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To Find And To Close
I try to find the truth finding only mazes inter-wound I try to look in front of me finding my eyes remain wide shut I yell out for an answer finding only echoes return I reach out to grab hold finding only shambled edges I reach inside for courage finding nothing remains unscathed I try to mend the open wounds finding they run far to deep I can block out nothing so many chapters left unfinished I swallow the remaining fear finding one last light of hope I finally open everything finding nothing was how it seemed I push down these walls finding the lost truth they hold I see the lies, the hurt, the deception finding the solution was waiting within I step forward into this realm I have found finding the closure I had forever sought By Me

Skate Shop Boredom
As I sit here bored as hell, I wish I could scream, or even yell. Not one person, yet today, Please Lord, send someone my way! I cleaned the shop, and all the glass, Now I'm sitting here, on my ass. I played the arcade game, 100 times, Centipede , oh how grateful, it rhymes. I smoked, and smoked and even got some sun, Down right boredom, is no fun! Where's the skater boys???? At the park?They'll probably skate at least till dark. Two more hours, left to kill, I need some excitement, I need a thrill!!!

Come To Me
Come to me Fly with me Find your peace with me in your life We will float on the clouds Jesus will show us around My peace will be your smile We will travel miles At the end of your journey Know you never had to worry Your friend, lover, husband took you to heaven You found it very pleasant We ill never look back Stay in the present Enjoy what was given I will walk to heavens gate I will stand there and wait Believe in my love It is all for you my love We will play in the grass We will climb the tallest peaks We will stare into each others eyes for weeks You are my future The one who made everything I am today God just showed me the way

Close Your Eyes
Close your eyes tonight is your dream I turn down the lights as you begin to smile It sure has been a while We sit real close As your heart flutters you know you dont want it to end I place my hand on your chin Turn you towards me and I grin As we kiss so slowly it seems You fall into a dream You see me white knight and all You can see it is probably fall I am on a horse ready to ride Knowing my damsel is in distress on the other side I have your soul with me You know it is your time with me I cling and ride hard to you You feel me coming to rescue you I stand outside this building Knowing your there my love is burning The building is falling all apart The flames are so high I know your inside You get weak at the knees and fall down You scream my name in shouts I can hear I tell you darling I am near I walk through the fire as a shadow you see You look directly up at me I pick you up and carry you out I am your knight for years no doubt I lay you down in

Thank You
i just wanted to say thank you to everybody on lc for all the love i have recieved on here . i have never been on a site thats is as friendly as this . before lc i was a myspace junkie now its rare if i ever go to my myspace lol .i also wanted to say thank you to the family for lettin me be part of it . i understand why its called the family because its just that a family . thank you all and i love you all tazman

Profound Thoughts
>>If you're not familiar with the work of Steven Wright, he's the famous >>erudite scientist who once said: "I woke up one morning and all of my stuff >>had been stolen... and replaced by exact duplicates." His mind tends to see >>things a bit differently than the rest of us mortals. Here are some of his >>gems: >> >>1- I'd kill for a Nobel Peace Prize. >> >>2- Borrow money from pessimists - they don't expect it back. >> >>3- Half the people you know are below average. >> >>4- 99% of lawyers give the rest a bad name. >> >>5- 42.7% of all statistics are made up on the spot. >> >>6- A conscience is what hurts when all your other parts feel so good. >> >>7- A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory. >> >>8- If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. >> >>9- All those who believe in psycho kinesis, raise my hand. >> >>10 The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese. (Think about this one a little, it

Violet Blasphemy
your violet blasphemy, wrapped in tarnished silk. opaque love. I'll breathe in, the acid smoke. unspeakable malicious words, that you have screamed in my ears. ragid lines of my blood, your lips used to make them smooth. the black lines come, while midnight laughs at me. ashes that I've known. ashes that become me. brought it down, fall beneath me. everything mixed, make me someone else, that has never heard your name. never known the texture of your skin, the soft curves of your lips. where did the revolution you promised me go? rigid comprehension, of anything your friends have to say. but I want you to take back everything you gave. it has no use, when no voice nor face, comes to explain this mess, you have made. I'm still contaminated. a remembrance of your body sticks to my mind, and floats to the surface when I realize no one is around me to distract my thoughts. the violet blasphemy continues, and only the storms will sleep with me at night. K

Broken Heart
You thought that it was an art When you broke my heart You looked at me with innocent eyes I was able to read through all your lies Love was nothing more than a game Thing is you wont get another chance at that again When you broke my heart You tore me apart I thought love was forever How could I be a fool You figured I was some sort of chance at romance Then you found a new one Oh what a site YOU know how to break it just right I will pick myself up again Your chance at true love is gone A new person has come along They look in my eyes They look at my heart It is all tore apart They have decided to push through it I was the man you once dreamed Tonight is the night I make new dreams I will give her a candlelit night You remember those right? I will give her a slow dance You will never have a chance I will forget about you Tonight my new angel is true She sees the man i use to be Til you tore me down to nothing Respect is what she demands I get it in r

Speechless
Speechless (Speechless) Fortune may favor the bold ... However my knees go weak And my voice escapes me Every time I look into your eyes. How powerless I feel in your presence An observer of beauty A denizen of desire But my mind has gone on hiatus Leaving my lips helpless And my tongue useless To mouth any words of sensibility Or any limerick of exaggerated complimentary It’s as if my courage is frozen In your presence And my heart takes over And leaves me thoughtless Without any words to say How you make me feel right now

Proposal I Wrote In 1999. The Word Formatting Did Not Carry Over, Nor Did The Graphs At The End
Proposal to Increase the State of Connecticut’s Speed Limits Submitted to the Honorable John Roland Governor of Connecticut December 2, 1999 By Paul Gibson, Representative State Attorney Generals Office December 2, 1999 The Honorable John Roland Governor of Connecticut 210 Capitol Ave. Hartford, CT 06106 Dear Governor Roland: This is a proposal to increase the speed limits in Connecticut. These speed limits would include both highway and rural limits. Many studies have been conducted by the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration (NHTSA) and Insurance Institute for Highway Safety concerning this matter. The report will conclude that raising the speed limit will produce either negligible or no changes in current accident, average speed and death statistics. Respectfully, Paul Representative for the State Attorney General’s Office Table of Contents Introduction…………………………………….………4 Statement of Problem…………………………………

Innocence Lost (very Personal)
This is a very personal poem I wrote a long time ago. If you cannot figure out what it means, then please don't ask me. Innocence was lost Gone with the wind Taken from me With no way to go back That innocence was part of me It made me whole I was pure, I was complete Now I am empty Feeling life, nor I, have value I feel worthless Faceless, Nameless What meant most the most You took away Making me just a statistic I wanted to hold on to it Keep it safe until I was ready But things had to be your way You wanted what I did not want to give to you You changed my life My entire being Scarring me forever What was taken cannot be returned I wish I could go back And get what is not yours I wish I could get My innocence I unwillingly lost To you By Me

Big Blue Eyes
I look in your eyes Your BIG blue eyes There is no surprise The way you feel Yes it is very real You touch my hand with your left hand Oh what a soft touch There is no such thing as fantasy here Passion sparks and the reality is very real My heart pounds You totally surround me Your smile so sweet I would run miles for a repeat Give me one chance Just one dance Just a lifetime romance I have wondered where you have been It seems time stood still I thought I did not have the will But you came along I once again became strong My faith and my pride Are ready to ride Because I wont hide Remember one thing My heart is now yours and when you awaken This will still be real You made me feel Tonight is the night when I look in your eyes Let there not be one surprise I will nestle your nose with a smile Then close my eyes Knowing that forever is a long time I would walk through hell and back to make you mine I would walk through the burning sands Knowing th

Sickkkkly Pixiee
OMG I have been sooo freakin sick lately! It has been awefull. I got tonsillitis, swollen lymph nodes, and sinus infection like 3 weeks ago Then got better then got Tottaly sick again like a week later. I was in pain all over my body..Body aches, cold chills, night sweats, stomach cramps OMG talk about pain. then i got better and that came back 3 days later. Well I am takin percacet for pain but i will have tests to find out what is freakin wrong with me. My legs feel like they are gonna give out on me any minute. ohh the pain! I have never been the "sickly" type of person either. I mean usually i can be around sick people and im the last person to get it ..if i even do. Well I will keep ya all updated. Keep me in your prayers! muahh Hugs and kisses ~Your Pixie~

Funny !
"I'm not for women, frankly, in any job. I don't want any of them around. Thank God we don't have any in the Cabinet." Richard Nixon, while president of the US "Look, people get drunk ... People chase girls. And the point is, it's a hell of a lot better for them to get drunk than to take drugs. It's better to chase girls than boys." * Nixon on a graphic account of Amb. Arthur Watson's groping stewardesses while drunk on a March 1972 flight to Washington I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." - Thomas Alva Edison (1847-1931) "I've never let school get in the way of my education" - Mark Twain "Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted" - Albert Einstein "The only job where you start at the top, is digging a hole." Hemorrhoids are like 'Awards', sooner or later every arse-hole gets one.

Better Man
I walk down the street I know you were the one I was suppose to meet I can feel the breeze of your pace by me You look right at me Our eyes meet This was very sweet You said your name is James I said and you are my princess I have seen you in my dreams You are amazing so it seems I grab your hand A tear falls from your eye I said dont cry I am here and I am your guy I love your smile I know it has been a while But now I am here I will save you so you have no fear I look in your eyes Fireworks light up I know it was time for me to shutup YOu lean up to kiss me I know you complete me I am your guy YOu have made me a better man I will always stand by your side No need to hide You are my life

Wow
Ok well lets see where to begin lol. i dont know actually. I have a beautiful 19 month old daughter who is my pride and joy. I'm currently in school tryin to get the last of my high school then after wards gonna try for college.

At The End
From what I have been told Hawaii is the number one romantic place to go I would have to disagree I have found your heart a great mystery When I look deep that is where I want to go Lets take a trip A cruise into our hearts I will show you where to start The desire you will feel will be more than any one person can bear I will show you the life of a princess Your life will be priceless I will ask you to dance with me on the sea We will dance slowly like like the sunset at night When you sit with me on a swing I will show you true romance and you will not have to go to France When you hold my hand you will not want to go to Iceland As we get old you will know your true romantic place to go Will be to pray with me and I will show you the life only dreams show people At the end of my life you will be with me and at the end you will see a sunset and remember me

Dove
Dove............ In the darkness which I dwell . I met a Guy I love so well . He stole my heart away from me and now he's going to set it free. He sat upon a strange girls knees and told her things he never told me. I ran home to cry on my bed not a word to my daughters I said. My son came home late that night he looked for me left and right. Down the stairs the doors he broke to find me hanging by a rope. He took his knife and cut me down on the floor this note he found: Dig a grave, dig it deep place a statue on my feet, on the statue place a dove, to show the world I died of love....

Amazing
Her hair flowed like a magic carpet Her eyes gave you a surprise Deep in her soul she knows what you want Dont try to hard and you will see the magic inside So you put a finger over her mouth and say listen Do you here the whisper Your soul is talking to me You young lady are now set free The beauty you possess Is hard for some to resist You walk with a gold flow behind you You know it is true You are amazing You show grace that most would waste You show respect beacause you demand it You know when you walk in with me The world will see You have been set free Love has bound you Now it surrounds you It is truly amazing Your heart is pounding I can see the many men gazing I smile because I have the most beautiful woman in the world I caress your arm You know no harm Your man tonight will show you flight You are truly amazing

Screaming
It takes only a scream So filled with fear, horror and pain To undress these memories locked and Hidden and lost throughout mazes inside Her scream pierces the silent night Echoing into my head, loudly and repeating I cannot shake it, trying ever so hard It’s deafening, it’s hauntingly familiar Memories arise that were castrated and dead Bringing all emotions entangled I close my eyes, hoping they shall fade Yet they only bring more to follow Each one sharper and more distinct Shielded by anything that is attached The pain feels like it’s yesterday These memories just freshly lived It’s seemingly odd though How the scream seems to only grow louder But it then only takes a moment To realize I am the one who is screaming By Me

Sleepless In Pennsylvania
Another restless night awaits me My mind ponders random thoughts Leaving me unsettled in this empty, lonely bed. My thoughts race numerous directions, Only to leave me tiresome, craving peaceful , dreamy slumber. I close my eyes, hoping to fall into a deep , meditation state Only to be awoken abruptly by Shadows towering over me. I try to resist the temptations of sleeplessness, but they overpower my mind, leaving me exhausted.

Bored
ight rizzla u said to try ya so here ya go lol... i am like so totally and completely bored out of my frickin head right now... thinking about some stupid shit that men can do... y do they gotta play head games.. one minute they sayin they love u the next they are tellin u they go back to their ex not even a min later they are like well i made a mistake please take me back.. that or they tell u a bunch of BS that makes no sense and expect u to feed into it like u are a lost puppy or something.... honestly is there a man out there who doesnt play some type of head game or is completely and totally honest about everything they do or say?

December 2005
It was late in the evening when I finally drifted off to sleep this evening. I had been up late working remotely and lost track of the time. I chose to put my laptop away and curl into the bed for some much needed sleep, around 1:30 am. The evening was fairly still the window was open allowing a gentle breeze to drift in as sounds from the outside world muttered away in the background. The faint sound of the cars off the motorway a good distance away, moving around in search of a snack; all began to lull me to sleep. Before too long, I was sound asleep and beginning to dream of the time I spent with her when we were in Italy. My subconscious mind was feeding off of my emotions, and playing on the fact that I missed having her around so much. It was like losing the other half of my soul and trying to find a balance with her gone. As the dream state took over me completely, having fallen deep to sleep within moments of lying down, I could not longer here those sounds that had lulled

After This
You enter the hospital A day of defeat You know I am bowed before Jesus feet You know this day will takes its toll Not on You or I But the pain that you hold This day will end unlike any others You will fight for life I will pray for my future wife I am bowed and after this The victory will be mine and yours And our life will begin You needed this done The cancer you say would have won This day is a testament to the love we hold I will stand at the clocks toll I will look to the sky see one bright star It will be the one we have wished on before It will be a Jesus wink Telling us to start that life James she is destined to be your wife Take her and care for her I trust in you Your children will have her smile And they will love you The cancer you have been dealt before Is not like the one your future wife bore You stood strong this time and did not run You have won the ultimate prize and that is her love You stay true and she will too This is a marriag

Heart Shaped Coffin
I'll be your deceased love your broken down romance your aborted eternity you've already dug my grave and they're shoving me into my heart-shaped coffin that your name is carved into short lived and out of date my death came a long time ago there are no roses they've all withered in your wake so I sleep under the naked branches the ones that whisper about life you always seem to forget that the earth breathes after it has been suffocated by winter I've got no eulogy only the thoughts the few ones you still have about me let me taste the dirt and see no more daylight give me one last acted kiss then shove me into my hole where everyone will forget my name you'll bury our memories with me so I'll have nothing to think about but you until that last breath comes to your lips in the heavy taste of wine. KinkyScreams 2005©

Holding On
Holding On Current mood: crushed Holding On........ No matter of who, what, where or why I always know that you'll be by my side. Now that time with you is short And not always having your complete support. But when you do look into my eyes, I know that I'm trying to keep a disguise From what you can't, and will not see, The hurt, the loneliness, the misery But now I just have to try not to cry, And stay strong and let this go by. I'll get used to not usually seeing you, And spending every night together too. Things will be fine, in just a short time, Because I know that you'll always be mine.

I Hate These .. But What The Hell
1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would u kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why? 7. Describe me in 1 word! 8. What was ur first impression of me? 9. Do u still think the same? 10. What reminds u of me? 11. If you could give me anything wot would it be? 12. How well do u know me? 13. When's the last time u saw me if u ever saw me? 14. Ever wanted 2 tell me sumthing u couldn't? 15. To put it bluntly, wud u fuck me ? 16. Are you going to put this on ur blog and see what i say about you? 17. Would you ever meet up with me?

September 13, 2006
Well, I thought maybe I would tried to let people know the real me. I am a mother of four children. Amber is seven,Abby is five, Allie is two and Nathan is 10 months. It is just us against the world right now because their dad moved out. I don't know if he will come back. We pray every night that he will have a change of heart and come home. Untill then we try to be there for each other. I love to meet new people. I enjoy family actives but also miss adult activies lol.

Love Is Blind!
The Craziness decided to invite its friends to take a coffee at her place. All the guests went there. After coffee the Craziness proposed: - Wanna play at hides hides? - Hides Hides? What is that? the Curiosity asked. - Hides Hides is a game. I count until hundred and you hide yourself. When I finished to count I look for you, and the first one that I find will be the next one to count. All accepeted, except the Fear and the Laziness. -1, 2, 3,... the Craziness begun to count. Attentiveness hided itself first, does not import where. The Timidity, shy as always, hided itself in a tree bunch. The Joy ran in the middle of the garden. Sadness began to cry, because she did not find any fitting place to hide itself. The craving accompagned the Triumph and hided itself close to him behind a boulder. The Madness continued to count while its friends hid themselves. Despair was despaired seeing that the Madness already was to 99. - HUNDRED! said the Madness, I will begin looking for... The first

To All My Friends
How little in me is not touched by you! A friendship is a light that fills the heart, Painting with its gold each darkened hue, Providing warmth to each sequestered part. You are the mirror of my better self, Verifier of the best in me, A bridge across the unsuspected gulf Lodged between what can and ought to be. Expectations can be wings, not bars, Necessary to sustain our flight. The faith of friends in us is wholly ours, Incoming to uplift us to its height. No soul can see itself, but must depend, Each on each, upon a trusted friend.

For Erin
For Erin Life is funny sometimes in the hands it deals to everyone You can turn your life around only to have it taken away You can pick a road to travel only to end up none the wiser That is what she did this girl who was so lost Lost inside herself feeling even more lost to the world You could not hold her hand for she would eventually let go You could not guide her with light for she would eventually extinguish it You could not hold her up for she would eventually fall again You could not make her listen for she would eventually do it again You could not show her the good road for she would eventually wander astray You could not make her see it through your eyes for inside, she was blind to everything But only show her the love she thought she would never earn The trust she thought she did not have the shoulder she wanted so badly The arms she wanted to comfort her the eyes telling her it would all be okay As much as she was promised all

Picture Of Us
Every day, my mind paints a picture of you... then of us, and suddenly we're the stars in a romantic movie made for two, our bodies entwined... And I can't stop these fantasies, I don't even wish to. For when my mind finds you, I fill in the missing pieces that the distance between us creates and nourish my heart with the images it craves. And I can't stop it. Fool I'd be to want to. For my whole body feels your touch, which is as light as the whisper of butterfly wings, yet strong enough to inflame every nerve, and fill my being with your being until I'm satisfied that we're one in body and spirit. And I can't stop it. Why would I want to?

