its shiney metal blade It calls out to me tempting me to play Just one push against my soft translucent skin The warm crimson seeping out from within No one would know it cries No one would care if I die Hands shaking I bring you closer Just one quick motion the pain will be over

Happy Mungday!!!
"Today* is Mungday, the Holyday of the Apostle Hung Mung, the Patron Saint of Chaos, and the 5th Day (Setting Orange) of the Season of Chaos (the first season in the Discordian Year) in this, the YOLD 3176. Hooray!Hung Mung is a Sage of Ancient China and Official Discordian Missionary to the Heathen Chinese. He who originally devised THE SACRED CHAO. Patron of the Season of Chaos.On the teachings and imitations ofSaint Hung MungSetting Orange Chaos 5, 3169 Anno LuminaOn Setting Orange Chaos 5 (January 5th), Discordians set aside the day to remember and commune with Saint Hung Mung, whose name means Primal Chaos, sage of Ancient China, inventor of the Sacred Chao, Official Missionary to the Heathens, leader of Operation Mindfuck and patron of the season of Chaos.This is the season of Chaos, the ancient universe as earliest humans saw it, where anything and everything is REAL. Apostle Hung Mung came out of this mindset and planted the seeds of the Taoist religion, whose followers don't a

I Have Had So Many People Ask Me To Send This To Them So Here It Is
'Twas the night before Christmas, Da whole house was mella Not a creature was stirrin', Cuz I had a gun unda my pilla. When up on da roof I heard somethin' pound, I sprung to da window, To scream, "YO! Keep it down!" When what to my Wonderin' eyes should appear, But da Don of all elfs, And eight friggin' reindeer! Wit' slicked back black hair, And a silk red suit, Don Santa wuz here, And he brought all da loot! Wit' a slap to dare snouts, And a yank on dare manes, He cursed and he shouted, And he called dem by name. "Yo Tony, Yo Frankie, Yo Vinny, Yo Vito, Ay Joey, Ay Paulie, Ay Pepe, Ay Guido!" As I drew out my gun And hid by da bed, He flew troo da winda And slapped me 'side da head. "What da hell you doin' Pullin' a gun on da Don? Now all you're gettin' is coal, You friggin' moron!" Den pointin' a fat finga Right unda my nose, He twisted his pinky ring, And up da chimney he rose. He sprang to his sleigh, Obscenities screamin', Away dey all flew, Before he troo de

Ive Been Through Alot..
First this is me.. When i was six years old i was in a three wheeler accident where i flew off the back of it my head hitting a rock in a ditch. I went into an instant comma in the ambulance i was then intabated 9 times therefore hitting and dislocating one of my vocal chords and then hitting and paralyzing my other vocal chord. So i've been used to people judging me for the way my voice sounds. I had to learn to walk all over again because of my traumatic brain injury. Thank you all for listening........

For All You Cavemen Lmfao
She wondered as he approuched,Is it really that small?What did I get myself into,It doesnt hang lower than his balls. She ponders for a momment,Then tells him to redress.Because on a scale of optomism,He's a definate pessomist. She should have called me,And I would run to her side.And wave after wave she would feel,Just like the oceans change tide.

Walmart
Things to do at Wal-mart while your spouse/partner is taking their sweet time: 1. Get 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in peoples carts when they are not looking. 2. Go to the service desk and ask to put a bag of m&m's on lay away. 3. Set up a tent in the camping department. 4. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and, "why can't people just leave me alone?" 5. Look right into the security camera and use it as a mirror to pick your nose. 6. While handling guns in the hunting department, ask the clerk if he knows where the antidepressants are located. 7. Dart around the store loudly humming the mission impossible theme song. 8. Hide in a clothing rack when people browse through say PICK ME! 9. When an announcement comes on the loudspeaker, assume the fetal position and scream NO NO! Its those voices again. 10. Go into the fitting room and shut the door and wait a while they yell loudly "THERE IS NO TOILET PAPER IN HERE!"

What Do You Hate Most About Fubar?
You can be honest... lay it on me in the comments. :-) -mike edit: someone just sent me a PM asking why i bothered to post this blog, since i don't read the comments anyway. well, if you post a comment you'll notice it says i have to approve it before it shows up... so yes, i do in fact read every single comment left. :P

I'll Never Stop Believing That The Impossible Can Happen...to Hell With Those Who Put Me Down For It
Just a small town girl Living in a lonely world She took the midnight train going anywhere Just a city boy Born and raised in South Detroit He took the midnight train going anywhere A singer in a smoky room A smell of wine and cheap perfume For a smile they can share the night It goes on and on and on and on {Refrain} Strangers, waiting, up and down the boulevard Their shadows searching in the night Streetlight people, living just to find emotion Hiding somewhere in the night Working hard to get my fill Everybody wants a thrill Paying anything to roll the dice Just one more time Some will win, some will lose Some were born to sing the blues Oh the movie never ends It goes on and on and on and on {Refrain} Don't stop believing Hold on to that feeling Streetlight people

A King Without His Crown
Okay , I doubt too many of you folk will read this, but I have some stuff I needed to get off my chest. The funny thing is... this time it has nothing to do with fubar for once..... As some of you may or may not know, I recently met someone, a female perhaps, and apparently she has joined my clan ( No this isn't fumafia or anything like that). This is on xbox live which all of you know I frequently enjoy.Also too keep in mind, I am the second in command of this clan as well. Now some of you know me as a hardass mummer person, kind of a "Suck it up, quit whining, and move on pansy" kinda guy. After playing some Modern Warfare 2 and Bordelrands with her, I am starting to develop a liking for this chica. I also kinda feel like a hypocrite for making fun of people developing feelings over each other on a keyboard, but am battling this inside me since I feel like a hypocrite since I am kinda falling a bit over someone over a video game chat. It's kind of like even though we haven't met

