Fubar Blog Posts 4

And I Thought *i* Had Self-esteem Problems...
Hmm... So, as February closed, a certain someone told me in no uncertain terms that I should stop pursuing her affections. So, I stopped. I ceased all contact with her. She has been showing up in my "Who Viewed Me" tab every other day since then. Each time she shows up, she has her status message set to indicate how much she loves her new boyfriend, and most recently, has her primary pic set to a salute photo where she shouts him out. At first, I thought about blocking her. Yeah, in the first day or two it stung looking at anything that had to do with her: blasts, the occasional Support Lounge visit, her just being online (she's still in my Family list; I can't be arsed to remove her). She could be rubbing it in my face, or she could be doing this completely innocently (*coughbullshitcough*). Then, I realized... I'd be letting the terrorists win if I reacted at all. People do silly things like "passive harassment" when they want to show they can still push buttons a

Choices
Dark dreams silent screams Cold sweats many regrets Freezing rain a heart in pain Battles fought lessons taught Mind in a daze stuck in a maze Confused and scared all emotions bared Frozen in place a hidden face Evil surrounds you hear no sounds Fear you can taste no time to waste Win or lose it's time to chose Which way to go you just don't know Either way looks fine but your life is on the line You make a choice but your inner voice Tells you good try but you chose to die Take a deep breath on your path to death It's ok to cry as you say your final goodbye

Mhmmm
Okay So Lately I've Seen Alot Of Great Ppl Looking Down On Themselves B/c Of How They Look. They Think They Are "Too Ugly" Or "Too Fat" To Be Liked/Loved By Others. So I Thought Id Share a BODY Pic Of Myself With Ya'll. Im Not A Small Girl But Confidence Goes A Long Ways..Everyone Should Love Themselves Regardless Of Their Flaws. (Unless Ur A Jerk Lol) Just Click This Link Below To Go To My Pic. Click Here

Tag
Once u have been tagged,u have to write a blog wit 10 weird or random things,facts or habits bout ur self.At the end,u choose at least 5 ppl to b tagged,listen their names.Dont forget to leave comment that sayz,"ur it!" on their profile & ask them to read ur blog.U cant tag the person who tagged u. 1. I love to get dirty 2. I speak 3 languages 3. I love men in uniform 4. I always have my nails done 5. I love to go camping 6. I hate shaving my legs 7. I suck at plucking my eyebrows 8. I can out drink most men I know 9. I am a Bitch 10.I love going for drives the mountains I Tag 1.Kick ass 2.Squirt 3.sweet man 4 HighTeshRedneck 5. McLovin

New Pics With My Blonde Hair
I CANT ADD MORE PICS OUT OF ROOM SO ILL PUT HERE LEAVE A COMMENT AND RATE PLEZ ALSO SOME OLD ONES TO COMPARE AND TELL ME IF U LIKE THE BLONDE OR THE BRUNETTE! THE FIRST 5 R NEW WITH BLONDE HAIR!

To My Friends
Hello all, I haven't been on much these past few days and there is good reason. I have been blindsided by a new custody hearing my ex wife is throwing at me. Claiming I am an unfit father and bad rolemodel for my son. With the divorce and now this I am at wits end and my friends offline have as usual let me down. So I turn to my friends online and lately they havent been around either when i need them. So if anyone does read this please let me know. Just a line something to let me know that i still have people out there that care about me and my life. I am a strong person and I know I am a great father. But sometimes you can only take so much on yourself and i am at my breaking point. I dont want to go back down the path i went down when my mom died 10 years ago. I wont let myself do that but I also am just looking for some form of release. Something to get away sometimes. So feel free to comment, message, IM..anything you want Ill be here Travis

Blood
BLOOD A Kiss I Am Cold Close Your Eyes Give Me Your Soul For... Your BLOOD For... The Heat For... Your Heart For... The Beat Shades Of Warmth Become A Junkie's Bonfire Fix And The Heart It Clings Like Death To Taste Your Neck My Heart Is An Angry Fist That Seethes And Rages Against Its Cage Sense Your Heat Hide Thy Glow Black Silk Feast A Burning Rose Turn Away Let Me Go Turn Away From Me Let Me Go Drawn And Chased Through The Maze Crazed Dreams Dreams Of Pain A Kiss I Am Cold Close Your Eyes Give Me Your Soul Drink Your Life From A Glass Drunk On Love Alive At Last Caress Or Razor It's Gone So Fast Caress Or Razor Still It's Gone So Fast I Am Trembling My Hand On The Door It Is My Secret I Can Take This No More

Nehgs Announces Discovery Of Helen Keller Photo
NEWLY DISCOVERED PHOTOGRAPH FEATURES NEVER BEFORE SEEN IMAGE OF YOUNG HELEN KELLERPhotograph Part of Recently Donated Large Family Collection. Boston, MA – March 6, 2008 – The New England Historic Genealogical Society in Boston today announced the recent discovery of what is being called one of the most significant photographic finds documenting the impressive life of Helen Keller. The photograph, taken in July 1888 in Brewster, Cape Cod, Massachusetts, shows eight-year-old Helen Keller seated next to her teacher, Anne Sullivan, as they hold hands. Ms. Sullivan taught young Helen sign language by fingerspelling into the palm of her hand. A large doll rests on Keller’s lap. When Sullivan arrived at the Keller household to teach Helen, she gave her a doll as a present. Although Keller had many dolls throughout her childhood, this is believed to be the first known photograph of Helen Keller with one of her dolls. Both Keller and Sullivan indicated later in their journals th

Cant Deal
the only ones who have that power...to tear my heart out and rip it to shreds. only ones who can make me cry. dont know how they have so much of my heart but they both do. and they both do a pretty good job at breakin my heart. therefore im done with it for now...going to bed not thinking any more. i dont want to feel this way. sick of the hurt. i just want to be happy. what the hell is so wrong with that? really cant deal with this feeling anymore. im out for the night...if your reading this and are worried dont be im simply going to bed and will be back on tomorrow...hopefully in a better mood. cant get wasted so im gonna try sleeping it off....fuck it all

Pluto...icy Sub Planet...fantastic
You Are From Pluto You are a dark, mysterious soul, full of magic and the secrets of the universe. You can get the scoop on anything, but you keep your own secrets locked in your heart. You love change and you use it to your advantage, whether by choice or chance. You don't like to compromise, to the point of being self-destructive with your stubborness. Live life with love, and your deep powers will open the world to you. What Planet Are You From?

Now Im Just Pissed!!
RIGHT THIS dude ims me and blah blah starts talking to me.....And he ask me if im single i say yes..he ask why i said cuz men are pigs? im not over my fiance and i havent found the right guy...And he gets all butt hurt...And im bout to insult the marines but remeber i respect you..I said god you cry like a marine i think u joined the wrong branch...hes in the army ..he replied with this ArmyGuard82: just remember who is fighting for our country, it does hurt to know that you have no appreciation to anyone in the service TELL ME IS HE NOT THE WORDS BIGGEST DUMBASS? i dont apperciate the armed forces.....Fuck that my family has served this country for 200+ years......But i dont apperciate the man i loved more then life itself BLOOD SPILLED in iraq...i dont appericate my freedom being free at the cost of the men and women who serve this country! ARMY/AIR FORCE/NAVY/COAST GUARD/MARIES THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE!

The Sound Of Goodbye
Sometimes the sound of goodbye Is louder than any heartbeat Every face I see is cold as ice everything I touch is pale Ever since I lost imagination Like a stream that flows into the sea I am lost for all eternity Ever since you took your love away from me Sometimes the sound of goodbye Is louder than any drumbeat

What A Hug???
Hey guys If you want to chat with me and not in this silly little shout box click the avatar below ( thats me) and it will take you to my home page of a really cool messenger site (totally different then yahoo or msn or aim ) so come join me i'll give you a hug.... . I just had to the bed was calling me ....

Wow
Wow so just cause I had some experiments with black guys I get shut down by guys on this damn fucking website....seriously guys it's a fuckin site don't get to thinking your going to marry someone off of here or get something serious...it may happen that it can but who knows.. plus WHY IS IT THAT IT'S ILLEGAL FOR A WHITE GIRL TO FUCKING LIKE BLACK GUYS IN A WHITE MAN'S EYES? seriously but it's okay for everyone and their mama's to be sluts and whores... just irritates me sorry had to get it off my chest *~* me *~*

Hubby Application. Please Fill Out
now i can see who's willing to go through the trouble of filling one of these lame surveys out for me :) 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Whats your sign? 5.Phone Number: 6. Location: 7. Height: 8.Hair (color and style): 9.Piercings/tattoos: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 11.Would you walk on the beach with me? 12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 13. Do you/have you talked about me? 14. Do you think I'm a good person? 15. Would u take a nap with me? 16.Do you think I'm cute? 17. If you could change anything about me -would you? 18.Would you dance with me? 19.Would you come ov

About Me
I decided to place what was on my "About Me" portion on here instead. I didn't like it on my main page. To tell you about my actual personality almost seems silly. Kind of like I am trying to sell myself on this dang place. I wish I could have my friends write about me on here instead! I started looking into Fubar when my baby sister had a men just about stalking her, so I was very skeptical at first. It has turned out to be more like a high school reunion for me. I keep in touch with friends and family. I have even gotten to know a couple of new people, which I thought would never happen. I don't normally add people I don't know, so if you put in a request and I don't know you, it is fairly unlikely that I will add you. I know that you can't put me in a box, but I am dependable & I know how to make the best out of every situation. I love music, singing, and dancing, yet my talents don't lie there. I am told that I am creative, insightful, caring, and just plain looney

Lost In Her Eyes
I am lost in her eyes But I am not looking to be found When I stare in the abyss of her iris My heart ceases to pound The world around me grows cold Her glare ignites a fire in my soul She hold me captive within her sight My freedom I have forsaken, I wish not to fight Her eyes speaks to me saying, " I love you" I part my lips to say, " I love you too" I am lost in her eyes But I am not looking to be found. This poem is dedicated to the sexiest part of a woman, her eyes. It was not inspired by one particular woman.

Sad And Rage
Last night I when to bed in the worst mood I've been in for a while...This morning I woke up in rage and ready to give everything up.I'm not happy with my choices.I don't know whats wrong with me,or what has gotten into me lately but I don't like it.I feel all depress and feel like losing it all.I stay unhappy every since me and my ex broke up...Could be I'm still in love with him or I Just want his attention and be close to him....I don't know what it is but I wish it would end cause me feeling this way is not good for my present relationship...Cause it makes me want to give up....Maybe I just need space away from everything.....I could sit here all night thinking of stuff.deep down I feel like I'm cheating somewhere.:(

When I Thought He Didnt Care!
So the love of my life ISN'T in my life; frankly most days even though I think about him, I am pretty sure he isnt thinking about me. But I must have been mistaken, because he seems to know things I didnt tell him... or didn't know I told him. I forget that he is amazing. I will never underestimate him again. Busted flirting? Yep! Trying to move on? Not so easy. Being absolutely addicted to someone I can't keep? Yes every moment since the first time he said my name. How does a soul deal with that?

I Dont Need Another Hero
Why do so many guys think a girl wants you to save them...or they want to be my hero? I don't need a hero...only I can save me and I wouldnt have it any other way. I guess Ive learned that the hard way. I have learned that depending on other people to make your life better is in vain because its only you that can change you or make you happy. Not to say it isnt nice to have support, love, and even just companionship to compliment your life but if that IS your life, if your happiness depends on the way others treat you, view you or how many people love you, are you truly happy? Because if you loved yourself, it wouldnt matter what others think. That is why some feel lonely in a room full of people...its about what a person feels inside themselves, not about everyone around them. Don't put anyone on a pedestal higher than you because they only way they can look at you is down...Put yourself up there and be your own hero. Java March 2008

Off To Georgia
My mom and I are leaving for our road trip to Georgia in about an hour or so. We'll be down there for 3 days trying to find me a place to live during grad school. So don't miss me too much. :P I'll have my cell on me, so text me if you have the number. I'm sure I'll be on here at night, but I may be too tired. Apartment hunting is a very long and boring process. I've been through it with my mom and my best friend. Wish my luck! :) I'll talk with all you lovely people soon. ♥ Amy

Achtung! Attention! Hey You!
To all concerned (and to those who aren't) : I shall be taking a hiatus from Fubar as well as AIM/Yahoo, text messaging and phone calls for a bit. I shall periodically check fubar from time to time...to keep the account active. There's some things I need to sort out. I haven't a clue as to how long this will take but sufficed to say it won't happen over night. To those I speak to regularly, thanks for your kind words and all. I haven't been very "chipper" as of late. I'm normally quite verbose but sufficed to say the wind has been taken out of my sails, so to speak. I wish you all the best in your future endeavors and all (I can't think of any more witty feel good sayings to put here). And with that I'm gone.

For Cheryl & Chelle :)
i went outside yesterday morning, and i saw this. it's the first flower of the year. it gave me a good feeling, so i walked around my yard to see what else was coming up. i noticed the tulips and daffodils were already a few inches tall. then i saw that my maple tree is budding. it made me think of psalm 30 - weeping remains for the night, but joy returns in the morning...

Fu Bucks Auction
I am putting myself on the auction block for the 1st time Too see what kind of response I get. The Bidding will start today (March 6th) and End 2 Saturdays from now (March 15th) The winner of the auction will get their name mentioned by mine stating that they Fu Own me, A song Dedicated to you During one of my DJ shifts, a lifelong stay in my family status, and 1 phone call from the True Man of Steel of Fubar...Me!!! (US Only) Also you get BOTH my yahoo instant messenger names So I can always be found. Lets start the Bidding off at 50,0000 Fubucks. Leave Bids in Comments here Please!!!

An Examination Of Conscience
Is anybody happier because you passed their way? Does anyone remember that you spoke to them today? The day is almost over and its toiling time is through, Is there anyone to utter now a grateful word of you? As you take a glance back over the day that's slipping fast. did you help a single person of the many that you passed? is a single heart rejoicing over what you did or said? Does the one whose hopes were fading now with courage look ahead? Did you win the day or lose it? Was it well or sorely spent? Did you leave a trail of kindness,or a scar of discontent? as you close your eyes in slumber do you think that God will say. "You have earned one more tomorrow by the good you did today.

Clarification Needed
Why is it that every dictionary gives the definition of nymph, nymphomania, nymphomaniac as referring to a woman? Nymph: 3 entries pronunciation: nim(p)f 1) any of the minor divinities of nature in classical mythology; represented as beautiful maidens dwelling in the mountains, forests, trees, and water. 2) girl 3) any of the various immature insects, especially larve of an insect (grasshopper, true bug, or mayfly) with incomplete metamorphosis that differs from the imago especially in size and in its incompletely developed wings and genitalia. Nymphomania: Etymology-New Latin from the word nymphae meaning inner lips of the vulva;( from Latin plural of nympha) and the late Latin word mania meaning excessive sexual desire by a female. Nymphomaniac: noun: meaning disapproving; a woman who desires frequent sex especially with multiple partners. WHY A WOMAN? Nymphomaniac: Is it someone who is forever searching or yearning to fulfill their sexual needs? Is it someo

Bored
Soooo, does anybody actually read these ??? I don't really have anything deep and meaningful to say....just bored and clicking on stuff....if you leave me a message and say you actually read these, maybe i might start puting something on her other than just rambling on about absolutely nothing.......

Tag!!!!!!
Once u have been tagged,u have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things,facts or habits bout ur self.At the end,u choose at least 5 ppl to b tagged,list in their names.Dont forget to leave comment that sayz,"ur it!" on their profile & ask them to read ur blog.U cant tag the person who tagged u. 1. I Love MY Friends And Family 2. I am REAl!!! 3. I fall in love easily 3. I smoke Newports.. 4. I listen to country music 5. I have a big heart 6. I hate any and all DRAMA 7. I Wear My HEART ON MY Sleeve. 8. I Love Pink!!! 9. I love To Watch Movies and Cuddle!! 10. I am NOT A Follower..I can LEad MYself Into My Own Problems. 1. Phoenix 2. 2SLutty 3. Mz Mic 4. Hotlips 5. Milf

Just A Little Poem
I take this moment to confess the thoughts that run through my mind. the feelings that I have The dreams that one day we will be in each others arms. The love we have so many search for and yet only, few are so lucky to have To write the thoughts that run in my mind You were the one i waited for so long The love we share is a blessing from above Like a dream so I found you so. I see you are no dream. You are real to the touch to look in your eyes is to see what heaven is made of. To share a life with you is all I dream of. My heart beats for the next moment we touch. You came to me in my time in need like a angel from above. You showed me my destiny I was born to be held in your arms to be kissed by your lips The only love I've known and wanted was yours You are the light that the stars get their liight from You are the shadow that follows me where ever i may be Im never alone as long as I know your somewhere out there t

Ticket
Tomorrow I have to take my moms dog to be put to sleep :(. I wish I could change things so that they were not like this right now. I am so sad about it and can't even imagine how my mom is feeling. What a horrible day ahead.

Faded
Once so warm and bright Till life faded her colors She was put aside And quickly forgotten Dust covered, broken The artist came along Spotted her amongst all the clutter And took her home Painstakingly restored To an unknown beauty She is his sun And he her world

Positive Outlook
How to start your day with a positive outlook Open a new file in your PC. Name it as "Boss". Send it to the RECYCLE BIN. Empty the RECYCLE BIN. Your PC will ask you, "Are you sure you want to delete Boss permanently?" Answer calmly, "Yes," and press the mouse button firmly.... Feel better? Have A Nice Day.

Interiors And Exteriors
When you hold the heart of a man in your hands you can feel the depths of his soul. When he comes to you a little broken and somewhat exposed, with the underbelly of his tough exterior open, seemingly laying his head upon your shoulder and aching for you to balm his burn, you then begin to know the realness that is him. You see past the he that he shows the masses and now have the him that has room for you. I have a weakness for this man. The man that is strong and confident and secure, but beneath can bare and be broken and needs my care. I have the words to console an aching heart. I have the love and tenderness and need to nurture and protect those that fill my heart. I fall and fade and slip into a being fast and without caution. How can my hopelessly romantic and empathetic heart not fill up with someone that is all things me? I too have an exterior and interior me. The me the masses see may be so far different from the real me that you may be confused at some point and think m

At Work
at work we have safty devices that can save lives well i chose to ignoe it.I RAN MY MACHINE WITHOUT THE SAFTY BARS IN . A POLE CAME LOOSE AND FELL OUT OF THE CHUCK.i tryed to stop it and it landed on me hand and broke it .thank god thats all that happened it could have killed somone

Ummmmmm Huh
The bed is now really squeaking, you found my hot spot you were seeking. Taking me doggie style, forget inches baby your cock is a mile!! Feeling that all in my back, you know baby boy you are stacked. Now you're standing at the end of the bed, I bounce my big ass back and forth on that head. Making a slapping noise as my ass hits your belly, I got you hard as a diamond, you can cut glass all because of me. In full amazement I feel you grow larger, just when I thought you could not get any harder. Your cock fills my tunnel of love, you fit inside me just like a glove. You got both your hands grasping my hips, you got me so close to cumming I am biting my lip. I hear you tell me you are about to cum, I stop my motion-- oh no I am not done. I flip around to sit in front of you, I now pull out a vibrating cock ring- what cha gonna do? © Copyright 2008 Mad Curves

Fake People
does anyone else get tired of fake people... they say they are something they are not? all they want is sex so they say what ever it is you wanna hear.. get you intrested then you find out they are just out for sex? People need to be open and honest.. if Your a Dom then Dom .. if Your out for sex then say that geez dont pretend to be something your not to get your rocks off.. sorry im ranting agian... just wanna meet real people hello anyone out there lol im so glad to have the friends i have.. they are real and genuine as can be.. so to all my friends reading this thank you for keeping it real..

Sometimes I Cry
When I think of the way I ruined things..... sometimes I cry. When I start to miss your wonderful smile..... sometimes I cry. When I wake from dreaming of you.... sometimes I cry. When I picture my life without you..... sometime I cry. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I cry.

Want To Own Me For A Month :) Or Maybe Someone Else Check Out This Auction
Auction opens March 7th @12 eastern and runs for 1 week. Check out all these wonderful people below in Sweet Judy's auction.... Be sure to stop by and place your bid ... Person with the most rates gets 100,000 fu-bucks so if you're not the bidding type atleast rate your favorite! Lets all have fun and make some good offers to fu-own your favorite man or woman... ******************************************** Lady Love Indy~Sent~Dream Maker ~~Sunshine~~ ~*~Sweet~*~ Robisue Boone Pita Bunny ~*Ghost*~ Rhonda Teresa ~¢¾Jo¢¾~ Rules.. (repost of

My Sexy Fu-owners! Check Them Out!
~PIMPSugarbear~R.I.P My Son~Fu-Owner to Vamp~Fu engaged to Jimswife7677@ fubar Pimp Sugarbear owns me and I'm SO GLAD he does! MUAH BiBabyGirl..IF YOU DON'T LIKE BIGGER GIRLS GET THE F... OFF MY PAGE!..Fu-Wifey to *MaNdie*@ fubar BiBabyGirl owns my page! (for now!)