Angel Of Death
Angel of death, come to me here. For sweet death I can feel is near. Destroy my spirit, burn my soul. Advenge my death, turn my body to coal. And as the children laugh, and as the children play. Let them know no fear. For the icy fingers of death, I can feel are near. KinkyScreams 2006©

Freeze In Hell
This is the color of forever The same as the ocean the same as the seed Which he violently throws into her deadwomb All is void as the black between her thighs Cutting pieces away from you Is this aggression or some sick new fetish Two are left with the scars of her flesh Can you not see the suffering Hidden behind the apathetic veil Shrouding her dirty face Everyone who comes here Comes here to die Everyone that falls in love with him Is falling in love with a lie Drowning down the worries with another glass of wine yes, of course, Im married, but her body is divine. Put your mouth up to her ear as if it were a shell The so called sweet nothings you whisper will send you straight to hell Teach you how to love your life With rules that dont apply to me A gutter drunk in a beautiful house Souls starvation has left a blackened husk With which to roam this earth In retrospect, One more belt notch Will never separate you from the m

Your Eyes
Your Eyes......... How did I see it through your eyes. And all the lies you told me. Why can't I just be myself and no one else. Love blinded me and it was all because your eyes. They shined so bright as you fell out of sight. How could I be so blind to see your love that was so hard to find. The feel of your caress it always felt the best. The glances that you gave will forever and always show me the way. As I looked into your eyes I always knew it was...... GOODBYE. By: Mistik

Devoid Of Love
The night falls as if slain by the sun, soulless are we. the salvation for which you lust flares once, then dies, crushed by a velvet ebon nothingness. all hope must not endure. your passion throbs no more. how could you tear us asunder? shadows surround us, crying, sanctuary. KinkyScreams© 2006

Once Ever More
I gave you my all -- heart And soul, putting forth Everything in me and Then some - opening the Door once again I had Promised to keep closed. I let you in, and all was Like a dream -- but faded At some point, like a vision Hovering in the clouds, but then Shattered forever, now closing That chapter again, once ever more. By Me

Modern Deathstyles
Darling are you dead yet? Flames that surge all through you Sideswipe you off the fucking earth Your future's so bright you're blind And I blindsided you Shithead bow down before me Faithless I urge you follow Deceitful deities Face into the flood Drown within yourself eternal Fire of the old gods Burnt from the inside Pointless you martyr yourself Breaking your face against the world Televised for all to cherish View the world as we once knew it To further sink into the yesterdays Forgotten as I Charred by the sun As flesh tones grow black You live amongst the dying Devastated by your deities Weakness you gave to yourselves Armageddon you may call it Weakminded as you are Ignorance is your new deathstyle

Deadtrashgod
The clouds of the night sky Open up like neon thighs Eating the shit off your shoes I am your whore And I'll be begging again for you I am nothing without your attention Validate me with shallow attempts at charm I know you want so little from me But I shall romanticize it This is what I've been reduced to Take more as I become ghost yet again Deja vu? No, I've never left this place Eternally complacent despite what once appeared progress Fooling us all, feeling not at all Lust. Your affection means so much more to me Than ever before Clean off your dirtface change direction Smeared blood and dying sex Mud spewing from your mouth Rejecting what the body desired once Refuse to accept Return to old ways and lose yourself I see the same smile I once saw Fake yet so convincing to those that never knew you DEAD inside you I see that look in your eyes Good to have you back I consume myself from inside Fuck me. Use me. Eat me til

If My Eyes Knew How To Cry
If My Eyes Knew How To Cry.......... If my eyes knew how to cry It would be easier to say goodbye. If my eyes knew how to cry It would be easier to sigh. If my eyes knew how to cry I probably wouldn't have believed all your lies. If my eyes knew how to cry I would have never tried. If my eyes knew how to cry Maybe our love wouldn't have died. By: Mistik

Denial
Slender beams of moonlight enter this darkened prison as I kneel, always somber, always forlorn, frozen here, waiting. Tortured forms wrought in panes of glass loom as dust dances in the air, forming an image in my mind, infiltrating my naked soul. A reflection on a mirror's face. I raise my head, now embracing this oblivious mortality. KinkyScreams ©2006

Lover's Dance
I want to dance with you tonight. I want to kiss you so much that I can hear your heart race. I want to hear you moan and sigh with estasy as I run my fingertips along your shoulders and down neck. I know that my touch will seem like magic upon your skin and that you'll become so hot, so excited that you'll want me to rub myself on you. My love,I shall be more than sensual to you. I'll touch every inch of your skin and kiss you so deeply inside your soul that you'll take me with deep passion. Tonight, my love, we'll dance the lover's dance.

Forma Humana
Dissection, removed of your being Tearing away at what you identify as yourself I'd bring you back if it meant I could destroy you again You'd better run like hell You'd best keep distancing yourself I'll cut you fucker Deadgirl screams I can't heed her warning siren Turn my back upon my own thoughts, needs There's simply nothing left for me Obsession Nothing more within this hole Emptiness leaves no mystery No need for examination No questions left unanswered This is all you have This is what you know Even your deities won't save you now They stopped existing when you started believing Exemption from redemption No remorse as I look my love in the eyes Destroy myself without a thought Falling to the ground From such a height so as to never return

Why Does It Have To Hurt So Much
Everyone in life just wants to be loved. It is at the core of our very being. We all want to be desired and needed, to give love and to receive love. Why then, does love have to hurt so much? How can 3 words be so painful? How can the absence of those same 3 words be just as devastating to life, to the very core of one's being? Why do people throw the sentence, "I love you" around like it has no meaning, no value. I know for me I have never said it to someone and not really meant it. I know that it has been said to me when the person saying it didn't really feel that way...so why say it at all. I would much rather be told the truth than lied to. Those wounds heal faster. I also know what it feels like to love someone that you KNOW doesn't feel the same way in return. I know what it is like to wake up every morning wishing that you had the courage to speak up and say something. I know what it is like to want nothing more than for that one person to be happy in life, even if it isn

Your Life In Years
I know you have been broken hearted Take my hand and follow me I want to show you what you will see You grab hand and hold on tight This is gonna be a wild ride See in years to come the lady standing there about to marry Her heart is full of joy and will never worry As we continue walking her eyes open up to an open prairie You see those children yes there yours You knew the time would come and you would hold yours We keep walking she sees a big beautiful home Yes you were never one to far to roam You loved your home and enjoyed ever day As we continue walking we see a man and woman on a beach Playing and laughing hoping it continues on forever I see a tear in her eye Yes that is you when your husbands dad passed away you were with him everyday You see birthday parties of the entire family Yes you loved to spoil your kids and they loved their mommy As we move on we see the children grown up They were visiting mom and dad on christmas day You see what I mean your

Nuthin Much- Jus Sum Kt For Ya!!
Blogs, oh i love blogs..... LOL so, here u are vistin lil ol me!! how happy i am of this!! i hope u took the time to rate my page and show sum love ((since u are here neways!!)) *muah* Lost Cherry has become my new addiction- i'm lovin meeting all my new friends && fans!! you'll hear from me again soon- but until then my dear hearts, take care!!

Young Girl
I have put you in my past I will run fast if you ever come again I spent endless nights hiding from myself I know your kind of passion I am only a young girl You know when the time comes your end will near I am so afraid Terrified of what might be next My life is so confusing I just went into Junior High I run from my past til this day I dont know why The images are vivd I am livid I just went into high school my mind comes clear I think I will drink another beer A buddy wants me to smoke pot Why not Everyday is fantasy Escape from reality I will choose my side when it comes I have been arrested many times I always lie You still haunt me to this day Your time will come my way Today is the day I will punish you today I will find you and you will have no way There you are in front of your house It is time you tell your spouse Tears coming from my eyes I despise you Tell your wife You are scared? Of a child? I have come for you Your time is true I fi

Death & Pride
Laying on my bed, slowly drowning in my own pool of blood. Close my eyes, killing life with my silent screams. You can see it in my eyes, find it bleeding through my fingertips. Death lies beside me, waiting and creeping.. Death climbs on top of me, and sinks into me. Becoming one with death, it's one hell of a ride. I never thought, I would end up like this. To be Death's lover and one, what does this mean? Finding peace, in taking others.. Returning the favor, and helping death spread. Now I'm just a void, in Death's darkness. KinkyScreams 2000©

Unbelievable
This love is unbreakable. Its unmistkenable. And each time I look into your eyes..... I know why. This love is untouchable I feel in my heart I just can't deny. Each time I look into your eyes Ohhhh baby....I know why. This love is unbreakable.

Writing And Poetry
Time Current mood: apathetic Category: Writing and Poetry They say time.. is of the essence, Unstopped, never ending, always interrrupted. Time, will tell all. It is time that gives us........ Fond memories; of loved ones.... Enemies...... Sleepless nights, Happy moments, and sad.......... Dwelling on sadness, Mostly............. Longing for love; Friendship, A caring heart to hear your hopes, Your inner most desires....... I wish time could set still. Paused............ To a time that you were content, satisfied, over joyous..... They say, time heals all wounds. An understatement by far. For my wounds, are unhealing, Open sores... that bleed relentlessly. Open to the lethal injection..... That was instilled by time. This evil world..... Wanting to rid that pain that haunts my soul..... Suffocating it, Slowly.... my inner spirit disipates, To a nonexistent place. So threatening and dark here..... I want to succomb this dreary feeling , Of.. fail

Would You Die For Me
You come to me as a friend You look deep into my eyes and see my heart When I am with you I fear no evil We walk together down a dark street Night has fallen so quickly Tonite is different Tonight is the night I would find out if you would die for me? We are approached by a man He wields a gun He wants more than money or gold He wants my life As I move back you move behind me Darting towards something I could not see I thought you would die for me It happens so quickly I tell the man take everything I hear the gun ring out Friend where are you The bullet comes closer A young man comes in front of me He catches the bullet Falls to the ground I feel helpless I feel scared I feel my new found friend would die for me My old friend said she was trying to stop her brother She would have died for her brother in a heartbeat I looked in his eyes Found his family would die for me

wow! So , this is my first time writtig. not sure what to say . today has been pretty mellow. my two year old son is sick so nothing got done around the house. dont you hate when that happens. well i am bored now. i am going to play on the internet. have a great day all. JA

Whispers In The Dark
I sit alone tonight I hear everything is alright I hear a whisper in the dark Tonight is your night and I must be your mark I look for you So it seems you must be looking for me I can feel your soul Like your next to me I know now I am free I hear your whisper in the dark It is so sweet Your voice is soft and gentle The dark is here I hear a phone ring Tonight I am your thing I pick it up Wow what a voice I can hear in the dark I listen closely It is like a breeze in spring To me its heaven And the angels singing Tonight is your night I am your mark Take me away with your whispers in the dark

9/11 Anniversary
I lay here thinking of memories past Remembering the terror Watching in horror. How long will this pain last? I'm proud to be a member of this land I am praying for those who are taking the stand. Honor the red, white, and blue, for others have no clue. Thousands perished memories to be cherished. Today we relive the pain. Wondering what do we gain? We gained more unity, the urge to come together To fight and defen ourselves and those that perished Left with only memories to cherish. God Bless those that took the terror! God Bless those that are fighting for us! God Bless every person that feels the pain! and God help the ones that don't.

So Tell Me!!!!
YOU KNOW THERE ARE ALOT OF PEOPLE YOU MEET ON THE NET YOU CAN SAY THERE ARE SOME REALLY GOOD ONES AND SOME ASS HOLES OUT THERE I MET A GIRL ON THE MET A YEAR AGO AND SHE WAS A DREAM COME TRUE I WAS THINKING AND WE HAD SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT AND I WAS SO IN LOVE WE A MONTH AGO SEE TOLD ME THAT EVERY THING SHE TOLD ME IN THE BEGGING WAS NOT TRUE AND THAT SHE WAS NOTHING LIKE WHAT SHE MADE HER SELF OUT TO BE YOU KNOW I LOVED HER SO MUCH THAT I HEARD HER OUT AND TO SEE THAT WHEN I MEET HER ON THE NET SHE WAS ONLY 24 SHE SAID AND NOW SHE IS 36 AND BEFORE HAD NO KIDS SHE WANTED HER 1ST KID TO BE WITH ME AND NOW SHE HAS 3 18 YEAR OLD BOY AND 2 GIRLS THAT ARE 16 AND 15 AND TOLD ME SHE WAS NEVER MARRIED AND SHE WAS FOR 18 YEAR TELLING ME THAT WHEN WE GET MARRIED THAT SHE IS ONLY GOING TO DO IT ONE TIME WELL DAMN SHE DONE DID BUT ALL IN ALL I GAVE HER THE RIGHT TO BE HEAR AND I TRY TO STAY WITH HER AND MAKE IT WORK BUT THE MORE SHE TOLD ME ITS LIKE THE GIRL I FELL IN LOVE WITH WAS NOTHING MORE TH

Ouchie!!
i am in pain right now..my fuckin back is killin me..it is from workin 2day..we had to unload a truck and my back is juss now feelin the pain..my mommy tried to pop it but that didnt work..it made it hurt even more..so..right now im sitting here with a heating pad behind me bein in pain..i took 2 tylenol..and..im waitin for my juggalo to tell me i can call him..I LOVE HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!! ok..im done for now..comment if yall want..i dont care..buh byez!!

Passion Coupon
This is a Passion Coupon for all of the hugs, kisses, and love that you desire. You can only redeem it in the bedroom, where you must strip off all of your clothes, kneel on the edge of the bed, and await my tender touch. Expect the most delicious night of passion imaginable, because that's exactly what I'm going to give you... and then some!

Poetic Man
I know I am I know what you see You see the man you use to see I am not your lover Or the one you want Just a piece of your history that once stood I am a man Poetic as I can be I know your attached So let it be I will dream many dreams I hope you can see I will be the poetic man That may spark your dreams Your man is strong Courageous as a man can be I could never live up to what he is in your dreams Look from me and see this man You may have married or just attached Sometimes he does not look at you Does not mean he doesnt want to say I Love You I am just a poetic man Nothing more If you need a dream Look at your man once more Remember when you were young and free Remember when he looked at you with fire in his eyes That fire is still there Believe it or not He still loves you This poetic man is the dream you once want

One Day
I may walk one day alone While alone I will remember her alone looking at me I will know for sure she opened up my dreams I will know she ended the lonely drought She walked in my life I could not even fight She looked at me and stopped my world from spinning I can sit at night See the light in her eyes She is real She spoke up said hell no you will not shut me out I know her spirit is real I can feel her warmth when she walks in a room I can feel her strength to great length I was torn down I was no more than a frown I crawled in a world where everyone was running She gave me the strength to forget a life that tore me apart When I sit tonight I know she will think of me As I dream of her She will place a hand next to me I will be free But if a day comes when she is not near I will never forget the lady who showed me my way

Normal
I walk the world and find that everything is normal There is no existence of crazy Or abnormal In the eyes of a child normal is wearing a diaper Plus someone to wipe her I see a person in a wheelchair they cant crawl or walk anywhere That is normal to them I see a bullrider climb on a bull His world is where the bull acts normal It bucks and turns trying to find its way I see a beautiful woman worship christ She would die to have her eternal life I see the young man they call a retard His world is not retarded it is normal I see the murderer in prison going to breakfast This is normal to him For a mother to wake up daily to wake the kids Her life gets no more normal than this people ask me what is normal Normal is everything we do Normal is not an accident An accident is normal We are all into mistakes It just a matter of which we make If you ever think you are not normal You no longer exist cause in this world Normal is the only thing that exists Our

Mind Games
I walk this land A woman extreme to life as life is to extreme I balance what is wrong or right I know my mortality will catch up with me My god please stand beside me He was a shoulder to my affection He walked like a prince I told him not to leave me I would kill the very soul he loved I told him not to leave me I would drink myself to death I told him not to go This would be the last round I could go My body is not strong MY mind is not strong He did not believe me Who is this man with the sickle in front of me Your god sent me My god I thought he was strong and powerful did not need a sickle Your god is strong He watches everything you do He loves you He watches you as you have sex over a computer and rejoices He has given you many choices you could make and you have pleased him He watches your manipulation of people He knows your free from the binds of Jesus I ask him why are you here It is time for you to come home now I looked at him What manipula

The Garden-© Kinkyscreams 2004
There was a garden on the west side of the house, hiding beneath the eaves from the more drastic weather. It wasn't an elaborate affair really; just large enough for one person to manage with a little sweat. Over the years, the plot had known many crops from daisies to carrots to strawberries with everything in between and often two to three at the same time. All the while it had been void of weeds and the soil had been kept clear though a week of neglect seemed to already be taking its toll. A patch nearest the house had always been a weed problem really. As fast they could be removed, they often found their way back within a few days, peaking through the lush soil like a child guiltily peering down the stairs Christmas morning. Though that small section had been quarantined for years, it now bled throughout, little brown strains mixed amongst the green of the current crops. Anne noted all of this from the window of her bedroom that overlooked her pride and joy since she was bar

The Flag Thang
100_0336 Hosted on Zooomr just wanted 2 say a few things about the flag pic i have on LC. that's the flag that i looked at every day @ my last job. i loved that flag. this is the new one they put up.... for probably at least 6 months i griped about the last flag because it's edges were so frayed.... and then one day there was this one. i dont have a flag @ my house but when i drive to and from work (84mi round trip) i always notice the flags that are waving. the flag is such a powerful symbol for the ppl of the USA i think or at least for me. it makes me feel good to see it. so even tho the ppl at my last job thought i was weird for talking about the flag flying outside the window and even addressing it as "my flag" i still enjoyed it everyday that i was there. and esp when the wind was blowing and it was waving proudly like it was when i took this pic. there are a lot of things i don't agree with today in my country.... i wish things were the way they were "back when" honesty and

Love Trust Hope
My middle name is Hate I am motivated by one thing The death of the man If you are overwieght I will make sure and call you fat If your black I will make sure and call you nigger If you are mexican you sure are a spic If you are white-White trash is your name If you wear glasses I will call you four eyes Like I said I am motivated by one thing Your death With hate I can tear you down With hate I can put you in a grave With hate I can burn you in the depths of hell If you are from Africa you are from a third world country What did Africa win the space race? Are they not good enough to live in our world? With hate I can bury all men Seperate countries Divide loved ones lives I can burrow in your mind til you end your own life I am motivated by your death The death of your spirit THe death of your happiness The death of your love I look at this man before me No dont close your eyes He closed his eyes he cant see the white man, the black man, the mexican, or the

Military Rules For Non-military Personnel
Military Rules for Non-Military Personnel Current mood: grateful Dear Civilians, We know that the current state of affairs in our great nation have many civilians up in arms. For those of you who can't join, you can still lend a hand. Here are a few of the areas where we would like your assistance: 1) The next time you see an adult talking (or wearing a hat) during the playing of the National Anthem---kick their ass. 2) When you witness, firsthand, someone burning the American Flag in protest---kick their ass. 3) Regardless of the rank they held while they served, pay the highest amount of respect to all veterans. If you see anyone doing otherwise, quietly pull them aside and explain how these veterans fought for the very freedom they bask in every second. Enlighten them on the many sacrifices these veterans made to make this Nation great. Then hold them down while a disabled veteran kicks their ass. 4) (GUYS) If you were never in the military, DO NOT prete

Cyber Sex
I can feel him move His body on mine We have only spoke a few times We chat at the drop of a hat He makes love to me through the internet line I know his love is deep for me and so is mine I can see him now in my dreams A man with all the peace He is big and strong I know I cannot go wrong I tell him lets meet This will be a lasting love to meet He tells me to come over My heart is in a flutter I know this man of my dreams Is more than it seems He is a master of my heart Nothing will tear us apart I come to his door I knock so carefully I know what is behind and it makes me happy He opens it up Looks just like what I saw on my cam Wow what a man He welcomes me in He tells me to have a seat in the den He offers me a drink and I know i am on the brink of true love He sits next to me He sees into my heart We start to kiss This man I will never miss He takes me to his room This is better than i imagine I knew he was good but he makes me feel like a ful

The Rose
When walking through the garden one day I meandered past the tree of life when I became enamored by the most devine dark rose that nature ever fashioned. So astounding was this Rose that I was robbed of speech and breath. I fell onto my knees and stareduntil my eyes did hurt. The poor dark rose had suffered lack of proper care, resulting in an inert outer shell. I took great care removing petals scarred from winter's callous touch. I was amazed to see inside the tantalizing pink, dew covered flower open fore my eyes. A sight so wondrous cannot pass without adverse effects for those perhaps unlucky, perhaps most opportune of all. I knelt, bereft of voice, deviod of breath, and blind; the Rose, its beauty now replenished, took great pity on this wretched soul of mine. Perhaps it was the wind, perhaps it was celestial intervention, maybe Earth itself began to shake; you may believe whatever you decide but as I felt the Rose incline in my direction I knew then as I know now no forces were

