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I had no reason to get out of bed today.
...
*shrugs* take that for what its worth. Snowed. Couldn't paint.
My free trial on the Realm (first graphical MMO ever) expired, $7.00 a month to play a sprite game from 95?
...
16 years ago?
Oh and my crazy ass granny threatened to take me out of the will and told me not to come to her funeral if I didn't visit her. I explained to several people that I didn't appreciate her threatening and demanding tone, and that I noticed she only pisses and moans about this shit about me, and nobody else (especially her grandkids that don't live in the state any more).
Hmmm
seeing a trend here? I fucking hate living here.
I hate most of my family.
Tada~
Tell you what- how about I go drive across town, do some stupid errands for you that probably didn't need to be done because you're old and crazy and like to waste my time, and not talk about anything or do anything I enjoy doing.
After all, I'm so fucking pleasant to be around that I'd DIE for the chance to be your dancing chimp and entertain you.
Go read a fucking book and leave me the fuck alone.
My besty has noted (and he's spent quite a bit of time around my family) that my family gives me a lot of shit, that he doesn't think anyone else would particularly put up with it.
Like my cousin calling me just to make fun of the fact that I don't have a job, and have a college degree.
... He seriously does that, and he's a giant festering turd.
I don't know if he thinks to himself "hmm, think I'll call up my cousin and verbally abuse him for my own ego"
but that's what tends to happen. For like... hours at a time.
A couple of my aunts are constantly making fun of whatever is going on in my life, or whatever I'm interested in they think its cute, or they think I consider them cool enough to do this
they're not.
"oh what's this about buildin robots in your garage" (barely contained laughter and visibile derision in body language and facial expression)
"So, I heard you got an infection and had to call your mom about it"
You're fifty years old- FAT as a land whale, and addicted to pain killers.
SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO AWAY.
What happens if I say any of what I'm actually thinking?
Threats of real- physical violence, or making my parents really upset because they feel obligated to maintain a relationship with these people.
These people are completely unhinged, and they get their kicks out of pissing on other people (specifically me).
Maybe I don't want to volunteer to put myself in that position.
Maybe that's why I want to skip
Christmas
Thanksgiving
Fourth of July
Easter
Mother's day
Your birthdays
I'm an adult.
I've had sex.
I've had relationships.
I've had to pay my own bills.
I've had a job or 6.
I've been arrested.
I've paid my taxes.
I have responsibilities.
I have dreams and aspirations.
I treat you with at least tepid neutrality and civility.
I am owed the same level of consideration.
I've not got it my whole life-
I'm not going to get it.
Why should I visit you, or welcome you into my home?
"Family" is a vile and unpleasant word to me.
I get the same shit from my dad's friends.
And I'm about ready to just start swinging.
You wanna see what a bunch of unlucky unfortunate bullshit does to a man?
Because scars are stronger than muscle.
And I have nothing to lose.
