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A Few Reasons Why Men/women Cheats
Spouse is abusive, physical or emotional or just for the hell of it. Husbands can be jerks and wives can be bitches. We look to someone else for attention and affection. Which isn't a wise choice to do because then we get emotionally attached. Your lover may not feel the same and has no intentions of leaving their spouse. It's risky. Others cheat for the lack of sex. Antonette raises her hand "oh..oh..me..me!!" The passion and desire isn't there anymore. The spark has slowly flickered away. The sex is okay but where is the foreplay? Multiple orgasms? Sex drive? Various sex positions? We try and encourage our spouse to try different things and they refuse. Other times we don't say anything because we want to spare their feelings.

Emo Moment Of The Week
Do you ever wonder if you're consistently making bad decisions? Sometimes, I find myself sitting around thinking that maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I should've done "this" different or "that" different. Maybe if I had gone "there" instead of "here," things would be completely different. I don't want to say that I regret something because I feel that everything happens for a reason, but I can't help but wonder how things would be different. Who would I be now? Who would I know? I've met some amazing people in my life and had some awesome experiences, but I'm afraid that my life is going nowhere... as though I've fucked up one too many times, and I'm stuck in a rut. How many bad decisions can you make or trouble can you get in before it takes over? Is my life just one big pattern of eff-ups? Am I emo for thinking so? On more than one occasion, the same scenario has cycled over and over. There's a guy I'll be talking to for a while. He's an amazing to begin with, but as soon as I let him in, he

Seduction
I want to be immersed in your lustful seduction to open my eyes finding myself in an enamor expedition where I can quench my thirst with exuberance and know I'll be captivated with each chance I want you to blackout with passion to be gasping in sultry fashion As sweat drips down off our pulsating distinguish forms heavens gates open as our love surely conforms I want us to experience the eternity of light the delight of a genuine embrace to be held tight Intriguing every step with intoxicating intimacy as our deep emotions climb towards a unequivical decree

About Me
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: Melissa A. Gunn. Birthday: May of 1982. Birthplace: Holland, MI. Current Location: Zeeland, MI. Eye Color: Goldish Brownish. Hair Color: Dark Brown - Black. Height: 5'4". Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed. Your Heritage: English, Irish, Scottish, Dutch, French, German, Spanish, Indian-?, not sure of what else. The Shoes You Wore Today: Not wearing any shoes. Your Weakness: Depends what type and kind the weakenss is. Your Fears: Spiders, Snakes, Sometimes Darkness, alone, i have alot of fears, i even have fears that im not aware of too. Your Perfect Pizza: Cheese! Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get Job, Keep Job, get paid, get my own place, keep own place, a guy, family, live semi happy ever after lmao! YESH! i live in a fantasy world, leave me alone! lmao!!!! Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: =^_^= Mew! Thoughts First Waking Up: What i have to do the day ahead. Your Best Physical Feature: Eye

Wishful Thinking
Things went wrong again, and I should've seen it coming Never was good at it anyway, but I wish there was a way To make you see that everything I said and felt was real But it'll never happen after how bad I ruined things this time Maybe one day I'll figure it all out and look back on this See it for the learning experience and not the pain I felt The pain I caused is worse because you didn't deserve it Right now I only wish tears were enough to wash it all away Wishful thinking at it's best, nothing more, nothing less Is this what happens when you let yourself truly feel Who knows

My Own Calendar ..drafts.
our new year starts on march 21,, it is the beginning of spring here"/ farwardin , ordibehest,khordad,tir, mordad, shahriwar, mehr, aban, azar, day, bahman, esfand. every 21 st. of the mon. is 1 st of our mon. march, april, may, june, july, august, sept. oct. nov. dec. jan. feb.. and march 21 .OUR NEW YEAR. 9 MONS MORE TO GO, STILL IN THE MAKING..LOL a href="http://imajr.cshahriwar-1400990" title="Click to view shahriwar-1400990.jpg on Imajr.com" target=_blank> CALENDAR DONE WHEW"LOL

Cold Winter
the sweat of the night touches my skin i lie on the sheets dreams waiting to begin for when, this sin i think of you touching my skin but i am not so bold i say this only to myself skin waiting so cold for me this gold is having you to hold warm summer, warm night with time you take flight warm summer, cool night i miss you do you miss me tonight? days so long the sun burns my sky everything seems to go wrong for me, this sad song is knowing you'll be gone still you say i love you your words sound so fine but are they true? for love you i wish we could make this all brand new cold winter, cold night with time you took flight cold winter, lonely night i still miss you do you miss me tonight?

Dui Georgia Style
Only a person in Georgia could think of this. Recently a routine police patrol parked outside a bar in Walton County Georgia noticed a man leaving the bar so apparently intoxicated that he could barely walk. The man stumbled around the parking lot for a few minutes, with the officer quietly observing. After what seemed an eternity in which he tried his keys on five different vehicles, the man managed to find his car and fall into it. He sat there for a few minutes as a number of other patrons left the bar and drove off. Finally he started the car, switched the wipers on and off--it was a fine, dry summer night, flicked the blinkers on and off a couple of times, honked the horn and then switched on the lights. He moved the vehicle forward a few inches, reversed a little and then remained still for a few more minutes as some more of the other patrons' vehicles left. At last, when his was the only car left in the parking lot, he pulled out and drove slowly down the

Dry And Lonely
I have left myself go dry, lonely and empty searching for myself, looking down every road. i have tried to fall in love, shattered and miserable wanting more, left me here alone. i have friends who try to keep me in line, maybe too straight of a line, i falter and struggle with out them knowing. it could be my fault it happens, a dark place in my head where i go, no lights to show me the way, maybe i am there already, is it time for a new journey, have i come to a full circle maybe i am wandering, lost and scared in the dark, looking for my saviour to rescue me i have asked for help, in the dark where there is no one, not ridiculed for me bein me if you are not with me, i dont want you to be, i have all i need if you dont like that the door is there

Highways Of Life
Roads are dark and lonely, moonlight guiding us through the dark, silvery beams glancing off of the road. Seeming like all is asleep, protected by the nights blanket, shadows still moving all around us. Driving our evil thoughts away, slowly protecting us from all those who harm us, weather we allow them to do us that way or not. We ask for help and even give in, yet our will allows us to fight on, driving us on through the darkest of nights. Guided by a silvery light, nightly as our soul wants to rest, while our dreams are telling our hearts where we are heading

At The Moment Of Death
aT The Moment oF Death Category: Romance and Relationships He cried out my name, "Vicky" I reached and grabbed his hand. As he looked me deeply in the eyes for the last time, I told him "Bye baby I Love You" then watched his soul leave his body. A lite golden haze covered this half of the bedroom as God came to retrieve what was already his. His body, the shell of a human just laid there. I instantly detached emotionally from it, for I had just watched him leave it. Some would ask, you mean he looked so peaceful? I'm saying NO! It laid there like a broken egg shell. Once the egg is gone the shell holds no purpose. The peace was mine as he and God stayed with me, totally surrounding me with in them. A level of peace I have never known was now engulfing me. I was touching and being touched by them, breathing them in through the gold haze that held them. Knowing without a doubt that he had not died again, but that he merely was no longer a part of this

Personal Note March 25,2009
Usually I like to spread my strange sense of humor around these pages and today is an exception so I apologize upfront. As usual though I do not mind being honest and sharing how I really feel and find it easier at this moment to write a general blog rather than a long personal note to my friends here so I hope none of you will feel slighted or that you are not important to me in a real way because I am not taking the time this morning to write each of you although I will see you as I have time over over the next few days. I have really been blessed in my life. I have had so many wonderful experiences and interesting jobs. I have been fortunate to have a good education and have good looks ( that is a matter of perspective I suppose but I am obviously modest so I can say this with a wry smile on my face), good health and some form of reasonable intelligence. I care about others and believe that our greatest calling in this life is to serve others rather than ourselves. What I lov

Just A Quick Look Back At An Old Group Here On Fubar(the Cowgirls & Cowboys Of Cherry Tap )lol Time Changes
ANYBODY RECONIZE ANY OF THESE OLD MEMBERS OR MAYBE STILL CURRENT MEMEBERS? THESE WERE THE DAYS WHEN THINGS WERE FUN.

Happiness Is Family...
03 25 09 12:06pm OLP's time... As I'm sittin' here by the window in my easy chair, with my laptop on me, and the skies bein' partly cloudy. I feel at peace within myself now. I have spent the past two days taken my two boys to the vet. Barnabas who is 1 yr and 5 months, went to get his annual booster shot, ear cleanin' and mite solution. Tuesday was Paul's turn he is 11 months old, his birthday is April 2nd...But, he went in for a casteration, ear cleanin' & mite solution also. Paul is my boy - he was not to please with me, when I brought him home last night. But he is doin' much better now, he is actually 'talkin' to me. But he looks pretty sore still. I'm really hopin' that this year will be better than last year, I won't go into details I'm tryin' to leave that behind me, and come to terms that I don't have family to fall back on...For somethin' I didn't ask for...The father I knew growin' up - who adopted me - sexual abuse me when I was in his care. But I'm currentl

My Darkness ......
what you seek is here grow old along with me ! the best is yet to be in your arms i know that i belong i only regret not having met you sooner from the moment i met you , i knew i had come home my heart is ever at your service if i lose thy love, i lose my all every day i find new reasons to be thankful for having you in my life though i doubt it is possible to love you more than i do i welcome each opportunity to try no one sees me with better eyes no one knows me at greater depths no one touches my heart as gently each time i tell you that i love you , your face glows the graciousness of the smile you wear and the happiness that radiates from your eyes just makes me want to repeat myself over and over if the sun refused to rise my love would fill your days with light and if the moon forgot its place my love would guide you through each night in a world of difficult realities and challenges

Fear Lives In The Future...
"We can't fear the past. Fear is a future thing. And since the future’s all in our heads, fear must be a head thing." -- Tom Payne It helps to understand that fear is usually a projection into the future. We typically fear what MIGHT happen rather than what is happening now. Susan Jeffers notes that 90% of what we fear usually does not materialize. So replace your images of disaster on the TV screen in your mind with awareness of what is really happening. And don’t allow your thinking to change channels. "I have not ceased being fearful, but I have ceased to let fear control me." -- Erica Jong What are you afraid of?

Life
Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been

Hrmph
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? My least favorite ex [2] You were in the car with? My parents I think....been so long [3] Went to the mall with? Myself [4] Person you talked on the phone with? My British ex [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? I...don't remember T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your top friends? True Q: Been searched By Cops? True Q: Been suspended from school? True Q: Sat on a roof top? True Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? True Q: Broken a bone? False Q: Have shaved your head? True Q: Played a prank on someone? True Q: Had/have a gym membership? False Q: Shot a gun? True Q: Donated Blood? False WOULD YOU RATHER: [1] Eat or drink? Drink [2] Be seriou

Jee's Quiz
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? Amber [2] You were in the car with? My mom-n-law [3] Went to the mall with? My goodness...probably my daughter [4] Person you talked on the phone with? hubby [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? A friend........ T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your top friends? True Q: Been searched By Cops? True Q: Been suspended from school? true Q: Sat on a roof top? True Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? True Q: Broken a bone? True Q: Have shaved your head? True/partly Q: Played a prank on someone? True Q: Had/have a gym membership? True Q: Shot a gun? True Q: Donated Blood? True WOULD YOU RATHER: [1] Eat or drink? Eat [2] Be serious or be funny? A

Your Breastessess!!!!!!!
Mammograms Many women are afraid of their first mammogram, but there is no need to worry. By taking a few minutes each day for a week preceding the exam and doing the following exercises, you will be totally prepared for the test and best of all, you can do these simple exercises right in and around your home. EXERCISE ONE: Open your refrigerator door and insert one breast in door. Shut the door as hard as possible and lean on the door for good measure. Hold that position for five seconds. Repeat again in case the first time wasn't effective enough... EXERCISE TWO: Visit your garage at 3AMwhen the temperature of the cement floor is just perfect. Take off all your clothes and lie comfortably on the floor with one breast wedged under the rear tire of the car.. Ask a friend to slowly back the car up until your breast is sufficiently flattened and chilled. Turn over and repeat with the other breast. EXERCISE THREE: Freeze two metal bookends overnight. Strip to the

Lonely
Sitting here in the lonely hospital room thinkin about how lonely i am and the closeness of someone else holding me telling me everything will be ok i miss the closeness of a body next to mine playing with my hair making me feel better about being here and not being so lonely

A Friend
I met a person who didnt know i was Who took me under there wing and became my friend You have been there to listen to me Thru my good times and my bad times Thru my happy hyper times and my sad cryin times But no matter what you have been there and you have been my friend thru it all Thank you for being my friend!

An Old One, But My All Time Favorite Poem
Mother's Love Our best friend in our youth Our Caregiver...when we are sick. Care without limits, Mother is love. A friend with no bounds Our childhood protector. Always aware of our trouble Before we utter a word. She knows our fears with but a glance For they are her own. How beautiful that name... Mother. Comfort in tangible form We belong to her Just as she is always a part of us Half of that which we call a heart. Her love unconditional Her strength unwavering Her kiss tucks us in at night, As her touch eases our fears. Her strength flows within our veins.. The strength of our mother's love.

