Well its been awhile since I have been on just thought Id ubdate this blog on my drama. My wife came back. Things were very good few weeks. Of course I always held doubt of her true intentions. I want my wife and I to be happy together in the worst way but part of me remains nervous. Its like I am just waiting fotr it all to end again. I dont want to have to go through that pain again. When she came back she seemed very regretful of her decision to leave in the first place and seemed very sorry she had cause such pain. But Its been a little while now and I think she is going back to her old ways. She is beginning to distance herself from me. I just wonder if it is my doubts that is pushing her away or what. It seems normal for me to be apprehensive of her motives. But on the other hand I should just let things be and see what pans out. I dont know its weird because I am happy as hell that she is back but I am scared as hell that she'll leave again. There are times when I know she wants me but on the other side there are times where I know she doesn't. Its so back and forth it only makes me more nervous. I just wish there were gurantees on things like this. Ok well thats all for know. If you're reading this please wish us luck.
