Well today my brother would be 31, its hard to believe its only been a year since he died when some days its feels like just yesterday. Whats sad is i cant even remember what i bought him last year, ive thought about it all night but i just dont remember. I miss his laugh the most, his smile and though my head is filled with the horrible images from that day i always keep his smile in my heart. I would give anything just to be able to say i love you one more time, to hear another silly joke most times only he got. My heart aches knowing that everyday is just that..another day without him in it. Though i will never understand why he chose to end his life i will forever live mine remembering just how important he was in mine. 11-17-77 - 11-24-07