Buggzy A best friend is like a four leaf's blog: "From the Heart"

Here I sit once more, thinking of my life and what I have made out of it ..which is nothing.

I wish I could re do it all over again and change somethings.  Like get a career,  take better care of myself.

I have no friends to speak of, because I am so anti social only cause I am sick of being judged by family and peers

Tired of people who seem to have it all ,  and here I am trying to make sure my family have food on the table and take care of the bills and pray we dont lose this shit hole of a house.

I am bitter yes you betcha, am I lonely dam right.  I may have a family but I am still alone here.

I feel like im soooooooooooo gawd dam non important, taken advantage, not respected.

Soooooooooooooooooooooooo

yeah would I if I could start my life over yes  in deed.......would first ask for a new family to grow up in......as mine was nothing but abuse and mental cruelity.

All I want is to be loved by a man who respects and appreciates what I have done for him. 

I dont want or think I need to every day ask for a hug, or some support when I am down and out.

Or have to plea to be taking to the doctors when I feel sick or just simply ask for some TLC

So ya ...im bitter and I am trying hard to change that but every day is a struggle when you have depression like me

So if you think I am just a loser and looking for something maybe I am maybe I am not .

You know what they say ,  put your self in my shoes for awhile then you might not be so smug about what I am speaking about

Life sucks and you just move on