blazintommyd's blog: "LOVE and LUST"

The best alternative to my hand is a mouth or pussy - maybe a mouth because they seem to be easier to care for, depending on one's diet? That is an unresolved question with me and an important one because I have had problems using pussy as an alternative to my hand and really don't like condoms at all.

I've had problems with my cock, most recently with what seems to be "contact dermatitus" of the glans - viz., the head of my cock.

One part of this problem has been resolved by using "Firefly Organics" instead of my previous glycerin based lubes. I no longer get shiny raised placques which are commonly diagnosed as psoriasis. Apparently what happens is I get horny and look for images or preferably interactive emotions to devote my sacrament to - i.e., make a load of cum and shoot to. If in the rare case it's someone I have Loving feelings for, it never works because they're usually just someone that's conning me into believing I Love them in order to get money from me. There may have been one exception to this but in further analysis I doubt it.

I think women experience the same or similar thing I'm describing here, but because any alternative seems so difficult for them, they get used to it and just say O fuck it, it's too difficult I'll succumb to the roles society forces me into so gimme the fucking money bitch, I need that security before I can get into putting out for you.

So, ironically, I usually Do Love them (the very few I've felt this with) because I Love Love. The problem is they don't Love me and don't try to because they're too distracted by and with money/security hunting. Consequently I end up abusing my cock trying to make it cum where there is no reciprocal emotion and no mutual Love. This does make sense with the diagnosis - acute contact dermatitus - viz., I did this so long and with the wrong lubes that when the glans becomes reabused the raised placques begin to reappear in the original places; but it might also be something else such as lichen planus (the origin of which is not known) or even tuberculoid leprosy.

Conservatives have made every malady of a sex organ seem to be a punishment from God so the American medical industry seems reluctant to treat such disorders or even pay serious attention to them. Surely some major drug company will develop something that makes an impression on Wall Street, this will inspire doctors to invest in them and thus prescribe them and in the meantime the usual remedy is corticosteroid in a base (from one of the two main elements of American chemistry/pharmacology) glycerin/alcohol (from grain/vegetable) or petroleum distillate (a bi-product of gasoline refinement). Here justy slather some a this on there boy pray to the Lord Jesus Christ and enter into monogamous Heterosexual bondage

The fact of the matter is, that no matter how carefully I attempt to jerk off, I always end up hurting my cock, either with a lube that immediately results in irritation to the urethra and/or eventual irritation to the glans; and occasionally the shaft and even scrotum. And because of the lack of Love reciprocity &c, I end up squeezing it to compensate for the un turned on numbness and end up hurting the urethra. But to a lesser or different degree irritation has resulted from regular pussy fucking too; which seems to depend on how well the pussy and even cock is cared for and maintained. But if having a good piss is to be the determining factor, it seems to work best when there is no sex and no stroking or even touching at all albeit a swelled urethra is less the case with bare back pussy fucking and so few women will be eager and will enjoy and sincerely want to take a load of cum in their mouth.

So this situation creates a problem because (1) I get horny and (2) the cheapest way to deal with it, is the less effective, - i.e., jerking off - and in some ways the most harmful. It's as if the Conservatives have cornered the market on orgasm but now at least the Homosexuals in some States (since the South won the Civil War with the election of Jimmy Cracker) have secured an alternative. So now instead of one female unit being the solution to my horniness maybe it's one person's mouth. And as sad as this may seem this is my predicament. If I end up having sex with you chances are I'll be using you as a sex object - and I am neurotically fussy, so the plus is, if we get along together and you can put up with me and my anti-monogamous disposition ...

So nowadays I sincerely believe that the present solution to what I've described is polyamory, rather than swinging. As far as I know I do not have HPV (there is presently no test for men) nor genital Herpes - although I do get a sore on my upper lip once or twice a year (usually in February) and it seems that HPV in particular is quite common and apparently moreso now than Herpes so if I pursued a Swing sex style or even 'dating' I'd probably end up with one or the other or both.

The problem with all of this is that America seems to be brainwashed into slamming all psychological doors on anything other than monogamy and/or monogamous "cheating" so even if I resolve myself to the fact that I'm polyamorous and could get my wife to accept this: chances are, that if I even found someone else I have sincere Loving feelings for and truly want to fuck, again, they're going to want monogamy from me - i.e., leave your wife (read the fine print - for me).

So it is a truly fucked up situation and Not my fault and not only my problem but I believe many others' as well.

And as I have said before I sincerely believe that these situations lead to prostate cancer and maybe even cock cancer from masturbation alone but they also lead to other sexual diseases too because it forces people who need this freedom to end up fucking people they really don't want to be fucking and to me That is a far greater sin than fucking up some Anthony Comstock wet dream regarding Heterosexual Patriarchy and female monogamy.