Holy Shit You Gotta Watch This!!
Seriously...this isnt some bullshit but actual facts of history, and ours, as well as our childrens futures... Please take the time for your own benifit. I also want to state clearly, this is not an attack on the U.S.A. yet all those who govern and control our lives as a whole and thier plan to ruin what's left of our peoples. ENDGAME-320x180-250k.mov

Is There Any....?
HUMMMMMM...I'M THINKING IS THERE A MAN IN THIS ON LINE WORLD THAT CAN TALK TO ME LIKE ALOT OF THEM HAVE...YET KEEP MY INTREST LONG ENOUGH FOR ME TO EVEN WANT TO MEET YOU IN PERSON?....OR DO YOU EVEN CARE TO??? SEEMS THE ONLINE WORLD IS ENOUGH FOR ALL OF THEM....IT PUZZLES ME!! I WOULD MUCH RATHER GO AND DO THINGS TOGATHER AND IF THE CARDS ARE PLAYED RIGHT...WELL ACTUALLY FEEL YOU'RE SKIN ON MINE...WHEWWWWW....THATS ABOUT IT...I VENTED!!! LOL

Idunno
I hate the way some people change and confuse the shit out of me. That person is my mother. She frets and obsesses about me nowadays, complaining that I don't call enough. That is understanding. But the fact is, she has completely ignored me for the most crucial parts of my life. She tries to blame it on hard life back in Russia, but its a really petty excuse, since I would assume you would try to make life better for your loved ones, not worse by ignoring them and having zero communication. I reminded her of the times when she spent all her free time completely engrossed in a book, not listenin to a word I tried telling her. Or when instead of finding the reason why I was such a fuck up, she would grab me by my hair or whip out a leather belt. Or when she would type out her 500 page doctorate on a type writer, without ever recognizing that her child needed to go to sleep at 3 am (living in on room sucked). Or when she told me that her divorce was my fault, since my behavior mad

Taking The Leap
Taking the Leap Tonight I find myself standing on the brink, The swirling winds of life making it hard to think, Do I jump and give love a try, Or walk away, forever to hide. The darkness hides from me the depths, And all it would take is just one step, Th throw my heart out and let it soar, Or smash below and be no more. No guarantees will I find, When I leap out with this heart of mine, For only your love can save me now, You are the one to whom I am bound. Time and again I have come to the brink, But always before, away i did slink, Now with you in my mind, I take the leap, Placing my heart in your hands to keep. DQA

Catfight Ty And Info
WOW! I have to say Thank You so much to ALL of my friends that have stepped up to help me win this race for Godmother! It has become a regular CATFIGHT and we are kickin' butt. I was challenged when I hit FU QUEEN and J-Roxxx had a 650K point lead. Well, guess what? THAT LEAD IS JUST ABOUT GONE! Another 50 k or so and it's neck and neck! Thank you so very much to Emanon, my owner for the Happy Hour that took me into FU QUEEN and to everyone else that has been helping. WE HAVE KNOCKED OUT ALMOST 1 MILLION POINTS in less than 2 weeks! YOU GUYS ROCK! NO SLOWING DOWN THOUGH! Let's keep it up! In fact, let's knock what is left of that lead out of the way! EVERYONE that busts their butt to help me will recieve a Salute from me and other Thanks along the way! You guys got my back and you know I got yours! Let's keep kickin' some FU BUTT! xoxo PebblesinAZ ~PebblesinAZ~READ BLOGS!~CoFounder of the FREAK show with...who else...FREAK!~Owned by Emanon!xoxo@ fu

Needs To Be Said!
Here is my rant and then Im done....Over the passed 6 months Ive had some eye opening and heart breaking experiences that have basically rocked my world and taught me a few things.....1-never fully trust anyone unless they are your spouse/soulmate because they are the ones that are ALWAYS there for you no matter what....2-take things at face value....3-follow your gut instincts they are rarely ever wrong....4-If you believe in something dont back down just because someone doesnt agree...5-Always be willing to talk and listen to others because you never know if things can be fixed and 6-dont believe everything your told, if you have doubts ASK! And on that note I have made changes in my life and Ive stopped letting ppl walk all over me, I dont bottle things up, if I have a problem I will voice it instead of letting it stew and fester like so many do. Im working hard on trying to fix the things that are wrong in my life right now, between really missing my dad and wishing he was here

Ur Tagged!
Once u have been tagged,u have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things,facts or habits bout ur self.At the end,u choose at least 5 ppl to b tagged,list in their names.Dont forget to leave comment that sayz,"ur it!" on their profile & ask them to read ur blog.U cant tag the person who tagged u. 1. Im 5'5" 2. I am an Aunt to 11 children 3. I am the Godmother to 5 children 3. I quit smoking ten years ago 4. I live in Pittsburgh 5. I have 3 brothers and 2 sisters 6. I am a radiation therapist 7. I was a total Daddy's girl 8. I love scary movies 9. I have great friends 10.I hate to be cold. 1. Kaydez 2. Jake 3. Urfunny 4. Blazed 5. Greendolphin

Waiting
I just got word that my 88 yr old granma is on the verge of death. We could keep her with us by putting her on machines, but she told us long ago that she didn't want to live like that, because that wasn't living. So now we are waiting for the end to come. I don't know if I want to go see her as she is now or remember her the way she was. A firey, fiesty lady who didn't take guff off anyone no matter who they were. Death comes to every one sooner or later. All i can do now is pray that her passing is peaceful and painless. Go with God granma. I will see you again some day.3/9/08 addendum. My grandmaother passed away last night peacefully and painlessly. She will be missed. but she is no longer in any pain and with her friends who have gone before.

Omg I Had The Scare Of My Life Tonight
My youngest son took of with his friends tonight one after being told not to so he is in trouble for that so i went to work and had to come home casue i couldnt hardly get around because we are under blizzard attacks right now of snow we have gain almost 14 inches right now and it is still comeing down hard and ya cant see well my kid and some other kids got lost in the blizzard and we couldnt find them i am so sick to my stomach now i cant stand it the feeling i got when i got the call they was lost just made my heart drop to the floor .. after 3 hours we found them all there ok there just cold and scared maybe as much as i was ...I have sat and cried casue of all the bad thoughts going thur my head i dont think they know just how bad they scared everyone really ..so needless to say i have had a very streeful day on top of this happening several other things has happened and i think it finally broke this camels back .. so hug your child every night kiss them when you can tell them yo

Saysha Means...
What Saysha Means You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I Am Not Ignoring U
Ok heres the deal---for some odd reason my computer and Fubar hasnt been getting along very well for the last several days--- IF U HAVE RATED ME OR SENT A PROFILE COMMENT AND I HAVENT REPLY TO U ---IM NOT IGNORING U --ITS NOT LETTING ME RETURN THE FAVOR AT TIMES--BUT I WILL EVENTUALLY GET BACK WITH U -- I LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS HERE AND WOULD NEVER IGNORE ANYONE

I Never Planned To...
know more about cars than, how to change a wheel, top up the oil, the wind screen wash and the radiator...oh and knowing that a stocking makes a good fan belt in an emergency! I now know how to: Change a battery, jump start a car, what a ball joint is and how it attaches to the wishbone... what happens when the bolt hole has been machined 1mm too big... and how to correct a mis-aligned wheel due to said machining error....how wheels are tracked on load of the back wheels, what camber is... I could go on but I'm boring myself!! My poor car!!! I took it for it's MOT 2 weeks ago.... It had a siezed brake caliper and needed new brake pads... no problem, so far so good...New headlight, yep thats why I picked one up from the scrap yard...doing well so far... Too much play on ball joint, requiered replacing...OK no biggy...jobs done, car passed MOT....WOOT!! OK cancel the Woot...battery is dead when I go to pick it up, mechanic left the lights on. OK so jump start it on the f

Random Sex Tips From Angi...the Saga Continues...
SCROLL DOWN FOR IMPORTANT INFO!! BELIEVE IN JESUS!!! AAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA For those of you falling for it the first time...lesson learned: Don't believe everything you read. For those of you falling for it again...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Silly you!

Cleaning Out The Dead Weight
I will be logging on here and there now that the Holidays are over. There are some of the coolest people on my list, that I am still in touch with, that I still talk to, on email, or phone. Just wanted people to know, if you see me at the bottom of your page, I am ONLY doing that to clear up the dead weight on my page. I don't want nor need people on my page that I never speak to, and vice versa. Sounds like a plan to me. Also to random people who are wondering who is that person?? Not coming to rate, or leave comments, just cleaning out a large amount of people that I don't know, and people I used to talk with, but have cut ties with. Can ya dig it?? LOL

A Look At My Life
I don't know what has been going on with me here lately. I guess I just try to make to many people happy before making myself happy. I just started a new job and I'm not sure how its going to work out. Its not a full time job so IDK. I'm still looking for a full time job but this is just to bring in some money untill then. I really like this one girl but it seems I can never say or do the right things any more. As see says "we grew up so different" and the way she grew up is the right way and I'm just stupid for the way I grew up. I just want the best for her and I'm starting to see I'm not the best for her so I guess I'll just try to move on but still be there for her. I just can't seem to comprehend women. They say they want a nice guy and can't seem to find one. Well here is one that can't seem to find anyone. I know I'm "extremely picky" but thats what makes me, well ME. I love to talk to listen and help out anyone that needs the help or just wants someone to talk t

Throat Is To Face As Vagina Is To...
Hoo-ha. Cooter. Cunt. Pussy. Female reproductive system. I realized whilst searching for a photo of a sad pussy to add to my previous post that I erroneously referred to my Vulva as my Vagina. o noes! To be fair, I like to think of my Vagina as the whole shebang. I'm not opposed to referring to women as Dames, Birds, Skirts, or, in certain company, simply Vaginas. E.g., "We need at least two more Vaginas for the co-ed softball game." But I totally blew it when I said I'd send donors a photo of my vagina. My vagina, while still in need of Awareness, is kinda hard to photograph. So, instead of sending gracious donors a photo of my vagina (which would, by necessity, involve a clear plastic speculum, and I'm really not into that), I suppose I could send a photo of my vulva. Someone requested a tally on how my Vagina Awareness Campaign was going. So far I have a couple pledges, but no bone-ified donors. None of you cheapskates have been willing to show off to grocery store cl

Murphy's Love Laws
Murphy's Love Laws 1. All the good ones are taken. 2. If the person isn't taken, there's a reason. (corr. to 1) 3. The nicer someone is, the farther away (s)he is from you. 4. Brains x Beauty x Availability = Constant. 5. The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them. 6. Money can't buy love, but it sure gets you a great bargaining position. 7. The best things in the world are free --- and worth every penny of it. 8. Every kind action has a not-so-kind reaction. 9. Nice guys(girls) finish last. 10. If it seems too good to be true, it probably is. 11. Availability is a function of time. The minute you get interested is the minute they find someone else.

Don't Worry 'bout A Thing
Ever been misunderstood, misused, or mislead Ever knocked on the sky and had it fall on your head well, don't worry 'bout it, don't worry Ever lost your luggage, your marbles, your house Or found yourself in bed with Uncle Sam or Mickey Mouse Ever been accused of murder on Music Row Or caught in morning traffic when you really gotta go - Oh no! (Chorus) Life is funny, life's a mess Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing Don't worry 'bout a thing, don't worry 'bout it Life is sticky, life can bruise Sometimes you win sometimes your losing No matter what it brings Don't worry 'bout a thing Ever sat yourself down when the seat is all wet Or seen your "ex" sucking face with a little brunette (no, no, no) Don't worry 'bout it, no don't worry Ever lost your religion, ever lost your best friend Or found your last record in the bargain bin Or been stuck in a divorce like crazy glue Or scraped someone else's gum off the bottom of your shoe - Boo hoo! (

My Letter To Fake People.
Dear Fake Person, I, myself, used to weigh 365 pounds. As a teenager, I was an ugly girl. I saw myself as ugly, but that did not by any means stop people from loving me... nor liking me. My beauty was always within. I was liked and I was loved. I had a heart of gold, and I still do. So I am writing a letter to all of you "fake people" who can't find the strength to be yourselves. I have to wonder what brings you to think you can't be yourself and be liked or loved? Is it that you grew up in an environment where it wasn't safe to be you? I did too, but I was always myself. That's no excuse. Perhaps you were TOLD you were beaten with the ugly stick, not realizing that true beauty lies within? I've been told that. That's still no excuse. Has nobody ever opened a door for you or smiled at you when you smiled at them? Don't let that get you down. I have no respect for the fact that so many people find it necessary to wrap themselves in a painting of another person and create a life tha

For Two Special Ladies Who I Miss So Much
"You can shed tears that she is gone, or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all she's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her, or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember her only that she is gone, or you can cherish her memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on." - David Harkins

So, Yeah.
I just had a pretty wonderful blog written about me. I guess sometimes people feel the need to only present the facts that benefit themselves.. and then have a good portion of those facts be heavily exaggerated. I've never been one to advertise all the negative things that happen in my life.. and I'm not going to start now. Even when I've mentioned things in the past, I never named names and put the spotlight directly on someone. My problems, even when I occasionally vent them in the form of some vague literary piece of blogwork, are still my problems. If you're here looking for my side of the story, you're probably not going to get it. I don't owe you an explanation, I don't need your approval for the things I do and don't do in my life, and I definitely don't need you to feel sorry for me. I am better than that.. and I am most certainly better than him.

Brought Dad Home From The Emergency Room Tonite
We just got dad home from the emergency room a little while ago. poor fellas bp was 224 n he was in servre pain. they did tests on him n luckly it wasnt his heart. but he does have a fracture on his back n two compressed disc. they said he needs to rest, problem will be getting him to do so. got so much he wants done, n i told him i'd take care of it all. but hes older n stuck n his ways. but if yall can pray fer him, hes got lots of worries n dealing with the pain. everything else is going ok, but if i anit on much thats why. hope all is well with everyone

Hummmm
Okay - so to any of you who have been, or are a godfather or higher .. What are some pointers on leveling up - without having contests & giveaways - I am BROKE & Fu-Broke! And I don't have a suga daddy that'll buy me blasts & happy hours lol!

Did You Feel The Rain Today
Did you feel the rain today? Falling down your face Was your heart a pitter patter As the beat began to race Was your mind a sea of rolling dreams Cast in the waves of time Could you listen to me calling you In my heart you're always mine The air is full of spices Flowers like sweet jasmine Fuller lips for sipping Dripping with sweet passion If miracles were possible I'd will you here with me To climb the highest mountains Then power play the seas I know you felt the rain today Just as I did too Passions love the drizzle From eyes of mine to you Did you feel the rain today? Falling down your face Was your heart a pitter patter As our beats began to race.

~that Chance~
On my knee’s Disguised, looking up to you. Feeling you deep under my skin, Holding my breath. Maybe I am wrong, Bittersweet emotions consume my being. Hold me in your hands, And not let me fall. Anticipation stealing my heart; Wanting, needing, longing, Leading me to feel you, hear you. A fine line between love and hate. Putting myself beside you, If I had you, Finding my way, Staking my place. Seeing inside, Waiting to come to life. Unchanged road with storms to heed, Guide me with your light for that chance. ~Jaynie

Not Online Much At The Moment
My apologies to my friends, I am not online much these days. I try to get on once a day but work and repairs to my car and trying to get off my backside to have a social life, prevent me from being online as much as I'd like. Not even had a chance to online game for a month *sigh* so please leave a message or some love or whatever you would like, and I will get back to you as soon as I get online next. Cheers Forever in Sin Angel of Sin Asa

The Internet
I recently had someone hurt my feelings..then act like a child instead of an adult. They were rude and basically attacked me instead of talking to me about what was wrong. I am dissapointed in their behavior. The final reaction was them "Blocking" me and avoiding any confrontation. I discussed this with someone I love dearly..they put all of this bullshit in a nutshell: On the internet, and Fubar in particular, there are people who hide behind their keyboards. They think they can say anyting and do anything to people without regard. They forget there is a real person with real feelings at the other end of their actions. It disgusts me to think people act in that mannor. I always pray for people who act inappropriately. All I am able to do now is accept them for what they are and know they will in turn receive the reaction to their actions 10 fold.

Trying To Feel Better
waiting...always patient This is one of those things I am not good at...sooo bare with me..I have the idea u write what u are feeling good or bad...well I am moving that is good in some ways bad in others..the stress in my life is so thick a bull dozer would tip over..I have taken this mood out on alot of people..I still love them and hope that they forgive me..I guess if they really love me and want me they will...huggs The person I refer to in this blog is special to me and I am afraid I lost them..thy dont take apologizing easily..they were let down and both of us jumped to conclusions..UNFORTUNATLY this person can end our togetherness and my side didnt know how much it would hurt...so I thought a blog would help me..I shared alot with this person and really miss them, guess u could say a piece of my heart is missing and I am getting tired of putting the pieces back so I will let them keep it...and I am learning Jealousy is a one sided thing..I also am learning the difrence be

Freezin Ballz
Race was nice today, I took pictures so you could see what I was wearing and they also had photographers on the route so expect more pics, the weather was freezin ballz ass cold so I wore the spandex pants,shirt and my shamrock tshirt, brought a pair of shorts just in case the weather would've changed, maybe I'll do the same race next yr if i'm still around, I improved my timing by 4 minutes since my first 5mile race, I'm becoming one of the area's top runners and I love when people cheer me on, my goal is to maybe qualify for the olympic trials, by the time i hit 30yrs old I should be there and I can't wait, ran into my running buddy at the race, didn't expect on running into him so soon cause it was over 5,000 runners, imagine that 5,000 runners just to run a 5mile run, I made my way into the front of the line so i wouldn't get caught in middle, wanted to stay for the celebration after the race but its military time, I have to go get my weekly haircut that the military requires me to

Those Special Ones..
I know today is supposidly about me being it's my birthday today and all.. but I've gotta to give credit where credit is due and put out there those people who help me make it through the day and rock my socks off :-D So.. say hello to my rockin family and give em a shout tell em matthew sent ya.. My dearest Boo.. The one that keeps me in line and my adviser to a lot of random things..*hugs* Katiemae... truly one of my best friends on here..She might be a flirtatious lil woman but me and her can't help but laugh at each others random tardness..♥ ya! Shannon..shes one of my local buddies and I owe her a bit for all the advice and mostly drink recipes we've shared over the past year lol..thanks for being there woman! :D BJ.. If we were any closer truly i'd have a new drinking buddy.. lol but since we don't its all good..another one of my great friends who deserves a bit of recognition in my book..thanks for being there hun..:) Tracy..more like my online m

Peace
Once upon a starlit dawn Bare feet walking on the frost covered grass A butterfly fluttered searching for a place to land. Masters of old always said you cannot catch a butterfly with a closed fist I opened my shivering hand as frosty air come out of my mouth. The butterfly landed on my palm gracefully and gently resting. It seem to look up at me as to say, your open hand gave me shelter and some air to breathe Your closed fist trapped precious air and was not available for shelter. Remember the lesson the butterfly taught, open your hand to give a gift' Open you hand to let someone else breathe. Peace

Chance Meeting
On my screen you came out of the blue, Awakening my heart from pain to feelings before I never knew We are both scared of the road fate has shown Two souls paired to a destiny still unknown Should we choose to meet and tempt these hands of fate It would take two, for the odds to be beat To lead us to eternity and heavens gate Should we choose to not would our minds constantly wonder, Was that the one I always sought On that do we dare to ponder? For you have touched me deep I long to hold you for all time To be mine, forever to keep For us to share a lifetime I want your passionate kiss to take my breath away Never want to miss your touch while in each others arms we lay So now the decision is ours to make I'll treasure you whatever may be My heart is here for you to take Loyalty I'll, vow should you give yours to me?

Xmen: Jean Grey
You Are Jean Grey Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death). Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally! Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals Which of the X-Men Are You?

Linguistic?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convincing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Promises
My Love, I make a lot of promises to you, promises I shall keep. I don't know why, but I'm compelled to make you a few promises here, so everyone can witness. I promise to love you unconditionally forever. No matter what happens, what you do or say, I will always love you. I promise to devote myself to you for eternity. I am yours, body heart and soul. Every waking second of my life is going to be spent trying to make you happy, Love. I promise to do anything in my power to make you smile. No matter the cost, no matter what I have to do to make it happen, I want to make you smile every day. I promise that I will never look down on you, I will always respect you and put you on a pedestal. Even if my sarcastic humor seems like I'm belittling you, I have nothing but respect for you Love. I promise I will never discount your wants and feelings. I will always consider you before I take any action..whether you are around or not. I may not always succeed, I may do stupid thi

Ha Ha Ha!
You Are 36% Sociopath From time to time, you may be a bit troubled and a bit too charming for your own good. It's likely that you're not a sociopath... just quite smart and a bit out of the mainstream! Are You A Sociopath?

Who's That Girl?
Angel of Death came to me on a beautiful sunday morning. She appraoched me with compassion and spoke sweetly to me in almost a whisper. Was it my time to meet her to go beyond to see the undiscovered country? She whispered fear not as she brushed my check with her hands. No fear remained as she leaned forward and kissed my forehead. The smell of jasmine and of the night lingered as she went back into the darkness. I was numb with bliss because of my encounter with the beautiful angel of death

I Am A Banana Lol
You Are a Banana You are mellow, easy going, and a total softie on the inside. People find it really easy to get along with you. You suit most tastes. And while you're very sweet, you're not boring or ordinary. You have an attraction to the exotic, and you could show up anywhere... doing almost anything! You are spirited, energetic, and a total kick to be around. You're also quite funny. Your sense of humor is on the goofy side, and it fits you well. What Type of Fruit Are You?

Hands Of Sorrow
Sunrise through the morning glass light peering through to stir me from sleep. Dreams have come and gone nothing worth remembering Lite the incense say a prayer Meditation takes me drifting through the stars and over the hills across the seas Nothing has filled the hole in my heart the pain and hurt will not leave Booze pills and magick cannot take it away Nothing by chance I was taught Ange comes with a healing touch and gentle grace Cradling my heart in her hands She works a magick I have never felt I look into her eyes and see the universe Chains have broken loose my soul is soaring She places my head in her lap as I drift off to sleep

Contest Ends Sunday Night At Midnight!
Thanks so very much to all the contestants for their awesome submissions I love them all, and for the time they spent commenting on their lovely sexy pics! Thanks also to all of their friends who came to help and show love and support to favorites. Because of all of you there are over 15,000 comments for this contest I will have an exact count once the contest ends. Spekaing of which, comments and rates will no longer be counted as of midnight tonight Sunday March 9! So please be aware that any that are left after that will not count for the final numbers. Then I will look at the pics again one by one see how many rates and comments they had, and pick out my favorite based on the rates and comments and most importantly which entry I like the best and pick the winner, second and third place finishers as well as award any other prizes that I think are deserved. I really do appreciate all the work everyone put into this contest and I thank all the sexy women who entered my contest!

