Mashiara's blog: "2020 the unknown"

I’m doing this to just try and process my thoughts and concerns. I need to make sense of this. This what is this. This is living a life with an unknown. Not knowing when any of it will end. Everyday people are dying and being contaminated with this horrible virus. I lived my life as a vibrant woman. Full of life and laughter and smiles. Raising my family and enjoying what life I had. Then one day the world changes. It takes a dramatic turn. We are hit with all these figures and statements and many think it’s a joke. I will admit, I was one of those people who didn’t take it seriously at first. I thought no way in this world would anything like this ever happen to me or my family. Man how wrong was I. It hit as close to home as it could be. It hit me. That’s right me. I’m here in a hospital room all alone. Not knowing when I’ll go home. I’m separated from my children. My life. My heart. I’m not laying worrying about myself. I’m worrying about them. Praying they will be ok. Hoping I taught them enough that they will be ok while I am here. Helpless. It is crazy to believe that something as simple as breathing, becomes a daily chore. I’m sorry I keep jumping all over the place. But my thoughts are all over. Please everyone take this serious. It isn’t a joke. It’s real. You don’t know if you are safe. I truly thought my family and I would be. I had traveled. I hadn’t been around anyone known to have the Covid-19. But somehow, it found me. Damn you Covid-19. You will not win. You will not beat me.