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I Like Being Unperfect
I like beingUNPERFECT.... May the angels protect youTrouble neglect youAnd heaven accept you when it's time to go homeMay you always have plentyThe glass never emptyKnow in your bellyYou're never alone May your tears come from laughingYou find friends worth havingWith every year passingThey mean more than goldMay you win and stay humbleSmile more than grumbleAnd know when you stumbleYou're never alone

Fallen But Never Forgotten!!!
My Sweet Angel taken away, I see your wings so bright and beautiful. Mesmarized by your beauty and the glow around you, all I can do is stand in a gaze. Why did he take you, why did you go. Wasn't you better off with me rather than wanting to go! What a pecial man, what soldier you where. Leave all your precious memories and the smiles we all preserve. I feel your presence and the safety you fought so hard for! What will we do, how will we cope. Maybe a simple sigh from time to time or a smile when your precious face crosses our mind! The space left in my heart says "No doubt that you will never ever be forgotten in my mind!" In the loving memory of Billy, USMC...... :(

This Song Go'z Out To The Underground Railroad ......
Resist the temptation of the beast, you'll slip and loose your grip and forever fall a sleep. The venom is contagious, beware of itz spell what you thought would be heaven ... turn'z out to be hell. I wonder if she knows the devils taken off her clothes... deep into her soul slow.. now he'z in control. Poppa'z doing worse.. a victim of the deadly curse wouldn't be the first to leave the ghetto in a hurse. and oh how it hurts. The children pay the biggest price, never get the chance to grow up with a happy life! Blame it on the rock but we know that's a bunch of crap someone's at the top supplying us with much crack. Keep them in a daze..don't let them see the other way let'em all get paid..wont live to see another day. See they never got a breath of the sunshine, now the kids addicted and only hit it 1 time We are destined to be dead as a nation, don't let it come to this, resist the temptation. Gamble for your soul with the devil you wonder how low can you go, b

What I Would Like To Find Someday....
The term Daddy Dom got me thinking about the misconceptions surrounding this aspect of D/s. I realize most think that it involves a father/daughter relationship. That isn't quite true, Daddy/little girl is a much different level. I do not know if I can explain what I mean so I will simply talk about what a Daddy Dom is to me. First I should say that in my relationship my Dom is not my father, he is nothing like my father, and I have no need for him to replace my father. He is however my Daddy. We do not engage in age play specifically (beyond the occasional schoolgirl fantasy *s*) and our relationship is not based on any need to have sex with children.I am always all woman, and always a very independent woman. He does have the ability to make me feel like a little girl, however, a very cherished and sometimes needy little girl. It is a feeling that I revel in, it is the safest place I have ever been, and it allows me the freedom to be all that I am without fear of reprisals. So what ma

I'm A Sucker For Surveys!
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance? hah yeah maybe 2 peopleLast person you were on the phone with for more than 20 minutes?DirkWould you go out in public looking like you do now?yes just came out of the publicSo, what do you know what your getting for your birthday?I want to know what i'm getting for xmas firstIf the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you kiss back?YEP:)Is there any time cheating is okay?hell no Has anyone ever sang to you?THEY HAVEHave you held hands with somebody in the past three days?YESHow was your weekend?It was good saturday was busy and sunday was stressful cuase of schoolDo you know anyone with the same birthday as you?celine dion hahaHow do you feel right now?pretty good! Ready for tomorrowDid the last person who hurt you, ever apologize?yeah but wasn't very sympathic Are you a mean person?IF I NEED TO BECan a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?ehh I don't no there was p

The Prince And The Courtesan.
How sad is it that what I'm looking forward to mostpossibly in the next six monthsis drinking half a bottle of nyqul and passing out in a pool of watery snot and syrupy drool before 10:00. The life of a wheezing, sneezing prince. I hear there's some direct correlation between health, wealth and happiness with your- what do the french call it? ...well I call it my will to live. I once watched a video about how you can get what you want simply by squeezing your eyes shut, and wishing wishing wishing til you get it. Here's my list. three 65 mustangs1 candy-gloss cherry red1 solid piano black with black tinted windows1 german blue with 2 cream-white racing stripes a beautiful girl, the element of fire, skin the color of clay, hair the color of copper, the kind you meet at the beginning of the world, or the end of time. Just a touch more hips and ass than tits. a book serial deal every day long lazy and relaxed. Hammocks over the sand. Crystal waters murmuring me to sleep.Coconut

The Scruffy Old Biker
BEHIND THIER WHITE PICKET FENCE THEY LIVE TUCKED SAFELY AWAY IN SCHOOL WITH A BOOK OR AN OFFICE AT WORK ,,, IS THIER DAY LATER AT NIGHT AROUND THE TABLE AS A FAMILY THEY PRAY ON THE WEEKENDS WITH KITES AND FRISSBEE'S THEY PLAY THEN .. OUT OF NOWHERE.. LOUD PIPES UP THEY WAY .. A BIKER APEARS ,, A STAIN ON THIER DAY LONG HAIRED & SCRUFFYHIS CLOTHES ON THE FRAY. DO THEY GREET HIM WITH WELCOME OR EVEN SAY HEY ?? NO ... WITH LOATHING & FEAR THEY TURN AWAY THE SCRUFFY OLD BIKER IS UNWELCOME TO STAY BUT HE UNDERSTANDS, FOR BEING HIMSELF THIS IS THE PRICE THAT HE PAYS . SO HE GATHERS HIS THINGS AND PACKS THEM AWAY A TOY RUN IS SCHEDULED FOR LATER THAT DAY AS HE RIDES FOR THE TOT'S BAD WEATHER HOLDS SWAY DOES THE WIND & RAIN END HIS RUN ? HE SAYS NO FUK'N WAY !!! THIER ARE FAMILES OUT THERE WITH BILLS THEY CANT PAY & AND WIDE EYED CHILDREN WHO NEED GIFTS CHRISTMASS DAY !! LATER THAT NIGHT SOAKED TO THE BONE IN HIS BED AS HE LAYS .... A FEVER & COUGHSET IN T

For James In Memory Of His Momma...
She is Gone You can shed tears that she is gone Or you can smile because she has lived You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left Your heart can be empty because you can't see her Or you can be full of the love that you shared You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday You can remember her and only that she is gone Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back Or you can do what she would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Bay Watch Star Hasselhoff Released From Hospital
Let’s see if I have this right. Bay Watch star David Hasselhoff was released from the psychiatric ward of Cedars of Sinai Medical Center after his daughter called 911 because her dad had a seizure. I thought psychiatric wards were for nut cases not strokes. Oh well he’s out now with or without a full brain. If you’re confused you can get the story here: http://wonderwall.msn.com/tv/hasselhoff-hospitalized-1527829.story?gt1=28135 You can always get the real thing at BlastFM. No need to worry about getting a seizure or needing a psychiatrist cause BlastFM will get your mind straight. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

For Witchy In Memory Of Aryonna
You were born of me! You are my child and at death you shall return to me. Fear not of death, dear one, for within its realm I shall bring you new life! Just as the corn lives again, so shall it be with you! For all that falls shall rise again, and that which dies shall be blessed with the gift of rebirth, the gift of My love!Kalioppe

No Longer
I no longer have any faith or believe in anything or anyone, not even in myself. What happens when you don't believe, trust, or have faith? Did I wake up to this or was I always like this but only pretending? Bottom line? There isn't any. Heaven and Hell? Life or death? It matters or it doesn't? You care or don't? I care or don't? In twenty five days it will be Christmas and I doubted reaching this evening in January. Highly unlikely I'll reach Christmas and if I did of ever making any of the New Year's. Last evening I told telemitsu that it is called off. Basically to scatter. At times I am cold as ice and Heartless like a stone to do what I've done so far and to keep any sanity. I disassociate my personality because of the emotional pain of what is going on right in front of me. Either I'm doing it or another. Once this is learned each time or each one can take off on their own if not dealt with. I saw everything far as this last hospitalization and what took place and how I would ju

All I Think About Is You
It is quite interesting how I woke up this morning and was off tp wprk as usual at about 420 am and I decided to put in what I thought was a Korn CD that I got from work about a wk ago. Because it was dark and i really wasn't paying attn to nothing but the case, I put it in and let it commence to play. Once it got going, this is what I heard:All I Think About Is You I woke up today in London As the plane was touching down All I could think about was monday Maybe I'd be back around If this keeps me away much longer I dont know what I would do You've got to understand it's a hard life That I'm going thru And when the night falls in around me I dont think I'll make it thru I'll use your light to guide the way Cause all I think about is you But L.A. is getting kind of crazy And New York is getting kind of cold I keep my head from getting lazy I just cant wait to get back home And all these days I spend away I'll make up for this I swear I need your love to hold me up when it's all to mu

World Gratitude Practice~day 11~entopic Gratitude~blissfully Spinning Into A Trance-like State? Simply Focus On Gratitude.
ENTOPIC GRATITUDE Ready to create ecstatic change,blissfully spinning into a trance-like state?Simply focus on Gratitude.You see ...spirals, circles, dots and gridsare all geometric signals of a happyning shift~ as seen by the minds eye~entopic forms transporting us beyond the normto worlds of wonder, bliss, ecstasy and JOYall present within YOUopening through this symbol of Gratitude.*** Go Gratitude!***Remember ~our heavens dance in circles and spirals,from the smallest atoms to the grandest galaxies.So it is, too, with you as Gratitude.***"At one time alphabets were based and related to"shape-forms." Some of the earliest examples of linearsymbols in Europe were found in Magdalenian cave sites(12,000-17,000 years before the present time).There is also a skull discovered at Mezhirich in the Ukraine,painted with tiver (red ochre) that dates from 14,000years ago. These identifiable symbols are stillrecognizable today. They include the runes, the cross,the swastika and many religious and

World Gratitude Practice~day 10~grip On Gratitude~both Give & Receive, Our Hands Serve Support, Create, Soothe Administrate Life
GRIP ON GRATITUDEArtPeace by RassouliMake a right-handed fist ... now cup this curled grip withyour left fist and voila! Gratitude in the palm of your hands.

World Gratitude Practice~day 9~see(k) Gratitude~in Order To Gain A Peaceful Perspective Of Current Happynings, Focus On What Is
SEE(K) GRATITUDE *Eye of God* ~ courtesy NASA In order to gain a peaceful perspectiveof current happynings and present possibilities,Gracefully guide the Self to a State of Gratitudeby focusing attention on what IS ~giving thanks for the large and small, the gift of it allby using this powerfully-simple, ever-so-present toolfor creating NOW as it feels good to YOU.Remember - See(k) the world through Gratitudeand (k)new views will open for you. Just for today ...Look around ~ what (k)new views may be gainedby using Gratitude to transform:challenge to gift,chore to chance,detour and delay to a Divinely timed dance.***Go Gratitude!***Naikan is the art of inner observation, or seeing one's Selfthrough the inner eye. Enjoy this quick interview withGregg Ketch, director of the To Do institute, author andwild fan of Gratitude! Click here to GO!********************************************************** World Gratitude Gathering ~~ Aligning with the Heart's calling and Embracing theGreat*ful

World Gratitude Practice~day 8~hugging You In Gratitude~open Your Arms Ever So Wide. Then Lovingly Wrap Them Round You
HUGGING YOU IN GRATITUDE Open your arms ever so wide.Then lovingly wrap them round your front sideand HUG, HUG, HUG yourself. Gently sway from left to right,caressing the body with adoring pride,squeezing, pleasing, and joyfully teasingthis earth suit holding YOU. Now, imagine looking down from above ... Yes! It's you hugging you in Gratitude with Love! ***Go Gratitude!***Now that you've wrapped yourself in Gratitude,extend this gift to others, too! Next time you do -open your heart, creating a portal for your Loveand Gratitude to flow through, intentionallysending gentle waves to warm, comfort andconnect on every level.You will feel the difference - and others will, too! Beware! You might find others getting in lineas Word gets round you are the best hugger in town!***"Inside my heart I visualize ever increasing waves oflight which eventually come closer and closer togetheruntil it is a mass of white light energy. When I am readyI open my arms and aim the energies that have built u

World Gratitude Practice~day 7~love, Respect & Gratitude~re-arrange Watery Worlds Within ... Opening Space For Peace To Be......
LOVE, RESPECT AND GRATITUDEDaily Self-Love, Self-Respect and Self-Gratitude will re-arrangewatery worlds within ... opening space for peace to BE,intentions to manifest and abundance to freely flow.Consider using this simple method of blessing bodily waters,as suggested by Dr. Emoto:Water, I Love You.Water, I Thank You.Water, I Respect You.Now, consider replacing "water" with your name to enhancethe exchange of Love, Respect and Gratitude.Remember ... as you clear waters within, prepare for a rushof old junk, gunk and out-of-resonance materials to be released.The best method for gracefully moving through past time toclearly appreciate the (k)new?Love, Respect, and Gratitude!Always and all ways!***Go Gratitude!***Highly inspiring, sacred and evocative, especially when sung toa melody received by Shanti Shivani, is this water blessing, aDaidangen, originally offered by Dr. Masuro Emoto's mentor.We were blessed to sing this with Dr. Emoto in Seattle, WA andare Now honored to share it with

World Gratitude Practice~day 6~cup Of Life!~whether It Be Half Empty Or Full ...let's Always Give Thanks For The Cup.
CUP OF LIFEimage source: D. Freeman, 'The Puzzle Pieces' Life is a series of streaming koan's.So, once and for all, let's settle this one:Whether it be half empty or full ...Let's always give thanks for the CUP.As for the ebb and flow - the rise and fall -The come and go that affects us all, consider this:Without spilling, drinking, tipping or sipping,there is no room for NOW to fill you UP. C?***Go Gratitude!***Remember ~ the cup is YOU ~ Gratitude is the give and receive,the drink and the pour, a space for Love to be less IS more.Ahhhhh ... refreshing, indeed!***Inside or outside yourself, you never have to change what yousee, only the way you see it.~ Thaddeus Golas***Here are a few suggestions on ways to imbue yourdaily beverages with Gratitude: 1) Write 'Love and Gratitude', with a permanent markeron your favorite cup, mug, or glass. Each time you fillit, feel your energy flowing through, re-arranging thewaters to serve your highest good. You may also chooseto do this with your ho

World Gratitude Practice~ Day 4~ Birth Of Gratitude~allow Gratitude To Guide You Through Now To The Moment Of Your Conception
BIRTH OF GRATITUDE Allow Gratitude to guide you through NOW to themoment of your conception, your earthly Being-ness. As you journey through to the beginning of YOU let Gratitudebe your guide, remembering a state of perfection, purity, andone-ness with Source. One might be surprised to realize how many times the physicalbody re-creates itself through Gratitude. So it IS with ourenergetic, intellectual, and spiritual Selves, too. You're beautiful, baby! *** Go Gratitude! *** Imagine this Beloved Union happyning within YOU - one beatingtrue with Love and Gratitude. Feel this pure state of emerging Lifebridging here with NOW, re~birthing *you*, US, everyoneinto a state of Grace through the power of Gratitude. ***Conception: Two cells merge, form a 'vesica piscis' - a deeplysacred shape where the centres of two spheres or circles bisecteach other. Next sperm and ova pass right through each otherto become a single cell or zygote. Then: mitosis and thechromosomes join, then migrate to Nort

World Gratitude Practice~day 3~gathering Masters~call To Them With Your Heart, Giving Thanks For Their Presence In Your Life....
GATHERING MASTERS artwork source: spiritus sanctusGreetings Gratitude Masters, Today, consider twelve people who have profoundlyinfluenced and inspired you ... be these friends, family,authors, explorers, artists or leaders ... remember, these maybe any number of INFINITE possibilities. Call to them with your heart, giving thanks for their presencein your life, sending a wave of energetic appreciation their way. Now, emotionally invite these Masters to guide you throughthese 42 days of World Gratitude - energetically connecting totheir widsom, example and experience - in order to form acircle of support, intimately familiar to YOU, that willultimately serve everyone at World Gratitude. By giving thanks to, connecting with and inviting in thesepowerfully influential beings, our gathering exponentially shifts,our affinity range expands, and our collective field of consciousnessis flooded as we re-awaken to the power of full-spectrumliving - Univeral Humans, infinitely connected to One S

World Gratitude Practice~day 2~heart Of Water~as Our Blessed Heart Beats True With Love & Gratitude, Waters Will Mirror Divinity
HEART OF WATER*artwork gifted by Elizabeth Yelland* Welcome Beloved One-ness, Today, let's begin within and bless all the waters in ourbody. You see, as our blessed Heart beats true with Loveand Gratitude, waters Will begin to mirror divinity within,creating ripples of time expressing Life sublime whilethoughts projecting inner reflectings serve tocreate NOW.So just imagine ...By flooding our bodily waters with Love and Gratitudegraceful waves will ripple into all of Creation, e-motionallyprojecting a super-charged vibration, allowing intendedmanifestations to BE.Give thanks, for it IS so!As you feel complete within, imagine this blessed beatflowing lovingly through others, and on to all the watersof Earth.Feel grateful knowing Yes! you are this powerful,connected, and Divine. NOW, as a co-creator of World Gratitude, it's time toset an intention ~ one you wish to see come intobeing ... uniquely suited to serve your highest good, andthat of others, too.Create a vivid image of this with

My Name Is Dusty Lough,,im A Child Molester & Drug Dealer So Please Stay Away From Me & My G/f Jersey
WHY DONT YOU TELL U LIES DUSTY U AND JERSEY BOTH ARE NOTHING BUT LIARS AND A FRIEND U KNOW HER FOR ABOUT 1 WEEK AND ITS UR FRIEND AND SELL DRUGS CMON DUSTY U CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT DRUG DEALER AND I WILL MAKE ALL THESE WOMEN AWARE OF U AS NOTHING BUT A WELFARE RECEIPT ,DRUG DEALER ,BEEN IN PRISON,CDONT PAY CHILD SUPPORT BECAUSE UR A 39 YR OLD MAN THAT STILL LIVES WITH MOM AND MAD I ME CAUSE I HAVE EVERYTHING U WANT AND U WILL NEVER HAVE GOOD TRY DUSTY ,,,ALL BY THE WAY DID U TELL THEM HOW U BILK MONEY OUT OF THESE WOMEN ,HE WILL TELL U HE HAS TO PAY RENT OR SOMETHING AND BEG U TO PAY IT AND THEN GO BUY DRUGS ,,HUN DUSTY TELL JERSEY HOW MUCH U WEIGHT ,U 450 WHALE THAT HAS NOT LIFE ANY NEVER WILL AND NEVER WILL WORK UR SCUMB ,,HELL MY SHOWER CLEANER THAN U ,,LADIES HERES UR STALKER,,,,BIG DADDY ,THE LAZY LIAR NO ONE YOUR 400PLUS LBS HIM AND JERSEY ,,STALKERS AND LIARS HERE LAUGHING AT U DUSTY,,,GOING NO WERE WELFARE CON ARTIST

World Gratitude Practice ~day 1~wake To Dream ~growing In Gratitude To Effect A Global Shift
WAKE TO DREAM "Earthquake Rose", image shared by Rachel F.Welcome Beloved!For our 42 Day World Gratitude gathering (and beyond!),let's use the following practice to connect with our worldwide family of Gratitude:Focus on Gratitude just before drifting to sleep,and immediately upon awakening. Beyond words,allow this source force energy-in-motion (emotion) toflood each cell in your body, feeling wave after waveof Gratitude immersing you in an energetic elixir oftimeless NOW.Let go, release, and breathe deeply. Ahhhhhhh .......As you drift in and out ...Giving and receiving ...Pure Gratitude for NOW. Forget wondering how long is long enough~ for Gratitude IS. ***As our gathering is World wide, this practice will create adaily wave of Gratitude rolling through hearts and mindsalike. Beyond a static time, flowing with our naturalrhythms, a unified connection through Gratitude will openand close each day.Here - we meet as One, in Love - with Gratitude.Plus! This practice will flood our bo

Sharing My World Gratitude Practice.. Enjoy..
got this from Stacy Robyn today..You are the helping hands andhearts that make World Gratitudegrow!Get ready to go and flow withcurrent wave of the 42 dayWorld Gratitude gathering,beginning: Nov. 20th - Dec. 31st, 2009.Join us as we bridge heart andmind, preparing to enter the (K)new Year with clarity and peaceby Aligning with the Hearts calling and embracing theGreat-Full-Ness of Life!If this is your first time joining World Gratitude - Well-Come.If you've been with us before - we're grateful to have you Home,again!http://www.WorldGratitude.com"Someday after mastering winds, waves, tides and gravity,we shall harness the energies of love. And then, for the secondtime in the history of the world, Man will discover fire."~ Pierre Teilhard de ChardinDagote shi gotah diyi ~ Welcome my family of Spirit . . .As always, I pray you are well and thriving!What an amazing time to be alive! Intense change is joltingus out of our comfort zone, and beckoning us to stretch, growand go where Love cal

How
Some people ask me how I can take in dogs, and give them to new homes. Just under 2 weeks ago I delivered a female dog to a couple from Pa. it was bittersweet. Betty had been with me for 6 months and yes I do grow attached, rather quickly! well I got up this morning to this email.. and this is how and why I do rescue Have to share - we had a great day with Betty! The company left this morning and we had a road trip to Scranton, about 45 minutes away. Of course, Betty went with us. Had lunch at a buffet and Boopster had a piece of bacon and a small taste of roast beef. By the way, she had a little turkey for Thanksgiving. But the greatest news of all is that when we got home and it was just us here in the house, Betty found her way out of the bedroom to the living room with us on her own and without coaxing. She was in and out - all on her terms of course - but she is definitely making progress. The best of all is that about an hour ago, she found her way up on the sofa with me and s

Is There A Such Thing As Psycho Stalker
i physco stalker name jersey is a woman that has split personal ,one min she in the hospital get her appendix out the next day she out running around like she was never there but swore she was ,,but what ever after any operation u just dont come out and ride a bus to Cleveland met up with a friend of mine this woman meet my buddy ,,he blow her off and then she calls me ,,now mine u she was trying to get me to help her because i m suppose to like her ,,,not and then she being in a bad mood for what my buddy did i cheered her up and bought her a couple blings then she became very nice to me and then my sb rang and it was another friend of mine tell me that that jersey girl plays with ppls money and claims to be ur friend then when u buy her something she blows u off so i asked her if she had proof of this and she said she text her all day about her,and my buddy,tried to make me jealous ,became they were going to be together ,but that never happen then she tell my friend thats she was try

Never Say U Aint Beautiful!!!!
Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own Everybody has a private world Where they can be alone Are you calling me, are you trying to get through Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you I'm just so fuckin' depressed I just can seem to get out this slump If I could just get over this hump But I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumps Fell down and I got right back up But I need that spark to get psyched back up In order for me to pick that mic back up I don't know how I pry away And I ended up in this position I'm in I starting to feel distant again So I decided just to pick this pen Up and tried to make an attempt to vent But I just can't admit Or come to grips, with the fact that I may be done with rap I need a new outlet I know some shits so hard to swallow And I just can't sit back and wallow In my own sorrow But I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow One tough act to follow Copy

Fu Stalker
FU GENTLEMAN AND I BECAME FRIENDS ,,LIKE ANY FRIENDSHIP DEVELOPES WE EXCHANGE NUMBERS . ONE OF MY WORST CHOICES EVER!!!!!!!! THE FIRST CALL HE MADE TO ME HE SHOWD UP IN MY HOME TOWN.. ASKING WELL ARE YOU GOING TO OPEN THE DOOR..!!!! IM THINKING OH CRAP..AND MAY I MIND YOU I TOLDHIM FROM THE START I WASNT GOING TO MEET ANYONE FROM HERE ANYTIME SOON... MY DAD WAS IN THE ER WITH A HEARTATTACK THAT DAY AND ALL HE CARED ABOUT WAS WANTING ME TO SUCK HIS YOU KNOW WHAT..NOW IM TELLING EVERYONE BE VERY CAREFUL OF THIS GUY HE IS ALSO A HACKER AND A BAILS BONDS MAN AND BOUNTY HUNTER..SO HE KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY IM SCARRED TO EVEN WALK OUT MY DOOR..IM CHANGING MY CELL,,AND MAYBE MOVING... HE IS NOT A GENTLEMAN AT ALL... WHAT SHOULD I DO FU FRIENDS??? LEAVE ME A COMENT PLEASE IM VERY NERVOUS ABOUT THIS...