Haters Always Need To Ruin It For Others.
ghhh stiupid jealous haters!! They hate on me because they got nothing to do LOL I'm bored of one site, and I'm about to delete off there, posted a goodbye thread.MizzClaudia: well, I think I'm out of here, this site is really boring, I prefer facebook and fubar over this site. Plus I don't need negative people in my life especially if I want to loose some weight right now and I'm on the right track so, have a good one everybody and yes I am being serious, I'm not coming back anytime soon, perhaps later down the months! For my friends, you have my contacts, Best Wishes everybody!!!then haters come right in:why make a thread? just fucking leaveleft by ___BiLL___ 23 minutes agoI know people that care..left by MizzClaudia 9 minutes ago deleteif I fuCking feel like it I will create a thread but thanks!left by MizzClaudia 20 minutes ago delete So That Bill guy got mad at me because I shoved his faggot ass on ignore, I didnt need him to be negative on me in my thread. So he then createes a t

25 Things About To Become Extinct In America
25. U.S. Post Office They are pricing themselves out of existence. With e-mail, and online services they are a relic of the past. (refer to #9) Packages are also sent faster and cheaper with UPS. 24. Yellow Pages This year will be pivotal for the global Yellow Pages industry Much like newspapers, print Yellow Pages will continue to bleed dollars to their various digital counterparts, from Internet Yellow Pages (IYPs), to local search engines and combination search/listing services like Reach Local and Yodel Factors like 20 an acceleration of the print 'fade rate' and the looming recession will contribute to the onslaught. One research firm predicts the falloff in usage of newspapers and print Yellow Pages could even reach 10% this year -- much higher than the 2%-3% fade rate seen in past years. 23. Classified Ads The Internet has made so many things obsolete that newspaper classified ads might sound like just another trivial item on a long list. But this is one of those harbingers of

Star Dust In Your Eyes
A moment sometimes, Is all it takes to define your life, It grabs you by your pulseLeaves you mesmerizedThat was then I felt the magicWas that stardust in your eyes?For me, you were my mid summer nights dream, Surreal, yet trueYou held my hand when my vision was blur, You were my superhero; in disguiseI knew I was safe, tucked into your arms, Was that concern in your eyes?Over time, you changed my life, Resurrected me from the groundYou directed me, while I was lost,Like a night adorned with fireflies,I had never been happier, Was that love in your eyes?Somewhere in it all, Love was lost, You said it wasn't even there,I shed silent tears, veiled my cries,Shattered; I stood there and you walked away...Without any regret in your eyes.I picked up the shardsOf what used to be a beautiful pictureAnd buried it somewhere in meYou stood on the other end, Watching my every move, Yet, you couldn't meet my eyesThe stardust in your eyes;Was just vision that was blurYour superhero costume was overd

Busy Busy Busy
Every Day we are all so Busy.We need to take things much EasyWe sometimes get a little lazyEnding up doing things crazySo be yourself foreverDo what you want wheneverThat will make you cleverTo live a life happily ever

First Of 2010
If I could make this easier,Please know i would,I'd be with you in a heartbeat,If only I could.If i had the power,I would come to you,If i had the power,Not crying (when your not here) would be an easier thing to do.I cry because it hurts,Not because im not strong,But just because you don't cry,It doesn't make you wrong.Your the one i count on,Its you above the rest,And You need to know i don't blame you,When you really try your best.I can't promise to be stronger,Or always tell you when im hurt,But if you'd like me too,A little effort never hurt

Warning: 2010 Census - Cautions From The Better Business Bureau
Be Cautious About Giving Info to Census Workers by Susan Johnson With the U.S. Census process beginning, the Better Business Bureau (BBB) advises people to be cooperative, but cautious, so as not to become a victim of fraud or identity theft. The first phase of the 2010 U.S. Census is under way as workers have begun verifying the addresses of households across the country. Eventually, more than 140,000 U.S. Census workers will count every person in the United States and will gather information about every person living at each address including name, age, gender, race, and other relevant data. The big question is - how do you tell the difference between a U.S. Census worker and a con artist? BBB offers the following advice: ** If a U.S. Census worker knocks on your door, they will have a badge, a handheld device, a Census Bureau canvas bag, and a confidentiality notice. Ask to see their identification and their badge before answering their questions. However, you should never invite

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If I could capture her heart,The way her eyes have caught me.She'll know mine has fallin for her,And hopefully hers will for me. To look into those eyes,As I wake and open mine.There would be nothing greater,For the rest of my time. So my beautiful angel,If you answer my call.I promise once I've held you,Never again will you fall.

Zicam - Beware Of Side Effects.
i got this from someone else......haven' t read it all just tried the FDA link at the bottom There is a link at the bottom of this to the FDA website with the information. I want my friends and loved ones to know what has happened to me in hopes that it will never happen to you or anybody you care about. About 10 days ago, I felt a cold coming on; so before I went to bed I used Zicam Cold Remedy Nasal Gel. It's supposed to help you "get over your cold

Po Box
PO Box in Clayton, NJ I normally receive mail from Rep. LoBiondo but yeserday was mail from Rep. Andrews office with a label made out to me. Apparently I have two reps in DC, well that's good as we all should. Whoever is very bad at any lies because they don't know what is the truth. I'd be happy to tell any the truth. Try a little harder and be a gentle ladies and a gentle men with ethics and honesty within and with out. Lier are not wanted in the this world or another. Norio

Love
So.... love does crazy things to people. Sometimes you can't sleep. Sometimes the only thing you can think about is that other person. And it hurts.... when you figure out that person doesn't feel as strongly about you. I don't really know how to move forward knowing this. Should I back up, start over, move on. I can't just give up. Hes.... well, hes my all.

