Kinkstar Sin's blog: "sin's ramblings"

these go with the other two in here, there's others missing from the set but i don't really want you all to see those faith i want only to make you smile i am lying i want so much more but there are things i do not want that at this moment i need to say not to you, or for you but for me things i know i don't want for me so i do not want them for you i do want to make you smile i do not want to try to be your joy i want to know your fears not to hold them against you nor to try to make you unafraid simply to know them, to know you i want to know your past not to try to fix it nor to absolve you of it simply to know where you come from i do not want to heal you i do not want to give you faith in humanity i do not want to promise you stars i will not try to fix your life, your problems, your family, your friendships, your past, your future i want to be there next to you i do not want to hold you up i do not want to stand behind you nor try to make you follow me just next to you, where i would want you in relation to me i want to know what makes you happy what makes you miserable what makes you laugh what makes you frustrated not to try to avoid anything nor try to use it to turn myself into something you might desire simply to understand your reactions to me to others, to life and know them for what they are a part of you i do want to make you smile but only if it is because you want to smile i do not want you to smile to make me feel like perhaps i can make you feel better... and only smile if a smile is your true reaction. ~sinamynlee