I am so damn tired. I want to disappear. I hurt ALL the time, but nothing helps. Noone even tries to understand anymore. I do not want to die, but I would welcome it if it meant no more pain. The meds I take make me sicker, but they take the edge off. That's about it. I wake up in the mornings so stiff and sore sometimes I wonder if I ran a marathon with a 100 lb. backpack. My hands are numb every morning, and it takes 30-60 mins. to get some feeling back. I just want to be able to wake up with the ability to move. The diagnosis I got 5-6 years ago no longer fits my symptoms, is it wrong to want to be treated for the right stuff? I am very tired of being sick.
