OK, so it’s a day late…….. So sue me!
I haven’t been online in a long time so I’m not sure what people have written to me but I’m gonna try and make this as short as I can.
I’m not going to tell anyone which hospital I’m at. I’m not going to say where I am or how long I’ve been told I have left to live.
As certain people know, I’ve been transferred to a different hospital. This doesn’t mean I’ll be getting a better level of treatment, this doesn’t mean I’ll be getting a higher chance of survival.
I want everyone who reads this to realise that this means only one thing….
…… When I go, it’ll be easier for me.
This is going to be the last chance I get to speak to anyone and it sucks cos it’s a one way conversation. it’s a Sunday night over here and I have to go into hospital tomorrow morning at 10.30am.
I’m not going to come out.
I’ll understand if people don’t realise why I’m doing this.
I mean, Jesus H. Christ, its only an online social site but I’ve made some of the best friends I’ve ever had here. And I know they’re going to be thinking “Why the hell is he doing this?”
Its because I’m a wuss. I’m a chicken, I’m a pussy and I’m just so totally afraid of saying goodbye to everyone.
Fucks sake - I’m having to stop every 5 minutes here cos I’m crying…….
Deb. Debbie. Debs. Deborah. Please, please, please don’t hate me. This has been one of the most difficult things I’ve had to do in my entire life. You have been the shining light in my existence. You have been the very reason I’ve woken up in the morning.
You are my smile.
You are my laughter.
You have been the reason I wake up every morning.
You have my heart.
And you always will.
I am so amazingly happy that I have known love. And I am so amazingly happy that I have known love from you.
I love you so much baby xxxxxxxxxxxx
Thank you so much to everyone for your kind words and comments.
I’m not even going to try and name everyone separately but honest to god, thank you to all. You are all amazing and I truly believe I’m honoured to of met each and every one of you.
Play safe….. And if you can’t play safe then send me the video xxxxxxxxxxx