Fuck Me Hard Baby...
Tonight I Dont Want That Sweet Love Tonight I Dont Want That Slow Love Tonight I Want That... Room Shaking Bed Board Breaking Boards Rattling Moaning Screaming Cussing Ass Smacking Hair Pulling Legs Quivering Lips Trembling Eye Rolling Hand Shaking FUCKING I Want That Oragsm Bustin Sex I Wanna Feel Every Inch Inside I Want You To Pound Me I Dont Want Sweet Kisses Or Gentle Moves I Dont Want Soft Touches Or Long Strokes I Want It Hard Fast Rough I Want To Scream Moan Yell Holler Grip The Sheets Hit It From The Back From The Front From The Side Missionary Doggy 69 Froggy I Dont Care What We Do Or How We Do As Long As You Make Me Scream Daddy And You FUCK ME HARD

If You Wanna Catch Me On Cam Or...
If you like metal music... If you want to catch me on cam in Excito Diabolus - send me your yim id in a mail on here so i can add you. DO NOT POST IT in a comment on here. seriously. don't. If you like metal Click here. That's Excito Diabolus, the awesome lounge I'm in allllll the time, with kickass people that are actually worth talking to. IF I ADD YOU: do not send me stupid messages saying you want me. i will block you. this is STRICTLY for me to send out messages for YOUR benefit. This is a PG cam. Do NOT ask for nudity on it. DO NOT disrupt the lounge asking for nudity or making completely inappropriate requests of me. This is for people who just wanna see me enjoying some awesome people and some awesome music. IF YOU CANNOT UNDERSTAND THAT: CLOSE THIS BLOG AND MOVE ON. ~Sin.

Funeral Service For My Mother
For those who wish to know, the funeral services for my Mother who passed away 3/15 will be this friday morning (3/27) at 10am at the Sutter Cemetery in Sutter California. I wish to thank all those who have kept my family in their thoughts and prayers during this troubling time of our life. without your support and our faith this would be more difficult to deal with. John "JAK"

Andy Rooney Said On "60 Minutes":
seen this on someones profiles thought it b good for a blog I don't think being a minority makes you a victim of anything except numbers.. The only things I can think of that are truly discriminatory are things like the United Negro College Fund, Jet Magazine, Black Entertainment Television, and Miss Black America. Try to have things like the United Caucasian College Fund, Cloud Magazine, White Entertainment Television, or Miss White America; and see what happens...Jesse Jackson will be knocking down your door. Guns do not make you a killer. I think killing makes you a killer. You can kill someone with a baseball bat or a car, but no one is trying to ban you from driving to the ball game. I believe they are called the Boy Scouts for a reason, which is why there are no girls allowed. Girls belong in the Girl Scouts! ARE YOU LISTENING MARTHA BURKE ? I think that if you feel homosexuality is wrong, it is not a phobia, it is an opinion. I have the right "NOT" to be tolera

Image Ideas
Okay, so for the site I am setting up. I need some new fresh ideas. It does not matter how weird you think they are! Weird tends to make great modeling images because they are different! I am having "Photo block" so any ideas you have would help me out. So, is there a certain outfit I should shoot in? A certain location, a pose, a certain object? Please share your ideas with me!! Thank you sooooo very much!

Overwhelmed
what a year 09 has been so far im to the breaking point and not sure whee to turn /// sense oh id say november of 08 my life has been turned upside down it all started when my child support was more than double ok got a 2nd job delt with it put it behind me ..then i was pulled over got a ticket and arrested ....mistaken identiy..now have spend thousand of dallors getting it back and should have it back by may good for me i need it .. only to have daughter run away and charged with several crimes .. so paying through the nose for that only to find out last night my greand mother is in the hospital on her last leg had a clot that moved to her kidneys and caused them to shut down dont know if she will recover or not .. i need a break its been 1 thing after another and i cant seem to get ahead or even stay afloat these days guess all i really need are some freinds to talk to ....

Just A Thought
Mission Statement Community Hope, Inc. is a nonprofit corporation that provides a supportive living environment for individuals recovering from serious mental illness. Personal growth of the consumers is promoted in an atmosphere of hope and dignity. Description Our nonprofit organization was founded in 1985 by caring families of people with serious mental illness, such as severe depression and schizophrenia. At issue was the lack of supportive housing in which young adults could readapt to daily life in society and assume greater challenges upon their discharge from a psychiatric hospital. In response, Community Hope was established as a gateway to the community 20 years ago with the opening of a single group home providing 24-hour on-site support. We have continued expanding to meet the increasing need for community-based housing. Today, Community Hope is the largest provider of supportive housing for people with mental illness in Morris county. We provide a full range o

But You Left Me Far Behind...
Jeeze this fucking hurts. Opening up the same wound. It's like ripping through scar tissue. If you ever re-pierced something through the same hole I guess you metaphorically know what I'm talking about. Chalk that up to another one who was confused. And in the end I suppose I understand having to figure shit out. But I guess I'm in my rightful place. Left behind. I can be thankful I suppose that it wasn't as deep as last time. It's just another story of me trying for something that was out of reach when I thought I could get it. Well, it just got pulled further out of reach.

Inspiration
It comes and goes with all the faces I see although I've found one with a higher decree She can make me smile when all I want is to cry the simplest glance from her gets me by Touching her as we speak just to stay in the moment her dimples appear heavenly sent Why has it taken me so long to realize to finally surmise heavens in front of my eyes All the balance of caring and naturing one another seems like breathing for this single mother My heart beats vibrantly within her hand unfolding loves petals with every step across waters & land leaving unexpected notes of my admiration everywhere the words come to life with our souls left to bare Like a children when they play we get lost in a few lusting displays bay But our bond is more than the physical attraction our own weakness is found strengthen with the others addition the air has no chance to whisper bye cause our breathe carries invisible kisses in the blink of an eye

Pain
I feel very compelled to tell you that I feel your pain. Not like others say they do but in the same way with different details. Society only grieves with us for about a week. They then give "us" about another week or two maybe. At this point all is expected to return back to normal. They however fail to realize that we didn't just lose our life partner and part of our soul, but who we were died with them. Every plan, goal and dream included went into the ground as they did. We have to start over and find the "me" without the "us" the whole time having no desire to do so. Nobody unless they have been where we are can fully understand it. They think their words of comfort and encouragement will fix it. In reality all we need is to be held and rocked. No resolutions offered just let us pour out our soul and listen. Let use share memories to give our soul confirmation that we have not lost the only thing we have left of them, their memory. You are not gone until forgotten. Our bi

Wet Dream Of P
Baby put your face in the pillow while I easily stroke you from the back And feeling every inch of me inside of you While you keep calling me your boo Turn you around to look at me As i move slowly down kissing you From your chest to your belly button And start kissing on your pussy Making it wet as it can be And start calling it forest Gump Making your juices keep running Until you cum all in my mouth And i slurp it all up and making you want more MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

I Dont Understand Some Guys On Here
I have people that will email for a while and then they just stop talkin to me or one was talkin to me and then just said I am goign to block u and rerated me a 1 why do people have to be so mean for no reason I might not get right at you cuz I get busy with my lil girl but I will get back to you I am very nice person and I know this is just the internet but I still have a heart and feelings so if you going to be a mean person dont be my friend please!!!

What Do They Use It For..
Greetings Neighbors: I have to ask this of myself and all the other folks, but it seems that many use this device as way to further their advertisement for 'luv' on their page and/or anyone associated with them. Am I wrong? My impression was that the blog is here for people to express themselves or laya few blurts about yourself or what may be going on in your life? Well, too each his or her own. Meanwhile, I have a question that I hope to get comments to- are we fubars trying harder to make friends (real friends as can get online) or just looking to score points? Why, because the yadlow wants to know and knowing is half the battle. Until later, Peace

Excalibur's Badboys
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My Treatments.
Well I have went through 2 radiation treatments so far an one chemo,it didn't bother me so much till I was done then it seemed as if my mind was working faster than my mouth. I felt off an fell coming up the stairs to the house. I'm do to go in on the 30TH of this month to talk with the doctor in which will be doing the interal radiation treatment.They set me up for the 13TH to get the sleeve put in and then I am to be treated on the 14TH, I now have 23 more exteral treatments to go an 5 more chemo treatments. I'm ready to get all this behind me to make myself better an to be able to live my life. Just thought I'd keep you guys up2date on whats going on with me.... Much love always from your friend Jaime!

Bar Joke Lol
A man walks into a bar, late one night completely knackered and dripping with sweat and orders 5 whiskies. "What's wrong with you?" The barman says. "In my car I've got a nymphomaniac - you couldn't satisfy her if you were there 'til Christmas," he replies. "We'll see about that," says the barman and goes out to the car park. He has been in the car with the woman for a while when there is a knock on the window and a policeman shines his torch in. The barman jumps up and winds down the window to talk to the policeman. "It's all right officer, I'm just shagging the wife," he says. "Oh, I'm sorry sir, I didn't know it was your wife" replies the cop. The barman replies -"Neither did I 'til you shone your torch!"

Have You Ever Been In Love?
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love Rhino (Based on a past expierance)

Have You Ever?
Have you ever had a moment when you're with someone.. and the song that just describes your entire soul happens to come on and the person you're with happens to love the same song and suddenly you realize you're listening to it together.. and that no matter how crazy things get.. nothing can take that moment away from you? I have.

My Muse
The quality of light around you You went away but the light Lingered in my memory And all I ever wrote And all I ever created And all I ever did Was tinged with that memory. You were the plow that broke me open and when the seeds fell in they grew because my field was ready I would have been hard unyielding ground If you hadn't broken me And the wound still produces The muse must hurt us And go away And leave the memory Then come in ephemeral visits You know its the muse When he comes and tells you to create The muse will never stay with you But the muse will always stay with you.

Waiting For My Lover....
Snuggled in my bed, lying on my belly Hot and ready as I wait for my lover. He enters the room hungry for lust, Letting out a sigh, he pulls back the cover. He sees that I am naked and already wet, My hand is playing as I reach underneath. He sees my fingers touching and stroking my clit, He gazes upon me, biting his lip with his teeth. He tells me to spread my legs apart further, And raise my ass in the air. He wants to see me touching myself, As he unzips his pants, he settles in a chair. I do as he says and open wide for him, Showing him what he craves to see. He strokes his cock as he lustfully looks, He knows what he needs and wants is me. He tells me to dip my fingers inside, First one, then two, then three, He likes watching me bury them deep, He tells me to get up on my knees. Slamming my fingers in and out, He calls me a slut as they slide. He wants me to touch my ass for him, Seeing me put my finger inside. I obey him like a good little bit

T-bagging
1. t-bagging When a girl lays on her back with her mouth wide open and you drop your balls in her mouth. You'll never believe what I did to that girl from the club last night...I tea-bagged her!!! 2. t-bagging When one person has their nuts in another person mouth. They call this T-bagging because it's like you do a tea bag up and down. 3. t-bagging when u dunk ur balls in something sasha t-bagged a bear trap 4. t-bagging The act of 1. pwning a noob 2. standing over his lifeless body 3. and crouching many times over his head in the ultimate show of disrespect. GUY 1: "d00d guess what i did?" GUY 2: "what?" GUY 1: "in Halo, I pwned a n00b, and t-bagged him!" GUY 2: "OUCH! t-bagging can kill a mans pride!" 5. t-bagging when you put your balls in the mouth of someone who is sleeping and take a picture as a joke 6. t-bagging when you place your balls on a random punters forehead and take many a picture of it i t-bagged p-man

She Turned And Walked Away
She turned and walked away I laid there on our sheets Where our bodies melted into one Her wares ensnared my soul Her eyes like the setting sun Her curves like the edge of a blade And she wields them with precision She cut my flesh to the bone Each kiss a deeper incision She made no promises to me She did not speak before we touched Her fire called out to my skin And she consumed me in her lust Her teeth sank into my jugular As her hips moved in rhythm with mine Our screams of passion our song She pushed my desire over the line As drank down our lust Draining me of every drop of will She feasted upon passions Each taste a step closer to the kill When she was satisfied and I was drained I was just another victim she had to play My weakened voice called to her but She turned and walked away

Only Time Will Tell
Only Time Will Tell --Asia You're leaving now. It's in your eyes with no disguising it. It really comes as no surprise to find that you've planned it all along. I see it now. Becomes so clear. Your insincerity and me all starryeyed. You'd think that I would have known by now. Now sure as the sun will cross the sky this lie is over Lost like the tears that used to tide me over. Only time ill tell. One thing is sure. That time will tell - Only time will tell - If you were wrong. The brightest ring around the moon will darken when I die. Now sure as the sun will cross the sky . . . You're leaving now. It's in your eyes with no disguising it. It really comes as no surprise to find that you're planned it all along. Only time will tell. I see it now. Becomes so clear. Only time will tell - Your insincerity and me all strryeyed. You'd think that I would have known by now. Now sure as the sun will cross the sky

The Time Machine
I embark on a time machine Turning its clock to the past Taking me back To what is called "Memories" Memories of a childhood A child full of love Even in such a cruel world A child thinks of only good Every night is filled with grace and laughter I embark on a time machine Turning its clock to the past Taking me back To what is called "Memories" Memories of love Time goes by so fast Romance goes in and out of life It never stops still I wish it had Cos I detest the process Of looking for love again I embark on a time machine Turning its clock forward Taking me to What is called "Dreams" Dreams of a future An endless mystery For me to create It is not an easy journey But, I'll find myself there I embark on a time machine Turning its clock forward Taking me to What is called "Dreams" Dreams of you Making a future together You're the one That renew my hopes Making time stops At the moment of love I walk back to the time machine

