Ragdoll's blog: "good stuff"

If  only I had listened....

If only I wasnt hard headed

If Only Iwould take his help

If only I hadnt done this or that

and heeded his every word....

 

Then Id Be Happy

Then Id have a Life

Then I wouldnt have Suffered

Like Im some mindless bimbo

Who shouldnt make her own decisions

because every one of them has 

led me back to disaster

 

Eve never wouldve sin.....

or been led to the temptations

If Adam Had been doing HIS job

and never left her side.....

He abandoned  His Responsibility

to let her deal with the snakes

He left her alone and hungry......

and it wasnt the fact that she needed to be

Like God

or more wise

She was the Goddess of the Garden ...already

The Simple Pure In Heart.

The snake knew how to get her...

with the apple...

it served the simplest need

and would taste sweet to lips

and in it,,her basic needs of Hunger

be satisfied

Had Nothing to do with Greed

 

Its not that i didnt listen

to all the words you had to say

They were of little significance.... Here..

with you 2000 miles away

So Punish me and shame me

If it makes you feel ok

The Past will always be the past

and maybe better off that way

 

I cant be kicked any lower

than where i am right now

And I am the one clawing my way

out of this hell

without you anyways

Its my love for you...

that kept me from listening

and not take from you your"help"

To protect you from being 

where I find myself...

I needed to go thru this agony

and to feel all its fury and pain

In it I will find humility

strength  and freedom  again

 

I had always hoped youd see that

and in me you would be proud

That my motives would show clearly

thru my actions anyhow

I never intended to slight you

Or ever do you wrong

Im Sorry.........

 

If only ....you knew

 

~Live~ Laugh~Love~

 

~Ragdoll~