Poem
If only love knew.......... If only love knew that you made me cry and how often I wish I would die. If love only knew my feelings for you then love would of shown you how to be true. If only love knew how much I loved you then love would have shown you how, too! If love had a heart it would have never had to start. If there is no start then there is no end! Written by me, Mistik

My First Blog
Ok my blogs are usually a way for people to get some insight into this head. well here ya go. I don't have many feelings. and the feelings i do have are hidden by smiles and laughs. I am a fun person BUT... I am sick and tired of these people passing judgements on people before they really get to know them. Now this is y i say that.. people message me all the time say omg ur hot.. then they find out that i have 2 kids. HELLO READ MY FREAKIN PROFILE... I am single for the reason being the person i want i can't have and other than that no man wants a premade family. I am a single mother. my daughters father is in her life she lives with him but my son's father walked out on him after i kicked him out of my life. HELLO MY LIFE I NEVER TRIED STOPPING HIM FROM BEING A FATHER! SO NO THAT ISN'T MY FAULT. I have been through more things in my life then most of u will experience in a lifetime. I am a great person and ask anyone on my family list i bet u $100 they will agree without me even say

Amazing Dream
I wake every morning knowing I just dreamt of my guardian angel She was not spoken for She comes and goes She knows all about me I see her and she sees me I am a good memory I remember our first kiss it was soft and she smelled so sweet Her eyes were a beautiful blue Her hair waved in the wind She loved to dance the slow dance with me She is so beautiful I remember asking her to be my wife on the lake boat I remember our first born who is now 3 I remember taking her out to dinner and a movie I remember sitting and praying with her every night She was an amazing dream When I sleep tonight It will be just right For some reason you stopped speaking to me I talk to you and you only cry I know I have made you feel bad at times I try to pickup after myself You are my angel dont you see I know that someday you will forgive me You know I have tried everything I love when you caress my head like that I love it when you kiss me like that your skin is so soft I can fe

Random Thoughts About Rolls-royce And Bentley
I've always been a big fan of the Rolls-Royce Silver Spirit/Spur and its sister, the Bentley Mulsanne. These cars began production in 1981. Unfortunately, I have a few complaints about these cars: 1. Up until about the late 1980s, these cars had the homeliest looking steering wheel and steering column I had ever seen in a car. Both the steering wheel and shift indicator look like they came off of a farm tractor. This is inexcusable for a car of this caliber. 2. What is up with the cheesy AC Delco stereo they put in these cars? I believe they started with that in 1985. I’d expect to see a stereo like that in a 1986 Chevy Cavalier, and not a $100,000 car. If that isn't bad enough, a lot of the earlier models (pre 1985'ish) had manual tune radios. That's unforgivable! 3. Although I can’t say for sure since I’ve never actually sat in one, both the Rolls and the Bentley appear to have manual seat recliners. Even my 1984 Lincoln has dual power recliners. How did the engineers at Rol

The Face Of Paris
So check it! I went out to the titty bar, thinking I was only gonna bring a 6 pack drink it, tip a few ladies, and enjoy myself there. Low and behold who did I find at the club. This lil lady I had eyeballed a few times coming into the club at The Stairs. Man! Saw she was dancing there, an my face lit up! We chatted a bit and what not! Tipped her and the other ladies I usually tip at the bar. Before I knew I found myself thinking I wanted a VIP. I was conflicted, I was short on cash but she was looking BAM BAM BAD ASS! So after like 30 minutes of fighting with myself internally I broke down. I asked her if she wanted to go back in VIP and she just looked at me and smiled and said, "Only if you want too I won't make you!" Welp that did it for me, I went back there, ole girl FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKED me up! I was in awe, she did this trick until right now I can't even still figure out how she did it. Man that girl has got skills skills skills! Anyways what was suppose t

When Will It All End
When will it end I sit in a cafe on a busy street corner I watch the people as they pass one another A man and a woman holding hands You can see love in her eyes and lust on his mind What is wrong with all this 4 little children and no one gets rest An old man and old woman pass this young couple Smiles as they see the children They know the pain of years to come A runaway teenager walking by today might be his drive by A young mom suffering day by day You know her pride lies in the child gave away A single man walks by full of himself With all sorts of pride He snubs his nose as he passes me I wonder if he will get mugged so he will see It is like a nasty circle that never ends When god will this end A lady walks by with one big black eye I wonder if her hubby knows her pain She looks at me and I see a smile The black eye disappears off her beautiful face I look deeper in her soul She just wants love like the rest of us do She sits down away from me I tell th

Just In Case You Are Ever On Jeopardy...
...and this question (or answer technically) ever pops up: Question: This was the first front drive car to feature a transversally mounted V-8 engine. Answer: The 1985 Cadillac Deville. Cadillac downsized the Deville for 1985 and used the GM C-body platform shared by the Oldsmobile 98, 88 and Buick LeSabre and Park Avenue. There might be a couple other C-body cars that I'm forgetting about. However, the Cadillac was the only one that got the infamous 4.1L engine. It is not an understatement to say that this aluminum engine is one of the biggest pieces of shit ever conceived. It is right up there with the Olds 350 diesel, Ford 3.8L and Cadillac V-8-6-4 variable displacement engines. All these engines, including the Cadillac 4.1L, warrant their own discussions.

Suicide Bomber
I am a suicide bomber and will take your life I find in my world the right to die I strap on my explosives I stand up ready to fight In the eyes of my god I am destined to die I get in my car and drive to the market I see hundreds of people around I pray to my god for everlasting life I step out of my vehicle I sweat heavily I slowly walk towards the market with people Something pulls my hand I feel a tug How can you stop me I am on a natural drug I look down it is a child I got a choice to make The child asks me can you help me find my daddy My sweat is now tears It is my daughter from many years Her momma standing behind me smiles at me I look in her eyes the most beautiful sight My god has just told me to stay in this life I am sorry my clan no bombing today I want to be a daddy today

Bad Week
I have done a lot of soul searching lately, and I have to say i'm not completely happy with what conclusion i have came to. How do figure out what it is you want and go for it? Man I hate having to make decisions.

Last Drive
I cry tonight knowing my life will never be the same I didnt even know name Her eyes were crisp You smile was beautiful God must have mastered his art I sit on this curb knowing my fate I will never lose touch with reality I drank that night Not knowing what was to come I cry so hard I wish I did not drink that last beer I put her in the truck Knowing I had no luck 10 miles a way The road starts to sway I look at her knowing she was my future Head on I go It happened so slow The semi hit hard I knew this was the end My baby was dead God why did you do this She was only 3 I needed her in my life I just destroyed my wife They zip up this black bag The size of a duffel bag I wanted to die It should have been I I here them say This one is gone to They were looking at me They zipped my bag so I coudnt see God take this away It is to painful to stay What will my wife do She just lost 2 God forgive me please I wished the best for my family I decided t

Beautiful Till The End
BEAUTIFUL TILL THE END I walk along the beach shore, The water reaches my feet only to leave me, This tease reminds me of you. I stop to face the sun in the sky, Deciding to tell my story of you, That lies so deep within. Fascination can only begin this script; Mixed emotions leave me lifeless. Looking back on these years spent with you, Not sure what we are; Knowing it was amazing, Wondering what life would be with out you… We came so far together, I give the world my last smile, When I think of everything we shared. I can’t believe I was so blind, Had no idea you could cause such deep depression, Wishing you would tell me lies or something clever, Causing me to hate your name forever. All I saw was the depth of your eyes; Just like that of the waves, Wanting to help you in every single way, Cost was no question to me, I’m not the one who will pay. You are so beautiful to me, in every single way, I knew this was love I could not resist, I have put myself in

Sad & Quite
It was a sad and quiet night, with words as my shade, I wrote this poem to you, hoping that the pain would fade. Hoping that the pain would fade, the pain I feel in me, as each day passes by, the time might set me free. It was a sad and quiet night, when I faced the hardest part, cause I was all by myself, with a broken heart. It was a sad and quiet night, with my head in hand, when I learned to accept, and how to understand. Now I do understand, that reality is pain, which brought me tears, and left me in the rain. It was a sad and quiet night, as my dreams went through, I realize my mistake, it was wrong to love you.

My Car Rant
I think automakers are getting too comfortable with the standardization that is occurring across the industry. Standardization is a good thing, but it can lead to just being plain cheap and uninventive in certain areas of cars. Take for instance colours. During the 1970s and 1980s, it wasn’t uncommon for a car to be offered in over 20 different exterior colours and maybe 8 or more interior colours. Many cars were available with two-tone paint jobs too, so that added even more exterior colour combinations. You try to find a car built today that doesn’t offer more than, say, 3 interior colours. It’s very uncommon. Seems to me that you can get most cars today with any interior colour you want as long as it’s beige, grey or black. What happened to the good old days when you could order white leather or red leather? Unless you are buying a Porsche or some other fairly expensive car, you won’t see any other colours but beige, grey and black for interiors. The other thing that is equally

Husband's Struggle
What is happening Why is everyone crying I feel myself dying My chest hurts My mind has gone fuzzy Who is he A man walks up Wants to talk to me I said where are we? We stand in the middle of your life That was your wife Those were your children I said oh my god what happened to them They went around a corner There was no shoulder I close my eyes I start to pray I begged for a miracle God why did you take them What will happen to me YOu think i am free I live in a cage and will age I need to drink I need to sink into her hole She goes down I will go with her You took my wife, life and my kids God I am now broken Where will I go What will I do I AM ASKING YOU I fall to the ground Beg for mercy Let it all end God forgive me I know you can mend My wife wakes me up She says baby it was only a nightmare I look in her eyes I love you more than ever not cause your my wife But because you and the kids are my life.

Done Everything
youve done all you can everything to make me hate your name this just makes my heart long more theres only so far you can run no place you can hide the excuses are getting lame please i just ask you stop my pain will you ever hear my cries? you arent hear to wipe my tears away i know you found another that was no surprise to me i just never thought this would be happening to me im better off without you i never should have met you but in my heart there you are slowly killing me day by day they tell me not to think of you nothing can help me you are the main distraction i know i mean nothing and thats ok i wish that you meant the same you are that special one i have no choice in this i gave it all to you without a thought promised youd give me no reasons said things would stay the same but when was the last time i heard your voice? time since i felt your touch on my body alone in this cold world wishing someone would rescue me i thought you could same me fr

I Am Letting Go.
I look in your eyes and smile But the smile lasts only a second Pain fills my heart and tears drip down and it all increases when I see that smile That blasted smile of yours a sloppy grin that slightly narrows the eyes hazel eyes, large and beautiful a smile thats no longer mine. and as mad as I get i miss it I miss the hug that seemed just right The way it felt when we were that close they way our hands met each others And as much as I no longer want to see you I miss you, i miss you just as bad. and I will remember that night it was lost the night you held me close The night we hugged for the last time I'll remember it and keep it close For as much as I know it can never be repaired, I want just as much to still have it back. KinkyScreams 2005©

What A Semester
Well I noticed the button so I thought I would come and rant and try it out. The semester so far is kicking my butt! Goodness it's going to be a long semester. I start my observation a week from Friday. Tomorrow I have a test in Bio 2, I should be studying but here I am typin' on this thing. I am sorry that I have yet to come and say hi to all and rate pics, I just haven't had much time, but THANK YOU to all who still stop by and say hi to me. I will get better when the semester is over! Have an awesome night! -Stac

Happy Ending
Walk with me down this path of desire Will it have a happy ending as you desire See when we walk through the trails of affection There is no perfection This life is full of heartache and misery But also filled with love and heart filled desire When I layed you down to sleep You had my soul to keep When you gave birth to our firstborn I was definately a man worn to the edges I watched as your heart slipped Mine would slip further I knew you both wor worth the effort So I sat and prayed that night His birth was my plight I knew I was about to lose my wife When this ends My life will have untied ends Will I curse my god or will I thank him for what I got She was my beginning She was my end I remember sitting with you on the floor Eating ice cream and that i what we came into this life for I remember standing in the woods Taking a bath in the moonlight lake where you stood Your body was magical as so it would appear I knew heaven was near I sit now waiting for

When He Kisses
when he kisses he whispers slow easy and sensual when he kisses he whispers sweet nothings into my ear when he kisses he whispers letting his warm breath travel throughout my body when he kisses he whispers sending shiver up and down my spine when he kisses he whispers and licks slowly with his warm tounge the outline of my ear when he kisses he whispers everything he know i want to hear when he kisses he whispers let me take off ur clother when he kisses he whispers can i do the unimaginable to you when he kisses he whispers can i get on my knees when he kisses he whispers open ya legs so my head can fit between ur legs when he kisses he whispers watch my tounge work up and down when he kisses he whispers now i needur mouth to touch my dick when he kisses he whispers now dont b shy when he kisses he whispers take it in all at one time when he kisses he whispers let it glide n and out when he kisses he whisprs her i come oh sh

Betrayed
I saw you walking hand in hand with a guy from down the street He took my life and the house we built Who is this man that you just met Do they call him daddy? Do you tell the secrets we once talked? You gave my life away You expected me to stay? I was there for many years Now I sit and cry painful tears You gave this life of mine To the next guy in line He got my children, dog and wife Why did you consider my life so little Then bring another man in the middle You ask me why dont I come around Is it pride Is it embarrasement I said no I am just sad To know I could be replaced so fast I will move on banged and bruised My life has to be worth more than what you just proved I know one day my life will quit spinning It is just tonight this guy has got me beat Who will be the wonderful lady that I should meet I do not want to be alone forever I know that my win may be never I sit here crying the tears I cry Only to hope I will find someone who will not lie I was

A Heart Dies
Looking to heaven I scream in pain. They can't hear me I scream in vain. A heart dies slowly it hurts so bad. Been starving for you I feel so sad. So beautiful,elusive and never to be mine. Tears run down my face in a straight line. To drown this heart and feel no more. Flow away from me to some distant shore. I see it all around me so close to touch. Why even try you've hurt me too much. Don't feel sorry I know you can see. That you created this horror,this monster,this me. KinkyScreams 2001©

Wednesday
Two more days and hubby will be home! If you ask him though, it's 1 day left, cause he's not counting Friday. Must be a man thing. Anyway, I'm annoyed today. Few things to be annoyed with. The wind, for one, and our weather forecast for this weekend-SNOW! SNOW? Wait, it's only September!!!! NO SNOW!! STAY AWAY! ugh. We might be going to Billings this weekend for my oldest daughter's 22nd birthday- I would like to go down and spend it with her, but it's up to hubby if we will do this, kinda hard to ask him to drive all that way the day after he gets home after being gone for 6 wks! We'll see.... Anyhoo...so this is my first blog, out of many to come, I'm sure :)

For You My Dear......
Bite me...Kiss me...Tease me...Pray for me...Spoil me...Entertain me...Live with me...Enjoy me...Penetrate me...Blindfold me...Caress me...Please me...Take me...Anger me...Spoil me...Blow me...Annoy me...Cry for me...Stalk me...Moan for me...Kneel for me...Delay me...F#*! me...Wink at me...Understand me...Grow for me...Isolate me...Remove me...Joke with me...Serve me... Love me

Lack
I feel lame i lack new images i lack my Mistress right now i havent slept in a solid 3 days now.ive got alot of work done some mental some that pays well and alot of emotional crap ive been hiding for awhile..i need new images art Distracts me from life.

By The Morning Dawn
By the Morning Dawn Crystal blue eyes and your smile, along they came, Lying on the floor, questioning love as we stared. Our heart’s deep desires we could not tame, Each night foolishly believing your heart cared. This love is my only curse, Parents ask why their daughter is acting this way. Each day my depression becomes worse, I fell for you, now someone must pay. Telling you the pain inside, but you will not believe, I am Juliet; however, without my Romeo I shall die. We took some time apart, some space to breathe, Letting you go is not an option, I cannot say goodbye. I still feel you even though you are gone, This love has failed, I will cease by the morning dawn.

Bouncers..
I cannot deal with these douchebags. Every bouncer I have ever encountered at a bar or club is a complete fucktard. For some reason they think they are at the pinnacle of human existence. It’s like working the door at a club is something I should want to be doing. Bouncers need to stop acting like they are movie stars and realize that they work a shitty job like the rest of us. And to top it off, bouncers are the sober dumbasses sitting outside while everyone is having a drunken good time inside. They are mostly 35 years old, overweight and work at bars or clubs where the predominant age is 21-23. Your weight is the only reason you got hired in the first place. Physically nobody wants to fuck with you because you could smother a small family in your fat folds. When I was at a club a few weeks ago while standing in line, a stereotypical Down syndrome bouncer plowed into me while my back was turned and yelled at me to “Move! We got VIP’s coming through! Front of the line!!!” I tu

My Obsession
As I walk along the lonely shoreline, The waves invite me to stay awhile, To share my deepest feeling inside. The setting sun is beauty in itself, The cool, refreshing water stretches, For what seems like forever, It is as long and wide as the love I hold inside. This love is my obsession, It causes deep despair. This is the love I hate to fear, He is like a drug I can’t resist, So beautiful that I feel like I could fly. I stare into the dark night, Wondering where life is leading me. I’m not suppose to care, But it hurts the most to see you love someone else. Am I not as pretty as the one you talk about? You lead me down a promising path, Only to cause pain deep within my hoping heart. Don’t you see what we could be? Standing together forever only if you’d let your heart see. You say you’re scared to lose it all, How can you know it all? If you wont take a chance, where you could fall? I wish you could see how I love you, What I

Today!
Hello, didn't had a good day today! My gf Tammy is on a photoshoot, i'm like a little puppy! Running around. A girl y know just had her car broke down. Went to pick her up. I speeded a little bit and guess what! Probably i was flashed at 240km/h. Yeaha, again! :( Hope the rest of the night will be better. 1:42AM

Your Very Soul
When I come I will touch your very soul Your heart will beat fast and you wont know I will walk in a room and you will see pure strength With me around you will never have to be afraid They say I walked on water that is true It was cold that day and faith was lacking in the crew They say I changed water into wine Yes it made believers out of them that day When I was tempted by satan he knew full well The son of man is stronger than hell When I hung from the cross There was no loss When I died that day Many started to see it my way The miracles the people lack to see Are the ones of true human inspiration but they are done by me I watched a mom giving birth Baby stopped breathing so I touched her The little boy kidnapped and taken by a stranger I went into the heart of that madman before he got to far The young lady about to be raped I came to her and gave her faith She went down on one knee Prayed to me and I set her free The war between 2 nations Came to a

Why I Am In A Wheelchair I Have Type 1
NEUROFIBROMATOSIS, it's a mouthful, isn't it. Think it is hard to say, try living with it. Hello my name is Julie Atterbury. I have a medical condition that is called NEUROFIBROMATOSIS TYPE 1(neuro-fibroma-tosis) NF for short. what is NF? You ask. Well there 2 types of NF and both are very serious conditions. This May is National Neurofibromatosis Awreness Month. Here is a little info. NEUROFIBROMATOSIS, Type 1 (NF1) NF1 is also known as von Recklinghausen's disease, after the doctor who first described it in 1882. There are a wide variety of symptoms associated with NF1. Symptoms show up by age 2 in about of the cases. In most cases, symptoms are mild and patients live a normal life. These common symptoms include: Six or more large tan spots on the skin (caf-au-lait marks), which are present at birth, and may increase with age. Small benign tumors under the skin, called neurofibromas, which usually occur at adolescence and can number from one to hundreds. Thes

My Own Poetry
Darkness is here and I don't understand, What will come of the world at hand? Death and destruction seems to be the plan For what can a mortal do to stave off deaths hand The gods have abandond their children to the abyss To drown in the fire of hopelessness and fear.

