Well on Tue. morning I finally got my tests results back from my OB doc and it wasn't good. With what my aunt brenda is going through it down right scares the hell out of me.
I found out I have the virus that causes cancer and other abnormalities. Right now my aunt has had one ovary removed and in two weeks will have the other one removed as well and maybe her uterus as well. They still don't have all the results back but so far can not tell if there is cancer.
Now with that said I am scared to death with why my pap came back the way it did. I go back in a month for more tests. I know it could be just about anything minor wrong but the scarriest is cancer. I also know freaking out about this now won't help but its hard not to when dealing with a posiblity of having cancer.
I have some of the best friends ever here that have helped a ton already and I so love them all for being here for me!! I can never thank them enough for being here when I broke down and cried after finding all this out!!!
I hope to make this next month fly by. I have decied not to try and get involved with anyone at this point. I know that if it comes along I will go for it but it will be a very hard battle to over come the fact that I may not be around long with anyone. I don't think its fair to get with someone and know that you have so short of time to live.
I hope all is well for everyone else and know that all can be worse and things do get better!! I of all people know this first hand. May the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all!!