Dear Always Naked Guy At The Gym
Dear Always Naked Guy at the Gym - We need to talk. You see, you've become something of a discomfort to the rest of us in the locker room. I understand that a locker room is a place to get dressed, undressed, shower, shave, etc ... and that nakedness will indeed happen. That's not the problem.The problem is that you are naked WAY too much.You insist on disrobing the within a millisecond of entering the locker room. Then you proceed to leisurely walk around with Mr Wigglyflops flouncing about like a fleshy garden hose.Nobody wants to see that. Trust me. So let me respectfully submit some guidelines that will make the locker room experience more pleasant for us all - First, bring a towel ... a towel long enough to wrap around your waist. Use it. Its OK to be naked in the shower or when changing your clothes. Just wrap up for extended periods in between.Second, "extended periods in between" includes when you are shaving in front of the sink. Did you ever wonder why NOBODY ever uses the s

Enrique...addicted
Have I told you how good It feels to be me, when I'm in you. I can only stay clean, when you are around, dont let me fall. (oh no) If I close my eyes forever, would it ease the pain could I breath again chorus Baby im addicted im out of control, your the drug that keeps me from dieing Baby I'm a liar but all I really know, is that your the only reason I'm trying I'm waisted away I made a million mistakes am I to late Theres a storm in my head, and a race on my bed when you not near. Im not afraid of dieing, but im afraid of losing you. chorus When your lying next to me, love is moving throught to me oh its beautiful Everything is clear to me till I hit reality and I loose it all, I loose it all, I loose it all. na na na na na na na na na na na na Baby I'm addicted, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying Baby I'm addicted, I wanna loose it all Baby I'm a liar but all I really know is your the only reason im trying Baby I'm addicted, Baby I'm addicted, Baby I'm addicted na na na

Arrow Points
I have a question for anyone that knows anything about archery. I have been searching online ALL week for this answer and got no help, so I am asking any of you that may know. I have a dual cam compound bow that I shoot and have it marked at a 55-60lb draw with 80% let off. I bought some arrows that are size 400 rather than 500 that I normally shoot. Is it possible to use a 125 grain broadhead and still get the 330fps without dropping off at the end of the flight or do I need to go get 100grain? I'd really hate to have to buy new broadheads so if you know, or find the answer online for me, you'd be greatly appreciated by me!! Thanks again!

Ring My Bells...enrique
Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Sometimes you love it Sometimes you don't Sometimes you need it and you don't wanna let go.. Sometimes we rush it Sometimes we fall It doesn't matter baby we can take it real slow.. Cause the way that we touch is something that we can't deny And the way that you move oh it makes me feel alive Come on Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Ring my bell, ring my bells.. You try to hide it I know you do When all you really want is me to come and get to You move in closer I feel you breathe It's like the world just disappears when you around me oh Cause the way that we touch is something that we can't deny oh yeah And the way that you move oh you make me feel alive so Come on Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Ring my bell, ring my bells.. Ring my bell, ring my bells.. I say you want, I say you need I can tell by your face, you know the way it turn

Lossing Myself
You live your life thinking that you are the one that has the control. What happens when it feels like that power is starting to slip. No one truely knows who you are, nor will you alowe anyone to truely know you. Lieing to yourself to make you feel better, when all it does is make you feel worse. Hold that head up high, dont let them see that weak bitch that you are. Put that front on, but why. So others dont see where to hit you were it hurts. But what hurts worse, hiding the soft side or the compassionet side of you, or being that balls out no holds bar bitch that noone wants to fuck with or come close to. Wheres the middle. Is there a middle, and if so how do you use it. Grewing up all you do is hide who you really are, for fear of letting others in only to have them stab that emotional knife right in your gut. Fuck it whats the point anymore. Someone give me a good reason why I should keep trying. Im not talking about offing myself fuck that shit. I have no desire to die what so e

Contessa(pp)
This morning she flew by,Not ever making a sound.When I stopped and turned,My heart fell to the ground. Her beauty had once again,Escaped from my eyes.Not knowing why she left,Or the reasons why. My only hope thoughout this day,Is that you beautiful come back in view.I would love to spend more time,Getting to know the real you.