I Really Don't Know Why..
I feel SO compelled to type this. But I am entirely sick of this "Marines Kill Puppy" saga. This is a shout to everyone outraged by such behavior. YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKING WORTHLESS. I don't care if you're on my friend list, my family list, top friend, etc. Go, and I'm serious, fuck yourselves. Do you think this is the first case of animal abuse? Do you think there aren't people that take shovels to the heads of just born puppies because the owner doesn't want them? Do you think there aren't dogs left chained to trees, out of reach of the water bowl until said chain is embedded so far into their neck that they're lucky if they're freed to live a life? Have you, in your MTV driven existence, ever tuned into Animal Planet or the Discovery/National Geographic channels? If it took THIS to get you upset, then you need to check your fucking priorities. You media obsessed, head up your own self absorbed ass, topic jumping fuckwits. Go to the local shelter and make a d

What A Loser He Turned Out To Be...
"What a Loser He Turned Out to Be..." . If only I was able to collect some monetary fee every time I had to hear that line. Hell, I'd be charging myself just as much as I would my friends. The thing that's most interesting about that statement is that he didn't "turn out" to be a loser. He always was one. We just didn't see it until reality was slapping us in the face. For whatever reason, when we meet someone new, there is a delicious sense of novelty swirling in the air around them. Or maybe it's those alcohol fumes. At any rate, we end up light headed and don't see the signs in front of us. We wax over obvious details. We build his image up in our minds into something that doesn't even resemble the person in front of us. If it's anyone's fault that he "turns out" to be a loser.... it's ours. The same could be said about how men are with women. As long as she is attractive enough and deems you worthy enough to fuck, you'll overlook just about anything

Is This A Real Person Or What?
ok i just got this message on here in my email and well i just love the spelling and the way its set up as in the way they worded it. its to funny. read and have a good laugh at this girl Hi, How are you doing today ?Hope you are doing Pretty cool today..i love what i read on ur page and i believe you are a perfect being, God must have done a perfect and tidious job in molding you a masterpiece, you indeed the cynoture of my eye, so beautiful and elegant. my mind tells me that it must have taken the almighty much time to create you. I am looking for a serious cordial relationship with passion for whom will help me just the way i have been praying for, who does not only have love for material thing, but sincere and objective in life pls try and get back to me. I am a honest single and serious minded woman, above all things i love honensty and sincerity man to spend my life with and also god fearing man.I am objective and cool. I am 5ft 6inch tall with averagly stacture , easy

My Son Has Passed Away!!!
This is Layla's friend Carla, she found out Sunday her oldest son passed away Sunday morning!! Please pray for her and her family in their time of need! Thank you all, may God Bless you and keep you safe. Witchy Woman imikimi - Customize Your World

Beer Vs Vagina
BEER VS. VAGINA: 1. Beer is always wet. Vagina needs a little work. One point to BEER 2. Warm beer tastes awful. One point to VAGINA 3. A really cold beer is satisfying. One point to BEER 4. If after taking a swig of your favourite beer you find a hair between your teeth, you may puke. One point to VAGINA 5. If you get home reeking of beer your wife may get mad, make a scene, kick you out, etc. If you get home reeking of vagina your wife may get mad, kick you out, even leave you. There's definitely a point to be had here, depending on your point of view and personal circumstances. I'll just call it a DRAW for the time being. 6. Ten beers in one night and you can't drive home. Ten vaginas in one night and you don't want to drive anywhere. One point to VAGINA 7. If you have a lot of beer in a public place, your reputation may suffer. If you eat any p***y in public, you become a legend. One point to VAGINA 8. If a cop stops you and you smell of bee

Kiss Alive
I went to the KISS ALIVE concert last night at Magic City Music Hall last night and it was great. KISS ALVIE is a KISS tribute band and they matched the origional so well. If you wernet a die hard kiss fan you really couldnt tlel the difference between them and the origional band. I had such a great time. I was so hyped up watchin them nad listening to them play. My fav kiss member is the demon anyway so I made sure i was really close to him. Since I've been a member of hte kiss army since i was aobu three or four iknew just about every song they sang and Demon noticed. He interacted with em a lot durrin the concert. He even came over to where i was standing and when i smiled he leaned down grinnin and pointint to my teeth grinned and said "vampire nice" it was so cool. I am a major fan of the song "Beth", peter's solo song. When he came forward to sing it I was screaming. When he came up he reached out and touched or held a lot of hte hands held out to him. Mine was one o

Once You've Loved Somebody- Dixie Chicks
Just because they are somewhat controversally, I love their music & had a chance to see them a few years ago. I've been listening to them alot lately at work. This is one of my favorites. I should go out tonight Get on with my life Break these chains of solitude With a little luck and a little help I might even find myself In the arms of someone new Chorus: Once youve loved somebody It aint that easy to do Once youve loved somebody Like I loved you Look what youve gone and done Youve ruined everything for everyone Who tries to steal this heart away I cant get you off of my mind Ive tried to tell myself a million times A little time is all it takes Repeat chorus I gave you everything that I had to give I dont know if I can go that far again

Something Not Making Sense In My Life
Why do people hurt me? Why do they choose to do it to me at the worst times? And why in the hell can't some accept me for ME??? And instead they decide they can't be with me because I'm in this damn chair???

Relationship Bliss
To yearn for a touch; To fall into a warm embrace; To be loved as such. To give all of your heart and soul; To feel the love over flowing in abundance; To know together you could make a diamond out of coal. To make the other person your every thing; To have complete faith in each other; To know one day there will be a ring. To know you would never give up on the fight; To being able to communicate on every level with endless conversation; To just being able to look into each others eyes and make love into the night. Writing and reciting your own vows; Promising to be your best with achieving self love and keeping a positive attitude; Taking time to show your love in the right now. Pull your strength from one another; Don't be afraid to show the emotions at hand; Today turns to months, months turn to years, and with age you know in your heart there will be no other.

Married!!!!!!
OKAY ALL THAT NEED TO KNOW ONE I AM FU-ENGAGED TO MY BEST FRIEND KATI REALLY ENGAGED TO MY LOVER ADAM...AKA FATHER PHOENIX I AM A MOTHER OF TWO WONDERFUL BOYS TWO IF YOU WANNA KNOW MORE JUST ASK ME!!! LOVES TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND SEE YOU ALL AROUND

Shades Of Love
"There's something that I want to say.....But words sometimes get in the way.....I just want to show..... my feelings for you.....There's nothing that I'd rather do"......Freddie Jackson "You are my Lady" Does love come in many shades? Is like and lust a prelude to love? Or are they just a lighter shade? Or are they just different depths of love? Many people use the word too freely and I believe that is where the confusion comes in: I love my cat.....I love chocolate.....I love you...each having specific meaning but not having the same depth. I myself am guilty of using that word without thought or feelings persay.....yeah yeah yeah.....I know we all say I luv ya but how many times do we actually mean it with the depth of " I Love You"? How about wanting to say it without voicing it? Is it possible to show love for someone without voicing that word? Why do we hide that feeling from each other? Is it the scare of being hit with a wet sock? Is there a reason other than the ob

Ty This Monster Lives! Xoxo
(Note: First person to sticky original bulletin in my name and message me gets 50k fubucks.) PebblesinAZ is awesome, always there to help her friends as much as she can. Rate, Fan and add her, you'll be happy you did. Make sure you tell her This Monster Lives sent you. ~PebblesinAZ~READ BLOGS!~CoFounder of the FREAK show with...who else...FREAK!~Owned by Emanon!xoxo@ fubar Check out her blogs while you're there to find out how you can get fubucks, join the Freak Show and more! This pimpout brought to you by This Monster Lives (Spankers/Club F.A.R./Shadow Leveler)@ fubar

Fake Pages!!!
I guess the new "item of the week" from DJ Shell, Chiefy Boy & the rest of those Bandwagon HUMPING Hotties, is that I am the one behind these "Hottie Hater" profile pages popping up. ANYONE who knows me, and can see from the blogs I post, that I HIDE BEHIND NOTHING AND NO_ONE... I dont even block the little crybabies from my page.. THEY chose to say their childish statements to me and then run and hide... I am the one who discovered the original page wasnt AZ. like you all thought. But now , Just because a page is started my simply clicking on the OLD GROUP PAGE... everyone thinks its ME!! HAHA, obviously you all might be stupid enough to make fake pages and still want the chance to EARN FUBUCKS from it, BUT NOT ME... that was such clever detective work there SHELL... wow no wonder Chiefy keeps you around... But sorry to say, its not me, But continue acting like I am the only one who has discovered how pathetic you all are... I never come to their pages, I may comment a bu

This Is What's New
Hey, the past few days have been...well for lack of a better word, Interesting, it's amazing how childish and low some people will act when things don't go their way... I've done a lot of thinking on things. To the point where i sat here last night for a few hours debating on whether to shut my page down and not tell anyone... I'm still debating a few things none of which i'll go into detail because i'm not really the type of person to ask for help or ask someone to be there for me. It's been a hectic i guess for lack of a better term emotional past few days, in REAL life not just on here believe it or not i do survive and talk with others outside of fubar lol. If things go the way i would like with my interests on the side away from work i hope to have a huge announcement in the coming weeks... Anyway thanks for takin the time to read this i know it wasn't the best but it's my blog so...

Lost Shawns Keys
SO SHAWN GAVE ME AN EXTRA SET OF KEYS FOR HIS CAR. HE HE ... IT IS ONE OF THOSE REAL FANCY KEYS WITH THE ALARM ON IT AND ALL.. ITS REALLY TIGHT .. ON MY SPECIAL KEYRING HE BOUGHT ME. IT IS SOOOOO PURTY .. WELL I THINK I HAVE LOST IT ... DO I TELL HIM BOUT IT ?? OR WAIT.. BTW, I TOOK HIS SET OF KEYS THIS MORNING AND DROVE OFF TO WORK IN HIS CAR :) IT HAD MORE GAS IN IT THEN MINE LOL ... CURRENTLY SHAWN IS STUCK AT HOME WAITING ON ME :) MAYBE I SHOULD MUMM THIS ...

Million$$$ Fubuck Contest
MILLION $$$ FU-BUCK CONTEST Ok I am having a MILLION dollar contest. You can use any SFW pic you'd like. First place - ONE MILLION FU$$$$$$ Second place - 500K FU$$$$$ Third place - 250K FU$$$$$ Fourth place - 100K FU$$$$$ There will also be a bonus for the most rates of 50K FU$$$$$ This contest will run for 1 week. As soon as I have 10-15 Entries I will set up a start time. Self bombing is allowed and encouraged. Bombing families allowed. Absolutely NO DRAMA. If you cause any drama you will be immediately removed from the contest! So if you would like to enter please send me a private message with the link to the pic you would like to use. ♫LilBamaGirl♫@ fubar (repost of original by '♫LilBamaGirl♫' on '2008-03-09 19:11:26')

Live Life, Love Slowly,laugh Alot!!!
The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of Divine accident. Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless. Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the mom

Truth, Faith And Trust
A key to the heart, my love must find To open up this world of mine. Enter the sole and into the heart To show that the feeling will never part. Giving up truth and never a lie To show my heart so it won't cry. Faith and trust the heart can tell When your in love all emotion will swell. The day's go past, and so it seems The love of my life is just a dream. I'll never see different my feelings For love, I guess it was sent, from heaven above.

A Venting If You Will
ok, so here's a question, What the FUCK is the deal with people just BLINDLY inviting to a lounge, i mean i have it on my page to these fucktards not READ a profile before just hitting invite!! AND on top of that to make matters worse when i send them a shout and tell them sorry i don't do lounges they FUCKIN ACT LIKE i'm the one missing out sorry BUT i don't do lounges it's about as exciting as a blind guy picking out his favorite porno, to those that love lounges ROCK on that's your think NOT mine. So don't start blastin me and hatin.

Where Are You?
I look for you everywhere but you are nowhere in sight. I constantly listen for your voice but it's not here again this night. I reach for your strong body across our massive bed. But your side is cold and empty and you're someplace else instead. I fight to hold back the tears and the pains of lonliness I feel. But I feel like I've lost my strength and that my broken heart will not heal. I lie awake and wait for you praying that you will come soon. But when morning finally comes I find that you're still not in our room. When sleep finally takes over I can only dream of you. Waking from these precious dreams I cannot stand to do. Please, please come to me now. I need to feel your embrace. I pray that when I open my eyes I will finally see your loving face.

Party
HEY. I AM HAVING A BIRTHDAY ON FRIDAY. I HAVE NO PARTY PLANNED THAT I KNOW OF. IF MY FAMILY ISNT HAVING A PARTY FOR ME ON FRIDAY SHOULD I STAY HOME FOR A LITTLE BIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS OR JUST GO OUT EARLY AND PARTY ALL NIGHT? I DONT WANT TO UPSET MY FAMILY BUT ITS MY BIRTHDAY AND ITS ON A FRIDAY. I WANT TO GO OUT AND PARTY. ITS BEEN A FEW YEARS SINCE I REALLY PARTIED ON MY BIRTHDAY.

This Is Me
I am not famous or even very well-known. But I am who I am. I am me and me alone. I do not pretend to be more than who I am inside. I do not put up a false front and the real me I do not hide. I say what I feel and I think what I say. What I stand for right now I will stand for every day. Those who really know me can always be sure that my friendship is true and that my love is pure. No matter what life brings I know what I will do. I will be honest with others and to myself I will always be true.

The Last Biker!!!!
The Last Biker The old ones stand out now. Their numbers dwindling, they're a sad loss to the American scene, these individuals with the worn down clothes and faces. Some in packs, not as large as a while ago, sometimes alone, (the alone one is the best). One who's been there a long time, staying in the life he loves, never giving in to a system that sucks you up like a vortex if you slip one foot into it. He's got his connections; a few like him that care for and protect each other, hanging on to the only unique lifestyle left, like old cowboys. Their faces are leathered and rough by forty, but their eyes still sharp and knowing. Some are grey in beard and braids, some are limp in step or pain in the kidneys, still they know no other life. He looks at the new ones and turns away; knowing they will never know of life on the road and of the women who can take it: Wild, loving women who will hang in with them because they love it too. A woman with a wild heart and a loyal

When A Heart Is Broken
When a heart is broken the soul just slowly dies. Emptiness fills the body and the mind no longer tries. A broken heart still beats and the body continues to live. But all emotion is lost and there is nothing more to give. The person then becomes useless but continues to take up space. The eyes are dull and lifeless. Of life or love there is no trace. When a heart is broken there is no repair to be made. An empty shell is all that remains and soon, that too, shall fade.

Duel With The Demon
I found myself alone that night when the darkness began to surround me. Though I had tried to forget and run away once again the demon had found me. I've never seen the demon's face but I'm sure the evil does show. For he hides in the shadows all day and at night he follows everywhere I go. What is it that he wants from me? I want him to be gone. Why did he ever come to me? Why won't he leave me alone? I hear his shallow breathing and feel icy fingers touch my back. Why does he just linger there? When will I feel his attack? As I try to yell for help I find no sounds can I get out. Still my lips keeps moving as my mind continues to shout. The demon begins to talk to me with a hollow ragged wheeze. When his words finally become clear I suddenly become weak in the knees. "There's no use to run or even try to hide or think you can ever escape me. Together now we are joined as one even if you forever hate me. Some days you may not hear me and thin

My Crayon Color
You Are a Red Crayon Your world is colored with bright, vivid, wild colors. You have a deep, complex personality - and you are always expressing something about yourself. Bold and dominant, you are a natural leader. You have an energy that is intense... and sometimes overwhelming. Your reaction to everything tends to be strong. You are the master of love-hate relationships. Your color wheel opposite is green. Green people are way too mellow to understand what drives your energy. What Color Crayon Are You?

What Goddess I Am..
You Are Aphrodite! A total shining star with a ton of admirers And no wonder: you live life to the fullest! When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on What Goddess Are You?

I Call Bullshit On This One
You May Be a Bit Borderline... Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame! When you're up, you're a little bit crazy... And when you're down, your whole world is crashing Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute! What Personality Disorder Are You?

My Anal Is Retentive.. Lol
"So go ahead and mix up your alphabetized CD collection." Yea my dvds are in groups first by studio, side label color, and letter color like for real... You Are Totally Anal Retentive Yup, you're so uptight - people definitely have called you "anal." You're the type of person who's so OCD you organize your M&Ms before eating them. You have so many rules and rituals, it's hard for you to let loose and enjoy life. So go ahead and mix up your alphabetized CD collection. Live a little! Are You Anal Retentive?

Life....
Your Life Path Number is 1 Your purpose in life is to lead others. You have great drive and determination. Nothing is going to stand in your way. You seek out challenges and the spotlight. You'll take all the work - and all the glory. Status and success are important to you. You demand the best from everyone and everything. In love, you tend to take a protective role. You enjoy being the provider in relationships. You expect others to be like you, and as a result, you are often disappointed. A little selfish and vain, you always put yourself first. Remember, everyone already knows you're great - you don't need to remind them! What Is Your Life Path Number?

Ack At This One~!
Your 2005 Song Is Beverly Hills by Weezer "My automobile is a piece of crap My fashion sense is a little whack And my friends are just as screwy as me" You breezed through 2005 in your own funky style! What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

I Give Up.
whats the point in trying to better myself. if the closer I get to achieving my goals. the more obstacles are placed in front of me. I just found out that if I leave for basic training I will be homeless upon my return. and with my business I have orders i can't fill b/c I either don't have the mold or the scent. the orders I do get barely cover the cost of my supplies. and my family doesn't want to help me get more orders. I just wish I knew what to do.

My Feelings
Love Is ... Love is the greatest feeling, Love is like a play, Love is what I feel for you, Each and every day, Love is like a smile, Love is like a song, Love is a great emotion, That keeps us going strong, I love you with my heart, My body and my soul, I love the way I keep loving, Like a love I can't control, So remember when your eyes meet mine, I love you with all my heart, And I have poured my entire soul into you, Right from the very start.

Always Sicker On The Other Side Of My Mind
bleeding profusely i crawl away licking my trail clean as i go wishing the flow would cease wishing you werent dead wishng for a way to speak without a tongue a dream of sightless eyes in the moonlight as two circle and intertwine shadows fall and all around darkness lurks without a sound theres no place to run and its no use to hide when the enemy stalking you lives inside its all existence is,a gag reel for god to laugh at my miscues,and cry in my times of sorrow.but just to watch no helping hand to save me from the evil this world vomits on my doorstep incessantly always some new piece of shit to buy,some new cunt to fuck-is this it? why bother.so fuck it all fuck it all ito the dirt from whence it came and clean the dust off my shoes as i leave.fiery annihilation is my hope anddream for this world.

12 Short Things About Me Lol
A 12 Numbered SurveyThe emotion I tend 2 hide d most::fear When I'm happy, I need::nothing When I'm sad, I need::a gentle hug I would jump up & down and shout w/ joy right:now if someone told me that I was their perfect person! The last time I cried was::This morning Moment in my life when my emotions froze:May 19, 2007 People who genuinely make me happy::Nick, Anita, Sher, Ash, Lyle, Sam...all in no particular order Something that makes me happy::My friends and family Someone or something that made me laugh:Nick always makes me laugh Ur Good Luck Charm::my grandmas wedding ring Person You Hate Most::Hate is such a strong emotion, but would have to say Crystal On your desk::my mouse..im on a laptop lol Take this survey | Find more surveysBzoink - The Original Survey Site

50 More Facts About Matthew
Ok, so on my profile as you've seen had 50 facts about me. I decided to put 50 more facts here, as I didn't want to there to be too much on my profile. Enjoy! 1. Despite my colorful outward nature, I enjoy things that have dark intentions, such as film, dark comedy, music, gore, etc. 2. Even though it’s close, I have never been to Mexico. However, I have been to Canada (Vancouver). 3. I admit I like some anime shows. I’m not a die hard fan and I don’t watch them just because they’re anime. 4. I am a fish out of water. I love to swim. 5. I am accident prone. I constantly find cuts, scrapes and bruises without any knowledge of their origin. 6. I am acridophobic (grasshoppers) and thantophobic (dying). The latter only when I am thinking too much. 7. I am addicted to Bubble Breaker on my phone. 8. I am becoming interested in the study of numerology and wish to learn more about it. 9. I am not a fan of Apple Inc. - I don’t like their products, their advertising, and the way they

What American City Are You?
You Are Austin A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll. You're totally weird and very proud of it. Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way. Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick What American City Are You? HAHA! That's GREAT! I lived in Austin in 88'..made my son there! *winks* Austin fuckin' RAWKED..6th Street, babyyy!!

What's Your Japanese Name?
what would be ur name in japanese..try it out!!!!! Japanese Name : :Try this out people..its fun japanese name What is your japanese name ? Take each letter of your name and substitute it with the japanese sound to the right of the letter. You wil definetly find it (Enjoy) kutozumofu. A-ka; B-tu; C-mi; D-te; E-ku; F-lu; G-ji; H-ri; I-ki; J-zu; K-me; L-ta; M-rin; N-to; O-mo; P-no; Q -ke; R-shi; S-ari; T-chi; U-do; V-ru; W-mei; X-na; Y-fu; Z-zi….

Missing A Friend
Sometimes in life we meet that special friend that we tend to think we have that special connection with. No, I'm not talking about a love connection here. I'm speaking of a special friend connection that is inseperable. That kind of friend that you can just be yourself around no matter what. The one that you can laugh with. Cry with. Be totally stupid with. That friend that you can trust your whole life with. All of your deepest dirtiest secrets with. Or share your silliest hopes and dreams with. That friend that you can go to when you're having problems with your lover and just vent it all out. Not really asking for advice, just needing someone to listen. That friend that you know you would drop it all for if they called in the middle of the night just to go over and be there with them if they needed you. That friend that you hang out with when you feel like the rest of the world has left you alone in a sea of waves. Then you learn that friend wasn't at all what you thought they we

Firefighter;s Creed
Firefighter's Creed When I'm called to duty god wherever flames may rage give me strength to save a life whatever be its age Help me to embrace a little child before it is too late or save an older person from the horror of that fate Enable me to be alert to hear the weakest shout and quickly and efficiently to put the fire out I want to fill my calling and to give the best in me to guard my neighbor and protect his property And if according to your will I have to lose my life bless with your protecting hand my children and my wife!

Defeated King
As a King speaks with uncertain tone, Scars from his Battles so heavily shown, a melodic sadness swells in his eyes as he lay his head in his hands, yet he doesnt cry. The King is in defeat ,and theres a meriad of why, all the emotion is stacked so high. All the battles and many major wars, taken souls of men and even some amores. He is speaking to his General and the Major by his side. Whom are really his Heart and ever racing Mind. We cannot win kind sirs as our forces are depleated, we were well armed before, but now our armies have been routed. Yet I thank you for your honor and loyalty, your unrelenting wills, but I fear in this battle we will all be killed. You have stood so bold beside me as the enemy walked our shores, mounting and mounting till their numbers were more. Some we were able to slay, but most all of them still walk our lands, leaving their footprint on our sands. I could have asked for mearely nothing more as they trekked across our homeland and marched down our

For Those Who Care...
Ok its been a REALLY hard week for me. I'm sorry I havent been around much, I'm sorry to the Bad Girls for not being more supportive, but you have to understand my situation here and no I'm not spilling it all out here in a blog. I will say this... I've been dealing with my children. And as my profile says they come first. Last week I had my son in and out of the docs, very serious sinus infection. Hes much better and back to school, but now I am home again with my daughter, and hers is a bit worse. I bought my youngest son (yes I have 3 kids) an electric scooter for his 12th birthday last week, my daughter being the tom boy and sister of two older brothers decides to try it out too.. She fell off and broke her arm. Out of the 3 of course she has to be the first to break a bone. So needless to say things have been pretty hard for me. I've been online but not always at my desk. I entered a contest but as most of you can tell not the usual shameless self promotion because I cant

Why Are You So Hostile To Gays?
First at all, I am not a gay activist and I do not fancy the idea of being an activist for any cause that may present itself in my life time. I am a spokeperson only for myself. I do not represent any other individual or organization. My views do not necessarily reflect those of anyone else in the world or on fubar. Having said, I think I am very bugged and irritated by the idea of even sharing my thoughts on this. Let me begin by saying that I do not care about anyone sexual desires and I think the rainbow flag is a tedious mistake. But the matter of the flag shall be discussed in the future..lol..oops, and I also feel the need to take a shot at Christianity, since the legacy of Christianity is one of war, murder, hatred, deceit, ignorance, hypocrisy, death, and destruction. Nobody is justified in rejecting the common thoughts of the masses (Christians& Muslims), the way they live their lives, raging wars on innocent people without understanding them completely, but Christians and

Just Another Day.
well i just found out some news today that i didnt care to find out, im goin to be goin through alot of BULLSHIT and for some reason i feel so all alone, and scared, i just dont get why god does this to ppl and sometiems even ask myself if there is even a god. i know that sounds bad but damn the news i found out today a 24 year old doesnt need to even hear. but you know what im goin to keep my chin up and take each and every day as if it was my last.

