Kinkstar Sin's blog: "sin's ramblings"

Anything.

i melt in your eyes
i try so hard to pull away
just to run back to you
you are so fucking beautiful
in my dazed dreams
and moreso
when i am awake

you are dangerous because i let you in
i let you in because you are dangerous
you burn me  with passion
and desire
and with curiousity
you make me smile
you make me dream

i want more from you than i would ever ask
i want your desire
i want your dreams
i want your darkness
i want your tears
your deepest joy
your greatest sorrows
your fears, your gaze
your everything
right now you are everything

i dream in shades of you
i sleep wrapped in imaginary arms
i awaken wondering if you are a dream
and you are a dream
i wonder if you understand
-and how you possibly could
when even i cannot-
what i am going through
just knowing you exist
just knowing there is someone like you out there
beyond my grasp, beyond my sight

i do want your body
this is true
but there exists so much more in my desires
i tried to tell myself
you are just a body
to objectify you
in a way that would let me accept your existence
but you don't say anything...
to upset me... to scare me... hurt me...
and all that just frightens me more

the only time that i believe aomeone is
even remotely interested in me
is when i'm barely interested in him
it's been my experience
men i would gladly kneel down and beg for
want nothing more from me than a girl
who will kneel and beg

you will never worship me
the way i already worship you
will never wonder how many hours it will be
before you will hear my voice again
how many days, weeks
until you see my face
you will never believe
that there must be a higher power
simply because i exist
you won't run your finger
across your lips
in an absentminded gesture
because the thought of my face
made you want to feel something more than distance.

i am just a girl a hundred miles away
fantasizing about a man she doesn't know
wishing she could feel him,

touch him, taste him
i am just one of a thousand girls
who would give everything for a piece of your soul
i would be a fool to pretend
i will ever be anything more.

~Sinamynlee