I Wanna Know...can You Show Me??? Can You????
Whatever you do, I'll do it too. Show me everything And tell me how. You know me something, And yet nothing to me. I can see there is too much to learn; It's all so close, And yet so far. I see myself As people see me. But I just know there's something bigger out there... I want to know, can you show me? I want to know about the strangers like me. Tell me more, please show me. Something's familiar About the strangers like me. Every gesture, Every move that she makes, Makes me feel like never before. Why do I have this growing need to be beside her? There are some emotions that I never knew, Some for the world far beyond this place. Beyond the trees, above the clouds, I see before me a new horizon. I want to know, can you show me? I want to know about the strangers like me. Tell me more, please show me. Something is familiar About the strangers like me. Come with me now To see my world, Where there's beauty beyond your dreams. Can you feel the things

Poem
The Special Mother by Erma Bombeck Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressure and a couple by habit.This year nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children. Did you ever wonder how these mothers are chosen?Somehow I visualize God hovering over EarthSelecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to take notes in a giant ledger."Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint, Matthew.""Forrest, Marjorie, daughter. Patron Saint, Celia.""Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint...give her Gerard. He's used to profanity."Finally he passes a name to an angel and smiles. "Give her a handicapped child."The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy.""Exactly," smiles God. "Could I give a handicapped child a mother who knows no laughter? That would be cruel.""But does she have the patience?" asks the angel."I don't want her to have too much patience, or she'll drown i

Holy!!!
So we pushed up the wedding date, for one reason or another... We're getting married in exactly 30 days Now I'm freakin out! Not freakin out like I wanna back out freakin out, freakin out like, holy shit i'm gettin married freakin out!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Someone bring me a xanax!

For Jonathan
Jonathan My pillow. Enveloping me in your soft folds of comfort. Eyes closed, your gentle caress soothes my concerns and carries my thoughts to a bed of pure contentment. Completely satisfied, I lay in your sweet embrace, longing to remain indefinitely. This is love.

Build A Solar Panel From The Comfort Of Home
Are you aware that you can build a solar panel easily with just a few simple steps. In fact, once you break them down into smaller parts you'll see that they really aren't that complicated and are actually quite simple to build. Click here to read more - Build a Solar Panel and Home Solar Power Systems To start out with you're going to need to collect some materials. Obviously you're going to need some solar cells. There's no need to buy A grade solar cells, but you shouldn't cheap out and buy broken cells. I've had very good results with B grade solar cells. These cells have some minor blemishes and are thus discarded. They work perfectly fine though and your solar panels will still look very good. You can buy solar cells in two different flavors: tabbed or untabbed. The difference between them is only how long it will take to build your solar panel. Untabbed solar cells require you to solder some tabbing wire to the face of each cell. This is a pretty time consuming process. I reco

First Day
Only got two hours of sleep last night. Don't know what the hell has been wrong with my sleep schedule. I'm not gonna lie, I'm a little nervous going in. I couldn't wait for it to start but I'm feeling like I could use another week of studying at least. Here goes nothing!

Quote
Being your slave, what should I do but tendUpon the hours and times of your desire?I have no precious time at all to spendNor services to do, till you require:Nor dare I chide the world-without-end hourWhilst I, my sovereign, watch the clock for you,Nor think the bitterness of absence sourWhen you have bid your servant once adieu:Nor dare I question with my jealous thoughtWhere you may be, or your affairs suppose,But like a sad slave, stay and think of noughtSave, where you are, how happy you make those;—So true a fool is love, that in your willThough you do anything, he thinks no ill.~William Shakespear~

Lovely
ALONZO THE BRAVE, AND FAIR IMOGINE A Warrior so bold, and a Virgin so bright Conversed, as They sat on the green: They gazed on each other with tender delight; Alonzo the Brave was the name of the Knight, The Maid’s was the Fair Imogine. ‘And Oh!’ said the Youth, ’since to-morrow I go To fight in a far distant land, Your tears for my absence soon leaving to flow, Some Other will court you, and you will bestow On a wealthier Suitor your hand.’ ‘Oh! hush these suspicions,’ Fair Imogine said, ‘Offensive to Love and to me! For if ye be living, or if ye be dead, I swear by the Virgin, that none in your stead Shall Husband of Imogine be. ‘If e’er I by lust or by wealth led aside Forget my Alonzo the Brave, God grant, that to punish my falsehood and pride Your Ghost at the Marriage may sit by my side, May tax me with perjury, claim me as Bride, And bear me away to the Grave!’ To Palestine hastened the Hero so bold; His Lov

Come To Me
As day turns into night I long for your embrace, Your touch, your presence, just being there with you, At the darkest hour, during the coldest night, it’s you I want Come near me, be besides me, and tell me how you feel. Truthful words please speak to me, from the heart I want to hear Is it me you wish to be with; is it me you long to hold? I am unsure of where I stand, unsure of what you want. Whisper to me if this is what you desire; let your feelings have a voice. I am here for you, open and willing Give anything for you, to be your happiness and joy.

The One Thing We All Crave
why are we compelled to love?what is it about this most dangerous of emotions that attracts each and every one of us?why do we long to feel the emotions?why do we expose ourselves to the heartache of rejection?why do we allow ourselves to be drawn into a situation that could tear us apart?why do we crave the feeling that love brings?are these feelings and emotions worth the potential risk?the risk of being drawn into a warm sense of belonging only to be pushed out into the cold of loneliness.is the feeling of being loved worth the pain of being hurt?the feelings of foolishness, of self doubt.the feelings of worthlessness and the pain of sorrow.there are so many types of love, the love of a partner, the love of a child, the unconditional love of a parent, the love shared between friends, the love of a possession or the love of a pet.it can be the most wondrous feeling in the world to be loved, and the most painful too.we all search for love in one way or another, but who knows if the lo

Something I Wrote Awhile Back When I Felt Blue And Unappreciated
This was written awhile back when I was hurting and feeling unappreciated. (9/9/09) I want so much to tell you how much I truely love you. It seems hard at times just to find the words that will reach you. Wondering at times if I am still getting through to you. I want so much to hold you and touch you. It burns me deep within and grieves me when I can not make you see how much I need you. Is this a wall between us that has risen and become an eyesore. I long ago took a vow and made a pledge to always love you. I shall forever remain at your side watching and waiting for you to return to me. We have made it through much harder times than this and I do not plan on giving up on you.