Want Some Easy Fubucks?
For every picture you rate on the profile below, I will give you 50 fubucks. Easy enough, right? It doesn't get any easier than this and you would be doing me a huge favor! Just send me a private message when you are done letting me know how many you have rated and I will send the fubucks to you. Thanks. Super Woody (NEVER GIVE UP OR STOP PRAYIN' AND EVEN YA DREAMS CAN COME TRUE)@ fubar

What Ifs...
What If...... I had loved you a little more ..... I had trusted a little more .... I had given a little more ... I had been a little more understanding .. I had been a little more patient ..... I had not taken you for granted ...... I kept quite when I should of and spoken when spoke to ..... I believed more in us..... I had put more faith in us ....... I had been more of a friend than I was .... Would you still be in my arms tomorrow ..... Instead of someone else 's today ..... What if .............think about it...

Poeticimage
The Thoughts of Another The thoughts of another to care for one another unknowingly loving them from so deep inside wanting to know there ok thru all there days journeys an wanting to be a part of them more than Life itself sharing your dreams together an life's greatest moments but yet still wanting more too dream of them until nights end an hold them till the end of time wondering where it may lead always going across your mind never wanting to see them hurt or watch them cry wishing to always bring a smile across ones beautiful face an only see tears of happiness roll down from ones amazing eyes

Hhhmmmm
HMM OK WHO EVER YA ARE MESSING WITH MY FRIEND ON HERE BACK OFF OF HIM HE DOESNT BOTHER ANYONE SO LEAVE HIM ALONE STAY OFF HIS PROFILE IF YOU WANNA PLAY KID GAMES GO BACK TO FUKING MYSOACE WERE THE LITTLE KIDS PLAY GET A DAMM LIFE LEAVE HIM ALONE THIS PERSON IS STEALING HIS PICS AND THEN UPLOADING THEM WRITTING MEAN SHIT ABOUT HIM THEN THEY CHANGE THEIR NAME AGAIN GO EVERYONE PLEASE LEAVE HIM ALONE THANK YOU COUNTRYHOTTIE

Poeticimage
Angel in my eyes The angel in my eyes I have known for such a short time Yet wishing to know more about her And longing to lie beside her Dreaming of the few moments Spent together Even though you have been On my mind for oh so long I have been wishing for the courage To let you know how you make me feel Whenever I hear your voice My heart begins to tear from my chest Through your perfect smile And dreams of your heavenly brown eyes I wait with an open mind An a stronger anticipation Of when I may be able To hold you in my arms And feel the warm embrace Of your lips against my own

Just A Thought
As I look at my reflection looking back at me. I know I am exactly who I am suppose to be. Even though I have made some mistake, I can’t spend my days being mad at me. Although I am not always at my best, I know I am the best I can be. Although most people lets devastation frustrate them, I thank god for the hard knots he sent me. Through them I have learned and grown: with out them I couldn’t be exactly who I am supposed to be.

Baby Shower
I had a baby shower on Sunday, and NO ONE showed up! Can you believe that?! I can't....super lame. I was SO embarrassed!!! I feel really bad for my mom because she put out a bunch of money for it to make sure I had a nice party, and this shit used to happen to her growing up-she would have birthday parties and no one would come. I had to pick and choose who I invited because of family drama, too, which is very irritating! I guess we should have just had it before I had Loki....who knows?!

Poeticimage
One Man's Desire With one mans desire there is nothing that can hold him away with the thoughts of a goddess an the sounds of the heavens she speaks his name chasing at his soul for every breathe that she takes with a simple thought of her beauty life can feel like such a dream an to yet hold her bye his side an never lot her go there is nothing that can be more sweet.

Men Do Remember ;)
A woman awakes during the night to find that her husband is not in bed. She puts on her robe and goes downstairs to look for him. She finds him sitting at the kitchen table with a hot cup of coffee in front of him. He appears to be in deep thought, just staring at the wall. She watches as he wiped a tear from his eye and takes a sip of his coffee. "What's the matter, dear?" she whispers as she steps into the room, "Why are you down here at this time of night? The husband looks up from his coffee, "It's the 20th Anniversary of the day we met". She can't believe he has remembered and starts to tear up. The husband continues, "Do you remember 20 years ago when we started dating? I was 18 and you were only 16," he says solemnly. Once again, the wife is touched to tears thinking that her husband is so caring and sensitive. "Yes, I do" she replies. The husband pauses. The words were not coming easily. "Do you remember when your father cau

Lena Facts.
I smoke. I drink. I`m not a natural blonde. I smile all the time. I`m short. I`m kinky. I could spend a fortune on boots and lingerie. I watch porn.Everyday. I speak 6 languages. I`m gonna be a maxilofacial surgeon. I sing in a band. Music is my life. I adore animals. I have one tatto-so far. more yet to come..

Can You Actuallie Find True Love?!?!
It's when you look that special someone in the eyes and know that if you keep looking long enough you'll find the window to their soul and that you'll wanna look at em forever.can you reallie find true love or is it just in your imagination where you dream about one day your cinderella or prince charming will come and sweep you off your feet.what is love?..can you touch it? it's not something you can touch or hold but it's a feeling where deep down inside it's where you know you love someone.where does true love hide?..is it in heart of beautiful people or sometimes in the hearts of not so beautiful people?..sometimes true love is where you least expect it to be.i know if i find true love that i hope to know without a doubt that i'll "NEVER" hurt him or let anything happen to him.i'd wanna make his day by listenin or just drawin him a bath when he gets home from work and give him a massage or leave lil notes like.."babe..i love you and i can't wait til you get home"..i'd wanna hear al

'gilligan's' Mary Ann Caught With Dope
DRIGGS, Idaho - Dawn Wells, who played Mary Ann on "Gilligan's Island," is serving six months' unsupervised probation after allegedly being caught with marijuana in her car. She was sentenced Feb. 29 to five days in jail, fined $410.50 and placed on probation after pleading guilty to one count of reckless driving. Under a plea agreement, three misdemeanor counts — driving under the influence, possession of drug paraphernalia and possession of a controlled substance — were dropped. On Oct. 18, Teton County sheriff's Deputy Joseph Gutierrez arrested Wells as she was driving home from a surprise birthday party that was held for her. According to the sheriff's office report, Gutierrez pulled Wells over after noticing her swerve and repeatedly speed up and slow down. When Gutierrez asked about a marijuana smell, Wells said she'd just given a ride to three hitchhikers and had dropped them off when they began smoking something. Gutierrez found half-smoked joints and two small cases u

My Job And Kids
As some of you may know I work for a school in a small district in California.. Anyhow if you know what the Governor did to the budget then you know hes living up to the Terminator name. He took from our education budget and moved it at our childrens expences.. We keep hearing his BS that he is working on it, but we had to pink slip 22 of our own teachers (out of 28) to make up a small deficit of the budget. Along with losing Asst. Teachers who help kids learn how to read. Anyhow Im posting this with the link I think that if enough people write to him with concerns on this subject it may light a fire under his butt and he steps up to deal with his mistake So please guys can you help if you dont live in this state can you repost for friends you may have that do live in California. Please guys its not asking to much when our children are involved is it. Thank You very much in advance. http://govnews.ca.gov/govmail/webmail.php

No Puedo Mas
la situacion en la que estoy viviendo ahora es imposible de soportar. no puedo pensar claramente en estas condiciones pero lo que si se es que tengo que salir de aqui lo mas pronto posible. i just had to get that off my chest :)

Why Am I Married?!?! (lol)
WHY AM I MARRIED? You have two choices in life: You can stay single and be miserable, or get married and wish you were dead. __________ At a cocktail party, one woman said to another, "Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger?" "Yes, I am. I married the wrong man." __________ A lady inserted an ad in the classifieds: "Husband Wanted". Next day she received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing: "You can have mine." __________ When a woman steals your husband, there is no better revenge than to let her keep him. ___________ A man is incomplete until he is married. Then he is finished . __________ A little boy asked his father, "Daddy, how much does it cost to get married?" Father replied, "I don't know son, I'm still paying." __________ A young son asked, "Is it true Dad, that in some parts of Africa a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her?" Dad replied, "That happens in every country, son."

In Her Dreams
He cupped her face in his hand Looking at her longingly, a soft gentle kiss he gave In that moment, right there with him was all that mattered Her heart received him, her soul opened up to his In a crowded room he came up behind her Blew soft kisses on her bare back and neck Awakening feelings she didn't know A light sweat he noticed on her neck He sensed it all from the way her body responded to his He has her dreaming The mind fascinates her, His voice has her heart beating like an African drum She is swimming in the deep end and dosen't want to stop He has a body that makes her see future generation Every time she sees him she can't help but marvel at this Beautifully, wonderfully, and fearfully made creature Of God How beautiful they are together, in her dreams

Death......
Beautiful Explanation of Death ~DEATH~ WHAT A WONDERFUL WAY TO EXPLAIN IT.. A sick man turned to his doctor as he was preparing to leave the examination room and said, 'Doctor, I am afraid to die. Tell me what lies on the other side. Very quietly, the doctor said, 'I don't know.' 'You don't know? You, a Christian man, Do not know what is on the other side?' The doctor was holding the handle of the door; On the other side came a sound of scratching and whining, And as he opened the door, a dog sprang into the room and leaped on him with an eager show of gladness. Turning to the patient, the doctor said, 'Did you notice my dog? He's never been in this room before. He didn't know what was inside. He knew nothing except that his master was here, And when the door opened, he sprang in without fear. I know little of what is on the other side of death, but I do know one thing..

My First Contest
DOES DJ MALICIOUS INSPIRE YOU SHE IS HOSTING HER FIRST CONTEST DATE HAS BEEN EXTENDED TILL FRI 3/28 IF YOU WIN AND HAVE A VIP YOU WILL RECEIVE A 7-DAY BLAST LET YOUR IMAGINATION RUN WILD SEND ENTRIES IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE TO malicious one@ fubar ALL ENTRIES MAY NOT BE POSTED TO YOUR PERSONAL PROFILES TILL AFTER THE CONTEST IS FINISHED - THANK YOU

To All Of My Dear Loving Friends!
Myspace graphics Myspace graphics Myspace graphics Myspace graphics Myspace graphics Myspace graphics Myspace graphics Sending out love and hugs to all . Hope you have a great night and sweet dreams when you sleep...Your friend~Donna~

Heart Break
So tonight I waited for you to call. Then decided you were waiting for me. I called and you were distant. I asked you why. You straight up accused me of looking for someone else. I wasn't. Damnit I loved you, shit I still love you. What do you want me to do?? You are the reason I had to come here, I didn't want to be away from you. So I sit here in tears bawling, feeling gut wrenching pain, wondering why you think I would do that. Wondering why you won't answer your phone,I didn't do anything wrong!!!

Omfg I Freaking Love Sex . Come Yummy Me Up
OMG I LOVE SEX OH YES A LITTLE MORE NOW!!! 1) Do you keep secrets about your sexual or romantic activities from those important to you? 2) Do you lead a double life? 3)Have your needs driven you to have sex in places or situations or with people you would not normally choose? 4)Do you find yourself looking for sexually arousing articles or scenes in newspapers, magazines, or other media? 5)Do you find that romantic or sexual fantasies interfere with your relationships or are preventing you from facing problems? 6)Do you frequently want to get away from a sex partner after having sex? 7)Do you frequently feel remorse, shame, or guilt after a sexual encounter? 8)Do you feel shame about your body or your sexuality, such that you avoid touching your body or engaging in sexual relationships? 9)Do you fear that you have no sexual feelings, that you are asexual? 10)Does each new relationship continue to have the same destructive patterns which prompted y

Start Your Day The Cyanide Way!
I'm a big fan of Cyanide and Happiness (www.explosm.net) "Slapstick humor" always puts at least a grin on my face (if I'm not found rolling on the floor, unable to breath from laughing so hard)!! Anyway - I needed my fix this morning and thought I'd share a few. Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Men!!!!!!!!!yummy.2
*with tattoos *with piercings *with sence for fashion *who are skaters *who are musicians *who hate poetry *who admit that they look at other girls when I`m not around *who have manirs *who are gentlemen *who DONT buy me cute toys n stuff

Freak Show Revisited!
THE FREAK SHOW Are you a part of the FREAK SHOW? If so, make sure you have showed lots of Freak'n love to your fellow FREAKS! If you don't have your ticket yet... IT'S NOT TOO LATE! STEP INSIDE! We will start the 3rd Row Seating TODAY! The first 5 will get a Bling from PebblesinAZ! THE ORIGINAL FREAK: Freak@ fubar and THE UNDERCOVER FREAK: ~PebblesinAZ~READ MY BLOGS~ OwN3d by Emanon! XOXO@ fubar ...have put together a little adventure for you. Not to be confused with any train, plane, coaster or boat ride! It's a... ...and you are about to meet some... The dictionary describes a "FREAK" as... A person who is abnormal, odd or has withdrawn from rational behavior. Hmm...YEP! That about covers it! So without further ADO here are the FREAKS! ~~~FREAK SHOW V.I.P.s~~~ ☠☠☠BrightEyedArtist☠☠☠@ fubar ~*TinkerbellMN84*~ {Please take the time to actually look at my profile}@ fubar ♥S

How To Save This Life
Step one I say we need to talk He walks, I say sit down it's just a talk... He smiles politely back at you You stare politely right on through some sort of window to your right As he goes left, you stay right Between the lines of fear and blame You begin to wonder why you came Where did I go wrong, My Lover,My friend Somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known How to Save this Life Let him know that you know best Cause after all who really knows best Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence Lay down a list of what is wrong The things you've told him all along And hope He hears you As he begins to raise his voice You lower yours and grant him one last choice Drive until you lose the road or break with the ones you've followed He will do one of two things He will admit to Everything or he'll say we're just not the same And You'll begin to wonder why you came Where did I go wrong, My Love

Come Watch A Full Length Movie
WELCOME TO THE MOVIE SECTION DUE TO THE FACT THAT THIS IS A NEW MOVIE I CAN NOT POST IT BUT HERES THE LINK TO THE NEW MOVIE....THE BANK JOB http://tv-links.ca/movies/the-bank-job-2008.html DUE TO THE GRAPHIC NATURE OF THIS MOVIE I CANT POST THE MOVIE HOWEVER I KNOW THERES LOTS OF HORROR FANS SO HERES THE NEW MOVIE THE CARVER http://tv-links.ca/movies/carver.html JUMPER PART 1 PART 2 PART 3 PART 4 THE SPIDERWICK CRONICLES PART 1 PART 2

Just A Babe In The Black Abyss
The pure feeling of empty Void of light Warm whispers speaking words I dare not repeat No pain or sadness just a whispering hole in blackness I am floating as I step toward the hole Drawn toward the whispers no fear no death Leviathan peers through the darkness as her wings unfold She floats above me with a steady gaze upon my form Child my dear child she whispers I am with you You are not seeking power fame or fortune What is it my child do you seek? I dwell in a place of ignorance in the mist of the raging seas of infinity. I come here for solace and peace. You shall find peace in the darkness only confusion comes when things are brought to the light. She then flew away I pondered and smiled

Spices For Candle Work
Now you have to do a little homework for your candle magick to be successful. Research, research, research. There are planetary influences, there is whether the moon is waxing, full, or waning; there is the day of the week -- certain days are better to do the kind of magick you are looking for. There is also Moon Void Of Course. When the Moon is void of course, do not do any magick. If you want to do a simple candle magick, the most important thing would be the phase of the moon and the void of course.. There is the oil or oils that you will need. Whenever you are searching for the right oil, you also need a catalyst which gives it that extra boost, like cinnamon. Catalyst herbs need to be in all spells. You need to use catalyst herb/oil along with your intended oil to send it off, to activate it. But just a pinch or drop or so of oil. They are: 1. Dragons Blood - all spells should have this herb. Whatever you put in, you get out. 2. Allspice is good for money. 3. Cinnamon -

Bull Shit!!!!!!!!!!!!
> > > > > > Since when is it wrong for someone to speak their mind? Isnt it the first amendment to be able to say how you feel? These three told scrapper what they really thought of him. Ben, Syber,Whore all got locked down..They cant do shit. Whore cant do anything at all. Syber cant even get into the lounge he partially owns, Ben can only rate and go into lounges. Just because someone tells you how they feel doesnt mean they should get punished for it. > These three guys are great people. They stick together. Syber went all out for ben to get him unlocked. Whore did the same for the other two. Seems like scrappers butt hurt doesnt it?? I guess money talks on this site. You dont spend money like others do you're not "untouchable". > Well i said my piece.. Take it as you feel.. If you dont like it.... > FUCK OFF! > > Help get these 3 guys unlocked!!! > > SyberЯ™ FREE ME NOW@ fubar > > > lc@ fubar > > > > lc@ fubar

Here's An Idea!
Give me a band that doesnt sound like the same old shit regurgitated and swallowed again only to be regurgitated once again... in that clerks fashion. And I will give you... absolutely nothing. But at least you get to make me happy! whats that? You dont care if I am happy? Well, Fuck you! ( so many innuendos in this one see how many can figure it out)

~the Art Of Seduction~
"There is no Finer, more Exiquisite and Sweeter Taste than the Delicate Nectar that a Woman releases to Her Lover. This is my small frail attempt to enlighten my fellow man-hope it helps fellas. She is to be enjoyed, Slow or Fast, Deep or Hard, ALWAYS follow her rhythm and she will take you to a place of heightened sexual pleasures that only the two of you can reach." As always.....Peace. -Guidomedic ~Cunnilingus is one of the most difficult sexual acts to perform successfully. ~Going down isn’t easy. It takes refined skill and energy for the long haul. ~Cunnilingus, "Oral," "Eating P*ssy," or whatever you want to call it is one of the greatest activities to grace this planet. ~It can also be one of the most elusive practices to successfully perform. ~Some women find themselves uncomfortable being the center of her partner’s attention, or more often women get frustrated with having to put up with unsatisfying results. And often times some men find themsel

~the Essence Of Love~
~The Essence of Love~ I am good to you because You are who I am...Being in love with You is My Miracle...Seeing You, Feeling You as I do is the One thing I have always Desired all My Life...You came into My Life not knowing what was to be and I could never Love anyone more than I Love You...You were and are My Life...So You ask me why I am good to You..It is simple Baby...You were once in My Dreams and now You are Real and I would be with You Anytime, Anyday that Your Heart Desires...I Love You like I have Loved You all My Life and I have..... I just didnt know until I finally found You........ Peace

So You Say
So you say I am weird, But that doesn't make you better. So you say I am ugly, That doesn't make you pretty. So you say I have no respect, That doesn't make me respect you more. So you say I have no feelings, But that doesn't mean you have anymore feelings then I do. So you say I can die any day now, But that doesn't mean I don't want to. So you say that life is a hurricane, That doesn't make me appreciate you more. So you say I can't love, But that doesn't mean I don't love you. Written by. Megz

Sleepy Time Update
Hi All! A little birdie told me I was being too quiet and wanted to know if I was staying out of trouble. So I figured I'd shoot out a blog before I go to bed. I wonder who that little birdie is? hehehe Ok, here is the short version...I went to my GP yesterday, and he put me through a range of motion test on both of my shoulders. He came up with strained/possibly torn tendons in both rotator cuffs. As if the back wasn't enough. *eyeroll* So basically, I have no choice but to be good. I can hardly move! LOL I had to do some driving today, and let's just say, you don't realize how much you use your shoulders and arm muscles to steer unless you do something like this. Ugh! At least the left shoulder isn't as bad as the right, and I'm a leftie, so that helps. Here's the freaky thing...I have no idea how I managed to do this. LOL I have to train myself to sleep on my back because I usually sleep on my right side. Not anymore! Ouch! Ok, enough whining for now.

I'm Sorry
i'm sorry that i am wrong when everything is right. i'm sorry that i can't be by you every single night. i'm sorry that it makes you cringe to listen to my laughter. i'm sorry that i take it so hard and cry so much there after. i'm sorry that i feel this way that i clinge becoz of love. i'm sorry that no one else ever loved you quite this much. i'm sorry that you can't see just how wonderful you are. i'm sorry to have to say that this is the hardest part. i'm sorry i'm not perfect or smile the perfect smile. i'm sorry that i want your attention every once in a while. i'm sorry that i'm sad sometimes when you're not around. i'm sorry that sometimes when you're here i still wear a frown. i'm sorry that i am scared of losing you and what i feel. i'm sorry if you dont realize that what i feel is real. i'm sorry that i can't get your eyes to shine. like the first night we met, and you told me you were mine. and most of all i am sorry that y

The **hottest** Male..woo-hoo
A GREAT FRIEND OF MINE..**PAINTER**..HAS ENTERED IN THE **HOTTEST TATTOO MALE CONTEST**..HE NEEDS RATES AND COMMENTS...SOOOOO PLEAZE GO HELP HIM OUT SO WE CAN MAKE HIM THE **HOTTEST TATTOOED MALE** ON FuBAR..TYVM....JUST CLICK ON THE PIC...

Help! Emergency!
I NEED THE HELP OF MY FRIENDS, MY FREAKS and EVERYONE ELSE ALONG THE WAY TODAY! As you all know I am racing for Godmother. Yesterday afternoon I had a substantial lead (300k) and half hour later it was wiped out. Whoever hit my competition's page HIT IT HARD and I need the same today! It's almost over and I am down by 600k. I need 950k to GODMOTHER TODAY! I would think it impossible BUT, if she can drop a million in less than an hour I know with LOTS AND LOTS of help I can too! I need a few good friends to REALLY, REALLY take this over today and spread the word and make it their mission. Hitting up anyone and everyone they can to come help me. All love will be returned and big ol salutes made for those that make bulletins and really, really step up for me! Thanks for being such great friends and always there for me. xoxo ~PebblesinAZ~READ BLOGS!~CoFounder of the FREAK show with...who else...FREAK!~Owned by Emanon!xoxo@ fubar

Maybe She'll Come Back To Me
I look back now, knowing what I should of said.But the words just wouldnt come. All I could do was watch her walk away. M aybe she'll come back to me, if I beg and plead. She has got to know what she means to me. I know the words I must say. I have thought them every day.The words you have wanted to hear for so long.I just hope its not to late. Maybe she'll come back to me, if I get down on my hands and knees,beg and plead. She has got to know what she means to me. Looking at you, lookin at me with tears in my eyes. I'm laying it all on the line. Telling my thoughts, my dreams. Letting you know how I feel. Maybe she'll come back to me,if I get down on my hands and knees,beg and plead. She has got to know what she means to me. Your standing there stareing at me with tear stained eyes. It's hard to tell what your feeling inside,did I waist to much time. Then you say "Do we really wanna go down that road again"? I reach out and take your hand, Then I say...... Wont

If You Really Wanna Know About Me More..plz Read
I love Riding my quad,riding my horses, fitness, health, dirtbike riding, music...lots & lots of music! I love to dance, not that I can, but it is still something I love to do (especially after 2 mojitos!). Riding my quad, which I know I mentioned already. I would be a total outdoorsy-freak with the full-on hiking gear and the whole 9 if I had somebody to get into it with. The world is too beautiful, so stop looking at drywall all day and get outside! I think it is hot when chicks ride their own motorcycles. I also think it is important for women to know how to maintain their own vehicles. I don't know much yet, but I have changed my own oil, spark plugs, transmission fluid, and I am about to change out my rear differiential fluid. Changing my brakes is a little hard because I can never loosen the dang lugs by myself, but with a little help, it is really simple. Just basic stuff, but I am always learning. I like to show that I can do it myself, but it does

Served Buffet Style
Hands bound tightly together... held high above my head. Ankles shackled... spread eagle on the table. Eyes... blindfolded with silk... anticipation gnawing at me. nerves standing on end... muscles taut...waiting. Wanting... Tingling sensations... a warm breath at my ear. A gentle kiss on my neck... your hand brushes my breast. Fingers trailing... a downward path. Soft, gentle kisses... along my inner thighs. Slow, sensual nibbles... bringing me closer. My back arches... wanting... craving... needing you. Bring your mouth to me... tease me... taste me... Now!