Easter Egg Hunt Game Prize List
Carrie's BAD AZZ BOYS 4 LIFE Everyone is a WINNER!!! Golden Eggs are as follows: 1 - 50k 2 - 100k 3 - 1 credit bling 4 - Personalized tag 5 - 200 rates 6 - 50k fubucks 7 - 1 credit bling 8 - 250k fubucks 9 - Ticker 10 - 3 credit bling 11 - 100k fubucks 12 - 200 rates 13 - Personalized tag 14 - 50k fubucks 15 - 3 credit bling 16 - Personalize tag 17 - 250k fubucks 18 - Ticker 19 - 1 credit bling 20 - 200 rates 21 - 100k fubucks 22 - 250k fubucks 23 - 1 credit bling 24 - 200 rates 25 - ticker ********************************* Thank you for your participation! Carrie *********************************

Heaven Sent
As I look outside I see the breeze Caress the leaves from the trees And carry them to all around Gently laid upon the ground I see the birds so high above Their songs sing of our special love And laid upon their soft sweet wing Your love to me they gently bring And as they start their graceful descent Delivering a message that’s heaven sent One thing I know and will hold so dear When I see them fly I will feel you near

What Should I Do Now
what kind of pix do yall think i should start putting up. pix of friends. pix of me. pix of me in work. i have had someone say that they want pix of my dick should i do that? im just not sure what i should do

Hurt
life sucks when u have a granddaughter u cant see or keep and she thinks that her great granny is her grandma and i was told today that i was just grandma diane well i am done being treated like a nobody to my granddaughter so i dont know what to do except not see her since they consider me nobody to her and not good enough to watch and keep her im tired of being hurt

Happyness
Happy is he who finds his love, Soaring like a bird above into his heart opened wide, and walking by him side by side. Love is cold if not true! A winter's storm through and through, Love is treasured as fine as gold, and groes more strong by growing old. Lovelights the face in its fairest hour. Shinning bright like a golden flower, Love it's kisses that linger long, bind to the heart when growing strong. When love it's light blossoms over, the man who finds it like a four leaf clover. How lucky is he his pot of gold. WALKING TOGETHER AND GROWING OLD...

The Lies We Could Not Hide
The Lies We Could Not Hide It was the lies we could not hide That we painted upon our sleeves The place where our hearts should have been That turned our love into disease We became a silhouette In the corner of each others eyes We became the untrue rumor Like ghosts in each others lives Our eyes no longer seeing the other Our words a whisper in the storm Our touch like grabbing mist Our passions have lost their form A love affair drowning in hate Crushing in the black sea loneliness Laying in a bed of broken dreams A book filled with pages of emptiness As our quill and ink dried The miles separated us inside No shield could protect us from The Lies We Could Not Hide

Anger Management
Anger Management When you occasionally have a really bad day and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know, but you know deserves it. I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying 'Hello.' I politely said, 'This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?' Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear 'Get the right f***ing number!' And the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits. After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again. When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled 'You're an asshole!' and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Ever

One Of Those Days
Do you ever have one of those days that you just don't feel like anything goes right? I have a deep sense of emptiness, loss, aimlessness. Nothing seems to satisfy my heart, soul or spirit. I have this wonderful studio space and I feel it is just an empty space. I have nothing left to fill it, for I have nothing left in me.

One Love
When I close my eyes your heavenly vision appears my heart beat eases as my stress clears Here I am wishing I could hold your silky smooth skin Kissing, Caressing , Tantalizing every inch of your body with a grin Man, these endorphins of mine are invigorated with pure pleasure as my lips treasure your bold sultry measure Each of your dimensions embrace the essence of transgenic with your voluptuous sensuousness being orgasmic I need just one chance to show you my heart just one chance to never be torn apart I need just one chance to explore a love to endure just one chance to give you more Whispers in your ear hint to whas to arise no disguise to surprise only the horizon of our sunrise Twisting fate onto ultra high frequency worldwide communicable desires are quenched with everyday that we abide YOu can't hide that smile on your face I can't stop showing all of passions case its all possible with this eternal flame with this heart of mine never being the

Aaaaaaaahhhhh
Ever want to just curl up and die? I feel like I already have, and landed in Hell. The good things in my life are just mocking me. I get a taste of the good life, then it's stripped away. You can't possibly begin to try to understand. My freedom now lies in another man's hands. I can't make plans for the future, I don't know where I'll be. I can't settle down and have a family. The waiting is torturous to say the least. "At least you're out." should that bring me peace? It does, but it doesn't. It's hard to explain. Not knowing, is what causes the pain. If I am such a good person why is this happening to me? I just want to live my life the way I want it to be. I'm not asking for millions, just some normality But all I can do now, is wait and see.

Nice Guys!
This is a bit of a vent don't care or want to hear it move on... Ok I just keep hearing guys say their single and only single because their a nice guy.. Is this just another bad pickup line??? Your single because either its a lie and your not a nice guy or you really are a wonderful man and keep chasing after Bitch's... Either way I don't want to hear it anymore... I'm single due to my bad choice in men and the fact that im a bit crazy and hard to live with...Wondering where all this came from?? I was stupid and agreed to a date with one of these so called nice guys... He was a great guy sober after I few beers I realized why he's still single... Turned in to a complete JACKASS... So if your a nice guy go back look at the last 3 girls and chase the complete opposite and u will find that right girl... If being a butt hurt nice guy is your pickup line then get a new one because we are catching on fast!!!!

It's A Poem I Wrote Plz Let Me Know What Ya'll Think
My name is Misty and I am only three but everynight my parents scream at or beat me, I wish they could see see the way they treat me but they can't they think this is how things are supposed to be, I hear a car engine as my dad pulls in the drive, I know he's drunk but decide not to hide, He comes in yelling blaming me for his problems at work, Then he immediatly yanks me up by my shirt, As i look in his face i see it is distorted with unimaginable hate, I then pray knowing this can't be my fate, With one final blow i hit the floor, As i lay motionless he jus turns and walks out the door, My name is Misty and I am only three but tonight my daddy murdered me.

Let's Get Another Sbg In The Spotlight
I'M GOING FOR THE SPOTLIGHT I NEED SOME HELP FROM MY FRIENDS DONATIONS ARE ACCEPTED OR I WILL RATE FOR FUBUCKS I AM ALSO MAKING SPECIAL TAGS FOR THOSE THAT HELP ME THIS IS SOMETHING I WANT TO DO WHILE I HAVE THE CHANCE I KNOW WITH A LITTLE HELP I CAN GET THERE IF YOU DONATE TO ME AND WANT ME TO RATE YOUR PICS PLEASE SEND ME A PM SO I CAN GET IT DONE THANK YOU NICCI

Loll
One morning the husband returns after several hours of fishing and decides to take a nap. Although not familiar with the lake, the wife decides to take the boat out. She motors out a short distance, anchors, and reads her book. Along comes a Game Warden in his boat. He pulls up alongside the woman and says, 'Good morning, Ma'am. What are you doing?' 'Reading a book,' she replies, (thinking, 'Isn't that obvious?') 'You're in a Restricted Fishing Area,' he informs her 'I'm sorry, officer, but I'm not fishing. I'm reading' 'Yes, but you have all the equipment . For all I know you could start at any moment. I'll have to take you in and write you up. ' 'For reading a book,' she replies, 'You're in a Restricted Fishing Area,' he informs her again, 'I'm sorry, officer, but I'm not fishing. I'm reading' 'Yes, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at any moment. I'll have to take you in and write you up. ' 'If you do that, I'll h

Ppl Just Don't Understand!!
I know some of you may not know me well, but those of you that do know the sweet person that I truly am. I'm sick of those ppl who judge me all the time on a daily bases. I'm a hard working dedicated mother. I live my life for my daughter & nothing else in life. I don't have time for ppl to sit here & put me down or act like they know me when in fact they fkin' don't. I'm sick of always being put in the same catagory has ppl that have hurt them, broke there heart or whatever the case maybe. I'm human I have a damn heart too & I have feelings as well. I'm always putting others before me what do I get in return not a damn thing but slapped in the face. So, here's what I have to say cuz I'm so pissed off and fed up with a lot of shit in my life.. If you don't like that I have a busy life or things just come up then be on ur damn way & while ur at it, think what u want about me cuz it just isn't worth the tears or time to worry bout pitty shit anymore.. U wanna be my friend that is all fi

Life Is Too Short
'Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.'

Used
you know, they say that waiting is the hardest part of moving on. i'm not really sure who exactly said that but i want to smack the shit out of them. it seems i've been waiting all my life for something that will never get here. i know this is only fubar and we're all here to have a good time but i'm on here now and i need to write so bare with me. i've had a reasonably good life since being on my own since 18. i've never been to jail, i don't do drugs, i put myself through college and i have a good job because of it and managed to make a handful of good friends over the years. to most people, that is success in and of itself. but life has always had a sense of humor (albeit sometimes a little morbid) about my relationships. trust me, i won't put you through each and everyone of my failed love stories but a few of them truly do belong up there in the Hall of Fame. probably the worst one was when i was with Paul (those of you who really know me i'm guessing are having a good laugh

Pain.
Pain can be pain It can be love It can be hate But it cant be pain Hurt can hurt Hurt can bleed Hurt can see But it cant be pain Love can be real Love can be happy Love can be joy But it cant be pain Tears can be happy Tears can be sad Tears can be wet But it cant be pain Blood can be red Blood can be black Blood can leak But it cant be pain Pain can be real Pain can be fake Pain can be me But it cant be pain Thanks for reading

Toby Wayne Page
i remember the the day i got the call that you passed after a head on collision with an 18 wheeler i knew i couldnt be hearin rite, to this day i still cant believe its true that your nowhere to be found nowhere to be seen it still hurts almost 9 years later i still see your face how does one ever let go of somebody that put them through total hell growin up but as we all know those were the good ole days i miss those days but b4 the good lord took you away from us forever he made sure that you left us two little precious angels and what hurts the most is that i had my youngest on the day that you were taken away from us but it was 5 years after the fact and i didnt really even remember wat day exactly it was that the lord had taken you away to the heavens above but that is a day that i will never forget again bc i had my youngest little angel on that very day he will be three in may even though you never seen him i swear he looks and acts just like you i tell myself all the time i got

God And A Little Boy
He was just a little boy, On a week's first day. Wandering home from Bible school, And dawdling on the way. He scuffed his shoes into the grass; He even found a caterpillar. He found a fluffy milkweed pod, And blew out all the 'filler.' A bird's nest in a tree overhead, So wisely placed up so high. Was just another wonder, That caught his eager eye. A neighbor watched his zig zag course, And hailed him from the lawn; Asked him where he'd been that day And what was going on. 'I've been to Bible School ,' He said and turned a piece of sod.. He picked up a wiggly worm replying, 'I've learned a lot about God.' 'M'm very fine way,' the neighbor said, 'for a boy to spend his time.' 'If you'll tell me where God is, I'll give you a brand new dime.' Quick as a flash the answer came! Nor were his accents faint. 'I'll give you a dollar, Mister, If you can tell me where God ain't...' Have a great week! Psalm;91: The An

Surgery
COME AROUND THE FIRST WEEK OF JUNE I WILL BE GOING IN FOR SURGERY ON MY LOWER BACK. FROM WHAT THE DOCTOR SAID I WILL GOOD AS NEW AFTER IT IS DONE AND I'M ALL HEALED UP. I'M GOING TO BE CROSSING MY FINGERS AND HOPEING FOR THE BEST. I'M SCARED AS SHIT BUT IT HAS TO BE DONE SO I CAN START DOING MORE WITH MY KIDS. THIS IS ALL FOR NOW WHEN I HEAR MORE I WILL POST IT.