Past Random Statuses Messages To Bring You More Current, Lol
Past Random Status Messages on Fubar November 6, 2009 Feel like shit and I wanna do bad things to certain evil, wicked vile, putrid, festering sores of humanity that never should of been born in the first place because they fuk up everything. So you really wanna make it worse? Remember I warned you. This cat has claws. November 11, 2009 Gonna play hide the snuggle bunny, lol. December 18, 2009 Loving my sweet Pookie Bear and wanting to get some lovin later to sooth my savage beast.

Have You Ever.....
have you ever felt so happy one minute ?? then when u think everything is heavenly you learn the hard way nothing and no one is how it seems. well its ture all that glitters aint gold lol, nothing is what it seems anymore when faith and honor once ment something is dead and gone. so as the hours of our lives pass we end up learning more . some are let downs and some are perks but no matter what anyone says........ DNT BELEIVE IT WHEN THEY SAY ITS OK

Forever Tortured
Slowly walking from his home in the shadows, His heart a stone black and cold, the once warm gaze in his eyes now a demonic blaze, So as he spreads his arms wide his roar filled with hate, so as the sun turns black his soul lets go, always remembering the pain he faced, for everr tortured by the fact he will never be loved.

A Moment
Fire trails through silken black as the sun hides the dayDancing through the endless night with the stars at playEnrapturing in displays of quiet mischievousness sublimeDenying the pull and the dark and the passages of timeFor a moment in time, I breathe a little lessAnd for a space of a second I cannot feel my chestLost in the presence of a body celestially brightAnd burning through everything as my body feels too tightCan I wander space with you, do you think?Can we see the end of the universe and dance at the brink?I'll wait for you on the other side of the moonHeart in my hands, hoping you'll meet me there soonRiding the waves of the dark, like dolphins teasing the seaSo peaceful and still out here, just enough of you to breatheSurrounded on all sides by infinite days of unknown and nearHolding love and life by the hand and questing into the clearWhat if black was a color too beautiful to behold by eyes?Would you come taste perfect with me, beyond endless skies?For a moment in time

Relationship
This is not exactly a LOVE STORY, but more about learning to respect love. To My Friends Who Are... MARRIED... Love is not about "its your fault", but "I'm sorry", not where are you" but "I'm right here", not "how could you" but " I understand", not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are. To My Friends Who Are...ENGAGED...The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other. To My Friends Who Are...NOT SO SINGLE...Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person". It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. To My Friends Who Are...HEARTBROKEN...Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn for them. To My Friends Who Are...NAIVE...How to be in love. Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep

Walk Away
As the winter wind hollows outside, we always remeber where our hearts reside, So as the lights in our eyes dim, all the chances we had was slim, Lifting our heads we know whats to come, Time has come to where we know when to run, The time where our hearts break and our souls fade, So ow you know why i have to walk away.

Seriously!
Ok here's the facts.... I do not want your boyfriend real or fake ones! if your pissed that some guy you want has a 1000 female friends then your wasting your time even trying.Go out and get a real life and a real man or find a medication that works on your crazy ass brain

Portfolio Website Redesign
I have completely recreated my Pryze Media portfolio website from the ground up. Let me know what you guys think. http://www.pryzemedia.com For the Tech heads, I built it in Flash using AS3 Class based code.

The Darkness
come to the darkest side of all for i am the one you desire for the light does not shine here as the fire is our like the darkness id our lives from the borth of evil of the light will be brought down for we will rule the world and time and space!!

My Mama Told Me ...you Better Shop Around
one of my biggest fears ever is the dentist... due to being truamitized by one as a child. So when I became very aware I had to go back I found every reason to delay it. Then the predictible happened and I cracked a tooth right off leaving a gaping hole in my face terrific !!!! It drove me mentally nuts enough to drive me to try find one to work on me right away... I knew I had to get that done and the back of my front tooth where a small filling fell out. I walked into the dental office by my store one I had gone to before for emergency work when I was crawling on the floor with the pain of an impacted tooth . They said the dentist could look at me right away. As I walked in I saw they did Botox and thought well cripes that freaking odd. She tipped me back in chair looked for all of 3 min and promptly informed me I was in big big trouble. I needed gum surgery on the broken tooth with a delay time of 6 weeks for the wound to recover and major work to build it to be able to place in a

Window Of My Life!
Window of My Life! As i look out my window, i only but see time pass me by for i do not age, as only i see the word age in slow motion of time, as the rain comes and goes days turns to nights, as summer comes and goes for winter passes as the snow lays upon the grass of the yard, as people grow only but older, as i see the wild life run and fly past each night and day, as they die in time for i live in no fear but not even in my own fear for i age not at all but only born to live and die myself!!!

The Glass Of The Past And Into The Future...
As i look into the glass i see a whole new world as its like a mirrow looking back at me from the world of another, from the life i wish i had to the life i dont want, from the toughts of a new beginning yet to the end of this one from things i wish i can become from the time i had a chance, to see if i can do it all again and i become this person i should of come many years ago from not a life of crime of hate but to a one of greatness and kindness as to be some one i can be prode to call me own as i can say i did that and not another, as i walk this earth to be the person i want to become into the glass of the future and not of the past, so look at me now as it will be a change from this to what i shall come to for you will see the old me die and a reborn me with in my old life so dont brake the glass as it will all ways be replaced at some point in time!!!

