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Shattered Dreams
WE MET ONLINE FRIENDS TO BE CHATTING JUST TO BE FRIENDS THE AGREEMENT WAS THE FEELING GREW TO A CARING THING HE TOLD ME HE WAS FALLING IN LOVE AGAINST WHAT HE BELIEVED I WAS FOOL ENOUGH TO FEEL THAT TO AND ADMIT IT NOW HE JUST PLAYS GAMES WITH MY HURT PROMISES MADE JUST TO BE BROKEN DREAMS TORN TO PIECES JUST LIKE A HEART WHAT A FOOL I CAN BE TO BELIEVE SOMEONE COULD CARE FOR ME THE CONFIDENCE I HAD WORKED SO HARD TO BUILD WAS DESTROYED IN A MOMENT I WAIT IN HOPE THAT IT ISNT ALL LIES BECAUSE WHEN IT IS ALL SAID I DO STILL CARE AND STILL DREAM OF THIS MAN THAT HAS TAKEN ME HEART AND CRUSHED IT TO PIECES BUT IT WILL MEND OF THAT I AM SURE BUT I WILL NEVER FALL FOR AGAIN THE LIFE ALONE SEEMS THE WAY IT HAS TO BE.

Boredom!
Ok maybe it'e me but fu' is gettin' a lil' stale lately I can tell because Im on it less and less. My personality-type has the flaw of gettin' easily distracted and bored real fast so I travel light and keep it moving thru life!Im taking a break I think I don't even know if I will be back!

Back In The Good Old Days
"What came first, the chicken, or the egg?" I believe it is fairly obvious that this question is based on an assumption that there must have been a beginning of Time. I’ve thought about it before and arrived at the conclusion that it is equally ridiculous to assume that Time has a beginning and an end as it was for the first people to take sail on the seas to fear falling off the end of the world. The egg came from the chicken and the chicken came from the egg, so, is it not obvious that neither could have come first, and that, just like the three dimensional world and everything in it, Time is round and not linear? Many of us believe that when we die everything ends for us. This is simply not true. Our consciousness continues to evolve after we leave this physical form. All you have to do is take a cursory look into NDE’s (Near Death Experiences) to find that people in deep comas have been able to describe leaving their body, as well as accurately describe the room t

Love Suxs
Hey guys!!!!! What's up????? Well here is the reason I am posting this bulletin is because I just want yall to know that I think love really SUCKS because I think that there is no one out there 4 me…. There was this girl that I liked 4 a real good while but every time I would ask her if she would go out wit me she would either say no or she would have a boyfriend but we dated a few times…… I feel like that I should just give up on love because I feel like love has given up on me and I feel that love REALLY SUCKS and that there is no one that likes me…. I THINK I AM JUST GONNA STAY SINGLE 4 DA REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This Is My Way To Say Thanks Too Whoever Helps
i know who my real friends are thanks sandy my favorite bouncer your a sweety nite your awsome /and all the others who care enough to help me when they can sincerly thanks michael others boat man/no more friends@ fubar

The Scars Of Life
Some years ago, on a hot summer day in south Florida , a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the lake, an alligator was swimming toward the shore. His father working in the yard saw the two as they got closer and closer together. In utter fear, he ran toward the water, yelling to his son as loudly as he could. Hearing his voice, the little boy became alarmed and made a U-turn to swim to his father. It was too late. Just as he reached his father, the alligator reached him. >From the dock, the father grabbed his little boy by the arms just as the alligator snatched his legs. That began an incredible tug-of-war between the two. The alligator was much stronger than the father, but the father was much too passionate to let go. A farmer happened to dri

To All My Fubar Friends
SPRING HAS SPRUNG AND I'M ON THE RUN, PLAYING IN THE FLOWERS DANCING IN THE SUN. YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN GREAT YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN FUN IT IS TIME FOR REAL LIFE I'LL MEET YOU IN THE SUN. BUT YOU CAN BELIEVE WHEN THE COLD DAYS COME I WILL BE BACK HERE FOR MORE FUN!!! BLOODY KISSES MINA P.S. I will be coming on off and on for a little while here and there, lol when i get bored....

We Survived
To All The Kids Who Survived the 1930's, 40's 50's, 60's, and 70's First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us. They took aspirin, ate bleu cheese dressing and didnt get tested for diabetes Then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with brightly colored lead-based paints We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes we had no helmets, not to mention the risks we took hitchhiking As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle, and NO ONE actually died from this We ate cup cakes , bread and butter and drank soda pop with sugar in it, but we weren t over weight because WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!! We would leave home in the morning and play all day, a

Moving Forward
Moving forward, left and right, at times peace, at times a fight. Our journey is what we make.... Or is it all a predestined fate? Ponder why and how; How come the wait is forever, when i want it NOW!!! Fuck the words Leaders use to create false hope. Life is now, this is the shit; the real, no fake dope. Swallow the pill of real chill. Fade the numbness of fake. Shake the passiveness; the real dope will make you wake! Depend on YOU! Open your eyes. See reality; Not facades filled with rotting insides. Be true, don't steal, cheat, cause hurt. Cause when its done-YOUR WORD is all you can take to the dirt! By: Teresa Williams 4-17-08

Lotus Nation
=== 'SexyGranny1967>Shadow Leveler>Club FAR> Promoter of S*U*P & Lotus Pod Nation>owner/owned mishnumber1' wrote the following at '2008-04-24 05:50:56'.. > > just go to reply in this mail and copy code from the ~~~ to the **** should do it > > > ~~~ > > ********

Fubar Drama
Well it has come to my attention that I have a little stalker...Typically you would think that because I'm a woman...it would be a man...But..not this time..It's a woman...And she's not stalking me because she wants me...Although..I'm not sure why..Most lesbians like me...But..because she has a little problem with jealousy... Came home from work this morning...Logged in like always to check my messages...And there it was in print...This chick had downrated me...Hmmm..Curious to know who she was, I of course went to her page...Awwww...Now I knew why she had been so rude...Seems that her top man is someone that "was" on my friends list...Now...please keep in mind...I have never once had any kind of communication with this man...He leaves comments...I leave him comments...Nothing more...And have never had an interest to do more...So, because I am a woman...I to have bitch tendencies...I downrated the shit out of her...Call it petty...But damnit...I worked all night and I'm not in the b

You Know What Really Grinds My Gears
Nobody's come up with a new priest and a rabbi joke in like thirty years. Ya know? I mean, okay, ah, umm. Priest and a rabbi go, go onto the supermarket, and, uh, the priest wants to buy a ham. And the rabbi says, "Ah, I can't eat it. It's forbidden." Couldn't eat it. Not allowed, pigs are like superheroes to them. Is it perfect? No, but I, I don't see you coming up with anything... You know what really grinds my gears? This Lindsay Lohan. Lindsay Lohan with all those little outfits, jumping around there on stage, half-naked with your little outfits. Ya know? You're a... You're out there jumping around and I'm just sitting here with my beer. So, what am I supposed to do? What you want? You know, are we gonna go out? Is that what you're trying to - why why are you leaping around there, throwing those things all up in my, over there in my face? What do you want, Lindsay? Tell me what you want? Well, I'll tell you what you want, you want nothing. You want nothing. All right? Because we

Sorry
Hi all, I wish to apologise for not being very aproachable these past few weeks. I have been very busy taking care of a very dear friend's 4 children. My best friend Jill - whom i have known for over 18yrs had been very poorly for quite some time - suddenly took a very bad turn and ended up in hospital on life support. Unfortunately my friend Jill passed away yesterday morning god rest her soul, she will be greatly missed by us all. I hope i havent been rude or impatient with anybody on here - if i have i apologise sincerely. I will try and catch up with all the comments, ratings as soon as i can (many thanks to all) stella xxx

Enter At Own Risk
She feels the heat from his hands as the roam her body..his touch scorches her skin. He works his hands up to her neck, closing gently just once, enough to let her know who's boss.. One hand travels to her hair, she tenses waiting for that pull...He just grins at her, leans over and bites her shoulder.. As she is moaning from the bite, feeling it to her toes, he jerks her hair back, cutting off her moan in mid scream.. He leans over and places his lips on hers, gently, but forcefully..He nibbles on her bottom lip.. She closes her eyes, enjoying the sensation of his body weighing her down...the feel of his lips.. He bites down hard...he wants those eyes open..as she stares into his, mirrors of the love they share in both eyes..making this oh, so much better.. She starts to wriggle, wanting to feel more of him, she wants to feel his skin on hers... His fingers start to unbutton her clothes...he stops... gets up and closes the blinds... HAHAHAH YOU PERVS....DID