Angles Going From 35 To 36 250 Hottest Rates!!!
Angel's at level 35:You must rate 250 different Hottest members and 11.Rating them a 10 when they have auto's on does not count. Must be a true 11.You must rate members in TOP section NOT the bottom section.Members must be online when rating them an 11.This must be done within a 48 hour time window.You will have to purchase extra 500 11's you can trade them for 10 credits of bling though

New Auction! Come See What You Can Get!!
HERE IS WHAT I OFFER KEEP YOU SHIT FACED DAILY RANDOM SHITFACE OR BUZZKILL OF YOUR CHOICE (YOU GET 3) SFW SALUTE (BLING CREDIT OFFERS MAY GET NSFW, WE'LL TALK) RATE ALL PICS DURING AT LEAST 3 HAPPY HOURS (WELL AS MANY AS I CAN IN 1 HOUR) YOUR NAME IN MINE AS FU OWNER FOR 14 DAYS PIMP OUT ON MY PAGE FOR 1 MONTH ADD TO MY YIM FAMILY ADD FOR 1 MONTH RANDOM GIFTS (RANDOM BLING IF I HAVE CREDITS) SPECIAL PICS TAKEN, OF YOUR CHOICE (CERTAIN CLOTHING, INDOOR/OUTDOOR, POSES ECT...(NSFW SAME THING BUT WITHING REASON! LOL) COMMENTS FROM ME DAILY ON YOUR PAGE FOR 14 DAYS

Stay With Me
An angelic apparitionStands before meForever beautiful and alluringIn perfect harmonySkin pleasing and silkyI love you so muchStay with me, sweetnessTake away my meeknessIntoxicating your smellInvading my sensesMy nostrils flare outTo take in your fragranceEyes beautiful to beholdI can’t look awayStay with me, sweetnessTake away my innocenceSuspended above meTantalizing my consciousnessA body beautiful, so lovelyTurns me erogenousHair flowing downOver breasts ever so succulentStay with me, sweetnessLeave me always impeccantSeductive and pleasingEnveloping my soulMy heart reaches outFingers forever exploringThat which is boldA body so magnificentStay with me, sweetnessIn a world, always timelessDon’t ever leave meMy being cries outTo let the world knowThat your mine, no doubtI will never leave youYour spirit transcendsStay with, sweetnessTo the very end

Chapter Three: Abandoned
Faust slowly flew back to his nest, but it was only out of instinct that he found his way home. One thing dominated his thoughts, and that thing was Shelata. How come I have never seen her around here before? She must be hiding something, her past. It was obviously a lie that she had been driven away by Dwarves. Those little hairballs take centuries to do anything, let alone plan to get rid of a dragon problem. No, she was lying about that. Only another dragon could lie to a dragon. He was drifting too low, and too late realized that the branches in front of him were not passing birds. He clipped one branch with his wing, and it folded up underneath him so that he lost his momentum and plunged into the forest. He fell right into one of his very own traps, and the poison from the darts slowly spread through his bloodstream. He didn't even notice his eyesight get black around the edges, or the fact that he was becoming paralyzed. No, he was lovesick, and he saw no more, still thinking a

Shadows
The world is cold and thunderousAs one dark day follows the nextFrom high up in the heavensShadows fell like rainDrenching me in sorrowDrowning me in painPulling me deeper Spinning me faster Into turbulenceEverything turned to blacknessFor my eyes had closed before meI tried to hide from my sadnessBut there's nowhere to hideIn an empty worldJust as hope seemed to have faithThere appeared a shelter in the distanceThat shelter was loveThat shelter was youIn cover from the torment I felt warmthI turned and saw a glow risingNothing like anything I'd ever seenSpellbound I was drawn to itSlowly giving myself to itEverything was stillFor this new life lay within me nowFrom this light beauty grewAs my heart stirred music lived in my breathSoared from my lips in a song of loveEven from the depths of my memoryShadows and death fledFreely I fellDeeper into this world of blissFaster Into youThere I stoodBeneath heavens cloudy veilThreatening in its darknessI tried calling outVivid sweet songsOnly

Ppl In Life
ok so i luv the ppl i luv and they no who they r... well id do anything 4 those i luv... that bein said... if i c a friend is upset or hurt im gonna b there 4 them .. even if others dont like it....sum ppl thinks its their rite 2 control others ... thats not rite.. ppl r human beings they r their own person no1 can sit there and make another person do wut they want and then get mad when they dont do wut u want.... if u think its ur rite 2 control another person go get ur head checked bc its just awful and wrong and u need a reality check.... sum ppl hurt different then others.. no 1 person can no everything bout a person .. how they act or wut they feel and they cant sit there and say wut the other is feeling bc they dont no...they dont no wut they r thinkin and they cant talk 4 them.... and i guess if its wrong 2 stand up 4 the ones u luv .. then i guess im wrong cua imma keep doin it no matter who likes it or not

Soulmate
If you could read my mindThere you would findThe two of us intertwinedThe image of you I have memorizedI remember enough to fantasizeI close my eyes and there you areIn my mind, so you're never far.I caress your lips, your face, your hairAnd hold you close, so I can feel you there.Our hands all over one anotherRoaming in places meant only for lovers.My heart, it yearns for you.My soul, it reaches out for you.In my every waking thoughtI know you too have not forgotThe love we madeThe passion, the blissI could never forget the way you kiss.And though the ocean separates us,I know again, I will feel your sweet touch.You were sent to me from up aboveTo stay with me, forever in love.Within my heart I know it's true.Gizzy, my soul mate, I have found you!

The Best Advice....(ladies)
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her... ˜Anonymous

Music Monday 8
I don't know that anyone else will appreciate this. These are the songs that I was super into in junior high/early high school. I'm a sucker for old school R&B to this day. I miss this stuff. Not included: Babyface, Jodeci, Brian McKnight, SWV, Babyface, Tony! Toni! Tone!, Usher, Sisqo (though he was in Dru Hill first, so that probably counts), Al Green, New Edition, Teddy Pendergrass. Clearly there are tons more and there is stuff that's older...but these songs are almost half a lifetime ago for me. 1. Tell Me - Dru Hill2. Promise - Jagged Edge3. Love - Musiq Soulchild4. Don't Leave Me - BlackStreet5. Twisted - Keith Sweat6. Pony - Ginuwine7. Anywhere - 1128. I Care About You - Milestone9. On Bended Knee - Boys II Men

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GUN HISTORY This is very, very interesting information!!! FACTS ARE FACTS, THE REAL REASON BEHIND GUN CONTROL. A LITTLE GUN HISTORY In 1929, the Soviet Union established gun control. From 1929 to 1953, about 20 million dissidents, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated. ------------------------------ In 1911, Turkey established gun control. From 1915 to 1917, 1..5 million Armenians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated. ------------------------------ Germany established gun control in 1938 and from 1939 to 1945, a total of 13 million Jews and others who were unable to defend themselves were rounded up and exterminated. ---------------------

What The Random...?
I adore the name Ransom as a girl's name. Yesterday it was my ass cheeks. Today, it's my hands AND my ass cheeks. 32 is NOT a significant birthday age. Kinda like turning 27. Warm beer is actually ok when it's 30 degrees out. Use strawberry marshmellows when making S'mores. Trying to put 100 balloons in an '84 Cutless is pure comedy. I kinda hate my HTC Hero. Girls. Fake nails? Don't pick your nose while driving over a speed bump. Blood everywhere. Shaving your legs during the cold winter months should be outlawed. Rel should never be put in charge of a Baby Shower. Never again. -REL

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I'm staring out the window of the airplane as I barely realize that the airplane is landing at our local, but still very distant airport on this clear and beautiful moonlit night. I'm so distratced that the flight attendant reminds me to prepare for landing. A fairly long business trip has finally ended for me, one which has felt much longer as we've been apart the entire time. Two very long weeks have passed since we were together last Amy. We both have careers where we're apart for as much as a week at a time but this is the longest we've ever been apart. Our passion for each other only seems to increase when we're apart, and my passion for you is now unbelievable Amy, and my passion for you is now undeniable. I've missed your kind words and your gentle nature. I've missed the soft touch of your embrace. I've missed touching you softly. I've dreamed of you every night, and I've daydreamed about you every day. I'm finally coming home to you Amy, and I can only think of you ... from th

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As we gather this holiday season, we should remember how fortunate we Americans are tolive in a free and just nation.America was founded upon sound conservative principles grounded firmlyin human nature and not in radical idealism. And today, we see thatthese principles, though under attack from the Left, are still verymuch alive. As Heritage Foundation scholar Matthew Spalding explainedin 2003, Thanksgiving maintains the tradition of the American Foundingand affirms that "while we are committed to upholding religiousliberty, we remain one nation under God." So, despite these tough times, conservatives and Americans have muchto be thankful for:1. The United States Constitution. The single most important andtimeless document of our nation's Founding Fathers, the U.S.Constitution lays the framework for a government that protectsthe natural and unalienable rights of every American. TheConstitution, the key to our greatness and the bulwark of ourliberties, offers an antidote to the Left

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the black wolf walks threw the shadows looking for a place to bed down out of the coldness. wondering what his true love the white wolf is doing. he calls out for her with hopes that she will hear him and answer him. the black wolf wonders around with emptiness in his life now that the white wolf is gone. he wishes she knew how much he needs her and that she is the only one he wishes to be wtih. the black wolf relizes he ruined everything in his life when he lashed out at her. as he looks at his bleeding wonds he is reminded of the pain he has caused his love the white wolf. as the sun sets for the night the black wolf howls out for his only love once more. with no answer he lays down wiht out cleaning his woundes to remember the pain he inflickted upon his white wolf. the black wolf lets the tears from his eyes run down his face. he dreams of the past of him and the lovely white wolf running in the sunshine and layin together also remmebering the warmth of happiness he had felt with h

The Decrepit Warrior.
I FEEL LIKE IM THE DEAD THAT WALKS THIS DESOLATE PLANET, FILLED WITH HOPELESS DREAMS TO BECOME ALIVE, BUT ALAS, I AM THE DEAD, AND HOPELESS WARRIOR WHO WANDERS AIMLESSLY WITH NOBODY TO CARE FOR MY OWN, FOR AS MY BLOOD TURNS TO DUST,FOR I AM THE DECREPIT SOLDIER WHO ROAMS THE EARTH AS A WANDERER OF THE DEAD AND HOPELESS, AND AS I BECOME MORE DECREPIT, I FALL INTO OBLIVION!

The Blind Side
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he relizes that he hurt the one and only love of his life. He sits in the darkness beating himself up hoping that death will soon come. he wont sare take his own life for the fact of a promise he made his love. As he lays down at night he hears her voice in his head and he starts crying out her name asking for forgivness from the godds and goddest's. he wakes to himself screaming out his loves name to find that she is no longer there and that all he is holding in the pillow that she once laid her head on to sleep. when he awakes in the morning he starts to cry once again. he then relizes that this is the life he deserves for the rest of his life for what he done to loose his one and only true love

Look
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Needing to shed a few pounds, my husband and I went on a diet that had specific recipes for each meal of the day. I followed the instructions closely, dividing the finished recipe in half for our individual plates. We felt terrific and thought the diet was wonderful - we never even felt hungry! But when we realized we were gaining weight, not losing it, I checked the recipes again. There, in fine print, was: "Serves 6."

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Collar This pain is like a collar, Growing ever tighterI try to grow around it, But the more I growThe deeper it cuts into my soul Until the day comes That my soul is ripped apartLeaving nothing but an empty shellThe collar of self hate And the hatred that everyone has against meOf all the things I've doneAnd will do wrongNo one can or wants to help meThis is my curse: To suffer foreverNever finding joy by me JRW

Because I Am Man
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All mIRC Commands/ Recalls the previous command entered in the current window./! Recalls the last command typed in any window./action {action text} Sends the specifed action to the active channel or query window./add [-apuce] {filename.ini} Loads aliases, popups, users, commands, and events./ame {action text} Sends the specifed action to all channels which you are currently on./amsg {text} Sends the specifed message to all channels which you are currently on./auser {level} {nick|address} Adds a user with the specified access level to the remote userslist./auto [on|off|nickname|address] Toggles auto-opping of a nick or address or sets it on or offtotally./away {away message} Sets you away leave a message explaining that you are not currently payingattention to IRC./away Sets you being back./ban [#channel] {nickname} [type] Bans the specified nick from the curent or given channel./beep {number} {delay} Locally beeps 'number' times with 'delay' in between the beeps. /channelPops up the c

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So one of your friends, “not you of course”, has managed to nuke Internet Explorer and they are unsure how they did it. You’ve eliminated the possibility of viruses and adware, so this just leaves you and a broken IE. Before you begin to even consider running a repair install of the OS, let’s try to do a repair on IE instead.THE REPAIR PROCESSStart the Registry Editor by typing regedit from the Run box. Go to HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE \ SOFTWARE \ Microsoft \ Active Setup \ Installed Components \ {89820200-ECBD-11cf-8B85-00AA005B4383} and then right-click the “IsInstalled value.” Click Modify. From there, you will change the value from 1 to 0. All right, go ahead and close the editor and reinstall IE from this location. /http://www.microsoft.com/windows/ie/default.mspxIF SOMETHING GOES WRONGIf messing with the registry and something goes horribly wrong, you can use “Last Known Good Configuration (F8 Safe Mode)” or a Restore Point to get back to

Boot
Boot Block Recovery For FreeYou don't need to pay a measly sum of dollars just to recover from a boot block mode. Here it is folks:AWARD Bootblock recovery:That shorting trick should work if the boot block code is not corrupted, and it should not be if /sb switch is used when flashing the bios (instead of /wb switch).The 2 pins to short to force a checksum error varies from chip to chip. But these are usually the highest-numbered address pins (A10 and above).These are the pins used by the system to read the System BIOS (original.bin for award v6), calculate the ROM checksum and see if it's valid before decompressing it into memory, and subsequently allow Bootblock POST to pass control over to the System BIOS.You just have to fool the system into believing that the System BIOS is corrupt. This you do by giving your system a hard time reading the System BIOS by shorting the 2 high address pins. And when it could not read the System BIOS properly, ROM Checksum Error is detected "so to spe

101 For Dumbshits: The Basics Of Security
10 Fast and Free Security Enhancements PC magazine.Before you spend a dime on security, there are many precautions you can take that will protect you against the most common threats.1. Check Windows Update and Office Update regularly (_http://office.microsoft.com/productupdates); have your Office CD ready. Windows Me, 2000, and XP users can configure automatic updates. Click on the Automatic Updates tab in the System control panel and choose the appropriate options.2. Install a personal firewall. Both SyGate (_www.sygate.com) and ZoneAlarm (_www.zonelabs.com) offer free versions.3. Install a free spyware blocker. Our Editors' Choice ("Spyware," April 22) was SpyBot Search & Destroy (_http://security.kolla.de). SpyBot is also paranoid and ruthless in hunting out tracking cookies.4. Block pop-up spam messages in Windows NT, 2000, or XP by disabling the Windows Messenger service (this is unrelated to the instant messaging program). Open Control Panel | Administrative Tools | Services and

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ADSL - Asymmetric Digital Subscriber LineAGP - Accelerated Graphics PortALI - Acer Labs, IncorporatedALU - Arithmetic Logic UnitAMD - Advanced Micro DevicesAPC - American Power ConversionASCII - American Standard Code for Information InterchangeASIC - Application Specific Integrated CircuitASPI - Advanced SCSI Programming InterfaceAT - Advanced TechnologyATI - ATI Technologies Inc.ATX - Advanced Technology Extended--- B ---BFG - BFG TechnologiesBIOS - Basic Input Output SystemBNC - Barrel Nut Connector--- C ---CAS - Column Address SignalCD - Compact DiskCDR - Compact Disk RecorderCDRW - Compact Disk Re-WriterCD-ROM - Compact Disk - Read Only MemoryCFM - Cubic Feet per Minute (ft�/min)CMOS - Complementary Metal Oxide SemiconductorCPU - Central Processing UnitCTX - CTX Technology Corporation (Commited to Excellence)--- D ---DDR - Double Data RateDDR-SDRAM - Double Data Rate - Synchronous Dynamic Random Access MemoryDFI - DFI Inc. (Design for Innovation)DIMM - Dual Inline Memory Mo

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You may not realize it, but your computer and your car have something in common: they both need regular maintenance. No, you don't need to change your computer's oil. But you should be updating your software, keeping your antivirus subscription up to date, and checking for spyware. Read on to learn what you can do to help improve your computer's security.Getting startedHere are some basics maintenance tasks you can do today to start improving your computer's security. Be sure you make these part of your ongoing maintenance as well.* Sign up for software update e-mail notices. Many software companies will send you e-mail whenever a software update is available. This is particularly important for your operating system (e.g., Microsoft VV!|VD0VV$® or Macintosh), your antivirus program, and your firewall.* Register your software. If you still have registration forms for existing software, send them in. And be sure to register new software in the future. This is another way for the software

Short Form>>>>>>ftp
thanks to someone for this tut.Configuring your Bulletproof FTP Server TutorialI am not sure where I found this tutorial, It’s been a while…It might even have been here... ..So if it is one of yours, my hat goes off to you once again....After reading the excellent tutorial on "Creating an FTP" that Norway posted…(I would suggest reading and following his tutorial first, then following up with this one)I thought that perhaps this tutorial might be pretty helpful for those interested in knowing how to configure their Bulletproof FTP Server that don't already know how... Here's how to get started…This is for the BulletProof FTP Server 2.10. However, It should work fine on most following versions as well.I'm assuming you have it installed and cracked.Basics1. Start the program.2. Click on Setup > Main > General from the pull-down menu.3. Enter your server name into the 'Server Name' box. Under Connection set the “Max number of users" to any number. This is

Advanced>>>>>>>>>installing Ftp
Setting Up A Ftp:Well, since many of us have always wondered this, here it is. Long and drawn out. Also, before attempting this, realize one thing; You will have to give up your time, effort, bandwidth, and security to have a quality ftp server.That being said, here it goes. First of all, find out if your IP (Internet Protocol) is static (not changing) or dynamic (changes everytime you log on). To do this, first consider the fact if you have a dial up modem. If you do, chances are about 999 999 out of 1 000 000 that your IP is dynamic. To make it static, just go to a place like h*tp://www.myftp.org/ to register for a static ip address.You'll then need to get your IP. This can be done by doing this:Going to Start -> Run -> winipcfg or www.ask.com and asking 'What is my IP?'After doing so, you'll need to download an FTP server client. Personally, I'd recommend G6 FTP Server, Serv-U FTPor Bullitproof v2.15 all three of which are extremely reliable, and the norm of the ftp world.You can d

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Getting used to using your keyboard exclusively and leaving your mouse behind will make you much more efficient at performing any task on any Windows system. I use the following keyboard shortcuts every day:Windows key + R = Run menuThis is usually followed by:cmd = Command Promptiexplore + "web address" = Internet Explorercompmgmt.msc = Computer Managementdhcpmgmt.msc = DHCP Managementdnsmgmt.msc = DNS Managementservices.msc = Serviceseventvwr = Event Viewerdsa.msc = Active Directory Users and Computersdssite.msc = Active Directory Sites and ServicesWindows key + E = ExplorerALT + Tab = Switch between windowsALT, Space, X = Maximize windowCTRL + Shift + Esc = Task ManagerWindows key + Break = System propertiesWindows key + F = SearchWindows key + D = Hide/Display all windowsCTRL + C = copyCTRL + X = cutCTRL + V = pasteAlso don't forget about the "Right-click" key next to the right Windows key on your keyboard. Using the arrows and that key can get just about anything done once you've

Advanced >>>>>>shells Tech
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Hacking No Your Getting Hacked Heres The Anti-hack-me-shit
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There are a lot of PC users that know little about "Spyware", "Mal-ware", "hijackers", "Dialers" & many more. This will help you avoid pop-ups, spammers and all those baddies.What is spy-ware?Spy-ware is Internet jargon for Advertising Supported software (Ad-ware). It is a way for shareware authors to make money from a product, other than by selling it to the users. There are several large media companies that offer them to place banner ads in their products in exchange for a portion of the revenue from banner sales. This way, you don't have to pay for the software and the developers are still getting paid. If you find the banners annoying, there is usually an option to remove them, by paying the regular licensing fee.Known spywaresThere are thousands out there, new ones are added to the list everyday. But here are a few:Alexa, Aureate/Radiate, BargainBuddy, ClickTillUWin, Conducent Timesink, Cydoor, Comet Cursor, eZula/KaZaa Toptext, Flashpoint/Flashtrack, Flyswat, Gator, GoHip, Hotba

Backtracking Email Messages
Backtracking EMAIL Messages Tracking email back to its source: Twisted Evilcause i hate spammers... Evil or Very MadAsk most people how they determine who sent them an email message and the response is almost universally, "By the From line." Unfortunately this symptomatic of the current confusion among internet users as to where particular messages come from and who is spreading spam and viruses. The "From" header is little more than a courtesy to the person receiving the message. People spreading spam and viruses are rarely courteous. In short, if there is any question about where a particular email message came from the safe bet is to assume the "From" header is forged.So how do you determine where a message actually came from? You have to understand how email messages are put together in order to backtrack an email message. SMTP is a text based protocol for transferring messages across the internet. A series of headers are placed in front of the data portion of the message. By exam

Lost In Love
There is no one i mean no one know what true love is everyone pretends to say it to there signficant others ,but the ones that know how to truly love someone ,,unless,, ur heart,, is in it ...then u will never find LOVE because it will be nothing but pure lust after someone u can /or cant have its a sexual desire,your lust after her or him ,,,that my friend isnt LOVE that is LUST and until u figure that out ,the only thing u will find is a deadend to another losing battle of ur sexual drive ,,there so many lost minds in the gutter over this controversary,,,and no one wins nothing,,,so stop the hurting of the ppl u say u love and love them for what they not what u want them to be ,GROW UP PEOPLE

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This is well written explanation about bandwidth, very useful info.BandWidth ExplainedMost hosting companies offer a variety of bandwidth options in their plans. So exactly what is bandwidth as it relates to web hosting? Put simply, bandwidth is the amount of traffic that is allowed to occur between your web site and the rest of the internet. The amount of bandwidth a hosting company can provide is determined by their network connections, both internal to their data center and external to the public internet.Network ConnectivityThe internet, in the most simplest of terms, is a group of millions of computers connected by networks. These connections within the internet can be large or small depending upon the cabling and equipment that is used at a particular internet location. It is the size of each network connection that determines how much bandwidth is available. For example, if you use a DSL connection to connect to the internet, you have 1.54 Mega bits (Mb) of bandwidth. Bandwidth

Bois Update Procedure
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A Web Standards Checklist, How to make a proper websiteA web standards checklistThe term web standards can mean different things to different people. For some, it is 'table-free sites', for others it is 'using valid code'. However, web standards are much broader than that. A site built to web standards should adhere to standards (HTML, XHTML, XML, CSS, XSLT, DOM, MathML, SVG etc) and pursue best practices (valid code, accessible code, semantically correct code, user-friendly URLs etc).In other words, a site built to web standards should ideally be lean, clean, CSS-based, accessible, usable and search engine friendly.About the checklistThis is not an uber-checklist. There are probably many items that could be added. More importantly, it should not be seen as a list of items that must be addressed on every site that you develop. It is simply a guide that can be used:* to show the breadth of web standards* as a handy tool for developers during the production phase of websites* as an aid f

To Use Torrents Correctly
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Why do people like hacking into other peoples stuff. I think it is cause they don't have anything better to do. Well here is a message for all the hackers out there. NO TRESSPASSING HACKERS WILL BE SHOT SURVIORS WILL BE SHOT AND PISSED ON!!!!!! sorry for my rant thank you for listing

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The conversation with Miss. C lasted over an hour and she comes out with I don't like the police. I'll clarify something right now. I'm all into Law Enforcement. Problem I had with the police was not them. Someone way up must of said hassle em. The way up would have had to have way too much money and the political link. Beyond that I'm not saying any more. Nothing further needs to be said except leave the past where it belongs, in the past. I like The Police and Law Enforcement at all levels. As I like all Emergency workers and the sacrifce they have and are making. Including those at every Hospital and Institutions. On the news early this morning I saw what took place. A travesty with proportion of unknown. You have their loved ones. God be with them all. Norio

For The Vampire Heart
save for the uncertain Category: Life somethingin your eyes hints to me that if you have not already acknowledged thepower that spans lifetimes and culminates within you it will soonpresent itself to you and reveal its name, your true identity, embraceit, and your destiny will unfold before you and you will do all thingswith complete certainty and not even death can then touch you until youcall her name. i have infinite resources at my disposal but nothing cani stress more urgent lest you already know, ever will you walk down theblack path folding in upon yourself touching nothing, no-one will youknow, no one will you see, darkness will be your only identity, andonly once the warlocks essence makes it home in your heart will itoccur to you that you have lost your identity in this life an allothers before and after.....now the real truth, gods energy expiredlong ago, the universe is not expanding, and a warlock is one who worksin human(hybrid) form...now begin the work of the mad, ca

Thoughts About Lists, Communication, And What Is The Truth......
posted this on FB a few days back and got quite the response...lost 4 friends for it...lol.. I know I promised to put down my thoughts on perception in relationships and I fully intend to finish it, just my writing is very ADD. If something pops into my head I HAVE to write about it…lol. This is an offshoot of that, but bear with me. Lists…….we make lists every day. To do lists, shopping lists, and the like. I’m here to talk about our wants list….the lists we make in our heads either acknowledged or not on what we look for in things. A job, a hobby, a mate….these lists. I guess we’ll look at the lists involved in relationships. We all make the lists of base characteristics, wants, likes, deal breakers, and fantasy items. We list the things we absolutely have to have, the things we’d like, and the things we’d wish. We also list the things that we absolutely cannot stand for as well. Here is an issue I have…..are we, as p

Uhhhh....
So I was thinking about the concept of truth today. What is truth? Is it just our own version on what we percieved to have happened? I think so. Maybe. Different people see different things different ways, right? I mean we all know someone who sees things different than we do. And some people have an obviously skewed view or perception of thier own reality, we all know them too, quit playin'. I guess what had me wondering..... Am I one of those people? Not looking for an answer, just felt like throwing it out there.

