My grandfathe died last week. I wasnt allowed by my parents to travel 110 miles back home for the funeral. He was WW2 vet He had aflag ceremony and 3 gun salute. My dad decided that someone outside the family was to be given the flag. For this past week ive been sorta numb about the whole thing and tonight im kinda feeling the greif. The problem is my grandfather did something really really horrible when i was in the 6th grade. So i never got much of a chance to know him past then. Hes had dementia for a few years and it really took its toll on my family since my dad and one of his brothers were the only ones taking care of him, paying for everything. We wanted to cremate him and take his ashes and spread them on train tracks near Umatilla Oregon but the VA said no to that. Almost right after that my grandmother (they were divorced) had heart problems and she ended up in the hospital. Shes now buried 2 husbands. My grandmother has been the only one whos been helping me through some of the really rough times in my life. So on top of all that ive been so incredibly busy with school..... 10 hours woth of lab work alone a week not counting the classes.... Im still taking my meds to sleep... but lately ive been having depressing thoughts again...So thats whats going on in my life.