Dedication To My Hero
cm91b@ fubar DEDICATION TO MY HERO!! (one of, more to follow) Who is this man you ask? Well, thank you for asking, let me tell you .. This is one of my DEAREST friends who is currently deployed and SOON to be arriving back in the states after having served YOU and this country in the military for more years than some of you have been alive .. and been to Iraq more times than some of you have seen the sun come up in the wee hours of the morning. He is one of the most genuine men I know with a heart of GOLD. He loves his country, the people in it, his family and friends. He has a daughter who is his heart, pride & joy. He left all to fight a battle, maybe not cuz he believes in it in it's entirety, but he believes in his job .. and that is to defend your right to be a FREE citizen and help ensure a lifestyle we all know and love .. without having to duck & cover!! People like this man sacrafice so much so that the likes of some never have to know what REAL LIFE is all about, an

Fancy Bulletins/pics Made Here :) N This Blog Section R Other Bullys N Auctions I Have Made 4 Examples!!
On making special bulletin requests / or fancy pics I have come up with a small fee. I love making them for friends but it does take up alot of time and patience. I think U will find my prices pretty reasonable ...for a 2 layer bulletin I am askin 10 K , 3 layer 20 K, 4 Layer 40 K , 5 layer 50 K ...any special personalized pics/Graphics...( I can do most any , holidays, weekly graphics, black 7 whites ...) 20 K a piece. I will be still be making auto 11's bully's for my top friends as a gift, but if U like to request one, let me know colors u want used and theme of bully & send links of pics U want used in it. . Thx All!! :) * This is a 5 layer bulletin * *Example of pics I can make and personalize w/ ur name on it!Whatever U want said n bully @ bottom will be put like this with my link

Auto & Cherry Auction
IF YA WANNA BID ON AN AUTO11 OR CHERRY BOMB CLICK THE LINK YA WANT BELOW. THANK YOU ALL THAT STOP BY! AUCTION BROUGHT TO YOU BY "GRLSKIKASS2" (repost of original by '~THE ORIGINAL PONYBOY1966~~Fu Owned By NJExoticDiva77~~GRLSKIKASS2~~' on '2009-04-01 08:06:13')

Lessons For Life.
1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. 2. Memorize your favorite poem. 3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have, or loaf all you want. 4. When you say, "I love you," mean it. 5. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. 6. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. 7. Believe in love at first sight. 8. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much. 9. Love deeply and passionately. You may get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely. 10. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name-calling. 11. Don't judge people by their relatives, or by the life they were born into. 12. Teach yourself to speak slowly but think quickly. 13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" 14. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk. 15. Call your mother. 16. Say, "bless you" when y

Remember!
As I wander through my day, and wander through my thoughts, I am remembering the moments in time when we shared a space only big enough for two. In my heart is the remembrance of our moments together. As the wind blows it caresses my soul with your sweet presence, with your sweet love! I want to never forget the moments we spent together, the moments we sat next to each other and smiled while looking into each others eyes. When you held me it was like a blanket of silk covering my body, a rush that set my soul on fire. Your kiss was like an amazing fairy tale that had no ending! Whisper to me in the wind, even if no-one else can hear it, I will know what you are saying. As the wind blows back, listen for my reply, as it will be as soft as satin. I will go to the ends of the earth to find you, as the waves of life seperate us into different worlds I will swim harder and swim faster, till I reach the shores of your world again. I will never give up on our love, never give up on us! Remem

I Want It...
It's just catchy and the fact believe it or not..Micheal Jackson is pretty good in this song, lol. Hold My Hand (Remix) Feat. Michael Jackosn) - Akon[Akon] Ohhh... Konvict Music... [Michael] Ohhh [Akon] Yeahhh [Michael] Yeahhh This life don't last forever (hold my hand) So tell me what we're waiting for (hold my hand) We're Better off being together (hold my hand) Than being miserable alone (hold my hand) [Akon] Cause I've been there before And you've been there before But together we can be alright. Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold We hold each other till we see the sunlight [Michael] (So if you just) [Michael/Akon] Hold my hand Baby I promise that I'll do All I can Things will get better if you just hold my hand Nothing can come between us if you just hold, hold my, hold, hold my, hooold, hold my hand. [Michael] (Hold my hand) [Akon] The nights are getting darker (hold my hand) And there's no peace inside (hold my ha

Auction!
So, I'm having a member auction in my lounge soon, looking for people to enter! I am not charging an entrance fee to be auctioned, but DONATIONS for the Lounge Spotlight, would be greatly appreciated! Thank you! PM me if you'd like to enter and let me know what you want to offer to the highest bidder!

Why I Don't Want Kids...ever.
I get a lot of people tell me that I will want kids someday. That I'm young and I may not want kids now, but someday that maternal instinct will kick in. I hate those people. I know I'm young. I'm 21. But I know beyond all doubt that I will never have kids... 1.) I really don't like them. They are gross, loud, annoying, and they don't listen. I can't even babysit my niece and nephew. 2.) I like being an Aunt. I can see me niece and nephew, spoil them, love them, and the best part: I can give them back. 3.) I will graduate college in 2 years and plan on getting a career. 4.) I like my life the way it is. 5.) Were I to even consider kids, I would want to wait until I am financially stable enough to support them. And by my standards, I would never make that kind of money. 6.) I really don't want to be responsible for another life. 7.) This isn't a reason per se, but I don't feel that it is my duty as a woman to have children. Nor do I feel that a woman needs k

Update
So about a week ago we went for a conference with one of the doctors in Neurology from the hospital in regards to the EEG test that my son had. According to the test it is confirmed that my son is having small brain seizures that are lasting from 1-2 seconds. Although they aren't lasting very long it's still enough to raise a concern. They have now started him on a medication, but I probably won't see any major improvements for a least a month. This will give us time to raise the dosage based on height, weight, etc. This is all the information I have for now, but would appreciate any prayers you can toss his way, and I will keep my peeps that care updated.

Wednesday Comment For All Fu-friends
Due to I'm on vacation in Gtmo,Cuba the Navy Base for a week or so . I'm working with a slow connection I thank everyone that leaves me a daily profile comment, but I'm working with a slow connection and unable to return the luv one by one so I'm going to try to leave a daily comment here for all my Fu-Friends to share.Pls remember to rate the blog and we both get credit Thanks miss ya'll. SEXY & HOT COMMENTSCLICK HERE!

Nine Inch Nails - Right Where It Belongs
This song is like a self examination song for me..one that makes me think about life as a whole good and evil and all the world and our human thoughts... I really love this song when I wanna relax it makes me think about everything in everyway ..listen to the lyrics...So real.. "Right Where It Belongs" See the animal in his cage that you built Are you sure what side you're on? Better not look him too closely in the eye Are you sure what side of the glass you are on? See the safety of the life you have built Everything where it belongs Feel the hollowness inside of your heart And it's all Right where it belongs [Chorus:] What if everything around you Isn't quite as it seems? What if all the world you think you know Is an elaborate dream? And if you look at your reflection Is it all you want it to be? What if you could look right through the cracks? Would you find yourself Find yourself afraid to see? What if all the world's inside of your head J

Not Gonna Be Around Much, Don't Ignore Me, Lol
Okay so just a heads up, I will be hit and miss for the next week and completely gone Wed-Sun.... My daughter has passed all qualifications for the Army BCT...and we are attending graduation in South Carolina, and then driving her to her AIT post in Alabama... I am one VERY proud Mama...and the few days I get to hold her and see her will make up for these past 10 weeks...wow,,,but these next five days will be spent preparing for that trip and getting everything together...I joined Fubar to get me through the days she was gone, and found many GREAT friends here that mean the world to me...THANK YOU! So until Tuesday April 7th (Nik's B-day, happy birthday baby)...I will be hit n miss, but please don't forget me whie I'm gone, cause come April 13th I'm back with a whole new lease on life and a refreshed vengence!!!! I love you Phuckers, you really are a family I have come to cherish, love, and depend on! Tony, Rick, and Michael...the three best guy friends a girl could ask for.

How To Get Into My Nsfw Folder
Well If you are a woman u can get in for free just ask lol! A guy has to buy their way in. Either win me in an auction with a high enough bid or buy me bling (not cheap bling either), bling packs, vips, ect...... Just pm me before actually getting me something plz Mwahzzzzz, Kitty

35 Bling Credits Up For Auction
i have 35 blings up for auction, im gonna run it for a couple of weeks, the bid starts at 6million few bucks the least you can bid is 6million fu bucks, now you can offer other things other then just fubucks to go with the fubucks to sweetin the deal, after the 2 weeks up i'll decide wich bid is the best bid for me, an the winner will get all 35 bling credits

Will You Give This To My Daddy?
Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving through the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As they began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal. Just when I thought I could not be more proud of my country or of our servic

Circuses With Animals, Wrong.
I don't care what the owner of the circus tells you, if they say they don't use abusive techniques to train the animals they are lying to you! There is no way you can train an animal that weighs ten times more than you do without protection, thats first off. Secondly, we have no position in life training elephants, tigers, lions, panthers, monkeys, or any wild animals to dance around for our entertainment. We should just leave these poor animals the fuck alone, and let them live in the wild. Honestly, haven't we done enough to Mother Earth? We ransacked the rain forest, raping it violently of all that kept it sound and balance. The polar ice caps are almost non existent; where will the male polar bears rest on their long journeys for food for their pregnant females? We mass produce food that's not in season because supply and demand is so great, pushing up the green house gasses by at least 5%. And here we are training the animals on this planet for our entertainment. When I

Me
THE BASICS Name: Aphrodite Gender: Female (Like you couldn’t Tell) Age: 27 Birthday: Oct. 13 Race: Nazi/Indian School/Grade: College Student Job: See Above Status: Single Hometown: Deuce Nine, California Current Town: San Diego Parents Still Together: Uhhh, Nope Siblings: 2 Wacky Sisters Pets: Nope Smoker: Ewwww Drinker: Not So Much Virgin: Sure Am Orientation: Straight Drugs: Who needs them?? I’m high on life! APPEARANCE Hair Color: Dark Brown Is it dyed? Sure Is Eye color: Gorgeous Green Height: 5'7" Style: Hott! Glasses/Contacts/None? Glasses Freckles: Noppers Body Type: Size is moving down! Shoe Size: 9-10 Piercing: Ears and Nose Want More? Yup Tattoos? 9 Want More? I am addicted Braces? No Sir Overall Best Feature? My Gorgeous Eyes Overall Worst Feature? Stomach Scars! Do you get most of your traits from mom or dad? I think both LIKES/DISLIKES Favorite Color: Pink, Green, Brown Worst Color: hmmm.. Favorite Number: 13 Favorite Animal: Horse Least Favorite Animal:

My Gripe
ok, so here is my gripe! why do people have to be haters and 2facers? even if they dont know you... for example. i might tell someone that im in nursing school. well, this leads to where i attend college. now this would be ok if people were not such haters. they want to know why im going there and why didnt i go to WVU or somewhere else. then i hear about how they dont think Salem U is a good college ( they never went to college, and half dont have even a GED). Not that i give a shit what anyone thinks, but im sic of hearin the dumb shit. why assholes wanna take their sorry lives out on me? i am trying to do something about mine instead of bitchin bout my predic-a-ment. not my fault people are happier wollerin in their own shit and sorrows.... I luv to be a friend to people and like to think i have a sympathetic ear, but damn dont bitch about or try and make me feel like shit cz im tyrin to better myself and you're not. FUCK! ohh yea and one more thing.... the first 5 years of hearin

10 Months
It’s been ten months since you left this placeriding your last great high straight into the groundneedle, still protruding from your armleaving the rest of us to wonder what went wrong.And every day, when your likeness flickers and fades into focus,a pain rises in my throat, stinging my eyes and esophagusas memories of you twist and bend through my consciousness,calling forth an insurmountable wave of emotion which never seems to break.I haven't yet decided whether I regret touching your cold, stiff handsas you lay sleeping in that creepy, community coffin at the wake,face fixed in a horribly unnatural grimace of death,because I know I can't ever forget the horror of it all.And sometimes, I daydream of sneaking some witchdoctor or voodoo priestessinto that closet of your parents’ house, where your ashes lie in a garbage bag, to try and wake you back to lifeso we can grow old and senile together, just like we were supposed to.

Own Me!!! Bad Kitty's Black & White Auction!!!
Black & White AuctionBlack & White Auction Fu's!!!!!Rules* No Drama Will be Tolerated.These rules do not have an Exception!!!!Auto 11's or Cherry Bomb for most rates!!! ~☠~. Bad Kitty .~☠~ Fu-Daughter & Fu-Owned by Flanman ☠ Mistress to °°«MîñX@ fubar

Crying Eye
Why do i have a crying eye? when the once helpful thoughts and happy smiles,turn into angry arguements and heartfeeled fights. Power commands of issues ,reach deaf ears, but hits strong at the heart. Plights of insecurity reign through my brain, causing this crying eye. You may take it for a weakness, i take it as a strenth, cause i can turn off the water and put up a fence.

R.i.p Aunt Connie
I still can't believe it....I just talked to her last week and I wake up to my mom telling me they found her dead in her apartment...the only decent person in my whole fucked up family is gone...she always kept us together or tried to but now it's gonna be hard to get anyone to do anything.... something about them finding her.....I don't like that and it really bothers me more then anything I don't care what anyone in my family thinks about her, granted most never cared for her....I did and I still do and always will no matter what....she wasn't perfect but who the fuck is...no one... R.I.P Aunt Connie....I love you and miss you

*tears*
Dog abandoned, hit by carKalamazoo, MI (US) Incident Date: Wednesday, Mar 18, 2009County: KalamazooCharges: MisdemeanorDisposition: OpenSuspect(s) Unknown - We need your help! Copper would shake your hand, speak and even toss you a high-five. A note taped to the mixed-breed's collar attests to his talents, but these deeds are not verifiable by eyewitness account. Copper, you see, is dead. The 30-pound male dog, estimated to be about 1 year old by Kalamazoo County Animal Services and Enforcement officials, was found March 18 lying on the shoulder of an asphalt road in Oshtemo Township. There was a hole in his skull, inflicted when a car hit him. It was too late to heed the message someone had written on the tape wrapped around his collar: "Help me." Beneath the tape, in a plastic baggie, was a handwritten note describing Copper's charming talents -- he could sit, roll over, crawl, play dead and shake hands. But someone let Copper go, abandoning him instead of dropping him off at

Grrrr
ok my bitch for the day..why is it people have in their satus re Rate my page all returned...when you rate .no one hardly ever returns..you help people level..rate all time and they come to your page and can't even rate or comment..