All My Life Lyrics
Baby baby baby baby baby babybaby baby baby baby baby...im so glad...I will never find another luver sweeter than yousweeter than youAnd I will never find another luver more precious than youmore precious than youcuz girl you are Close to me your like my motherClose to me your like my fatherClose to me your like my sisterClose to me your like my brotherYou are the only one in my everything and for you this song I singAll my life I've prayed for someone like youAnd I thank God that I, that I finally found youAll my life I prayed for someone like youAnd I hope that you feel the same way tooYes, I pray that you do love me tooI said you're all that I'm thinkin' of......babySaid, I promise to never fall in love with a strangerYou're all I'm thinkin' ofI praise the lord aboveFor sending me your loveI cherish every hugI really LOVE youAnd all my life (Ohhhh...baby, baby) I've prayed for someone like you,And I thank God that I...that I finally found you,All my life I prayed for someone like yo

Moon Dance
MOON DANCE Full moon....shinning bright....... Dance with me....to it's light. Round and round.....I feel the pull........ Come dear heart....you feel it too. Light that shines.....hush.....be still....... Let it lead us.....where it will..............

Lonely Lyrics
Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,I have nobody,For my ownI'm so lonely, I'm Mr. LonelyI have nobody,For my ownI'm so lonely,Yo this one here goes out to all my players out there ya know got that one good girl who's always been there like yaKnow took all the bullshit then one day she can't take it no more and decides to leaveI woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreaming, for her I wasFeenin, so I had to take a little ride, back tracking over these few years, tryna figure out what I do to make it go bad, causeEver since my girl left me, my whole life came crashingI'm so lonely (so lonely),I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)I have nobody (I have nobody)For my own (to call my own) girlI'm so lonely (so lonely)I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)I have nobody (I have nobody)For my own (to call my own) girlCan't believe I had a girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put you through you still stuckAround and stayed by my side, wha

Don't Matter Lyrics
Konvict KonvictOhOhoohwooeOoohOoohhwooe[Chorus:]Nobody wanna see us togetherBut it don't matter no'Cause I got you babe babeNobody wanna see us togetherBut it don't matter no'Cause I got you babe'Cause we gonna fightOh yes we gonna fightBelieve we gonna fightWe gonna fightFight for our right to love yeahNobody wanna see us togetherBut it don't matter no'Cause I got youNobody wanna see us togetherNobody thought we'd last foreverI feel 'em hopin' and prayin'Things between us don't get betterMen steady comin' after youWomen steady comin' after meSeem like everybody wanna go for selfAnd don't wanna respect boundariesTellin' you all those liesJust to get on your sideBut I must admit there was a couple secretsI held insideBut just know that I triedTo always apologizeAnd I'ma have you first always in my heartTo keep you satisfied[Chorus]Got every right to wanna leaveGot every right to wanna goGot every right to hit the roadAnd never talk to me no moreYou don't even have to callEven check for

Pass This On
Police Warning to Online MembersState police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then sendit out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothingto be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to.If a person with the screen-name of DreamWeaverGrey contacts you, do notreply. DO not talk to this person; do not answer any of whispers or requestsfor private chat in Pogo. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect formurder in the death of 56 women (so far) contacted through the Internet.Please send this to all the women on your buddy list and ask them to pass thison, as well. This screen-name has also been seen on Yahoo, AOL, AIM, andExcite so far.This is not a joke! Please send this to men too...just in case! Send toeveryone you know! Ladies, this is serious.Jennifer S. Faulkner Education/Information SpecialistRoanoke Fire-EMS541 Luck Avenue, Suite 120 Roanoke, VA 24016540) 853-2257 (phone) 540) 853-1172 (fax)IF WE CAN PAS

Witty
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Tuna Party
For fun I decided to do a survey of all the dirty pussy down here in mississippi.. well at least the northeastern part of it. I must scan a million boxes of vagisil, yeast infection treatment, FDS, massingil, generic douches a day. I counted every time I scanned one of the above products and at the end of the week I did an average. I would say 80% of Booneville Mississippi has dirty slag. One woman bought a douche, some anti itch cream, yeast infection treatment, and some fake nails. I guessed she had plans to sit around and scratch her crotch all night. Fun stuff... If these bitches would leave that shit alone and quit sleepin with every dick they see they wouldnt have these problems....

Mi Sueno
As suicide thoughts/ slowly creep in/ i grab hold of my liberation/ My only way out/ The only object that keeps me sane/ The only thing i can control/ Not evern my thoughts are my own/ To know that i cant control them/ Only scares me even more/ I dont know what they mean/ I sit and try to figure them out/ Until i want to scream!/ Until i want to run away to a psychiatric ward!/ Until i stand there and yell out to my Lord!/ To my savior/ The only one who understands/ And tells me this isnt what it seems/ It is only a dream//

Down Lyrics
Baby are you down [x5]Down, downEven if the sky is fallin' downDown, down (oh)You already knowTonight is the night to let it goPut on a show (show, show)I wanna see how you lose controlSo leave it behind, cause we have a night to get away (away, away)So come on and fly with meAs we make our great escape (escape, escape)[Chorus:]So baby don't worryYou are my onlyYou won't be lonelyEven if the sky is falling downYou'll be my onlyNo need to worryBaby are you down [x5]Down, downBaby are you down [x5]Down, downEven if the sky is falling downJust let it beCome on and bring your body next to meI'll take you away (ay)Turn this place into our private getawaySo leave it behind, cause we have a night to get away (away, away)So come on and fly with meAs we make our great escapeSo why don't we run away[Chorus:]So baby don't worryYou are my only (oh)You won't be lonely (oh)Even if the sky is falling downYou'll be my only (yeah)No need to worryBaby are you down [x5]Down, downBaby are you down [x5]Dow

Written On Her Lyrics
[Birdman]Yeah, BirdmanJust like that[Jay Sean][CHORUS]Yeah, she gotHer swag on leanThe way she dancin on meCan tell that she a queenHer mama wouldn’t like it, her daddy wouldn’t eitherThe way she grindin on me - you can tell shawty’s a keeperShe got it written on her, aye aye aye aye ahhShe got it written on her, aye aye aye aye ahhShe got it written on her, aye aye aye aye ahhShe got it written on her, aye aye aye aye ahh[Birdman](Yeah.. All red.. yup)Gucci bag poppin tagsNew crib brand new jagBirdman party shineBad bitch all the timeStay fly, ride flyI’m stuntin’, stay highStraight G, just like thatThrow 100, bounce right backRed hot, hard topCash money hard knockBently frame, drop top50 G’s, the bottles popIced out, so we chillTunin’ up every automobileTatted up, life of a G– 5 Starred –?[Jay Sean][CHORUS]Yeah, she gotHer swag on leanThe way she dancin on meCan tell that she a queenHer mama wouldn’t like it, her daddy would

What Should I Do??
I finally realize i am really getting tired of trying to keep everything workout. Specially when it seems that i'm the only one putting any effort. I have been so understanding of everything but i think it's enough. But how do i let go??? How can i say goodbye if i myself is afraid of being alone. What if the only thing that's making me hold on is the fear of being alone. How do i make myself put away the fear and face the reality that i am holding on to something that is not there anymore. I wish it was as easy as the lyrics of the songs, but it's not. I'd like to be free of my fears give myself the time and attention i've never given myself before. I've always given everything for someone else. How could i make myself let go..... "Letting Go" I think I'm going to take it slow And tell you the things that are on my mind Then you can drop me off at home for the last time I only wanted you to know that I always had the best of intentions Look at what you put me through Anything I w

Dark Days
As i wake up/ I only see darkness/ I feel trapped/ deep down in this hole/ I know theres no way out/ I have gone to my hell/ I have lost my soul/ I hold the truth/ That will liberate others/ But i start to panic/ I start to shake/ As i feel a quiver coming up my spine/ I realize this punishment/ For all that i have done/ As i take my last breath/ I see my deamon telling me to give up/ So i give in knowing no one will give a fuck//

Debit Card/prepaid Cards/gift Card Pending Transaction Problems
Pending Debit/Prepaid Credit Card Transaction Failure We have a small percentage of people having problems with credit cards and purchases for: bling, vip, blasts, HH's, etc. The problem is USUALLY associated to GIFT or PAY AS YOU GO Visa/MC debit card. For example: Walmart Gift Visa, Walgreens Gift Visa, TMobile Gift Visa, the list goes on. Some of you have a CC that is a pay as you go.The problem we are having is that our merchant account has NO way to verify the security of the card user. Because of this, the card is denied. So, if you do not enter the correct phone number, mailing address, security code or 3 digit pin on the back, you will be declined and get an error message. This can ALSO happen with normal credit cards in some cases.What will happ is your card is charged and shows a PENDING AUTHORIZATION on your card and it appears your funds have been removed. Unfortunately, and this is NOT our fault, the credit card company puts a hold on the funds. The funds will be restored

Junk Mail
Cause all the cool people are doin it. 1) Walmart Jobs, Youre Hired! 2) 5 new love matches for you at true dating! (Ive never been on a dating site. haha) 3) Rx Pharmacy- Fesive specials (Festive?) 4)Last Kiss Comics: Get Stuffed! (actually a really cool site. check it out) 5)Better in Bed: Be a sex god (if only) 6) Vicoden and More Restricted Meds! 7) Font Trader- Stationary Bonanza 8) Credit store- 2009 credit report (got about a thousand of these) 9) Zorpia- new zorp friends for you 10) Need financial aid? Find a School now (youd think you would have a school in mind if youre looking for financial aid) Thats it. nothing too interesting. no dildo emails, or emails for penis enlargers. youd think there would be more of those

Self-reflection??
My words are nothing But they mean so much My mind is blank But full of so much My heart is empty But can feel so immensely My soul is dark as night But still worth so much I've become immune to pain I can no longer bear it I no longer cry tears Like everyone else does At times something triggers an emotion But I brush it all off I act as if I am unbreakable But I am truly fragile I act as if I am simple But I am truly complex I see significance as insignificant I am me There's no other way to say it or explain it Love it or leave it Accept it deny it There's no way im willing to change who I am Because I am simply me

The Policeman And God
Lisa Ascol-Beckman The policeman stood and faced his God, Who’s time must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining. Just as brightly as his brass."Step forward now, policeman. How shall I deal with you? Have you always turned the other cheek? To My church have you been true? "The policeman squared his shoulders and said,"No, Lord, I guess I ain't, Because those of us who carry badges can't always be a saint.I've had to work most Sundays, and at times my talk was rough, and sometimes I've been violent, Because the streets are awfully tough. I never took a penny, That wasn't mine to keep....Though I worked a lot of overtime When the bills just got too steep. But I never passed a cry for help,Though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God please forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place Among the people here. They never wanted me around, only to calm their fears. So if you've a place for me here, Lord, It needn't be so grand. I never ex

Dumbass People
Well, I have learned some rather amusing things about myself recently. I wanted to clear some of them up in case any of you all had heard them and either believed them and didn't want to talk to me because of shit you'd heard, or just wanted a good laugh. 1. I am an account hacker. Apparently I do this when I'm bored. I have NEVER hacked anyone's accounts, be they Fubar accounts or any other account they may or may not have. 2. If it's not me hacking the accounts, it's my boyfriend, because he is a cyber cop. Jarrod has NEVER been a cyber police officer. He used to be a deputy with Harrison County Sheriff's Office in Harrison County, TX. He NEVER worked cyber crimes or internet crimes of any sort. He is also no hacker. He is currently an instructor for DirecTV and has worked for them for well over a year. 3. I'm having affairs and flirt with everyone on fubar and anywhere else I can. I am never at home to take care of my man the way he needs to be tak

If This Was My Last Chance To Love You~by Jd
If this was my last chance to love you, No matter what it takes im going to pursue this like the man you need me to be. If this was was my last chance to turn the page, Better believe i'm going to do all that it takes to make sure i erase my miatakes. Think about all the times through the rough at i actually made you smile, Now that i look back, Girl im nothing without you and i need you to come back home. The last thing i need is for you to turn and walk away, Not here not today, What kind of man would i be to watch you walk away for good, Lets make this house our home. So maybe i am still getting used to admitting my wrongs, Progress makes perfect as we know, I also know its hard to believe a man can change after all the pain which was dealt. I know what i did to break your heart and i admit i'll never be able to give it back, Now is the time to quit this "going back and forth" Before its too late im going to love you the way im supposed to. Theres no need to li

If You Can Read This Without Crying I Feel Sorry For You! ! !
Question Entertainment IF YOU CAN READ THIS W/O CRYING, I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU? by MoonBeam (PRAY, HOPE, & DON'T WORRY) Posted 9 hours ago 59 answers Read all 82 comments +29 raves Never judge someone.... 'Some people!' snorted a man standing behind me in the Long line at the grocery store. 'You would think the manager would pay attention and Open another line, 'said a woman. I looked to the front of the line to... Never judge someone.... 'Some people!' snorted a man standing behind me in the Long line at the grocery store. 'You would think the manager would pay attention and Open another line, 'said a woman. I looked to the front of the line to see what the hold up was and saw A well dressed, young woman, trying to get the machine To accept her credit card. No matter how many times She swiped it, the machine kept rejecting it. 'It's one of them welfare card things. Damn people Need to get a job like everyone else,' said the man Standing behind me. The

To Aryonna
If only for a moment I could have held her ,And saw the face of love so pure.I cast a dream for only you to know,For never to remember a day of cold.I will walk with you when the time is here..Not an ounce of sorrow we just hold dear.I know your eyes so I saw see..You know my heart for this is me.I cry not tears of sorrow..For our time we only borrow..Now you shall play in a field of butterfliesAnd listen to the sound of a willows cry. Aryonna was born April-20-2009 She past Nov-27-2009 We love you!!!

Rates & Luv.............
I just want to say, (and comment all you like, I don't give a fuck) I see so much "rate my family, they rock! or Rawk", (which I hate) WELL...I have rated a lot of family members...guess what????????? They DO NOT rate the little people!!!!!!!!! So I'm sorry...they don't rock!!!!!!! I've said before, I am not here for points or to level (I AM a pic comment whore, I love to get and I love to give). But MY family rocks...they rock me!!!!!!!!!!!! And the rest can welllllllll....fuck off. Sorry to be so blunt but I say what's on my mind! When your family starts rating....then they might rock! Just sayin what's on my mind...Not that it matters to anyone but me. BUT, it gets it off my chest! Peace!

The Truth Shall Set You Free!
So yea, witty told me to check my spam, and this is what I found.... Date Real Local Cheating Wives No wai! I'm signing up right now! Natural male enhancement-it works Great, I need more back hair, right? Someone has sent you a $1000 Best Buy Gift Card! Lies If you can lick a stamp you can do this Weave baskets? Your Certificate of Achievement is Ready

Stranger Than Fiction
I had 700 junk mails today. Here are some of the best/most misleading/weird. 1. No plugs, no wire, no hands. guess what this was for... A. a phone, B. a vibrator, C. new software. 2. Overlooked tips regarding garage safety. garage safety is serious fucking be-niss for realz. 3. Igore Coks' tips for your best year ever. ok this on is actually an on the level real estate e-mail. Just an unfortunate name. 4. 15 minutes will get you the cash you need. Duh! I did have a sugar daddy for a while. 5. From Mr. Bright. [spam] november 23, 2009 it cuts down on so much confusion when they tell you it's spam in the subject line. spam fail. 6.From search yourself - find out who has been searching for you. was it me? was I searching myself? 7. Taurus, you may have to let go of your defensiveness. YOU let go of YOUR defensiveness. 8. Get your jollies on Cyber monday. hahahahaha. actually this was for a sale. 9. Daily dildo access for free fucking finally! 10. Beyond SaaS: everything

Psych Ward
Subject: The Bathtub Test ... During a visit to the mental asylum, a visitor asked the Director how do you determine whether or not a patient should be institutionalized. "Well," said the Director, "we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub." "Oh, I understand," said the visitor. "A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup." "No." said the Director, "A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?"

Love
How much can you love? Does your love fit like a glove? Is it unconditionally? Is it without questionability? How many lovers do you have? Do you think you can save? That person who you love? With the love you seem to think fits like a glove? Do they feel the same? Or is it just a game?

This Life- S.o.a Theme Song
Ridin' through this world all alone,God takes your soul, you're on your own.The crow flies straight, a perfect line, On the Devil's Bed until you die.This life is short, baby that's a fact, Better live it right, you ain't comin back. Gotta raise some hell, 'fore they take you down. Gotta live this life.Gotta look this world in the eye, Gotta live this life until you die.You better have soul, nothin' left. Cuz' when its business time, it's life or death.The king is dead, the light goes on. You'll lose your head when the deal goes down. Better keep your eyes on the road ahead. Gotta live this life. Gotta look this world in the eye, gotta live this life until you die.

Why I Will Not Unite Behind Obama!
Respect the Office? Yes.Respect the Man in the Office? No, I am sorry to say.I have noted that many elected officials, both Democrats and Republicans, called upon America to unite behind Obama.Well, I want to make it clear to all who will listen that I AM NOTuniting behind Obama !I will respect the Office which he holds, and I will acknowledge his abilities as an orator and wordsmith and pray for him, BUT that is it.I have begun today to see what I can do to make sure that he is a one-term President !Why am I doing this ?It is because:- I do not share Obama's vision or value system for America ;- I do not share his Abortion beliefs;- I do not share his radical Marxist's concept of re-distributing wealth;- I do not share his stated views on raising taxes on those who make $150,000+ (the ceiling has been changed three times since August);- I do not share his view that America is Arrogant;- I do not share his view that America is not a Christian Nation;- I do not share his view that t

Cam Rules
CK2 NEW CAM RULES EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY !!! 1)On slow nights cams can be used by selected Staff or a Member that has been with us for a min. of 2 weeks at least. On busy nights staff is allowed 1hr max up on cam, Non Staff is allowed 30mins.....Subject to change as needed. Check in with Owner/Manger *if online* for cam Info. 2)Absolutly NO flashing before 9pm Est...Flashing is acceptable after 9pm Est. IF you break our No flashing rule You will lose your cam privliages 3)IF you want to go up on cam ask a Manager so they can make sure there is a cam open for you to go on. 4)IF you do NOT ask a manager and you boot someone off cam you will.... a)get a warning from a Manager b)lose cam rights *for a week or more..up to Owners/managers*

Role Playing
She asked that they pretend to be strangers. As she walks in the door, she sees him sitting at a table in the back. He looks up, not quite sure, yes that is her he thinks. Their eyes meet as she makes her way across the room. She is dressed in black. A skirt, with boots exposing a hint of leg and a low cut blouse showing the swell of her breast. As she reaches the table they smile. "Mind if I sit with you? " she asks. "No, please do." he replies. They sit quietly, making idle conversation. She is nervous, and orders a shot of tequila with her beer. Sliding closer to him she takes his hand and places it under the table, into her skirt, allowing him to touch her, letting him know she isn't wearing anything underneath. His hand lingers a moment trailing along the edge of her pussy. He takes her hand and lays it in his lap, on his hard cock. Both of them breathing harder, look at each other, acknowledging that they are about to play out the fantasy that has already been scripted for them.

Ophelia-min
The crystalline palace was abuzz with activity. Ophelia was coming home today, and the rumor was that she had had a vision. Hundreds of thousands were gathered outside, awaiting their lovely queen to emerge from her balcony and fill them with words of comfort to soothe them in these tough times. Just as the crowds were beginning to get antsy, the royal starship descended from the sky, and the top of the palace opened up like a spring flower to welcome it. A roar of excitement filled the whole of Ophelia-Min in that moment, and minutes later, Ophelia was there, in all of her ethereal glory to bring her subjects the news. "My brothers and sisters, on this day, I have had a vision. Do not fret, but the future may not be as bright as we hope. The winds of change can at times seem scary, but they are undoubtedly necessary for growth. There are certain things transpiring soon that will change the landscape of all Ecrusca, perhaps for better, perhaps for worse, insofar, I cannot tell

My Voice Of Reason
I need a voice of reason.someone that can tell methat im making the right choicesomeone that can tell me thatthey have been in my shoessomeone that has loved and felt lost, someonethats had it all. and about toloose someone importantor what used to be importantto them.someone that has kidsthat can tell me that whati do will effect them.someone that takes whattheir kids say seriously.I need a voice of reasonfrom someone that can tell me that, i need to do whats rightfor me and my daughter.a voice that isnt telling me forselfish reasons.. but because they docare about what happens to me and what im doing with my life.Where is my voice of reason?

History
Have you ever look into your family history kinda weird if you really think about it....I can tell you this it is off the wall but cool as hell....I am not going to go in details ..but there are some awesome things that I found out.....

Book Worm
I was seven years old when I got my first library card. I still remember the feel of the laminated plastic, my scrawled attempt at a cursive signature. It was like holding one of my grandmama's two week old poodle puppies in the palm of my hand - a world of possibilities. That little card was punched until the corners resembled gummy pig tails. By then it was too late. I was hopelessly addicted to the smell, the feel, the wonder of all those books. It was a craving for that feeling that called to me from an open door as I meandered along my favorite hippie block. The sign read: "The Real Look Bookstore, for independent book culture." Now that sounded like my kind of place. One mad dash against traffic later and the smell hit me like an insulted prizefighter - square between my eyes. Not much larger than an inner-city classroom, the small space had been transformed into an urban literary oasis. From floor to ceiling, the potential of every corner maximized for optimal storage, ease of

Reality Intrudes
There is no time for dreams, for believing in fairy tales. Truth consumes the most beautiful fantasies like flames, devouring hopes and wishes, turning them black with the charred remnants of harsh reality. I wish dreams lasted longer... I wish I could find the one dream that doesn't disappear in the light of day... I long for a fantasy strong enough, real enough, solid enough to touch.

The Metamorphosis
This poem was written for me by my bff!! =) The Metamorphosis I had never seen anything like it. It was almost regal the way it hung there. There was undeniable strength in the cord that kept it connected to the tree And somehow I sensed it was not just a simple cord, but a lifeline. I had to look twice at the complexity of this amazing structure. A cocoon of sorts I assumed, but it was so thick As if there was layer after layer that made up its walls. It was as if the layers were acting as an armor… a shelter. I could not help but to stop and take a second look. There was a beauty that mesmerized the eye. There was a strength that defied reason. Yet at the same time there was an undeniable sadness That overwhelmed me as I stepped closer and examined its composition. Day after day others went by. Nobody could simply pass though Without lingering for a moment to watch this cocoon in amazement. There was life in this shell, But day after day the layers remained u

I Wonder
Why is it that when someone is mad at you they treat you like you have suddenly lost all capability of having intelligent thoughts? As if just the fact that you have done something to anger them is enough to completely disregard you as having any intelligence? I saw it happen today and it amazed me, quite frankly. I thought back to when I am mad at someone and realized that I do it , not to the extent that this person did though, and I have no idea why. There isn't an explanation that I have come up with that is any good to my mind.

Don't Let Me Look Back In Anger
Things are happening in my life that keep making me look back, its not good news. Recently when I was in London it happened. I immediately recalled the first time I went to London to stay with my pal Finlay. It was 1994; I was hardly doing any comedy and was running my pub at the time. Just the sheer excitement of being away from the pub, husband and my child made me giddy with happiness. Soho looked like the most amazing place in the world; the big bright lights of Piccadilly dazzled me like the oik I was back then. It was fantastic to be free from domesticity and just be me and just be with my pals. I recall looking in Time Out magazine and wondering how I could possibly contain my bursting exhilaration at the thought MY NAME one day might be in those listings as a comic at a club, it just made me foam at the mouth. Years later when I wrote articles and was featured in Time Out, I giggled and had a wee heart warming feeling, recalling the Janey who thought that was

Lusts Desires
You and I meet at a coffee shop near the coast. It is about 6:00 pm. The sun is starting to set and we get into my car and start to drive down the coast. We can see the waves crashing against the coast line. I am driving you down to this secluded place that I know about. As we drive you reach over and start to kiss my neck. My hand reaches down and I start to lightly rub your leg. You continue to kiss and lick my neck and then start to outline my ear with your tongue. This turns me on even more; I can feel my dick getting harder in my jeans. I have to reach down and adjust myself. You say to me, "Let me adjust it for you" so I let you, I am not going to argue. I put my hand back on you leg and start to rub up toward your thigh. You are wearing a skirt and an almost see through blouse. I pull the skirt up slowly running my fingers softly on your thigh. Your legs open wider as I get closer to your sweet pussy. I slide my hand up and your panties are a little wet, I brush my hand up again

Messaging Day Of The Stupid
Full moon? Has to be with IMs like this. bluntedin2006: sup slut?me: Nothing dumbfuck.bluntedin2006: mmm i like ume: Whoopie for youbluntedin2006: ur a mean bitchme: And your point would be?bluntedin2006: can i lic ur ass?me: No, you can fuck off though

He Thought Studly. More Like Dudly.
Please feel free to check out Mr. Man here. Here is our chat. LOL phildiddy24: hello how r uTo phildiddy24: hi phildiddy24: ur a cutie u into freinds with benefits? To phildiddy24: *chuckles* Well considering were not friends, nor do we even know each other. Kind of a moot point.phildiddy24: is ur mind mostly in the gutter? To phildiddy24: No, it's in my head. phildiddy24: wjhats ur fav posistion?To phildiddy24: Modified bridge is quite comfortablephildiddy24: watTo phildiddy24: Is that some sort of ebonics?To phildiddy24: I guess so. Have yourself a lovely evening.

