I guess I don't understand the "cosmic laws" or whatever the fuck. I missed a successful suicide by 2 seconds, drowning death by 20 seconds, 2 MASSIVE heart "episodes"......The fucker stopped beating and went into fibrilations for about 45 mins. both times!!!! I missed another near suicide by a mere 1/10000th of a second. (Firearm attempt) Now I am all fucked up, crippled, hurtin', and now I have food trying to kill me. High cholesterol, high B.P. spells, and "pre"diabetes. I have had several concussions which have since evolved into brain damage.
I had to suffer much more abuse other than the usual clumsy kid shit. I have been beaten pretty bad, knocked around, (my first concussion happened @ age 2 from being thrown into my headboard by my father). Then the molestation started, which quickly evolved into rape. If you know what "REDWINGS" are, I got mine at age 3.5. Just fuckin' peachy, right?
I guess I just want to understand why I had to go through MUCH MORE FUCKING BULLSHIT than anyone else. What I wouldn't give to go back to work or school or both. Now It takes me 45 minutes typing and correctin' a coupla fuckin' paragraphs. I'm so fucking burnt out from this shit. Aww, who fuckin' cares?