Wanna Own Me
Wanna Own Me? Click the link and hit me up~~Everyone needs a sexygranny in thier life!! This sexy beast is on auction too!! Be sure to show some mad fu-love to our generous host for all her time n effort in putting this together stormwoman~co owner of wolves of wiccan society~owned by lonewolf~cherokee~@ fubar THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH MUAH!!! (repost of original by 'SexyGranny1967>Shadow Leveler>Club FAR> Promoter of S*U*P & PPN>owner/owned of mishnumber1' on '2008-05-01 18:27:31') http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=170972&albumid=1172187&i=3723413408

Sensual Loving
Love in its truest form has no language or words, it just has a thousand and one actions we all wish we could describe...Love IS everything its cracked up to be. Thats why people are so cynical about it. It really IS worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.Trouble is, if you dont risk everything, you risk even more trouble...............It doesn't matter if you've known the person a day, a week, or forever, you can't change the feelings you have for that person. If you love someone show it. If it's meant to be then it will be if not then let it go..(its hard).......:) Hold me close, can you feel the fire? Feel the passion burning within, Fan and fuel my wonderful desire Quench my thirst and lust as it slowly begins Run your fingers slowly along my soft skin Feel the pulse racing and beating beneath Don’t ignore this beautiful feelin’ Hold onto to it with every breath you take Gently press your warm lips against mine Crush your body against m

My Angel!
From that first moment I already knew That woman I longed for Was going to be you The closer we grow together The more I want to be with you All that I hope for Is you want that too As the days pass by The more I begin to care You have opened my heart To all the feelings we share From this point forward I promise you this I will do my best To bring you happiness For this is my vow To you today Forever my angel I want you to stay

I Don't Care
"Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible,burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?..Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in Saudi Arabia . I'll care when these thugs tell the world they are sorry for hacking off Nick Berg's hea

Fucker
You have a lot of nerve to get ahold of me after the shit you pulled. You're a sorry excuse of a man and an even shittier excuse of a marine! I'm pissed that I ever met you, that I ever listened to your bullshit lies, and that I drove all the way to Cherry Point, NC to see you just to be treated like shit! You're a disgusting asshole that was horrible in bed and made me want to vomit each time you touched me. It's sad that you use your title to make yourself feel like you're worth something because in the end you're not some great marine that will do wonders for our country, you're a gross, short, disgusting mother fucker that sucks in bed!

Two Bodies
Two Bodies dancing In the candle light The moon's in full glow Two people come together The heat starts to rise Curiosity becomes a need And the need becomes a must With lips partly open Touching bare skin Traveling the body of a lover A tongue flicks up and down Nails drag along the back Hands pull the bodies closer Darks pools of desire flare In one another's eyes Moans getting louder As a hip starts to grind For they had not expected they could never imagine That they would be this good He licks and sucks over and over With her body at a breaking point She urges him on Grabbing his shoulders Pressing him down He feels her shudder And know's what he has done. She kisses him softly She licks him slowly Going all the way down A soft moan escapes him She keeps changing it up Till his body his twitching She know's she's in control His moans getting louder She feels his body release Anticipation of this moment Made adrenaline race Now tota

Global Warming
Well Al Gore went on this rant and got an Award for his Global Warming aka Money Machine.. Now its May up here in New York and I have had my heat on almost everyday of this month..So where the hell is the global Warming. He also wants everyone to drive vehicles that dont use as much gas. While he drives around in SUV'S..and flys his private Jet all around the world..Now I am all for helping the enviroment.. but hes just using scare tactics to make money..and saying there is this big threat...Tell me what you think.

Fu-handfasting Oath
Handfasting & Declaration of Intent Know now before you go further, that since your lives have crossed in this life you have formed ties between each other. As you seek to enter this state of matrimony you should strive to make real, the ideals which give meaning to both this ceremony and the institution of marriage. With full awareness, know that within this circle you are not only declaring your intent to be handfasted before your friends and family, but you speak that intent also to your creative higher powers. The promises made today and the ties that are bound here greatly strengthen your union; they will cross the years and lives of each soul's growth. Do you still seek to enter this ceremony? Yes, We Seek to Enter. In times past it was believed that the human soul shared characteristics with all things divine. It is this belief which assigned virtues to the cardinal directions; East, South, West and North. It is in this tradition that a blessing is of

Have You Joined Us Yet???
Want to Join An Awesome Family? This is what you have to do its so simple and so much fun plus you will get to make some awesome friends. We ARE NOT a bombing family. Just a bunch of fubarians wanting to make new friends The requirements are simple 1. Must be a level 3 and above and have a salute 2) NO DRAMA 3) Must FAN/ADD/RATE each member 4) Must have CLUB UNITED in your name 5) Have fun as that is all we want to do So if you are interested just click on the link and we will show you what to do Club United Home Page See Blog To Join!!! This pimpout brought to you by Teresa aka Liberated Spice Club United Owner* R/L WIFEY 2 Big Jimmy--DSC (repost of original by 'Teresa aka Liberated Spice Club United Owner* R/L WIFEY 2 Big Jimmy--DSC' on '2008-05-28 07:56:54') (repost of original by 'SweetSexyLatina♥*Club United Owner*Fu-OwnedbyTexasCameroSarge'sBadgirlsMasterofbsquard' on '2008-05-28 10:31:33') (repost of ori

Fu-friends
I will not be on for the next two weeks starting on Saturday. During this time, if you would like to be added to my Family, send me a message and i will add when i get back...be sure to add me too hugs licks and kisses to all my fu-friends

Staff Guidelines
STAFF GUIDELINES GREETER GUIDELINES Those with the title of Greeter, Host, Hostess, Bartender, Dancer etc. work under the direction of the Head greeter or VP of Hospitality. These are perhaps the most vital positions in terms of keeping the lounge welcoming and fun place to be. Greeters greet people as they enter the room, encourage visitors to subscribe to the lounge, make conversation, basically be polite and make them feel welcome. As has been the tradition in our lounge, it is my hope that ALL staff that are active in the lounge at any given time would greet people as they enter. But those with these positions should make it their primary task. This isn’t to say that greeters won’t be allowed to promote the lounge, they just need to be sure to be also paying attention to what is going on in the lounge. At times greeters may be forced to take actions that normally fall under the guise of security. Please see the guidelines for using moderator functions in the Secur

I Love You..
Love is always the hardest thing to say No one knows what it really means Maybe an expression to show that you care Or maybe a word that people use Just to be using it But when I say it to you Its from the heart So it means that much more I say it to you Because I do I do love you No one has ever made me feel like this I feel like Im back in high school With an 9th grade crush You make me happy Full of joy, Full of love How do you feel about this? Do you feel something special inside? Im hoping you do Because I do I do love you It hurts when Im away from you When I dont talk to you I feel my world has ended My heart has shattered My blood flows no more My brain stops My body shuts down Its so much I wanna tell you But dont know how But then again I do I do love you...

To Mainly Mr.2 Damn Good, And Everyone Else Who Listened When I Needed To Talk
TOO ALL MY FRIENDS FROM WHEREVER YOU MAY BE I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR BEIN THERE FOR ME IF YOU SHOULD EVER NEED ANYTHING ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A FRIEND IN ME.