A Friendship Like Ours
~~ Friendship Like Ours ~~ There's a rare kind of friendWho knows just what to doWhen to talk, when to listen,How to be there for you.A friend who inspires youTo grow in new ways,A friend who'll be thereOn both good and bad days.There's a rare kind of friendWho makes life worth livingBy encouraging, praising,sharing, and giving.A friend who can see thingsFrom your point of view,The best kind of friend,The rare kind... like you so many friends and hard to find friends are hard to find if u find them hold on to them as long as u can

Dance
I feel so unsure as I take your hand an lead you to the dance floor.As the music dies something in your eyesCalls to mind a silver screen and you're its sad goodbye.I'm never gonna dance againguilty feet have got no rhythmThough it's easy to pretendI know you're not a fool.I should have known better than to cheat a friendAnd waste a chance that I've been given.So I'm never gonna dance againthe way I danced with you.Time can never mend the careless whispers of a good friend.To the heart and mind ignorance is kind.There's no comfort in the truthpain is all you'll find.I'm never gonna dance againguilty feet have got no rhythm. . .Never without your love.Tonight the music seems so loudI wish that we could lose this crowd.Maybe it's better this wayWe'd hurt each other with the things we want to say.We could have been so good togetherWe could have lived this dance foreverBut now who's gonna dance with me? - Please stay.And I'm never gonna dance againguilty feet have got no rhythm. . .No danc

War Comes
For too long have we kept letting ourselves get killed. For too long have we not wanted to take life from those who wish us dead. For too long have we not defended our beliefs because we hold value in the sacredness of life. No more we will stand by and let them kill us anymore. It ends in this lifetime for good or for bad!! Now we fight for ourselves and our faith and beliefs. Now we kill and we die for our belief and our right to live. Peace will come to this planet or not at all. Now is the time for our magic to unite. The children of the gods who practice magic we will live or die. They started this war and with our magic and our beliefs we will end it once and for all!! Yes we may have persecuted them but thats because we were trying to avoid this war. Sacrafice the few to save the many, we tried and failed. We are outnumbered but we are stronger than they are. Our strength comes from true faith and belief in what we do and how we live. Success is not promised. Even now I w

Why Does This Happen To Me All The Time
why does it always seem when iam about to be happy it ends just as fast as it startsso my roommate who iam living with now his unemployment ends soon and no one wants to hire someone who is in there 40si dont know why so many people are so stuck on the ageas long as they are capable of doing the job and they dont have any major health issuesthey should be qualified to work no matter how old they areso i have until the 15 or the 25thsomething like that before they shut off the internet and i need to find a place to move toi dont really care about my self as much as iam more worried about my cati dont honestly think my heart could take it if i had to give him upi have to think of something and soon so i guess iam going to see about going apartment hunting i do have a place in mind but i really hate living alonei have no place to go my own family does not want me well my so called famly i refuse to call that piece of shit for a man as my fathersince he has done nothing for me or his gfand

White Magic
White MagicThis is the room to which she came,And spring itself came with her,She stirred the fire of life to flame,She called all music hither.Her glance upon the lean white walls,Hung them with cloth of splendor,And still the rose she dropped recalls,The graces that attend her.The same poor room, so dull and bare,Before in consecration,She breathed upon its common air,The true transfiguration ...?This room, the same to which she came,For one immortal minute?How can it ever be the sameSince she has once been in it!

Still Unbroken
Broken bones, broken hearts Stripped down and torn apart A little bit of rust I'm still running Counting miles, counting tears Twisted road, shifting gears Year after year It's all or nothing But I'm not home I'm not lost Still holding on to what I got Ain't much left No there's so much that's been stolen Guess I've lost everything I've had But I'm not dead, at least not yet Still alone, still alive Still unbroken I'm still alone, still alive I'm still unbroken Never captured, never tamed Wild horses on the plains You can call me lost I call it freedom I feel the spirit, in my soul It's something Lord I can't control I'm never giving up While I'm still breathing I'm not home I'm not lost Still holding on to what I got Ain't much left No there's so much that's been stolen Guess I've lost everything I've had I'm not dead, at least not yet Still alone, still alive Still unbroken I'm still alone, still alive Still unbroken I'm still unbroken Still unbroken Like the wind, like the

I Want This Girl
I want this Girl I'm the girl who will put my head on your shoulder, not because I'm sleepy, but because I want to be closer to you. I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain more than inside your bedroom or in an expensive restaurant. I'm the girl who says,"Okay, but you owe me...", not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you. I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will have fun because it means I am spending time with you. I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like; I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms. I'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me. I'm the girl who never gives up hope even when I tell others I have. I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you. I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss. I'

General
I miss being around my family of fire fighters that I grew up around because there was a speacal bond between us ,my dad was a firefighter thats how I got to know what a speacal talent and love they have for each other and kids espeacally the ederally and pets .

Marijuana,cannibus,chronic,kush,indo And So On
Can the world really go with out Kush or any sort of Weed,Chronic.What would this place be like.The chaos,the depression and all the help it does for those who have it for medical reasons.Some people use it for there own reasons,but as we all know its a seed that we plant and it grows and it depends on how the plant is taken care it can be very nice or a waste of time.I my self have done the process and work and grown some bomb ass pot.I seen people go thru bad shit just to have some weed.My godfather told me when i was 12 that pot is the gateway drug to trying everything else.Growing up my brothers and I smoked alot of bud,pot,the good shit i can say.We goten older and we ended up trying our fair share of drugs and some of us learned our lessons and some didnt.I think and wonder what this place would be like without pot.

Today
Did you ever look around at your life and wonder to yourself what you are fighting so hard for? I mean all of these things that we chase after in life and try to make happen and for what? To live up to someone else's expectations of what life should be? To compete? I love my children very much and so I suffice to say that many of the trials I endure is for their benefit(somewhere in my thinking at least) But beyond that I begin to struggle in my reasoning... I think that I have come to some very firm conclusions in my life about what I am willing to stand and fight for and when I am willing to accept defeat. I think more importantly I have concluded that you cannot hollow out your heart with merely the weakened promise of it being filled again and sometimes people need to be able to show some promise of the future that they tell you to hold tight to before you dive in the cooking pot. I find myself to be a less than tolerant or patient person most times - I guess that comes with the li

If We Had Sex
The answers were so FUN Now don't be scared.... you never know who really wants to do you!Here are the rules to the game.. REPLY SO ONLY I SEE IT AND REPOST SO OTHERS CAN FILL OUT!1. Would you be in control?2. Would you pull my hair?3. Would you whisper in my ear?4. Would you talk dirty to me?5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?6. Would you say my name?7. Would you go down on me?8. Would you let me give you a hickie?9. How many rounds would we go?10. What would you wanna do afterwards?11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?12. Would you lick and bite me all over?13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point?14. Would you want me to take my time?15. How freaky are you, 1 - 10?16. Would you want fast or slow?17. Where would you wanna "do it"?18. Would you be loud or quiet?19. Would you want me to be loud or quiet?20. What position would we do it in?21. Do you like me?22. Would you call me the next day?23. Would you scratch me?

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Advent I
Announcements Church Minders - your new schedules are available in the Narthex this morning. Please pick up your copy and help us to save on postage - Thank you!Pies of all types from the Ladies' Guild are available in the parish hall after the service. Or, you can reserve your pie by calling Richard Foster @ 869-9574. Special thanks to Richard and the other ladies for their delicious meat and vegetarian pies.Parishioners are asked not to block the parish hall vestibule with boxes of items for Christmas market. Such items can be left in the drawing room, but please ensure these items do not block the doorway to the scullery - Thank you!Mrs Swithens has lost the rubber end to her walking stick again. This is of special concern with winter fast approaching. Parishioners are asked to look for it and if found, return it to one of the vergers.Many thanks for the many suggestions left in the suggestion box over the past week. All will be given serious consideration. The suggestion b

Blastfm Keeps Growing!
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Different Kind Of Christmas
Got this emailed to me from an old classmate from Bullitt Central High School. I was in 17 years, and saw alot while i was in and takes alot for me to get emotional. Cut and paste and send this to everyone you can and have the thanks of an old crippled soldier. God Bless and Merry Christmas. A Different Christmas Poem The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near, But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. Perhaps

The Night Before Christmas
'TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS(Soldier's Version)Twas the night before Christmas, He lived all alone, In a one bedroom house made of Plaster and stone. I had come down the chimney With presents to give, And to see just who In this home did live. I looked all about, A strange sight I did see, No tinsel, no presents, Not even a tree. No stocking by mantle, Just boots filled with sand, On the wall hung pictures Of far distant lands. With medals and badges, Awards of all kinds, A sober thought Came through my mind. For this house was different, It was dark and dreary, I found the home of a soldier, Once I could see clearly. The soldier lay sleeping, Silent, alone, Curled up on the floor In this one bedroom home. The face was so gentle, The room in such disorder, Not how I pictured A United States soldier. Was this the hero Of whom i'd just read? Curled up on a poncho, The floor for a bed? I realized the families That I saw this night, Owed their lives to these soldiers Who were willing t

To Linda
When I look into your eyes, I see more beauty than starlit skies I long to feel your hand in mine, And feel the way our love will climb You are the one I have sought so long, The one who makes my heart dance with song I long to feel your loving embrace, and shortness of breath as our hearts race I hear your voice and stress disappears, You sound like heaven gliding to my ears I'm so thankful I finally found you, So I say it again, Linda, I love you ©2009 Paul Jones It is illegal to copy this poem, in part, or in it's intirity, with out the authors' permission.

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like a nosedive in cold water, burning holes in your face.Created by laurenpwns and taken 54 times on Bzoink Hello, what is the name you were given at birth?: Kalista Rae Cooper How old are you and when is your birthday? Do you like your age?: 21, May 28 1988, and umm sure? lol Where do you live? Are there fun things to do in your town?: Moline IL, no not really Im usually in Davenport IA lol just sleep in IL What school do you go to, if you actually still go to school anymore?: Ill be going to Black Hawk College in Jan Would people consider you more immature or mature?:

The "mirror" Effect
OK, after listening to all this crap on the news and shit, I figure it's time to write a little something about it. About shit in general, because I can be very opinionated, LOL! Soda tax, for one...to fight obesity. What the fuck? Who does that shit? Let's tax the shit that fat fuck's drink to fight their fatness? Really now? OK, I don't have a problem with people who are overweight, just the attitude about it. Who are we holding acountable for the bad mistakes people are making? And just not obesity either, it's always a game of trying to pass the buck, pointing the finger. Wal-Mart, an unstopable creature, unless you really don't want to stop it, quit shopping there. Yes, I know, it's nice to have one-stop shopping after you cash your check, you can get groceries, diapers, and your vinegar based douche all in one place. I personally, hate driving all over to get what I need, but I won't feed money into that monster. Wal-Mart purchases goods from China, therefore taking

Hallucinate On Dreams Of The Swirl
they ride on little pink ponys with sombreros' on their heads yoddleing down the big orange sliderivers flopping down the white walls of the melting sun inhaling as the globe spinsplaying my silver flute as it gleams in gold over the blueberry sun numbing the pain for the distancemeditate says the black man with the white fuzz following the little green man with the white nose and everywhere the green man went the plants were sure to growa day to remember ending with our eyes as big as zee moon drifting in the sun set of the heated rainbow collums afirenothing is worse than when the black dot seeps into the tv glistening over the dark shadows of the alley wayszee elephants line dance and dee flip flopper cracks a bottle infactuated with the massive steam clouds fleeing from the grates of the

Dance With Me
I want to dance with you for a life timeHold you close to my heart,Stop the hands of timeMake the world give us a little more timeTo feel our bodies close swaying togetherTo music that only we can hear,Letting it sweep us into HeavenCome, dance with me thereWe'll dance forever; never let goHearts in tune hand to hand,Building love between usThat we barely can standCandles low no bright lightsOur love will light the way,Come hold me close; dance with meTil the night breaks to dayFeel our bodies pressed closeAs close as skin to skin,Open your heart to me babyCome on, let me inFill my senses with your rushLet me taste your deep kiss,Hold me tightly to your heartNever have I felt like thisNever will I feel it againFor within your arms I've died,I've gone to heaven in your loveThese are happy tears I've criedNever have I been so lovedOr felt so much love for anyone,Dance with me honeyUntil the night is doneDance with me until the world is doneI can't resist your charms,Dance with me and hol

Numbing The Pain
Dreams torn to pieces, broken like glass Hope faded away, withered like leaves Not knowing is blessing, ignorance the only protection Nothing is numbing my pain The fragments of my faith Became the blade in my hand Just darkness my eyes see Pushed me to the end of all dead-end-streets A curse - cannot lie to myself I'm doomed - cannot silence my heart Fear is the tool, conformity our medicine How can I smile as this age dies, like everybody else Dancing around the fire, that burns this world Cannot bend down, I would just break I hate myself for playing their game Parents poison their children, never teach them to question If it only wasn't for this certainty in me I am a giant in their tiny world

Let Me In
Please let me in.I'm cold.I'm scared.I need warmth.Please let me in.I won't bite.I promiseTo be good.Please let me in.I need someone.I can't liveAlone.Please let me in.I can help.Honest.Just let me try.Please let me in!It's dark.I'm afraid.I'm weak.Please let me in!I can't make itOn my ownAnymore.Please let me in!Out of pity,I don't care.Just be around me.Please let me in!I need someoneTo keep meSane.Please let me in.I'm tiredOf livingLike this

Surviving
I awake every day thoughts and memories holding me down. I have three reasons to get up and survive, for that; it is all I am doing is surviving. I have lost all reasons for living, for a life without love does not allow you to feel alive. I have failed at living so I will just survive, taking day by day to protect and care for my reasons.Surviving is all I can do for without love I am an empty shell just wandering through this life waiting for it to end. Day after day, I wish for an end an end to the hurt, the loneliness and the constant bombardment of my emotions.I no longer wish to feel, to have any emotions. To have loved and be loved then to lose that love kills. It kills ones heart and soul especially when you love and it is not returned. I die more and more each day, ever so slowly as my emotions fade away killing my heart and soul leaving me just an empty shell. A shell that goes on surviving to protect and care for three children.Those children need me to survive for them and

Untitled
I found this with a letter i wrote a few years ago, i want to delete the letter, but not the poem. Here you go A chill seeps into my heart It’s freezing over again. There is no restart, Hell, we never began. It hurt to know that you Will not fight for me. But what can I do To make you see? We could have the dream Of what everyone speaks. But you make it seem Too far out of reach. I have seen ultimate bliss And yet we can’t have it. Remember you ch

Chapter Two: The Pink Dragon
Flying east, the Golden Dragon had time to view his domain. The vast plains that stretched across the southern half of his realm were barren now that his rival's corpse lay rotting in some pit. Trees stretched north of the plains, huge forests, laden with pits and trip wires that were all carefully set to stop intruders lay guarding the Golden Dragon's secret lair. The one river in his entire domain, known as the River of the Dead, twisted its way from the mountains to the north, on through the sea of trees to emerge at the sea to the west. This sea, known only as Big Blue, was too vast for even a dragon to cross. Not even the Golden Dragon had any idea as to what lay that direction. He had more important things on his mind, however, and gave a great flap of his wings to gain some altitude. As he thought about the invading Dwarves, he couldn't help but remember the day when he first encountered them, his fifth birthday, not that he knew it was his birthday. The morning had dawned brig

If Didnt Have Bad Luck, Would Have No Luck At All
Have you ever heard or used that saying ?:jumper: if so what was is about ? ok get this :help: late last week (weds/thurs) my 18mth old mircowave packed it & i notice as well my old fridge/freezer had broken seals & was leaking just a tad to much ! :crying: :crying: so i thought right i'll have new in time for xmas, so pops off to Currys, & try to get a deal , ended up with free delivery on new "fridge/freezer" & removal old one, the mirco id had to take away, put lady said if ask driver am sure he'll take old mirco away! so delivery arranged for 10am/1pm sunday so 10am comes :yay: phone call driver cant find my farm , is only one on the lane:coma: but gets here , & picks up old fridge & delivers new one , but says , cant take old mirco away as to small & could move about on lorry & bang or break other items, leaves me with instruction on new fridge freezer, :angel: leave standing for between 3/4 hrs so can settle before plugging into , :angel: ok so like good boy i wait unti

Why Is It So Hard To Find Someone I Sexually Connect With?
I hate that... I mean I fucked this 40 year old last night who had no idea how to ride cock. She kept just grinding on it. I'm not small by no means, so she could've taken my cock upto head and back down all the way to the balls. She was great at oral sex, but once we got to the point where she rode me cock it got bad. Not to mention I had to do ALL the work leading upto when she asked if I wanted to goto the bedroom. I had to make EVERY move which took like an hour, so by that point I was already pissed off and frustrated. Also I don't get why women these days try to connect sex to a romatic relationship first these days. To have a romantic relationship I must have a good friendship and sexual relationship (friendship being first).

*if I Die Before You Wake*
My friend sent this to me on Facebook. Hopefully the link works. If not, let me know and I'll fix it. It makes me think of all my friends and family that are or have served... and most of all... Foster. :( http://media.causes.com/618718?p_id=43680223

Loneliness
Loneliness is a painful thing it will consume you from within you'll question yourself and your personal worth you'll feel like you're the only person on earth there'll be a feeling of emptiness in your soul you'll feel like you're incomplete and you'll never be whole life will start to feel like a chore, you'll question getting out of bed and going out of the front door you'll walk the streets and see people walk by, you'll long for them to stop and say hi you'll crave the companionship of having a friend to have someone to talk to, to help your heart to mend there's only one way to keep loneliness at bay, embrace other people, don't push them away

Standing In The Rain
Standing here in the rain I just want to hide the pain I should've known it from the start that you would only break my heart You told me that your love was true and yet I'm standing here feeling blue I gave you the best of me yet you found it so easy to let me be Here I am with my heart in pieces all the while your love for me ceases (unfinished)

Rip Db-never Take Life For Granted
I stopped at the High Spirits bar last night to have a cocktail and this happily drunken lady approached me and said "your that TP (company I work for) lady that I'm so jealous of." I was kind of taken by surprise! I asked her what she was talking about and she said that her husband had passed away 2 years ago and he talked about me all the time. I had no idea who she was talking about of course, so I asked for a photograph. She pulled one out of her purse and to my surprise, I remembered him! I am trained in my job to know what kind of car my customers drive, what brand of cigarettes they smoke, what they like to drink....... Habits and such. This guy was a NASCAR fan like me. It is just my nature to flip people shit when we have something in common. Kinda like friendly rivalry...... He was a Rusty Wallace fan, I'm a Jimmie Johnson fan...... I was so sad to hear he passed away! I was promoted almost 4 years ago and he was a regular customer at my old store. I had no idea I meant so mu

If Not For You....
if not for you i wouldn't know what true love really meant i would never feel this inner peace i couldn't be content. if not for you id never have the pleasures of romance id miss the bliss, the craziness of loves sweet silly dance. i have to feel your tender touch i have to hear your voice no other one could take your place you're it. i have no choice. if not for you id be adrift i don't know what id do id be searching for my other half incomplete, if not for you

If I Were To Fall In Love
if i were to fall in love it would have to be with you your eyes,your smile the way you laugh the things you say and do you take me to places my heart never knew so, if i were to fall in love it would have to be with you. if i were to give my heart it would have to be to you for you bring things into my life so beautiful and new love so soft and warm beside me that i know it's true if i were to give my heart it would have to be to you. i was looking for an answer i was looking for a way to keep the magic that you bring to each and every day to live our lives together it started with a feeling and everyday it grew so when i knew i was in love it had to be with you

My Special Someone
you are my inspiration having you in my life revived my sleeping devotion you are indeed a special someone.. loveing you gives me hope to free this misery that i coped in those times i gave up you came and i stood up never will i forget how you always cheer me up every time i am sad and for that i am glad. when ever i am lonely you are there for me keeping my heart alive with your every smile. i dedicate this poem to you to show how much you mean to me i love you my special someone....

Perfect
Hey dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me 'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't stand another fight And nothing's alright 'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect Nothing's gonna change the thi

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Mes Neiges
I open my eyes and stare up. In my momentary waking daze, I try to make sense of the unfamiliar rough-hewn wood where the ceiling should be. Ah yes - the log cabin - where sleep is deep and waking is a slow transition from dream to reality.I can see my breath in the cold air inside the cabin. The blazing fire we made last night went out hours ago and the cold winter air encroaches on our warm bed. We are protected with our warm overstuffed duvet, but I have to get the fire started again. I creep out of bed quietly, so as not to wake you. It's freezing, so I grab my jeans and sweatshirt and head out of the room into the lounge. The fire is dead as I get into my cold clothes and hop around trying to get warm. I can see from the diffused light coming through the window that the sun is bright outside. But the window is still completely frosted, so I use my breath and the palm of my hand to clear some of the frost away to look outside. A beautiful, sunny winter day! A fresh

Class Reuinion
So I decided to actuallt go tot this thing and am drunk off my ass so fuck off about anytypoes, etc. I arrived like an hour after it started in hopes that lots of people were there, and there were. Upon my arrival I was given some dude Bobs's nametake instead of Jeff. good start i figured :) So anyway, name tags straighed out I walk in. So first group of people I see is a dude I knew bob, I walk over, shake his handm and he basically is like, 'who the fuck are you'. So I wander off and am thjinking good start. So I start to walk across the room and suddlently my name is broadcast to everyone. I look up and the DJ happens to be a good friend of mine form school. Hurray, I'm saved I think, Mark is a cool ass dude. So basically me and him spend othe rest of the night scoping out the chicks the rest of the night. I have to say for a 20 year most of the chicks are still pretty held together. Pne is still modeling, and I always ghad wood for her in HS. A total doll. And of cours

The Darker Side Of Me
Darkness exist in the absence of light No darkness is greater than the darkness that inhabits an empty heart. Or empty soul, not empty by choice, but by the cruel chain of events. That is a lifetime in the making. A lifetime of loss, treachery, pain and broken hearts, no man knows this better than I., To embrace the dark. Is too hold back the pain drowning it out with anger and spite, Anger becomes as familiar as the air you breathe, a constant companion. Or painkiller an emotion so strong. You forget you are capable. of any other and you forget that you have ever felt another. Next, you know, a lifetime has passed. The world has changed. To a alien environment. Where you have no place the only thing. Left you to do is to try to pass on to others. The harsh lesson. You have learned through a lifetime of mistakes .

The Exhilirating Resentment Of Gravity.
Say something witty darling,before I fall off this ledge.The corner of sleep and ill-will.Past good intentions.Under the assumption of marble slabs and a few hundred pounds of dirt.A place to be safe and cold.Just a few paces beyond dawn.A few spaces without words.A few duckets of laundered bodily fluids.A few longstanding stamps of biologic longevitythat we had the gall to fight overthe gall to name, and treat half as pets, half as property.Sex isn't a game, a drug, or a weapon.It's a wet kiss between the ribs.Sharp and gushing with enthusiasticcatharticexplosive thanotic bliss.Just playing the ridiculous game of immortality.Desperately sewing seeds in a salted earth.Crumbling dry sprouts between your palm.Possibly a memory.More apt to be another elipsein a series, in anticipation of some grander work.One could hope at least...

I'm Stressed! Ugh
welp! yet again I'm stress. I am sooo ready for school break it's not even funny. I have this big math test Monday and I have been slacking off my math homework (it's never collected or graded) so I don't always do all of it because I have so much English homework. So Monday I have a test on 2 chaps so I'm freaking out. And so freaked out can't focus on studying so i'm writing a blog to help myself focus. I only had class 2 nights last week becaue Ive been super busy. But everything else is going great. great thanksgiving eve went out to Tailgaters! Went out with my normal people and shared this big tailgatira with dirk and some weird guy took a picture of me drinking it. hah Thanksgiving was one of my best Thanksgiving I ever had. ALL my past relationships we usualy get into a fight on every fucking holiday so it was very nice and freshing to be with someone that doesn't fight with me on a holiday. I think he's a keeper!! Ate dinner at my house and dessert at his house and back to my

Bleh
As i sit here torn up inside/ i think, i wonder and ponder why/ why this world is full of hate, and things we despise/ surrounded by lies and misguidance/ merciless melancholy and deciet/ predictable suicides and unbearable disasters/ unwanted lives/ tormenting laughter/ unreachable heaven/ non-existing havens/ pointless wars/ unjustified glory/ broken hearts/ happy families that fall apart/ broken dreams/ shattered hearts/ pretense love/ unexplaineable pain/ inexplicable love/ As i sit here torn up inside/ i simply cannot fathom why we persue this thing we call life.......

The Way Things Should Be
Tell them you love them every chance you get Make every moment count Remind them of their worth Trust them and they will trust you Be honest, but watch what you say Tact is a virtue Let them know of your fears Make them believe you'll always be there Don't be afraid to show them your tears Give them your all; they deserve it Be their best friend Show the respect they deserve Don't fight or argue, talk it out Never make them do something they don't want to Be patient, they will come along Don't think that because they love you, you can mistreat them They're not your pet

I Will Hold You Another Day~ By Jd
I turned and watched you walk away, The god awful silence as you left beckoned me. I might have been wrong to tell you that you never mattered, Things were so unkept i left too much room to make mistakes. Here we go again, I closed my eyes the day i told you to leave me be, I fought the current with everything i had in me and something more inside me died. That time of the year is rearing its face and we are running another round once more, This bend seems awfully familiar, Me missing you and unintentionally throwing your heart to the floor. In a state of mine thats more like a coma, I am conscious, Yet i am numb, Tell me does any of this back drop even exist? Never ending thoughts keep you just this close to my reality, Close enough to trouble me from sleeping as i silently hear your soft cries. I remember the ways you lift my spirit, Heh i even remember the times you kept close, These cold winter nights sting my eyes due to the bright sunlight, Almost like the s

Bitch!
Sugar~Britches STOLE my pic I made with MY name on it, uploaded it to her album, and refuses to delete it! Then the bitch blocked me when I asked her nicely to remove it from her profile... All she did was put it in her Default album.If anyone wants to go be nasty to her for me, I'd appreciate it :D

Something To Think About
Those of You Born 1930 - 1979 TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED THE 1930's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! First, we survived being born to mothers Who smoked and/or drank while they were Pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, Tuna from a can and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-base paints.