No Way Out
They say ignorance is bliss, This lasts only for a short time, Soon the stone is rolled away, The truth is revealed to all. Mixed emotions flood this heart, Anger flows through my veins, Humiliation sits in my stomach, The pain waters up in eyes. I stare into the mirror, Have not seen my reflection for years. I bite my lips as I look away, There is no image looking back at me. One single tear streams down my pale cheek, I wipe it away quickly, Crying over you is not an option, I have become numb to you. You claim you care and love me, I believed you until this moment, I proved my devotion to you, That is the difference between you and me. Running as I hear your voice calling, Every time embracing you in my arms. Where were you when I called your name? You were nowhere to be found. I handed you my heart, Waiting for your love in return. I offered you everything and more, Still that was not enough for you. I slowly l

Wonderful Ride
You look for answers while I wait I got all the time to sit and anticipate Know my heart is true to you I have found the one thing in this world that is real Your heart is pleasant that I can say I know you will find your way When you awake from this dream You wont wonder if it is really me I will stand at the highest peak I can show you what I seek Your pure and natural heart Will never be broken when I am a part Stand with me the world will see Two people who care as much as you and me We can walk tight rope you will not fall If you do i will try to be as soft as a cotton ball But then again you will stand up You will know the man you want If we walk on fire i will give you my shoes I can take and I do not want to lose you When I am here your life will not be heartache I will be a part of dreams to make So stand with and by my side Lets go to Jesus on a wonderful ride.

When I Come
I will come like rolling thunder You will not wonder Faith stronger than most With this I will toast I am like a punch in the gut to your life Your wife will be a follower as well Let the world know Jesus Christ is your saviour The mountains will topple The rain will let loose With a thunder clap I will be happy to save you The most unbearable noise Your faith your only rope Hang tight the ride is extreme when there is hope I am not some gangland thug I am not a prisoner to my own sin I am the way and I am whats within So when the day comes Look up in the sky You will find what you look for and you will know why One thing for sure when I pop in your religion of choice Will no longer have you jailed in Because of the Christ faith is the way But religion is only skin deep So when I come to you Christians Muslims Buddihism Taoism Baptists Protestants Jewish This I will know You are all children of god Not some godless idol

Things you'd love to say at work Things you'd love to say out loud at work...... 1. I can see your point, but I still think you're full of shit. 2. I don't know what your problem is, but I'll bet it's hard to pronounce. 3. How about never? Is never good for you? 4. I see you've set aside this special time to humiliate yourself in public. 5. I'm really easy to get along with once you people learn to see it my way. 6. I'll try being nicer if you'll try being smarter. 7. I'm out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message. 8. I don't work here. I'm a consultant. 9. It sounds like English, but I can't understand a damn word you're saying. 10. Ahhh...I see the screw-up fairy has visited us again... 11. I like you. You remind me of myself when I was young and stupid. 12. You are validating my inherent mistrust of strangers. 13. I have plenty of talent and vision; I just don't give a damn. 14. I'm already visualizing the duct tape over your mou

My Tragic Song
Leave me to my late night session, Falling deeper and deeper into depression. Invading my mind are hidden fears, Leaving me to helpless tears. Mistakes caused you to stare, Proving none of you cared. I’m forced to keep this date, Loosing control of my state, Playing games with fate, Tormented by loneliness as I wait. I thought I found my way, But the cure could not stay. All of you must see, You are better off without me. There’s nothing left to teach, Help is way beyond my reach. I’m forced to keep this date, Loosing control of my state, Playing games with fate, Tormented by loneliness as I wait. So here’s my tragic song, I’ve held my feelings for far too long. I will rid myself of sorrow And be alive again tomorrow. In your life I’ve left a mark, Now I must be greeted by the dark.

Valley Of Shadows
I walk today in the valley of shadows of death I see only one way out The devil seeks me and tries to spook me out WIth love in one hand Courage in the other I will make the devil submit to be my brother I will conquer his plan and take it no further He brings the world strife My life is what I search for Around the bend the shadows haunt me Devil you will not taunt me Dressed in my black cloak I search you Flames, fire, smoke and hate You have given me a full plate Around the bend I see you laughing Around you sits all disease Drugs, sex, alcohol, sins that please I pick up my staff You start to laugh You look in my eyes You see no fear My wings extend I bring your end You bring the world strife You took my life My hate for you I bottled in love I ended my life to meet you in hell We stand face to face Devil one chance You will end your reign You blast me with fire I love the taste You are gone with such haste I have love in one hand Courage in anoth

Suicide
My time has ended it is now time for me to come home I walk alone in a world of sadness I dont know where to turn next My life is in shambles It is now time to take the gamble A man in white comes up next to me He asks me if I want to be free Yes lord I do want to be free He tells me to follow and I will show you freedom He tells me to walk through this corridor I see only darkness It is a mess I hear screaming and howling I feel the touches of so many I feel heat as it comes through my body Where are we I asked this holy man He says hell is where you stand You said If I followed you I would be free Yes you are You have a choice of where you want to be As we go in further I hear blood curdling sounds It is painful just the noise He looks at me he is the only light But the only thing in sight His eyes focus on me He asked me if this is how I want to be free The pain exists through my body The end of time for me this is not what I was counting He kneels bef

THE MOST FUNCTIONAL ENGLISH WORD > > > >Well, it's shit ... that's right, shit! > >Shit may just be the most functional word in the English language. > > > >Consider: > >You can get shit-faced, Be shit-out-of-luck, Or have shit for > >brains. > > > >With a little effort, you can get your shit together, find a place > >for your shit, or be asked to shit or get off the pot. > > > >You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, > >forget shit, and tell others to eat shit. > > > >Some people know their shit, while others can't tell the difference > >between shit and shineola. > > > >There are lucky shits, dumb shits, and crazy shits. There is bull > >shit, horse shit, and chicken shit. > > > >You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit, shoot the shit, > >or duck when the shit hits the fan. > > > >You can give a shit or serve shit on a shingle. > > > >You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit. > > > >Some days are colder

Stand Your Ground
I have struggled far and wide But I will not hide I will show my colors Even to others I have seen life and death When I come to shine My light will be guided by that saviour of mine I know my suffering is only a moment in time Sometimes helplessness is hard to hide I will stand my ground I will look around Give my life for any friend of mine I know where I stand Even if it is not solid ground I know my friends will always know I am around If they fall they are sure to know I will be with them wherever they go Let my light shine To every friend of mine Let them know their struggles are also mine I will be your rock I will show you true love Jesus is my life Who is yours Dont turn your back It is hard to stand strong With no faith in hope Your surely lost to a dark soul

Soul Survivor
I am lost in a sea of emotions My world has been crushed through my conviction End of time has come My faith is strong as a rock I accepted my lord and saviour God took up wrath on this barren land There sits not one building or tree The sky has turned musty I feel like god has forsaked me again I know what god had done Stand near me god I will travel this land To find the christians to put in your hand Right now I am the soul survivor I will find the ones who stand alone I am at your beck and call til your will is done I will walk the miles to spread of your news Knowing this will bring to joy all those that hear me I see people far and wide that suffered your wrath at this end time I walk by the bodies of souls that went to hell I know that there are many waiting to enter your gates in heaven Our bodies battered and bruised worth the effort to worship you The sky opens up My son it is time To come spend eternity in this home of mine All the ones that you look

Love
A warm sensation fills my body My heart races with every touch The softness of your voice soothes My soul As I lay there hoping the moment Will never end Calling out for you Praying that you'll never let me go The sensation so strong I can no longer feel my body Slowly I fade in and out of reality In an instant the warm sensation Fades away My heart empty My soul torn apart Lying there; wondering where I went Wrong Calling out for you, only to find there is no answer My mind invaded with thoughts So cruel and unrefined The sensation of fear of what's to come Slowly the reality over powering The lust and fantasy Leaving me empty Confused on how to think or feel The loneliness I feel So wretched and compelled Betrayal to myself Revealing the terrors of my love

Sacrifice
I drive down a highway Cars everywhere Today at work my mind wandered to my lady wondering why I was so lucky I have a child named jenny She was just born My lady is still in the hospital pretty well worn On my way there this is the first I will see of my baby I hear she is beautiful and I will watch her grow 1 more mile and I will be there I look to my left I see a car with children screaming Looks like they cannot slow down One looks in my eyes I can see her passion for life A truck coming straight out them I swerve to the left to knock them out of the way Now I am the target With no chance to move I say to my god Take care of my wife and my baby too In one swift motion I sacrificed my life For the lives of 4 children WIth my faith bound on them living I gave god a chance to have another angel in heaven

9/13/06
This is what my current profile looks like. I was sort of already using it to blog. Now I don't have to! I was just hoping a blog would be added one day! That's the only thing I felt I was missing here. Yay for blogs! Here we are forever it may seem Hoping to awake from a really bad dream We came here to help those in despair To show them peace and that we really care Our purpose for being here will at times be lost By the pain and suffering and all it’s cost Freedom has a price that can only be paid By the sacrifices and bloodshed many have made Our loved ones back home continue to try Supporting us unselfishly without asking why It’s a war for oil that some people have said Bring home the troops before more are dead Politics and mistakes are what others may feel Thinking it would be easy and not a big ordeal A few say too many lives have needlessly been slain But we can’t let their deaths be made in vain Abandoning now will fill us full of regret For not

Prayer Soldier
I walk in the valley of shadows of death I know when I go down on my knees i am a mark for him Satan breathes down my very door I am a prayer soldier I can feel his breath when I pray for a friend Whether they are sick Or just tired of life I will fight the good fight Show them miracles are very true I will fight and be a prayer soldier for you I am extreme what can I say Jesus was pierced by my kind one day I will follow those steps til my dying day I will be a prayer soldier even if death is my pay They may want to kill me They may want to behead me They may want to take and stone me I will stand for the fall My life is not just my own I have friends who hurt I have friends that suffer The ones I love know I am only a prayer away I will stand my ground and help take your pain away One thing for sure your prayer soldier is here to stay Satan you will have plenty of chances Me and you will go many dances take the suffering to me I am the one that will always

I Wish I Were A Rich Play Boy!
WELL I HAVE TO GO TO WORK TONIGHT. I HATE WORKING, IT'S REALLY A WASTE OF A GOOD TIME. LIFE WOULD BE EASIER IF I'D BEEN BORN A RICH PLAYBOY WITH JENNA JAMESON AND ALL HER FRIENDS ON SPEED DIAL. I COULD DRIVE AROUND IN MY SPORTS CAR,PICKING UP GIRLS WITH MY ONE AND ONLY PICK-UP LINE," HUMP ME I'M RICH". EVENTUALLY MARRYING ONE JUST SO A WEEK LATER SHE WOULD LEAVE ME AND TAKE HALF MY WORTH...AWWW THAT WOULD BE THE LIFE! BUT INSTEAD HERE I SIT IN MY SPONGE BOB BOXERS, DREADING THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO GO TO WORK. OH WELL A MAN CAN DREAM I GUESS

Passion
I sit here nervously as a soon to be father My life will now be driven MY passion will overwhelm I think back to a day when our child was concieved The passion erupted Beautiful as can be I remember the story of a son forsaken His passion to save me was unsurpassed I see my wife a child about born her passion for love and what is about to be done I see the passion in my pastors eyes He speaks jesus and we are all alive I see the grandpa and he just wants to play His body may hurt but his passion stays I know right now my heart is full of the passion that awaits me around the corner I look in my wifes eyes as she starts to push The power she holds is unbearable to most The life about to enter the room Will have more passion for mama when born Passion comes in every size Til the end I know where I stand It will be right next to this new young man He will make me proud and I will live everyday Knowing my passion he will have one day

Words To Live By
There's some mighty fine advice in these words, even if you're not superstitious. 1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. 2. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other. 3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. 4. When you say, "I love you," mean it. 5. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. 6. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. 7. Believe in love at first sight. 8. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much. 9. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. 10.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling. 11. Don't judge people by their relatives. 12. Talk slowly but think quickly. 13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" 14. Rem

Not Just A Story
Descend down on this heart of mine I am open for discussion You will never see someone so open I will look into your eyes See what lies deeper than your mind I know what want He will come to you WIth passion burning he carries a torch for you He knows when you are calling He heres the cries of a child when you are wanting Look in my eyes you will see this passion You will see the torch that burns hot I have this special gift To show you the way Hold my hand and I will show you the man That was on a cross His body punctured Pain searing through his veins He gave everything So you could be human His mother watched as they beat her little boy They tried to crush him from existance He was a man to whom all want a relationship His name has stood the test of time His memory is clearly more than mine His rise to glory Was to show you he was more than a story

Good Bye
morning is a requiem to tranquillity, in his bedroom cathedral of cruel light pain stalks awareness like a cat leaps, claws nerves cant move, nailed to the cross of another day get out of bed gets half way I must I cant, falls back and cries, lays back and sighs fumbles under his pillow for an antidote of memories, stories and photographs, theres one when he could walk hear, see a world more than intersecting walls tries to get up from, trapped, in the paralysis between vertical and horizontal more than photographs cant nailed to the cross of a another day today, like any day gets out of bed has to ... gets half way gets .... half ... way cant remembers ... when he was a soldier an officer, the Polish cavalry re-wrote Cervantes a thousand don quixotes their horses crushed by German tanks a thousand unknown soldiers seeds in furrows of blood their memory flowers in his eye shot he fell somehow survived, a p

I'll Never Be That Girl
i'll never be that girl Current mood: crushed so it was a fantasy right? i knew it could never really happen but i let myself believe for just a night it could. i let my heart believe there might be something there in his heart. maybe i could make him see what he didnt know about me... maybe i could lure him in with physcial aspects, with my humor, my hints i constantly dropped, the fact that ill be seeing him soon. man was i an idiot... just when i feel good here comes the other girl... the one who he doesnt know if she likes him but shes just absoultely amazing. will i ever be that girl to a guy? that girl who walks into a room and makes you gasp, the one you look into the eyes of and feel what she is feeling, you know that one day you have to have her, you want to do everything you can to make her happy and make it so she doesnt shed anymore tears, you dont notice her flaws but find every great quality she has, you just want to hold her till she falls asleep so yo

Next Life
I watch the sky I can see your blue eyes An angel in heaven You made my life very pleasant I remember our dream My eyes fill with tears We were to meet In a garden of flowers I will sit here today and remember you I knew when your heart touched mine we flew My life is never alone now With you gone now I know god sent this angel for me I just dont know how I was out one day The trees swayed like your blonde hair Today I wish for one more day with you Dont forget when we flew in the hot air balloon I proposed to you We were married for one day God decided it was your time I will live my life like you are in mine We were one soul one body of hope Our time was short But enough to continue on I look in the sky I see your blue eyes Goodbye my wife I will see you in the next life

Why Does It Hurt So Much
Why does it hurt so much when you think you found that perfect someone, but then, of course as usual, you are not good enough for them. You think one thing, but it's actually another. I jut don't understand why love hurts so bad. Isn't it supposed to make you feel good and better? At one time it does but then when you find out it's over for them or that it never was there for them, you just want to die. They say it's better to have loved than to never have loved at all, but I am not so sure about that.

Broken....
How do I fix it? How do I go on? How does it go back to normal? Can I have you back? I miss you so much.... I miss your kisses.... Your warm embrace.... Your hugs.... Feeling your hugs when I am crying.... Feeling your arms around me at night.... My heart is so broken without you.... Can you put it back together?

My Dear Aunt And Nephew
I have had a really bad past 4months But hopefully It will get better I lost my 3 year old nephew in may on his 3rd birthday. He was ran over by a vechile, and killed I feel for his mom and dad cause I know they are going thew a living hell then this past wednesday we put my dear aunt to rest. She had cancer that ate her up I know they are in a better place and one day we will be together again. But it still does not help the pain. But I turn to god and It helps alot. I know I will be ok but it makes you hold your babbies a little tighter at night and when you go to work in the am. But thanks guys for welcoming to a great sight. going on line to chat helps me unwind and feel good about my self again also my kids help me feel good about my self I guess what Iam trying to say is trust in the lord during everything and live life to the fulliest.

Murder
I find no shame in knowing I am bad I know this is some sort of fad In the good ole US of A I will screw up someones life today I walk down the streets With my 2 feet I got a gun in my pocket I am out to kill someone today This will be the day I repay everyone doing me wrong This is the day I will take my fathers anger out on the young I will take my gun and aim for a head I will fire off Then shoot myself in the head I walk alone and no one by my side I am a murder, killer an absent mind I will watch their brains splatter as I shoot I hope it is a mother with a child in her arms There is one right there before me I walk up with horror on my mind Tonight ma'am is your time I aim the gun I look around no fear in this body Just they fear the sound The mother looks in horror at me with one last plea SHe asks please pray with me Tonight is the night that will end my time I look at her She looks at me I hold the gun so close to her dream She gets down on a k

Magic Bullet
I was not built on money Or the luxuries we see I am a man of the world Built of skin and bones When you see me I bear the cross he died on He taught me I should be wiser Knowing my life meant very little I thought strength of muscle was partner I learned to love Now I know giving is from above I will be beat down I will be stabbed and shot I will not be a martyr for hate I will die for my fate I am the man you want to be I am the man you will be I am the man who has walked in sin Know that you will walk within The heart of christ did not flow with his blood It is in each one of us You see anger know it is pain Do not allow yourself to die in vain I am the man you are I am the man who loves the world from now on

Why Is It::::::::and Other Questions Bout Women
the nicer you are to some women the more they just want to be friends? the worse a guy is the prettier the woman? is it neccesarry to treat a woman bad to get her to care? how come good guys finish last? what exactly does it take to get to a womans heart?