My Globals..
Wow.. My MuMM got deleted.. There's a first time for everything right? Funny though, It's the least offensive MuMM I've ever posted. I've made MuMMs about beating women, forced abortion, blacks and mexicans raping white chicks... But i get in trouble over dirty pussy?.. Every MuMM i've ever made has been NSFW.. Oh well.. it's karma I guess.. Enjoy the time I am unble to post my "offensive" MuMMs..

Hey There Delilah By The Plain White Tshirts (i Have Reasons)
Hey there Delilah What's it like in New York City? I'm a thousand miles away But girl, tonight you look so pretty Yes you do Times Square can't shine as bright as you I swear it's true Hey there Delilah Don't you worry about the distance I'm right there if you get lonely Give this song another listen Close your eyes Listen to my voice, it's my disguise I'm by your side Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me What you do to me Hey there Delilah I know times are getting hard But just believe me, girl Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar We'll have it good We'll have the life we knew we would My word is good Hey there Delilah I've got so much left to say If every simple song I wrote to you Would take your breath away I'd write it all Even more in love with me you'd fall We'd have it all Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me A thousand miles seems p

Spring Bling
Hey Fubar, the weathers warming up here so that means its time for a little, !!!Spring Bling!!! Instead of the usual, lets mix it up a little. I have decided to make this a rate only contest. The contest will begin Monday, April 6, 2009 and will run until Monday, April 27, 2009. And on Wednesday,April 29, 2009, I will pimp the winners out on my page and send them their rewards. Interested???? Well now let me tell you about the winnings, The top three people will receive: 1st place - winners choice of an auto-11 or cherry bomb or a 3 month Vip 2nd place - will get the choice of the two remaining prizes Now the rules: each rate is worth - 1 point, at the end on the contest who ever has the most rates wins

Handyman Tip For The Ladies
So yesterday, i tried a different product to fix a water leak. I was looking for a temporary fix until the weekend was over so I could have more time to mess with it. I had about a 1/4 inch hole in one of my drain pipes in the wall thats connected for the kitchen sink and a bathroom sink. The pipe is all threaded and metal with the exception of a little pvc near the actual sinks. After seeing the results of this product, I might have found a permanent fix and not have to change out all the piping which would be extremely difficult to get to. Plus it is surrounded by other tubing for the heater, hot water heater lines, etc. The product is JB weld. You've probably seen similar things on info-mercials and not believed them. Well i'm vouching for this one even though they're not paying me. I even tested it out on one of my favorite coffee cups that has had the handle broken for a few years. Now i'm enjoying coffee and a leak free drain pipe today. So ladies, if you have 8 bucks,

Exactly
To All My Valued Employees, There have been some rumblings around the office about the future of this company, and more specifically, your job. As you know, the economy has changed for the worse and presents many challenges. However, the good news is this: The economy doesn't pose a threat to your job. What does threaten your job however, is the changing political landscape in this country. However, let me tell you some little tidbits of fact which might help you decide what is in your best interests. First, while it is easy to spew rhetoric that casts employers against employees, you have to understand that for every business owner there is a Back Story. This back story is often neglected and overshadowed by what you see and hear. Sure, you see me park my Mercedes outside. You've seen my big home at last years Christmas party. I'm sure; all these flashy icons of luxury conjure up some idealized thoughts about my life. However, what you don't see is the BACK STORY : I started this

Fu...when Did It Start To Suck?
So I know that fubar is based on points...Ok....But when I joined, it wasn't so much a leveling, point whoring system as much as it was to meet people. They came out with the Auto's and CB's, and now, if you don't have one, nobody even rates your profile. I can sit and rate entire folders and not even get one single rate simply because I don't have auto's or a cb. And there are so many statuses with "nsfw pics for bling or auto...etc" WTH. Yeah, I have NSFW, but I don't show it to everyone. I don't use it to get shit here. Idk, maybe I'm just an old fashioned fu. If I wanted porn, I would go to a free porn site...If I wanted to sell pictures of my naked ass for shit, I sure as hell wouldn't be selling it for stupid shit. Idk, maybe I value my body enough that I won't show it to just anybody. Guess there aren't too many people like that left huh? So, no, I am not gonna be all "oh I'm so deleting my acct", but I guess I am just going to stick to the friends and fu members that I know sti

Declaration
I call to the Powers of the East, Past , Present , Future. Great and Small, I request your attention. I call to the Powers of the South, Past , Present , Future. Great and Small, I request your attention. I call to the Powers of the West, Past , Present , Future. Great and Small, I request your attention. I call to the powers of the North, Past , Present , Future. Great and Small, I request your attention. I call to the Powers of the Earth, Past , Present , Future. Great and Small, I request your attention. I call to the Powers of the Sky, Past , Present , Future. Great and Small, I request your attention. I am. I declare myself. I am the Master of my Body, Mind, and Soul. My ideals are Truth, Love, and Justice. I face the World with Strength, Heart, and Clarity. I seek to find and maintain True Freedom, True Love, and Peace of Mind. I ask to lose ALL I deserve to, gain ALL I am worthy of. I ask to be prepared for ALL I must face. I am willing to be broken and remade. I am Declared. I

Me One Way? Really?
You Are ONE WAY When you're confronted with a problem, you know exactly how you want to handle it.You are decisive and act quickly. Once you get the ball rolling, you don't change course.You can be a bit stubborn at times, but you have reason to be. You're often right.You are unwavering and brave. You do what needs to be done, even if it isn't popular. What Street Sign Are You?

Abby Sleeps With Angels (sad)
To all Abigails Friends,I worked on the same ward as her and joined Fubar at the request of abby-lou,I have known her for only one year and I was blessed to know her, I will briefly let you know what has transpired. Abigail had a blackout at work on Monday afternoon and checked out of work to go home,the hospital was informed on Tuesday afternoon that Abigail was found uncouncious in the bathroom of her home and was taken by ambulance to hospital and was prounced life extinct around midday on Tuesday.31 March,I am very sorry I dont have more details as reports are on going.Her family are devastated and her sister is inconsolable at this time,if I can,I will try to let you know more as it unfolds but I feel I have taken a liberty already,I know that Abby-Lou loved to be on this site and had some good friends.If you are close to her I am very sorry for the loss of our friend.I hope to be seeing her sister Amy over the weekend for arrangment details for the staff at the hospital,if I feel

I'm Back And Need Your Help!
You may recognize me, and there's a reason for that! I did have a previous account that I had to abandon due to the drama that was surrounding it by an ex-friend. It was just much easier for me to have Fubar Support delete that account and to start fresh. (The only bummer was that I was level 26! But that's really not that big of a deal because I am here more for friends then for online points! :) )This brings me to where I need my fellow fu's assistance! Can you repost my bulletin so that the friends that I had on my lists can see how to reach me at my new profile? Thanks sooo much everyone! Here's the link to my bully: http://fubar.com/bulletins.php?b=2887216471No matter if we had met before or not, feel free to send me a Fan/Add/Request and I'll return the favor!! Thanks a million everyone!!

Life
life is shit. not sure if anyone knows this, but it is. I suggest a few things to brighten up your world... 1. break wind on a regular basis. 2.do feng shui lots 3. masturbate a lot 4. have a good shit it can make you feel a lot better 5.never drink more than your friend 6.avoid affairs with married people 7. dont worry about anything cos it seriously aint worth it 8. dont tell the doc about those voices you hear ;) 9.cancel your facebook account... that site is seriously bad for ones health 10. cancel your ebay account as its seriously bad for ones pocket... 11. make me your best friend in the whole world.. cos im so nice,cheerful and generous :)

A Real Woman
There isn't anything More attractive then a woman a lady who doesn't need make up to be all that she can She exudes confidence but isn't full of oneself cause theres no doubt of her inner beauties wealth There in her eyes are the doors to her soul a tender heart to be adored and console her touch is as tantalizing as well as soothing on ques the actions of her hands speak in volumes to how a Goddess rules There can never be any mistaken of her essence she'll shine her radiance no matter who is in her presence Unmistakenable and unequivacal are the moments that are shared those precious times have my whole heart to be beared A real woman is all a real man can ask for A real woman who's heart is pure A real woman is hard to find A real woman is one of a kind This one of a kind knows how to use her mind and can lead those who are even blind She is someone who can be looked at as a role model who is as explosive as a shaken soda bottle Magnificent is her kiss felt on my lips blessing

Ford's Wittiest Stuff 2
April 6, 2009 @ 3:40 pm #28 of 54 -- The One & Only Xander said: Hope you dyed the carpet as well. G.O.E said: dont have any carpet to dye... Da Fordz said: and no hard wood to wax either... G.O.E said: roflmao *G.O.E is a chica....

Her Song
I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside. They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried. When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well. In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell. The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say. In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day. Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong? In the end I gave her up, but inside still sing her song. I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had. If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad. They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again. But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been? I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back. Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track. I saw her just today and her smile is still the same. She looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name. I wonder if she remembers me, It hasn't been that long. She may have forgotten me, but I still sing

Anything, Anymore, At All
Sometimes the hardest part is feeling at allForcing the teeth to seperate and the words to comeAnd sometimes the hardest part is biting back the wordsBefore they can leave the edge of your tongueAnd more often than not, I will fail at bothI will hurt those I wish to help and badly soI will hold back words I should have saidAnd I will watch the tears and the pain flowI will fail those I want most to succeedAnd I will be forgotten long before I am goneI will stand in this hole I have dug myself inAnd I will wait for the day that I can feel I wonI am many things inside, so confused oftentimesQuietly torturing myself with a mind that has seenFar too much of what should never be in this worldBetween the skin and the bones and blood betweenI have hunted for answers to questions I despiseI have found answers I wished to never understandI have felt lost and alone for most of my lifeAnd I have given up on having any sort of a planBecause life is always changing, and still I remainThe hapless vi

Themes
Ok, So my friend just talked me into doing a photoshoot for a calendar. My month is going to be December. So Im wondering if I should do a "Miss Xmas" theme orrrr like a "Santas Lil Helper" kinda thing... Lol, what are your thoughts or suggestions for themes or poses? Note me please!

The 'x', The Cit' , The Mi' .. (1+1)...&..then +sum+
WHAT IS THE XCITMI'~11The ~X~of 1 & then {+} SUM....Many question MI'....Don't be naive..but SUM never see what there is to SEE....Some see with their eyes...OPEN....others' eyes are SHUT.....For MI'...?Neither!... I SEE... with my SOUL...It's a POWER.. a true 'in'sight, I take it all in MI'...and it is sometimes out of CONTROL....How the '1' spits out for you to recieve .....sometimes hard to conceive....The 'MI' just tells '1' to BELIEVE....What is the ~X~?The ~X~is ...just a ~X~.., just as YOU, as ANYONE.. The UNKNOWN FACTOR.... The ~X~POENENT!We are all considered or LABLED..Until I or '1' have it UN~RAVELED!...So, I ask YOU.. How do you dress your ~X~?for '1' to Conceive?For MI' ... as generic for SUM as I want to BE...or give SUM '1's' MORE of MI' (X to the XX to the XXX)The few I do give some more of ~X~ do SEE... what there is to SEE....this I do believe...TRUE & HONEST MI'....I do have and claimed MI" a place, a SPOT!!I call it... and do believe it cost MI' a lot...so

Yu Nuh Easy 0.o
You know who you are friend,that's just it 'friend'. Ya sarcasm I can handle,and more.Ya are starting to annoy me,I'm not one to block anyone or delete anyone.Keep it up,and you will be the one blocking me or deleting me from ya friends list.=) Have a beautiful day =)

Dream Weaver
I'm a dreamer of sorts one can say cause I believe in displaying all of romances array From notes to be found in her purse to my touch pouring out beyond every verse These hands of mine readily giving you a gentle massage as they bask in your heavenly beauty a seamingly mirage YOur sweet scent simply carries me thru aroma therapy and I'll be able to honestly set my love free Free to tantalizing all of your senses and desires with a passionate heart that never tires Time is not a factor while we are clinched in an embrace there we find our heart racing and love setting the pace Like a shooting star caught in the blink of an eye we exubriate the ecstasy caught in a sigh Like the flickering flame of a candle in a breeze we dance with vigor and press on to please backing up all those moments you called me a tease I'm a dreamer who lives for all those moments all the admiration caressing your entrancing adornments from the roots of your flowing hair to the toes on your feet you bear Ho

Mark Twain Quotes
Something got me looking at Mark Twain quotes today, and I found more things that I had heard before, but didn't know they came from him. I thought I would share a couple: "It takes your enemy and your friend, working together, to hurt you: the one to slander you, and the other to get the news to you." "My mother had a great deal of trouble with me, but I think she enjoyed it." "Let us so live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry." Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first. I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying that I approved of it. I have been through some terrible things in my life, some of which actually happened. I thoroughly disapprove of duels. If a man should challenge me, I would take him kindly and forgivingly by the hand and lead him to a quiet place and kill him. Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow. When I was younger, I could rememb

This Week Me Egocentric No Way
Libra - Lovescope Weekly HoroscopeBe prepared to lend a hand to a lover in need this week. You've been a bit egocentric as of late and it's having a deleterious effect on your love life, Libra. If you give more favors, more will be granted. Understood? Your lover's reaction to your selflessness will be life altering. Honesty brings rewards.