Red
In the valley of light, there's dustIn the glory of pain, there's lifeIn the bellies of pigs, we rotIn the gullet of worms, we dieThe engines turning and salvations growing dimmAnd all I see, and all I see is redMy stomachs burning and the venoms soaking inAnd it's all I feel, and all I feel is redIn the stories of time, we're lostIn the glories of rage, we flyOn the shackles that bind, there's rustIn the echoes of hell, we flyThe engines turning and salvations growing dimmAnd all I see, and all I see is redMy stomachs burning and the knifes just digging inAnd it's all I know, and all I know is redRedNeedles and pins, needles and pinsNeedles and pins, needles and pinsNeedles and pins, needles and pinsNeedles and pinsThe engines turning and salvations growing dimmAnd all I see and all I see is redMy stomachs burning and the venoms soaking inAnd it's all I know, and all I'll know is redRedIt's all redRed

When I'm Gone
When I'm gone just carry on don't mourn rejoice every time u here my voice just know that I'm looking down on u smiling and I didn't feel a thing so baby do't feel no pain just smile back! I hate bein alone this shit sucks! Fuck a hater fuck a snitch!

I'm Pathetic? Or You Are?
I don't want to feel Insignificant anymore, I don't want to go back To How we were before. I don't want you to make me feel Like I am a low excuse for a human being, Sometimes you make me feel as though I am not even worth this air I'm breathing. I don't know how you do it - Degrade me so much that it hurts, You can hit me all you like, But nothing hurts more than your words. The bruises will fade away with time, But every minute you yell at me will stay, I won't forget that I am not worthy of anybody, Or how you think I should just leave this world, Go away. I don't need how you tell me That I am pathetically useless, Am I really no good in this world? Is fighting for my life helpless? I just don't want to be mocked, Or made to feel minuscule, But if you consider the source, It's kind of pitiful; What Have you done in your life That gives you the right to break me like this? I would never tell you, But if you were do die, You'd be the last thing anyone would miss.

Alone And The Holidays.....
Well the holidays are here once again and I am again all alone. This last year has been the costliest year of my life. I lost my family, friends and home. The people whom I thought had my back actually just wanted an excuse to run away from me. For you see, I was their life line whenever they needed money, favors and help. When it was my turn to get some help they bolted. The job I took a year ago not only didn't hold up their end of the agreement but by not doing so cost me my house, dogs and 90% of all my belongings. Needless to say, I have absolutely nothing to hold on to any more. With this said, I am still going to give to help the needy kids who without it will not have a Christmas. Its the least I can do and continue to do.

What Comic Book Sound Are You?
You Are "BOOOOOOOOOM" You're the type of person who would be a very moody superhero. In fact, you'd walk the line between superhero and supervillain. Blowing up a whole town or planet wouldn't be out of the question for you if you felt angry enough. You are naturally a justice enforcer. Sometimes there is so much wrong with the world that it really gets you down. You can't help but want to punish everyone who's evil. There's nothing that makes you matter than criminals who are allowed to walk. What Comic Book Sound Are You? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

July 4th 2010 Will Be 3yrs On Fubar **taking Donations For Spotlight**
July 4th 2010 will be 3yrs on Fubar **Taking Donations For Spotlight** if you donate plz put your name here so that i can post a bulletin. You do not need to put your amount donated. all donations will be appreciated

What Chess Piece Are You?
You Are a Knight You are very unusual and even a bit eccentric. No one can really figure you out easily. Because you're not predictable, people behave irrationally around you. They may feel threatened by your presence, or they may underestimate you completely. You do best when you're close to the action. You don't move quickly, so you need to be near the center of things if you want to make a difference. You tend to act quickly, and decisively. In fact, you are often the first person to make a move. What Chess Piece Are You? Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

Winter Snow
its snowing outside, today is the day i say good bye, there is a time we must say good bye, everyone needs time to heal, you dont need to say a word, i have travelled this road before, i dont want to go down it again, as i live my life i will remember, you helped me heal my heart, you showed me the way, before i loose my way again, its time to say good bye on this snowy winters day. bedrock

What Kind Of City Dweller Are You?
You Are a Active and Busy City Dweller The city is your natural habitat. You feel at home on a busy, urban street, and you know you'd get bored living any place else. You take full advantage of what the city has to offer. And that means that you're always on the go. You're the type of city dweller that can squeeze yoga, shopping, and brunch in before noon. There are amazing opportunities in the city, and you're determined to not waste any of them. Your feet may be tired at the end of the day, but it's worth it! What Kind of City Dweller Are You? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

Are You Walmart Or Target?
You Are Target Like Walmart shoppers, you know how to stretch a dollar when you need to... but you're not exactly stingy. You shop to have fun, and you can't help but be drawn in by all the whimsical things you find at Target. Between red cards, gourmet food, and funky home decorations, you're totally hooked. Plus, you can't help but notice that everyone seems a little happier at Target. You think it's worth a few extra bucks to shop there. Are You Walmart or Target? Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

Tiger, Say It Ain't So.
Goolly, Andy! Who would have ever thunk it? Arguably the most famous man in the world Tiger Woods having an affair. I would have believed Chicken Little before I would have believe that. All I gotta say is Hell just froze over. Or is it appropriate just to say he’s a man that was in heat at the wrong place or places. Boys will be boys as I have heard it said many times. What is so funny about this whole episode is that Tiger’s wife was rumored to have used one of his prized irons with which to whoop him. What no pans in the house? How embarrassing to have your wife chase you out of your multi million dollar house using the tools of your trade. I think he be take up Nurf Golf. At least when she hits him it won’t hurt very much. No need to give you a link the stories are very where. Tiger my man, if you would have only been listening to BlastFM with your head phones on then you would not have noticed those babes. BlastFM helping over come temptation. Dig the soun

Poem
u wanna seebut cant get past it allall of the thingsthings that was hardbut never the samenever said a wordbut said it all throughtouchcant imagin itcant even think of itwont even darebut cant even tellwords cant be spokebut only be shown througheyesby the timetime u feel it'll be gonegone like the wind under the eagleswingscant change but theres always room for improvement and moremore inside then the adveragepersonif they say there badif they say there just wrongjust tell them there mistakencause only time can telltell you what each and every tear meanseven though i cant always be therei can comfert you in ways you canonly imaginthough your tears fallthough your heart kills with each beat and soundi can always say im hereyou always seem to give up whentime comes to say say the things you want and giveeven a rose has a timeless touchsmell and feel but never gives out or even up.....

Poem
with the sounds of the drums and the voices of the men and the war paint of the worriers and the spirits of the fallen braves the fire rages on no man is safe the woman prepare the shamen dances with the light of the full moon there voices call to the spirits beyond and above they prepare for the war to come meny have fallen meny have shed there blood on that very ground they dance upon they call upon the strongest and mightest of them all men dressed as animals acting as one nothing wont stop stop the war but prepare to fight fight to there deaths may the wolf spirit guid and prepare...

Can You Handle The Sciencey?
Do you even want more sciencey? Could you handle more sciencey? I thought of a couple of ideas for more sciencey drawings. let me know if you are interested. 1. First draft for todays most loved inventions. 2. If LoLcats taught school. 3. Homes/home products of the future. Thoughts, do you have any?

Broken Back In
The so called contract was broken back in August between the hours of four and five in the afternoon, with the required two witnesses. One a devout Roman Catholic and the other a Roman Catholic Priest. First letter written was do not follow my lead and never underestimate someone like me. It has to be me. Come up with a letter that says your dead without this surgery and I have the following. With or without this surgery I will die. Get it? I'm dead just like you. Like it or not we are all dead. So what happened in Cooper Hospital? You want me to lead by hand? So why this hoopla with this surgery while to me I don't care since we are all dead sooner or later? I'd be happy to blab it all out. God forbid. Look God is all poweful, all knowing, and everywhere. Does God need tons of prayer or anything else so this all God knows? Does God need a place to reside? We need much less holy rollers with their hands in your pocket or bank account. We need less medicine with hands in your pocket

Leaving!
Hi Everyone,I'm going to be gone most of December.A new grandbaby will be here Dec.1 and that's where I'll be and going to Florida for Christmas.So I'll probably be in and out but not often.Just want to let all of you know.Happy Holidays! Hugs and lots a kisses!

Things I Miss.
1. I miss the anonymous gifts. I may have hardly gotten them, but they were nice. 2. I miss the dictionary gift. I loved sending that thing out to people. 3. I miss the dirty weeds. I don't remember sending them to anyone, but I sure do remember getting a few of them. 4. I miss the get a clue gift. I don't think they had it around that long, but it was funny. Now I can find so many reasons to send it out. 5. I miss the old blog format. 6. I miss being able to shout some certain members and actually get an answer. Now I guess I'm not "whorish" enough. 7. I miss the "shout box" and "alert box". Why change the name on something that is EXACTLY the same as it was before? ...........I think that's it. If you want to add anything that you miss from here, go ahead and add it in the comments.

My Girl's Booty
I have neverBeen into tiny girlsEmaciated waifs Without form or figureEven if theyImplant their meager breastsI like girls with bootyI sampled many Tapped many well rounded hineysBefore finding The perfect girlWith a bodyBountiful in natural breastsAnd an ass I just loveI love having herShow off That beautiful bootyKnowing I am the oneThat gets to enjoy itAt the endOf the day

Untitled!
I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real. The needle tears a hole, that old familar sting. Try to kill it with the pain, but I remember everything. What have I become my sweetest friend? Everyone I know goes away in the end. And you can have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt. I wear this crown of thorns, upon my liars chair, full of broken thoughts, that I cannot repair. Beneath the sands of time, the feelings disappear. You are someone else, I am still right here. What have I become my sweetest friend? Everyone I know goes away in the end. And you can have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt. If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself, I would find a way.

A Rant. (sunday 29th November 2009)
OK it's Sunday now, so I'm posting this one. And it's a rant about women. I'm sure I'm not the only bloke who thinks they're just useless and annoying. I personally think women need to learn that men are far superior to them in every way, and they need to get back in their cages and be quiet. My reasons for thinking women are useless and pathetic. What has a woman ever invented that is useful? Oh that's right, Nothing. Us men do the inventing, the curing of diseases, the building of homes and shops ect, all women do is spend our money and moan about us. Single mothers - They're very good at having kids but aren't very good at actually raising them. ALL kids need a man in their life to grow up into respectable people. Women cannot bring kids upto be respectable. It's bad news for the kid if it's got a single mother, because women are stupid. And thus, the kid will also grow up to be an idiot. Only a man can actually make the child a level-headed, successful person who'll

Introduction.
This is my new blog Basically I'm going to post a new thought that's entered my head every week on here, and turn it into a topic. It could be a rant, could be something I've discovered, something that's good or just an opinion on something. I'm going to do my first one tomorrow because it's Sunday, and that's the day I'm choosing to do it on. Every Sunday. It's basically like a diary of thoughts because I don't think people on here are capable of forming a coherent thought of their own, so I'll show them how it's done. That's all. Adios. :)

Ok Last One For Now For Sure..i Like This One Tho
Your Cute Monster Says Your Inner Demon is Frailty You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence. You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love. You are easily beaten down by life. People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming. The Cute Monster Test Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

Last One For Today I Think
You Are Ceramics You are open to the world and it's possibilities. You are able to start something without knowing how it will end. You trust your intuition above everything else. Going with your gut often works out. You believe that every day objects can and should be art. The best art allows ordinary life to be more stylish and beautiful. What Type of Art Are You? Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

He Is The Devil....
He had to be Lucifer, how else could he have convinced me to let him fuck me all night , only 20 minutes after we had met. How could he have convinced me to let him fuck me without protection, something I had never done, he had to be the Devil. How could he have made me let him cum inside me something that had never happen before, he has to be the Devil. How had he made me let him slip his huge cock into my ass, something no one had ever done, he has to be the Devil....How could I feel so fucking good when he was deeper inside me than anyone else had ever been, he is the Devil......How in the world did he convince me to fuck him in the pool and in the bedroom in front of everyone at the party. He is the devil. Most of all how could he talk me into fucking his best friend that same night. He is the devil, and then fucking him and his best friend at the same time that same night, he is the devil. We both saw him about the same time, Cheyenne said he was cute and could be fun if she was

Bored!!
Your Hands Say That You Are Logical You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul. Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life. What Do Your Hands Say About You? Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

Very True
You Are Romantic Sexy You are sexy because you are very attached to your partner. You are incredibly loyal. Once you fall in love, you aren't attracted to anyone else. You only have eyes for your sweetheart. You have so much sensuality and fire for your partner. You can be a bit overwhelming at times. You find being deeply in love to be the sexiest thing in the world. Your passion is undying. As long as your partner shares your passion, you find it easy to sustain a monogamous relationship. And within the confines of a stable relationship, you're willing to do a lot to keep that passion alive. What's Sexy About Your Name? Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

Fearless =) {{fuck Your Warnings}} Lol ;)
There's somethin' 'bout the way the street looks when it's just rainedThere's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the carAnd you know I wanna ask you to dance right thereIn the middle of the parking lot, yeahWe're drivin' down the road, I wonder if you knowI'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up nowBut you're just so cool, run your hands through your hairAbsent-mindedly makin' me want youAnd I don't know how it gets better than thisYou take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearlessAnd I don't know why but with you I danceIn a storm in my best dress, fearlessSo baby drive slow 'til we run out of roadIn this one horse town, I wanna stay right hereIn this passenger seat, you put your eyes on meIn this moment, now capture it, remember it'Cause I don't know how it gets better than thisYou take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearlessAnd I don't know why but with you I'd danceIn a storm in my best dress, fearlessWell, you stood there with me in the doorwayMy hands shake, I'm not usually thi

No Fairytale..
White Horse LyricsSay you're sorryThat face of an angel comes outJust when you need it toAs I pace back and forth all this time 'CauseI honestly believed in youHoldin' on,The days drag onStupid girl I should've known, I should've knownThat I'm not a princessThis ain't a fairytaleI'm not the one you'll sweep off her feetLead her up the stairwellThis ain't Hollywood,This is a small townI was a dreamer before you went and let me downNow its too late for you and your White Horse,To come around.Maybe I was naïve,Got lost in your eyesI never really had a chance.My mistake I didnt know to be in loveyou had to fight to have the upper hand. I had so many dreams about you and meHappy endings; Now I knowI'm not a princessThis ain't a fairytaleI'm not the one you'll sweep off her feetLead her up the stairwellThis ain't Hollywood,This is a small townI was a dreamer before you went and let me down.Now its too late for you and your White Horse,To come around.And there you are on your kneesBegging for

People On Fubar
I have learned more and more everyday that the people on here are user and abuser. And whoever hacked my page made me realize something.... I dont need all those friends that didnt do shit for me. So I am going to be deleting the people that dont rate or show me attention. I dont ask you to buy me things or spoil me. I just want to be rated. I notice I get more attention from the ones that are not my friends and less attention from my closest friends. So I think I need to reconsider and think about who my friends really are or even true friends really exist on this site. In the next few weeks I will be monitoring my page and seeing who does and doesnt stuff for me as I do for them. I am tired of having friends that want things for me and dont give in return. Also to all those that bomb and bomb just because they want points and are greedy will be removed just because.

Canibus - Dead By Design [melatonin Magik 2010]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W0gkzvfR5ak LYRICS Professor Griff:CanibusThrowing melanated molotov cocktailsEngineer directly out of Full SailRippin' the jacker, ain't nobody nastierSpittin' and grabbin' facts and data to enhance yaCanibus the lyrical adjective killaCanibus:My Melatonin Magik is enhanced by the melatonin tabletsCome take a walk with Canibus, Ardipithecus RamidusWhat the fuck is Melatonin Magik Bis?I still ain't understanding this shitOkay, my brain is a microchipMy two balls with a cane is a macro-dickI rap so sickI created swine PLOO (flu) out of an infinite mixYou tried to diss but can't even spitYou just stand there and wish with your hand on your hipsMan you a bitchWho the fuck is you to criticize a lyrical kingYou see, that's my problemI spit a thousand bars ya'll was silentI ain't heard nothing about itI had to give you three years to recognizeAnd then I realized, can't nobody even fuck with my rhymesThe internet is an early telepathic building setMy lyrics ar

I Am No One And And Age Is Nothing
well yall you know as i have said many times befor i have many sights on the internet this is yes because im tierd of being alone and im trying to make a connection lol as if that will happen now one really wants a fat man with no money lmao... but i have been talking to a young lady on here that said she liked me well i geuss age over road that or she may have just gotten to much flack from her friends but she came back and removed her reiend sip from my page it hurts but not as amuch as to all the ignorent people out there that feels just because there is an age diffrents that it shouldent happen well to stat this now im not a child molester and if any lady that wants to talk to me can i only date ladies 25 and over any way age is a number nothing more : something to think aboui lol,and for those that have a problem with the agew thing oh well its a number get over it.... I thought I had found it this time I thought I had a chanse I guess being happy aint for me I guess I am bound

Morning Rises~by Jd
The drum roll is pounding in the depths of my mind, Another moment passed and i am surrounded by the dark. I feel you deep within my being, You have tattooed my soul, Thoughts of you sting deep, I am frantic and without you i have no self control. I am nothing more than a shadow of the proud man i used to be, When you were here you made me feel almost important, Yes it felt so good. You always found a way to bring out the best in me, Even in the darkest hours i had faced, Now all thats left is the memory of your soft skin against my tense and tortured body, You will not be erased. Light the way now beautiful, I have been running to you all this time believe me, Why can i not make you see that i only wanted you forever, No i dont think its too much to ask. The blackest skies could never keep me from wanting you, I have learned to control the rain, I have experienced many things in life, But you were the only one to strike me with such a heavy pain. When the sulfer s

Granny's Wisdom
Once upon a time there was a little sparrow. This sparrow was so stubborn when fall started turning to winter he did not want to leave his home. As the days grew shorter and colder he decided it would be better if he flew south for the winter. So his journey began. He flew as fast and as hard as he could but it was so cold his wings became frozen and he fell to the ground. The sparrow landed out in the middle of a snowy pasture shivering and cold. Well as luck would have it along came a bull and shit right on top of the little bird. He laid there in the stinking mess and then realised he was getting warmer. Then he tried to wiggle and get loose from the pile of shit he found himself in but with no luck he seemed to be getting in the pile deeper and deeper. A barn cat in the distance seen the movements and silently stalked closer to investigate.The cat picked up the little sparrow by one stinking wing and began to shake the shit off him. The sparrow was so delighted to be out

Unknown Author Quotes I Love
"Love is like grass. If you fall on it, it may leave a stain and some temporary pain. But you’ll get over the pain, it will eventually stop hurting. Now maybe the stain ruined your favorite pair of jeans, or maybe it was nothing special that was ruined, but either way the stain remains there. And with time, it will begin to fade, but it will always be there, a permanent reminder that you, too, once fell.” Author unknown Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs.Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears. What is it else?A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet. What I have with him is worth it. It is worth every lonely night,every tear I cry from missing him,and the pain I feel from not having him close.It is worth it because he is my one and only.When I picture myself years from now,I see only him. No matter how painful distance can be, not having him in my life would be worse.

Door
You got it! I take the door and good bye to the contract and the rest. Means I'm already using it on regular basis. No, never did I change my mind. Remember what they taught us about absolute control and dicipline. Possibility always existed. Mr. Keith was going to buy the entire block in South Philly to impress hes church followers and buy hes way to God or perhaps be god. Where does this man who urinates in public get this kind of money. Figure it out. Witness. Norio

Are You Kidding Me?!??
I was browsing newsrag and found an article that says canola oil is bad for you. It even backs it up. To beat all it says lard, tallow, and animal fat are really good for you. I have been told for years the exact oppisite! Has anyone else heard about this? here is a link

Yule Or Christmas
Yule or Yule-tide is a winter festival that was initially celebrated by the historical Germanic peoples as a pagan religious festival, though it was later absorbed into, and equated with, the Christian festival of Christmas. The festival was originally celebrated from late December to early January on a date determined by the lunar Germanic calendar. The festival was placed on December 25 when the Christian (Julian) calendar was adopted. Some historians claim that the celebration is connected to the Wild Hunt or was influenced by Saturnalia, the Roman winter festival. Terms etymological equivalent to "Yule" are still used in the Nordic Countries for both the Christian Christmas, but also other religious holidays of the season. In modern times this has gradually led to a more secular tradition under the same name as Christmas. Yule is also used in a lesser extent in English speaking countries to refer to Christmas. Customs such as the Yule log, Yule goat, Yule boar, Yule singing, an

Read The Rules Please.
I guess we will take this until the same time tomorrow. Best caption for this photo gets a million fubucks please put "entry" before your comment so I know to read it. save me from my bored. Mclovin wins for the Dick Channey hemroid comment. But you all were hilarious! Thanks for playing.

The Truth About The First Thanksgiving (by James W. Loewen)
THE TRUTH ABOUT THE FIRST THANKSGIVING (BY JAMES W. LOEWEN) Date: 2009-11-26, 6:53AM HST Reply To This Post The following article was authored by noted historian, professor emeritus of sociology, award winning author, & lecturer James W. Loewen, & is also included in his book "Lies My Teacher Told Me-Everything Your American History Textbook Got Wrong". THE TRUTH ABOUT THE FIRST THANKSGIVING-By James W. Loewen Over the last few years, I have asked hundreds of college students, "When was the country we now know as the United States first settled?" That is a generous way of putting the question. Surely "we now know as" implies that the original settlement happened before the United States. I had hoped that students would suggest 30,000 BC, or some other pre-Columbian date. They did not. Their consensus answer was "1620." Part of the problem is the word "settle." "Settlers" were white. Indians did not settle. Nor are students the only people misled by "settle." One recent Th

Silent Screams
Look at me, im chasing after dreams left in the storm... What i am is all that matters now...the lies are gone Tempting fate and losing friends along the way i love.. Youll never know..,my life means everything. Still i scream because theirs nothing left to do until the end. The world goes on.. with all that ive become.. still i scream inside, for all the pain ive taken hasnt changed...

[tagged]
Boo tagged me... sometime last week. Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. -> I'm not tagging anyone, because I don't give a fuck. 1. I like applying the paranoiac-critical method to everyday things and making poetry out of it- it usually turns out being about fucking. 2. When I work with people I get sick. Regularly, its pretty irritating being in a constant state of illness just for a regular paycheck. 3. I'd rather we talked about me, at least you can offer some insight to the subject since I don't know myself that well, whereas when I have to listen to your problems (which I do, dutifully 90% of my spare time) I've gone through it (or worse), known someone that has gone through it (or worse) and I typically have a very rational solution already worked out. It's

How Do You Live ?
EVERY DAY FOR ME IS EITHER GOOD OR GREAT LET ME EXPLAIN IT . WHEN ALL IS GOING IN A GOOD DIRECTION ITS "A GOOD DAY" WHEN EVERYTHING THAT CAN GO WRONG , DOES... AND I LET IT BE JUST WHAT IT IS , WITH OUT ALLOWING IT TO EFFECT MY DAY, MY GOALS,MY HOPE AND WILLINGNESS ...NOW THAT IS A "GREAT DAY" SO IF YOUR READING THIS , AND HAVING ONE OF THE TWO TODAY. KEEP SMILING FOR THE DURATION OF THE DAY. WE HAVE A NEW BEGINING EVERY SECOND OF EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY OF EVERY WEEK OF EVERY MONTH OF EVERY YEAR. WHEN YOU WANT TO START OVER AND GO ON IS UP TO YOU . HAVE THE BEST DAY YOU CAN EVERY DAY

Stupid Encounter #28 (please Read Botto To Top Its A Sb)
NjRoc: i wish my balls where slapping against your chin To NjRoc: Dont say sorry to me go home and say sorry to your wife if you even have the balls to say that NjRoc: ok ok ok ok i am sorry I think you are pretty...have a nice day To NjRoc: look your married... im married.... so no maybe you cheat you like to be a statistic to cheaating on your wife even though you made a promise to God not to but look I dont im a Christian women youd know that if you read my profile i read yours you say your not a douchebag but sorry yo you are anyone to do that to their wife is NjRoc: yeah but i think u r a doll ..i like you ...give me a break To NjRoc: OK BUT IM ALSO NOT 56 NjRoc: hun you are not a child To NjRoc: I UNDERSTAND THAT UR OLD AND SENILE BUT THE HINT IS NO CAUSE I MEAN HELLO YOUR MY DADS AGE... I ALSO KNOW PAST THAT AGE YOU THINK ITS OK TO BECOME A CHILD MOLESTER CAUSE YOU FEEL YOU HAVE TO BE YOUNG AGAIN... BUT WHATEVER GO FUCK UR SELF WITH A RUSTY RAZOR AND JUST SOME ADVICE NEWBE

Party Tonight
For all those in the Addison, Tx area. We are having a post thanksgiving party. All are welcome. The Address is 4820 Westgrove # 702 Addison, Tx 75001 you can google map directions. Please feel free to pass this on to all your friends in the area.