My Brother
A sad day for me :( Category: Life Tonight is one of the hardest nights of my life.2 years ago at 12:05 am i got a phone call . It was about my bother Joey . See he had a few drinks and was cleaning a gun ,,,well we know the two dont mix . I was at home and the phone rang , it was my mom , she had told me that Joey was in the hospital and it dont look good . she then said he got shot . My sister picked me up at 2:15 am and brang me to her home to stay for a few days . We went to the hospital to see my brother , the doctors said there was no chance for a normal life for him . We needed to let him go . We all gatherd around him to comfert him incase he knew . As i held him i can feel his life just slipping away . OMG i dont know how this could happend is all i can think of . I felt such pain in my heart and i am feeling it right now . I wish i could change things .Just bring him back home . After we said our good byes i think i felt a bit better knowing he was in no pain and that h

Just Wanted You To Know
I just wanted you to know When i sit down to write It is all about what is right When I am alone i can sit and write about you all the time I looked to the sky I did not see a sign When you walked into my life It was everything that made me right Your long flowing blonde hair Make me feel like everything that god put here is worth this life I see into your eyes and I see our life When you laugh I can feel it in my heart I know you are the part that was missing I will stand at heavens gate when it is time and walk you in I want you to show me what you want your life to be I will help you pave that road when its time I will stand and watch while you live a beautiful life When you smile you make my heart skip a mile You are soft and gentle I am little rough around the edges One thing for sure our dreams and happiness are undeniable I would walk through the gates of hell for you I would clip my wings so you can see the man you want I am just a man and yes I will

I Was An Angel
I have had passionate dreams of my own I am a lady with no symbol of hope My life is tied up in drugs and alcohol I sit here today with no passion at all A man walks in the room Blood on his shirt I knew there was gloom He holds a gun in his hand Is it my time to leave this land He tells me to not say a word My life has been a shambles this must not hurt I look up at this big stalky man He was angry and I was the end of his plan I look in his eyes I see a glimmer of hope He tells me face down this is the end of your rope I start praying aloud My god must have been listening but I dont know how The man looks at me and asks me if I could read I said yes sit down please Police outside and this man wants this all to end I speak of Jesus and he is in love again This big man with blood on his hands Looks in my eyes and says thank you so much I looked at him knowing their was no such thing as luck After 2 hours prisoners of our own sins He gives me the gun and just gri

Lonliness
Have you ever felt like you were alone in this world? like there was someone for everyone... except you? Have you ever been soooo upset that you cry until you can't cry anymore and you hurt so bad that you can't move? and to make it worse you feel like you have noone to talk to about it. i mean you have plenty of people to listen to you but you choose not to talk to them about it because you feel like they don't "know" how you feel. Like you have hit the bottom. well this is hard for me because I am the kind of person who has always been happy with my life even if everything wasn't going the way I wanted it to, I always found a way to love my life. I never cared what people thought about me. I thought that I was invincible, but I learned tonight that I am not invincible and that it is possible for other people to bring me down if I let them. and I didn't even know that I was letting them. so I cried until I couldn't cry anymore and I hurt so bad that I couldn't move. I have hit the bot

A Pool Of Passion
Nestled here in this cradle of nature, he called the pond home. It was surrounded on all sides by woods, with the only sign of civilization being a green metal trash can resting beside a dirt trail that lead into the woods. An underground stream kept the pond fed, and under the surface was a world apart from the one above, with its own forests and wildlife. It was boring sometimes, true, but heavy storms always added an element of excitement. He wasn't sure what he was, exactly. The words "spirit" or "ghost" seemed to be close. Normally, he lived in the pond, formless, drifting, floating, one with the water. One could almost say that he was the water. Every once in a great while, though, he would solidify and take the shape of a man, spending the day above the pond's surface. He always had to touch the water, since it was his life source, but this small constraint didn't really matter too much. He enjoyed seeing the surface world, regardless of how it happened. His thoughts were

I See Your Face
I see your face even in my dreams I walk the world knowing you can be seen My passion arises When I can see your big blue eyes It brings my heart to a halt Knowing that I live in your heart I see your lips move knowing your talking to me Your eyes move knowing I am looking at you I brush the hair out of your face You smile at me I know what you see The man in the mirror Is your destiny to be In my dreams I know your free In your life you do not like strife Come with me through the mountains of time There will be ups and downs But I will be by your side We will scale the highest peaks We will trample the lowest valleys In the end you will be in a meadow of wild flowers When I see your face You will meet me at that place In heaven we will see the truth that brings peace

Complaints Filed Against Me At Wal-mart!
1. June 15: Took 24 boxes of condoms and > randomly put them in > people's carts when they weren't looking. > > 2. July 2: Set all the alarm clocks in House > wares to go off at 5-minute intervals. > > 3. July 7: Made a trail of tomato juice on > the floor leading to the restrooms. > > 4. July 19: Walked up to an employee and told > her in an official tone, > 'Code Red' in house wares..... and watched what > happened. > > 5. August 4: Went to the Service Desk and > asked to put a bag of M&M's on layaway. > > 6. September 14: Moved a 'CAUTION - WET > FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area. > > 7. September 15: Set up a tent in the camping > department and told other shoppers he'd invite them in if they'll bring pillows from > the bedding department. > > 8. September 23: When a clerk asks if they > can help him, he begins to cry and asks Why can't you people just leave me alone?' > > 9. October 4: Looked right into the security > camera; used it as a mir

Heaven's Gate
I walk the sands of time I see you are just fine My life is walking one step at a time I know you are mine With my soul you made me breathless I see no mirage Only a collage in my mind of you Each breath I take No water, no food I know I can make it through Do not wish upon a star I would walk 1000 miles to know who you are Do not fret I am not a bet I walk these days just to find my way I know who comes to me I know the walk I make My time is near I will let you know when it is clear Open your eyes See who I am You will sit next to me when I say when The sand between my toes You know you know I will take this walk Never even talk I will be tempted by somes fate Satan will have to wait With my life I save those that are fortunate When you see me now You know I glow and am proud You found your way Heavens gate is here and waiting.

Hi Hugs For Everyone
***THIS IS A HUG CERTIFICATE ! !**** Send One to All Your Friends Who You Think Deserve A Hug (Which, Hopefully Includes the Person Who Sent It to You) ! ! You might send it to your enemies as well! It'll really make them stop & Think!!! If you don't receive this back, nobody likes you, and they wish you'd stop bugging them! If you receive this back 1 time, open up! Find more friends, enemies, or enemies pretending to be friends If you receive this back 2 times . You're off to a good start, unless you sent it to yourself. That's cheating! If you receive this back 3 times. You're a good friend. If you receive this back 4 times. You are popular, I wanna be just like you

Waiting For It All
Waiting for it all... It's a death sentence for some But there's a gift inside those words And I'm waiting for it to come I won't just settle for any guy I know God's got the perfect one for me He'll show up when I least expect it And sweep me right off my feet I won't compromise my morals Just to waste some time I don't care what people say Being single is not a crime When I finally find the one He will have been worth the wait At last I will have found it all My one and only soul mate Waiting for it all... It's a death sentence for some But there's a gift inside those words And I'm waiting for him to come

My 1st Post
This is my 1st post so bear with me ,, Today was definatly not a good day here in Mansfield Ohio ,, it has done nothing but rain all day . That meant me not getting a thing done that i wanted to . Siting in the house all day is not what i enjoy doing,,specially in warm weather. Trying to get the property cleaned up before winter weather sets in ,, getting some old lumber burned and out of the way and rearranging a shed to store some auto parts as well. One more day of this rain is forcast this wek and then back to the sunshine and work. So i guess thats about it for my complaining ,,lol Later Friends.

He Died For You And Me
You come at me with your violence you make no sense You are some religion nut and you talk to me with nonsense You tear my very god down that brought you here I will never fear Any other religions pull your sword My god is beside me I can handle more I believe in only one god He shows me my life THis will put an end to this fight You want to talk about morals You better come at me with more than stories of this I stand firm and on solid ground I would die for your life and to know you were still around My god taught me everything i know Jesus Christ was his name and he died for us all You have freedom of choice It is not an expression It is more of a life lesson You will soon know when he wakes you up again You cannot buy your way to his home You cannot earn your way in as well God is not a prize or a present He is the creator of all and that is very much present So next time you pray to your god Make sure you ask for forgiveness That is what you need Jesus C

Looking For My Mom!!
HI, my name is Gloria and i am looking for my mom she left when i was 6 and a half mounths old. I was born in goldsboro, nc and moved in with my grandma, Who raised me until i got married on August 14, 1992. She has two grandchildren Kayla who is 11 And, brandon who is 8. I would really like to meet her. so if anyone could help me i would greatly apreciate it. my mom was from somewhere in Georgia.i would like everbody who reads this to send it to atleast 10 people on their friends list, may be she or someone who knows will read it also. my dads name is jimmy and she knows who she is and, where i live in the same old town for 30 years. please help and, pass this along I would greatly appreciate it my mothers maiden name is sandra lee pilkington contact info: pixiegirl673@aol.com or sexy_chic_4_ever@yahoo.com thanks

Having Fun And I Blame Jesus
I sit and think about my life I know it is full of strife With this in mind I am having fun I blame jesus for this long life run I sit everyday and pray Then I go play I worship him til the end Know that it all will mean something with my death I get to meet new friends They all depend on me writing great poems I have loved many people Their is only one that hits as an earthquake in my life When she figures out that the time has come We will make a long happy life run For all this fun I blame Jesus cause he is the one I will have the life of a peasent king Because I will one day put a ring on her finger She will remember me as just a man The one who was part of her life plan Travel the world far and wide She will lay down at night with a smile Then when I am gone She will look to Jesus and say thank you for this one I told you I would have fun She blames jesus for all her fun

My Inner Most Secrets Revealed
Like im gonna post my personal shit up on lostcherry.Get the fuck out of here.Go turn on a god damn tv and put on some horrible reality show if you want to be entertained by others life experiences or go turn off your computer and get some of your own.Now with that aside thanks for finding me interesting enough to open this blog and read what I had to say.I guess I take it all back youre cool after all. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!

My Deep Thoughts
Women should not have children after 35. Really... > > 35 children are enough. > > > > Shopping tip: You can get shoes for 85 cents > at bowling alleys. > > > > After all is said and done, usually more is > said than done. > > > > I am a nobody. Nobody is perfect. > Therefore, I am perfect. > > > > No one ever says, "It's only a game," when > their team is winning. > > > > Why do we choose from just two people for > president and 50 for Miss America?" > > > > Ever notice that people who spend money on > beer, cigarettes, and lottery tickets are always complaining about being > broke and not feeling well? > > > > > > Why is it that most nudists are people you > don't want to see naked? > > > > I earn a seven-figure salary. Unfortunately, > there's a decimal point involved. > > > > The next time you feel like complaining, > remember: > > Your garbage disposal probably eats better than thirty percent of the people in this world.

Grocery Store
Walking in a grocery store I see her She walks past me and looks in my eyes She thinks she knows me I think I know her What is this life for other than bring two together? She stares at me with a smile I cannot help but smile back No words were said I walk out the door and feel like I just saw the love of my life I continue on a path of destruction for 10 years What was that girl thinking? Was her smile that unresistable? I go back to the store 10 years later and just wonder I want to stand in the same spot forever My peace was right here Through all the beer I still see her smile I remember our eyes met and I could see her soul And she saw mine I see a girl of out 14 she walks past and looks in my eyes She sees my soul and asks me Are you the man my mom was waiting for? I said what she gave me this if I ever saw you again It was a note I read what she wrote it said Sir I waited for you as long as I could. But 5 years later I caught cancer My daughter is

It's All Mine !!!
Some may say I am opinionated Because I speak my mind But I see it as my freedom I speak it because it's MINE Mine to hold Mine to cherish each and every day Mine to love, mine to hate Mine to be my own person in my own way So call me names Relinquish your control You may take my body But you'll NEVER have my soul! KinkyScreams 2006©

Freedom
You say you are free? You say you can do what you want? You say I can drive, vote, and have sex? That makes you free? I really hate to disagree Laws are correct to follow Does not mean they are right You base your freedom on men? Your freedom is with me Your freedom is to follow me The freedom I give has no boundaries The freedom I give has no punishment The freedom I give will not make you miserable or take money I ask what country you live in? In my paradise we have no names In my paradise is the perfect eternal heaven My father wanted me to walk so I did all the way to the cross So you would have freedom You stop at a stop light and if you dont? You must go to a bank to fulfill your livelihood? Your livelihood is with me You say that you are strong without me? Are you strong enough to love me? You are strong enough to win a war? Are you strong enough to end all wars? You are strong enough to be brave? Are you strong enough to have faith? Tell me again are

Drifting Appart
On a crisp clear night the stars shine down harder than on a midsummer eve. Perhaps the chill of autumn has reached up with it's frosty hand to cool their heat. Perhaps it is that they look down now upon empty fields and seashores all the lovers hiding inside away from the cold. Thinking of all the tears that were cast upon the night to show their way. Why must love cry for them to see what they can be? Their beach is empty and quiet filled only with lonliness In the sand their prints fade away in their hearts they burn forever. Each going their own way not knowing what tomorrow will bring only certain in what it wil not. KinkyScreams 2006©

For All Thouse That Dont Know How To Please
The purpose of this blog is to talk about the power of pussy, and crucial head. Don't be offended by the context of this... just speaking what's on my mind. 1st off, ladies, giving head is in no way payment for a trip to Mickey D's from Pookie down the block. Nor is it to be used to get those new sneakers you saw at the mall... No. If you give head, it should be to someone you love and trust... not the nigga from the club last night. I think that any man would take getting his dick sucked by a stranger... but you gotta think about that kinda man, (do you really wanna put his dick in your mouth if he gets down like that?) If you say yes... stop reading now, and go to your nearest health department. But if you agree that it should be special.. continue to read. 2nd, if your gonna suck it, suck it with enthusiasm. Like its the best thing since Ben and Jerry's. For real! If you don't wanna spend all night down there, I suggest you pretend to be like Heather Hunter. (If you don't know who

Why Me God Why Me???
Kay so heres the great part of my day now.. i go and cook sweet and sour boneless ribs.. and homestyle mushroom flavored rice... with baby dill carrots.. this was all for supper.. i mean like me and 3 kids plus a plate for my sister when she gets off work... like this sux.. i made this meal , call the kids for din din.. then.. they come in say it smells sooooo good.. then eat two bites and then go back outside?.. am i a bad uncle for not really giving 2 hoots about them right now? should i tell them that if they dont come back in and empty their plates that i will not be giving them applecrisp for dessert?? i dont know.. i think i am having troubles with kids.. i need be be calm .. stopp... take a deep breath.. count to 3 and ... HJKWHJWHJHJWKHJKHWWJWJKLJWJ:KLWJ:KLEJWKJEWKJKL SCREAMM like at the top of my lungs for being a dipshit.. like i am trying here.. god damn it.. i hate kids right now but i so want one or six of my own.. is there help for me in this world???

My First Lc Blog
Wow now this is great, B L O G S!!! i love writing and so this is got me really excited haha it will be even more exciting if someone actually reads them..but hey who knows. Anyway since this is my first blog i'm just going to have to promise that things will get better after this one, the first ones are always pathetic except if maybe your a blog junkie which i will soon prove to be.Hope everyone gets onto this and starts writing heaps of cool stuff because i can't wait to read all about other peoples stuff but anyway see you guys later and just wait for my next blog hahaha byeeee xxx

Fisherman's Faith
With the power of the ocean An infamous storm about to down my men I see them battle With heroic effort they try to stay alive I can see their last moments of innocence They struggle knuckles bleeding Drenched from an amazing storm No faith trying to win their own battle I come across the water Waves hitting from all sides I walk with a motion that no person can comprehend They have irritated me They yell for me to save them I tell peter to come to me He tells me he cannot I said come to me He comes out the waves furious All men bleeding from their battle He is walking with faith He looks at me The whites of his eyes Get bigger than the sky He starts to go down He yells once more Save me I shake my head Knowing he has no faith Yet he calls to me I grab his arm I pull him up with force never seen I look at him with a fathers anger "ye who has little faith"

Test
JUst testing it out :D Nothing much on this front. I just been taking care of my mom, cleaning, and brainstorming on a lot of video work. Very time consuming but fun :) Always working on something abd learning new things.

Eyes Of Desire
I see in your eyes You cannot hide Those are the eyes of desire I look in deep I can see you weep The man with the plan is why you cry He bared everything For your sins to be saved You desire his forgiveness In his eyes you are a witness Your eyes of desire Show a raging fire You lay out your sword For the word you know I can see the blue ocean You go through the motion To show your love For the man up above YOu walk a life Without the worlds strife You know you are guided With the love you decided Your eyes of desire are much more wiser WIth the heart of a lamb you are as soft as you can Your eyes of desire that is what I see

Catch Me Running
I looked around the room Eyes searching, peircing the gloom Finding not solace or light Left all alone in my plight I began to run, and run No pre-planned destination But I just had to make a start Running away from a broken heart Its a race you are doomed to loose The cruelest cut, the deepest bruise Never, ever get away But you just might love, another day KinkyScreams 2006©

Extreme Jesus
I have stepped over the line Between wrong and right I tread One hand the devil has me at hand The other Jesus is where I stand I find no peace on this land This is where I stand I look for the alcohol I know I need it all I find the drug addiction I know one more shot I am afflicted I will battle the demons As sex takes over it seems I will look for that next buzz I know my life is like fuzz This is my life I have so much strife The devil has me by the ankle Jesus is showing me a new angle The devil shows me yesterday Jesus shows me tomorrow and the way I stand on a cliff with a man in white Should I jump to end this life I will not take it this way My strength and jesus is the only way I stand on high ground My dad would be proud Where is the peace on this world It is in your heart as it should Remember the only way is an extreme jesus way

Sky's Light
The night comes and covers the earth. Telling the sun to stay out of her turf. For a moment they stand. Getting ready to fight for the land. When they fight i can see. They change the color of the sky and the sea. The night always wins the fight. Letting the people know its going to be alright. This is a neverending cycle. Sometimes i feel. Us humans need to stop and look at this visual meal. Becuase when they fight. The sky becomes alive with a beautiful light.

It's 3 A.m. I Must Be Lonely!
WELL I'M SITTING HERE IN MY SILKY BOXERS WITH HEARTS ALL OVER THEM AFTER A LITTLE LIGHT READING, I JUST FINISHED THE ILLIAD AND STARTED ON THE ODYSSEY.AND I THOUGHT I'D BLOG SOME THINGS THAT COME TO MIND.IT'S 3 A.M. SO WHAT THE HELL. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN VISITING AT A FRIENDS HOUSE AND FELT THE NEED TO PICK A BOOGER AND TRY TO FLICK IT OFF YOUR FINGER WITH OUT ANY ONE NOTICING, BUT YOU CAN'T BECAUSE IT STUCK TO YOUR FINGER? SO YOU WAIT UNTIL THEY LEAVE THE ROOM SO YOU CAN THROW IT AWAY, BUT THEY WON'T LEAVE SO YOU HAVE TO TRY AND WIPE IT ON THE WALL WITHOUT THEM SEEING YOU. WHY DO WE PARK IN A DRIVE WAY AND YET WE DRIVE ON A PARK WAY? IF A TREE FALLS IN THE WOODS AND THERE'S NO ONE THERE TO HEAR IT DOES ANYONE GIVE A DAMN IF IT MAKES A SOUND? BOOBIES, NO THOUGHT THERE I JUST WANTED TO TYPE THAT WORD! IF A WOODCHUCK COULD CHUCK WOOD HOW MUCH WOOD WOULD A WOODCHUCK CHUCK? POOP!, JUST ANOTHER WORD I WANTED TO TYPE IN HERE. HAVE YOU EVER TOUCHED YOURSELF AND PROMISED NOT TO TELL ANYONE? AN

Do Not Wonder
Puts your hands up in front of me I will take one hand put it against yours Do you feel my strength I will take the other and put it against yours Do you feel I am yours Let me take one hand and I will grab the moon I will take the other and here is a star Now you dont have to look far Use my soul to find your strength You are more than you will ever know I sacrifice my life for you to know I died on the cross just to show Do you see my sun it is full of fire It is just to admire Do you breathe fresh air It is to smell the sweet scents I put in front of you Do you see the green grass now you can lay and relax I gave everything so you could live and breathe just like me Do you see the dark it is there so you can take nice romantic walks Everything before you is to remind you of me Please just follow my feet If you need a shoulder I put him in front of you So now you know you could live your life and not wonder

Cancer Diagnoses
Sorry I have not been around to much in the past week, A week ago Saturday I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer and have been opting on what I am going to do. My doctors do tell me that it is treatable/operable. I will find out now tomorrow. So please can ya'll keep me in your prayers. I will post an update as soon as I know more. MUCH LOVE and PEACE -MissL8tyBird-

Bum
I wonder when time will stop My life is so on fire The drug abuse has shrunken my cheeks The alcohol abuse has made me gain so much weight I want to crawl in a hole I may never get out I see this girl she is so pretty to me Will she ever help me Day in, Day out I see her walk down the street She looks at me like scum Yes I am a bum My life is on fire and I need help I have walked this life for 15 years I have talked this life for 15 years When does it end WIll it ever mend I need another buck I feel so down on my luck Today she is gonna stop and stare She kneels next to me and I am lost inside She asks if she knew me I bow my head and hope she does not see Yes it is me A tear falls down her face I look into her eyes With surprise She says daddy? I look at her and start to cry The last time she saw me was when her mama died She grabs my neck and holds it tight She tells me everything will be alright My insides start to crumble I never knew I would stumble