Love So Much To Say Good Bye
Love so much to say good bye. How you have grown for 9 months inside; The feel of your kick and the sound of your heart beat made me decide. I had made a choice to let you be someone else's angel & set you free; For this the world and people in it have strongly disagreed. I have heard with a gasp "Oh, how could you?" Then I have heard "If he were mine I would love him so much more!" The harshness of words spoken yet no one ask, "why do you feel trapped & broken?" Then the ones who have taken the small amount of time to ask why, seemed not to hear what I had spoken. I couldn't feel your skin with my touch; The hurt I was feeling deep inside was way to much. I laid there and prayed that you would be protected by God's hand; That one day you would be able to understand. Then I asked God to let you be loved unconditionally, not want, and feel in your heart a mothers love so deep; As I was so tired and drained, I laid in that bed in a cold and empty room and cried myself

Alphabet Love
*Alphabet Love* What do you call a man when labels such as "hunk", "babe" or "rat" fail to cover the infinite subtleties of how you regard him? Following on from DINS(Double Income No Sex). SNAG(Sensitive New Age Guy) Searching for sensitive man? Be careful you don`t hit a SNAG. These men use moves they`ve picked up from sincerely emphatetic types in order to pick up women.They have never been interested in sport. They walk and walk by letting you pay for dinner and even talk the talk.(He said " I`m really concerned about how you feel") but they never really listen. WIP(Work in Progress) A WIP is a man with potential you take on, knowing you`ll soon be spoonfeeding him tips on basic social skills. These men you can find at college. PG(Probably Gay) If he`s handsome, clever, funny, not married and utterly uninterested in you, he gets a PG rating. Yes, it is politically incorrect. And no, it is never 100° accurate. Of course, it is not fair But egos must be preserved. TOD

Tag, You're It.
You Can Only Type One Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? Book 2. Your significant other? Beautiful 3. Your hair? Brown 4. Your mother? Awesome 5. Your father? Super 6. Your favorite thing? Baseball 7. Your dream last night? Dunno 8. Your favorite drink? Water 9. Your dream/goal? Happiness 10. The room you're in? Bedroom 11. Music? Lots 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Home 14. Where were you last night? Texas 15. What you're not? Awake 16. Muffins? Chocolate 17. One of your wish list items? Money 18. Where you grew up? Nicasio 19. The last thing you did? Shower 20. What are you wearing? Clothes 21. TV? Baseball 22. Your pets? Lovable 23. Your computer? Rough 24. Your life? Decent 25. Your mood?

Harsh Comment
I commented on a mumm earlier and my comment was short and after it was pointed out...was a bit harsh... The question was what could this person do to find out which man cared about her more (ok...she was struggling on which of 2 men choose from)...That's a hard one... My initial comment was...You can ask them how they feel...but a man will hardly ever tell you the truth as to what he is feeling... Yes...Very harsh...and gender biased... I shouldn't have generalized all men...There are women that have the same problem with showing emotion...And with voicing it as well... I'm the type of person that wears my emotions on my sleeve...Ask me what you want...And I will give you my answer...I do my best to hide certain feelings because it's a door opened that might invite pain in...But for the most part...I'm very open as to how I feel...and for showing it as well..Most of the time my mouth opens stuff just spews out before I can get a hold on it... There are those that you

First Auction
I am going to hold my first auction. I am going to try to get at least 10 people to start. I will be starting this on July 6th. I will need 25,000 fubucks and a link to the pic you would like to use and also a list of offers. send me a private message if your interested.

Turning 21
What I'd like for my birthday is to spend the day with Ashton but I don't for see that happening.....damn work schedule... Other then that I want gas money for my car. Please copy and fill out the following. Name: Age: Height: Gender: Why you want to be my pillow: Do you also make a good chair and/or blanket?: I'll be turning 21 on July 23rd this year. My friends want to know what I want for my birthday. Do I want to go to the gay bar, get trashed and watch the drag shows like Kim did? Do I want to go to clubbing and get fucked up like Brandon? I have no idea. I'm a pretty boring person and don't go out very much but I want to do something kick ass for my 21st. So any suggestions people?

Fucked Up Shit People Do
DADDY IT HURTS! THIS IS A TRUE STORY!! My name is Chris I am three My eyes are swollen I cannot see I must be stupid I must be bad What else could have made My daddy so mad? I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly Then maybe my Mommy Would still want to hug me I can't do NO wrong I can't speak at all Or else I'm locked up All day long When I'm awake I'm all alone The house is dark My folks aren't home When my Mommy does come home I'll try and be nice So maybe I'll just get One whipping tonight I just heard a car My daddy is back From Charlie's bar I hear him curse My name is called I press myself Against the wall I try to hide From his evil eyes I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry He finds me weeping Calls me ugly words He says its my fault He suffers at work He slaps and hits me And yells at me more I finally get free And run to the door He has already locked it And I start to bawl He takes me and throws me Against the hard wall I f

So You Wanna Own Me???
I am up for auction with Sultry...so come place your bids now!!! Auction will end July 21st!! Just click this link and go to my pic and comment me with your bid :) Much love and good luck to yall!!! *Kisses* Yall need to GO BID...it's the last day to own me!!! Show me your love...You can Use Bling packs, VIPS, HH, and Blasts as well for bidding...and I do love the fubucks...so come spoil me and Bid HIGH!! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=709063&albumid=1112465&i=2560742016&idx=5 (Copy and paste the link above into your browser!! )

Forbidden Fruit
Everyone has a tree of forbidden fruit, you may not notice it at first, but its there, calling your name , until one day you turn to look at it, hanging there looking soooo ripe and beautiful. You walk over to it, wanting to taste it, but you know it not right. So you walk away making it through another day. Only to awaken with it calling once again. So you walk over and touch it, then taste it only with your tongue, mmmm so sweet, so you bite it and as the juices flow down your throat, you close your eyes enjoying the pleasure of its taste and feel until its gone.you walk away and all the while need and wanting more. Trying to get through the nights, but its in your system so deep it consumes you. Having you in the middle of the night needing the next taste, and with every bite stealing your soul, your mind until it controls your every move, want every waking moment until you can no longer think for yourself. Losing more and more of you, what is the name of this forbidden fruit, I sp

Tat Shots Needed!
Send me pics of your tattoos...I'm starting an album of other's ink and would LOVE for all of my friends to be included! Yeah I know, this isn't a blog...but hell, you read it right?? HA HA Love Ya's, Lil

If You Get Me Drunk
if you get me drunk i tend to show better pics its up to you the sooner i get to lvl 5 i can make mums and make more friends and post more pics that all of you enjoy so help me out please. ty sooooo much

Sexual Zodiac
Your Sex Sign is... You're fiery, independent, and the best anyone's ever had. You're so hot that you drive everyone wild with sexual frustration. You're a total star when you're on top, but you also need to be impressed in bed. Aries, you are headstrong, spolied, fiery in temperment, and fiercely independent. You always want to be the best anyone's ever had, and you'll spend all night convincing your lover that you are. Don't worry - you usually are the best anyone has ever had. When you get down, you don't leave out anything. Sexually, you're a leader and very sure of yourself. One of your favorite positions is being on top, where you can move freely - while letting your lover observe you orgasm. Sex with you is always exciting. You start with teasing, playful seduction - that always drives your lovers wild with frustration. You always deliver though! You love being over powered, and you respond to a strong sexual appetite with equal fervor. The co

29 Jul
It's weird i feel kind of wired, yet kind of bummed. Another freakin day at work, went a little better then yesterday. still felt a little depressing though. i think i know y. i really miss someone special and until i have them then i wont feel any better.

My Sister
I come from a very close family. On Christmas 2003 I went to pick her up to take her to the bid family get together. When I got there the door was a jar I know her husband of three years would never go but I was soon to find out why. As I approached the kitchen I heard a whimpering coming from the kitchen closet. Its was locked I shouted “who in there” all I heard was crying and “ I am sorry I wont do it again”. I broke the door open to find my sister 9 months pregnant beaten to a pulp stripped of every stitch of clothe on her. I asked, “ Who did this” she said her husband because she wasn’t a good wife. So I gathered all her belongings and took her to my house. I was in the finishing process of building a new house next to a female counselor and she agreed to counsel my sister. I turns out he had been raping her with and beating her with a baseball bat every day or their 3 year marriage. So I took her in and she is still receiving counseling. She still feels guilty of being a “b

Adventures In Nipsy Land
*Disclaimer* the following is what NOT to do when putting together a futon. The search began weeks ago, when I finally decided, yea, I need a damn bed. I havent slept in an actual bed since early December 2007, so it was time. My actual bedroom became the problem when looking though. The damn dimensions in here are crazy, when you add in the fact the closet sticks out about 2 feet, and the window and radiator take up the other wall. Someday I would like to meet the idiot who did that. It just so happened on the same day I decide this, Walmart puts up those nice big futons they didn't have months ago. The matress is pretty close to being a queen, nice and thick too, and best of all, it will fit in my room. Buying it was a chore, they had two left in the place, and I was standing by waiting for that kid with the pull cart, when an older gentleman and two college boys came over. He wanted both futons, and I jokingly said "Sorry, one of those is mine". He asked if I had paid