Untitled Sexy Poem
Untitled I watched the reflection of a classic Bogart? in a mirror above a naked debutante she was paying her way through film school She kept watching the movie instead of moving her titties She knew Bogart would save her Bogart never left a damsel in distress, but he drove them there sometimes

Naughty Folders = No Points
ok i am keeping my naughty folders set for family only. i sit and rate peoples folders all day everyday to help MYSELF level and seem to get nowhere. when most of u come to my page u hit the nsfw folders..does nothing for me i DO NOT get points for them. now i can make u pay to see them..but i don't want to have to..if u want to stroke ur cock to my pics then please respect me enough to rate my other pics as well... i have been very nice..as trying to give u all something new to stroke to..but i am getting nothing out of it in return..which makes me want to charge bling or other gifts to see them as a way to get points to level sorry i maybe being selffish..but we are supposed to be friends on here and if i'm ratin ur folders shouldn't u be helpin me out with mine?

Well, I Did It Finally
After thinking it numerous times and laughing and wondering I finally went to baby jesus's page...and sent a marriage request ERROR: this users permissions don't allow you to send them a fuMarriage proposal. That was the question I had at the moment. Thinking he probably has it restricted who can send him proposals, I would test it then decide from there my next move( s). *shrugs* Now I know lol and I'll have to find some other way to amuze myself around here now...

New Nsfw Policy!?
BULLDOG__Fu-Bou... New NSFW policy,Please Read This Blog... Sorry For The I... Texas City, TX subject: Your Main / Primary Pic. received: 11/28/2009 08:41 am replied: no block this member Sorry To Bother You, But Please Change Your Main / Primary Pic. It is Against the New NSFW Guidelines. If You Choose Not To Change Your Main Pic / Primary Image And Comply With The New Guidelines or You Put It Back Up and It Gets Marked NSFW It Will NOT Be Unmarked Please read :http://www.fubar.com/blog/57/1087949 Leave comments and questions here.Thank you for Your Cooperation and Understanding...Sorry For The Inconvienence.Bulldog__ - Fubar BouncerNew NSFW Policy...Starting on Thursday 11/26/2009 we will begin enforcing a new policy for primary photos / avatars and it will apply to everyone. This does not effect non-primary photos (i.e.: random stuff in your photo albums), only the photo that you select to be next to your name

Im Sorry!!!
I'm Sorry by Jack Tanner It's just a place to come to, so I can show my love I know that you're not here now, you're with the Lord above but its all that I have left now, it's where we said goodbye I like to come and bring a flower, and have a little cry. I know it will never bring you back again, but as I walk away, I feel i've spent some time with you, and it brightens up my day. Sis I am so sorry, I love you, and if I could turn back time I'd swap our places just so you would be back on earth again. but we'll be together in the end, so I hope you're the one who holds the gates open for me. all my love

Hidden Life
Darkness comes, Yet again it takes me All I see is blood; Everywhere i look Hatred consumes all. Light and love are no more, Happiness only a faint dream Feelings got mixed When new and old loves meet Angels ignore the lovers in need Demons rule heaven and earth like hell Vamptresses no longer hide their strenth While vampires hide their compassion Compassion needed to rule the underworld Wolves destory vamps like flies Pain becomes the only hope Revenge the only option lift Fires destory even the purest of souls BLoodshed is the only norm befollowing Violence the only pure happiness Everlasting hatred is the truth

Meaning (yellow) Rose!
Roses are a perfect way to communicate feelings one may have for another. Each color represents a different meaning. The mixture of their sugary smell along with their beauty has always attracted people instantly. Of every single flower available on the market today, roses are the most common of them all! Yellow roses are easy, attractive, and are a good way to send a message to the person of your choice. Yellow roses are a symbol of freedom, happiness, and love. People who are the receivers of yellow roses from their loved ones know that their partner is happy and satisfied with their relationship. The yellow rose is a great way to show honesty and comfort. Giving a yellow rose to that special someone represents an easy feeling of friendliness that is authentic.Most of the time, yellow roses are usually given as a sign of accomplishment, completion, or execution of a specific goal. Yellow roses are also given to represent strength of mind and motivation to start a new endeavor. It is

Missing My Sister
Missing My Sister © Belinda Stotler One morning I found you in eternal sleep; I tried to wake you as I began to weep,But all my pleas you could not hear;Oh if I could have only kept you near,Away from the voices of those who went before,Who beckoned you to come to that distant shore.I find it so very hard to believeThat you have gone and I must grieve;I call out your name -- you answer not,And I look for you in every familiar spot.Everything seems so strange and surreal,I ask everyday is it a dream or real?Where are the soft brown eyes of affection?Where is the laughter and talk of childhood reflection?Where is the loving care when I was sick or sad?Where is the generous soul for which I was glad?Where is the forgiving and understanding heart?Where are the bonds that were there from the start?I miss all the little ways you showed you cared,For there were so many good moments we shared;Looking back on my life’s assorted scenes,I realized you taught me what love trul

From The Mind Of The Jester
You see THIS is how CRAZY FUBAR has made people. If you want ORDER in FUBAR, people must salute the Jester, or forever be friend-less. Oh, everyone that doesn't, won't get one in return....starting this weekend....I'm a man of my word!

Healthcare Proposals Should Include And Enable Traditional Medicine (traditional Forms Of Medicine)
Why would anyone limit the resources available to people in need, while at the same time refusing to recognize and compensate valid legitimate traditional forms of medicine and those who provide service? This is because insurance, pharmaceutical companies and hospitals are being run like businesses that intend and whose objective is only to make profit, businesspeople and politicians who make policy only looking at profit and the bottom line, instead of caring about people and making policy looking at public health and well being. We can not allow the AMA to to deny valid legitimate forms of medicine and dictate what treatments people/patients can seek for their ailments and illnesses! “Americans should not be limited by the AMA as to what treatments they can seek for their ailments and illnesses”. —‘Cherokee girl for change’ Traditional medicine is not covered or discussed nearly enough, and must be covered and referred. Please be aware that what is bei

Poem
How do you know when your love is true and that you are not just fooling yourself? How do you know that you are not merely infatuated with each other? How do you know that this is a relationship that has lasting power? The truth is that these are only questions that can be answered with experience. It may take a few bad relationships before you know how to be in a good one. Another tip is to try to use your head before you get your heart involved. If it makes sense on paper, chances are it is a good decision. It is only when you ignore the warnings that your brain is giving you that you may get into trouble.

Lets See Now
what does the government have to worry about? _record deficeits _2 wars with American dying daily _energy shortages _10% unemployment with record industrial capacity loss _I could probably go on for awhile here... . . . what the government is worrying about? _Mr & Mrs Nobody crashed a state dinner and shook hands with the U.S. President _yeah, sounds like regular government logic to me...

Chapter One: The Golden Dragon
As written by me in high school, uneditted (although I did spell-proof), too bad I never finished it... The winds blew in from the north, a cold, biting wind that refused to quit gnawing at the rough, dark blue scales of the dragon. He flew through the air with grace, spreading his wings wide to catch the stiff breeze. His great, luminescent eyes peered across the barren landscape, looking for any signs of prey. He heard a low grumbling sound from his stomach, and gave a flap of his wings to tell himself he was looking for food to appease his appetite. He hadn't eaten in what seemed like forever, for the fellow golden dragon across the open plains had encroached on his territory. There was little he could do about that dratted dragon, for he was the smaller and weaker of the two, though he hadn't yet confronted his rival. A low snort rumbled from his right, and he banked quickly, hoping it was another one of those delicious buffalo that roam these lands. He was rewarded when one e

100 Days
I think it's funny I find myself counting down the 100 days left instead of the 21 that are left till Matt is here with me :) (hopefully) I hated Thanksgiving. I hated that I couldn't be with him. I hated that he was by himself. I hated that I didn't have the money to call into work, and catch a flight out there to surprise him because I would have. I hate even more than I didn't hardly get to talk to him yesterday but like 3 hours compared to the idk...average 12 we do talk on the phone? lol I hate that that reason was because he got called to a fire. I hate that I wasn't there to know that was why and just had to assume. I hated that I couldn't sleep because I kept staring at my phone, waiting for it to ring to tell me he was ok. I hate that if something happens in the next couple months I wont be there. I wont know whats going on. I hate that he has a parade today to go to, and I can't be there to see it. And I apparently hate a lot these last 48 hours lol But, I love the fact that

About Me.
I had a sudden inspiration at work this morning to write this, or write something anyways, and this seemed easiest. Well, my name is Brook. A guy with a girl's name, even though I was named after a guy (Brook Jacoby, my parents were watching a baseball game and heard his name, he played for the Cleveland Indians I guess). Growing up was...interesting for me. I was a skinny, white-headed brainiac. Kids called me "Book", although I am fairly sure it wasn't because I was smart, just because it was close to my name. My parents moved from Minnesota to Colorado when I was about 1 1/2, and I grew up in an all-white classic suburban neighborhood in Thorton, north of Denver, where kids walked to school and everything was quiet. I made friends, I played video games and tag and legos, everything was good. Then, as things always do, they changed. After 3rd grade, my parents decided they wanted to move me and my brother back to Minnesota to be closer to family. There was a girl I really liked, an

Session
Fubar and others are my bitch session with a dose of truth and a whole lot of nonsense. Last time I looked the hits was at five figures and it has been a long time since I did look. That was for myspace. One thing I'll say is that The Order has been awful quiet toward me and accepting of all that I come up with against in their teaching making me look like a fool hell bent on destroying it. I'm not and nor am I trying to hurt any by what I place here. As I've said they know who they are and if there was any misunderstanding of what I did or didn't do they shoudl see some light. Black Friday has come and gone and I didn't hear of or read any kind of trouble from it. Thank God! Norio

~**~how To Make A Woman Happy~**~
It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be: 1. a friend2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother5. a father6. a master 7. a chef8. an electrician9. a carpenter10. a plumber 11. a mechanic12. a decorator13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist16. a psychologist17. a pest exterminator18. a psychiatrist 19. a healer20. a good listener 21. an organizer 22. a good father23. very clean24. sympathetic25. athletic 26. warm27. attentive 28. gallant29. intelligent30. funny31. creative32. tender33. strong34. understanding35. tolerant 36. prudent37. ambitious38. capable39. courageous 40. determined41. true42. dependable43. passionate44. compassionateWITHOUT FORGETTING TO: 45. give her compliments regularly 46. love shopping47. be honest48. be very rich49. not stress her out50. not look at other girlsAND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO: 51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself53. give her lots of spa

Boys And Girls In America
If you like the sound of a rock album that marries a rich storytelling in its lyrics with the kind of good time bar-room tunes one associates with Springsteen, and The Gaslight Anthem, then check out The Hold Steady's 2006 album 'Boys And Girls In America'. Because it's very good, and you'll thank me.

W000t
spygame666: u hotyTo spygame666: uh, okay...thanksspygame666: r u submisive lol i would love to dom you you so sexyTo spygame666: I'm sure you would, but it's really obvious you didn't bother to read my profile which would have saved you the effort of annoying ME...fuck off Epic failure...you really DIDN'T read my profile...or my status...dumbass

Disappointed (my Own Poem)
Disappointed How could you make me feel this way At this point in time, this very day You of all people should have known I wanted to be happy for at least today But you never seize to amaze me You made me feel so lonely Instead of putting a smile in my face You gave me frustration and a lot of pain I’m not expecting anything nice Neither do I expect sudden change in my life I was hoping you would try just a bit Yet you brok

Ftw You Figure It Out I Cant
why is it that every time you think you have a good thing going and you might have half a chance at being happy something always has to crush every little possibility of that happyness. i hate how everyone is for them selves but can you blame them , if you stick you heart or neck out and give someone a chance you just get banged up like a bumpercar a the town fair. no one cares about anyone but thems selves but hey guesss what its our fault this is happening . i mean have you not seen the hitcher. lol but not really , there are fucked up people that need to be put down , keep the dogs at least they abide , but you can kill and get away with it . right to fucked up for my thinking . just some thoughts , if someone gets a death sentance just end them instead of making tax payers pay for them , if someome rapes kid repeadidly , just end them and save the next kids future . and for gods sake can we all be just people because i am tired of the race card being played there ha

Metaphysical Love
Images of sorcery, Outlandish views of clouds.. Ill concepted meanings, of psychedelic sounds. Bizzare imaginations of sights so obscured, Come face to face with terror, Before the vision blurrs. I've loved you from the start Before you were concieved I built you from my passions And killed you in my dreams Once I stood before,a council of the lords, Their grim eyes gazed upon me, like shiny, deadly swords. There was one there named Michael.. Contempt was in his eyes.... His laughter was eternal when they sentenced me to die. It's a hazy recollection of another time I lived My death was oh so violent tho I know not what I did. Distorted glimpses into, a medieval time I struggled to possess what never could be mine. Viciouse dogs attacked me yet I cut them one by one!!! I bowed down to the laughter, knowing the fight had just begun. Ahhh!!!! the pain is tearing my very soul to shreds, Forever alone in random worlds outside and in my head. How could I ever love you... When you are but a

Love Pain Hurt
this pain I have you can not see this pain i have is deep in me what lies on the surface is all you see why do I let you in just to hurt me you say you love me but this I don't see I know you are you and I am me but together we could be sometimes we don't always see what we need but I love you and you love me you need to open to me and i will show you what I can be I'm sorry i'm depressed this you see all i ask is common courtesy you are truely worth it to me love me or leave me the choice is yours but forever in my heart you will be baby I love you and I hope you love me

Me
Many of my fu-buddies ask me. Why do I only put positive quotes in my status box. Don't you think life is negative enough. But for those who think I am so chipper I am not a churchgoer or holy roller. I just believe we are on the site to have a good time by meeting new people with common interests. But since so many have asked. I do have a darker side, keep a eye out for my new blog you might be surprised I will be posting later on

C51 - Playing Guitar Hero (gotta Love The Hair) Lolz!
Alright so this is me playing Guitar Hero on Thanksgiving 2009 Lmaoooooo! (Sorry that its Sideways) And Yes I know I suck... lol it was hard to see you know the hair and stuff LMAO!

Lifes That Little Pill Thats Hard To Swallow~by Jd
We are the poise, The passion, The ignition of the flame, Full of life, Downfalls and triumphs, Truths we have yet to really see. We feel pity yet feel somewhat guilty, As we are jealous, Vindictive and At times hollow, Feel preach the words of a life that quickly passes,Yet at the same time we also experience life the pill thats hard to swallow. The times call for recelection, Trying to reclaim a small part of the people we used to be, Time twists and contorts the outcomes, Random yet enough to puzzle the likes of you and me. Calamity and shattered hearts, Lose of feeling as you realize you are numb to the touch, Carrying the weight of our own personal lives on our shoulders for so, When is enough going to be enough? Some live for personal pleasure, We co-exist only because we have known the pain, Or shall i say i have been able to withstand the whiplash of this emotional rollarcoaster. Now i spend my days contemplating all the likely scenerios and what will or wont wo

Doin To Much
i want to say im very sorry to my friends i get a little grummpy, my job is killin me litterally and i dont know what to do, i owe the man alot of money and i feel like im noosed in and cant leave. but after today im thinkin differently. i can win for loosin with the man so what do ya do.

New Nsfw Guidelines
Is it me or the new "New NSFW Guidelines" is really fucked up!?! Do you know why people come here is becouse people cant do on myspace or facebook so wtf i think babejesus had the money get to his head......

Her Daily Adulation
she adores meI am her Master, Daddy, lovershe greets me every dayIn this wayThis is not a matter of protocolNor is it basedIn some fantasy traditionFor her it symbolizes her offeringOf everything that she is

Relations...sigh
people we see, people we meetwe never know what we seek.are we looking for friendshipor something more, beforewe even step out the door.is it a glance. or a looka touch that attracts, ora combination of all thatmakes us act?when the meeting happenswhat makes it last?what makes it fall apart?is it the yelling. the dirty looks.the anger. mistakes. if youve been her please post

None
"And shepards we shall be for Thee. Power hath descended forth from thy hand. Our feet may swiftly carry out Thy commands. So we shall flow a river fourth to Thee And teeming with souls shall it be. In Nomeni Patri Et Fili Spiritus Sancti."

None
"And when I vest my flashing sword And my hand takes hold in judgement I will take vengence upon mine enemies And I will repay those who hase me O Lord, raise me to they right hand And count me umoung Thy saints" "Whosoever shed last blood. By man shall his blood be shed. For immunity of God make he the man. Destroy all that which is evil, So that which is good may flourish. And I shall count thee amoung my favored sheep. And you shall have the protection of all the angels in Heaven." "Never shall innocent blood be shed. Yet the blood of the wicked shall flow like a river. The three shall spread their blackened wings and be the vengful striking hammer of God."

Heaven And Earth
Heaven and earth one in the samewhere life is spent like a flameBurning for a brief moment in timecompared to the many winds passing through the chimeBestowing favors to those who's lights aboundSmiles and laughter can be foundAs god created with love ,may my walk through this continue with the aboveIn charge of making others finding joy where everhelping those in need wheneverThe sun reminds me where to find my strengthas the moon takes part when rays have need lengthPeeling the veil when storms arisemaking the fields of gold shine in eyesI want to see that look of easethat peace of serenity through the treesThe whirl wind that comes with a kissa hug I will come to missI want to be a part of a completionfinding the purpose of true loves emotionMaking our way through the milky wayAll of our answered prayer's come into playThe kind of fate hearts yearnwondering if I lay asleep with each day we earnDreams can come trueand I know it only to be with you

She Knows The Way To A Man's Heart
It's obvious that food Can satisfy one kind of hungerBut the way to a man's heartComes from stroking his libidoher interest Stimulates his interestThoughts of eating foodGive way to thoughtsOf eating pussyAnd she knows she has his attentionshe holds itIn the palm of her

On Being A Slut
Some think it requires trainingBut real sluts are born to itAs if their early childhood developmentStoppedWhen they discover sexual pleasureHaving frequent sexDoesn't make them slutsBut it makes their partner(s)Believe they are slutsBut a real slutDoesn't really careWhat their partners thinkThey're just having fun

Strangers Is What We Have Become...
at one time we had love.we had it all.when it the world did itall fall.was it a month agoor maybe a yearwas it caused by to many tears.months upon monthsof passing in the hall,and many morewith out even a call.the distance has madeit. to where we donteven talk. Now we areStrangers that have drifted apart.

What Goes Around - Comes Around
This is vintage beautyI would imagine Circa 1920My grandmother had shots of herselfWith a similar appearance This one is in the here and nowBut has embraced a classic lookStyle and classWhere have they goneIn the wonderful world of BDSM KinkThere are thoseWho enjoy the "Victorian" lifestyleCirca 1837 -1901 And thoseWho embrace the 1950'sI prefer the Art Deco PeriodCirca 1920-1940A more decadent periodOut of the closetAnd into the openFlappers and flooziesBootleg booze and real gangstersAnd of courseThere was Betty BoopStyle and decadenceWhat a timeSo what is this periodWe live in nowAt some point everything gets oldBut not everything is remembered

Fell Apart
"I came to you the hour I was in pain Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain. I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart, I knew then you'd be my friend, I knew it from the start. Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life, You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife. When home wasn't home to me no more, You opened up your heart, and opened up the door. We cried into night until the early morn. We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns. As time flew, the air grew thick, I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick. The day had arrived, When it was time to say goodbye. Now I sit alone, reminiscing the past I'd blown." Just when my troubles were gone, and I came to you as a friend, the past was just too much, and the door was kicked in. Not into the friendship, but into life. I had been blown back so far; it felt as if our friendship never had a start. And now as I sit and ponder, I try to figure out, how the friendship fell apar

Losing A Friend
"The worst thing in life is to lose a friend, A friend that means the world to you, A friend that you put all your trust and faith in. A friend you believe in from the start. A friends that took the center of your heart. A friend you'd die for, A friend you wanted to cherish for a lifetime, A friend, A good friend, My best friend."

True Colors
Makeup hides my feelingsMakeup hides my faceSo many layers of makeupMy true colors can't be traced. Feelings build up inside meI'm ready to explodeI want someone to talk toBut no one sees my load. So I wash away the makeupAnd show my colors trueI see that someone cares for meAnd makes me feel anew. I write my own poems but this one spoke to me. Unfortionatly I did not write this one.

Worn Out
Got a few hours of sleep last night and spent most of the day cleaning up the other place. Rose was in town, which was good. So for a couple hours, we loaded up the car with her stuff that Rich never picked up and dropped them off to her new place. Spent the last hours taking out tons of trash and cleaning the place. Vaccuming, cleaning out stuff, shampooing the carpets, cleaning the walls...etc etc. Was getting to worn out to finish so I'll go back there for a little bit of time after work Saturday then Sunday after work I should be able to finish it all up. Was there doing that for about 6 hours. My back is sore. I have a bunch of other stuff to donate to goodwill. I'll drop some of that stuff to Goodwill after work. I hadnt grabbed anything to eat until 7pm. I got to work tomorrow...ugh...but I should be able to get some sleep tonight, hopefully, with how tired I am. Right now I'm just relaxing with some coffee.

Vote For Vanity Junkie!
I'm asking all my friends to vote for my sisters shop. It's called vanity junkie.Make some noise for them!Thankx!Vote B4 Dec. 2, 2009.http://portland.citysearch.com/bestof/nominees/2009/hair_salon~Blade

That Tapeworm Is My Tampon String
I live in section 8 housing. I am scratchin tryin to take care of my son and myself. I don't make that much money at all. I fall below the poverty line. Housing Authority just upped my rent $78. I had $137 in food stamps but they decided because I got a bonus check way back in January, I make too much money. They took $30 away from my stamps. I don't get child support. I am behind on my bills. I just got paid and I am negative 40 dollars in my checking account. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I don't get child support, I cant work a second job because I cannot afford to pay a babysitter. I work my ass off for nothin. My fuckin neighbor sits around on her fat ass all day eating pills and drinking beer. Her rent? $7. Her food stamps? $486 a month. Shes on disability because of her back. Bullshit! I saw that cunt pick a damn couch up and put it in her Jeep. She gets child support. Her utility bill is fixed. What the hell... why do I even fuckin bother. I am so fucking frustrated i coul

The End
Hands gripping the counter In my small bathroom cell I gaze into the mirror And look upon a broken being Torn apart on the inside Looking complete on the outside Noone but myself knowing What truly lies within I slide my hand upward Cold metal steel brushes my thumb I gaze lovingly at the object That will solve it all I hold it gingerly Like a long forgotten lover Brushing it over my finger I run it down my arm Starting as light as a feather Increasing the pressure bit by bit Until my skin is covered in scarlet I turn on the water, holding my arm above I switch hands Treating my other arm in the same reguard I step into the tub fully clothed Turning on the shower I lean back Letting the hot water scald my skin I laugh to myself quietly Knowing I alone can see the humor Slowly dying on the inside Now dying on the outside I lean back and close my eyes Focusing on the sounds A smile upon my lips As I fade into nothingness

Living While Dead
My eyes open It's a new day But I can't smile I shiver Terrified Wishing I hadn't woken My eyelids are heavy My eyes are dry Miners are pounding away In the caves of my brain I remember last night But I can no longer cry My body shuts down I can't eat I can't sleep I have no will or strength to go on I try to think of happy things There's nothing I'm empty, numb I walk around as if a Zombie Clumsy, unsure I stumble into the bathroom I look in the mirror And don't recognise the woman On the other side Her cheeks are sunken Her skin is pale The light in her eyes is no longer there She has joined with the dead In spirit, if not in body It's a stranger staring back at me I run from the sight I want to cry, but there's nothing left I'm a stranger even to myself I still can't believe it I still can't move on I cried and cried and cried and cried Wanting to confess my love But knowing that it was too late I've lost you forever My own stupidity My own w

U Rnt Gana Read It So Dosnt Matter
so rigth now im preping a shower for maybe my most ingenious plan ever geting high wile masterbating in a shower.... idk y no one has told me about this idea and left it up to me to figure it out... and now i feel like an idiout i havnt though of it sooner

Pipe Up
My critic, pipe up. Long time ago I was member and unfortunately I still am. Member of what? Forget the crap with The da Vinci Code and the rest. Dan Brown and others made a host of money out of it. There is The Order and within it TMO. Let's not forget The Brotherhood. I'm out running around because ,all of a sudden, I couldn't remeber. Door ajar is coming up and I already know how, who, when, and why. Gee, no fun is it? Yes, it is! Joseph, you win and are absolutely right. Thank God, I didn't have that surgery. In the ER a physician becomes a laughing stock. "We go in there nothing happens but when a Cardiologist goes in there everything is up." Joseph to which country is your aliance to? Rev. Baker served hes time in prison for millions owed in back taxes to The IRS, while Rev. Moon runs away to S. Korea owing billions in back taxes to The IRS. Amazing, if your an American your crap but a foreign fake, pretending to be a USA Citizen, you get it all. Seems there are all sorts

,,,
you stopped by as if just to flawnt your disappointment in me, you held my hand like you cared again you looked into my eyes like every word was the most important thing I had ever said you told the truth because you remember how the lies felt you did not make me mad you did not break my heart you did not blow my mind you didnot disapoint your vision of what my infected life would be so right that it hurts to say I see it comming the walls I built will crumble the world I love to hide in will vanish and the ashes for memorries will only sting as the wind blows them away I cant remember when the pain you had givin me felt so good I taste your blood, it southe's the beast for a while as the conversation turned our eye's began to regreat the past our lips came close but the sting of love held us both back the fear that we ment that much should mean something Hurt is the word but pain is't the way to describe it I can't come up with one word..