Angel Of Fear-last Breath
I walk the sidewalks in this lonely world Knowing you bring hatred at every turn I see the man crying his wife destroyed By the gun that that murder holds I walk by the crack dealer You know there is no healer for him I walk by the abortion clinic Knowing you will not leave any portion unturned You bring hell, fire and brimstone to my world I am the Angel Of Fear you have heard You haunt me daily in my dreams My father told me you hunt me it seems With love in one hand Courage in another I will soon blast you from hell With your past untold I seek your weakness Mine is love I know for a fact You would die unloved I am the Angel Of Fear you seek Come on up and have a peek I see you found a rapist today I am sure he would love to serve you everyday With one swift hand he moves in front of a truck He calls my fathers name and does not duck See Satan one thing for sure He called upon my father Before you turned his story to blood I fear nothing in the shadow

Angel Of Fear
I am the man cloaked in black I come from the clouds and will never look back You come from the earth and grabbed my soul Today is the day this fight will end in sorrow You looked in my eyes and said goodbye The cancer had struck deep inside I told hell I was coming to save you today The devil thought he was on a runaway train YOU will not take my girl I will cast and hurl you Face to Face you have met your match You thought you got her I told her I would not look back She took my soul and I promised She would go to heaven on a cloud I call The devil said come young man lets see what you got I looked at him with her behind I said come young lady I am your white knight tonite The devil said you cant take her I said stop me she took my soul and I am saving hers He looked at me and cast a flame I said you will have to do better some day God holds me on his right hand You could not touch me even with a band I took her hand and floated back to earth I looked in her e

A Baby Prayer
Im a bum and falling fast I lay with my head in a gutter I can barely mutter The drugs make me stutter I am a hooker Back on the bed Not knowing who is screwing with my head Love cannot find me I am a baby Addicted to crack Not knowing my mommy earned her money on her back My daddy a drunk He may be dead in a trunk God brought me hear to feel my own pain But my pain is no gain for my parents We all lie in different places are we worth saving God with a plan Never denies any man As a baby I pray Being a drunk I see a man coming He is dressed in white He is so bright He picks me up I never knew I was worth your time Am I worth saving? Being a hooker I pray for that day A man dressed in white He is so bright I look in his eyes Am I worth saving? Being a baby I see a man in white He sees me shake He sees me with no weight He sees me with serious problems He picks me up His warm touch His love flows through my body I see my mommy and daddy at

12 Angels
God you blessed us with many different men 12 men died that day in that mine They walked in the door not knowing their fate Everyday I use to wait For this dreaded day to come With one mighty strike of your fist We found out they will be missed You took sons, fathers, brothers and grandpas Knowing this was your doing makes my life a bit more peaceful With out a warning they were trapped What happened down there may never be known Except 12 angels sit next to your thrown With their courage and strength They knew they would die With my courage and strength I sit all alone Wondering if I should make it right I put my hands together to pray I hear my father say Young son never have worry Your sons, fathers, brothers and grandpas are with me I took them to the next world so you could see There lives will be shaped in stone You will never be alone They smile at you everyday Know that strength and courage is how they came my way They loved and honored each and every

Stillborn
The most agonizing moments have passed My husband and I thought it would last The labor was long and hard Where is my baby I asked the doctor I see him there in his crib Beautiful boy that was our wish My husband with a tear in his eye Said darling our baby has just died I screamed and said no that cant be He was crying and I could feel his heart beat Our little boy was as precious as could be I told the doctor hand him to me He just needs his mama and I need him with me He asks if im sure I said hand him to me this is my love I have waited for forever My husband starts to cry more and more The doctor hands me my love The beautiful boy I named Connor I tell them all to get out I do not want my boy to see anyone one pout I sit strong as i can be the tears strolling down my face I knew this was a race They said he did not breathe in 24 minutes His heart stopped and he would not come out of it I closed my eyes I could feel his warmth Connor come to mama I know t

Sex Toys And Popularity
Sex toys have become increasingly popular in recent history. They are used in solitary sex as well as sex with a partner. Both men and women use sex toys, but it appears that more sex toys exist for women than men. This suggests that women may purchase more sex toys than men. In the mid-1900's, women who used sex toys generally kept it private. However, in modern times many women freely and openly purchase a variety of sex toys. This is mainly due to the fact that it has become an accepted fact that women purchase and use sex toys. FACT: Approximately 45% of women have used a sex toy at least once. While it is common for men to discuss or admit that they masturbate, this number greatly decreases in men who admit to possessing or using sex toys. On the other hand, "as women have become more informed and liberated in their attitudes toward masturbation, they have increasingly used hand-held vibrators to enhance sexual sensations." In a study by Masters & Johnson, almost 50% of t

Thank You Sis
I would like to say thank you to my Sis, Mel, a.k.a. Princess Poochie, for introducing me to the Lost Cherry site. I have made many new friends and I am grateful for everyone of them. I love my Sis more than she could ever know. You see, we are not related blood wise, but by heart and soul. She is my best friend and my sister. I love you Mel. Thank you for being there for me.

My Hero
Wondering when my hero will be here I sit at my piano As each finger hits a key I feel this little hand touch me I look down at him He just grins When will my hero be here I lay alone in my bed I wish I knew what was in his head I feel a little hand touch me He says what is the matter mommy I look at him and know he will make me proud one day I sit and sketch to wipe away the pain Hoping my hero will be here one day I feel a little hand My son what is wrong You are looking for your hero? No mommy you are my hero I look at him with a tear This little boy is so dear I pick him up and cry tonight My hero is here to help me through this fight One day I hope he knows He was my hero He never left me once He showed me strength and tenderness in my life Maybe one day I will meet a man that will inspire me to love again But right now my hero is just fine

So Lost Starting Soon
can't wait for it on the 4th of october and also survivor is this thursdayalot more shows too....i always love the new season :D also training rigth now for new job gonna be stock supervisor for the brick canadian furniture store....gonna be cool for sure :D :D :D :D :D

Heaven Is Where We Met
With every swift step she takes Her life is in her hand sleeping away He was born on a nice day God definately found a way She was upper class A job, a husband and a beautiful home She knew she won the world on her own Then her husband and her expected a beautiful one This life was not just their own The birth was fierce and hard SHe knew it drained her every last part The baby was out but must stay He weighed 3 pounds that day Her husband walked in as the doctor said he might not live Her husband walked out said he could not take this bout She laid there crying away She knew her loves were slipping away She prayed and prayed THe doctor came in Said her child was born with a deadly disease The only cure would be a bone marrow transplant Life as she knew it was about to change The doctor said just one year He would not make it past this time next year So for 11 months she prayed and prayed One night jesus came to a womans shelter where she was staying He did

California Melee - 750 Miles Of Beer
Just got finished running California Melee X this weekend. 750 miles in 3 days covering all NorCal back country roads and highways through desert, dirt, forest, coastline, and hillbillys. Did I mention the hillbillys? More on that later. We headed out with a pack of Porsches, Alfas, Minis, Fiats, BMWs and a couple oddballs. Team 33 was driving my RHD Datsun Bluebird Coupe. First day took us from Palace of Fine Arts SF up some back ass highways north of Marin, along dirt/rock roads into Redbluff. We followed a caravan that got lost twice and ended up backtracking solo 45 minutes at 80+ MPH on the backroads to catch a group of cars. First night saw a dive hotel with one of the vintage Mini Coopers turned into a Mini-Bar. Many beers and drinks later and we were ready to head out for bad Mexi food and huge frickin' goblet margaritas. Up early on day 2 and we headed for HWY 36 - a 137 mile long 2 lane (at best) back highway of all twists and turns that led us out towards the Coast. After lu

Tribute To 7 Children
I can feel your pain But I will never understand Your 7 children dying in a fiery crash Feel there is still hope Yet I still cannot comprehend They died and went to heaven You knew that day Your children loved you all the way Your children know that mama is not alone Mother I tell you now It is your time to shine Look in the clouds you will see your children smiling Your world was crumbled before your very eyes Know their pain was not all loss They looked to god in what you considered an unbearable loss Nicole Mann at fifteen was a dream now in heaven an angel singing Elizabeth at fifteen knew it was her time. She knows for sure momma was proud all the time Ashley and Johnny both 13 they understand that they are now angels and loving you more Miranda just 9 she was just a child but learned how heaven is a blast Heaven 3 what can I say her name is heaven and she now lives it everyday Anthony 20 months he found himself in a world that jesus once walked this is him tim

Summer 2003
And when the dragon and the princess were too long together and become one will the prince see it? Will he be able to kill him and save her or will he just strike him not noticing she's bleeding. Will he cry when he realizes she's dead?

1300lb Club..
Aight,Just saying..Finally reached the 1300 LB. club @ the gym after trying for close to 6 months now..Benching over 400 Pounds,Leg Pressin over 800 and maxed out on curling at 175 Lbs...Makin Progress..Stay tuned,Cuz I'll have some new pics up as soon as I can find a beautiful woman to come be my photographer...

Simple Ways To Become A Better Lover
1) CREATIVITY - You should never be afraid of doing new things. Is your sex life predictable? Change it, and put some creativity into it. The way i see it, is that you should never know whats going to happen. Dont be afraid to venture outside the bedroom. Surely we can all agree that going to jail for the sake of "different" sex isnt really worth it, but being outdoors does have a certain appeal to it. I have found that garages work well, and if you have an enclosed back yard, that works just as well also. As simple as it is, sex in the shower is always a winner. When your partner is in there, just hop in and seduce him/her. Its not very hard to just think of something creative and just do it. with that in mind, we move to the next subject. 2) SPONTANEITY - There is no better sex than sex that is just spontaneous. It has a certain passion level that just isnt matched against sex that takes place at night when you both go to bed. Do you have a certain routine that you have fallen int

The Cliff
I walk close to the cliff I can see the world crumbling I can take you to the edge The knife of passion at my side I walked among the angels as they watched The suicide bomber crumble lives The mom getting an abortion and killing her own The husband punching his sweet beautiful wife in the face Nice try she was more beautiful ace The bums on skid row scabs on their faces and begging for a dime The young kids smoking crack and blowing his own heart The time it took to blow these families apart Sad to say there is love in the world The dad seeing his first born The mom in agony delivering that born The teenager getting just one A The beautiful bride on her wedding day The man coming home from war is more than he thought would happen The child riding her first bicycle I sit on this cliff I know for just one man there was no "if" He spoke his mind He told you the truth With love and passion on his mind he made the right decision I live my life daily making a choice

My Life
I have live in or round louisville most of my life, spend most of my time at work or home. When I can go out love the out doors, maybe a moon light walk with a bottle of wine a small radio for some sft music a blanket and just hang out under the stars. Horses are always fun to ride. love to give suprizes for no reason other than to let some one know i missed and was thinking of them. Maybe a note for her to find. Well, i will add more later.....

This Is Very Annoying
woww--the alert box here used to be one of my fave places on earth--i would be soooo happy when someone gave me a user comment, photo comment--u know--all the wonderful stuff-- but now- got 500+ friends here--the alert page fills up every 30 or so seconds with someone posting a blog--or multiple blog entries--obscuring all the stuff we love the lostcherry for----sorry--just had to say that

Ummm Whatever Comes Up
Ok so this is my first blog and im going into this not knowing what the hell im about to say.So bare with me ok?Well i guess i can talk about some of my experiences on LC.I hate when guys ask me join my family so they can c my private pics.And then get mad when i say no like i fuckin owe them something.Its only pics u want have me and im not about to give u something to jack off to tonight.Then other douche bags wanna post bullitens sayin i dare u to give me ur number.Yeah right so u can go 2 real pages and get my address and kill me HELLLLLL NOOO! And for those of u who do it dumb azzzz!well thats all for right now.OOOOO please dont tell me when u post new dick pics i dont want 2 see ur saggy magnum dicks for those of u who dont know what a saggy magnum is then u either are one or fuckin one lol...LATA MUAZZZZ

Autum 2002
I am doomed; doomed to see and not be able to struggle not able to do something to say something that would make it better or at least ease the pain a bit and it's so silly and senseless to cry about precious memories being raped or beauty dragged through mud just to be thrown back again in front of scum. But is it really so senseless. If I don't cry who else will? Who will grieve for the things that get lost those that are forgotten day by day a bit more and die softly sighing… unheard. I can fell the wondering blankly glances saying that it's always been this way. Was it? Even if, it doesn't make it right. The spark in men dies you can see just open your eyes every day every minute. Still nobody seems to notice nobody seems to care. But I won't believe this was all now that we've come this far and could live an easy life we encumber oneself with dump meaningless constraints. I would love to take a gun and spread my brain all over the street where it can cause no more pain and then

My Cancer Update As Of 9-13-06
To all my Fellow Cherries!!!! Well I had some great news yesterday at the Doc's. I have two options. One.... is to have the Chemo and hope that is goes in remission, or Two....I can have my ovary removed and go thru 3 weeks of low dose radiation twice a week. So I am going with the removal and radiation. The Doc also said that they will see if I have any good eggs left in that ovary and freeze them for me just in case someday I want to have kids. So I am very Hopeful, and with all the supoort from my family and friends I know I will beat this. Thanks again to everyone that has wished me well and for the prayers and kinds words. MUCH LOVE and PEACE -MissL8tyBird-

Shattered Dreams
I watch you from afar I see a broke heart with no where to go Your eyes swollen from when you cry I know you wish to die He broke your cheekbone This I know He dislocated your shoulder Is this how you want to go? Is your life worth so little you need to be broke Let me tell you your beauty stands apart I look past the betrayal of his love I know god is watching from above Walk out and come with me I will take you down that dreamy path of freedom Your path will be painted with greens and blues You will know I was sent from heaven to save you Hold my hand and let me hold you up These broken bones he has given you is all that he has left Your time is now Your beauty will shine through Trust in me I will show you The love of a woman is not skin deep Their passion burns for those they meet I can show you the life of a queen He will never touch you while you believe in me Shattered dreams is what you thought you only knew Time has come to stop the abuse Turn you

R.i.p.
Jacob Wayne Cox, 20 CHATHAM Jacob Wayne Cox died Saturday. Services are 2 p.m. today at Edmonds Funeral Home, Jonesboro. Burial will be at Concord Methodist Cemetery, Chatham To a great soldier, an awesome friend, and an all around wonderful man. YOU WILL BE MISSED VERY MUCH! I love you doll!! and i'm soooo sorry it had to be this way. i promise I will see you again someday! To all of you who know him.... you know that he was a great guy and he will be missed terribly. To all of you who didn't know him..... You missed out because he was awesome. This was written to him from his sister Brandi: Born on Earth Wednesday October 9, 1985 Went to Heaven Sateurday July 8, 2006 You may be gone from Earth but you are still very alive in our hearts. No one knows all the pain you went through here on Earth. But we know that where you are there is no pain. Someone came up to Grandmother at the funeral and asked her if she knew what happened? She answered "no". And he said

Hope Things Go Good
Well I've been having a ruff time in my life & all my feelings have been balled up inside & there isn't really anyone to talk to except my best friend....& she is like a mom to me. Between guy problems, emotional problems, & personal problems, I am just going through a ruff time. I have a lot of guy issues but I don't really wanna be with anyone for a while becuz I want to get completly over this one person & that's gonna be really hard...I kno I won't get completly over him but I can come close. I am going to the doctor Friday so hopefully everything goes good with that whole situation. I haven't really been eating or doing much of anything so.....hopefully I'll find out what's wrong. other than that I'm doing ok....I'm going Saturday to get my Belly Button done!!! I'm so excited but I'm kinda nerveous!!!! It's gonna be soooooo cute! 9-13-06

Dark Lies
Watching as time passes by my eyes. i seem to wounder why life is filled with lies. deep in there heart they dont want to do it. but something wispers in there ear "its ok lie a bit". with that little voice in our minds. its hard not to lie at times. one lie turn into two or three after a while the voice is the only thing you belive. as the lies get easier to speak aloud. the voice begins to cloud your mind. feeding you ideas of your doing the right thing. when in real life the real horror begins. your friends begin to leave your side. your family can't even trust you because of your lies. you are alone on a small island with only the darkness, thinking about the friends you miss. you look to the voice for advice. but the voice is gone leaving you alone in this abyss. as the darkness begins to engulf your soul. you wounder why did you have to lie more and more. with no voice and your loved ones gone. you feel like this is all wrong. the darkness begins to feed on

Children Are Hurt The Most
I was sleeping one night I could here mom and dad fight I stood at the door I listened real carefully I could hear my mom cry I could hear daddy was no longer dry What has become of them They were happy one time I open a crack in the door I could tell I was gonna get more Daddy came to the room He was holding a plate He must have just ate I was trembling inside I could only fear What am I doing here He took the plate across my face It hurt so bad I fell in shock I cried as it hurt Daddy apologized said he did not mean to Mommy got realy mad She told dad look at me With a muzzle in his face I could not erase He went for the gun Mommy could not hold out very long Daddy said he would kill her A shot rang out I knew there was no doubt My stomach was bleeding Mommy and Daddy didnt you know Children suffer the most when they are in tow I died that night While mommy and daddy had a big fight

Hey All
If you all have anything that you think i should add to my profile or ideas for pics that i dont have on here just let me know. I am a very open female just enjoyin herself and having a good time here on LC. Love ya all. Sexy fem

Beaten Child
I see the steps your walking I am hunting you down and we are not talking You beat your children and your wife I will find you and show you a true life I see your wife with a broken nose Did you not love her anymore who knows Your child has one black eye What makes you a man to think you dont even cry Stand your ground dont let me chase you down I thought you were a man Thats what you told your children when you slammed their head Not slow down I am your man I am the one who can save you so you can retain as a man Right now you have no excuse People see you and strength went out the door When do you think this will all go You need to accept my plan If you dont I wont chase you again Your path is to hell Mine is to love You have a choice the devil or the white dove I have a sword Its blade is strong It is time you see gods wrath on what you have done You do not get away so innocently That child did not fall off her seat That wife did not hit the doorknob T

Nothing Like You!!
So you think I act just like you? Do you take me for a fool. There is nothing more I rather do. Then to try to emulate you. Yea right!!! To say I am anything like you Is just a bunch of bull. Wait right there as I take you to school On what it takes to be you. Sometimes you act like a lady. Im sorry make that a baby. Crying when you cant get your way Now is that a really good way to play? For a simple answer you need You come to me and beg and pled. Lets not forget your relationships Lets just say that ship has sailed. You call yourself a punk? Now thats a load of junk. To me youre nothing but a poser. Nothing more then a 2bit loser. So you say I want to be like you? Now you know thats untrue. Why would I want to be a fool? When I can be just plain cool.