Moving Day
I move into my new apartment today and i am so stressed out. cause i have to pack still and get everything down tonight omg. I hate moving with a passion but at the same time my new apartment is the shit and i am so excited to have my new place..WISH ME LUCK

Yup
im really going to have to learn to stop making myself available to people who dont truly care about me. they feed me lip service and it makes me feel like theres something there. however, when i think about it, its truly not going to work, whatever the relationship between that person and i is. ive been feeling kinda crappy today and despite how petty and emo this sounds, i felt like it better to let it out somewhere rather than just keeping it bottled up. im going to have to say goodbye to these people. im really not sure whats made me stay near them for this long. maybe its the hope that they really do mean what they say or maybe its just the fear of beng left alone. either way, this isnt healthy or helpful to me at all. i feel a little better

Darkness
For what is it in a dream If not the subconscious coming through Be it sensuous and steam or something entirely new So what does it mean When the blood runs red And lives do lean As I lie safely in bed The lives of others lie in my hand As my blades are amber stained Bodies cover the land With absolutly nothing gained Is my life turning dark That death is what I grant To watch the leaving of the spark As my victums lie aslant What is my life That I want to kill To live by the knife For the ultimate thrill!!!! Written By Joe Purcell Lonewolf

From Baby Jesus Blog
Major Stash and MUMM changes coming soon... post date: 2008-09-10 05:23:59 views: 2559 comments: 264 ratings: 0 hey everyone, STASH: in the next week or 2 i'll be moving the Stash to some new equipment. instead of trying to get all the old stuff onto the new gear, we're just going to start fresh. once we move to the new equipment, the old stash entries will be gone forever. if you have anything important in your Stash that you'd like to keep, go into your stash, edit the entry, cut & paste it and mail it to yourself. when the new stash is live, you can then cut & paste the old items into the new stash and you'll be set. in addition to running on new equipment, i'm going to tweak some of the settings on the Stash's so that we can add more features to it later. one of these changes will be reducing the number of total stash entries you can have on your account. it will be a small number, probably around 15 to 25. the idea is to keep the important/good stuff in it and le

Old And Foreign Coins
I collect of old coins, messed up or coins with mistakes and foreign coins. if anyone has or knows of anyone with old or foreign money they would like to give, sell or trade please let me know. just trying to advance my search. thanks again. just private messege me.

Unbelievable. Lol
Let me begin by saying not everyone I've met down here is like this. I don't want any NC fuckers bitching @ me about how offensive I am. But....come on.... "Wow....that's a strange accent. Where are you from?" My response: "I'm from New York, On Long Island. And I'll insist till the day I die that everyone else has the accent, not I." I chuckled a bit and smirked, trying to be as pleasant as possible while being faced with a question I hear at least once a day for the last two years. He listened intently to my answer then paused for a moment, tipping his head slightly and staring at me like a lost dog before finally speaking.... "Oh, you surely are far from home. How does it feel to be livin here on the east coast now? Must be God awful hard to get used to, I reckon" He then nodded a bit, completely self-assured in himself, before turning his head to the left and spitting (Oh so attractively I might add) on the ground next to him. I, on the other hand was taken a

Randomness...
Free I want to go to places unknown, to experience what isn’t seen. To go to areas only dreamt of, told in only children’s stories. Trees of the most splendorous green and mountains with fields yet untamed. To see all manner of beast, and fowl, of the land and sea. All things hidden by rules of imagination and only perceived in a dream. To visit places untold and find treasures unfound, lost in a world of make believe. Finding cities amidst the clouds, of gold and silver, gleaming with the sun. To know that I can find these things in anything other than a dream. Realizing that I cannot be governed by gravity, to, for once and for all, be FREE. My place is not here on Earth as it is for everyone else. I am different, I am me. I belong in the air, with the wind blowing in my face. The sky all around me, its magnificent splendor, in divine majesty. To know that to come down is a choice and not a requirement, only governed by myself and no one else. To find that one place of superi

My Work
Like a soldier freshly striken with war I leap in the night for fear. Replaying horrific memories that rebreak my heart as they waltz in and stumble through my mind. Every feeling just as intense as if it was all was happening once more. Living then reliving never losing its horrid betrayal or unseeming form in my mind or heart. I fall asleep tragicly and waken tradgicly to a never-ending circle. The cycle repeats then rewinds and repeats again if not in my memories thenin my dreams, never leaving me at rest. The sweetest pleasures haunting my dreams that never once occupied my memories have become a night-long nightmare, the unpleasantries that never occurred but are possible if I return. An agonizing search within myself that seems to never end. The hopelessness, the loss felt so deeply, like a war-torn soldier I fight without ammonition against the tragedies of love..... It is funny how we go through our whole lives searchin for some sort of dream (ie. the american dream,

My Doctor Appointment
Well the doctor went and amputated my leg today. I am only joking. There was no amputation at all. They did tell me I no longer need my brace . As long as I am in the house. If I go anywhere outside then I need it. I think thats great. I still am not ready for driving. I couldn't hit the brake quick if needed. But I got the brace off. And thats great to me. I have just went to the doctors on Oct, 3rd. He has me walking again on both feet. Although I am still in the brace. I am also still useing a walker to. And getting around kind of quick. That was a surprise. Every bone in my foot feels like it could snap. Even though there is not actual pain involved. Just a lot of crack and pops . Well I had another doctor appointment. They took the 1st step in setting the brace so it can bend. Although they see no bone browth. So I don't know how bad of a thing that is. Can't be good though. I'll keep ya's updated .

Boyfriend Application
Name Whats your birthday/age Height Hair color Eye color Piercings/Tats If no, do you want any? Do you drink? Do you smoke? Do you do drugs? What is your best quality? What kind of music do you like? Do you like kids/want any of your own? How do you feel about marriage? Where do you work? Do you go to school? what is your living situation? Do you prefer cats, dogs, or other pets? What do you like to do in your free time? What do you think is my best quality? Are you Spontaneous? Are you afraid of commitment? Are you romantic or affectionate? What's your idea of a good first date? What movies/TV shows do you like? Have you ever cheated? Why did your last relationship fail? Do you like to dance? What do you look for in a girl? Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Are you honest? Do you enjoy sarcasm? How do you feel about religion? How do you feel about politics? Whats your worst

Pet Peaves...
I've been jealous myself over silly little things...I think it's a natural emotion that we all have...For some though...it becomes a sickness...One that controls a persons actions...Which is a shame...These people I feel sorry for... And on-line...Oh the trouble it causes...The feelings that get hurt...The friendships that are broken...And for what?...An emotion that a person has let get the better of them... I find myself not leaving comments on certain peoples pages because it seems to step on someones toes...I think that is just downright bogus...But..to keep things peaceful..And I'm not out to hurt anyones feelings...I won't leave a comment... Some say that this isn't real...Well it certainly is...People are real...Emotions are real...And because of that...Respecting the feelings of any person should be dealt with the same way as you would with your friends outside of any website... Although...I have a hard time respecting a person that uses their jealousy to control th

The Perfect Person
Ever notice people seem to be always searching for that one "perfect person"?do you think anyone really knows what perfect is anyway? Ya cant tell it if they do!!. It seems every one looks for that perfect person and when they think that they have found them, the first order of action seems to always be the same. Take your perfect person then try to change them and mold them into someone that they are not. Now second, once you have this person molded into someone that is totally different than the person that attracted you in the first place, tell them your leaving because "they have changed".It really doesnt seem all so hard to simply accept people for who they are, if you dont like who they are stay away from them to start with!! Hell ,seems so simple dont it?Should be but its just not human nature. People will always try to change you to better suit them, but please, remember this "the best suit for you, is the suit that suits you best".