Ugg Boots: Impayable Boots
Uggs are fast becoming one of the fashion trends of the decade. More and more people worldwide are discovering this simple but effective Australian footwear icon.The ugg boots is usually a high fitting boot, mostly coming up above the ankle, and usually much higher. Most Ugg boots are high enough to come up not far below the knee, keeping the entire lower leg warm.Traditionally Ugg boots are worn outside the trousers. And for this reason Uggs are becoming part of the fashion culture. They normally come in the regular sheepskin color, which is an off white or pale color, but dyed versions are also becoming extremely popular. It is now the norm to find Ugg boots in the stores and online which feature a wide range of colors including bright reds and greens or pinks, and all sorts of other bright colors. In the past you had little choice for your Uggs boot but they are now available in a wide range of colors and styles.

You Know You Were Born In The 1980's If...
You know you were born in the 1980's if... 1. You ever ended your sentence with "psych" 2. You solved Rubics cube.....by peeling off the stickers 3. You watched the Pound Puppies 4... You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air" 5. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish 6. You yearned to be a member of the Babysitters Club and tried to start a club of your own. 7. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls 8. You know that 'Whoa' comes from Joey on "Blossom" 9. Three words: M.C. Hammer. 10. You thought it would be great to have a friend named "Boner" 11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" 12. You played the chipmunks Christmas album all year long! 13. You Remember reading Kool-Aid man comics 14. You ever watched "Fraggle Rock" 15. You had plastic streamers on the handle bars of your bike 16. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. 17. You wore a ponytail to the side of your

Mankind Is Obsolete- Prayer
Waking life Watching myself from a distance Grown from you Endless imperfection I stumble on my words Spilled out to you Scenes spill in Scenes spill out And still I’m left With one I can’t forget And it’s here I’m left to remember you So what I didn’t need you anyway If I pretend This’ll make it all okay So what I didn’t need you anyway If I pretend This’ll make it all okay If only I could rise again After such a long, bitter sleep If only I could dream again After all that I have seen If I follow all the footsteps of The echoes of the past Will I ever know the truth That’s made me who I am? Whispered once The loudest scream of all The failing voice Forgot to speak When it mattered most of all

Fill Out
Please answer this and send it back too me in my inbox. You can add more to these if you want. Post it with out the answers. You might be surprised with the results.y = Yes n = No m=MaybeWould you? Will you?......[_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _[_] kiss me?[_] let me kiss you?[_] take me out to dinner?[_] let me drive you somewhere?[_] buy me a drink?[_] take me home for the night?[_] let me sleep in your bed?[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?[_] let me make you breakfast?[_] help me with homework?[_] tickle me?[_] let me tickle you?[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?[_] instant message me?[_] greet me in public?[_] hang out with me?[_] bring me around your friends?[_] make out with me?[_] in public?D0 Y0U…[_] think im cute?[_] think im hott?[_] want to kiss me?[_] want to cuddle with me?[_] want to hook up with me?[_] want to live

Let's Do This Already!!!
I have read many an article, and done my research. Unlike most people who will argue that the legalization of marijuana should never happen, because, it is what society has told them. Frankly, I am sick of these people. Read a book, watch some videos on youtube, DO SOMETHING before you pass judgment on the rest of us. I have a news flash for you. Millions of Americans smoke weed. It is a fact. Not only that, but, those same people want it legalized. Many pretend in public to not support it, due to fear of persecution from society and the authorities, yet, secretly, they yearn for it. In this recession, (YES, we are STILL in one!) the perfect solution is to legalize and tax the sale of hemp and marijuana. Not just medicinal either......ALL WEED! In the current american society, (which I feel became socialist after 9/11) we as a people have lost our ability to do what we want. OUR FREEDOM! Frankly, this is bullshit! I am a grown ass person and what I chose to do to or with my body is

If George Bush Was An Idiot...
If George W. Bush had been the first President to need a teleprompter installed to be able to get through a press conference, would you have laughed and said this is more proof of how he inept he is on his own and is really controlled by smarter men behind the scenes? If George W. Bush had spent hundreds of thousands of dollars to take Laura Bush to a play in NYC, would you have approved? If George W. Bush had reduced your retirement plan's holdings of GM stock by 90% and given the unions a majority stake in GM, would you have approved? If George W. Bush had made a joke at the expense of the Special Olympics, would you have approved? If George W. Bush had given Gordon Brown a set of inexpensive and incorrectly formatted DVDs, when Gordon Brown had given him a thoughtful and historically significant gift, would you have approved? If George W. Bush had given the Queen of England an iPod containing videos of his speeches, would you have thought this embarrassingly narcissistic and

Clinically Depressed
Are you clinically depressed? If you identify with several of the following signs and symptoms, and they just won’t go away, you may be suffering from clinical depression. you can’t sleep or you sleep too much you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult you feel hopeless and helpless you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating you are much more irritable and short-tempered than usual you have thoughts that life is not worth living (Seek help immediately if this is the case)

Anger....sadness....too Much At One Time
I had a new rescue...only had him for two weeks. Severely underweight.....heartworm positive....ear infections....just a mess. But even with all that he was a sweet boy who loved to give sloppy kisses. Today was our third visit to the vet in two weeks.....and we found out more bad news....there was a tumor in his head, possibly from being beaten, who knows. The tumor was inoperable. Due to the amount of pain he was in.....and his other medical problems...I had to make the dreaded decision. So, I decided to let him go....free of all the cruelty people can inflict on an animal....free of pain and suffering. Because of someones negligence and abuse of this two year old pup...it came down to me to make the call. I can only hope that he is at peace now and will forgive me.... (bh)

[just Sayin Moment]
Your mouth would look a lot better with my dick in it, instead of that retarded facebook pursed lip "I just got hit on the back of the head with a frozen baguette" look.Or "scene girl gotta fart" look.... I can actually shorten that rant to the first clause.AlsoWhen doing calisthenics with a weapon, make sure your arm doesn't go numb as a result of major surgery and you lose your grip thus throwing something through something more expensive like a TV or a window >>Not that I have, its just damned good advice.I survived thanksgiving with minimal bullshit and insults, and I got a hefty check from my grandmother because >> well, she has nothing to spend her money on.Good times, it should make up for the two completely uncompensated days I just spent with family and my beloved dog and PS3.Tomorrow deposits, coffee, and a big BIG mute button for the rest of the world.Alsofricase' is in the fridge.Just about the last batch til I thaw some stew meat and make beef bourginon... someone correct

My Poetry ..
A creative outlet for feelings when I'm down..... ------------------------ Black Rose @%~~ When rainfall comesAnd nourishes needed lifeWhy am I left alone?Within this meadow of unseen light..For I wish to feel nourishment too,But I have not touched the beauty,That bliss.. Earth has bestowed upon you..For each new day which dawnsI watch the sun, slowly fading away,Leaving over horizon, Hope is goneThe promise of tommorrow, left todayGone with all the light;memories once cherished a timeNow that I wither in shadows of despair;I am exiled of all the feelings,I cannot find.. ------------------ Withered (Black Rose II...) Into another sunset,I watched harmony fade with a dayAnd just when I thought;Light of a suns salvation would touch me..That dream too, has all but withered awayOf desolate darkness,Seemingly all I have ever known..Though with hope still awaiting sunlightTo free from the foundation of sorrowStemming from roots of a pain I've sownAnd yet beauty once beheld me,

Choreographing Your Emotions - 1/15/09
CHOREOGRPAHING YOUR EMOTIONS - 1/15/2009 Bustling, moving Silence & wonder Where am I? Yes, there I am Sweet darkness into shimmering brilliance Who am I? I am anyone, I am anywhere The applause is my thunder Quieting the storm Easy now, there I am Take a bow.

Movie List (as Of 11/27/2009)
Those of you who know me, know I absolutely adore movies. You know I have seen a LOT of movies and there's still so many more I need to see and own. I thought I'd finally put up a list of movies that (as a family) we have in the house. Be warned, it is VERY long. At the end of the title, if there is a (T), then my brother owns it. (H) is owned by me. Everything else belongs to my parents. The list is in alphabetical order. Here goes: 13th Warrior, The 1408 2001: A Space Odyssey 3:10 to Yuma 300 3000 Miles to Graceland (H) 36th Chamber of Shaolin, The (T) 40-Year-Old Virgin, The 50 First Dates 8 Mile About Schmidt Ace Ventura: Pet Detective Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls Adventures of Rocky and Bullwinkle, The (H) Airplane! Ali Alien Alien VS Predator All Of Me All The President's Men Along Came Polly Amadeus (H) American Beauty American Graffiti American Pie (T) American Pie 2 (T) American Wedding (T) Amityville Horror, The Amityville Horror, The *(remake 2005) An American Werewolf

Part #2 The Friend That Could Have Been But Never Was
. The comment in the first part of this blog was Sares first comment to me so what better way to end this blog then to show her last comment to me its almost like she knew she was going to die... now again here was a lady i did not know at all yet to her i was her ange with this comment she wote "I love you my friend try not To think of me as gone but rememebr me as i am...this lady was 48 years old and after her death i found very muched loved by all she came in contact with, she was a persone who had almost 2000 friends on her tagged account and i thought yah ok shes like me after the rates and points, but hell you could have knocked me over with a feather when i found out this lady cared about each and evry one of those people on her friends list to the point she could tell you thier names and everything about them that was on there profiles, but the biggiest shock was yet to come... By now i had to find out about this lady so i contacted her top 10 friends and t

Untie These Red Satin Bows...
untie these red satin bows...i packaged my christmas gift unwrap me nice and slowslide your fingers gently across each satin bow.. pleasure soon to be exposed each bow is slowly untied placed across your kneewrapping you cast aside..as you stroke here and therewhen the final bow is shedfingers teasing playfully i am laid upon your bed.. the gift of passionate desires my pleasures in festive redas christmas is for giving love seductively spread... ***

A Feiend That Could Have Been But Never Was
.. Friends that could have been But never was Oh what a sadness R.I.P. Sarea Wilks A friend I never Knew You know this is not a favorite comment of mine its one that reminds me of a grate saddness, but today it was not the comment that made me think of this but a question i was asked to day; the question was do you rally care about your friends....now for the rest of the story... I have many socail network sights ; myspace,my year book ,facebook and tagged to name a few,well on one of them was a friend request from a sandra wilks back then i dident care she was a point or credit for the sight hell yah I was a point hoe, any way i acssepted the friend reqest talked to her a coupal of times exchanged comments then hell i moved on she was just a face on my page to rate my page and give me comments, i went to her page many times but only to see who she was cause i could never take the time to g

Utter Stupidty
Yesterday i had a great day. But then i did what i do best i ruined a good friendship because my feelings towards this person got the best of me. It happens every damn time i'm friends with a girl. The more time we spend together the more i want to spend time with her. BUT there's a major problem she's married and has made quite clear that she thought of me as a big brother Now she probably don't think of me at all. There is no one to blame but me. I took something she said to heart and blew it out of porporation. And well as they say words were exchanged which i regret saying now. You can't change the past can you? it would be nice if we could just think of the stupid things we have done or said to someone we really care about. Only time will tell if we could ever be friends again. I highly doubt it...:(

Do You Or Dont You Love Her
Do you or Dont love her 6.. Love Is Like Magic Grand And Mystical But Most Of The Time Its Just An Illusion Filled With Smoke And Mirriors You see this gurl right here? yeah shes been thru it all but you'll never see her fall shes weak at heart but strong at mind yeah she dont have to play these so called games she doesnt have the time she sits day after day wonderin if what shes doin is gonna repay but still you people still mess with her thinkin its all funny n shit she sits back and doesnt say a word but inside shes yellin for help all this gurl wants is somone to show they care and love her and to never give up on her..instead she sits back and gets hurt over and over again shes so scared yet so brave she takes her chances and doesnt look back she sits and wonders if she should even care but the look in his eyes makes her fall everytime she cares more then you'll ever know just please make your love for her show shes just tryin to get ur attention

Song Title
Ok I have this song on my play list for Fubar, but I don't know the right name of it so that I can down load it and it is driving my CRAZY! Here is part of the lyrics to it.. if you know the song please lemme know.. and it is Not Korn's ADIDAS I already tried that one! I'm wide awake with this damn burning fever I can't think straight I just keep sinking deeper, Star at the walls but I swear I can still see her face... Cause All day I think about you, Everyday I die in this room, Say I'm twisted yeah that's probably true, cause all day I think about... sex

One Perfect Rose
you know I try and answer all the questions that I am asked as honestly as i can some are easy some are hard ,any way this question why do i use a rose in comments are you gay no im not gay ty its just that the rose is the symbale of many relationships both friends and lovers so I use the rose as a symbale ty.... read this and understand... A single flow'r she sent me,since we met.all tenderly her messenger she chose; Deep-hearted, pure, with scented dew still wet- One perfect rose... I knew the language of the flower; 'My fragile'leaves,it said,her heart enclose'. Love long has taken for her amulet One perfect Rose... The rose dose not have to be of any specific color or size for they are all the same and mean both friendship and of love but only one brings a speciel meaning and a spiecle gift to others and she knows this, and shows it with but, One perfect Rose... you know I have been on this sight now for a long time and i have found both here and in real life that flowers are the

New Avatar Policy Update #2
*****FROM SCRAPPER'S BLOG***** Greetings fubarbarians..... I wanted to remind everyone that our new avatar is not meant to piss anyone off. We do not want to mark photos NSFW. The goal is to clean up the main photos. The guidelines are clear. If your photo was marked in your gallery, please contact a bouncer or myself, and we will review it and remove the NSFW flag. 1. Some photos that are being marked in galleries are ripped photos that other users have chosen to use as an avatar. When that photo is flagged, every copy on the site gets flagged. As I mentioned above, take it to a bouncer for review and we will remove the NSFW flag. 2. If you just signed on and found your Avatar was flagged, take it to a bouncer and ask them to remove the flag and do not use that photo as an avatar. 3. The bouncers have been very clearly informed to be very cool and patient about working with and communicating with users who need to change their avatar. If you receive a chat message or email f

Love A Trip Through Hell
you know as i go through my memories of life people always ask me wyh are you like you are well i smile and say you know 3 times in life i thought i found the love of my life and hell all 3times it was opps f**k again so i studyed on this for quite a while and this is what I came up with the feelings and all..... Love is a universal migraine of pain A bright stain on the vision of life A blotting out of reasons and control Symptoms of true love and hell Are lean-ness, jealousy, and misery A laggards dawns in bright darkness comes... Are Omens and Nightmares coming Listening for a knock, Waiting for a sign: Both of which never come, for if they do only bring pain and dismay.... For a touch of its icey fingers in a darken room for an eerie searching look of doom... Take care and courage all, for you can endure the grief and desperation... All you have to do is remember love is a pain and the mother of deception that leads one through hell calling it haven and joy consuming and destroyin

So Ya...haven't Blogged In A Grip
How's it shakin' everyone? Thought I'd say "hello" and blog a bit... Most my good friends have joined and stayed on facebook, I'm tempted to join...but, my father is on there and well, I like my privacy. So, I probably won't...those of you are that over there more and more add me to yahoo or something, I miss you guys. Thanksgiving went well...I cooked my first turkey EVER and it turned out yummy. Our new paint job looks great and my house is still very very clean *grinz* My brother and niece showed up, that was cool...and my in laws..good to see them and their kids... I can't help missing my mom though, I really wish she was here..sober. At least she's no longer in pain and I'm sure she has a smile on her pretty little face. I hope everyone had a happy holiday. ♥ Postal

Potluck By Nick G.
Plenty of food Plenty of snacks All free of charge All with no tax Different varieties For you to choose If you come real late You snooze, you lose Some people cook And some people buy Some people say they made it When it's really a lie Corn and cheese Fruit and chips Vegetables on a tray With plenty of dips Hot dogs and sausages Tamales and soup Combined together Make people go poop Eat until you're full Eat whatever you desire If you eat too much food Your heart rate will go higher!

Fart By Nick G.
I fart real quiet and I fart real loud My fart can knock out a big asian crowd Godzilla got nothing On my massive farts My farts pierce through the nostrils Like pointy darts They sometimes sound funny They sometimes sound deep Boy do all my farts Really give me a creep You can't see it pass Through the air or the sky Sometimes when you smell it You'll seem like you're high The one's that are worse Are the one's that are silent My farts fight on their own Yes they are real violent So next time you see me Angle my butt in the air You know I'm going to fart And that I really don't care

The Firefighters Pledge
I Pledge my life,Like my Brothers before meTo fight the fires to the bestof my ability.Through my training and what I have learnedI'll use common sensenot to get burned.I'll always be alertTo hear the weakest shout,I'll work quickly and efficiently To put the fires out.Through smoke and flame I'll give my all,Like my brothers before me who did fall.And if something should go wrong,And Death should make his callI'll neither take nor place no blame,For I know I gave my all.

Argument
I received a Certified Return Receipt letter from Dr. Rosenbloom of Cooper Hospital today. Politely he states that if I don't have this surgery I'm dead and to reconsider. "?" I believe it is the wrong argument? If I have this surgery tomorrow I'll live forever? How about twenty five years? How about ten years in a Coma? What ever I do or don't and what ever any one else does or doesn't do I'm still dead. The argument is senseless and foolish. Try a little harder? Give me an Argument that is worth while. Norio

The Way That I Feel!
Theres allot of people that are pretty cool to talk to and hang out with no problems there that's what this site is designed to be as a social network but in the other hand you have people that own and run there lounge and do the best of there power to be the one of the best lounge I don't blame them after all I was a lounge owner my self and I am aware of the hard work that it takes to run a great lounge but people do have real life lives and real life jobs to go to. Well, some people don't understand that and when you are a lounge staff member and don't show up for a couple of days then they eather get mad at you or they boot you. Well, people I don't sit here all day long on my computer and live on it I do have a real life job to go to and a real life to live by I am not being a ass or anything like that it's just one of my venting things that I would like for everyone to understand about me I am not hard to get along with at all just let me do what is right in my life and we wont h

New Avatar Policy Updte
Greetings fubarbarians..... I wanted to remind eveyrone that our new avatar is not meant to piss anyone off. We do not want to mark photos NSFW. The goal is to clean up the main photos. The guidelines are clear. If your photo was marked in your gallery, please contact a bouncer or myself, and we will review it and remove the NSFW flag. 1. Some photos that are being marked in galleries are ripped photos that other users have chosen to use as an avatar. When that photo is flagged, every copy on the site gets flagged. As I mentioned above, take it to a bouncer for review and we will remove the NSFW flag. 2. If you just signed on and found your Avatar was flagged, take it to a bouncer and ask them to remove the flag and do not use that photo as an avatar. 3. The bouncers have been very clearly informed to be very cool and patient about working with and communicating with users who need to change their avatar. If you receive a chat message or email from a bouncer, please be cool and wor

I Had A Dream Where I Was Still Awake
I had a dream where I was still awake, I was walking through a field of rotting animals, When I found myself on the deck of a house I'd never known, Through the window I peered and saw myself at a table, The me inside this window was eating a bowl of ashes, Spoonful after spoonful he lifted to his lips, Then stopped and noticed a hair on his shirt, Long, it belonged to one beloved by us both, As he stared at this hair it began to change, It became a snake with eyes of death and deceit, And with a tongue of pure silver she peddled her goods, She was selling stories that I couldn't help but buy, I had no choice but to listen and obey, This me in the window he picked up a knife, This me in the window he put it in his chest, This me he cut out his heart and stared, And then as I shuddered the boards beneath me collapsed, I fell into a river that flowed up instead of down, It washed me to an isolated island completely alone, Where a hangnail moon hung a handbreadth away, In my loneli

When Your Bummed About Xmas!!!
Christmas in the Sand I had no Christmas spirit when I breathed a weary sigh, and looked across the table where the bills were piled too high. The laundry wasn’t finished and the car I had to fix, My stocks were down another point, the Cowboys lost by six. And so with only minutes till my son got home from school I gave up on the drudgery and grabbed a wooden stool. The burdens that I carried were about all I could take, and so I flipped the TV on to catch a little break. I came upon a desert scene in shades of tan and rust, No snowflakes hung upon the wind, just clouds of swirling dust. And where the reindeer should have stood before a laden sleigh, eight hummers ran a column right behind an M1A. A group of boys walked past the tank, not one was past his teens, Their eyes were hard as polished flint, their faces drawn and lean. They walked the street in armor with their rifles shouldered tight, their dearest wish for Christmas, just to have a silent night. Other soldiers ga

Hell
GothsCircle I LimboRednecksCircle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy WindGreensCircle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & SnowMilitant VegansCircle IV Rolling WeightsHipstersCircle V Stuck in Mud, MangledRiver StyxThe New York Yankees, Oakland Raider Fans, ScientologistsCircle VI Buried for EternityRiver PhlegyasOsama bin Laden, RepublicansCircle VII Burning SandsNAMBLA Members, Jerry FalwellCircle IIX Immersed in ExcrementThe Pope, George BushCircle IX Frozen in IceDesign your own hell

Sin
Arches shake in the church as the girl screams out. It's Confession tonight. What to confess? Her brain stresses trying to think. My confessions are so deep ,so intense can they even be forgiven. I've ran with the Devil and played his crooked games. I lied, I cheated, I killed, The souls of many. I am responable for the unhappiness of all of those who crossed my path. And what a crooked, lonely path it is. She looks up at the cross that rests on Jesus'shoulders and it is wilted toward her. This time she can not run and the confessions begin to spill. Like word vomit, spilling, dripping, stinky and chunky spreading on all around. All the secrets that held her down escaped and she fell to the floor. Heads instantly fell down in shame for everything they did was known. She knew it all. How you may ask? Deep in the night when everyone is sleep and when some do their personal confessions to God, She was being created by all the secrets they hid from others. Bit by bit she became a person f

Here's My Apology
Last night when i got home and saw bullshit in my sb again from moronic assclowns i kinda took it out on all men like i usually do. Don't really wanna use excuses but it's gotta be done. I've dealt with nothing but fuck ups, fucktards, abusers (but they got it back, i did fight back), guys thinkin woman are just here for their amusment and so on...rarely have i dealt with a nice guy except when it comes to my guy freinds...ironic...my last ex really ruined things for guys trying to get to know me and go further with me. It would end up being a novel if i started listing things..hell all my ex's were assholes with 2 exceptions...the one i lost cuz i had no control over and the second i lost cuz i fucked up...guess karma bit me in the ass hard cuz of that one...my life has been a rough one and it's molded me to be who i am.. yes i'm a bitch, sarcastic as hell, wild as fuck, and barely have any shame but i do have feelings when i let them show and i'm just soo god damn tired of bullshit a

I Love You, Don't You See?
I think about you all the time. Every second you are in my thoughts. Oh, God, why should it be so difficult? Why can not we be real?I love you. Love me back and live a life of happiness with me. Live in the most beautiful love. Why do you hesitate? What are you afraid of? I will not hurt you. I will not hurt you. I just want to give you love. The love you deserve. Stop doubting, darling. Come to me and let love lead us to everything we dreamed of.