Today ...i Felt Your Pain....
Today I felt your pain, one that tears at my heart. Stained glass, Cracked and bleeding. Do you know that I bleed for you? A crack....small but spreading, exposing my tears, exposing my fears, baring my soul. Do you feel my heart bleeding? Do you feel my pain? Not with your hands... but with your heart. Do you know my heart bleeds for you

Short Fuse
Do you ever have one of those days where everything goes wrong? Well, today is that day for me. Ever since I got up this morning everything has gone wrong. Not enough sleep last night, had to take a cold shower, running behind schedule to get to work, the boss was at work in a bad mood when I got here, and then it just starts to pour rain outside and I realize, my windows are down on my car. I know the day is only going to get better and tomorrow is a brand new day, but thats tomorrow! Either way I'm at work on time with a smile on my face because today is my friday and I have the next two days off after ten o'clock tonight! So for all you that have had or are having one of these days, just remember it will get better, just as mine will.

All Fu*bombers Read**
Hi Guys (and gals) REMEMBER that our very own LORD GARFIELD is hosting the HAPPY HOUR of 8pm CENTRAL...and 9pm EASTERN.. That's the FIRST HOUR of the BOMBFEST, so let's get in there early, bomb fast and furious, and take an early lead. We are on a roll this week....we are almost back to bombing strength...so let's all WORK TOGETHER, HAVE FUN, and KICK SOME A$$ !!!

Dead Beat Family Or Better Life
ok ........... so everything in the worlds not perfect i know that, thing is if i dont try ill be like the rest of this shity family of mine. my mother is hardly around when she is never say no or get the hell beat out of ya, popping those pills is her main concern or going out an whoreing around. my dad was a drunken fool for a long time beat my mother now hes just mia with a new family and i mean nothing to him nor do my four brothers. my aunts an uncles disown me because of a sitituation i finally came out about and still to this day that mother fucker is roaming the damn streets. my cousins are 13 to 16 and are all whores ecept one who actually made something of herself go missy. my eldest brother got sent to prison. my little bro still has time to make sumthin of himself and ill be damned if he dont ill get custody of him before he gets put in a foster home or some stupid shit like that .the other two brothers of mine i havent seen in years. me all i want to do is

Camping Trip... (a Short Story By Me) Comments Welcome!
Camping, who would have guessed that being in the woods could be so much fun? We have been out here for a full day now. The first day was nothing more than setting up the camp, the tents and collecting firewood. During that time is when I found this place in the woods. It is away from the rest of the rest of the sites. The area is grassy, surrounded by trees. I will remember this place for later. Later that night, we are sitting around the campfire with a few other people from the campground. As it gets later in the night, you get tired and retire off to the tent to get to sleep. A light rain has started to fall and the mood around the fire is dampened as much as the wood is. You go off to bed in the tent, get naked and crawl into your sleeping bag. I give you about 20 minutes, then I unzip the canvas opening. I lay a prewritten note on my pillow. It gives you directions to where I am. The rain continues to drizzle down and I wait in the clearing. I have a blan

This Person Screwed Me Over..
This is Boo Boo. I did alot for her. Helped her and her friend's out alot. But, I was in a contest of hers and she did me wrong. The contest was a long time ago so I gave her plenty of time to send me the 7 day blast which she owes me for so many comments which I completed ¢¾ BooBoo ¢¾ Founder of Shadow Levelers.@ fubar

To Dream Of Her Beauty
To dream of her beauty With such passion in her eyes An so much grace her movement Everytime i close my eyes i dream of another moment yet wanting to be bye her side never wanting to lot her go with the taste of her lips or the smell of her perfume i could dream for ever of what heaven must be like

Thanks Jamiie
troops can send their kids free dogs tags of there own. Also you can personalize them with photo's. http://www.dogtagsforkids.com Send Troops a care package. http://www.TreatAnySoldier.com Supporting wounded Hero's and their families. http://www.operationfirstresponse.org

Life
i think i need help. i have an excellent job, pays well, bosses look after me. the people are great. but my job is moral dilemia. i work for my most hated industry in the world .. oil. but yet again, the money is good. i'm in corporate management. i'm looked up to. i'm 24 and i have more knowledge than more than half of those people have. i can excel in this position. i was promoted within a year. i have my own laptop and a blackberry. OOOOOH! i'pm special. ... i seriously want to drop napalm on all of my stations and be done with it. ... maybe go around and blow em' all up while i'm at it. .. doesn't take much for one of those to go boom. and what's scary? ... i make sure these stations don't go boom. i've been there almost 3 years .. wait. no 3 years. first part of it i worked in a warehouse, wore what i wanted, cussed when i wanted. as long as i did my job, i was good. i did my job well. it's not that hard to make a few phone calls to get someone to re

What Kind Of Shamrock Are You?
What Your Shamrock Says About You You are unselfish, responsible, and a good leader. You contribute a lot to your community. At times, you can be self-righteous and stubborn. There's no better way to do things than your way. You consider yourself a lucky person. Luck always seems to be on your side. You are creative, innovative, and complicated. You definitely have a unique spin on the world. The Shamrock Personality Test

To My Ex
I'm here waiting Impatiently, eyes full of tears, The other day you said you loved me You said it perfectly clear. Now, today's a new day And you're not here by my side, Now everything you told me Just feels like pain and lies. You said you would be here forever Was that just a lie, too? You made promises you couldn't keep I had all my faith in you. You took off with my heart And life inside your hands, I'm left empty and incomplete Why can't you understand. You let me down When my hopes were high, I try to smile But I always sigh. I'm left alone With all this pain and misery, Your love is all I ask for Why can't you see. You loved me for who I was Not for who I tried to be, You were the best thing that ever happen to me You'll always be inside of me. We've been through too much For you to push me away, I'll always love you no matter what It will never fade away.

Ease Her Mind
If in someway . I could ease her mind, that my words are true, And my pen is mine. Would then she believe, And take me as her friend. One I would cherish, Till my last days end. I offer you these words, I hold them to be true. My token of friendship, These I offer to you

A Word Of Warning To Fubarians Everywhere
I am not the most outgoing person. Generally it takes me a little while to warm up to people. I am not a "touchy feely" kind of person either. Just the way I am. So, that being said, unless you are on my Family List, do not hit me up in the Shout box with "Hey Baby" or "Princess" or any other term of endearment. You won't get a good reaction. Call me by my SN: Ruby or just say "hello". Endearments and cuddliness are reserved for my Family List members. Also, don't ask me to put you on my Family List either. I put people there for a reason. If I feel you deserve to be there, then you will be. Asking only ticks me off. Talk to me the way you would any other random person that you met in a public place.

Don't You Want One Of These Great Prizes??
Ok I finally decided to hold my first contest. It's gonna be a Me & My Closest Friends Picture contest. Any picture of you and one or more of your closest friends, whether it be Fu-friends or real life friends doesn't matter. Just pick your favorite picture (it can be made or you together in real life)and send it to me. The contest will begin @ 8am est on March 24th and will last for 2 weeks ending @ 8am est on April 7th. If you have any questions feel free to message me and I will get back to you ASAP! The prizes are as follows: First place gets choice of 1 month VIP or 7 day blast. Second place gets a 3 day blast or Fu-bling pack and Third place gets a Fu- bling prize. Here is the rules: 1: NO DRAMA!!! You or your bombers cause it and your gone!!! 2: You must have a salute to enter. 3: No cheatin!!! That means no scripts or anything along that line. If you are caught cheatin you will be gone! 4: Self bombin is allowed and encourged! 5: Rates are

Just A Little One First
WET It's hot. The shower was cool on her skin. She steps out and shakes off the water, wringing her wet hair. She walks out of the bathroom still mostly wet when he sees her, nude in the hallway, he moans his approval. She walks toward the bedroom swaying to entice. He gets up from his chair to follow. He finds her standing under the ceiling fan, arms spread drying her body. His hands find her shoulders stroking the smooth skin, Then his lips start chasing the stray droplets. One drops from her hair to her full firm breast pausing on her nipple, his tongue captures it before it falls. Another drop slides between her breasts down her stomach to the indentation there, he watches it pool then slide to her smooth mound. He gently spreads her legs to catch the drop on her very sensitive button; she gasps softly, legs trembling. He stands up, takes her hand and guides her to the bed, "Let's see how many drops I can make with my tongue sweet love."

Walk Into The Sun
Will you always keep me warm Hold me safe and away from harm Keep day from night and as the day fades Burn a candle bright for me Will you always keep me warm Give me shelter from the wildest storm When I'm glowing Will you tend evergreen love without end

So Tired Of This Shit!!!
Goddamnit once again bullshit rears its ugly head!! Sherri just turned her back on me and my ex contacted me trying to say shes a good person...hahahahahaha bullshit!!! I am so fucking tired of being shit on by the female population......i at least met one great woman back here in florida. But damn people something has got to give....i mean a guy can only take so much shit before he snaps.....i know us guys put ya'll women thru some shit but ya'll do the same to us......god im losing my mind!!!

Just Business
In 10 weeks I will be graduating with a MS in Psychology from Walden University. Its been a long haul but worth every minute. I would first like to thank all of my friends and family for all your support and guidance. I would not have been able to make it without you. The websites for Health Correction Coaching Services & Juice Plus Distribution are fully up and running. Please feel free to view these sites at any time. I do not SPAM anyone. These businesses are being built by word of mouth. Thank you again, Christine E. Kane, BA, Med. Asst., MS-Psychology Student Walden U HCCS & Juice Plus Distribution Email: Christine@Kane4Health.com Visit me@ www.kane4health.com

Feminists: I Support You Like The Bra You Never Had
Moments ago I started thinking. It was an exciting and new experience; like sky-diving in my head. The catalyst for my outburst of cerebral activity: feminists. Now I have no beef, no guff, and only a mild case of aversion to these boisterous members of society. Surprisingly, most feminists claim to actually be female (sometimes it’s hard to tell). Other feminists include desperate men pretending to care so they can pick up rugged chicks (Who gets to be the ’man’ in the relationship?). I was pondering the silliness exhibited when the words man/men appear in larger word such as ’Human’ and if spoken out-loud, the nearest feminist will inevitably interrupt with a "Or Hu-Woman", in the world’s bitchiest tone of voice. This is so juvenile, so incessantly dumb. It’s an exercise in futility, like exercise. Fortunately for non-mans, we men are super smart. By casting my man-eyes across the words Woman/Women, I noticed Wo-man/Wo-men are merely extensions of man/men. Without a mascu

I Lie Awake
Sunshines through the door, the rays hit my face. It is so cold and empty, and I am alone in my place. I smell the breeze of the wind, it is crisp and fresh. Sitting on the floor, thinking about all this mess. Why do I go through it all, what I need is to go for a walk. Or maybe talk to a friend, and have a very long talk. Don`t do that enough as it is, I like to all of the time. But who is there to listen, when I start all my silly rhymes. Wish I could just talk to you, then what would you really do. Sometimes your eyes just glaze over, like you don`t even have a clue. That`s okay, I still like our talks, yes I do listen to all your crap. What I really need to do, is lay down and take a nap. I lay alone in my bed, feeling like I am just dead. To many thoughts are running.... through my torn up head. That is why I LIE AWAKE!!!!

This Is Bullshit
What is the difference between a str8 guy having his shirt off and a gay guy having a pic of a guy with his shirt off on his page alot the str8 guy can get away with it while the gay guy has to mark theirs not safe for work same thing just 2 different orientations this needs to stop and needs to stop now for we are all equal one shouldnt be treated or given more privileges then the other they all should have the same rules that they must abide by but no in this day and age its a crime to be and show who you really are especially if you are gay people look down and judge on what others do in their own personal life i cant even show a picture on my page of me and my boyfriend kissing because Fubar marks it not safe for work but a str8 couple can show the same kind of picture i cant upload gay pride stuff into my pictures without them being marked not safe for work now come on what the hell is so freaking wrong with it nothing there is just to many small minded people out there that is af

Huge Overkill Personal Blog
As much as I labor towards it. Today is not turning out to be a very good day in my life. Several different factors are effecting things. And they are all things that are beyond my ability to control. My fifteen year old nephew began having petit mal seizures about two months ago. He would have several a day and they were not really anything frightening at all. He would simply daze off for a moment. We, as a family, actually made light of it. Not to be mean. Rather to try and make him feel better about what was happening. Early Thursday morning my brother-in-law awoke to loud sounds. When he went to investigate he found my nephew on the floor, paper white, blue lipped, and convulsing violently. The seizure lasted more than ten minutes AFTER my brother-in-law became aware of it. There is no way of knowing how long it went on before it had forced my nephew to physically fall out of bed. That, in and of itself, would be enough to weigh upon me. But there is so much more go

Another Bit
Here's a good one. Came home from school one day to find my dad in the garden scraping cat shit from the back of the house because he'd thrown some at one of the neighbours houses so some got thrown back, haha. I was more of an adult than my dad for crying out loud

What The F*ck
Derek and I went on a walk today through a park by my house. The town spent a ton of money to put up this boardwalk that goes through the park. There's a pier at one part that looks over the creek. There's a deck area with horse shoes and along the way there are little sheltered areas with picnic tables. Throught out the entire thing there is graffitti and stupid carvings in the wood. Now if the carvings and grafitti were meaningful shit I wouldnt be so pissed but they are not. Stupid shit like " i love..." and some stupid little local "gang" who apparently refer to themselves as the "souls", with their dumb kanji all over, cause we all know that kanji is so gangsta.. I don't even know where I was goin with. I just know that it pisses me off.

Wtf!!!!!!!
i normally do not post rants in my blogs but by damn i am now how in the hell can you be 25 years old and call yourself a master i mean wtf come on you barely have hair on your nuts!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! this crap pisses me off if i had slave girl or some shit on my name i would understand but geesh wtf!!!!! anyways here is why i am ranting!!! read from the bottom up!!!!!! ->misterak25...: and further more i am 33 years old you are nothing but a little boy to me and are not ready to handle a full grown woman so grow up before u think u can be a master!!!!!!!! ->misterak25...: ummmmm excuse me litle boy i think you are talking to the wrong person if you have a kinky fetish i AM NOT THE PERSON TO FUCK WITH misterak25...: hello... you are a good slavegirl material? that was just a question... and i am not here to joke arround... when you are curious about that theme... and when you are curious to behave like a slavegirl... to act like one and to be treated like a s

The Shoutbox
So what was so wrong with this conversation...he ended up blocking me lol texascount...: watch your MOUTH ->texascount...: does that actually work? ->texascount...: no, no, yes, not happening, and ok texascount...: hi are you single? do you like to talk on the phone? do you have yahoo messenger? what's your id? can you please answer all 5 of my questions please?

From The Corner Of My Eyes
From the corner of my eyes,I see you right there.With beautiful eyes and dark colored hair. From the coener of my eyes,you pass me by, like the dew in the morning and the clouds in the sky. From the corner of my eyes,i can see that it`s true,that the love I`ve been missing is being held on by you. From the corner of my eyes I can see you right there and my heart that I am giving,and my love that I share. From the corner of my eyes,I see you leaving my sight,and I cry through the day and into the night, From the corner of my eyes I choose not to look,cus it`s my heart that is missing and my love that you took. I now close my eyes and I no longer see,The love that is missing since you have left me. Jocko 3/14/08

This Will Make You Cry
Try Not To Cry BUT IF YOU FIND YOU CANNOT STOP UNTIL YOU REACH THE END THEN YOU MUST HAVE A VERY BIG HEART... Mommy.. Johnny brought a gun to school, He told his friends that it was cool, And when he pulled the trigger back, It shot with a great crack. Mommy, I was a good girl, I did What I was told, I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold! But Mommy, when I went to school that day, I never said good-bye, I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry. When Johnny shot the gun, He hit me and another, And all because Johnny, Got the gun from his older brother. Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much, And please tell Zack; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush. And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now, And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now, And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best; Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the

Yahoo/fubar Drama
another fucktard caught: [17:29] onyx_sons: I can and have hacked people's computers as well as their fubar accounts [17:30] kourambiethes: aww a threat? [17:30] kourambiethes: lol [17:30] onyx_sons: no not at all [17:31] kourambiethes: u need to learn not to hit on 19 year olds old man [17:31] onyx_sons: I wasn't hitting on you [17:31] kourambiethes: oh no? [17:31] onyx_sons: was testing you [17:31] kourambiethes: why? [17:31] kourambiethes: did i pass your test? [17:31] onyx_sons: and you showed exactly what I suspected [17:31] kourambiethes: are u a pedo? [17:31] kourambiethes: oh thats it [17:32] onyx_sons: ah... [17:32] onyx_sons: lol [17:32] onyx_sons: you are truly pathetic [17:32] kourambiethes: bye brian go waste ur time on others [17:32] onyx_sons: I never waste mytime Note: i did not pass his test cuz 1. i have a bf (rick ilu) and 2. i refused his advances :) so there you have it..still want to go to onyx portal lounge or Angels haven? :)

Just A Little Insight....
Before you read this….that’s assuming you will….I want to preface it with the following: I’m not some femi-nazi man hater….I love, love, love….get the point…men….everything about men….even the things that annoy me….I love them….so this is not a hostile attack from some crazy bitch that has been “done wrong”…haha…by some guy….this is just the observation of a thirty something year old woman that has jumped back into the deep end of the pool…you know….DATING….so if you’re a guy and you happen to stumble upon this and take the time to read it….don’t get all huffy….you’re a man…..just keep reminding yourself how much I love men….but it wouldn’t hurt to think about it…ponder it…consider it……….….well unless some of the words I’ve used already have you stumped….then well maybe you should stop now….it might actually hurt you to think…..and I hate to be responsible for that…. Time old tale…boy peruses girl….boy catches girl…boy immediately gets bored with girl….boy stops calling as much….

The Hunters
There were but two beneath the sky - The thing I came to kill, and I. I, under covert, quietly Watched him sense eternity From quivering brush to pointed nose My gun to shoulder level rose. And then I felt (I could not see) Far off a hunter watching me. I slowly put me rifle by, For there were two who had to die - The thing I wished to kill, and I.

Native Commandments
Treat the Earth and all that dwell thereon with respect. Remain close to the Great Spirit. Show great respect for your fellow beings. Work together for the benefit of all Mankind. Give assistance and kindness wherever needed. Do what you know to be right. Look after the well being of mind and body. Dedicate a share of your efforts to the greater good. Be truthful and honest at all times. Take full responsibility for your actions. Let us greet the dawn of a new day when all can live as one with nature and peace reigns everywhere. Oh Great Spirit, bring to our brothers the wisdom of Nature and the knowledge that if her laws are obeyed this land will again flourish and grasses and trees will grow as before. Guide those that through their councils seek to spread the wisdom of their leaders to all people. Heal the raw wounds of the earth and restore to our soul the richness which strengthens men's bodies and makes them wise in their councils. Bring to all the

Man's Best Friend????
Man's Best Friend A dog is truly a man's best friend. If you don't believe it, just try this experiment. Put your dog and your wife in the trunk of the car for an hour. When you open the trunk, who is really happy to see you!?