Names
I know its early but got the names down for the baby if a boy it will be Joshua Matthew and for a girl Jobanna Elizabeth i pick the boy name and glen pick the girls name i know we will have boy lol tell me what you all think about the names are they good names If its a girl will be Candyce Elizabeth and still the some for the boy Joshua Matthew

One Day When I Got Shitty Pissed And Allmost Commited Fusuicide......
ok people Fn Un-holy Can't taKe it anY mOre Up in here. Love Me, Hate Me... personaly I don't care Ok so i have been on fu for a little over a year now and i've met a lot of people on here and sadly there is only a handfull i could even call friends and the rest of them i've met are FAKE AS FUCK ! you know who you are asshats! so on that note i've decided to delete my account. now personaly i don't care if someone wants me to stay on here or not because i have Real things to take care in LIFE ... now let me point out something to you , you see the words in caps there .... well that is what some people on here seem to forget about sometimes REAL LIFE. most live in a fantasy world and sadly this year i got to witness one of my good friends i met on here do just that. He spent his every waking hour on here and even his sleeping hours and i used to tell him all the time " Hey man you know there is real people out there walking around that you can talk to with out clicking a lin

Short Stories Oct/08
Claudia Ryan gazed over the sound stage looking in vain for Aldo Marchetti. "Christ, Joan," Claudia questioned her chief assistant, Joan Walker, "didn't you tell Harry to make sure that Aldo would be an extra during this shoot!?!" Joan staring at the nearly empty sound stage herself replied quickly, "Of course I did, I practically made Harry sign a blood oath that he would have Aldo here for the entire shoot, I have no idea where he is!" "Goddam it," spat Claudia, "get Harry on the fucking phone and find out for me, I'm not gonna do one scene until he's here, got it!?!" Joan nodded her head and made a beeline for the phone back in Claudia Ryan's trailer, and while it was only eight in the morning Claudia had already given her a splitting headache! "Do this, do that," she thought grimly, "why can't the old bat do something on her own for a change, you'd think her leg was broken by the way she acted!" Joan dialed Harry's number, and in a few moments he was on the phone. "Well," he greete

I Got A Lot Of Learning And Growing Up To Do
Hey everyone I'm just gonna cut it straight to the point. I'm a smart person, but at my age, I don't know much of anything. People younger than me know more than I do. That's saying something. I need to get off internet chatting and pick up a book and start reading and improving my vocabulary and knowledge, because I'm way far behind for my age, and I need to change extremely bad. And if people telling me that I'm nice, but boring, that also saying something, but I shouldn't listen to that. And when I got some women at church not liking me or afraid of me for some reason, that means it's time for me to take some classes on women and relationships, cause the way I am right now is not doing me any good. And even my own manager telling me that I get sidetracked and have trouble focusing and times me whenever I find stuff, and cut my hours down, that means I have a lot of work to do with myself. And when I got people not responding to my message or comments that I've sent th

Divided You Stand, Divided You Fall
First and foremost I am just an outsider looking in. I spent 4 years at an American University where I heard differing opinions on a lot of things from republicans and democrats. I've come to this conclusion: It is not united we stand divided we fall. It is divided you stand divided you fall. Now this blog might piss a lot of people off and that's fine, everyone is entitled to their own opinion just as I am voicing mine right now. Here's the big question: If no one was registered anything, would there still be so much division in the US? If Bill wasn't registered democrat and Susie wasn't registered Republican you just voted for whoever you wanted and it didn't matter if it was republican or democrat, would so many people be saying "he's not my president"? Or people booing the other candidate. Another question is, do you even know why you don't like the other candidate? Or is it just because the other candidate isn't from your party? And be honest with yourself when you ask that ques

Something About You
I don't know how to explain it, If only you could truly see, How much I really care for you, How much you mean to me. I look forward to seeing you every day, The grin that belongs only to you, When I see you I can't help but smile, There is just something about you. When you put your hand in mine, My heart suddenly beats faster, I wish I could tell you right then and there, That my life could never be better. When you wrap your arms around me, For a simple, gentle hug, I want to stay in that moment forever, And tell you how much you really are loved. When we gradually come close enough together, Our lips touch, a kiss, Nothing around us seems to matter, Because there is nothing sweeter than this. No words could ever express how much you mean to me, I hope you have these feelings for me, too; I can't figure out just what it is, But there is definitely something very special about you.

My Job
If it had been presented this way, I don't believe any of us would have done it !!!! POSITION : Mom, Mommy, Mama, Ma JOB DESCRIPTION : Long term, team players needed, for challenging permanent work in an, Often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities! Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties also required. RESPONSIBILITIES : The rest of your life. Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily, until someone needs $5. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, th

The Fairy Train
Are You A FAN OF FAIRIES? Anyone and everyone is welcome to join! You DO NOT have to LIKE FAIRIES BUT THIS IS A GOOD WAY TO MAKE FRIENDS JUST join this train!!! Rate all the FAIRY PICS. Start with this picture: Comment the last picture--this way I know you've rated all.... Fan, Add, and Rate all the train riders. If they're already your friend, then leave them a comment like "I LOVE FAIRIES" or "Joining the FAIRY train." When you're done F/A/R/C everyone on the bulletin.. send a private message to me: DJ Chocolate Bunny **Owned by ~Tee~ Owner OF THE BBW LOVERS~The Click Club~~Sarg@ fubar and I will make you a personal tag like the one below. SO LET THE FUN BEGIN... Are You A FAN OF FAIRIES? Anyone and everyone is welcome to join! You DO NOT have to LIKE FAIRIES BUT THIS IS A GOOD WAY TO MAKE FRIENDS JUST join this train!!! Rate all the FAIRY PICS. Start with this picture: Comment the last picture--this way I k

Bipolar Disorder
WELL THIS WEEK HAS JUST BEEN HELL SO FAR...CAN'T SLEEP FOR NOTHING AND ALL THE VOICES WANT TO COME OUT AND PLAY...SOME I CAN HANDLE BUT SOME GET REALLY BAD...I HAVE ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH THIS WEEK AND IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY (WELL WORSE..LOL)...THERE'S TIMES WHEN I JUST WANT TO GLUE MY EYELIDS SHUT TO GET SOME SLEEP THEN THERE'S TIMES I JUST WANT TO SIT IN THE CORNER WITH A KNIFE AND DARE ANYONE TO COME NEAR ME...IT'S NOT ALL BAD REALLY...I'VE HAD BIPOLAR SINCE I WAS 8 OR 9 SO I'M KINDA USED TO THE STUFF THAT GOES ON BUT WHEN MEMBERS OF YOUR FAMILY OR A FRIEND IS SICK OR DYING THINGS COME UP WORSE AND ARE REALLY SCAREY...THE GOOD THING ABOUT IT IS THAT IF FAMILY MEMBERS WORSEN I'M ALWAYS UP AND READY TO GO AND I'M MORE FOCUSED...I KNOW IT'S CRAZY AND I KNOW I'M JUST RAMBLING...ACTUALLY JUST LETTING MY FINGERS TYPE..SO IF THIS MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL SORRY...WELL I'M GONNA GET OFF THIS BLOG CAUSE I COULD GO ON FOR DAYS AND BORE THE CRAP OUT OF YA...LATER BIPOLAR IS ONE OF THESE DISORDERS THA

My New Rap
commin up in the midwest ,no need to impress but gangstas around here still rep their sets gang signs close to chest ,and the police dont come to my hood cuz its well understood bullets used chew thru they vest if they get balls enuff to test leave em a ugly mess no preachers to call when they fall so the ground remains unblessed gotta death wish there be one less, watch what names you drop when u get nabbed to confess cuz in the midwest still no need to impress gangsigns twisted up kissed and placed on the chest and here in the chi we just gettin by souless bastards leavin bodies left right where they lye dont worry about me im pledged in the streets so i,ll never die and i can,t be beat stay on my feet ......still the only limit is the sky throw gas lite bottles at cars of my enimies as they go drivin by so knowin this ask yourself is it really worth standin in my way of my only means to survive......in the midwest no reason 2 impress roll thru the hood get mad dogged by gangstas th

Drastically Alter Your Course In Business
Hey fubar members, Today I have a very important message for you that will DRASTICALLY alter your course in fubar marketing. I have a message for you that can SERIOUSLY put you head and shoulders above most fubar marketing out there who are still bumbling around this industry using 'out dated' and useless tactics. Do you know what that message is? It's this...if you want to have advantages that 99.9% of the fubar members out there DON'T have...then you need to develop skills that 99.9% of the fubar members out there don't have. And point blank...there is NO area you could develop more profitable skills then within TECHNOLOGY friends Technology is changing the way network marketing is being done, and the people who REALLY understand how to use technology to market their businesses are going to profit obscenely off these new and rising trends. It's time you learn how to start using technology to grow your own fubar business to no end... A good fri