Song Lyrics!!
Dance the Fire with Me!! I want to take you into the Dark, for our souls to dance the hells fire, as our bodys dance of the fire of the beast, i look into your eyes and see the flames burnning for my love, you are my desires my passions and dreams come true! we lay down and dance the way life begins, the evil spirits arises from the dark from forth with it all begins for us!! as hells demons take us over from the dark days of nights are born again, set the lights of heaven down into smoke filled skys burn with our passions of lucifer. i want to be the fire that burns in your heart, i want to be the fire that burns in your soul, i want to be the fire that burns in your body, i want to be the fire that burns in your life, set me free to be yours from witch i will be only yours, from the darkness is our light for eternity.....

Different
alone in a closet fearing something that cant be explained just wishing and hoping to disapear and my scars will not be ingrained trying to be faceless so no emotion can be shown not wanting them to see only wanting them to condone held down and abused for nothing that you have done but what you are, and discarded on what you could have become

Eyes
through my eyes your beautiful through my eyes your perfect through my eyes your fragile a wonderful glass mossaic your voice is like chimes reminding me to breath through my eyes tears fall like tiny fiers stinging my cheeks for my eyes show truth because im not worthy enough for paradies

Caught
hands grabing at you dark wet hands holding you down keeping you from life entangling your soul letters pass by your eyes becoming unelgible a languge in symbols as hands slowly covering your body eyes watching you waiting anticipating your heart slowly stops your lungs colapse eyes forever open caught, entangled by broken hands

Natural Causes My Ass
(PEOPLE.com) -- Casey Johnson, the heiress to the Johnson & Johnson fortune who recently made tabloid headlines with a purported engagement to reality star Tila Tequila, has died at age 30. Her death was announced by Tequila on her Twitter page and confirmed by police. "Everyone please pray 4 my Wifey Casey Johnson," Tequila wrote. "She has passed away. Thank u for all ur love and support but I will be offline to be w/ family."' Los Angeles police and firefighters were called to a house at 11:51 a.m. Monday. Johnson was pronounced dead at the scene. "It appears to be a natural death," says police Officer Sara Faden. "There's no evidence of foul play. A toxicology report from the coroner's office will proceed next." Johnson, who leaves a toddler daughter Ava whom she had adopted, was the great-great granddaughter of the founder of the pharmaceutical giant, and the daughter of New York Jets owner Robert Wood Johnson. An openly gay socialite, Johnson had a knack for attracting papar

Father Time Will Have His Way
You'll never really know what pain really is you'll never really know until the confusion sets in as silently time has its way and you realize this is it no more help, no more advice you are lost among the masses you are just one of the many that walks down these streets you are no longer unique and gifted you are just one of the faceless one of the masses all that you thought true becomes fake all that was once precious becomes useless the the time comes when your pushed out by time when you no longer have oppertunitys when your free and yet bound

Real Fear
it will never be finished the fear that incases the soul the feeling that cant be diminished that can be as black as coal like something creeping up behind you and your scared to turn around trying to subdue the feeling but you cannot make a sound you close your eyes and count to ten and you slowly turn around and what you fear most is standing there and your frozen to the ground. its not a fairy tale creature that you find in a child's book but just a single person that your innocence, he has took

Poetry
1,2,3,4 slaming fingers in the door watching you cry out in pain seeing the color from your face drain 5,6,7,8 watching the pain I can slowly create cutting you deep and watching you bleed on the floor your tears and blood conjugate 9,10 your only hoping that all pretend but the truth must be told your eyes forever open your skin forever cold

My Bad
so i recently found out that being mean is against the rules on this site. however, its also against the rules to get upset when someone you care about is mean to you. does this make sense to you guys? cause it seems to be a bit of a crock to me. if you can claim that you are on here to "bully the bullies" then you, yourself are being a fucking bully. how about we just be ourselves, do our own thing, and have our friends' backs? how about - if you dont like something your friend is saying.. you go to them privately and say it? just a thought.. /end rant

Companionship And Sharing My Life
This was a post from my Myspace and im thinking about adding more depending on the reactions i get. wanted: companionship, and caring person Current mood: depressed Category: Life Howdy all, sum stuff has been on my mind and i wanted to get it out there and see if i was the only 1 thinking this. i have to warn you, this was actually WRITTEN in long hand before i put it here. the only thing i have redone is the spelling ( and as we know, im not that great with that either,lol as well as some other things that have come to mind since writing) For me, i have been having problems with dealing with the lonliness it sux not having someone to talk to, just hang out with,someone that at the minimum, will let you vent, and at the maximum, will help me understand what im dealing with. That im not going copmpletely crazy ( cant go where you never werent in the first place right?) Finding somone to share my life with, someone that will be ok with me wanting to share the same bed with t

Shania Twain - Always
In your arms I can still feel the way youwant me when you hold meI can still hear the words you whisperedwhen you told meI can stay right here forever in your armsAnd there ain't no way--I'm lettin' you go nowAnd there ain't no way--and there ain't no howI'll never see that day....'Cause I'm keeping youforever and for alwaysWe will be together all of our daysWanna wake up everymorning to your sweet face--alwaysMmmm, babyIn your heart--I can still heara beat for every time you kiss meAnd when we're apart,I know how much you miss meI can feel your love for me in your heartAnd there ain't no way--I'm lettin' you go nowAnd there ain't now way--and there ain't no howI'll never see that day....'Cause I'm keeping youforever and for alwaysWe will be together all of our daysWanna wake up everymorning to your sweet face--always(I wanna wake up every morning)In your eyes--(I can still seethe look of the one) I can still seethe look of the one who really loves me(I can still feel the way that you

Now Its Time For The Truth Im Tired Of The Lies
http://www.fubar.com/blog/327500/1093981......My soon to be ex, husbands page... his blogs are full of half truths ..... i have the plice reports if anyone would like to see them... he would hit me, put his hands around my throat so that i couldnt breathe, and force me to have sex, when i did not feel well or was in pain... and since june i have been tryin to get a divorce from him, but he is being a child and wont sign the papers, i have known my current man for how long i have known him, but i am only now pregnant... i admit that, but then again i would be married to my soon to be husband if he would have picked up his papers in louisianna, and as for child support, we dont need his filthy drug and whoring money,... this is the truth.