New Video
Well yall... It's that time again... I haven't done one in a long time so I think it about time I do a video for every member of Fubar that wants to be in the video... ANYONE and I mean anyone thats a member of Fubar can be in the video... all you have to do is enter your picture for the video... just send me a private message telling you want to be in the video and what picture you wanna use for it... If you don't know about my vidoes... there one below to give a clue about them... this one I am planning to be a whole lot better... using new editing styles and better formats this one promises to be the best Fubar video yet... So sign up now and tell your friends about too... Party Up

For Tristan...
Please say prayers and/or light a candle for my grandson, Tristan. He was born 6 weeks too soon and is a premie. He is in the hospital now with flu, but bacteria has spread into his spinal fluid. Now he has meningitis... I would greatly appreciate you keeping him in your thoughts and prayers during this time. Thank you my friends Light and Love Always, Paulette

One Hell Of A Hello....lol
now this is a msg i got today...not sure if its meant to be flattering or not....but i hit ignore anyway...seriously some ppl have no idea do they....but as pathetic as it is i had a good laugh....have a great day e1... hello i think you are beautiful i like you if you want to see my dick add me your yahooo messenger ugurtonyali@yahoo.com we can do cybersex

~~~contest~~~
A dear friend of mine is in a comment contest, the first one to get to 15,000 comments win can please get some help here....anything helps.....hugs and kisses http://www.fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=1345917&albumid=898987&i=2612213651&idx=8

Auction!!
For Sale!!! Well I'm in a auction! Goddess's auction this time! Here is my offer! Just click the pic to get there! even if you dont bid on me please rate the pic! And please show the hostesslots of love!!! She loves it!! ~GoddessWildCherry~ Owned by Johnny ~Member of the Spankers Club~@ fubar

You Not Gone Believe It But I Am Doing It ....
READ ALL ABOUT IT...YES I GIVING A AUCTION FOR SOME FRIENDS ...RENTING THEM OUT LIKE A PIMP ...HE HE HE March 15th at 5:00 Pm pst and will end on March 29th at 5:00pm pst minimum bid will start at 65k RULES OF THIS AUCTION: (SERIOUS BIDDERS ONLY) PLEASE READ BEFORE YOU BID! 1. NO DRAMA. VIOLATORS WILL BE BLOCKED. 2. THE CONTESTANTS RESERVE THE RIGHT TO REFUSE ANY BIDDERS. 3. MINIMUM BID IS 65,000 FUBUCKS, AND THERE IS NO CEILING ON MAXIMUM BIDS. BLASTS, VIP'S, HAPPY HOURS, TICKERS, FUBUCKS, ETC. ARE ALL ACCEPTABLE AND ENCOURAGED BIDS. GRAPHICS, SALUTES, PERSONAL PIX, ETC ARE ALSO ENCOURAGED. REAL GIFTS, SUCH AS VACATIONS, DINNERS, ETC. ARE REAL AND VALID BIDS, PROVIDED THAT THEY ARE ACCEPTED. 4. THE AUCTION RUNS FROM 5:00PM PST MARCH 15TH TILL 5:00PM PST MARCH 29TH 5. YOU MAY NOT BID LOWER THAN THE PERSON BEFORE YOU. 6. REAL CASH TRUMPS VIRTUAL GIFTS, BUT EVERYTHING IS TOTALED AT THE END. 1 MILLION FUBUCKS = $20 CASH VALUE, BASED ON FUBAR'S TICKER PRICES. 7.

It's Final
YES!!! You heard it from the horse's mouth. As of March 14th, 2008 on 10:52am. Yours truly if officially divorce. I got my divorce decree that morning. That woman didnt even show up just as I predicted. She is just so predictable. Anyways, I'm SINGLE and ready to MINGLE. Even though i been doing it already but I just dont have to say i'm in the process of divorce or separated. I can honestly say I'm SINGLE :) I like to qoute the last paragraph to my Decree of Divorce. It states: NOW, THEREFORE, IT IS ORDERED, that the Plaintiff (that's me) be, and hereby is, granted a divorce, a vinculo matrimonii, from the Defendant on the ground of one (1) year's continuous separation. AND IT IS SO ORDERED! (SIGNED) Jack A. Landis Family Court Judge Ninth Judicial Circuit

"ta-heart-o-da-madder"
This is a poem I composed today as I was getting ready for work...It was written innitially for my "Irish" friends, but it is something I feel anyone can take in and consider...so let me know what you think of it. ~ Confessor "TA-HEART-O-DA-MADDER" I would a silent stranger be, as folded on the cornered ledge, beyond the dungeon portal dim, strolling carts give hearts away. The posted lights of field are shown, as beauty parades on graceful display. Not without purpose or curious eyes, though deep in dark they do see me. About the upper battlements, my ruin in the dark of day. I ponder beneath the clouded skies, Be she as intrigued as I? Say I. Only she can know for certain... The spiral holds the downward square, I could try to escape, but from what & to where? I cannot ellude her sensual stare, nor should I wish do do so... I think I'll linger in the clear, For if she cares she will come near, I stand front & center & wait without fear, For I sen

I'm Up For Auction...check It Out!!!!!
Win me in Abby's fu-auction!!! Who's gonna be my fu-owner? I'm up for sale!!! So, for those of you who may want to own me for a month, here is what my owner will get: 1)500 pix rated 11's during HH 2)rate all stash during HH 3)Added as #1 friend for the month 4)Gift 3 day blast 5)one morph 6)2 personalized tags 7)daily profile comments for the month 8)1 "big pimping" gift a week 9)Your name added to mine for the month 10)1 phone call (USA only) at your convenience 11)add your page link to mine 12)1 pimpout bulletin !AUCTION OPEN! Just click the pic to bid! This auction brought to you by Abby. Plz stop and show her love (**Albums are set friends only! Please rate/add to bid) Abby ~Screw the roses, Send me the thorns~@ fubar

Life
LIFE There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us. Don’t go for looks; they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. J Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The bright

Too Much Time
SB convo, as well as his incredibly mature response to same. You know how it works boys and girls. ENJOY. 857402: sexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or msn??please answersexy baby?? we can chat on yahoo?? or

Inner Beauty Just Means You're Ugly
It's an average day, and I'll be doing average things. My average friend, who is an average girl will come along. We may chat, or get food, or do whatever other average things average people do. On this average day, my average friend will tell me that she has a not-so-average friend that would be "Perfect" for average me. So I figure, if she is "Perfect" for me, than my friend must know me really well. This perfect girl will have supermodel looks, be cool as all hell, and eat pizza during sex. First things first I say "Is she hot?" and every god damn time the response is: "Uhmm...she's got a great personality..." Which leads to me pointing out you cant have sex with a personality. I then wonder why there can't be any cool girls that are hot... but really I already know the answer. A persons personality and attractiveness are directly linked to one another. The better looking you are: the less of a pleasing good personality you have, and vice v

If My Body Were A Car...
IF MY BODY WERE A CAR... If my body were a car, this is the time I would be thinking about trading it in for a newer model. I've got bumps and dents and scratches in my finish and my paint job is getting a little dull ... But that's not the worst of it. My headlights are out of focus and it's especially hard to see things up close My traction is not as graceful as it once was. I slip and slide and skid and bump into things even in the best of weather. My whitewalls are stained with varicose veins. It takes me hours to reach my maximum speed. My fuel rate burns inefficiently. But here's the worst of it -- Almost every time I sneeze, cough or sputter. ....either my radiator leaks or my exhaust backfires!

The Bottom Line
All that we have is fleeting, everything will (in time) be destroyed. Once we are dead thats it , no more, you will then become compost. We worry so much about the future, we worry so much about whay we can obtain. I say ....why? Just let it all go! All we have is here and now, tomorrow we could be dead, or worse. Through every loss is have had to endure, it brought strange new truths with it. I found strength, control, respect, and power, through loss and gain. Constently changing, adapting, learning, I have found that the most important moment in anyones life, is here and now.

Utopia??
Before i get into all this, i'm well aware of the criticism i get on this subject, because every time i talk about this, someone is like, "that's a nice idea, but it won't ever work" because it's human nature to be greedy and selfish, plus "no one can ever agree on things" dealing with this subject, but the whole idea of this community is that no one person is in charge, and every decision is made by everyone to find the best solution for a problem.This is just my interpretation of utopia.I'm well aware criticism will be put forth here, and that's okay... i'm used to it. Basically the whole idea i'm putting forth here is a state of communism and capitalism (which i believe is a bit of an oxymoron, but i will explain further so it makes more sense.) It would be seen as communism as far as there wouldn't be a class system, and capitalism because you would get a system of credit, based on the effort you put into the community. Now when i say "effort you put into the community" it can be

Need To Level? Read This!!
For everyone that is looking too level. Just sharing some helpful hits and some links too help make it easier on you LINK FOR PERSONS NEW TO FUBAR Please click here this lady has some awesome stuff for newbies to fubar check her blog out!!! Also Check out these two blogs- I made from bullentins for 2 of our most helpful bouncers: Razor's bullyPlease click here Year of the Dragon's bullyPlease click here To those looking to level easier when you find things on other friends page DO NOT RIP pictures that you would like too use ask them if it ok and give them credit for it. There are no points on ripped pictures!!!!! For those that are at 99% the only way too level up is too add a salute. If you need help adding one~~here is a blog on how too add them from Year of the Dragons http://fubar.com/blog/60737/324210 Please click here Having stash makes leveling so much easier. Here are links too help you find stash easier. Thank you to The Confede

Thanking All Of You!!!! Your The Best..
> > > DYLON'S DIVAS ARE THE BEST!! THIS BLAST IS TO SHOW LOVE TO ALL WHO HELPED ME IN MY CONTEST...I WANNA SHOW PERSONAL LOVE TO THE PEOPLE WHO BOMBED ME IN THE LAST HOURS AND HELPED ME TO WIN WHEN I WAS SO BEHIND..... MS.MAINE QUEEN SEXY LIPS CANDYRAIN BABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE REBECCA SPECIAL B SAPPHIRE AND THANKS TO ALL WHO SHOWED ME LOVE THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE CONTEST TIME. YOU ALL ROCK!!!! LOVE YOU ALL ~~DIVA KITTY~~

11 Rulz Of Fubar
THE fubar RULES ONE If you're ugly, stop acting like you don't know it. The captions under you picture that says "top model pose" "sexy bitch" "arnt i hot" doesn't convince anyone. TWO To the people who have like 25,000 friends, are you serious? Nobody in this universe can keep up with that many friends. You're stupid. Go play in traffic. THREE Don't ever post pictures and say "OMG, I'm so ugly" "OMG,I'm so fat" because if you were, you wouldn't post them. FOUR Nobody cares about threats over the internet. Don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard. Fighting online is like racing in the special olympics; even if you win, you're still retarded. FIVE Making 20 bulletins a day about how you have new pictures and begging people to comment on them is pathetic. Make the bulletin once if you have to, and those who actually care about you will comment on your pics. SIX If all your pictures look the same, don't post them all. Please pu

Poetic Image
the tears inside run softly down my cheek as i hide my eyes an keep my feeling held descreately no one is to know the sadness that i hold deep inside covered an hidden behind my walls with layers of anger until i feel as if i am oh so small drowning in my own pitful sorrow the front i feel i must put up to lot no one know the distractions i hold from the missions at hand always affraid of when i may be called for once again a medic hidden in the back until all else fells everything gets put onto one everyone expecting a miracle that one can not always perform alone an clowned on for being diffrent away from others for not being the same until one needs him bye his side screaming out into the darkness for his help hoping he can save the day but after all is done awhile will pass an the memories of what he has done will fade away an the tears will once again roll down his face.

This Is What I Says..
I'm really sick and tired of people who really enjoy fucking around with other people's emotions. Don't you have anything better to do? Seriously. If you really don't like the person, then don't lead them on. It's simple. I'm tired of being apart of everyones "game," so this means no more miss nice Addy. I'm done. I'm really close to just deleting my fubar. STOP saying you like me if you don't, DON'T lead me on and STOP acting like you care. Assholes.

Moving
I will be in the process of moving this week. So sometime this week my internet will be off. I will be back on when I get Uverse on at the new apartment. YAYYYYYYYYYYY FASTER SPEED LOL. But we also know how slow ISP'S are about turning service on lol (yeah I work for them so I can say that lol) So when I drop off line for a while that is why. I wish everyone that is in the contest best of luck. And hope I can get back on asap. For those of you that are not part of the ~~Git~R~Done Family Come join and meet some awesome people.

A Huge Thank You!!!
I want to send a huge thank you to everyone who helped me become Fubarlord. Here a few ppl who helped and rated just about everything I have *LOL*!! First off, to my owner ~PebblesinAZ~ who sent most of these ppl over!! THank you sooo much hun!! ~PebblesinAZ~TY Sooo MUCH 2 Every1 who helped me GODMOTHER! XOXO Woody, you are great friend, thank you sooo much!! Woody(please sign my guestbook) Thank you for all your help! vvjuggalette86 You are soo sweet!! ~*Ç£ÃÿMØ®Ê*~ *DEMON CREW* & * W.I.S.E.U.K.F* Wow!! Stash and all!! The Photographer Such a cutie! sexylibra Levelers are awesome!! MrDiamond ~ Shadow Leveler Thanks to everyone in my Dirty Deeds Family!! ±ÐrãgøñFirê±Êñƒør¢èr@Ðirtÿ Ðëéð$± & RL Boyfriend Of Jenalicious Steffi J. ~Greeter @DDR*Protected by DJ Tazman*~Fu-Owned by DJ Tazman~Greeter of the Week~

First Auction
Heheheh got you to look... Well now that you are here... Check this out... I'm in my very first auction and in need of some bidders... Here is the offer from me... Rate all pics during happy hour Rate all stash during happy hour Pimp out on my page Permanent pimp out in blogs Owned by (your name) in my name Daily drink and gift Yahoo ID for SFW conversation 1 sfw salute More to be added for high bids> I'll add more for cash bids and so on... So get your ass in there and BID BID BID!!! click the link below to BID!!!

Life
Life can be so hard at times. But we get throught it. Sometime it may take awhile to get throught it but we do. The hardest part right now in my life is that my girlfriend right now live in another state. So it suck big time for me. And it also hard no job for me to.

Friends
Sometimes life isn't what you want it to be. You have to be able to step back and look at the whole picture from outside the box. I am just learning how to do this now and it is the hardest thing to do. We all are so used to being in the box that it is scary to step out but once you do it isn't so scary, hard yes but not scary. I have to thank my two best freinds for teaching me this Christy and Mike. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It is still work in progress but in the end it will pay off. I hope other people can learn to do this it can save a lot of pain and suffering.

Drama Starters!!
For all of you who don't know me you'll find out that I have one of those people that keep bothering you and don't let things go! You'd think that they would learn especially with all the stuff that has happened in the past! I hate people that just want to talk sh*t and don't have the balls to face you! Say it to my face!! Errr...okay, I'm better know!

To All My Friends!!!
You know they say A Yellow rose symbolizes friendship. A dozen roses symbolizes the "dozen ways I care about you" Two Dozen Roses: stands for the 24 hours in a day and tells that "you think about them every hour". Four Dozen Roses: mean unchanging and unconditional love. If I could I would give all my friends 365 Yellow roses to let them know that I think and care about them everyday of the year. I wouldnt be where I am without these special people here on Fubar. They have been there for me when I needed a shoulder, when I needed a laugh, when I needed help.....they have been here for me thru thick and thin. There is nothing I can do to repay them for all the laughs, tears and fun we have had. If you want to meet some of the greatest people are here on fubar just check out my friends. I couldnt ask for better friends..I have definately been blessed! I want to name them here but I would be to afraid that I would miss someone. But I do want to take the t

R.i.p
WELL I DONT KNO IF U KNO ME BUT SOME PEOPLE DO ON HERE BUT MY NAME IS JULIUS AND IM 24 AND I HAVE 3 SISTERS AND I HAD ONE BROTHER BUT I JUST FOUND OUT HE DIED AND SOMEBODY KILLED EM AND I DONT KNO WHO BUT HE WAS 20 NOT EVEN AN ADULT AND IM SITTIN HERE WONDERIN Y ME AND HERES THE STORY I WAS TOLD HE WAS HANGIN AROUND AND HE WAS HIGH AND HE CALLED ME EARLIER TO CHILL WITH EM AND I SAID IM NOT IN DA MOOD AND I TOLD HIM ILL CHILL WITH HIM LATER AND HE CALLED ME AGAIN AND I WAS LIKE NAW ILL CHILL WITH HIM LATER AND AFTER I GOT OFF THE PHONE I HAD A BAD FEELING AND I CALLED FIVE TIMES AND THE LAST TIME WHEN I CALLED SOME DUDE SAID HE WAS BUSY AND I WAS HEARIN PEOPLE SAYIN WHERE YOUR BROTHER NOW AND HE WAS LIKE SCREAMIN OUT HELP ME AND THEN THEY HUNG UP AND THEN I GOT A CALL FROM MY DAD AND SAID HE WAS DEAD ME AND MY BRO WAS SO CLOSE LIKE WE WAS LIKE TWINS BUT WE R NOT BUT NOW I FEEL SO BAD THAT I COULD HAVE SAVED HIM BUT I FEEL BAD NOW WAT SHOULD I DO I AM LOST NOW AND I FEEL LIKE A DUMBASS

I Need Someone To Vip My Ass!!
Dang it, my last one just expired! I can't post a freakin' salute cos my cam doesn't work and I don't get paid till the end of the month :( So here's the deal - the first person to offer me a VIP get access to the private folder (and all future private folders......) PLUS 100K fu-bucks. You keep me alive and I keep the party pics coming - I think thats a fair deal.... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Life
Sometimes life throws us curves balls. It all depends on how we take it. We can either stand there and let it hit us or move out of the way and ignore it. If we stand there and let it hit us then we learn from it. It might take a few hits but in the end when we learn from it. If we choose to ignore it we have learned nothing. I chose in life to ignore the curve ball and life was hard. When I finally let hit it me I was able to see things I never had before. Life is only what we make of it so either get hit or move away but in the end getting hit is the best choice.

Possible Auction
If I were to hold an auction would you join it? I'm not entirely sure I am going to do one .. but am thinking about it. To anyone who has *hosted* one - how did they turn out? I've been bored by the Fu lately .. and Just want something to try an get my name out there. I seem to be one of the forgotten Fu's. lol

For The Boys On This Site:
And yes I am talking to the boys and not the men. Because real men do not talk to women only to fuck them. They also do not immediately stop talking to them because they are taken. Boys do that. You know, the ones who rate you and fan you and then leave comments on your pics like "yumm" and "nice tits" or " I'd luv to hit that" (you know who you are). The boys who jump in your shoutbox and call you "baby" or get mad because you wont share your messenger screen name. Or even worse, the ones who do all of this at once. These boys are exactly the kind of males that should not be allowed to even masterbate just for the insanely small possibility that it could produce a smaller version of them. To those boys I would like to say this: Please stop listening to the regurgitated garbage being thrown at you by pop culture and start respecting women, not as things you would like to fuck, but as human beings. Maybe pick up a book or two or 20 and learn a new word in the english languag

Maladjusted
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Pray For Hunter....please!
Earlier today my baby boy Hunter had what appeared to be a siezure and stopped breathing on our way home from the park. I was able to do CPR and restore breathing before paramedics arrived. He was rushed to the nearby hospital where they did a CT scan and some blood work which all came back ok. He will have to see a neurologist this week for an EEG to check for epileptic activity. Today was truely one of the worst days I've ever had and hope to never have again! Please pray for my precious lil man and keep him in your thoughts. He is so younge and normally such a happily lil guy and this episode was absolutely horrible for everyone. Again I just ask that you keep him in your thoughts and prayers during all this...thanks so much! Kim

Falling Into Darkness
Waiting in the darkness, For some light to shine, Ever since she left, My world has been dark and cold, Loss of all feeling, No more control over emotions, I sit here and wonder, Why life has left me all alone, No more love to give, No more tears to cry, Feeling cold and empty inside, As though sometime soon, I will be cradled in the arms of darkness, As my life slowly says goodbye.

Mind Is Thinking
dont understand exctly what i have done to make people not respond to messages i send them. but it is ok i have learned to deal with people i want to talk to not wanting to talk back. everyone has things going on in thier lives and i am always there to help out in anyway i can. i do all of this to keep friendships old and new and look forward to keeping them till the day that i die. i know there may be things i do that no one likes, and by all means if i do let me know. but also remember one thing the things i do are meant to improve my life and hopefully make things better for those around me.

Back To School
Hey guys, I'm back to school today after being sick. I'd dress like the hot little tease I am. Sorry guys, I have a uniform I have to wear. Yeah my skirts is about 3 inches shorter then it is suppose to be. My shirt tighter then it is suppose to be. What do you thing the "GOOD LITTLE CATHOLIC SCHOOL GIRL"? Maybe that is your tease? My tight little body all wrapped up in a Catholic School Girl uniform. Maybe that is why guys like drugging, and raping me. It definitely is part of why I love being raped and tortured. No matter what I want, no matter how hard I fight I have no say in the evil things done to my body. My person being worth nothing more then my pussy, tits, ass, and mouth. Its fun to watch my principal and teachers as I walk through the halls. The principal knows all my uniforms are way to short. I could be sent home to change, even expelled. Only about an inch lower then my pussy and the bottom of my ass. Truth is when I set down, their is now way for me

Some Insight
Let me tell you...I have never been happier to be single! I see all these women getting hurt and played by stupid ass men and in some cases, I am seeing men too pussy whipped to see them getting played and I just sit back and laugh! You dumbass people really need to wake up and read the rule book of the Game again so you don't endure it. Play the game to the fullest and may the best person fuck and win! HAHA!!! I'mma sit here and just watch with a smoke and a drink and then I'm gonna go shopping! ;)

Stuff You May Or May Not Know About Me!
Ok So I am bored and in a lot of pain today so I thought I would write a really random blog! Here goes! My Name Is Jill, I am 32, married for almost 13 years and have three kids, I should have four but my middle child was a twin and I lost one of them, before they were born. I have really cool eyes that change colors depending upon my mood, and moods are as follows..haha Dark Blue, usually sad or upset Silver..usually horny lol Light blue..I am happy They also change with what I wear, If I wear blue I appear horny! TMI I know but thought that this would be fun! I suffer from a lot of illnesses, and I am now disabled because of my many problems, Fibromyalgia, is my main "syndrome" and it is my most troublesome, especially with the vast weather changes we are having now! I live in pain daily, hugs hurt, touching hurts, and basically everything I do hurts! Coming here helps distract my mind from the pain! I am losing my hearing and I am almost deaf in my left ear, and my r

So True Poem
Definition of a friend? All I want is someone to trust, putting your worries to dust, Words are free, nothing to withhold, whenever they could be warm or cold... Someone being able to know, someone who listens, ready to bow, Where feelings are one, someone that takes ready-to-bow equally as poke fun... Someone to be proud to have, that one that’s ready to save, Someone I know we will never leave, just that one thing that makes life a relief! That one that is there, even when you are flying above the clouds, above the world, above the sky, in the air, The one I will give my word of 'I will be there'! It's such a filling feeling, the one that gets you off (or on) the ceiling, That one that sometimes brings mess, being to be able to confess ... Someone who you could trust your tiny life, even if he is man or wife, A word is worth a 1000 lines of feelings, you'd better be less on those ceilings ! He accepts you whoever you are, Whenever you like the

Have A Drink On Me!
Hello gang! Just wanted 2 take a moment 2 create my first blog~ Nothing earth-shattering, not the greatest blog you might ever read! But just a smile & thank you 4 all the adds, drinks, and being the best bunch of bar buds a guy and his spoted dog could ask 4! For that, i say cheers from the bottom of my heart, and the bottom of the bottle as well ~ So drink up, be merry, and Happy St. Patty's 2 all :) Silky ~

What I Did This Last Year...
Ok, so some of you know me from when I was on here before but you didn't know about the changes that were going on. I had gastric bypass and was going through a major weight loss as well a being pregnant with my baby daughter. I was unhappy with myself and finally took a huge step toward finding happiness and toward becoming the person I wanted to be. Ultimately Cherry Tap (aka Fubar) became hard to keep up with while I was going through all these changes so I deleted my old account. I had been well over level 25 and deleted it all. So here I am, the new me, with my beautiful daughter and a life I'm happy to be living again. :) To those who knew about all this, thank you so much for your support! And to those who have just found me, welcome! :) Love, Wendy ;)

What I Learned In Last 2 Weeks
I havent been on much last 2 weeks.-been going thru some stuff here. Had this friend that met this girl online while back. The chatted alot-and even visited each other. 4 mths ago, he moved her out her (Indiana). She is from California. They got along well while chatting. But when they started living together , the true person surfaced. It just shows that ppl can really like each other while chatting and think they are in love--BUT once you live with the person,things change. She moved back to Cali now. Im no longer friends with my old friend ( her ex now).I lost two friends,but gained a new friend-a better friend!Idid have a rough time at first when he kicked her out and she came to live with us. Her b/f's roomate ( whom I work with) told me all these bad things about her- so I already had this image set about her, but still let her stay here ( my heart isnt that cold!)-well, once I got to know her, I found oput my other friend just wanted her out-I got to know her after a week. let m