Bdsm May Be Nsfw
This is a compiled list from many sources and you may agree or disagree with these.. just ideas. I did NOT write this.. only sharing, but was not given the source. If you know the source, please post it in a comment. Thanks! 101 ideas to make Your sub/slave feel Owned (i.e. loved) One of the main factors, for me in feeling truly Owned is to be constantly reminded throughout the day of Master's control. These reminders can be subtle or really obtrusive (heheheh). The more often a slave is reminded of her submission, the deeper it becomes....and the more fulfilling. So here are some ideas you might want to try... And no matter what rules you decide to make your own, please....be consistent. If you are unwilling to take the time to enforce the rules you make, then there may as well be no rules at all. There is nothing in the world that will make a slave feel less loved than to have a Master/Mistress who ignores her transgressions and does not exert their Dominance. 1. Ha

Friend's Don't Let Friend's Walk Alone....
Friend's don't let friend's walk alone they stand beside them and be strong, Through the good times and the bad my friend's never have to be sad. I am there to protect them , I am there to help them. And I would never betray them. I tell them all how I feel because the love I share is that real. Friend's don't friend's get walked on or put down, because without friend's the world would not go round. Friend's don't let friend's get run over, And trust me I am no push over. I stick by my friend's 100%. Just because that's what friend's are for. Friend's don't let friend's walk alone because we can't make it on our own. I am a true just ask and you'll see. I don't let my friend's walk alone we walk side by side and hand in hand because that's how my friend's mean to me. I don't let them get mistreated and they do the same for me, And I take the time to think about how much my friend's mean to me. As long as I can still breathe I will say this forever. Friend's don't let f

Thanks For The Memories
Standing there feeling the warmth of the fire from the fireplace on her skin-- she couldnt help but smile at the memories that were flooding her mind. She recalled the night Riley slipped his arms lightly around her waist, standing right here, pulling her close.The smile that spread across her face grew even wider as she remembered the feel of his warm lips against her skin as he kissed her neck.Her eyes closed- her head thrown back, she allowed him to continue kissing her neck. It felt good to lean against his strong body while his hands traveled effortlessly across her. Her nipples instantly grew hard as his fingers lightly touched them thru the sheer silky fabric of her blouse. A gasp escaped her lips when she felt him pinch and gently tug on her right nipple. Biting her lower lip -she turned to face him. No words were spoken. They just stood there for a moment, looking into each others eyes, letting the desire grow stronger. The way Riley was looking at her sent delicious chills o

Let it go for 2009.. There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19] People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got t

Originally Posted On My Myspace Account In June 08'
Note: originally posted on my myspace page June of 2008 Allright, so the cath went ok. I did have one stent installed in a blocked artery and angioplasty to enlarge another that was too narrow for a stent. Only one real scary thing in the whole deal and that was in recovery when they have to put pressure when they pull out the applicator, which looks sort of like a big syringe. Well I had been laying still for about an hour and was starting to freak out a bit already. I can't stay still for that long on my back. So they gave me loratabs and a shot of morphine. He pulled back and said "uh oh, it's swelling". Not good. Well he put basically his entire frame on my incision and I came out of the bed even on the morphine. So another big shot of morphine and a xanax later and I was ok. Private room for the night with shit hanging all off me and nurse checks for BP and blood every couple hours. All in all it wasn't too bad. I just got the Account summary yesterday. forty f

What Should I Do?
I add and rate all the time but don't get the same rates and reponses back. So I am wondering....Where is all the FU love ??? Should I STOP being so quick to add and rate ? This is my first blog so be gentle on me...if this is even a blog...lol

Life As We Know It
~SO FAR INT HE DISTANCE... I SEE YOU STANDING THERE... YOUR EYES GLARING TOWARD ME... I CAN FEEL YOUR BREATH ON ME... BUT YET YOU ARE SO FAR AWAY... I SMILE AT YOU... BUT YOU DONT SMILE BACK... I LEAN FORWARD TO TOUCH YOU... BUT YOU LET ME FALL... I STAND UP ON MY OWN TWO FEET... WITHOUT HELP FROM YOU... I GAZE BACK AT YOU AND SMIRK... FOR YOU THOUGHT I COULDNT MAKE IT WITHOUT YOU... WELL I PROVED YOU WRONG... CUZ HERE I AM... NO LONGER BY YOUR SIDE... NO LONGER IN LOVE WITH YOU... NEVER GONNA TAKE YOU BACK... CUZ BABY YOU JUST LOST THE BEST THING THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN TO YOU... ~the pain i feel inside is like no other... crawling through my veins like a spider... i wish i could take back what was done... but reality prevents me from doing so ~did you ever feel like a thousand knives were stabbing every vital organ in your body??? or feel like someone was blocking off your wind pipe without them every physically doing so??? ~dreams seem so far away. every t

Kiss Me Arse!
I am an artistic and unique individual. I believe my skills in drawing and painting will broaden my horizon for becoming successful. I feel a great amount of honor when creating my art, because such talent isn't abundant. My ability ranges greatly and I can finish with speed and persition. Everyone who knows me understands how much I love art and the concept of the study. In the real world it's very hard to get the respectable recognition. Getting your artwork out into the public requires getting individuals to depend on getting showing together to view artwork. Art expresses my individuality and makes me realize who I really am. I'm just your average 19 year old girl who lives in the only town in PA. I dream the future, work hard to get by, and my family and a few friens help me along the road. I just live my life day by day, try not to have a care in the world, but care about everything. I put other's before myself and happiness is what I strive for. I get to know someone before I ma

About Me...
~ hmm dont you just love these little "about me" sections...lol where do I begin? ok I am one of those confusing females who never know what they want...always difficult, undecided and take too long on everything...LOL...I am married with 3 wonderful kids and spend most of my time being a mom and a wife..I dont have alot of time for internet so when I Do get a chance to sit down and relax it is GREAT!! a few of my interests: ~ music ~ movies ~ tattoos ~ piercings ~ cuddling ~ reading ~ writing poetry ~ shopping ~ spending time with my kids, family and friends ~ outdoors stuff ~ clubs ~ concerts ~ the internet ~ talking on the phone ~ cooking ~ driving ~ video games ~ sleeping ~ anything paranormal or unexplained ~ photography ~ art ~ gardening ~ Music I like: *~ ICP ~* *~ TWIZTID ~* *~ Kottonmouth Kings ~* *~ tech n9ne ~* *~ boondox ~* *~ tool ~* *~ a perfect circle ~* *~ slipknot ~* *~ avenged sevenfold ~* *~ pantera ~* *~ crossfad

February 26th 2009
I am sure by the time I'm finished with this fucking blog it'll be the 26th. I thought I'd bitch some before I went to bed to get some stuff off my chest. Lots of about me in here which is always the case in most blogs. My heart grows very weary cause of a year without having anybody special in my life. Lots of fears going through me especially during these cold days and nights. Tired as hell of all this cold weather and dreading going out and about. 24/7 coverage of how depressing people are without jobs. How the country as a whole should pretty much declare bankruptcy because if they were a private business they wouldn't have lasted a year of this dread. In my own personal life its dead. I hope to revive my positivity once summer hits. Maybe being out and about on the beach will get some of this money problems out of our soulless hearts. How we focus on money 24/7 is so scary. Its just one thing and its just the cornerstone of everything capitalism. Any who! I can't ch

Thoughts Of A Mad Man
PLEASE DONT JUDGE ME!!!! I HAVE SAT AND THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR WAY TO LONG . TO LONG IN SILIENCE SO I MUST SPEAK IT OUT LOUD. HOW CAN YOU JUDGE ME FOR MY THOUGHTS ACTIONS OR EVEN MY DAMEANER. YET YOU HAVE THOUGHT THE SAME THINGS I HAVE THOUGHT . YET YOU HAVE DONE ALOT OF THE THINGS I HAVE DONE . AND YET I DONT JUDGE OR LOOK DOWN ON YOU . WHY IS THAT . WHY DO YOU JUDGE ME FOR ASKING IS THIS GOD WE ALL TALK ABOUT REAL? OR WHY I DECIDE TO SIT IN THE DARK? YOU HAVE NEVER SAT IN THE DARK OF YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD AND FELT SAFE? REALLY I DO NOT BELIEVE ANY PERSON CAN SAY THEY HAVE NOT SAT THERE AND FELT SAFE AND COMFORTABLE!! THATS JUST TO HARD TO BELIEVE FOR I AM HUMAN AND I DO IT MYSELF? YOU JUDGE ME FOR NOT KNOWING THINGS IN LIFE I SHOULD OR YOU SEEM TO THINK I SHOULD . YET YOU KNOW NOT ALL I KNOW OR YOU WOULD KNOW WHAT I FEEL! YET YOU JUDGE ME! YOU GO ABOUT YOUR DAY IN YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD NOT KNOWING WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE PERSON'S NEXT TO YOU. YET YOU JUDGE THEM!! WHAT IF THEY JUDGE