Master.
Be my owner I will try my best to never displease u or cause u distress. Hold me touch me spank me bite me indulged me.Let me know who holds the leash who has the power make me bow to my master. Make me do things.I want u to make me want only u if my mind wonders and i mess up instead of getting ride of me.Punish me let me no u still love me. That I belong to u and no one else. I'll let you be or u will be free to rome as long as u come back to me. Let me no your mine. Open with restrictions love with pain, Moments of bliss. Make me crave your very kiss your touch. Make me love you and make me have pure lust. I want to you to make me bend to your will to have to ask and beg for what I want to have to be open with u.I want to be able to trust u and never fear u. You to use your witt to please and tease use your power and pain and by your command to be setting me free there for releaseing me.

Sexy Test...
HOW SEXY ARE YOU?GET A PIECE OF PAPER AND PENCIL... BE HONESTNUMBER IT 1-11 (NO CHEATING)SEE YOUR RESULTS AT THE END OF THE TEST.WHEN YOU SEND IT ON PUT YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT BAR.1. WHAT COLOR HAIR DO YOU HAVE?A Brownb Redc Blonded Blacke Other2. OUT ON A DATE WOULD YOU WANT TO:a Go to a partyB Go out to eat3. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR OUT OF:a Baby-Pinkb Yellowc Baby-BlueD Turquoise4. PICK YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBY OUT OF:a Talkingb DancingC Taking Long Walks5. IF YOU COULD PICK A STORE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING, WHICH WOULD IT BE?A Hollisterb Old Navyc Abercrombie6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING?a Hawaiib LondonC Florida7. IN THE SUMMER WOULD YOU RATHER GO TO:A The Beachb Somewhere Cooler8. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH?a Januaryb Februaryc Marchd AprilE Mayf Juneg Julyh Augusti Septemberj Octoberk Novemberl December9. WOULD YOU RATHER:a Chill at homeB Go out with friends10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE INSTRUMENT OUT OF:A Guitarb Bass guitarc Drumsd The Triangle11) NAME A PE

4/7/09
Aquarius January 20 - February 18 In spite of the leaps and bounds you've taken over the last several months, dear Aquarius, a slump could soon set in as you start doubting your ability to attain your most cherished goals. An unexpected setback may have occurred that was disheartening, but you've never let this sort of thing stop you before. Don't fall into this trap now. Brace yourself, reassess your methods, and get back in the saddle. You'll get there! This would be better if I knew where "there" was.

No Goodbye
u left me today without a warning, to wake up all alone in the morning. used to being in ur arms, feeling loved and safe from harm. u gave me no goodbye. my heart is broken, no words from u spoken. silence is all i hear, no goodbye from u dear. i loved u with every beat of my heart, u had it right from the start. alone i sit here and i cry, again from u no goodbye. with every tear i say ur name, my life will never be the same. was my love for u just a game? i gave u all that i ever could, loved u more then i ever would, now u have left me alone and i dont know why, again u left with no goodbye. my heart will heal i promise u this, just want to tell you ur a son of a bitch how dare u break my heart and not tell me why, but to u i can say GOODBYE!!!!!

Grrrrr
Grrr why is it that whenever you want to talk to someone or do something or whatever with a person and they just don't do shit back? Like they ignore you....make up excuses why they can't talk or this or that....Why not just tell me you don't want to talk to me or whatever? Also.. It really bugs the hell out of me and upsets me that they do there whole stupid thing and just ignore you.....as if that thing was more important and anything else.... Maybe they just really don't care anymore and I need to give up.....again

Fire Storm
The flame flickered outUntil you came along and breathed life back into the fire.It welcomes you, drawing you near with its warmth,The flames dancing before you.When you’re close enough to touch,It drives you away, searing your fleshThe pain burns itself into your memory.My passion escalates into a raging inferno.It becomes a living entity.Growing, consuming, destroying all that lies in its path.There is no stopping it, it must run its course.The fire dies out, giving way to glowing embers,No longer something to fear.A small flame flickers once againAnd is snuffed out with a single breath.Warm cinders remain,The only reminder of the destruction that occurred.Something stirs in the dust as my vulnerability surfaces.Rising like a Phoenix from the ashes.Free at last.

The Helen Keller
http://the-helen-keller.urbanup.com/3860413 My manuever the Helen Keller made it to the Urban Dictionary...much to my suprise there are other versions but they pale in comparison...check out the one by Benny Blazed!!! LOL Ciao Ben

Watch Out!
My friends who know me well, know that me showing anger is about as likely as Florida getting snow in July. Or the Cubs winning the World Series. Or the Mets not choking and losing the NL East to the Phillies (thats for Brandi and Ari lol). Today, after growing frustration with my business partner, I had a mini meltdown. :) Between the 2 calls, I think I dropped the F bomb at least a dozen times... hung up on him.. and threw the phone lol. And it was a well deserved meltdown too. But for me to show it? Watch out! It is actually quite a breakthrough for me. After my divorce, I went through therapy for awhile. (It's been a LONG time.. so I am quite sane now actually lol... I think) I had so much bottled up inside, so much hurt, so much anger. And I had kept it inside so long, I forgot how to show it. My therapist wanted me to go home, take a baseball bat and beat on the bed to help me find a way to release anger. I've had friends try to get me to scream or yell about the th

Argue Makeup
Me and a friend of mine had a discussion about women wearing makeup and why i have never really dated women that wear a lot of makeup. my take is i don't mind a lil lipstick and such but anything more than "natural" tone i don't really care for. all the different colors are a turn off to me. i like the woman that i see next to me on the couch, right before i go to sleep, when i open my eyes in the morning. that true woman is the turn on for me. my friend asked what was the turn off about it. to me she looks like a clown when she paints all of this on her face. how am i suppose to take u serious when she looks like a clown to me. thats just how i feel about it. my friend said i am being too harsh. not to judge the book by the cover i see and i'm like that's my whole point. i want to see whats underneath not make believe i'm presented with. just my thoughts. luv it or hate it.

Numb!!
no one to have no one to hold I lay here at night my heart is stone cold. I have tried to love but failed as you see pushes everthig away that I know will hurt me my friends are true and are always there but when i comes to the heart all I do is stear. it has been broken so many many times why do I let it when I know I will do the time I miss the fun I miss the laughs I miss feeling my heart now it's a broken piece of glass for these are my words and this is how I feel so I will lay here till I can no longer feel!!!!!

To All My Friends & Family
Thank you. Thank you for being my friend and a part of my online family. You all don't know exactly how much I appreciate it. Without you, I don't know where I'd be. I thank you for your love & support. I love you all in one way or another. So... Thank you.

Love Is....
Love takes time. It needs a history of giving and receiving, laughing and crying... Love never promises instant gratification, only ultimate fulfillment. Love means believing in someone, in something. It supposes a willingness to struggle, to work, to suffer, and to rejoice. Satisfaction and ultimate fulfillment are by-products of dedicated love. They belong only to those who can reach beyond themselves; to whom giving is more important than receiving. Love is doing everything you can to help others build whatever dreams they have. Love involves much careful and active listening. It is doing whatever needs to be done, and saving whatever will promote the other's happiness, security, and well-being. Sometimes, love hurts. Love is on a constant journey to what others need. It must be attentive, caring, and open, both to what others say and to what others cannot say... Love says no with empathy and great compassion. Love is firm, but when needed it must be tender. When

Peeve
Ok, so I'm just going to take a moment to gripe about something. Bleh, I hate doing it, but I have to get this off my chest. So our office uses Office 2007, the whole campus does. It's an educational insitiution, it makes no sense to use Office 2003 when you are trying to train people to be up with the times. Most of the world, however, uses Office 2003 because it's kinda expensive to upgrade. I get that, had I not had the connections I do, I'd be using Office 2003 on my own personal computers. Now, I'm not quite sure if you are aware of this, but Office 2003 cannot open Office 2007 documents natively. Notice that word, natively, it's italicied because Microsoft, in their genuine goodness, and understanding that everyone can't afford to upgrade relased a FUCKING FREE UPDATE TO 2003 TO OPEN THE GOD FUCKING DAMN DOCUMENTS YOU PIECES OF SHIT. Stop bitching to me that you can't open my shit and I need to save it as an Office 2003 document. YOU FUCKING UPGRADE YOUR SHIT. IT'S FREE YOU DO

One Hour Of Love!
One hour of love! I am back, if anyone missed me lol and I am trying to get closer to Oracle. My HappyHour will start tomorrow, Friday @ 12P.M. Fubar time. I will also run an auto-11. So come show me a bit of love pls!!! Missed all my friends. Special thanks to a special and very dear friend,Guidomedic! Guidomedic ~ Seeking Every Part of You ~@ fubar Go show him love too,pls! Come push my buttons lol

Whatever
Anyways so I'm sick of lying fake ass bitches on this site. You know who you are I'm not naming names. I give and give and give to help everyone I can and in return I don't even get a ty from some of you. Yes there are a few who I would give anything for on this site and they are grateful for everything I have done for them. On the other hand there are some who couldn't careless it's all about what they have and who the get it from. I am not like that at all. Anything I have ever received on this site I have said ty for. Sometimes I wonder if I should just leave since I'm not appreciated by most on here. Sighs what to do I really don't know anymore.......

Ford's Wittiest Stuff 3
Jenatalia™ (fingering my tight, hot, wet nostril) Phoenix, AZ April 9, 2009 @ 10:43 pm #79 of 85 -- Jenatalia™ said: [image](picture of Belle from Beauty and the Beast) She wins. FORRDDDDDDDAARRRRGGGGGGG! said: what she win? just cuz she takes a monster beastly cock, the other thing she gets is some rare form of STD that only animals get.. Jenatalia™ said: 'Cause she has a BRAIN, numb nuts. FORRDDDDDDDAARRRRGGGGGGG! said: yeah, she did, but he died at the end...[image] Jenatalia™ said: I hate you so hard. /blocks

This Song Is All Bout U Baby ...
Lyrics to Magic :V1: You've got magic inside your finger tipsits leaking out all over my skineverytime that i get close to youyour makin me weak with the way you look through those eyesC: And all i see is your faceall i need is your touchwake me up with your lipscome at me from up aboveyeaaaa, oh i need youV2: I remember the way that you moveyour dancin easily through my dreamsits hittin me harder and harder with all your smilesyou are crazy gentle in the way you kissC: All i see is your faceall i need is your touchwake me up with your lipscome at me from up aboveB: Oh baby i need youto see me, the way i see youlovely, wide awake inthe middle of my dreamsC: And all i see is your faceall i need is your touchwake me up with your lipscome at me from up aboveC: All i see is your faceall i need is your touchwake me up with your lipscome at me from up aboveyeaaaa, oh oh da da da do do do do do ahhhhhh, i ..... i need you

Ford's Wittiest 5
April 10, 2009 @ 12:21 am #130 of 143 -- ~Kit~ said: Honestly hun I have always provided for my siblings until recently.It was hard for me to realize they are not really my responsibility.They are adults,if I can work hard and provide for my family.They are more than capable of doing the same Tough love is not easy,but they need to be forced to fend for themselves.If they are always given hand outs,they will NEVER learn to do for themselves. Good luck,whatever you decide. Shoshonni ~Fu-Owned by Trucker~ said: omfg.. I just read your status.. There is bunny bling! OMG! ~Kit~ said: fuzzy cute bunny bling! I want another fuzzy bunny bling in the hopes they will make babies! Shoshonni ~Fu-Owned by Trucker~ said: That is freaking adorable.. omg FORRDDDDDDDAARRRRGGGGGGG! said: gonna nip this shit in the bud... [image](DEAD RABBIT IN BOILING POT OF WATER PIC) ~Kit~ said: you're are the muddafawking devil!!! I hope your balls

Stupid People
why cant people just like u for who u are and not because u have a cam?????Pleas do not ask me if i have one or ask me if i want 2 view your cam for sexual reason's !!!!!!! If u dont wnt me as your friend then please dont ask

All I Want
is to feel your lips on mine. To feel your tongue between my thighs To feel your hands all over my body and to feel you deep inside of me i want you to make me yours i want you to show total passion to dominate me and show me i am yours i want you to do whatever you want to me and to my body whenever you want

Take A Walk
The day's and nights have more meaning and the smiles carry a different feeling In the blink of an eye there could be no tomorrow and the last moment spent was filled with sorrow I know what it is to be misunderstood to wake up laying next to someone but still alone The streets of Brooklyn is my old hood where clouds over cast the rainbow's my heart's known Like a young mother braiding her daughter's hair Its beautiful to walk on by and see that apple in eyes skies ringing with full playgrounds where blacktops mirror Hip hops glare There's a courage about the hustle on the court beyond the cheers you can find dreams As children live for them and sway with the wind You see we loose that zest as time goes by Why?

Lounge Reviews..
RADIO STORM (59077) “Come Feel the Noise!”Owners: DJ Stormie and Smitty Storm is an all-ages, all-genres music lounge with a professional edge, featuring 15 scheduled DJs, a request line box app, a solid team of enthusiastic greeters, expert promoters and an ever upbeat vibe….the generous staff will get your buzz meter up to 100% and beyond within minutes at this crackin' party!Storm is a well-rounded and experienced lounge with something for everyone.The owners also have a Fubar-approved Shoutcast hosting software business, and are highly recommended for anyone wanting to start a Fubar lounge and implement online DJ technology. Contact the owners for information.