The One
My LOVE, for YOU these feelings flow In my heart, YOU are the ONE, I know My soul knows YOURS, like an old friend This is a feeling that will never truly end Fate has brought U/us back from days gone by When YOU came into my life (again) I had to cry Happy tears flowed from my eyes Though I wanted to resist, I could find no disguise My love for YOU was too strong to hide away It grows even more with each and every new day My LOVE, YOU are the ONE my heart has been searching for More of YOU I want, need, desire,.... more, more, more!

Sad Fate....
Its morning The clock rattles and shakes A new day ahead Its time for me to wake Eyes glazed over Another sleepless night Looking into the mirror Not wanting to see the sight A tired shell Looking straight at me Why does he go on Living this misery Never happy Always sad With brief interludes Of thoughts that are mad Brush my teeth Rinse the sleep from my eyes Its time for work Slowly waiting to die

Truth
I am not your savior. I am not the person to make all the bad things in your life disappear. I am not the one who you will treat better or worse depending on your last relationship. I am not the person who will deal with your drinking or drugs and say “Baby its ok”. I am not the one who will deal with your lies or the promises you never intended to keep in the first place. I will not listen to those words which mean nothing when shown no action behind them like “I love you”. To me those are just words followed by more words that have no meaning if the actions behind them are not followed. Life sucks and it’s tough. But then again when isn’t it. So many say they are “searching”. For what I ask. What is it you feel you need to complete yourself? You will not find it in another. No one person can make you whole. I have met many on here and made some close friendships. I appreciate you all. So many have heard me say that I am in a time out so to speak. Well I am I no longer am searching.

Mood - Its All In My Panties
I have tons of guys who tell me how they want me dressed without panties. Sorry guys, I always wear panties - I have 1000's of them I collect panties. It might sound stupid, but my panties really represent who I am and what my mood is. If I'm playful and silly I'm usually wearing boybriefs. If I'm more serious then you can bet I'm in a thong. If I'm stressed and wanting to be pushed and have tension I'm in a gstring. If I just feel girly, string bikini panties just help me feel warm and fuzzy. What does this mean? I guess it just a look inside. Best places for my panties is deep in my throat secured with my locking ball gag, or pulled to the side as your cock loads my pussy with your cum. luv u Tara

Pissed
I'm left wondering why some people even give a fuck anymore or if they even do. Maybe this is just the end result of a bad day to begin with but I'm at the end of my fuckin rope. Between shit at work, my father going in the hospital, and some other shit that I just won't air in public, it's no wonder I want to drop off the face of the planet and not be heard from!

Birthday Salute
So my birthday is coming up its on the 25th of march and I would like if my friends would make me a birthday salute or a birthday pic or both if you want and I will post it Send me the pic t and I will put them in my folder that I made titled Birthday Salutes

When Love Hits You
you feel it you smell it you sense it you hear it you float on it you sleep in it IF ITS REAL you cant describe it you cant put it into words you can get rid of it you cant live without it you cant forget it So remember when you got it you, got it hold onto to it tight nurture it to its fullest then find new ways to make it grow love is only what you put into it not what you take from it love hard love strong love long love unconditionally love always and you will be loved in return!!!

Im Not Telling You Who!!! Love You Papi
The first time you laid your eyes on me I felt your stare deep within my soul The first time you touched me I felt your love for me as a whole The first you hugged me I knew I'd felt it before The first time you kissed me I knew I wanted more I'm not sure how all this started I'm not sure how long I've been feeling it All I know is that this is what I've always wanted The fire inside you've unknowningly lit I gave my heart and it was broken before I don't ever want to feel that pain But, you I want and simply adore I'm willing to risk it all with everything to gain In you arms, I know I belong Within your touch, I feel so secure The love you're willing to five seems so pure The bond that we share is SO strong I'll give you my heart, just promise me this To never let go and leave with just a single kiss This may seem like it's going too fast But in my heart, it feels so right I know that you and I will forever last I want to ve with you, day and n

Kiss Me
Kiss me When its pouring out side and the wind is blowing hard holding me close embrass my lips while the drops fall down our bodys with pashion like the thunder with all emotions free just kiss me and let our love flow free with every drop and every touch get lost in the moment for only us to share. By: Elizabeth Sue Pennington

Reboot.
Im tired. Tired of all these fake ass friends that keep using me for points. Spamming me for their lounges,contests,auctions,leveling and various other Fubar related crap. Out of all these 545 "friends" that are there.I talk to 6 of them on a constant basis. The rest just sit there. I cannot even call them real people anymore. Seriously, where are these supposed "real" people at anymore? They are just a set of tits on a computer screen that hundreds of retarded men rate and add because they are thinking with their dicks and are hoping to catch a nipple. I wonder if they can put online whore on their job applications. The rest are just a bunch of stuck up snobs with their cliques and families.Using people for points. Anyways,Im still tired and planning on rebooting my Fubar account. Deleting the Scrawny Pale Guy wont be easy.But it seems to be the only way to find real people anymore on Fubar. Im too tired to delete everyone 1 by 1. Im amazed at my

Random Facts About Me
Here are some random facts about me. These are all subject to change. I work outside for the most part, but I generally avoid being outside Nirvana is my favorite band, I have at least 8 different versions of "Smells like Teen Spirit" I despise movies like Airplane, Another Teen Movie, and the such. I like my comedy clever, with some thought behind it. I worked in a pet shop, and ever since then, have no real interests in having a pet. As an ironic twist of fate, my wife is an animal lover, and I have a zoo. I am very fidgety. I love watching people. I have a sixth sense around them, and can read them really quickly. The previous still doesn't stop me from making poor decisions about people, because if they're interesting, I'm sucked in. If I wouldn't die of a heart attack, I would eat hot dogs and pizza for every meal. I only listen to Van Halen songs with David Lee Roth singing. I love true creime, and non fiction. I read fiction, but the older I get, the more I avoi

Good Manners
When you come to my house i serve you. When you visit me i serve you first. i offer you refreshments and food. Want a bite? You get first bite! Thirsty? You get the first glass! Momma always taught good manners. Company and others first. Be unselfish and give your best. Be happy to serve and do your best. Always ask "please" Always say "thank you" Are you tired? Do you need rest? Take my bed i'll use the floor. Because my bed is most comfortable. We are taught to serve and give early. So if this is good manners Would that mean "not to serve" Would be "Bad Manners"? There was a time when people were proud to serve others. Now it becomes "wrong" Everyone has a chip on their shoulder. Giving in and giving out is weak. I maintain that Momma taught right. There is strength and pride in giving There is a beauty and grace in serving. Please come in and have a drink. Set in my best chair and have some cake. i am honored by your presence. When you leave "please com

Some Ppl Just Don't Get It.
The following was a shoutbox that I received on March 18, 2008. This girl was 19 years old. This is what irks me about young ppl today... they think you owe them something. SpadedRose: hey there i think your geogous, and if you send me a friend request and 5,000 fubucks ill add u to my family soo u can see my naughtie lil pics ->SpadedRose: ty for the compliment... I appreciate it... but I'm not sending you fubucks just to see a couple of naughty pix. I'm sorry... SpadedRose: fine dick See how being polite and honest is rewarded? She calls ME a dick yet she whores herself out for fake money.... LMAO. Classic!

Dirty Dishes
Joe wanted to buy a motorbike. He doesn't have much luck until, one day; he comes across a Harley with a 'For Sale ' sign on it. The bike seems even better than a new one, although it is 10 Years old. It is shiny and in absolute mint condition. He immediately buys it, and asks the seller how he kept it in such great condition for 10 years. "Well, it's quite simple, really," says the seller, "whenever the bike is outside and it's going to rain, rub Vaseline on the chrome. It protects it from the rain." And he hands Joe a jar of Vaseline. That night, his girlfriend, Sandra, invites him over to meet her parents. Naturally, they take the bike there. But just before they enter the house, Sandra stops him and says, "I have to tell you something about my family before we go in." "When we eat dinner, we don't talk. In fact, the first person who says anything during dinner has to do the dishes." "No problem," he says. And in they go. Joe is shocked. Right smack in

So To Finish My Story
So to continue my story about the weekend, we had a rough start with the gang incident and the crazy woman that I became and then to top it all off, Chris throwing a hissy fit! We made it up to the cabin but it was snowing on us. It had stopped by the time we actually made it to the cabin so we were a little bummed. We ate and drank and played cards and went to bed. When we got up in the morning it had been snowing! It wasn’t much but I made a tiny little snowman on the porch. The trees were lightly dusted with snow so it was so beautiful. Then the sun came out and it all melted away. It was pretty while it lasted. It turned out to be a nice day. My friend Sean was getting ready to take the quad up in the hills and I asked him if I could ride on the back. So I hopped on and we drove off. He had to go up in the hill to make a phone call. There isn’t any cell phone reception at the cabin so you always have to go up in the hills. I held onto him for dear life since the fir

My Hypocrisy Only Goes So Far....
Ahhh yess i am a hypocrite, the fact is i know it. I am so on many fronts, but i dont take it to the degree others i have seen.How so? For one I'm a gunsmith yet i dont believe all people should have a gun. For one convicted crimanls who commited a violent crime.Someone who proves to be so incompitent w a gun that they r a danger to themselves or others. N i have even seen cops even, who was approved to carry a wepon on duty ,on the range who was thourghly incomptent, had to tell em to leave. made them pay me first, but anyway...... But my point is even though i fix guns, n believe in the second admenment, some folks should not have a gun.No guns dont kill, but they r made to. They leave big nasty holes n wounds, hurt u bad make u cry. Thats why we use them, to defend ourselves, stop bad guys, hunt things, such as that.They r wepons, n should not be in some folks hands. But on that note, most crimals get thier guns by other than legal means. Also, n some of you might find this funny

Hey Just What It Says..
ya ya i know i been talking about leaving fubar and i haven't that is because ppl want me to stay.. why do i stay on here knowing there is drama after drama everyday i come on here thinking its worth it and yes it is addicting after you get the hang of it... i fall for guys all the time and yet they flirt with other girls i guess its hard for guys to just be with one girl.. well or vice versa any ways yes i am rambling... anyways i don't know what to do leave or just stay.. jojo i didn't want to make this a mumm!! so leave feedback or message me or sb me..

Pc
i will not be online for a while as my pc in going for repairs but please keep popping by and saying hi as i have use of the pc at work and also have the library will miss you all may take up to 2 weeks before i get it back miss you all already hugs paul p.s i love you di

How To Give Her Amazing Oral
The sensations vary depending on the angle at which you approach the clitoris. Going in from the side gives lots of scope to stimulate the whole of the clitoris rather than focussing on the tip, which may be good if she's sensitive. Your chin will also rub against her mons in this position, which may add more pleasure. She may like lying on her back while you lie between her legs as this gives easy access to the clit and vagina. If she sits on your face, you can get your tongue deeper inside her – but don't ignore that clit. And you can even approach from behind, reaching her vagina from an entirely different angle while your fingers work their magic. Which leads nicely to… Take a different approach …use your hands Just because it's called oral sex, it doesn't mean you can only use your tongue and lips. Add a finger or too so that you can stimulate her G-spot while your tongue is on her clit. …and all your oral prowess Using the soft underside of your lips

Work
Ok, So like, say you were offered a job that pays 10K per year than your current job, and you had a place to stay and got paid moving fees to go there, plus the benefits are outstanding, closer to family, would you move?

Chinese Riddle
Home from work, time to get my sleep sauce on. I'm hungry, tired...tired....more tired.....and uhhh....so this is going to be short...and by 'short' I mean not long. Now you may say, "well the shortitude is relative to the longitudeness" or you may not say this...either way you are right. That brings me to my next point: Since the dawn of time, man has struggled with the idea of which came first; the chicken or the egg. The answer is neither. Now to solve the next great mystery: Why do all the toys in cereal boxes suck? This is a three part answer 1. First off The good shit is expensive (like drugs)...that's why every god damn toy in my Fruity Pebbles is made in China. China is great at making shitty crap & commie neighbors ....nothing else...Oh! and people and ridiculously long walls...NowWwW nothing else... 2. Like a black man dating an Asian; the good prize just won't fit. As a youth I often found myself suckered in by C

Club Raven's First Auction
We are still looking for more people to be auctioned off, if you're interested contact DJ Sally Stitches! Official Rules: All bidders and people being auctioned off must be a member or staff of Club Raven Newbies cannot be auctioned off No entrance fee Club Raven is not responsible for nonpayment of prizes/offers. Bidding begins Friday March 21st 12am est and ends Friday March 28th 11:59pm est. All bidding will take place in the album marked "Club Raven Auction" which is located in the photos of DJ Sally Stitches All bids must be left in the comments on the picture of the person they want to bid on. (Album will be made available on Friday 3/21 at 12am est) All fubucks and prizes are issued to the person that is being auctioned. Starting bid 50k 1 day blast worth 50k 3 day blast worth 100k 7 day worth 250k 4 gift tickers worth 250k Fu-Bling Gift Pack Worth 75k 1 month vip worth 250K 3 month vip worth 600k 6 month vip worth 1 mil 12 month vip worth

I Guess You Just Don't Know How Much It Hurts.
I guess you just don't know how much it hurts. I cannot think you know and just don't care. Destiny provides one's just deserts By turning out one just as would be fair. Just as a child learns to its delight That lying sets one fabulously free, So you say "love" to get the rapture right, Getting so the most you can from me. And then, of course, you tire of your pleasure, As those who seek but pleasure often do, And sacrifice by far the greater treasure Upon the altar where you worship you. Justice would demand you be the fool, But you are far more ignorant than cruel.

People Who Are Special Ed
ok will i commented on some mums that assholes cant take it so they thought it was funny to take my pics and use them aww how nice anyways i think anyone who is special ed would take the time to do it only becuse they cant handle people thoughts on what they are talking abount grow the fuck up and get ur head out of ur ass

New Life With Falling In Love
It was only a few short weeks ago that I thought life was going to just keep falling apart. I was sure that I would stay and angry, bitter and cynical man. But then something wonderful happened to me. When I truly needed a friend and thought I had no one, she walked into my life. She saw that I was hurting and wanted to see that I was alright. Well, as the days and weeks have passed, we have grown ever closer and falling deeply in love with each other. She has brought out in me the qualities that I thought were lost from many years of pain and anguish. With her I have been able to open up and share things I have kept bottled inside for almost 2 decades. My fear of being alone is now gone and has been replaced with an eternal flame of love. I have never met a more caring and loving woman in all my life. I am constantly amazed at her kindness and concern and love for me on a daily basis, and fall even more in love with her everyday and all over again when I see her and hear her voice. It

Scattergories
SCATTERGORIES...it's harder than it looks! . *Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following... *they have to be real places, names, things...nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. (WHICH BY THE WAY IS HARD IF YOU ALREADY READ THEIR ANSWERS) You CAN'T use your own name for the boy/girl. 1. What is your name: .........................Cindy 2. 4 letter word:..............chat 3.Vehicle: ....................Chevelle! 4. A city:.....................Chicago 5. Boy Name: ..................Charles 6. Girl Name: .................Charlotte 7. Alcoholic Drink: ...........Coors Light! 8. Occupation:.................Caretaker 9. Something you wear:.........coat 10.Celebrity:..................Charlize Theron 11. Food: .....................chocolate!!! 12. Something found in a bathroom:conditioner 13. Reason for Being Late: ....car wouldn't start 14. Cartoon Character: ........Ca

I Miss Her!!
Wow how time flies. To me it seems like its only been a couple of months, not an entire year. Your clothes are still in the dresser and your toys are still in the toy box in the living room. There has not been a day go bye that I haven't thought about you from the moment I wake up until the moment I fall asleep. I still wake during the night (and most mornings) because I can swear I hear your angelic voice calling out to me. Sometimes I wake in a shroud of chills because i can swear I felt your tiny hand touch me and hear you say Mama I love you, and maybe you are reaching out to me from wherever you are, I don't know, but its a thought that comforts me. I cant help but wonder how much you've changed. How much you've grown. How your features have changed. If you still have those piercing baby blue eyes showcasing your pureness and innocence that I could always get so lost in and instantly forget about all the bad in the world. If you still smell like a mixture of strawberry bu

Feelings!
Why is it that when you are having such a good day some people aim to ruin it. Well this happens to me all to often & now it's gone beyond a joke where i honestly don't give acrap about what people think about me. No one has never even given a shit, no one even asks whats wrong no more & it's all because i'm a good for nothing person that no one has or will ever care about ever! I seem to take everyone for who they are but no one ever returns it. I'm going to stop caring for people now & what they want or think about absolutely everything & see how they feel or think about it, then & only then will they truly understand what i go through but until then no one will ever know. If you have any interesting comments i'd like to hear them & maybe take them into consideration too!

Bad News From Doc
I need prayers from all my friends. Had to go to the ER last night due to severe pains in my back and tummy. Have a lot of blood in my urine, but no kidney stones...he says I have classic signs of kidney failure and need to see a specialist right away. A lot of you know that I have been out of work for a year and a half due to knee injury. And you know how much it costs to see a specialist. I am in the process today of trying to work something out with the urologist and I am having a great deal of pain. Please keep me in your prayers. Love to you all, Trese

Check This Out!
Do you like my profile pic? Well you can have one of these made by just going and subscribing to a great lounge!!! TinkerbellMN84 Needs Help to Win a Happy Hour! All you need to do is go to The Regal Beagle Lounge (which is in my lounges section on my page) subscribe, and tell them that she sent you. You then see her and she will make you a great pic, just like my default!!! If you have any questions...ask her!!! ~*TinkerbellMN84*~ {FU-OWNED BY MY BFF ~BABS~& Drew}@ fubar

From The Files Of Nasa Archives!
Illuminati Conspiracy Archive Operation Paperclip Casefile - Dossier Compiled by Agent Orange (Fri, 08 Aug 1997) After WWII ended in 1945, victorious Russian and American intelligence teams began a treasure hunt throughout occupied Germany for military and scientific booty. They were looking for things like new rocket and aircraft designs, medicines, and electronics. But they were also hunting down the most precious "spoils" of all: the scientists whose work had nearly won the war for Germany. The engineers and intelligence officers of the Nazi War Machine. The U.S. Military rounded up Nazi scientists and brought them to America. It had originally intended merely to debrief them and send them back to Germany. But when it realized the extent of the scientists knowledge and expertise, the War Department decided it would be a waste to send the scientists home. Following the discovery of flying discs (foo fighters), particle/laser beam weaponry in German military bases, the War Dep

Bren And I
I am happy to say that Brenda and i are still going strong, we are very much in love. Now as far as everything else i still get to see my 2 yr. old son alot, his name is Tate i have some pics on here if you want to check his cute self out.

Looks
I just seen a intersting article bout what makes people more attractive. do u know its mainly based on the outline of the jaw? intersting but true. its amazing what little things make a difference on someones looks. its mostly based on the jaw and nose, how they appear head on more than profile. ever notice how many pics folks take of themselves with the camera lookin down at them? fer those reasons thats why folks might look better. dont get me wrong, i anit fussing or bitchinh, just thoiught it was interesting little fact. but on all you lovely ladies yer all beautiful!

Willows Place
Hi everyone I just wanted to let ya know even with all the lounges on fubar I have made a new one that if u like to rock out n have fun with the best peeps around fubar come join us at Willow's Place Thank You All For Your Time Hugs and Kisses to u all

Some People....
WAL-MART GREETER.......... A very loud, unattractive,mean-acting woman walked into Wal-Mart with her two kids,yelling obscenities at them all the way through the entrance.... The Wal-Mart Greeter said pleasantly 'Good morning, and welcome to Wal-Mart. Nice children you have there. Are they twins?'The ugly woman stopped yelling long enough to say, 'Hell no they ain't twins....''The oldest one's 9 and the other one's 7. Why the hell would you think they're twins? Are you blind, or just stupid? I'm neither blind nor stupid, Ma'am,' replied the greeter. 'I just couldn't believe someone made love to you twice.' Have a good day and thank you for shopping at Wal-Mart.'

Know Your Music .. I Need Your Imput
Im putting together another CD to really get my groove on for my toning up now that im down a lil over 30 lbs .. But as usual my mind goes Blank when i try to think of some really good Heart pumpin songs .. these are the ones i thought of so far .. so if you can think of any others .. Toss em at me Shake that ass -Groove Armada Bust a Move -Young MC Sexy Back - Justin Timberlake 3am eternal -KLF haha even thinking of putting a lil hammer in it .. So if youve got some good songs you like to work out to or think might be good to put on this CD .. Please lemmie know Thanks and Have a great nite :)

Pointer....this Is Only A Pointer
Dear Fubar, Thank you for taking the time to read my profile and discover my blog. Since you are already here, I dont want to disappoint you...heheeh. http://catwoman69y2k.insanejournal.com (My personal journal -- add me if you are an IJ member) http://twitter.com/Catwoman69y2k My Twitter feed. Now you know when I do such mundane tasks as taking out the trash, moving vats of latex, creating another adult webpage, etc... Thanks and be sure to comment and let me know you stopped by! Thanks!

To Be Loved
Be careful if you make a women cry, cuz god counts her tears. The women comes out of a man's rib not from his feet to be walked on, not from his hand to be superior, but to be equal, Under the arm to be proteted, Next to the heart to be LOVED.

Bs
Fuck all you pricks who screw up our lives And fuck all the insignificant fairy tale lies Fuck all your bullshit and fuck your disguise I swim in the river of bitterness and hate And I'm up to my neck in the waves of my fate Drowning in sorrow and floating a'sea Fuck all the ranting and lastly fuck me

Hear Me
"Hear Me" Hear me... Hear me... My cries... My woes... No one knows them better than me... Someone hear me... Hear me... My sorrows... My Disspear... But nobody cares... Please hear me... Hear me... My fears... My loneliness... Has just begun... My tears... My tears... There is no merciful end... No one to hear... No one to see... for there is no end... To all my tears... HEAR ME! Rhoda Suzette Doggett Copyright ©2008 Rhoda Suzette Doggett

Chain Reaction
"CHAIN REACTION" Diamonds twinkle in the light. Light radiates its rays through the air. Air swims the skys of heavens clouds. Heavens clouds float down to earth in a fog. A fog filled with such density of moisture. Moisture from a tear shedded in happiness. Happiness is a bond shared between to lovers hearts. Hearts filled with the abundance of love. Love that is given freely without any strings. Strings spun to make a beautiful bow. A beautiful bow wrapped around a tiny box. A tiny box that held a ring of love. A ring of love that holds the twinkling diamonds. Diamonds twinkle in the light. Rhoda Suzette Doggett Copyright ©2008 Rhoda Suzette Doggett

In My Friends Garden
In My Friends Garden I was nothing just a seed in the wind. Til someone captured me as a friend. They planted me in the ground,nutured me,fed me, and cared for me. I struggle so hard to reach; reach up out of the darkness. My arms are growing up; up towards the light above. My feet spread out below me; planting solid roots to stand on. I hear my family around me struggling as I have. Then, I hear one cry out in pain, trampled. Their arms are broken. I don't know if I have a prayer to reach the beauty that is inside me. As I pray I feel the warmth of love around me. And, my beauty is finally seen and admired in my friends garden Rhoda Suzette Doggett Copyright ©2008 Rhoda Suzette Doggett

Loneliness