Personal Bouncers
So.. Im wondering if anyonelse gets " YOUR PHOTO HAS BEEN MARKED NSFW" and it completely shocks you. Im sayin... in the actual album NAME.. it says... "Some NSFW...Easily Offended Need Not Enter"... and still.. someone goes in... some... "Easily Offended" individual... and then REPORTS a fuggin picture as "NSFW" So then you have to go through all your pictures and try and figure out which one might offend anyone in a world of people (who by the way continuously offend me)... whom which are EASILIY OFFENDED themselves. Is that confusing? Following me? DO I NEED A PERSONAL BOUNCER at my DOOR?? Do I REALLY have to explain that there are real life insanely confused people who might wear purple robes that resemble the KKK's attire... satin purple, mind you. They happen to be Jewish (which incase anyone doesn't know... there ARE Jewish people in the world)... some of which are Homosexual (those exsist also).. and they're POSING... actually POSING for this picture. Someone finds the

Free 2 Pc Kfc Meal
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Claiming
I take her and make my mark as the pack leader of wolves makes his mark upon his chosen mate. I fight and conquer any male or beast to protect her. Firmly holding her neck, she feels the thrust of a rocketship. Rocketships continually take off with major thrursts. The pack of wolves gather around in a circle. Her eyes roll into the back of her head. She shakes as if having convulsions. Sweat flies off both. Unable to determine where one's skin ends and the other's begin. Then the mushroom capped rocketship becomes a massive Roman candle. Massive muscle. (Work in progress.)

Nipples
So Sean and I started watching this show Carm School with Ricki Lake. When the show first started we each picked a girl we thought would last the longest... My girl is K.O. HOWEVER.... when Sean chose his girl we didn't know their names and the girl he chose has piercings in her dimples, so he said "I'll choose Nipples" Geeeee what do you think he was thinking???? LMAO!

Wow!!!
I WANT TO TAKE THIS TIME TO THANK YOU ALL FOR HELPING ME GET SO CLOSE TO ORACLE...I'VE GOT THE BEST FRIENDS ON FU, I HAD FRIEND BLING ME, PIMP ME OUT, RATE ME, BOMB ME, PIMP ME OUT IN THEIR STATUS' SEND THEIR FRIENDS TO HELP ME, ALL THE BOMBERS...I CAN'T PUT INTO WORDS THE GRATITUDE I HAVE FOR ALL THE LOVE SHOWN TO ME YESTERDAY...I HAVE 3.5 MILLION TO GO TO ORACLE, NOW IT DOESN'T SEEM SO FAR OUT OF REACH THANKS TO YOU ALL...

Any Nice Ladys Out There
hi all my names ryan , was just curious if there are any kool down to earth ladys out there . im also lookin for friends , you can never have too many of those :P well hmm i guess thats it for now :) hope to hear from sum 1 sumtimre

Fu Weather Forcast!!
Fu Weather forcast..... Warm Hugs and Scattered Kisses for TODAY.... Temps HOT and STEAMY... Friendly BREEZES picking up and BLOWING kisses through the EVENING..... SHOWERS of Love expected OFF and ON The good thing about mistakes...... There better than REGRETS....... :)

Friends
It's another time to clean things up a bit...first, so called "friends"...well, quite a few more when down the shitter. I wonder who's next? I can't clean out "fan"s... but what good is it that you're a "fan", and you don't even fucking say hello? What the fuck is that? Game or not...it's fucking stupid. All that have gotten the axe, fucking deserve it. Well, I just cleaned house a bit. Deleted a number of "so-called" friends. Found out I'm nothing more than a fucking notch in their "fubar belt". I don't do that to people. If they ask to be friends, then I allow them to be, with the expectations of communications, etc. Well, that hasn't taken place with them, and I'm keeping my eye on some others that I have kept. If they prove to be nothing more than ratings whores, then they'll go down the shitter too. This is fucking ridiculous. If you ask to be a friend, it's with the knowledge you wish to communicate and keep in touch. Not those I deleted, and so far- not the ones I'm keeping my e

My First Dirty Story Part 1
I have been having this reoccuring dream for the past few months. Where I am sleeping in my bed and this stranger comes up to my bed and watches me. During my dream I can see what this stranger is doing. He begins to pull back the sheets and he stares at my naked body. I begin to roll to my side so all he sees is my back. For now the sheets just cover me from the waist down. The mysterious stranger begins to lean onto my bed and out streching his hand. I begin to feel his hand glide up my back and gently rub my lower back and side. But I still lay there still and motionless believing I was alone. The stranger begins to climb into my bed. At this time my stranger starts to rub my back and slides his hand around my waitst. I can feel his hands circling my breast. I begin to roll over onto my back. I was beginning to want more. As I start to stir in my sleep, I help my mysterious stranger with arousing me. I reached for his other hand and placed it upon my thigh. I could f

This Is Kinda Fun
What she doesn't know will kill you by Matt Brochu November 21, 2003 You met her a few months ago, and somehow she managed to seep into your subconscious like that "Suga how you get so fly" song. Just like you have no clue who the hell sings it, you don't know why she's there. But she is, whether you like it or not. You know her cell phone, her room phone. You can dial her Aunt Doreen's house in West Springfield (where she goes to do her laundry every two weeks) faster than you can peck-out 911. But she doesn't know. Her screenname, that generic one with her first name followed by three to five random numbers or UMass, has its own category at the top of your buddy list. Not only do you know what a "Buddy Alert" is, you've rigged your computer to play "Fat Guy in a Little Coat" from "Tommy Boy" every time her screen name changes from gray to black. Then her away message comes down, and you have a decision to make. To IM or not to IM? These are the ridiculous games that

Rainwolf
I am really happy, cause I lost 22 pounds already. YAY! We've been seeing what you wanted, Got us cornered right now Falling asleep from our vanity May cost us our lives I hear them getting closer Their howls are sending chills down my spine And time is running out now, They're coming down the hills from behind When we start killing It's all coming down right now From the nightmare we've created I want to be awakened somehow (Wanna be awakened right now) When we start killing It all will be falling down From the hell that we're in All we are is fading away When we start killing We've been searching on and on But there's no trace to be found It's like they all have just vanished But I know they're around I feel them getting closer Their howls are sending chills down my spine And time is running out now They're coming down the hills from behind When we start killing It's all coming down right now From the nightmare we've created I want to be awakened somehow (Wanna be awakened righ

Too Damn Much Politics
I am getting sick and tired of people in Mumms telling me how wrong I am because I dont see the natural wonder of the conservative wing of the Republican Party. Yesterday I was attacked as thinking that I was smarter than the attacker because I was a Democrat. Following was my answer: My friend, I am smarter and better educated, more insightful, better read and probably taller, funnier and better looking. I suspect I make a better omelet have a better car and trim my toenails with more precision. I am a better pilot, swimmer and have more underwear than you do (although that one is subject to an audit that I dont chose to conduct.) I have a better sense of introspection, better diagnostic skills and a top spin serve that would mop you up. I also dont define everything in terms of politics. Nice talking, once again.

Snobby Fuckers
ill make this short and sweet its not like anybody gonna read this anyway lol.but reason im leaving this shithole of a thing called fubar is cause u snobby ass ppl.unless ur some half dressed slut or got plenty of money to blow on here they have nuttin to do with you.im not only 1 who belives this.only reason ive held on this long is for a very i mean very few ppl on here but anyway i might pop in once ina while to check on those few ppl and just keep my page up just for them but rest of u fuckers can kiss my big fat ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Oh My
So, I'm still fighting this flu, and its really annoying, but fuck it. Woke up to a decent snow fall again, and they are calling for more later on today. My son was in full force of making getting ready for school a pain in the ass this morning. I think he was sent here to Earth to test my willpower. But I love him for it, as crazy as that sounds. I just heard a strange noise from over by my daughter, and lo and behold, she is coloring the carpet with a crayon! Resolve was nothing but fail, at trying to remove crayon, so I need to figure out how to get it out....ugh. I think this will be a fun week, especially considering the way things have started. I live the High Life...do you?