Genx
This will be my 80's nostalgia blog. I hope you all comment and share your memories. I was born in Cherry Hill NJ in 1976. Judging by that date that made me a official member of Generation X! gen X is defined as being Born between 1965 and 1980. It is also called the ME generation. I will start with what i remember. I remember Halloween being cancelled because there were LSD tatoos and razor blades in the apples. I remember having a holly hobbie doll. I remember spending summers at Leigh Anns house and swimming in her pool. Playing with Cabbage patch kids(mine was Carlotta Clover) We would eat cold spaghettios and we had this peas an carrot gum. I had a raggedy ann record player that played 45s and I remember playing the Mc'ds song on the record theygave out...remember? I'd like a Big Mac, Mc BLT, A Quarter-Pounder with some cheese, Filet-O-Fish, A Hamburger, A Cheeseburger, A Happy Meal. McNuggets, Tasty Golden French Fries, Regular or Larger Size, And Salads: Chef or Gar

15 Year Old Troubles
I am on my own I have found no purpose in my life I drink when I can to forget the time Drugs are my friend allow me to snap in school My grades when to hell Like I probably will to I have followed the line Til I was about ten I am 15 now And know that my life is dead I talk to my mom She cries when she hears my pain SHe does not try to see my life Only her own in vain My dad is a drunk He is terrible to my mom I she is so withdrawn I will walk this plank Magic roulette which will surely take my life Or maybe I will hang myself to make sure it is done right I can step off this cliff and there will be no ifs I have found away to end my loneliness today Then this man in red says blows your brains out so I can have yur soul again Then comes this light in white He looks at me and cries What a sad soul he is He looks at me and says I am sad You walk alone and you dont know right I died for you so you knew it was my time But I turned to him and said no one shar

Ohr Photoshoot Needs You!
Ladies going to be in South Florida,anytime soon? come to a show,and be part of the HeLL$outH Family!! contact me at djkris2fur@yahoo.com 1-772-871-2541 21 and over,and willing to travel.. Contact for more info.. HSR

Negetive Light
pain and anger fills our souls. as water would fill a hole. why does the heart lead us to pain? are all our hopes and dreams in vain? are we fated to wonder alone? searching for a place to call home. looking for someone to make us whole. people spend years looking and hunting. in a neverending quest for nothing. for when you find that beckon of light. you will be at peace for a short time in your life. the light will turn dark the negetive light will show you the mark. of painful lies and a twisted thoughts. is this what you were hunting for? do you want more? the mind says no, but the heart says yes. so we follow our hearts, thinking it was only a test. and yet again the quest begins a new. and the light will show you again more of the pain that will be waiting.

Marriage
what is it about marriage that lights up my face when I think about making Justine my wife she is smart,sexy, and determined. she loves my daughter like it was her own. She truely is a blessing from God and i thank him everyday for her

Define Beauty
So after spending some time on the Hot or Not site it got to bugging me. What defines beauty? What is considered Beautiful? I look at some of these women who have been rated 9 or 10 and lets be honest they just are not that pretty. I suffer from no self esteem, i feel ugly most of the time. I avoid mirrors. I just don't feel pretty. My daily life consists of taking care of the house and kids. I am 30 years old and i am left to wonder ...is this all? In highschool I was never the pretty popular girl. I was pretty much a loner with a small circle of friends. I always did and still do feel less then everyone around me if that makes sense. I guess i just don't understand what defines what is beautiful and what isn't. I think im a smart woman. I can do things that your average person cannot. It just seems to me life is this big popularity contest and I am the loser lol. So I want everyone who reads this blog to tell someone the are friends with or a person they love that they are beautifu

Emotions Of Christ
Emotions Of Christ By James H. Morrow This was a writing event held on Good Friday, April 14, 2006. For 12 hours, author James H. Morrow committed the emotions of Christ to writing, once an hour from 7:00 am – 7:00 pm. Then on Easter Sunday, April 16, 2006, he completed the work with the final two writings. Each writing is titled next to the time at which it was written. Truly, this was his masterpiece. 7:00AM Alone I sit in a dark hole all alone The night was filled with angry mobs I can hear them still in my head Everything is now quiet With my fathers guidance this will all soon end They took the night like thieves They want to steal my life from me I have come to save them and they cannot see What is it with man All they can see is their own pain and dont understand My anger is righteous They rape, pillage and plunder Then they become victims to a world When all they need to do is pray The pain of agony shrieks over me Satan wil

Calling Everyone To Sign Please
I have an Idea for a Pool/Concert Hall and Eatery, for Los and Lettes to hang out, and get gear from. I'm gathering signatures to present to ICP, to show them how much support an idea like mine would have. If you agree, sign the pettition, n pass it on to all your lo and lette friends,

The Lizard King
One of my faves! and me reading it http://www.realitybytez.net/everything.wav What are you doing here? What do you want? Is it music? We can play music. But you want more. You want something & someone new. Am I right? Of course I am. You want ecstasy Desire & dreams. Things not exactly what they seem. I lead you this way, he pulls that way. I'm not singing to an imaginary girl. I'm talking to you, my self. Let's recreate the world. The palace of conception is burning. Look. See it burn. Bask in the warm hot coals. You're too young to be old You don't need to be told You want to see things as they are. You know exactly what I do Everything

Really Good Tips For Relationships
This was written by a guy who has had years of experience. And he's pretty dang good with girls... 1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house [without notice]...they run around in their underwear just like we do. 2. DON'T CHEAT ON THEM. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and will be mad. 3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the hat. 4. NEVER miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful. 5. DON'T refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous. 6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it. 7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms. 8. If you don't sleep with them, DO NOT tell your friends that you did. 8. If you DO

About My Baby Niece Angel Ann
the dang family service took baby angel form my sister yesterday itz so wrong and uncalled for y wont they leave my family alone they dun took my sisterz other 5 kidz and adopting them out too late for them but not forbaby angel she iz so innocent n she need 2 b w her mommy..if i get updatez ill post it

you know, job interviews suck. no matter how well they go, they still suck. and no matter how many i go to, i still get stuck on the fuckin' "what are your strengths and weaknesses" question. usually i can tell ya a million weaknesses. today, i came up with two. well, three but the third was given to me by the interviewer and that was "chocolate". don't ask. i'm too old for this shit. and then there's the waiting. just shoot me.

Tell Me!!
1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would u kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why? 7. Describe me in 1 word! 8. What was ur first impression of me? 9. Do u still think the same? 10. What reminds u of me? 11. If you could give me anything wot would it be? 12. How well do u know me? 13. When's the last time u saw me if u ever saw me? 14. Ever wanted 2 tell me sumthing u couldn't? 15. To put it bluntly, wud u fuck me ? 16. Are you going to put this on ur blog and see what i say about you? 17. Would you ever meet up with me?

Why?
I like blogs it’s a lovely way to spit my thoughts into your faces and you can’t complain about it because it is your own choice to read this shit. So you will find here random thoughts and some stuff I wrote and actually managed to translate. If you don’t like it no need to tell me if you like it but don’t have more to say but “cool” or something like that please shut up too but if you have some real thoughts I sure would love to hear them. Alice

Well I am loud obnoxious and off the wall but i love every minute of it, I no longer look like my pics beacuse holly has me running i have new piercings and on top of that i changed my hair (drastically) I don't fit in well at all. I am in a situation wher ei really care about a guy i believe its mutual and all is well except he lives 3 hours away, I am in school so much i never see him and all i do is think what if? which i don't normally do.. Anyway thanks for reading

The Magic Of Hope
Inspiration Instilled motivations Spiritual satisfaction Feeling backed not by words But by actions Funded by deep seeded attractions Just cause we're on equal sides Of an equation I should try to match all expectations... Nah Faithfulness bathed in pride Stand tall Partnerships built Designs backed by trust Funny how happiness seems to find me When dark shadows have me feeling lost Weary times Walking blind on frontlines Why fake the funk Raw emotions Love refined then purified Trust in ya self Listen to ya heart Unlock the magic of hope Addiction from birth Ever since the gates first opened Sunshine >From sunset to sunrise I see brilliance in ya strides Passion in ya eyes Grace in ya curves Wisdom in ya words And yes you've been blessed With the magic of hope Fabric of affection Woven with care, no remorse Life's too short to despair Way to short to let disappear Especially since I spent most of my life Try

Ohr's Walk Destiny Run Cd...
Is near finished,just have to work on the artwork and inside stuff,and get the cd copied,and then it will be available to the public hopefully by mid-october... anyone want to help burn cds?? message me.. actually the music is online,needs burn to disc.. DJK

Work Sux!!
Well, I am at work and people just want to complain... So, annoying!! I can't wait til I leave so I can work out some of this stress!!! This week is going to be long and stressful.. 52 hours of complaining ppl!!!! Sorry to complain everyone!!!! Write more later ****Mwah***

A Gothic Romance
A single candle is lit at the end of the dusk. The sky darkening to it's rich and royal purple. A red wine sits untouched on a mantle. The velvet richness is felt. Her lips like rubies burn your face as they press. Her eyes a solid passion, walled deep in your mind. Her skin like cream, her hair like silk. A voice of an angel as she whispers your name. So long ago had it begun, just a simple word in the dark to her. She called your name and you turned, knowing you never gave it. Her smiled pierced the ice that was your heart. Your romance blossom into Passion. A simple ring placed on her finger and all of your desires were then truth. With the patience of Gods you both explored the love you had. Eternal as the stars above, deep as the oceans below. Never a moment went without her face imprinted on your soul. So many years now have gone by and still it is as it was. Her face, now aged, just as divine as it ever was. Two lovers in a celestial paradise. Your h

Lolita, Revisited
Under age sex: getting worse and worse by the day, it seems. It's bad enough that high school kids do it, but middle school? C'mon! You know, on the news a while ago, there was a bit about two middle school kids that got caught having sex underneath a desk in a science room at the front of the room, during school! How bad is that?! McDonald's is going to have to start putting condoms in happy meals and birth control in vending machines at the rate we're going. And you know the best part about all of this? The parents blame it on television. Now, let's think about this. When was the last time you saw any sexual content on Nickelodeon or the Disney Channel? Never, as far as I know, and if there was, WHERE THE FUCK WAS I? And parents sure the hell can't blame it on video games anymore. I haven't seen one video game that tells kids to have sex. And, if there was such a game, there would have to be an adult to buy it for them, eh? You know what I think it is? Bad parenting. Yep, I said i

Reversal Of Life
Twisting, turning, passing through time. Coldness, darkness, dissapointed. Look into the eyes of the child. See the ribbons of naked glass. Come to me. Tragity pulls us in. Holds us tightly in it's grip. Dont pull from me. Does it prove to much for you to love? Can you see me? Feel me? Touch me? Come to me? Softness, heated, erotic, passions. Turning to pity of the soul. Rape me . Hold me. Tell me I am yours. Can you taste me now? Rip past the bones an flesh feel me now Come to me? Desicrate me. Pass up my soul. Head for the heart. Leave me naked in the ground. Rot, stench, oozing puss of a body. My love now sour in the liveing world. I see through it all now. I still love you. I still feel you. I can still taste you. Now... I come to you. KinkyScreams © 2006

Wow
hey wassup people i dont really blog but it seeems easier here so maybe i will here anywaysa todays pretty boring i been tired all week fallin asleep everywhere its pretty funny anyways id like to thank everyone for all the comments thwey left me and ratings i hope to talk to some more people and meet them here anyways yall have a good noght and ill ttul till the next blog.... peace

Dilana Will Win Tonight!!
I have a feeling that she will be recording and touring with Supernova... The reason is,for the last 5 years,I have been telling the world about this other rocking girl named Lennon! Who as a matter of fact is on tour with Motley Crue and Aerosmith,and Dilana reminds me of her,not a copy,but there are alot of girls out there right now who are doing their own thing,and can give the guy singers a run for their money in this business we call rock and roll... Dilana has a great original song called,"SuperSoul",and she could more than likely tonight become the SuperSoul of Supernova.. check out Lennon at www.lennonmurphy.com and if Dilana doesn't get the gig,she still will make it on her own,HELLSOUTH RECORDS,would sign her on the spot..

Willie The Freak - Immortal Ego No One
I met the person who became Willie the Freak on an online business network he is an executive headhunter who has to behave himself but he had such a twisted sense of humour that we were going to write a story which was a bit of a pisstake on business networking and about how Willie the Freak was holed up in the Castle of Networking in the Southern Realm of Mediocrity as he has the secret list of names tattooed uner his eyelids, i thought this was funny as the guy was a big networking and has a huge network on Linkedin, but I think we are getting another story, as Todd, mr Sinister Urge himself is writing a story for us, so cant wait to see that, as we have found an animation studio willing to do us a couple of trailers. forgot to say that Stu Smith the artist got all his mates to send him photographs of them posing for the severed heads. the picture of willie is in me albums if you want to go check him out. Creating Willie the Freak, for what it took to put him together

Your Face
I woke up too sick to get out of bed. I was up too late dancing with the ghosts in my head. drank too much wine and wished I were dead- I was up too late dancing with the ghosts in my head. I could be ok and not feel so wasted if each ghost that spun me round the floor didn't wear your face. so I spend the night in a melancholy place- toasting each memory that I can't replace. maybe one more drink can lay these ghosts to rest. ©KinkyScreams 2006

A Survey
1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it? 7. Describe me in one word? 8. What was your first impression? 9. Do you still think that way about me now? 10. What reminds you of me? 11. If you could give me anything what would it be? 12. How well do you know me? 13. When's the last time you saw me? 14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

After 12 Years...
Well after twelve years my real dad wants to be a part of my life. For the past ten years i had a horrible step dad is now out of my life for good. I am very excited to have my real dad back in my life.

Bullets Fly A Heart Dies
The child sits there waiting Hoping it doesn't show Gun in hand Thinking about it the least he can In his mind he thinks he's a man He thinks about dying. He thinks about the time that waits I'm a man I think I can The man walks through the door He points I think I can he aims I think I can He squeezes I think I can The bullet flies His heart screams NO! The man, father, dand and loved one falls He feels death enter the room He looks at him Eye to eye He feels like he's the one who died He sinks to the floor crying aloud "Let me die," he screams Death looks him in the eyes and says, "You have." As he feels his heart and soul die He cries. BY: Sheila Christian

Does He Hear Me Cry
Does he hear when i cry? quietly, god so pathetically in the library? quietly, so consumingly when i fall asleep, alone, always alone and cold? Does he know i'm not stupid? that i know that no one really cares? even when they say they do? beware of men bearing gifts Does he know that i'm aware? that i'm aware that i'm alone? that i know my cross to bear is mine? Does he know that i'm already broken? and have been for years? The shards that my life has made of me wrapped delicately in tape? Or does he just see the packaging like everyone else and assume i'll be okay? Nobody knows and now he joins them so typical That voice so harsh so piercing so real so truthful actions speak louder than words that voice speaks volumes the actions scream indifference All the answers are no This romance is bullshit a childish memory...a pacifier for what is real This leaves a shell of a shell of a shell and no one hears And even if they did, they'd pretend they cared an

You Know Your A Kajira When.....
... you forgot what panties feel like. ... you have bigger calluses on your knees than on your feet. ... foreplay to you is tying your hair into a knot. ...it gives you goosebumps when the man at the customer service counter tells you "no" in a firm voice. ... you cannot serve tea in less than twenty different steps. ... you respond "Yes, Master!" to your boss when he tells you to do something. ... you cannot cum without permission. ... your thigh muscles protest when you close your legs. ...begging has become second nature. ... the term "being used" no longer has a negative connotation. ... you overhear someone utter the word "slut" and you think they are talking about you. ... the term "slut" used in reference to you makes you all warm and fuzzy inside. ... you have forgotten that "juicing" is what you do with oranges. ... your head doubles as a resting spot for beer. ... you mix third and first person in both text and speech. ... you will

School Sucks!!
Ok I officially hate school! lol I am a Junior at the University of Louisiana at Monroe and I am majoring In elementary education with a psychology minor. I always have SO much homework! It's killin me! I feel like the more homework I do the more I get assigned to me! *blah* This sucks!!!

My Gypsy
To the ground falls another vivid scarf With each undulation Veils of every hue tease the senses of those who watch. Finger cymbals dance Mirroring the motion of her hips Creating music to the tapping of her feet. In the firelight The coal-dark hair shimmers Falling in waist-length waves that swirl as she spins. Madame Gypsy floats upon a cloud Evoking sinful thoughts of passion and sensuality Calling to the heavens with each breathless note she sings. The wagon train travels into the sun On a luminous autumn day One by one each person steps into her wagon. Shadows and images swirl within a sphere of crystal Slowly they become clear Likenesses of what has yet to come appear within the haze of shades. If you grace her palm with silver She'll read yours Divulge to you what lies beyond. Will I live forever? Will I ever fall in love? Will my life be full of joy? To these questions there are no answers All that can be foretold Is what

I Tend To...
i tend to blog...a lot....haha.....maybe it wont be so bad here, but i doubt that very much...im at work...work is sucking something fierce....im going to go home and take a nice bath tonight maybe pics? haha who knows....only the shadow...haha, eyup im kinda corny, oh well, laterz

Lay Me Down
Lay me down to die, Let my last tears drift from my eyes. Let the wind blow through my hair, For I will no longer care. Place me gently upon the cold earth. Let the morning dew wet my body through. Let the earths moisture seep inside me. And return me to its grey brown hue. Place my ashen face to the west, Looking to places where I have been. Where Ive felt a sun kissed smile on me, And my mind can fade at peace with that final scene Leave me as silent as the wind, Blowing high in the atmosphere. Dont make a sound, My memories of my lovers voice are all I want to hear. Let me lay there on the ground, Let me absorb my final fate. Let me leave this world alone. If he cant be my final Date. KinkyScreams 2006©

Stupid People..
Have you ever had one of those days where you just wanna " LAYETH THE SMACKETH DOWN ON PEOPLES CANDY ASSES" I had to talk to so many stupid people today just wanted to knock them out.. I think that they should have to wear a shirt that says how dumb they really are... Just wanted to vent a little.. lol If you feel the same way give me a hell yeah!!!!!!

Yay For Babyjesus
I've been waiting for this feature for a long time! You rule mike! Everyone reading this be sure to come visit the flownet lounge http://lostcherry.com/lounge.php?l=39 And listen to your favorite DJs.. I'm broadcasting right now 9-13 until 9pm eastern... You can catch my regular shows Twisted Tuesday 9pm to whenever I get off the air! Friday Freak Fest 9pm to whenever I get off the air! Blazing Underground 9pm-midnight Saturday - Sunday All times Eastern! Go check us out at www.flownet-radio.org and load up the DJs playlist where you can request & dedications from over 4000+ songs!

My Kindred Spirit
You're my kindred spirit, my diamond in the rough. The breath my body craves, my friend when times are tough. The laughter in my voice, the smile on my face. You're the one that brings me, to this happy place. You're fingers wipe the tears, that sometimes seem to fall. No matter what your doing, you always take my call. You're the light in my darkness, the shadow in my day. You're the hand that holds me close, in many loving ways. You're my kindred spirit, the one that fills my soul. You're my kindred spirit, the one that makes me whole. ©KinkyScreams

My Story..........
The darkness broken by the dawn Brings within its glow a promise Of warmth and life, burning within The bosom of the earth Rising up to wrap in its protective Force the life, which grows upon its back. Chapter I The rain had finally stopped; it had been raining for seven days straight, with very little time between the storms. That had been battering the coast, it was however a relief, the year had provided very little moisture. The whole forest was a tinderbox waiting for a spark. The animals were starting to come out of their hiding places to soak up the sun, and revel in the ready supply of water. A stag cautiously approached a stream running in the bottom of a shallow valley. The tree line stopped several hundred yards above the stream, and the stag waited and watched the area for a long time before leaving the cover of the trees. He took one more look around before dipping his head down into the stream to quickly and deeply drink his fill. The Stags ear twitched and

My First Blog On Lc!
Im really stoked on this new cool blog feature.. after all i was the one who sent baby jesus the idea about having blogs.. hehe.. its cool that now i can post what happend today or whats on my mind. Thanks babyjesus!! :) ~*Samantha~*

My First Real Blog Entry On The Lc...dun Dun Duuuun
Random thoughts.... Life is good... Wish the sun would come out and the wind would blow... I'm glad my family is coming here for Christmas this year... I'm glad there are so many cool people on the LC... I'm glad there are blogs on LC now... I'm glad LostCherry women's shirts now come in 4 colors (red, pink, black, white) XXL&XXXL now available in both men's and women's. :) I can't wait until the 1st SlySugar Bash... Scrapper is a pimp... C-L

I Just Posted This On Myspace, So Why Not Here Too....
I miss you alot you may have thought i forgot but i will never forget i cant bring myself to tell you just yet So here is my confession to the world I miss my life when you were my girl.

