Hi everyone!
Its been a long time since my last blog but I’ve been in hospital for the past few days for yet more tests and scans.
The news isn’t good.
The cancer in my left kidney has grown and has also spread to my right kidney now. This, coupled with the mass in my liver, means I now have to go to hospital once a week for dialysis. I’ll be honest, I haven’t been feeling good for the past week or so - at least I know the reason now.
The mass in my lung has grown slightly and there’s signs that its going to cross over to the other pretty soon which not only sucks but blows as well. Ironic really……
Again, I apologise if my obviously odd sense of humour wierds anyone out. I know how strange it must be for people to read this and notice that I’m joking around about whats happening to me but I came to terms with the whole situation a long time ago, I accepted the fact that there’s not a whole lot that can be done.
So I generally stick my middle finger up at God and tell him I’ll be having some serious words with him outside the pearly gates.
And believe me, he better come out wearing a cup…….
I was going to write that I sent my angel a gift the other day but she hasn’t got it yet so I can’t spoil the surprise. Talk about frustrating….. I want to tell the whole world what I sent her but I can’t lol. I love her so much. She is my angel, my saviour, my love and, ultimately, my heart. I can’t even begin to describe how much I love my angel. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again - there are no words in the English language that can put across what I feel for this woman. She is perfection personified and I class myself as one of the luckiest people on this planet who have had the true honour of getting to know her.
Deb Brown - I love you. I am in love with you, I feel love for you, my heart loves you and my soul adores you. You mean more than the world to me, more than you can imagine. Each day that we are together makes me feel happier and happier.
As sad as I am that I’ll be leaving you, I’m so amazingly happy that I have finally found true happiness. There’s been a lot of crap go on in my life (current situation not counting) and I honestly believed that I would go through the whole of my life not getting the chance to actually be happy. OK, everyone has their down days and they have times when they feel crappy but since you entered my life I can honest to god, truly say that I’ve had the best reason to smile each and every day.
You are my love, you are my soul, you are my smile and you are my heart.
Well, I’m going to sign off now cos I’m welling up here and I can’t see the keyboard properly lol
Play safe people - and if you can’t play safe then video it and send it to me J
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