My Old Frnds
2 all my old frnds plz send frnd requst my old profile was deleted n i miss u all dearly,,,so plz help me put 2 get u'all bck as my fam n frnds kisses Kady Grey,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,name on proflie is Grey n id#3694892,,,plzz hurry ,,,,need rates to get goin again

My Own Self Hatred
So here I am, writing of my own personel hell and self loathing. I am now 30 years old and feel tired brokedown and hopeless for the future. First off yes I realize many have it worse than me and many others will say you should be happy to be still alive as many others loose their lives daily. Well my answer to that, Im not alive. Yes I breath, I have a pulse, I even have a career but being alive isnt living. Every day of my life Im in pain, I had a motorcycle accident and planted into the side of a Honda civic at 45 Mph, breaking my wrist and destroying my knee. Since then I have had surgery to repair an 8mm gouge in the cartlage of my knee, removing old rotten cartlage from my knee cap and cleaning up the rest of the inside of my knee which my Dr. described as crab meat and coconut. Its been 2 years since and Im still seeing a specialist and unable to run or barely even walk some days. Now I wish I could just blame my social inadaquacies on this but I know better. My first w

God Didn't Save Your Ass, I Did.
Many of you were born during, or after, the "Cold War". None of you know that the "Cold War", was just as hot as Iraq and Afghanistan. Except we weren't fighting terrorists, who are cowards and shitpiles anyway, due to some jihad. No, we were fighting worldwide annihilation against ORGANIZED, WHOLE FUCKING ARMIES. While you were a baby, or your mom and dad were humping it to create you, myself and others were all over the damn place eliminating threats so you could sleep at night, and not have to wear 5 million sunblock from multiple 350 kiloton nuclear warheads launched by some Soviet (yes, Soviet- not CIS) missile sub or land based silo, or rail based system. You didn't have to practice "duck and cover" (ask your grandparents about Dwight Eisenhower's solution- dig a hole) to protect you in school. So, despite the fall of the Soviet Union, their missiles are still out there, but now free to purchase. Doesn't matter if they are. Because those warheads were, and still are, targeted at

Reflections
Sometimes you think about the many problems that are in your life. You don't want to make them other peoples problem. Depression is a major medical issue. When "checking out" is used, it doesn't mean going to the store. It is the indirect way of saying that you want to die. I admit that I have thought about this exact issue. Isolation, being rejected, lonelinessor just not fitting in could serve as the trigger for this action. Why write this now? It just occurred for me. The desire to checkout. Luckily I have a plan in place to prevent this for occurring. My reason for breaking down is loneliness and depression. Loneliness can occur even when around people. I also have Bi-Polar, Obsessive Compulsive and Attention Deficit w/ hyperactivity. I want to eventually become a Social Worker. I wonder if the depression will kill me before then. Don't ignore phrases like "checking out". A suicidal individual will often not directly tell you of his plans. My friend Roger killed himself. Later

Just Some Random Thoughts...
Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit.

Adult Dating
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My Dark Place Alone
fu-owned i personaly think fu-owned is a very good idea i think it's fun, interesting and a great way to get fubucks and points but i say some people take this game a little too far. for example "oh no someone just bought the person i just bought off of me we'll se about this i'm gonna make sure no one else can aford them" that eliminates the whole point fo the game it's no called fu-owned-by-the-same-person now it it the point of the game is to have fun and stop taking it too far or you spoil it for everyone and just because your bought by someone you don't like dosn't mean you have to beg some one to buy you off of them all it is is someone bought you they don't control you, you havn't got to talk to them tbh for the whole time they own you they might not even say one word to you so chill out a little bit and just enjoy the game for the reason it was originally made newbies it's great you chose to come join fubar but start showing people who were here before you a little respe

Sadness
Tho your many miles away I can still feel you in my dreams is where we meet and for now that will have to do and when I hear your voice my heart longs for you for your touch, for your kiss, for a glimpse of that sparkle in your eye Tho your many miles away I can still feel you in my dreams is where we meet and for now that will have to do and when I see your face my heart skips a beat for your touch, for your kiss, for a glimpse of that sparkle in your eye Without you there is no light Without you there is no dark Without you there is no happiness Without you there no sadness Without you there is no reason Without you there is no rhyme Without you there's only stillness Without you there is no time. Without you I am so empty Without you there is no us Without you there is no future Without a future what's the fuss Without you my life is empty Without you should I continue Without you my life's a mess WITHOUT YOU....... my love will end ... forever This is from my heart, I am crying as

Bobbyrock's New Rhyme-zone
No Telling What I Write......Eminem aint the Only One That Can Write Off The Wall Shit...lol....I'll Write about Anything and Say Anything....I'm Dangerous....lol....But Anyways.....Plz Feel Free Comment if You Wanna Vent Some Writing-Rhymes-Or Just Spit Sumthin..... One Of My Songs I Actually Wrote when I Was 17.Didnt Make Music for it til about a Year ago....Lol...Found it in that Old Show Box Dance of the Misled Hidden in a darkened roomThe Shadowed figures DanceA Masquerade of Life Like DollsWho Have only met by ChanceTheir Dreams and Cups are OverflowingTheir Jewels strung out by liesA Modern Day Ring of ThievesTo Steal away Our CriesDance of the Misled andDance of the Misled-DanceOf the Misled andDance of the MisledWith Hungry Eyes of Riches to comeThey Dance On Through The NightTaking from us All that We OwnAnd Tommorow Wont be in sightThey Want us to see their pleasureAnd long to taste their wineThey hunger for us to give into their waysAnd Dance for them in TimeDance of th

Tis Not The 80s Nomore
We head down to erotic city where we can funk alright Round and round I drive my love machine cuz money don’t matter 2nite, We cream 2 the cross down alphabet street 2 the glam slam All night we dance on doing the housequake and the funk n jam When 2 r in love it is positivity full of temptation Cuz i cant stop this feeling I got 4 prince and the new power generation. So I shake and push in the latest fashion just like melody cool Strollin down like a thunder bolt breaking the biggest rule. The future holds the electric chair 4 your fantasy Or do u lie your delirious from all your ecstasy. I am willing and able to go around the world in a day with crazy u, Its gonna be a beautiful night so why are we so blue Lets pretend we are married cuz i wanna be your lover Baby, my love is forever u know there is no other. So take me with you , im yours, so we can be free

Just Because I Can
If you wouldn't let Clinton baby sit your daughter but do trust the bastard with my freedom, you are a fucking liberal. If you feel the media has a conservative slant, you are a fucking liberal. If you don't think the media has any bias then you work for it and you are a fucking liberal. -- It also means you don't have a clue why you're losing viewers, readers and credibility. Try selling the Truth! It would be more shocking than a Jerry Springer episode. If you feel the only thing wrong with Communism was the wrong man was in charge, you are a fucking liberal. If you want to take everything I've worked for and give it to some low life scum, you are a fucking liberal. If you feel character doesn't matter because your political candidate is devoid of any, you are a fucking liberal. If you think the Republicans in Congress are just a bunch of spineless bastards selling out our freedoms and passing the same old tax and spend budgets, as likely as not you're a conservative. -- How th

Venting
My family is super dysfunctional (big surprise). It's constant backstabbing and fighting with each other. Constant drama.I live on the opposite coast from them and it STILL effects me. I have reached a point in my life where I am TIRED of everyone fighting. I think life is too short and I just want everyone to get along but I really am sick of it and I don't want to be involved anymore. What would you do? I feel like just cutting myself off from them for a while, except for my parents.I also feel like cutting them off is wrong because they are my family but this shit just isn't blowing over.I have a hard time just smiling and nodding and pretending nothing is wrong or like I agree with someone when I don't. If I have something to say, I say it and it usually causes a shitstorm! I think cutting them off will hurt me more than it hurts them but I have other stuff going on that I need to focus on and they severely effect my mood and my life, even from so far away. I wish I could change th

Mitch Moreland Of The Texas Rangers
Click to Read My Blog http://www.empowernetwork.com/kevin6821/blog/mitch-moreland-aka-gambit/ Mitch Moreland Mississippi State University and in 2007 he was drafted by the Texas Rangers in the 17th round and man I bet they are glad they have that guy!Standing at 6’2 weighing 230 pounds and with only 3 years in the mlb altogether he’s on his way to becoming one of the best power hitters. I’ve seen him punish pitchers that kept throwing him crappy pitches either drive it up the middle towards the pitcher or watch it sail goodbye!