Buggzy A best friend is like a four leaf's blog: "Life"

These are the times,  I wish I had comforting words to give my 18 year old son who has autisum.

He trys so hard to fit in with the teenagers at his school but un fortunetly lacks in the social skills.  He thinks by dressing like them it will make a difference.

All he wants is a good friend to hang with and when someone does pay attention it never last for long and he feels he messed up and is down for weeks.

I try hard to explain to him hes  young yet and has all the time in the world,  just have fun hang with his friends at school soon those days will be gone.

I understand fully hes need to be accepted by others, and being in a class for develpmentaly chanlleged is hard,  hes not as bad as some.  He just needs that extra help in understanding.

I wish I could do something that would make it easyier for hiim but  I cant .  All I can do is be there when he needs to talk.

Its funny,  when we are young we never think of how we will look, what we will have ,  or our health for that matter.

Then as the years creep up, we see phyical changes that we really arent impressed by.  And some of us try and  fix the problem.

Some of us resort to surgery's, and for the poor like me, we just try and keep our weight to a certain point but sometimes its not as easy as it was, when we were in our mid 20's.

Then theres the health issues we have to face and it just for some of us depresses us beyound words.

I think now that I am 51, if I could just have a second chance how much I would change.  But that isnt reality its just a dream.

I get so emotional, that I cant walk as far as I once did with out having breathing problems,  I cant do the things I once did.

And I think ffffffffffffffffffffffff, Im only in my 50s,  this sucks.  Wtf am I gonna be like when I hit the 60's with God's blessing.

It hit me hard when Michael Jackson died.  We were born the same year.  And he died of a heart problem.  I to have one and it scares me that I am afraid to do anything.

I had a mild heartattack a few days back,  and now I am afraid to even go out the door shopping for food.

I wish getting old didnt mean your body goes south and your health goes in the toilet.