JADED Southern Sex Symbols Group Member's blog: "About me"

Well where do I even begin with this one. Oh well I guess just that I need to vent and this is usually how I get my feelings out(by writing them out). First I will say this I don't go for my ex's let alone go for anyone that I love ex's. But we made and exception and now are paying for that. It seemed that it was meant to be but now we know diffrent. We allowed an ex to enter our family even gave him our family pendant (which is hard to get from us). Second I don't take being lied to very well at all. Especially when its about a person that causes things to fall apart between us. I caught him in a lie about how he treated his son and that makes me wonder what else he lied about. Third lets just say I had to cleanse our house today and had to stop the binding spell I was doing cause he came home. I will finish it later tonight, besides I found that doing a binding spell at night works better. I finally slept well last night after putting up a protective shield to protect us in bed while we slept. I have taken steps to ensure my family and I are going to be safe. Draining someones energy is a nasty thing to do to anyone and karma is a bitch. I hope that our second male will becoming soon. I have a good idea who it is but not sure. I had a dream about him a few months ago and told him about it. I think I scared him by telling him my dream. I have had dreams that come true and that dream I had with him in it went along the same lines as the dreams I have that come true. I got hurt by him once already and not holding my breath to find out if he will hurt me again. I know he didnt mean to but after talking to him and finding out why he stop talking to me I cant blame him for breaking contact. Cause I more than likely would have done the same thing he did. In time our family will be the way it should be with all that are supposed to be here, here. Its frustrating having to go through so much pain and anguish but I guess its meant to ensure that we value our love to one another and treasure the ones that still have yet to be added. Next time we will take our time to make sure the second male is really the one and not just rush into it like we did this time. All I can say now is that I cant wait to get our house back the way it was before he came into it. Nothing has been right since all this crap started and I hate coming home now. I dont want to stay home anymore. I dont like this feeling about my own home. I never thought I would have to cleanse another house of negitivy and protect me and my family again. Oh well we do what we will to make sure all of whom we love are safe. Ok enough of my sad life story. I hope all of you are doing well. May the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.