What! No G-spot?
You babes really had me fooled. I believed all this stuff you told me about your G-spot. You did it as a joke, right? All kidding aside, scientists (can you trust scientists these days?) tell us the G-spot is a myth. After all these years of feeling inadequate for not helping a babe have an orgasm. The years of trauma I’ve experienced. Well, now I can stop going to my shrink. I’m so relieved. But wait, what’s the new mark I have to hit? For more on the no to the G-spot http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,581879,00.html?test=latestnews Here’s an easy spot to hit that will get you all excited when you feel the music BlastFM! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

Random Thoughts
One of my resolutions this year is to learn to be a bit more open again. I kinda went from throwing it all out there, to being completely closed. Fubar might not be the best place to do that, but I've found it's just easier to talk to strangers most of the time than people you know in real life or you're close with. They usually can't judge you on things that others you're close with can because they know you. Sometimes it's good to get an "outside" perspective of things. Another one of my resolutions is to be a bit wilder/crazier this year, or at least try some new things that are exciting, outgoing, crazy, whatever. I miss that side of me. I've really toned down in recent years and there are moments I wish I was that girl again. I just need to find a balance. I was out with my brother today and we passed over some main railroad tracks in town, and there's two of them, both on it's own little mini hill. I remember in high school FLYING over that shit in my car, usually bottoming out

Live Your Own Life
"We don't always know what makes us happy. We know, instead, what we think SHOULD. We are baffled and confused when our attempts at happiness fail...We are mute when it comes to naming accurately our own preferences, delights, gifts, talents. The voice of our original self is often muffled, overwhelmed, even strangled, by the voices of other people's expectations. The tongue of the original self is the language of the heart." -- Julie Cameron We are each unique beings with a unique path in life. If we wish to be fulfilled, we need to go to our own hearts for direction. We might regularly ask ourselves: - "What do I really want to do?" - "What brings me greatest happiness?" - "How can I bring more of these into my life?" Life wants us to go for what brings us most joy and meaning. "It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. ...I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing." -- Oriah Mountain Dreamer "Let me listen to me an

My Dream
I DREAM OF SITTING BY A CALMING RIVER,WRAPPED IN HIS ARMS WATCHING A BEAUTIFUL SUNSET OFF IN THE DISTANCE. NO NEED FOR WORDS AS OUR 2 HEARTS BEAT TOGETHER AS IF THERE WAS ONLY ONE BETWEEN US. I LOOK DEEP INTO YOUR EYES AND SEE A LOVE THAT STIRS A FLAME DEEP DOWN INSIDE ME THAT I HAD LONG AGO FORGOTTEN. I WANT TO STAY IN YOUR ARMS FOREVER CLOSING OUT THE CRUEL WORLD THAT TOOK YOU AWAY FROM ME SO LONG AGO.

Cookies And Cream.
Stroked out. Like a new fangled estranged ephigy.Just a straw doll hovering through the day.Offering bits of advice. Token slots to get me through.I pass, I smile, I wink, I wave.I catch myself in long hidden erections behind flits and phantasmal fantasies.Strummed bass, cool summer air through the rain pelted window.Satin sheets, silk curtainsgasps traced over your lips.A sudden move.A sudden "don't forget this" finality.Fingers clenchtendons poiseand I rocket home, screaming curses and obscenities on every passing blur to gofaster.Each red light or bloated militant-man in navy count the depots. Roll the streets. all building to an apogee of anger.Hit the door.Strip the cloth.Let the dog out.Don't even land all the way on the bedstroking my firm, warm, agonized anticipationmy spine trying to escape with the ecstasy my mind a simple syrup of sex and sin.Rolling bones, pumping sinewdiscernible dementia as my knuckles turn as white as the seed on my stomach.All investments spent.All depr

Serendipity, Supplied By Indy/phoenix
The word derives from Serendip, the Persian name for Sri Lanka, and was coined by Horace Walpole on January 28, 1754 in a letter he wrote to his friend Horace Mann , an Englishman then living in Florence. The letter read, "It was once when I read a silly fairy tale, called The Three Princes of Serendip: as their highnesses traveled, they were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things which they were not in quest of: for instance, one of them discovered that a camel blind of the right eye had traveled the same road lately, because the grass was eaten only on the left side, where it was worse than on the right—now do you understand serendipity? One of the most remarkable instances of this accidental sagacity (for you must observe that no discovery of a thing you are looking for, comes under this description) was of my Lord Shaftsbury, who happening to dine at Lord Chancellor Clarendon's, found out the marriage of the Duke of York and Mrs. Hyde, by the respect

