DreamX's blog: "WTF moments!!!!"

So my dad recently had gallbladder surgery to removie it it was gangrenous. He could have died so he has a huge incision on his chest. My mom took a terrible fall and is beat the hell out of and has to uses a wlker, my uncle is dying of leukemiahe has 6 months to live this will be his last thanksgiving. So guess what happens to me when i woke up this morning.... IM FUCKING SICK. So now i cant go to my familys thanksgiving i could fucking get them horribly sick because of their issues and potentially kill my uncle because he has no immune system. So here i fucking am alone sick by myself. Man fuck this shit seriously fuck this

liek my subject line says i meet the guy. So that makes 3 ufc guys i know personally Jens Pulver and Randy Cotoure and now Ivan Salavery. He came into my schools practice and showed some stuff chose me has his dummy. Damn those chokes are no joke :-) Hes a really cool guy. Hes got a big fight coming up end of februrary.

ive been hearing odd noises since i moved into this apt on saturday. This morning i was in the kitchen and my fucking cupboard door opned and shut on its own........ WTF........

You know i was browsing the alumni section for my highschool on myspace, and i ran across my ex girlfriend. I went to her page, ( i was listeningto Everything Changes by Staind by sheer chance) and saw she was married with kids and was really happy. When we broke up is was fairly nasty, and a good part was inexperience and youth that played in it. There was no cheating on anyones side, but her dating me was a lot tougher for her because it was soo much more of a physical relationship and we saw each other every single day. The thing is we both were in love with each other. I woulda moved the earth and moon for her.... and seeing her profile and listening to that music... it was hard rel hard. i had to click off her page pretty fast..i dunno it felt like i still had some love still for her? I dont know do u ever really stop loving someone, or do u jsut bury it so it doesnt hurt, right now im jsut really stressed in my life and i certainly didnt need ot have this emotion pop out... Is there unresolved issues.. i dont know.. Im happy for her and i wont ever message her But it really makes me think about my life but damn its too introspective for me right now :-(

Ok when i posted a pic of my wrestler who was shot and killed, it wasnt for any kind of rating, points, nothing like that. i get home from coaching his older brother in the regional tournament, and i find osme fuck rated the pic a 7. I felt really disrespected and i felt Mikey's death was spit on by some callous asshole. Now some of ya'll might say then dont post his pic. Well to that i say shut up. Posting Mikey's pic was a way of helping me deal with it and having people talk ot me about it. So to who ever rated it a 7 GO FUCK YOUR SELF

So Here i am old and and cranky. And what do i do but watch the ultimate Figher. The coach... Jens Pulver was a college teamate of mine. Had a lot of battles and weve beaten each other. So hes competed in UFC and Pride been a wolrd champion etc etc etc. So he had a battle a few years back with another guy from washington Dennis Hallman. who IVe beaten severely in a match before (wrestling) Dennis Hallman holds two wins over Matt Hughes in MMA. So aint this a bitch ya know On the other flip side When i was coaching in college the head coach at Douglas is Steve Rose. Who made it to the Olympics. Who ive barely lsot to by one point in college. WTF is this the story of my life to be the invisible guy thats competed with the very best in the world yet no one knows? Makes me feel more liek a washed up athlete. With all the woulda coulda shoulda's in the world :-(

OK sonme of you know about my bad neck.... in case u dont, i am suffering from a now 2 bulging discs in my neck. well on tuesday i went in for my steropids injection treatment nad ended up with 50 injections within 20 minutes, and let me tell u they were extremely painful and i do mean painful in the most serious way. i fucking passed out form it basically. Now the day before, my company had a meeting with all of us and basicallt told us we were bankrupt, and all being laid off, so now i have no job, no money im on lni for my neck but whos going oty hire somoene with my neck problems... i have 50k in student loans to pay off and many other outstanding bills,,, so its a wonder im not even more pissy grumpy and gernally not in the mood to deal with anyone

So i get my steroid meds and sleep meds for my neck but i have to take 8 pills tomorrow on my fucking birthday. I cant drink with them at all. i get a phone call from this lawyer saying Best Buy is goingto sue me if i dont pay them the money i owe them. even though i told them earlier that i wasnt paying for shit that they pushed me into buying and trid ot get me to buy other shit. So i get that all settled, get a phone call from my visa, turns out my checks havent been making it there and stupid me didnt look closley at the shit they were sending so now im even more in the whole i have 200 dollars more in bills to pay, so im like ok i need a chill night no, people who i talked to blew me off and prety much made me feel like shit. And to top it off i have a bad cold and i cant take any cold medicines because of the steroid pills...... godamn give me a fucking break....

Do any of you know how to get rid of red wine out of white shirts?

Ok so i go to this party and right off the bat i see my ef fiance fr m10 years ago who also does a double take and then gets all mad that im there even though shes the one who cheated one and lied to me about everythng and after all this time i had no desire to even be in the same room as her. Her current live in bf throws a wingding so i jsut fucking left and all my new years plans are ruined because i cant get ahold of anyone else and im not going to some fucking bar alone.