OK, I’m not sure how this works but I’ve been given instructions to leave a message to everyone here.
My name is Kevin Wolfe and I’ve been pretty much ordered to say that I’m Ross’s best friend. I’ve known Ross since junior school which would make it about 20 years now. We’ve grown up together and I’ve been with him through everything.
I’ve known him from the very first den we made in the woods behind our houses through school, through college and through our adult lives and I can honestly say, I’ve never known anyone like him. He’s supported me through out my darkest times and he’s been my partner in crime in many a alcohol fuelled night out.
Ross passed away on 14th March 2008.
I spent the day with him on the 12th in hospital and he passed me a sheet of paper with a very long list of instructions. He asked me to go to this website and say goodbye to everyone.
The following is a word for word copy of what he wrote - he wanted me to type this out exactly as he said it and he made me promise that I would.
On a personal note, Deb - whoever you are - he was in love with you. I’m just a guy, I’m a bloke who’s known Ross forever but he could not stop talking about you. He told me that everyone would probably find it silly that he was in love with someone he’s never met but he didn’t care what they thought. Throughout his last days, he told me a hundred times over that I should let you know, that I should make you understand that he was sorry.
I’m not sure what happened between you two but I do know that he regrets what he did.
Anyway, this is what he wrote….
Deborah…….. I can’t even begin to apologise for what I’ve put you through. You’ve only told me small things about you and your life but I know that you deserve nothing less than total happiness. I met you over a year ago and in those simple 365 days I’ve known and loved an Angel. No-one can see your wings but we all know they’re there. No-one can see your halo but we all know it shines with the most amazing brilliance.
Your voice, your laughter, your smile has kept me going through some of the lowest points in my life and I can honestly say, hand on my heart, that without you my life would have been empty.
You filled my life with happiness. You were the reason for my smile. You were the reason I laughed every night.
I have loved you from the start, I love you now and I will love you forever more.
If things were different then I would of come over to you and asked you to marry me with the ring I sent you. I would of gone down on one knee before you and offered you my life. I would of given everything I have to you and I would of spent every single day loving you as only you deserve.
I’m sorry for leaving you my angel.
You have always had my heart. You always will.
I love you Deb.
Ross wanted everyone to know that he went in peace. I’m writing this on the 17th of March so he never got to see his birthday but he told me that he’ll be looking down on us all with a pint in each hand and a cigarette hanging out of the side of his mouth.
I’m not sure if you’re allowed to swear on this site but fuck me, I’m going to miss him. From everything he said about the people here, he’s going to miss you too.
He said that I should come on this site to talk to people but I’m not sure. I might come on later but I’m not going to promise anything - it might be a bit weird.