Loneliness Loneliness is the depths of stillness. Silence is all around, but the noises are louder outside. The world outside goes on, as your life is at a standstill. There is no one to talk to. No one to share in a joke... No one to hold you when you need a hug. No one to snuggle up to, when your cold and lonely... Loneliness eats at you, but the tears that fall has no meaning. Its sad in the depths of stillness. You want to go where there is people. Just to hear someone elses voice besides your own. You look at everything around you, wishing to be apart of it, but you can not. Afraid and lonely... Rhoda Suzette Doggett Copyright ©2008 Rhoda Suzette Doggett

Time
Time Time is like a clock always ticking; it never stops. It has no mercy or patience, As life and fate can be the same. It never knows when to stop. It keeps going on and on, no matter what happens. Life, fate, and time marches on. Time started long before we came along. It will be here long after we are gone. Ticking away forever and ever. Time. Rhoda Suzette Doggett Copyright ©2008 Rhoda Suzette Doggett

One Little Word
One Little Word One little word... That one little word,it can make the world seem so cruel. It can hurt you before and after it is said.It's an alternative word. It can disappoint you or not. It can destroy someones' dreams,hopes,or fantasies. You always wish it was another word after you hear it or not. Because sometimes you like to hear it for different reasons. It can make a difference in someones' life or not. It can destroy faith in people or not. It has only two letters in the word,but its a strong little word. It can really shatter someones' whole world or not. It can be a very harsh word,but soft and tenderly at the same time. It can be a danger word or a safe word at the same time too. For such a small little word, big things happen. NO.... Rhoda Suzette Doggett Copyright ©2008 Rhoda Suzette Dogget

Please Read This....
AS OF MARCH 19TH.2008 IM NOT GOING TO HELP ONE GOD DAMN PERSON OR FRIEND ON HERE NO MORE! SO IF YOU DONT LIKE ME SAYING THIS.. WELL TUFF SHIT! CAUSE IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF OTHER PEOPLE ON HERE COMING TO ME AND ASKING ME TO HELP THEM IN CONTEST OR TO HELP THERE FRIENDS... THAT GOING TO STOP AS OF RIGHT NOW! SORRY IF THIS IS CAUSING ANY PROBLEMS.... CAUSE I TRY GET PEOPLE TO MY LOUNGE AND I CANT OR CANT FIND ANYONE WHO WILL HELP ME AS A PROMOTER AND ALSO CANT GET OTHER HELP ME LEVEL UP EITHER. SO IF YOU WANNA HELP ME LEVEL UP OR HELP ME IN MY LOUNGE... WELL LEAVE ME A MESSAGE IN MY SHOUTBOX OR EMAIL THANKS, ReNeGaDE

It Doesn't Get Any Better Than This!
Just got any early morning phone call from Persia (its early for her, anyway). She just gave me the best news!!!! Our Fave Band Every Time I Die is going to be at The Bamboozle festival!!! We were already planning on going, but had no clue ETID was going to be there. This is going to be so awesome!

Discovery
that girl with her eyes and smile and hair when i think of her it makes me smile everywhere her voice is birdsong in my ear as my day goes by it feels as though im floating and youre the reason why each passing day i yearn ever more for your touch,for your kiss when i go about living its your smile that i crave that i miss you and only you can be that girl that makes me soar the one walking beside me brightened by your light >

Love Find A Way
Find A Way" Lay your head down just for now Space fills your mind and you dream awhile The sun floods your room as you drown Your lungs full of breathing Your true love believe One more time to say I love you always And keeping faith letting love find a way Move let the stars suck you in Hold tight, the night's air and breathe again Let go and be burnt by the moon Your hands full of feeling Your true love believe One more time to say I love you always And keeping faith letting love find a way One more time to say I love you always And keeping faith letting love find a way I love you to death Could you love me to death I love you to death (I will love you to death) Could you love me Could you love me One more time to say I love you always And keeping faith letting love find a way One more time to say I love you always And keeping faith letting love find a way Letting love find a way (I will lov

Stop Bitching About Your Man!.. Here's Why...!
This is for all the girls out there who aren't satisfied with how their man treats them. First off, if you're one of those man hating women because you've had your heart stepped on, this might be why (notice the MIGHT). Some men, actually most men, are dicks and really only care about one thing (Themselves, geez what were you thinking? Maybe it's time to get your mind out of the gutter). A lot of women are attracted to these men. Why? Because these are the guys that have learned to play on girls emotions to get what they want, and they really don't care about her at all. These are also the guys who have it "all." They are sooo spoiled that they think the world revolves around them, so girls should too. So how do you find that perfect guy who will treat you the way you ought to be treated? If you aren't looking for a one night stand then STOP dressing like a skank and going to bars to see who the cutest guy to hit on you will be. If you want a nice guy, then look for the on

Can't Believe It Is Thursday Already!
It is Thursday already. This week has kind of gone by fast. I have been busy working and busy trying to keep my son on the right track. I am so not ready for Easter to be Sunday. I have not been into Easter for many years. It seemed like once the kids got older, it just lost it's appeal. There is always the dreaded family thing too. Taking a million pictures. When I was a kid, we got a new Easter outfit to wear to church. We hunted easter eggs and did the big family dinner thing. We always got easter baskets as well. I have been so lame the last few years that I didn't even get my kids an Easter basket. Aren't they a little old anyway? I think part of my not getting into it this year is that my daughter's birthday is Wednesday and Anthony's birthday is Saturday. Kind of makes it a pain. Also the whole thing of dealing with Anthony on a daily basis kind of takes the life out of me at times. We were supposed to have dinner at Peter's brother's house tomorrow nig

Come Join Us For Our Wedding
Club TooSexy's DJ SEXY BADBOY & DJ TOOSEXY Are Getting fu-Married Tonight! Only In Club TooSexy This Will Be The Sexiest Wedding Ever on fubar! Don't Miss It! It All Happens Tonight Thursday, March 20, 2008 11pm Eastern Only In Club TooSexy Just Click The Pics To Get There Wedding Will Be Performed By: GARY - Owner Dirty South Crew & Dirty Addiction@ fubar (repost of original by 'MÿZtEr¥ ☆ Owned by Ŧím~§øu†hè®ñÖu†£äŵßíkè®~Ð-§-Ç~ ☆ I.B.I.C. ☆' on '2008-03-20 12:03:44') (repost of original by 'DJ SEXY BADBOY~DSC~FUENGAGED TO DJ TOOSEXY~OWNER OF SEXII CHIQUITA~' on '2008-03-20 12:06:41') (repost of original by 'SEXY NIKKI~"CO-OWNER OF CLUB TOO SEXY~FU ENGAGED TO MARK "ASST ENFORCER MGR @ CLUB TOO SEXY' on '2008-03-20 12:10:32')

Another New Email Feature
If you haven't noticed already the newest email feature recently added is the Flag As Spam option. If you recieve those ridiculous emails from people professing of their love for you along with their Yahoo emails or promises of millions of dollars from South African Banks, please don't hesitate to use this button so we can keep these Myspace losers off of fubar! Its on the right side of your email box when you read a message. DON'T JUST DELETE...REPORT!!!

You May Not Even Know You Have It
Please Play The Videos Not Only For Charmz But For Your Self This Cancer Is The Number 1 Leading Death In The Us today get a screening test it takes but 5mins out of your day and the price of this is just 55.00$ and it is painless..charmz had testing done and was told she had oral cancer.. and is now going in for the screening to just see how much of the cancer is in her mouth that can not be seen by the human eye..people make Ribbons for aide and all kinds of cancers but i dont see one for oral cancer and people are dying for this roughly 1 person per hour, 24 hours per day i think someone needs to make a Ribbon for that.. i dont know what i would do with out charmz / teraysa we have been best friends for the longest time and this hurts me more then any of you would know she is just not my best friend but like my sister she is also my sons god mother More than 34,000 Americans will be diagnosed with oral or pharyngeal cancer this year. It will cause over 8,000 death

Who Has Mine?
We were given two legs to walk, two arms to feel, two eyes to see, and two lips to kiss. But why only one heart? Because the other one belongs to someone else to find. So if you have my 2nd heart.. come find me.. I'm incomplete w/out you.

Please Help!!!
A very good friend is in need of some help. Trese is suffering from kidney failure and needs to go into a specialist for dialysis to prepare for a transplant. Unfortunately, it's going to cost $400 to get in and she doesn't have insurance. I have set up a donations block on my site for all who would like to help us get the money to get her into the specialist and get this taken care of. Any amount is welcomed. Link for donating is http://www.mystic-illusions.com Link for her Fubar page to give other support and kind words is ۞†♥┼®ë§ë♥†۞-graphic designer @ Mystic Illusions website, Get you Wor@ fubar

Pain...without Love...pain...can't Get Enough...
3 days grace with the lyric of the day (this will be copy/pasted to my myspace so I gave it a lyric of the day)...its kinda ironic since pain is what this is about. I am hurting bad as hell right now. My spine is screaming at me because I did too much riding to the mall today. I hadn't been out much in a week so I went. BIG mistake! OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! This does not compare to the pain I will experience May 1-7. I am undergoing massive bladder surgery to repair several things...and I will be on heavy duty painkillers for 5 days and taper down after that. I am not lookin forward to it at all. That, and so much other shit on my mind, my brain is just totally out of whack...I am sorry all if I am not very talkative, and sorry for not being talkative if I haven't been to you this week. (those of you this applies to, you know who you are). With that, as my bro Mikey (quick plug: Mikey@ fubar ^^^

Awakening Love
In the darkest days Of a life yet to be fulfilled A brief encounter Brings promise allowing in light Awakening to dawn Realizing true meaning Of living a life Beyond just existing Accepting all truth Discovering beauty of emotion Opening locks Whose keys had been lost Exploring shared paths Without prying eyes Encountering pure devotion Honest, liberating, sincere Facing fierce demons Created inside Awaiting each other Dragons stalk, we can’t hide Allowing torrents of tears Enduring untold pain Hearts clawed through Impossible to mend Two become one And one, now gone away Together no more No promise of light today Tauri Athena copyright 2007

Giveaway No 3
Glitter My Words Lets do this again, I will keep the giveaways to 20 contestants ..to keep it affordable,(fu bucks giveaway is unlimited) time limits will be posted under your pictures along with your prize and points needed. BLING PACKS:( I will offer 5 of these ) 5,000 comments........One week time limit. ----------------------------------------------------- ONE DAY BLAST: 5,000 comments.........One week time limit. ---------------------------------------------------- 3 DAY BLAST: 7,500 comments........10 day time limit --------------------------------------------------- ONE MONTH VIP OR 7 DAY BLAST Either of the above.............10,000 comments........Two week time limit --------------------------------------------------- 4 TICKER MESSAGES 10,000 comments.......Two week time limit. -------------------------------------------------- 30 DAY BLAST OR 3 MONTH VIP I will only offer one each of these..............25,000 comments........Three week time limit

"together"
"Together" You've made me remember the good times When I could only remember the bad You're promising me a return Of the peace I long ago had. You're not running the other way & leaving me alone When that's what I wrongly think I need. You never dwell on my faults Instead you point out where I succeed. You make me laugh When I really want to cry You make me feel alive... When I used to feel like I've died. You've reminded me of things, That I haven't felt since a few years ago. I'm finding myself doing things.. Showing things that I don't normally show. There's a comfort with you And it feels so right.. so good.. You give me a feeling.. Of being understood. Though it's not been long now Since someone's guided us to each other.. I feel like it's been years That we've been with one another. You have taken away the emptiness That's haunted me for so long... Looking in your loving eyes, I feel I can't do wrong. So I thank you for breathing life Back into a

Forever Friends
Written with a pen Sealed with a kiss If your my friend please answer me this: Are we Friends? Or are we not? you told me once But I forgot So tell me now and tell me the true So i can say I'm here for you Of all the friends I ever met You're the one I won't forget And if I die before you do I'll go to heaven And wait for you I'll give the angels back their wings and risk the loss Just to prove my friendship is true to have a friend like you!

Poetry
I got flowers today. It wasn't my birthday or any other special day. We had our first argument last night, And he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said Because he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today. It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day. Last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me. It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn't believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry, Because he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today, and it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day. Last night, he beat me up again. And it was much worse than all the other times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of my kids? What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave. But I know he must be sorry, Because he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today. Today was a very special day. It was the day of my funer

My Own Music (indulge & Feedback Pls)
I love composing, and I love to get inspired, anything can inspire enough to produce sound waves that infiltrate through the senses. How I love that language. My style of composing varies but to put them somehow into categories then: 1- Metal in an atmospheric epic romantic and sorrowful sensations, most tempo is slow 2- Scores for movies, mostly of epic nature and depends on the visuals, it moves with a scene side by side. 3- Darkwave Electro and Goth, it represents a darker sensual sexual side, influenced by vampirism and also known bands such as Type O Negative, London after midnight , The 69 eyes, Nick Cave, Zeromancer\'s music etc... for now I have for you a link to (style 1) please make sure after you listen to it to share your opinionfeelings rather negative or positive, by posting a comment or sending a message over myspace. http://www.myspace.com/sherobeem enjoy

Baseball
Okay so this is my first blog, but i just wanna say that i wanna go to a MLB game soooooo bad, the last time i was there it was aug 2005 so im in desperate need to go to one again...The Pirates were playing the reds, and even though the pirates are my team the reds are a close second so it was a great game!!!!!! I seen Griffey hit a homerun and that was sooooo memorable! I LOVED IT..I am sooooooo pumped and just feel like i have to go this summer! LOL.

Tips On Getting The Most For The $ @ The Pump.
Only buy or fill up your car or truck in the early morning when the ground temperature is still cold. Remember that all service stations have their storage tanks buried below ground. The colder the ground the more dense the gasoline, when it gets warmer gasoline expands, so buying in the afternoon or in the evening....your gallon is not exactly a gallon. In the petroleum business, the specific gravity and the temperature of the gasoline, diesel and jet fuel, ethanol and other petroleum products plays an important role. A 1-degree rise in temperature is a big deal for this business. But the service stations do not have temperature compensation at the pumps. When you're filling up do not squeeze the trigger of the nozzle to a fast mode. If you look you will see that the trigger has three (3) stages: low, middle, and high. In slow mode you should be pumping on low speed, thereby minimizing the vapors that are created while you are pumping. All hoses at the pump have a vapo

Final Orders
Today is Good Friday. I left work early (for once), walked out into the sunshine, and went home. When I arrived home, the mail was waiting for me. In it, was an envelope from the Army. I opened it, and found a set of orders; not for deployment again, but my very last set. I was finally Discharged after 9 years of Honorable service. I resigned my Commission (Captain) 8 or 9 months ago, I can't even remember...but, in typical Army Bureaucracy fashion, it took until today for the paperwork to come full circle. I am very happy, relieved, etc. And, also a little saddened. In addition to 9 years as a U.S. Army Reserve Officer, I served in the U.S. Navy for 4 years Active Duty. That's 13 years in the service of my Country; a little over half of my adult life. I can look back with pride, and I can be content that I've always done the right thing. It's just a little bittersweet coming to terms with one's own mortality. But, at age 42, my joints hurt, my kids are growing up faster than

E-fame?
Blocked already. Damn. ->****Dj DeA...: lmao Sad, pathetic people. Go back and try and earn your E-Fame. No one will cry when you die from eating too many twinkles because you're a fat miserable bitch. Thank you for being amusing though. You retards show that nature does have a sense of humor. ****Dj DeA...: u need to get a life cunt fuck u ->****Dj DeA...: And next time you attempt to speak to me, try making some fucking sense first, you pathetic shit bag of a human. ->****Dj DeA...: lmao You can always tell who has a life and who doesnt. I leave to go take care of my family, and I come back to some whiney cunt. Get a life or die. You already have one foot half way in the grave. ****Dj DeA...: what mommy didn't let y ou be a baalrinna who s living what dah ****Dj DeA...: i spent 6 years in the club bitch and i could out do u in anything so fuck u u little peice of shit http://www.fubar.com/user/538695

In My Darkness....
In My Darkness… In my darkness I find you there, Waiting to embrace me, comfort me, You pick up the pieces of my soul, Gently handing them to me, Letting me know, where they belong. In my darkness you become a kindred soul, Not depending on me to be there, Nor letting me depend on you, You know where I am and I know why you are there. In my darkness you are there, You gently bandage my knees when I fall, Because you know how they hurt, For you have the same scars. In my darkness you comfort me, Because you need my comfort in return. You freely give me your passion, Because you need mine as well. In my darkness I know you are there, And you my dark dearest friend, Know I will always be there... In my forever darkness. Written by Paulette ~3-21-2008~

Foxy & P.j's Fu Wedding Celebration
Join Us In Celebrating the Wedding Of Our Friends PJ and Foxy at Bada Bing Lounge on Saturday, March 22, 2008 at 8pm eastern time. Plan to be there as we share and celebrate a beautiful time with these two very special friends!

Pieces...
As I sit here. I think about all that as happened to me. All that I have went through and faced in my life. I know that probably no one reads blogs. But I guess more or less I am writing for myself. Sometimes it makes it easier to see the words on paper. I fight every day I fight for what I want and what I need. To cover my feelings mask them as I always have. Seems every time I decide to show them it’s always the wrong time or wrong person. Man I have made some really bad judgments when it come to relationships. Time and time again. So many see me as this strong independent women that could conquer the world, and I assure you one day I will. But at times I just wish someone could see me. I am so not into the games anymore. So not into the head trips of does he like me? Or does he even think of me when I am gone? When I was younger none of that mattered to me I was so consumed by my own selfishness I thought nothing of anyone else. My karma I guess. I have truly gave up the search I

And The Winners Are........
I would like to thank you all for making my first contest fun, successful and drama free...wooohoooo. I had a blast! NOW FOR THE ANNOUNCEMENT OF THE WINNERS....DRUM ROLL PLEASE....LOL First place of ONE MILLION FU$$$ goes to: DJ_TEXASCOYOTEMIKE ~SECURITY OFFICER FOR THE GIT-R-DONE REBEL BOMB SQUAD ~'OWNER OF REBELS BAR@ fubar Second place of 500K FU$$$ goes to: ~Judi~SIXX SLAVE FOR LIFE~*S*U*P*~READ MY PROFILE~@ fubar Third place of 250K FU$$$ goes to: AsianGem*Co-Owner Of Bi Chicks That Rock Lounge-Owned By BFGMAN*@ fubar Fourth place of 100K FU$$$ goes to: ~pinkbacardi~@ fubar Bonus For Rates of 50K FU$$$ goes to: ~Judi~SIXX SLAVE FOR LIFE~*S*U*P*~READ MY PROFILE~@ fubar CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU ALL AND THANK YOU SO MUCH! I WILL BE SENDING OUT ALL OF YOUR FUBUCKS IMMEDIATELY! :) This Million $$$ FuBuck Contest Was Brought To You By ♫LilBamaGirl♫@ fubar

The Realm Of Fire: Summer
The Realm of Fire: Summer Fire, with creative and destructive power contained within every flame, is likely the most challenging element. Fire represents transformation, both in substances that burn and in the environment around it, as the flames supply both light and heat. It burns with passion and energy reflected in the human spirit – the purity of fire is akin to our motivation and will, the drive to succeed and shine in our own light. Through the light of fire we receive the illumination we need to follow our paths, giving us the energy to refine our passions and strive for our goals. Fire can leap up and die down again just as suddenly, bringing spontaneity in its flames. It is called the “living element” as its dance is reminiscent of our own dance of life. In the summer, the heat of the Sun’s fire is most present, and the energy of the fire fills our bodies and our lives. We spring into activity, motivated by the increased light to do more, and express the fire of our

Complications
I love my best friend to death, there's no denying that. But there are days, much like today, (ha that rhymed) where I feel bad for wanting to include her in every aspect of my life. I had made plans to meet up with a someone at the mall and at the last minute I thought, hey why not bring the bff with me, we'll have fun. Well we did, for a short period of time before everything changed and she just disappeared on me. Nothing hurts me more than when someone drifts away right in front of me. Sometimes I feel bad for wanting to include my best friend in every aspect of my life, but can you blame me, she's the only friend I've got even if she doesn't feel the same way back.

[final Entry]
I blinked and realized the TV had been on nothing for 3 hours. After all my favorite shows had come and gone. I really wish instead of all this, I had been diagnosed with something terminal. I've been going to restaurants, diners, cafe's just to hear other people's voices, but the downside is staring straight at an empty booth. I don't know what to tell you, if you don't already know why. How many of your greatest fears have you faced in one night? How many arrows from an unkind can you suffer? How much betrayal can you cram into a day? A month? I just want to crawl I just want to sleep I just want to ball up, and dissapear. But they won't let me. God it hurts so much... no, I'm not bringing him into this... not yet. It's like constantly having your heart ripped out and fed to you. I've lost all drive, all confidence, all shelter. I've lost all sense of me. I've lost me. And the only comfort I have- is wise words from my brother confused words from my

Why Do People Think Its Right To Deceive Others?
I have been online a long time. And have chatted in many places. I think of all the places I have been, fubar takes the prize as far as phony people. Dont get me wrong, I have met some very sweet, down to earth people here. But when the phony ones come out, they take a prize! Problem is, I can see right through them...and I can talk their shit as well as they can, from all the experience. Im not in any way fake. What you see is what you get. And if you dont like what you see...its your loss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im probably one of the most honest people online, and some people back away. They are usually the ones who can tell I can see through their bullshit. Sorry...if ya werent phony...you wouldnt have this problem with me. I am not pointing this blog at anyone in particular...I was just watching the blasts pop up. And I can tell who is for real and who isn't. I think people should all be themselves online. Because eventually, you will be figured out..and then you begin to make

"i Knew"
the person i wrote this for KNOWZ who they are... I knew you'd leave, as the others have before. You'd give up on me and love me no more. I knew the wait went on to long. So now I have delayed and you're long gone. I knew I'd cause you pain... not ever meaning to do so. I never meant to hurt you.. I never wanted you to go. I though I knew your love for me...now my heart has new scars. I'll remember your love that I lost every time I see the moon and stars. I knew I'd never love anyone enough to keep them with me. I still dream of your love...that's so hard to see. I knew you'd hate me..for that I don't blame you. I tried to show you my love... I really thought you knew. But even worse now... I guess I thought I knew you...

Decisions
decisions. through out life you are constantly presented with choices. decisions you must make, and only you can make them weather they are as mundain as picking what to where, or a searious thing like choosing a carrear or decisions in your love life. which ever the case may be all you can do is go with your gut and hope it is right. now in my life i have made more bad decisions then good. now dont get me wrong i am not trying to braig or make it seam like i am proud of them in any way. when i look back on my life now there is more regret i see than anything else. there are so many people i have hurt and so many things that i have done wrong. most of my life i spent chasing the next high, the next piece of tail, and my next easy paycheck. never worring about who i hurt on the way there or what i had to do to get there. now it wasnt till this last year that i really started thinking about these things. and really began to think about life and what i want from it. and more

You Know It's Too Much When.....
You know you're addicted to this site and need to step away from it when... # You find yourselfs logging in as soon as you get out of bed. # You find your house being all messed up because you don't take time to clean up but rather be on here all the time. # You continuesly run late for work because you just can't leave the pc. # You stay logged in even when you went to bed!!!! # You wake up with your face still stuck to the keyboard. # Your kids bugging you in the evening still asking when you are going to fix breakfast! # Waking up in the middle of the night having a nightmare about supposedly downrating someone. # You stopped paying important bills cuz being a vip or having a Happy Hour is more important then paying the rent. #you suddenly smell this burning sensation coming from your kitchen. #you find your bed all covered with shaving cream. #when you walk through the hallway and find your kids banging on the front door for 30 minutes to be let in