A Poem For A Grieving Mother Who Lost Her Child To Cancer
There are no words that I could say, But I can sit here and wipe your tears away. Your life will forever be broken, It is now without those little words that once we're spoken. I can feel your pain, Yet I can see your strength the same. There are no words that could heal that empty place inside, There are thoughts of you I share with pride. When you have moments of doubt, Think of your Love he could not live without. Take a look inside yourself, You'll see, You are the Mother noone else could ever be. He has earned his "Angel Wings." " I am Free," he sings. Don't think of me as gone, Think of me as "Life's Happy Song." I know that you and Daddy miss me so, I am now in heaven shinning from the stars, I will forever glow, and grow. Don't cry Mommy, I am alright. So dry those tears, Keep me in sight. I will forever be in your dreams, So please don't cry for me. I will always walk with you, Take my hand, and lead the way. I will follow you through each struggling

Mmmmmmm Chocolate!!
The Rules of ChocolateIf you get melted chocolate all over your hands, you're eating it too slowly.Chocolate covered raisins, cherries, orange slices and strawberries all count as fruit, so eat as many as you want.The problem: How to get two pounds of chocolate home from the store in a hot car.The solution: Eat it in the parking lot.Diet tip: Eat a chocolate bar before each meal.It'll take the edge off your appetite and you'll eat less.A nice box of chocolates can provide your total daily intake of calories in one place. Isn't that handy?If you can't eat all your chocolate, it will keep in the freezer. But if you can't eat all your chocolate, what's wrong with you?If calories are an issue, store your chocolate on top of the fridge. Calories are afraid of heights, and they will jump out of the chocolate to protect themselves.Money talks. Chocolate sings.Chocolate has many preservatives. Preservatives make you look younger.Why is there no such organization as Chocoholics Anonymous?Becaus

The Rollar Coaster
The Rollar Coaster I am on a Rollar Coaster, it has been a very emotional and scary ride, I regret even getting on this ride. All I want is to be off this ride. It is disorienting and oh so confusing. I can't make sense of anything or even think clearly, it keeps me completely disoriented and paralyzed. All I can do is sit there and cry, as it goes on and on and continue's to fly. It is isn't a rush or a thrilling ride but one that makes me scream out load a bone chilling cry. It pulls me aloung and it has pulled way too long. It follows a path, a path unknown. I don't where I am, or where I'm gonna go. I am on a Rollar Coaster, and I really hate this ride for where it goes nobody knows. When will it stop? I just don't know. It makes me crazy and feel despair deep down inside. It just takes me aloung a very unfortunate long on going ride. It spins and spins vigorously out of controll. It makes me feel helpless as I am taken through every turn completely out of controll. It toss's m

Plz Pray For Our Sweet Carrie And Her Family!!!
BELOW IS A COPY OF A MUM POSTED BY JOHHNY RIGGS.ITS IN REGUARDS TO OUR DEAR FRIEND CARRIE.LIKE HE SAYS BELOW SHE IS THE SWEETEST PERSON I HAVE MET ON HERE.SHE NEEDS MORE THAN ANYTHING TO KNOW THAT HER FRIENDS HERE ARE THINKING ABOUT HER,SHE NEED ALL OUR LOVE.this is a sb i got from carrie husband Syrano, " ...: FYI: carrie has had a series of strokes. SHe has lost the ability to move her right side and cannot speak. prognosis is not good for the long term....please pray for her . she's the kindest person i have ever met in my lifeand she needs to know we care about her . not just for the trains or contest or other things on here . but because she cares a lot about her friends.thank you JohnnyBELOW WILL BE THE LINK TO CARRIES PAGE PLZ PEOPLE LETS SHOW THIS SWEET LADY MASS AMOUNTS OF LOVE:)Carrie~~R/L Wife of Syrano~~Owner of CARRIE'S BAD AZZ BOYS 4 LIFE~~Owned by NunyaB~~@ fubarWE LOVE YOU CARRIE...PLZ REPOST FOR EVERYONE TO SEE...THIS

Incoherent Rambling-1
That's not necesarily true..cuz every moment I'm there with you. Don't know how it happened I can't explain, but I feel you coursing through my veins.. don't know how you got there and don't know why, all I know is every minute i all but cry.I long to be near you, you control my brain, I honestly feel i'm going insane, don't know how I got here, don't know what to do all I really do know is i am nothing without you.

Sorry...i..dipped...on..ya.
I,know,we,were,chatting the,other,day but,as,life,usually,does i,was,dragged,away without,a,word life,and,work took,over you,know,how,it,is so,im,jus,saying,hello i,didn't,forget,about,you,no and,when,i,get,back in,a,few,days can,we,pick,up where,we,left,off?? this,is,to,no,one,person but,it,is,dedicated to,a,special,few love,on,me like,i,love,on,you muah da,FoxX!!!

Yeah U Know Who You Are
Do you honestly think you hurt my feeling that you removed me from your friends list.. Give Me A Fucking break .I dont need fake ass people like you and your SO CALLED FRIENDS that like to run their mouth .Call me a follower and saying its my loss,b/c i disowned A two face person .And i Really dont give two flying fucks you getting tired of seeing me change my status.... At least i have interesting thing to say unlike your lil 23 yrs old friend doesnt... Oh And dont you worry how i know what the fuck your saying , it aint none of your fucking business. Just know I have my sources . And i aint a pussy to call you out on it , unlike ya'll talking about people behind their backs.. it just shows how PATHETIC YOU REALLY ARE.

Sexual Partners
How many Sexual Partners in a lifetime is too many for someone to be your significant other? If it is a woman and they have as many as men have why do we get looked down on.When it is a man it is notch on belt.Women like sex just like men do.Why the stereo type and how many is to many?

Easter Weekend Giveaways
BOMBER 1 Mil Fubux GiveAway & 5 - 50k Consolation Prizes Ends when Autos Run Out This Weekend RATER 250k Fubux GiveAways (there are 2 giveaways) & 2nd=100k & 3rd=50k Fubux Ends when Autos Run Out This Weekend Names will be made Random using www.Random.org Numbers will be chosen using www.mathgoodies.com Brought to you by: Chipper *no no licks*

Too All The Men Out There !!!!
Women can not read your mind and we do not always know what you are thinking and feeling . If you want a perfect woman lol good luck finding one we are all human and make mistakes . Im rantling and raving I know but this is a fact you all always want us to know how you feel, what your wants and needs are before you tell us , You want love but want it on your terms only forget about how the women feels . Guess what wake up love is a 2 way street . You have to give and recieve . We dont not know what you tell you online friends . If we could read your minds we would all be one happy family Not !!! Sorry for the ranting & raving but someone who shall remain nameless has pissed me off .

I Can Has Your Sex?
->wolfsolucer: Clearly you cannot read. My profile clearly states I am not here to see anything. wolfsolucer: if you give i show my.......... ->wolfsolucer: sorry, I will not give it out to strangers wolfsolucer: pls wolfsolucer: if i am bad boy you cn delete me wolfsolucer: pls i am so bored ->wolfsolucer: don't give it out to strangers sorry wolfsolucer: have you got msn or yahoo for chat ->wolfsolucer: that sucks. wolfsolucer: bored ->wolfsolucer: gravy, you? wolfsolucer: how are you ->wolfsolucer: uh..hi wolfsolucer: hi sexy

What Hurts The Most
Sometimes in life you are completely happy, Then there are other times were you just want to die and give on everything and on everyone for that matter There are things you want to share but you just don't know hw Or the right things to say If you say the wrong thing then you piss the people off you care about the most Then you push tem farther away When really all you want to do is bring them closer So you can see them smile To have to hold close to you There are so many things You want to do Want to say To show how you feel But the worst thing si when you can't The reason you can't Is bec

Dumbass Of The Year Award!!
My daughter just called me to tell me this: A customer went into my daughter's boyfriends, Will, work. After the transaction, he was giving the customer her change and noticed that there was a Canadian penny. He stated that he didn't want to give her the Canadian penny, as they are worth nothing in the US. Her statement back to him: "Yes, don't give me any Canadian or Mexican money. I only want white money." Wait.......what???? Since when do Black Americans have thier own currency??? LMAO!!!! some people!

Happy Easter...
I just wanted to wish everybody a Happy Easter. Whether you celebrate the holiday for what it is or not. I hope that you get a chance to have sometime with family and friends. People that you love and that love you back! Much love to all my family and friends! If you happen to read this and I don't know you well much love to you as well! Happy Easter All Bren

My Porn
"The young woman had been attacked in full view of a New York City subway clerk, then dragged down the steps onto a deserted platform where she was raped and raped again, the assailant not stopping even when a subway train pulled into the station. Now, after nearly four years of constant nightmares, bouts of depression and anxiety, the woman has been told by a judge that two transit workers who saw her being attacked had no obligation to do anything to help her other than to signal their superiors that police were needed at the station." maybe he just wanted to tape it, then upload to youporn.com for ppl like me to watch. /does search

F**king Easter
For most of you who know me you know that my son is my everything my pride, my joy, my breathe, my blood, my soul. it's easter. I work 70 hours a week. I give everything i have into my son. he DOES NOT go without. out of a 700 dollar paycheck he gets 450 of it. my son will not go alone or unloved. I'm his father he is my everything I don't get to see him often. with all the hours i work i'm lucky to get him 3 or 4 days every two weeks. my grandfather is ill. extremely ill. his wish today was for my son to be there. when it came down to it i picked the phone up and called for him. i got the next two days off and i wanted it with him anyway. it's easter he should be with me. His mother has been meeting men off the internet for the past 9 months.. 37 new men to be total. I'm looking at it as a bad environment for my son. she is not taking care of him. well today out of all the wishes for my grandfather, when i went to get him she told me that i couldn't have him. she wanted to take him to

~ So Called Friends ~
Matt Wilson: i loved you with all my heart... and you broke that... you even told my friends lies about me Matt Wilson: how should i take that juju: and u were spreading lies about the ones i love Matt Wilson: i never did that juju: and when i need to talk u just yelled at mee .... ' Matt Wilson: i want to be your friend juju: yes u did .... i heard from 4 other people Matt Wilson: name them Matt Wilson: i know you lying Matt Wilson: i never talked bad about you Matt Wilson: no answer?... cause i know you're lying... i gave yo umy heart.... i still love you juju: u have no clue as to what i was going through that nite .... and u just yelled at mee ... at 1140pm .... why>?? u wanted to ask if i want to stroke u or have u go down on mee .... come on now .... get real ... and all of those messages on my phone .... and u cring on 1 of them .... Matt Wilson: do you want me to leave you alone forever? juju: give mee a fucking break!

Please Read First!
It is with great sadness, that I start this blog, and all because of a book. They say pride goeth before the fall, and that is the truth. I always thought I knew a lot about the US Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, after all I did study them in school (unlike the past two generations who know nothing of it, because it is not taught) or so I had thought. The book is called the 5,000 year leap, and goes back to how the Constitution was created and what the founding fathers were thinking. Again, I am sad because against the newer generations I know a lot, but when I got into the intro of the book, found out I did not know as much as I thought. If you know me well, you know that once I start a book, I will read chapters on end, not settingit aside, and forget about the reality around me. With this book, it is not so, I read a little, then put it down and assimilate what I just read. So dear friends and readers, it came time for me to speak out and share, I implore you

Vote For Me! Need Photo Comments Please!!!!
I need some help! My salute is currently in a contest. I need your help to help me win! Please click on the picture below to get to the contest picture. I would appreciate it if you guys would help me by rating and leaving me lots and lots of comments. thanks so much for all of your help!!!!! Thanks!!!!

My Week Yo
Got to write a 15 page paper on indian massacres and the oregon trail, one paper on the yakama nation pre-treaty and post-treaty. I have to study for another class and hopefully finish a whole semesters worth of assignments in one week. So my head is gonna be swimming and im gonna be wore the fuck out by friday which I have to drive 3 hours home so I can go to the head doctor. Yes I said head doctor. Yes I am crazy, big deal im the same person crazy or sane. just one side of me has a warning label.

Do You Know What Goes On At Night?
When you go to bed at night and forget to shut down your computer, I think you ought to know what actually goes on. It's 1:14 A.M. And do you know where your icons are and what they are doing? Click on this link and you will see what happens when you leave the computer on during the night. HERE

Juggalo Hate
THE JUDGEMENTAL PICES OF SHIT CAN GO SUCK ON A DICK. I MEAN JUGGALOS GET HATED ON FOR BEING WHO THEY ARE...I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT...BUT THEY ARE JUST JELOUS AND THEY WANT TO BE LIKE US BUT ARE TO AFFRAID TO ADMIT IT. PEOPLE HAVE TO GO AS FAR AS MAKING A JUGGALO HALOCUST. WITCH THERE INTENT IS TO RID THE WORLD OF JUGGALOS...IM PAROUD OF WHO I AM IM PROUD OF WHAT I STAND FOR. EING A JUGGALO IS A WAY OF LIFE. FAMILY STICKS TOGETHER LIKE A REAL FAMILY SHOULD. IT DONT PISS ME OFF ANYMORE BECAUSE I KNOW IF WE DONT REACT TO THE HATERS THEN THEY WILL JUST LEAVE US ALONE.