2009 In Review
2009 in Review 2009 held a lot of ups and downs. There were some changes that transpired and some revelations. My Son joined the Army National Guard Reserves at the end of 2008 and headed out for Basic training in Feb 13, 09 and was gone until the 3rd of July. Even though at this point he was already a Man, it was the first time we had ever been apart for such a long time. I was scared for what he was about to do and yet excited for his new experience. Yes, I cried! While he was gone, it was strange being home alone for so long. But I guess it didn't matter too much since most of what I did wasn't any different than if he was at home, I worked all the time and came home and slept. Sad huh? There were no booty calls, well not really. In March I was hit with a bad infection and had to go on some major antibiotics. I had never had to take so many pills before. The first set was 3600mg of which I had an allergic reaction too so I had to be switched to something else. I am as a ru

Love
The worst is holding on to someone who doesnt want to be held onto. Dont fall for someone enless they're willing to catch you. The thing about falling in love is that if you do it right, you will never hit the ground. life is too short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly, love deeply,forgive quickly, take chances and never have regrets and remember that u wanted it at one point in time. Forget the past but remember what it taught you. Sometimes, you just have to smile pretend everythings okay, hold back the tears and walk away .if u want to see the rainbow u must go through the rain. if u want TRUE LOVE you must go thro the pain women were made from a mans rib not from his head to be superior, not from his feet to be walked on but from his side to be equal from under the arm to be protected and from next to the heart to be loved

01/04/2010
Genesis 9http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+9&language=english&version=31 Genesis 10http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+10&language=english&version=31 Genesis 11http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+11&language=english&version=31 http://BiblePlan.org/3/niv/ Bible Reading Plan -- Complete NIV Bible in a YearRead the NIV Bible in a year, reading three chapters daily and five on Sundays.

I Am A Great Person
i like this girl and i hope see knows that i do, i would treat her great and love her and protect her. i just hope she sees that, i have been thru a lot in the past. all i want is a chance, thats all anybody can really ask for in life. i deserve a shot. i want to know her as a person and not just as a girl to have sex with.

Nivea Lyrics "nivea You Don't Even Know Lyrics"
You dont hear me, even tho you say you really feel me babay in my mind I cant stop thinking that you don't know you got my head up in the sky Everyday that goes by wen I'm with chu every minute I spend with chu oh how bad it hurts just to think it wouldnt werk I confess im into you, do what chu want me to boi u dont know just how bad im wantin you You dont even know how im feelin you (you dont even know) that I want cha, wanna be withcha babay you dont even know how im feelin you (you dont even know) that I need chu, gotta have u Now I'm secretly feelin you, I want chu to know baby that I wanna be yo lady yea not talkn just anythang, wanna be your everythang cum on now play with me boii, wanna bring you so much joy Everyday that goes by wen im with chu every minute i spend with chu oh how bad it hurts just to think it wouldnt werk I confess im into you, do what chu want me to boi u dont know just how bad im wantin you You dont even know how im feelin you (you dont even know) that

Whoa Dude
Solitary confinement, A daily remindment Living seeing feeling knowing breatheing Growing loving Showing and beleiveing, That the earth and its wonder's and beauty's Are dieing molding rotting decaying Into a vast estate of unknowing The issues we face, the trials we take The values we know, the problems we make Spiral outward and endless by time Till there is no need to finish this rhyme The heart and soul of so many, yet felt by few The thoughts that are held back, except for the few When life it seems, is at its end Thats when everything starts to begin We dont live to live and be free, for when death is near thats when we see There is nothing more than feeling trapped, so stop worrying about it all and live free

Idiocy Of The Government...
Oddities of the govt... they spend billions yearly to keep and enforce the illegalness of the med that works the best.... and only set aside 4.5 mill for research for a cure lol Is this to try to force patients into buying man made chemicals with horrible side effects from drug companies instead of naturally grown 1s that actually work better? Basically looks like the drug companies are sucking the right dicks to get paid :| 4 1/2 million for research finding a cure verses BILLIONS keeping weed from those that need it... I consider this bullshit, and it pisses me off.

Xo
First I would like thank all of you for helping me to get in my level old and new friends,..I have to love this site since been start lost cherry i have use this to kill my boredom here in austria.I meet awsome people.trying to be close to all womens and mens I have help lots fu-friends for non expecting to pay me back.I earn friends that i can realy keep in my heart and haters that i can keep in my trast blocklist.You know all i am good fu-fighter lol thats me even in real life.I am strong women that i can tell I am not easy to give up at all challenge God is always there who help and guid me all the time..Many hate me in here but i feel many love me too and thanks God i got those people real.rank is not importance to me but i am happy you guys who put me in rank as always. Now i want to tell you all i got a long vacation in philippines to meet my real life friends and family so i am not online all the time probably if i got chance you wll find me.but I gonna close my sb and if i am

Venting
This may not make sense to many of you, but I just have to vent somewhere to get this off my chest before I explode!! January 01, 2010Quote of the Day"Man can only become what he is able to consciously imagine."- Dane Rudhyar Yanno, I kind of agree with this. Looking back on where I have been and where I am now, and where my mind sits consciously there is such a big change. For instance, I thought everything would be starting to get better for me when I started seeing Kerri for counseling. Got to see her twice before she had to close the case because once again they don't take the medical. What the hell am I suppose to do? I need serious help on counseling and cant seem to get anywhere, so my mind keeps telling me that I will never be able to amount to much, and sadly that is how I feel. There are many initiatives that I have to take since it's the beginning of the new year. I am going to call a lawyer that specializes in disability and find out what steps I have to take. I have a