Omg!
I just found out that LC has blogs...LMAO! I've been on here for months, and I didn't even know...gee, I'm smart! Anyways...so maybe I'll use it...but more than likely not often! Hope all is going well with whoever took the time to read this pointless thing, just 'coz I wrote it! You guys kick my ass! I love ya! Anyways...Damn...I'm lonely. So lonely...maybe it's time to give someone a chance and not be single anymore. I met this guy from Omaha on the internet and he seems pretty cool! And then there is David. I wish he lived closer than Colorado 'coz he is so awesome. We would get along great, I can tell. Maybe I will move to Colorado someday...maybe. I'm not sure yet, what I am going to do...but I know I want to get out of BFE, Nebraska. And hopefully...I don't get stuck having to come back again...like last time, when I moved to Texas, and my brother came up missing and ever since...I've been stuck here yet again! Oh wells...you guys can love me if you want to reply t

My Labor Of Love
Holding my breath watching the world go by Waiting for that gust of wind to knock me off But not knowing from where it will come I dig my heels in deeper As the world starts spinning faster The wind picks up And off I fly........... darkness Flying.. flying.. not knowing where I'll land So confused... scared... alone Slowly I start descend I begin to see Warmth and light.. surrounded by your love Cradled in your feelings of kindness No longer watching the world spin No longer fearing the wind No longer having to struggle to hold on Because you're now holding me I've landed in your love.. ©KinkyScreams

For All My Juggalo N Juggalette Family...
This is just a little message i found on myspace that i thought was pretty important to the Family, for all of us to think about, so please just take a few minutes to read it... JUGGALOZ- Sorry to be all deep and serious but i got lots of shit on my mind. I'm tired of everything and everybody. The only thing i give a shit about in this hell we call a world is my Juggalo Family. The Carnival saved my life and my soul. My Juggalo Pride is the best thing that ever happened to me. It's starting to scare me for the fact when I sit back and actually observe the juggalo world, It seems like its going down hill. It seems to me that a lot of ninjas are out for self and trying to prove whos a bigger juggalo that who. There is no big or small juggalo. We are all the same. It doesn't take $4,000 is psychopathic merchandise to be a juggalo. Just because I got an old school mostastless jersey doesn't make me any better than a ninja with only one t-shirt. Being a juggalo is whats in your hea

A Funny Thing Called Love
To be Loved by another is truely a wonderful gift,sometimes it is taken for granted and we loose site of what is really our life's treasure.Always be honest with the one you Love, for they will appreciate it more then any words can express.Love is a funny and cruel thing, it can make you feel like you can't breathe, and can be taken away just as it came to you.Giving someone all your Love is never an assurance that they will Love you back.Don't expect Love in return, just wait for it to grow in theit hearts, and be happy that it grew in yours.

ἈnΆГkh? What's That?
In the prolog to “Notre Dame de Paris” Victor Hugo describes how he found this stone while walking through Notre Dame with the word “ἈNΆГKH” in it. It’s an ancient Greek word and means something like “inescapable doom” and he wondered what lost desperate soul spent so much time up there to crave it into stone, what haunted it? And out of this wondering he wrote “Notre Dame de Paris” I think you know it better under the name “The Hunchback of Notre Dame”

New T-shirts
Hey crew.. Be sure to check out the new T-Shirts. We now have women's shirts in Pink and Red. We have added XL, XXL and XXXL in both Men and Women. Now all of you lovely plus size ladies can bling the LC logo with pride. Check out our new and improved logo at http://lostcherry.com/user/40820

I Am Sorry
I am Sorry. My heart was broken, and my body ached, I felt I had let you down. As I held the shell of you...My soul was shattered. You depended on me, and nothing else mattered. Please forgive me I am sorry..... Its been weeks since you left, I had to face the world without you. I had so little pride, right now I feel so hollow with no where to hide. I thought time would heal, but it seems to be getting worse. How I wish I could put the clock back in reverse. I am sorry!!!! I would always talk to you in the late hours of the night. I wanted everything to be alright...but I fucked up. Now you are gone, And I will not be the same Once again my sweetheart....I am sorry!!! ©KinkyScreams

The (true) Story Of How Zepman Met Jimmy Page
"HOW I MET JIMMY PAGE" This is Zepman’s fantastic-but-true story of how a business trip to England led to a definite highpoint of my life, actually meeting Jimmy Page (my favorite all-time guitarist and songwriter) at his house in Windsor. CHAPTER ONE By the summer of '99, I had already done many favors for the Director of Product and Customer training at the last company where I worked, filling in for other instructors when they couldn't make it for customer classes that were imminent and couldn't be rescheduled or cancelled. Besides my normal job responsibilities with INRANGE - installing and servicing Channel Switches, Directors, Channel Extenders, Data Comm Matrix Switches, etc. - I also was assisting the training department by conducting product training at customer accounts all over the US. Just before the Director left the company, a choice training class request came in for an overseas customer, the Royal Navy, located at a NATO base just north of London. She re

Untitled
It's been such a long Though it seems like yesterday I've been meaning to call you But I didn't know what to say. I don't know Where we went wrong Guess it doesn't matter When it's all said and done. Still the memories live on and on. I know we all make mistakes. But I wish that we could try again. It's hard to lose a lover Especially when you were my best friend. I don't know why We let go To be alone Still the memories burn in my soul. BY: Sheila Christian

Woman Rule
One morning the husband returns after several hours of fishing and to take a nap. Although not familiar with the lake, the wife decides to take the boat out. She motors out a short distance, anchors, and reads her book. Along comes a Game Warden in his boat. He pulls up alongside the woman and says, "Good morning, Ma'am. What are you doing?" "Reading a book," she replies, (thinking, "Isn't that obvious?") "You're in a Restricted Fishing Area," he informs her. "I'm sorry, officer, but I'm not fishing. I'm reading." "Yes, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at any moment. I'll have to take you in and write you up." "If you do that, I'll have to charge you with sexual assault," says the woman. "But I haven't even touched you," says the game warden. "That's true, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at any moment." "Have a nice day ma'am," and he left. MORAL: Never argue with a woman who reads. It's li

My First Blog
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm what to talk about... well been sick for a few days now, which totally sucks but what can ya do when ya got three kids and 2 of them are in school. My hubby ( twaly67 ) is coming home and I soooooooooo can't wait to see him,, even though he'll prolly not want to touch me in fear of getting sick. My son turns 9 on the 19.. omg where does time go? well off to feed the kids... damn didnt I just feed them yesterday?? see ya, Me

Just Rambling......
Well.....it is a long boring rainy day here,and I'm soooo tired.Don't you just love how rainy days make you sleepy and all you want to do is stay in bed?I do! The "kids" (kittens) are running rampant around the apartment...I wish john could see them.He misses so much when he's at work!Ban-Dia and Mercury are terrorizing Eirinn and Orange.it's so cute! As much as I love them...they drive me crazy. Well that's it for now...write more later!

Lc Family
Brittany - Britt Saxxy - Saxxy Melissa - Mel Krystal - Krystal Alexis - lexie Mike - t-bo Brandy - Babygirl Kellette Francisco - babyboy Kevin - gmz Chris - iceman Crystal - Cryss Claire - clariem43 Nemoa - Neo Ariel - ari-friekin-el Hietu - Dexy Philipina (RIP) Sheila - Serenity Courtney - Starlette Sarah - Kongy Krystal - harpiegirl™ Christa - theShowgirl Kay - Sketel Boom Bari - b to the k Lexi - lexiynm Anwanur - FMP twisted~sunshine *~ash~* Kim - MYLF Hazel Sammie - lips of an angel Hottsmokin Kinky Vixen- Hunterslady Nica Lauren - Laurenbabe420 Candice Sabby - ninjasabby Ressa - Dollface♥ Angie - Breezy Pooja Rachel - Raindrop Muerte Bella Melissa - Melkins Alex - ♥ Airdnaxlea ♥ Yourillusion Ameila Jo - Ic Baby Ice Jen - sugasuga Mel - Melikins You guys are wonderful and are like my second family. You rock :)

Cool
It's cool that we can create blogs now. Now I can blog about how boring my day was. Had my first day off in a few weeks. It was nice not having to do anything, but it did get boring after a bit. Oh well, there's always work for me this weekend..yay! Nothing exciting to speak of, so, this shall be all.

Mary had a little pig, She kept it fat and plastered; And when the price of pork went up, She shot the little bastard. ******************** MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB Her father shot it dead. Now it goes to school with her, Between two hunks of bread. ******************** JACK AND JILL Went up the hill To have a little fun. Stupid Jill forgot the pill And now they have a son. ******************** SIMPLE SIMON met a Pie man going to the fair. Said Simple Simon to the Pie man, "What have you got there?" Said the Pie man unto Simon, "Pies, you Dumb Ass" ******************** HUMPTY DUMPTY sat on a wall, Humpty Dumpty had a great fall. All the kings' horses and all the kings' men. Had scrambled eggs For breakfast again. ******************** HEY DIDDLE, DIDDLE the cat took a piddle, All over the bedside clock. The little dog laughed to see such fun. Then died of electric shock. ******************** GEORGIE PORGY Pudding and Pie, Kissed the girls and made them cry.

Lc Friends
Here's to all all my LC Friends... i have myspace, tag world, and Lost Cherry. I have met so good friends on all of them... But none compare to my Lost Cherry Friends... Luv ya all... Take care and be safe in all you do...

'lonelygirl15' Creators Admit To Youtube Fiction
September 13, 2006 2:31 PM PDT When the 1999 film "The Blair Witch Project" was revealed to be a fictional creation rather than the real footage from a young filmmaking team that met a horrific end, plenty breathed a sigh of relief. But now that "Lonelygirl15," a cute video blogger who claimed to be a homeschooled 16-year-old girl named "Bree" has been outed as an actress in a scripted Internet video project, plenty of her YouTube fans are sad to learn she isn't the real deal. So, here's the real story. The "Lonelygirl15" videos were created by three twenty-somethings in the Los Angeles area who were intrigued by the nascent phenomena of podcasting and video blogging and admitted to the Web community on Wednesday that they'd created a set of fictional clips. "Bree" herself is really a 19-year-old actress from New Zealand named Jessica Rose. Contrary to rumors, the video blog was not a promotion behind a new major-studio movie or TV show--it appears to have been just the work of a

Holy Shit
i am so frikin bored... i am home babysitting my sisters 3 kids and they are definatly a fun bunch... the first is a 15yr old boy who is into goth and hates the world... ya he is so with the wrong crowd.. the next is a 9 yr old boy... all about him him him.. he wants everyones attention and will pretty much do anything to get it... Then the best of all.. well worst in reality is my 6yr old niece... she is omg.. where do i start.. if its not her way its the high yells.. she screams at everything and i give her anything i want.. she cant play nice and if she see's some one with something she wants... she'll get it one way or another... so i guess in all actuallity i am never bored when they are here.. but they are at the park across the road so i am bored... sorry for blabbing and rambling on and on ppls... take care and have a great nite.. Luv ya bunches... Dakota

Safe Haven
Such a lovely day Quite it is true and warm. Feelings that subside are feelings that we must be hiding in subtlety and shame. Though they are nonexistent and not creatures tis should be just considered as a kind. A kind but volatile creature. Oh such a lovly day alright. Not a sight for a blight spot anywhere. Rather fields of grasses growing everywhere. A vehement structure stands alone in the grassfields. Ah the gentle breezes that blows thru and thru. Sitting down I look up to the azure sea. Breathing deeply under this vehemence I begin to hum. Whispering thru the winds I gaze and find myself a stranger in dress. She hums along and sits next to me putting her head on my shoulder. Ah such a lovely day alright as I sit under the shade alongside with the gril I love and humming the same song together we become one with our lips locked together...such a lovley day alright.

Sept 13th 2006
Hello all my family, friends & fans.. I am leaven my first blog here to let you all know I will be gone from September 14th till September 23rd. I am haven the time of my life. And I can not wait to leave. I will mis you all. An be taken you all with me in my heart. Love Kinky

I Hate Being Sick!
okay here's the deal.. i have a really bad cold and it is kicking my ass right now.. I don't get sick that often , but when I do .. watch out.. just thought i would post a blog cuz we can n ow, and i thought I would test it out, but could not think of anhything else to write about..lol

Wow
So we get blogs now?? Crazy... But I guess now you peoples can here about more of me...from you know...me *Classes suck *I hate living in a dorm cause I miss my cat *I may be shooting my new SG set this weekend when I do go home *LC has been a bitch for me to get on to lately...I finally got on after a day of fighting it *I'm sleepy *So now Im gonna go either read a book or visit my best friend... *Or post more pics...hmm... choices choices *Perhaps I shall do all three *And do my hair... Love you guys *kisses* ~Stina

A Poem I Totally Love.....
TALANDERS Kajira looks inside her soul and sees that she's failing. Soft tears roll down her cheeks one by one as she stares out of the window watching the raindrops hit the glass. Her eyes travel upward to the dark clouds and dimly, she's aware of lightning slicing through the sky. The tears feel hot against her skin but don't warm the chill spreading through her. swan is not supposed to think of her needs but of her master's, Yet here she sits her heart filled with sorrow Loneliness consuming her In his absence. kajira knows that Her master is doing what must be done, and even though she doesn't have him to hold she should be content in the knowledge that he knows best which path to tread. Where is her slave's courage? Where is her inner kajira strength? Where has all her training gone? Why does she weep for something she cannot change? Alone, Kajira asks herself these questions Unable to come up with the answers. Her fingertips trace Ma

Broken Wings
Broken wings... Sept 9th, 2006 my wings are broken no more halo my heart is burning, feel so wrong dont know wat to do or where i am all that i know is that i cant keep going on like this what is it i missed when will this all end its too late i cant keep doing it hurting others like i am hurting the one i love fighting and feuding over and over its gotta end i want it to be good, make her happy no more regrets more joy in both our lives! make her love me more than before!

Its Fookin Murder
Well its been three days since i last had a cigarette after about 29 years of smoking, had to give up for health reasons, could no longer run for a bus and was coughing up bits of lung everywhere which aint attractive, so am on the nicotine patches and being like oscar the grouch on acid hahahahah so if you are having the same problem and could do with someone to talk to who is as well let me know as i am in between, I dont belong in the realms of the non smokers yet and I dont belong with the smokers no more, its hellish being in limbo, got to try and not feed my face till it bursts now.

Winds Come Whistle
Winds come whistle howl across the vista of the imagination sprinkled dreams of starlike qualities tender mercies lost inside a vision that was laying on an empty seat in some coach or another travelling to another town that no ones ever been to or ever will again changing as it does with every shifting grain of sand scattered by the breeze and if a tear should wake the dead and grant them dreams anew then maybe we'll dance again maybe me and you...

Random Thoughts
I see the blog tab. I click......and now it's magic, no? This is a new feature right? I was just thinking that this would be great if it had a blog part and wham......got my b-day wish. WOOHOOO! Okay so I'm slightly hyper from my grape juice. I love Killswitch Engage and Alex is so sexy it kills me. I have tomorrow off thank GOD! I have no more Grape juice. I hate that I'm not sure of everyones intentions here on the site. :( I'm not here to be picked up. I've already been swept off my feet. Thanks for the offer tho.

Yet Another Cool Feature
LC does it again :) Another cool feature. I love this place. Much better then Myspace :) Remember don't be shy.Feel free to comment,rate both my page and my pics :) Thanks and hope to hear from all of you soon D@nny

The Incubus
Sometimes life is rough and you can’t see straight anymore. You find something worth holding onto Amidst all the struggle And cherish its very existence. You cling so tightly for fear that it will fade away. The fear driving that very thing making things worth it away from you The fear that the one thing is gone forever is killing you inside Sometimes a small laugh or a voice can help calm the mind A hello and a goodbye until we meet again. A simple caress, an exchange of words To get me through the day To kill all the pain. To keep the incubus, the demons, the darkness at a comfortable distance Slowly until everything spins madly out of control Spiraling into oblivion Leaving nothing left of the life that I once held Clinging only to vices that slowly destroy Walking out of the home and into a world that no longer shows love For me, maybe love cannot exist. For me, maybe it never did.

Female Singer In A Lonely Bar
'Water dream of summer city drifting streets singing songs of... and all the while foot tapping down the line Itchy feet a wander dusty road tear drapped night singing songs of... and all the while foot tapping down the line and every whistle sends a shiver and every whistle tweaks a dream from yesterday and ain't no song ever sung the beauty with the pain and all the blues ain't the hue of night and all your tears flow a differant way and all the kisses taste a differant flavor illusion mathmaticians twisting minds with advert lines of buy bye bye Water dream of summer city drifting streets singing songs of... and all the while foot tapping down the line...' She sang and my heart listened alone in the corner hidden in shadows hidden in my tears and all the while I hung on every note and every word and every song she sang for me invisible in the crowd... I lit a cigerette leant back and closed my eyes living through her

Wait!!!!!
the other members blog entries goes into the "for me" section instead of "by friends" one? that's not good so it will be kinda chaotic don't you think? they should put the other's blog entries into the by friends section :| and personal blog comments into the for me cus u all know how much ppl loves theese blogs (bleah lol) so since lots of ppl will post entires the for me section will have only friends blog entries and it's not right or we'll lost all our personal notifies and comments and all :| if someone knows hot to let the webmastars know that i would love it :)

This Is A Tribute To The Girls That Get Pushed
This is a tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in t

A Love Poem I Wrote...
The Dreams of Me & You... Thoughts Come, Thoughts Go Thoughts of you never fade into the distant sun.. Only makin My wants & dreams stronger, As time passes on.. All my wants & dreams sink deeper into my heart, Knowing the feelings I feel.. Knowing I got to do what it takes, To be with you... Thoughts Come, Thoughts Go My ever lasting thoughts of you.. Make My Dreams come true, Knowing I am going to be with you.. Old dreams Reached, never forgotten, New Dreams formed.. I found my dream to be with you, New dreams wanting to be with you now, And til the end of time... To be your Support, Physically.. Mentally.. Emotionally.. To be your Baby Boy, Is first dream come true... To be in your beautiful presence, Is Next dream to come true... To hug you & never let go, Is Best Dream to Soon come true... Kisses to the wonderful thoughts, About our dreams of our Future... The Perfect Thoughts of Me & You, Growing together Lovingly, To be Our Dream

The First Time
The First time i saw you There was no way i could forget Everything about you stayed with me With you'er voice in my head and sent on my mind When we met i couldent belive You truly are the man of my dreams Everything i say is true You'er the love of my life And now i blong to you Mold me Scold me Hold me But please never give me away..

The History
As all the stuff that relates to this project is all over the place will attempt to pull it all together here in the one place so you can see the progress and the pitfalls of turning people into cartoons and getting them animated, it will be a bit like the motorcycle diaries but without the bikes, bear with me as there is loads of it.

Lol
well, i never know what to say in these things...alot has gone on lately, and right now i guess i can say that im lucky to not have a concussion... darn storage closet, gotta raise its roof... 4 feet and im almost 6...doesnt work too well!!! well... i think im done for now, lol hit me up

Forever
Forever in darkness and in fear Forever in pain and in tears Forever is longer and loney its true Till the forever when i found you. Now forever is blissful and sweet. You shine on forever with love and grace. holding it brightly within you'er hands. Now i know why forever is used I have forever cuse i'm with you!

New Blog Feature..
so, if you're reading this, you've seen our new blog feature. it's still very basic, but we're working on adding more shite to it. it might seem a little buggy at the start. some weird behavior might be caused by our caching layer.. we'll be fixing the weirdness as it happends. poke around.. let me know whatcha think. cheers, -mike