Neurodancer
Neurodancer You answer to none Untamed and free and steal the sun with the prowess of Prometheus Unleashing that fire with synaptic scintillation, shining cobalt radiation upon all who know the tune Neurodancer Leonine prancer moving With introspective fluidity To a Primal percussive pulse Paradoxically precise yet the catalyst of chaotic conundrum and hedonistic halcyon I know the drum. Neurodancer That I chanced to find And choose as Muse Infused by this Erudite Aphrodite Whose elucidations Evoke exhilarations Of identity and understanding A mirrored guide Through synchronistic Similarity, a rarity You appeal and terrify. 2008

This Might Be, But I Hope Its Not.
If you are reading this, you are wondering where I am. Let's just say that Code has taken a vacation from this alternate reality we call Fubar. Why you ask? Well its all very simple you see. Last night, I was faced with alot of things all at once that literally made me ill. I immediatly began having chest pains and I think its all due to stress. I have enough stress in real life without packing on more unnecessary stress from a chat room and the stupid comments made by my so-called friends. That being said, I have decided to take the next few days off and see if I feel better and then maybe I'll want to ease back into it. No promises! For those of you lucky enough to have my YIM, please feel free to message me. I may be on there, I may not. I feel like this is enough information about the past few days that going over details with you is futile. I just need time to reflect and decide what is important to me and what isnt. Its time to seperate reality from the alternate "fu

A Peom For You
We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren’t old enough and we’ll be more content when they are. After that, we’re frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation,or when we retire. The truth is, there’s no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It’s best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with… and remember that time waits for no one. So, stop waiting –until your car or home is paid off&nd

Raine
When I hold you in my arms, I can feel you breathe When I look into your eyes, makes me believe In a God, in a place, that brings me hope, gives me faith Before our time is done, I want to be the one to Give you love, give you strength Get you through your darkest days When you cry I’ll dry the tears for you Through the years, through the pain Times of heartache, times of change I’ll be your sun you be my Raine If I ever let you down, I didn’t mean to do that If you need me and I’m not around, I am sorry for that Sometimes life is strange, some days it pulls me away from you But on my soul I swear, for you I will be there to Give you love, give you strength Get you through your darkest days When you cry I’ll dry the tears for you Through the years through the pain Times of heartache times of change I’ll be your sun you be my Raine You are my flesh, you are my blood And I will always stand by you, I will And should the sun go down, give me your

One More Day
I stare at the TV And I can't believe my eyes There's no place to run And no place to go There's no place left to hide I can see their faces I can feel their pain Our lives will never be the same So Forgive me if I laugh It's just to hide the tears Sometimes I wonder if I've wasted all those years For all the things I felt But forgot to say Would you give me one more day I sit here and wonder Now what if that were me If I'd lost my life Left behind my wife And the child that I'd never see If I could look down on her How would she explain That daddy had to go away So Forgive me if I smile It's just to hide my fears And in a time of dying Our life becomes so clear They say the good Lord works in such mysterious ways I just hope he gives me one more day One more day To look into her eyes, yeah, yeah One more moment to say goodbye, goodbye One more night to feel her touch Just one more chance So that I can tell her How much I miss her And tell her I love her Someone to love And s

In My Mind
Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped & twisted

Delusion Of The Vampire
Delusion Of The Vampire I was a vampire. Nothing more, nothing less. Yes, vampires do exist. Yes, vampires do drink the blood of mortals for sustenance. NO, I am not crazy. And yes, I am writing this from beyond two graves, for I perished from the species of mortals over 440 years ago, and perished from the species of vampire 11 years ago (or so I believe; that may be incorrect). However, unlike most of my kind, I did not choose to be a vampire; it was thrust upon me by a vampire who did not wish to seek permission to replenish his clan. I never even knew his name, as he was killed by members of his clan for breaking vampire law. And I was therefore pushed most violently into the realm of the undead. Death by vampirism does not come quickly; in fact, if you are unfortunate (or fortunate; it depends on your point of view), you will live until the sun goes nova and demolishes the planet. For with vampirism comes immortality, and with immortality comes the bereavement of the loss of thos

Taking Chances
I'm the kind of person who would risk everything in a glance. I'd rather take chance even though how slim my chances can be. I'd rather do that than to regret not taking it at all. maybe the chance that i take can be the thing that completes me. Stop me from this long search i've had all my life. i know it can always end in pain and sorrow. And i would probably shed tears. But still it's a risk i'd gladly take. i'm not scared to take those chance, to have my heart hurt. I'm not afraid to shed tears and get my sole broken. I'll accept them all, the risk and pain. Taking chances by LivityJump in head first with no fear in sight. Our hopes and dreams, growing bright. A chance we take, you and me. Hoping this is meant to be. Shattered dreams, left in the past, A new vision in sight, But will it last? Take the risk, this must be done, for in the end, it is we who won. ~Marilyn Jennings Dunn

I Wanted To Mumm About This....
But I decided against it cause you often see how rediculous some of those mummers can be... ANYWAYS I want to get my next tattoo in memory of my dad. Problem is I don't really have an idea on where to get it. I wanted to get his name on my wrist where I can always see it..I don't really want it hidden like my other one So, for anyone that reads this...could you help me out? What do you think I should do? Should I get it on my wrist like I originally planned or Get it somewhere else or something else other than his name? *Disclaimer* I don't want to get one of his favorite items because..well I really don't want to walk around with either a lawn mower, car, and or an antique radio tattooed on my body lol.

Let It Go!!
There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, loving you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

So...
I get ready for bed at 4:30, i lay down, turn on the fan, curl up... 20 minutes later, george's dad wakes up. comes in. turns OFF the fan. turns on the light,. and starts watching tv. knowing full well i'm trying to freaking sleep over here on the bed. We have to sleep in the living room. why? because before even given a chance to clean out the attic (george's old room), his fucking uncle moved up there. so we got stuck in the living room with no fucking privacy. George has to work until 8 am. i'm fucking tired, and fucking grumpy, and fucking pregnant. is it too much to fucking ask that while i sleep, i'm fucking ALLOWED TO SLEEP?! SERIOUSLY! so, tonight, when THEY go to bed... i'm playing left for dead 2. loudly. and i just hope they come out and complain. not my fucking fault we didnt get to have the upstairs... we were told on monday steve was coming inside, george ahs to work all day 5/7 days. we were gonna clean up on saturday. he moved all his shit up inside tuesday. we h

Thanksgiving 2009
Last nite was Thanksgiving. Hope you all enjoyed a wonderful evening and a delicious meal. And I hope you families with soldiers abroad had called them to show them that you think of them, sent parcels and letters. I was a soldier, 13 years ago. It was the aftermath of the Balkan Conflict - Serbs and Bosniaks, Croats and Albanians fighting and my unit was in Sarajevo as peacekeepers. Today, our soldiers - American and German alike - stand in Afghanistan and fight against - who ? and for what ? We are told by our politicians, that they defend our freedom there. I wonder if this is so. Our freedom is attacked by a bunch of religious misguided dumb towelheads who never managed to build up something of worth. In 20 years of the terror of the Taliban regime, they blowed-up ancient artworks like Buddhist temples, Hindu shrines - even artifacts of the ancient realm of Bactria, invaded by Alexander the Great, were destroyed by the wrath of the Taliban. Museums were plundered, women p

Beginning Today
Beginning today I will no longer worry about yesterday. It is in the past and the past will never change Only I can change by choosing to do so.Beginning today I will no longer worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it. But I cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today.Beginning today I will look in the mirror and I will see a person worthy of my respect and admiration. This capable person looking back at me is someone I enjoy spending time with and someone I would like to get to know better.Beginning today I will cherish each moment of my life. I value this gift bestowed upon me in this world and I will unselfishly share this gift with others. I will use this gift to enhance the lives of others.Beginning today I will take a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries I encounter. I will face challenges with courage and determination. I will overcome what barriers there may be which hinder

Sex And Love
It's always a constant debate in my mind. The never-ending quarrel between the two supreme forces. I'm not talking about good and evil, but of sex and love. Which of the two is more powerful? Which of the two has the better end? Which of the two is more enjoyable? We'll look at this rationally. Sex is real. Sex is raw.You can hold sex. Smell sex.Taste, hear, see sex. Sex is real. Sex is raw. Sex creates, sex destroys. On the other end of this debate, Love is an abstraction. Love is beautiful. Love digs its way into your very core and makes you feel almost euphoric.Love is inspiration. Love is greatness.Love creates, love destroys. Now, both of these forces together helped spawn this sudden burst of poetic muse.So, I'm not too sure which one is greater, and I'm not sure if it even matters. They're both therein some way or another.

Hurting Two
ONCE AGAIN CHRISTMAS TIME COMES AROUND YOU SEE ALL THE LIGHTS ON THE HOME WHEN YOU ARE DRIVING....BUT DO YOU EVER THINK THAT YOUR BABIES COULD BE IN ONE OF THOSE HOMES...WELL I DO EACH AND EVERY DAY JUST TO SEE THERE SMILING FACE ON CHRISTMAS MORNING IS PRICELESS......I HAVE A VERY HEAVY HEART THAT HAS TWO LIL SPOTS MISSING FROM IT....HOPFULLY I GET TO SEE THEM SOON....IF NOT I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO ANY MORE....MY BOYS ARE MYLIFE I AM THERE MOTHER ...LET ME HAVE MY SONS....

Thank The Gods And Goddes This Day Is Over With...
thank the Gods and Goddess this day is ovedr... Current mood: bitchy Category: Life THANKSGIVING HAS CAME AND GONE ..I ATE WAY TO MUCH FOOD BUT IT WAS DAMN GOOD TOO BUT THERE WAS SOMETHING MISS AROUND THE TABLE TWO LIL FACES THAT LOOK LIKE ME...I AM TRYING TO HANG ON AND NOT BREAK DOWN AGAIN BUT THE TEARS JUST KEEP FALLING...HOW CAN SOME BODT KEEP YOUR BABIES FROM YOU DAMN THIS SUX ASS SO MUCH...I AM WRITING TO KEEP THE PAIN AND RAGE INSIDE ME I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANY BODY ...A PERSON CAN TAKE SO MUCH.... WELL I HOPE YOUR HAPPY GORDON YOU GOT YOUR WISH ...YOU LIED TO ME AGAIN SAYING THAT I CAN SEE AND TALK TO OUR SONS...GUESS NOT I AM TRYING EVERY THING THAT I HAVE NOT TO HUNT YOU DOWN AND KICK YOUR ASS...I AM SO PISSED OFF THAT I AM HURTING PPL THAT ARE IN MY LIFE OR NOT IN MY LIFE...YOU HAVE NO DAMN CLUE WHAT I AM GOING THOUGHT ...OH THAT IS RIGHT YOUR JUST A DAMN GUY WITH HIS PRIDE IN HIS ASS . YOUR A ASSCLOWN......

Billy's Woodchuck Theory
ok so my kid is a nut.. like his mother B (Billy) and his best friend Junad were talking about how much wood could a Woodchuck chuck if a Woodchuck could chuck wood. So, to be goofy, my kid writes a "mathematical equation". What a nerd!!! He reminds me of the little Sicilian guy in the Princess Bride-- "Inconvievable!!!" Here is his "equation". I just had to share this. Such a little smart ass ""Using the formula: (W+I)*C where W= the constant of wood, which is well known to be 61, as agreed in many scientific circles. I= the variable in the equation and stands for the word "if" from the original problem. As there are three circumstances with: 0 equalling the chance that the woodchuck cannot chuck wood; 1 being the theory that the wood chuck can chuck wood but chooses not to; and 2 standing for the probability that the woodchuck can and will chuck wood. We clearly must choose 2 for use in this equation. C= the constant of Chuck Norris, whose presence in any problem involving

Some Of My Thoughts...
I wrote this and figured I'd share it.. Tonight after getting new couches, the kids were hungry so we stopped at Wendy's. As we were eating, I noticed something out of the corner of my eye. There, outside, was a homeless man. He placed his blanket and things neatly by the door and came inside. After buying a small coffee he quietly went over to a table and sat down. I watched as other people just went about their meal, hoping to see someone offer him something. No one did. I knew that if I didn't get him something to eat I wouldn't be able to eat. I can't even eat in front of a hungry cat let alone a hungry person. I walked up and told him that I would like to buy him dinner. We went to the counter and I told him to pick out whatever he wanted. He spent a whopping $5, and that was with my urging. I gave him the change to get food tomorrow. There were tears in his eyes when he said thank you. The kids and I finished our meal and he thanked us again on our way out. Walking to t

Just For Today
Just For Today Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is. Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play. Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together. Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the back yard and blow bubbles. Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by. Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned. Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them. Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and

One Wish
One Wish If I were granted any wish, I'll tell you what I'd do,... I'd wish my kids were small again, for just a month or two; To hear their squeals of laughter, to watch them while they play, And when they ask me to join in, I'd NOT say "Not Today". To jug again their chubby frame, to kiss away their tears, and cherish childhood innocence that's washed away the years; Then when it's story time again, I'd stay a little longer; to answer questions, sing the songs, so memories would be stronger, But time is callous, wishes, myths, yet God in all his wisdom, Has given me another chance before I join his kingdom; The face may not be just the same, the name is changed, ' tis true, But yet the smile that radiates, reminds me so of you. God must have known that Grandma would need a chance or two. For many little happy things she hadn't time to do; So God gave Love to Grandmas to equal that before, That, in effect, embraces those little lives she bore.

If You Give A Mom A Muffin.....
If You Give a Mom a Muffin If you give a mom a muffin, She'll want a cup of coffee to go with it. So she'll pour herself some. The coffee will get spilled by her three year old. She'll wipe it up. Wiping the floor, she will find some dirty socks. She'll remember she has to do some laundry. When she puts the laundry in the washer, She'll trip over some snow boots and bump into the freezer. Bumping into the freezer will remind her she has to plan supper for tonight. She will get out a pound of hamburger. She'll look for her cookbook. (101 Things To Make With a Pound of Hamburger.) The cookbook is sitting under a pile of mail. She will see the phone bill which is due tomorrow. She will look for the checkbook. The checkbook is in her purse that is being dumped out by her two year old. She'll smell something funny. She'll change the two year old. While she is changing the two year old the phone will ring. (Of course!) Her five year old will answer it and hang

Hiroshime Child (for Peace)
Hiroshima Child I come and stand at every door But none can hear my silent tread. I knock and yet remain unseen For I am dead! For I am dead! I'm only seven though I died In Hiroshima long ago. I'm seven now as I was then When children die they do not grow. My hair was scorched by swirling flame; My eyes grew dim my eyes grew blind. Death came and turned my bones to dust And that was scattered by the wind. I need no fruit, I need no rice I need no sweets nor even bread. I ask for nothing for myself For I am dead! For I am dead! All that I need is that for peace You fight today! You fight today! So that the children of this world Can live and grow and laugh and play.

When You Are Old
When You are Old When you are old and grey and full of sleep, And nodding by the fire, take down this book, And slowly read, and dream of the soft look Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep; How many loved your moments of glad grace, And loved your beauty with love false or true, But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you, And loved the sorrows of your changing face; And bending down beside the glowing bars, Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled And paced upon the mountains overhead And hid his face amid a crowd of stars. --William Butler Yeats (1865-1939)

Native American Poetry
Some of my favorite Native poetry and quotes... Native American Prayer (Author Unknown) Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow; I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain; I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft star that shines at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there; I did not die. Treat the earth well. It was not given to you by your parents, it was loaned to you by your children. We do not inherit the Earth from our Ancestors, we borrow it from our Children. --Ancient Indian Proverb When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice. --White Elk Humankind has not woven the web of life. We are but one thread within it. Whatever we do to the web, we do

Angels
I thought that this was inspirational and sweet. I received this from a friend who had a choice to make. It said that I had a choice to make too. The story goes that some time ago a mother punished her five year old daughter for wasting a roll of expensive gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and she became even more upset when the child used the gold paper to decorate a box to put under their Christmas tree. Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift box to her mother the next morning and then said, "This is for you, Momma." The mother was embarrassed by her earlier over reaction, but her anger flared again when she opened the box and found it was empty. She spoke to her daughter in a harsh manner. Don't you know, young lady, when you give someone a present there's supposed to be something inside the package?' She had tears in her eyes and said, "Oh, Momma, it's not empty! I blew kisses into it until it was full." The mother was crushed. She fell on her knees and p

10 Amy Facts
1. I have brown eyes but when I'm angry or in any "extreme emotion" they turn black like little black jelly beans. I also give "dirty looks" without knowing it, and I might not be even thinking anything bad about someone, just thinking about stuff. It's been a pain in my butt ever since I can remember because people are always thinking I'm angry when I'm not. 2. I have to sleep with a fan on or some noise in the background. I prefer a fan, even in the winter because I like the noise and the air. I like to bundle up in the blankets. 3. I hate overbearing and rude, demanding people. I happened to live with a very overbearing hubby which drove me insane alot! I hate being bossed or rudely TOLD what to do like I'm 5. If you were to ask me nicely for a kidney, I'd gladly give it to you but if you were to demand that I give you 5 cents, you can blow it out your ass. 4.I can NOT stand clutter or messiness, it makes me in a bad mood and I feel like its closing in on me. (that was

True Person
The most common word which is not very common to all people... People come and go but only true person can leave footprints worth remembering... Don't waste time to people who doesn't have time for you... sweet talks is a bait of betrayal... Do what you say...

The World Has Changed
Darkness I live my life by the rules, honor, honesty, loyalty and compassion and trust. Rules laid down, 2000 years before I was born in the oldest book ever written somewhere along the line, someone has changed the rules. So does one change. With the times or be a creature of conscience.

Burning For You
Light kisses on my cheeks, eyes, and forehead Exhalations down my neck Spine arching nails tracing vertebrae Increasing the pressure and making me writhe Anticipating and satisfying every wanton need Nibbling and sucking already erect nipples Inching downward and exploring my voluptuousness Nuzzling my stomach and spreading my thighs Hearing my moans of expectation Enveloping your face in my warmth Allowing your tongue to flick and lick Tasting my clitoris with delight

My Final Hour
Pain is everywhere And yet it's nowhere; I sit and wonder why i've yet to die! Life is no longer meaningful And yet the world is sorrowful Upon my depature. It almost seems like torture. I lay here in my final hour Watching my enemy come to power I realize there is nothing but pain And yet so many died in vain Over something that doesn't exsist But yet they persist that what they are doing is right And yet it is so wrong Only the strong survive isn't right Anymaore, because the stars don't shine bright They have become the thing they fear. The end is so near! The light is consumed By the darkness that sheilded me As I fought to be free Free of emotions and my passions Free of "them" and my decisions THis truely was my finally hour

Haikus - 2/19/09
HAIKUS - 2/19/09 Definition: An unrhymed verse form of Japanese origin having three lines containing usually five, seven, and five syllables Spring floats on the breeze Walking to my car alone No, wait! Humming trees Wonderful futures Are only a thought away Now, in the present Snow white mountain tops Tranquil blue seas with creatures galore Yes! It's Ecuador Berry full of straw On top, molten chocolate My heart's own desire Go ahead spin another story As I nod and measure your dick Stare into my eyes Take a dive and swim deep You know you want to BLEEP! Sucked him in and tore him down Knew all along he was a clown Fuck him! You taste the smoothness Your hand holds on to it tight Ice cream cone, sicko! Music so moves me Held captive against your own So tonight we melt You punch and bruise me Using your lethal weapon But now your soul bleeds

Of Love, Laughter And The Heart
Love can find you int he darkest places, But pain offen follows these cases. The heart's feeling are true And often left feeling rather blue. Angels watching over your heart Are always setting you apart With angels watching over you fear is never near, so Laugh and love Allow your heart to be a dove To be peaceful and free Much as i long to be Love is but a dream Life is merely an evil scheme Happiness is only lies As your heart slowly dies Laughter, love and happiness Can send you in to a firey abyss

Lies Therein
Half a bottle of wine.A whole ounce of pain killers.Two swigs of bourbon. You're still painted to the inside of my eyelids.You and that haughty samba you call a walk.Spike heels, lazer eyes, and smooth nails Like a caress from a velvet courtesanon the wirey strangeness of my cheek.Like kiwi on silk. I try to picture you nakedbut its a bit difficult without a working color schemeand a fifty foot canvas to roll naked on. All the words fade from me after I've picked up my penall the shine drips from the walls after we've partedand I'm left in a universe of greys. Various shades of dull, the lights reverse.the shadows dance and whisper mischevious doubtand I forget to watch as you leave. Like every day is my last chance to win you.Each vivid, amnesic fantasy of having those lips pressed wet and warm against my body.As the chemical euphoric disentegrates with each distancing step. Museless, naked, and cold in a world of blind voyeurs. I'd reach. If I thought

A Symbol Of My Love
A year ago I put a ring on her fingerBut it was the collarI put around her neckThat bound her to meA symbol of our loveA symbol of our commitmentThe ring was just the icingOn our symbolic cakeWhere ever I goshe will be with meChained or unchained

Thanksgiving...nothing To Be Thankful About This Day
Well...The first day of the holiday season...And I wish I could have just skipped it...Cuz all I did was just wander thru my day...Waiting to call my dad and tell him dinner was ready and get over here and eat...Watching the girls walk out the door to go to their b/f's...The ex walking in after work...Then Ricki coming home with Payton...The only bright spot in my day *sigh* All in all...I could care less if Xmas even happens this year...If Thanksgiving was a preview...It ain't gonna be nothing to celebrate :(

Thanks Giving
Thanks Giving Hail! To thee! O A-SYMP-TOTE! Source of this, that, there I wrote Cool-point-of-cherry-stoked Center-of-the-swirling-smoke Laughing-that-is-ever-broke Balanced motion, enchanting potion Graph-of-change-without-change That-rationed-mind-canst-explain From-its-vision-unrefrained I fall deep, and am: made, lame Grand! Shall thy be, Eye from which grows a tree To spiral out! An infinity So, I place a shell to ear Blood rushes as the oceans peal I wait by shore for her to heal This tremulous throat, By her dolorous note Here I am unborn Unfurling mathematically to a form Of which thirty-three adorns Twice, two suns are born And with twenty we adore That which loves us Never, more She is no longer; Our scarlet, core So, I did drift to deep When a girl she did peep "Here, he cannot sleep!" Be, cause "He is an adult!" So I weep... For the innocence they keep The wisdom she doth speak That little golden haired child... So, I sat with h

A Woman's Dismissal
I really don't write much positive things because I see the glass as half empty in my personal opinion. Before I met this girl who I'll talk about but not name, things weren't easy for me. They still aren't but I had some faith in relationships. Right now I have less of it. Call me crazy but I think there are good people out there that I just haven't met yet. There are a lot of bad people out there who do stuff for personal gain and self-pleasure. I am the type of guy who is disgustingly monogamous. Which may be a fault of mine cause I dated a girl who ultimately cheated on me who tried to justify it by ending it quickly with me and saying it via text. i can't blame her for not wanting to see me in person cause I don't know how i would react face to face. I didn't even know how to react via a text on a phone. Do you go off on the woman? do you brush it off? It hurts a lot more cause I put everything I had into it and it never was enough for her. She never understood where I

Because She's Mine
she looks up to meIf there are flaws And I know I must have one or twoshe doesn't see themshe knows my wants and desiresshe feeds my depraved mindAnd satisfies my carnal desiresshe more than any otherHas brought me peace of mindThere are no gamesExcept the games I want to playIt is why I chose herWhy I kept herAnd when the end of the day comesshe turns off the lightsPrepares my bedAnd announces "I'm ready"My good girlAnd as Johnny Cash sang"Because she's mineI walk the line"I believe a wise manKnows when he hasA good woman

This Thanksgiving
looking back on the day, I remember where I was this time two years ago-- my first thanksgiving, away from family, in Salem, Oregon. I was in a new state, but it was far better than being homeless in South Dakota...much better indeed. I was living with an ex-girlfriend at that time, but she was unemployed, and I was helping out majorly with keeping us both afloat. I was thankful that year to have a good paying job, and to have a roof over my head. I wasnt ungrateful for anything that came my way that year. November of 2008, found me in Vancouver, WA-- still in the NW but with new surroundings..my sister, mom and I managed to have ourselves a great first year here..things were tight (and they still are This year), but we stuck together and made a great day of it. This year I'm grateful to have many things-- health, a special friend and confidant in my life (she knows who she is... hehe), great friends, and I new start in life next year...

Today I Adjusted Her Attitude
Sometimes she likes to seeJust how far she can goshe's like an Arab mareI once ownedAnd like the mareI give her the opportunity to runTo see how far she'll goBefore I rein her inWhen ridingYou slap the horses assTo make it goBut with my girlI slap it to make her stop

Maintenance
It's not just aboutBuying those thingsThat she likes she's my slaveDaddy's girlMy babyI do that because I love herThose are rewards for pleasing meMaintenance includesPhysicalMentalEmotional Reminders that she is everything to meshe is my sustenanceMy nourishmentMy main course And my dessert

Silly Girl
When Daddy breaks out the belt(One of the few useful tools That can be worn in public)she tries to defend her assBy sacrificing her handsIt doesn't take her long thoughTo discoverThe error of her decisionThen she squirms aroundTrying to avoid the lashBut Daddy has no problemStriking my targetWhether it is her ass or cuntWith my beltAnd when The beating endsI strike againWith my cock

It's A Sin
It's all about the Cardinal SinA classification of the most objectionable vices Used to educate about (immoral) fallen man's tendency to sin It consists of "Lust", "Gluttony", "Greed", "Sloth", "Wrath", "Envy", and "Pride"This cardinal is focusing on Lust

Crushed Bond
I remember how alone I was when you left you never told where you were going and why you never told me I took you back knowing you didn't want me to leave that you had faith in us knowing we would work We had out struggles but i didn't question it was hard enough just being myself i was putting trust in our bond you broke that bond you put your love on another man though you say words of comfort it'll never take the nightmares away was i not a good enough lover did i say or not spend enough for us? i gave and i gave and told you my pains yet you did what you did i don't know what else to do but to start from the beginning

Miss Me?
I've been busyWorkingPlayingOne must have priorities In lifeFocus on those thingsThat have residual benefitsWorkThough exhausting and stressfulPays the bills, provides food and funPlayMy girlProvides pleasure and much needed stress reliefBoth have consumed any timeI would have set aside to writeButI have told herDuring my four day Thanksgiving break from workI will finish my latest storyCalendar GirlBetween now and thenI will try to provide food for thoughtAnd visual imagesTo inspire your carnal sideBut only if time allows

The Right Moment
Some male enhancement drugsSay "When the moment is right"I assume they are implyingA romantic intimate momentI prefer to thinkThe right moment Is anytime I want herAnd under any conditionShe knows thisSo when I sayNow, over the couchIn front of an open picture windowOr on the floorThe moment is right

If It Kills Me...
Well, all I really want to do is love you A kind much closer than friends use But I still can't say it after all we've been through And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me Well, how long can I go on like this, wishing to kiss you Before I rightly explode And this double life I lead isn't healthy for me, in fact it makes me nervous If I get caught I could be risking it all Well, baby there's a lot that I miss in case I'm wrong All I really want to do is love you A kind much closer than friends use But I still can't say it after all we've been through Lyrics...if it kills me...Jason mraz... And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me If I should be so bold, I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man But I n

Catching You Up
Last weekend I workedBut took the timeTo take advantage of her goodiesBut she injured her kneeAnd had to go to the doctor on WednesdayWhen askedHow it wentshe told meThe doctor was greatHe thoroughly examined her kneeWhile her crotch was in his face He dosed her with a cortisone shotSo this weekendWe went shopping For Christmas tree ornamentsThis year's tree is a bit differentAs is the tree topper