Well I lost my job. I finally decided it was time to move home. So I have been going crazy trying to get things set in motion to leave.
Well tonight I finally got a call that I was expecting but dreading as well. I wasn't sure how it would turn out. But so far its going well. Lets just say its something I have been dying to hear from someone that I know and now he has said what I have so desperatly wanted to hear Im not sure what to think of right now. I was put through so much from him that I learned to fear men when they get too mad.
So far old wounds are ripped open again and not sure how to deal with them. So many diffrent emotions are running through me right now. I do know is that we have a child together and no matter what happend between us I will not let that affect her. In time I will let them talk and then met each other.
I have learned caution from past failed relationships and not to mention I do not want my daughter hurt by him. So after we get to know each other and I feel its ok then they will get to know each other.
I have always just jumped into everything with both feet and moved very fast. I have slowly learned that being careful is a good thing. That being careful will minimize my pain. But nothing comes without risk that I do know.
So now if things do go well I may get a part of me healed and can move a very big step forward in my life. If they don't it may very well set me very far backward. But I also learned never expect too much or hope too much. I am a very simple woman and have very simple needs.
I always knew we would met again one day but never knew how it would turn out. After everything I have been through all my life I will suvive whatever is thrown at me. What don't kill you only makes you stronger. I am living proof of that.
Well if the fates deal me a good hand this time I will take it. I just don't know what to think and feel right now I'm so confused at this point. Wish me luck because I will need it and any prayers.
I hope all is well for everyone and may the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.