My First Contest! Rate Me Please!
Come help me with my first contest! Rate my picture, comment (often!) and rate the host (Domonic) profile too! 5 credit bling given to the most creative comment at the end of the contest by Domonic too! Thanks! http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=2373265&albumid=1615626&i=3340937731

Scatterd Pieces
If my soul were made of glass I'm sure that you would see It's cracked in many places And it's hard to tell it's me The cracks started long ago I can't remember how Perhaps it was my childhood I really don't know now I can't remember younger years No matter how I try But it must have started there When I began to live a lie Drinking parents do confuse Mixed messages all around What's a child suppose to do When hatred does abound They love us when we all behave That's all fine and good But when you start to be yourself They make their rules understood Do as I say; not what I do It's a crazy mixed up place Especially when you're growing up And it's always in your face Do I try to please Or should I run and hide? It really doesn't matter When no one's on your side Too busy parents never listen What's a child to do? They don't know who they really are Am I me.....or Am I you? Yes, I'm sure that's where it started So very long ago It only goes to show you A child reaps; what his par

Personal Ad
I'm looking for someone super uptight and dishonest. Someone who will treat me like crap, and cheat on me. Please don't have a car or a job, you will automatically be disqualified. The more kids you have with other women the better, and I'll really get turned on if you've had dna testing done! how many hits do you think I'll get?

Mental Hospital Phone Menu
Hello and thank you for calling The State Mental HospitalPlease select from the following options menu:If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.If you are codependant, please ask someone to press 2 for you.If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5 and 6.If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want, stay ontheline so we can trace your call.If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be forwarded to the Mother Ship.If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.If you are manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, nothing will make you happy anyway.If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.If you are bipolar, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.If you have low self-esteem, please hang

Really Who The Hell Is This Targeting
that has to be the most disturbing commercial that I've ever seen for a kids meal Yes the song is catchy. Yes the King is even creepier. But square asses for a kids meal?!?!?!?!

7,012 Woman I've Met On The Internet Since 2003 And Not A Single One I Dated
Yes, as hard as it is to beleive, I have talked with 7,012 different woman on the internet stemming from July, 2003 when I got my first computer and not a single one exept the druggie Christine 'Too much to dream / Lips like morphine' [Yes she is on morphine] I actualy saw, met or dated for more than a day. Simpy put, I just don't know how to accknowledge, keep, interest or even ask out a woman. Alot of them already were in a relationship or were/ are mommas.

Best Ever Blonde Joke?
BEST EVER BLONDE JOKE?A blonde calls her boyfriend and says, 'Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how to get started.' Her boyfriend asks, 'What is it supposed to be when it's finished?' The blonde says, 'According to the picture on the box, it's a rooster.' Her boyfriend decides to go over and help with the puzzle. She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table. He studies the pieces for a moment, looks at the box, then turns to her and says, 'First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a rooster.' He takes her hand and says, 'Second, I want you to relax. Let's have a nice cup of tea, and then ..' he said with a deep sigh, . .. . . . .. . 'Let's put all the Corn Flakes back in the box.'

One Rate For My Sexy Wifey Please?!?!?!
Look who is up for auction..... Steffy!!! Could you PLEASE Copy & Paste the following URL into your browser and rate the pic? (Fu's new blog composer won't let me link to the auction pic.) We would really appreciate it!!! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=429545&i=2201073849&albumid=1620851 And if you think you can handle winning this sexy chick - make a bid. Make it a good one cause she is worth it!!! Thank you so much!!! §ŦΣƒƒ¥ @ fubar Hard 2 Handle ~ Steffy's & La*La's FuWife~ @ fubar ****PLEASE RATE THIS BLOG****

Stuff That Sucks...
now i am not trying to step on toes or piss people off but ya know what sucks.... I love fubar hanging out on here and stuff but it seems like you have to have money on here to be good friends with anyone.... I am just sayin..... I am by no means super rich nor will i ever be, but it'd be nice if twenty million people didn't want things that cost like all kinds of money who has the kind of money half the stuff costs... anyways just wanted to get that off my chest I am almost better now.. I have been really pissed off at the world lately and if this blog comes off the wrong way oh well.. I am sorry.

The Capture
As she sat there in the front of her car shaken and in tears, Cassie wondered how it was that after all these years the memories of her childhood could invade her mind and heart so readily today. 37 years had past. Yet they could be triggered so easily. Standing in the photography studio, trying to do something positive for herself she froze as he put his hands on her. The memories flooded back paralyzing her just as it had 37 years ago when her stepfather had put his hands on her. Here again she was that little girl. Vulnerable and afraid even to speak. How is it that the same scene could be replayed over and over. Were all men just pigs or was it that she had somehow put herself in positions so that she could replay and again punish herself for her “sins.” As she came to her senses, in tears and fled from the studio leaving the photographer confused and more than a little frightened by her reactions to him, Cassie drove home shaken and angry not only at

Any Ideas About What To Do?
ok i am trying to get my car paid off real quick like with in the next 2 months and in order for me to do that i have to find a place to stay where i have no bills....i had asked a relative but they said no..which i already knew it was going to be no cuz they don't want me to leave...IM LEAVING 1 WAY OR ANOTHER!! anyway, i was looking up camp grounds close to where i live so i can continue to go to work and stuff but omg they are so expensive......i might as well stay in the house im living in.....anyway if anyone has any ideas please leave a comment i really need some ideas ty and if you are wondering where i am leaving to it is back to florida but need my car to do it.

The Kind Of Fool Makes!!!
The Kind of Fool Love Makes Lyrics:Anyone can read the signOr the writing on the wallIt's all right there to seeExcept someone like meWho can't see the truth at allIt takes a special kind of foolTo stand out in the rainSomewhere in betweenNothing left to loseNothing to be gained[Chorus] What kind of fool does it takeTo go on loving aloneLike there's some answer in the ruinsSome silver lining to be foundAn even bigger fool might thinkThat you would care if my heart breaksBefore the time that I admitI'm just the kind of fool love makesA wiser one would seeNothing's gonna changeThere's a time for giving upA time for letting goTo learn from our mistakeBut I keep holding onto hopeIn spite of everything I knowWhat kind of fool does it takeTo go on loving aloneLike there's some answer in this ruinSome silver lining to be foundIt takes a bigger fool to thinkThat the dawn will never breakOn this day that I admitI'm just the kind of fool love makesOn this day that I admitI'm just the kind of foo

Have You Been To Radio Storm
OK LETS BREAK IT DOWN BEEN IN FUBAR 1 YEAR ITS HAS BEEN A GREAT TIME I HAVE MET SOME MANY PEOPLE AND NOT TO MENTION ALL THE GREAT LOUNGES WE HAVE HERE.. MOST OF ALL SUPPORTING OTHER LOUNGES IS THE KEY TO BEING A GREAT FAMILY.. AS YOU KNOW RADIO STORM HAS GREAT DJS AND MOST OF ALL GREAT ATMOSPHERE TO CHILL IN SO IF YOU LIKE TO STOP IN AND SEE WHAT WE HAVE THEN BE OUR GUEST.. I HOPE YOU TAKE THE TIME TO AT LEAST CHECK OUT THESE WONDERFUL DJS I HAVE BEEN SO BLESSED TO HAVE.. YOU ALL ROCK AND MOST OF ALL THE FANS SUPPORT IS THE KEY TO US DOING WELL.. HUGS AND BEST WISHES TO THOSE THAT DROP IN AND HEAR OUR TUNES.. SINCERELY DJ STORMIE OWNER OF RADIO STORM http://fubar.com/new_lounge.php?lid=59077

Serendipity And The Playboy Mansion
It's crazy how things happen. I was planning on attending a charity event at the mansion in June to network with wealthy philanthropists for our Rock The Troops tour which will benefit charities for wounded soldiers and their families. Easter Sunday I visit my friend's myspace to wish her holiday greetings and she had a large advertisment for Stars and Stripes, a charity benefit for the Wounded Warrior Project, same place, same cost but a month early. It's serendipity and even better, I might get the write up of the event published in Military Times Magazine!

Leavin....
IM GONNA MAKE THIS SHORT AND SIMPLE.... I NO LONGER WISH TO BE APART OF THE PUSSYCAT PLAYMATES....IF IM ON UR LIST AND U WISH TO KEEP ME THERE THEN THAT IS GREAT BUT DUE DO RECENT EVENTS THAT IM JUST NOW LEARNIN ABOUT. I NO LONGER WISH TO BE AFFILATED WITH THE PERSON OR PERSONS WHO WUD DO SUCH TRIFFLING AND HURTFUL THING TO ANUTHA MEMBER! IF THATS WHUT BEING A FAM MEANS TO SUM OF U....I DONT WANT ANY PART OF IT! HOPEFULLY SOME OF U WILL KEEP IN TOUCH BUT IF NOT THEN THATS COOL TOO...YALL BE EAZY!

Let Me (wip) 2.0
Every broken promise like shards of broken glass under my skin I pray the day will come when I will hear your voice again… Until one day it dawns on me the truth you kept behind your eyes The truth that you never loved me, how could I fall for your cold lies? Do you think of me when you’re sad? Do you still wish that I was there? So many thoughts of you I’ve had seems more than I can ever bear So now I'll thank you my darling, for you have finally set me free It'll be your name upon my lips

Creativity In A Can...
OK, Supplies are ordered, stencils are in the making... yeah baby lets breathe some aeresol (cough-wheeze). Can't wait to start & have so many pieces I want to do. The static list: Jerry GarciaJim MorrisonBob DylanBob MarleyJimi HendrixMarilyn MonroeRolling Stones TongueBettie PageLucille BallThe Three StoogesMarilyn MansonAlice CooperOzzy OsbourneBillie HolidaySammy Davis Jr.Louis ArmstrongBB King w/ LucilleKurt CobainElvisBetty BoopMickey MouseThe Blues BrothersHerman MunsterEinstein

Why Do We Base Our Self Worth On What We Can Do Or Be For Others?
Maybe I am alone in this thought (and if I am, I apologize for generalizing), but it seems everytime I try to see how far I have come in my life, I look at what I am able to do for my friends and family or what I have done for them. I think of how valuable I am to others to measure how good of a person I am and what more I could do. Why don't we take self worth for what it really is?........ what we are worth to ourselves.

Happy
Life is so damn good right now. I am loving it. Life is a lot like a book. You're born and each year you get older but also that year is a story of your life. For each year that is a chapter in your book. As you grow, and get older not only are you taught but you learn lessons, make memories, meet people, you love, and loose people and so much more. You can't write your life as you would a book, you just have to live and try be happy as you do it. Hope for a happy ending. Now I will be the first to admit not all the chapters in life I like, hell I would love to forget a few, but we all would. Really if we did that, it could change things as they are. You may not have what you got. For all those that know me, and what I have been though understands this blog. All my fights in my life, the lose of my daughter have brought me to this point. Not only have I learned to love and live again, I have found love again. Never thought I would be happy, but damn I am. I smile all the time, an

What Are Friends For?
FriendsFriends are there: To support youTo help youTo listen to youTo comfort youTo stick up for youTo talk to youTo do favors for youTo yell at you (when necessary)But they are also there for:You to support

Why I Haven't......
I haven't been rating the pics if people haven't had auto 11's on because I wasn't getting any points for it so I contacted support (A very good friend that works in support!) told me that I will eventually get the points so I will be getting to all yours soon that don't have 11's on thank you for being patient with me! :D

I'm In A Contest And I Could Use Some Help Over Here
I Need Rates And Original Creative Witty Comments !!! I have entered a contest and could really use some help.. Please click the link below to rate the pic and leave an original comment on it.. we could both win some bling if your comment is chosen as the most original.. any and all help is appreiciated and all luv will be returned.. i will be keeping an eye out to see who actually helps me when i need it !! CLICK HERE TO RATE AND COMMENT Thank You, *Evil.. Wicked.. Sweet & Naughty*

Lost
is it lost? By me ........for someone who is lost seen through vales of nothing in this blacknessthis hole in the world ,can we cast our shadows in the void ?,the world around falls spinninghere where the light has forever come to its endare we giving up on hope ?can it truely all have crashed down ?we adjust our views to focus on the thunderdscrapes of this hole in the worldin here is lost, the hopes of tommorrow .not all can be lost ?is it lost ?is it lost ?No .......not all is lost .....you have Friendsyou have me.MRRCP 2009

Bidding Starts Today Ends June 15th
KEEP YOUR EYES PEELED FOR MY BULLY ON THIS AUCTION AND PLEASE REPOST IT OFTEN......48 STATE FU LAND REAL LIFE POKER RUN....BIDDING ENDS JUNE 15TH.....GREAT PRIZES FOR HIGHEST BIDDERS IN EACH STATE.... Cruising all of the lower 48 states on my Harley has been a dream for MANY years now, THIS YEAR that dream comes true....in July 09 im going to begin my quest and you have a chance to meet me in person...as well as a chance at some great prizes as i "Ride Across America"......... LIVE FREE ....RIDE HARD!

Loving You Makes Me A Better Person
Every time I think about you... I am reminded of the reasons why I love you from the depth of my heart and soul. And I wonder what I would do without You, without Your healing smile, Your words of faith, the caring and sensitive way You touch me so deeply, lifting me just when I need it the most. Without You what would I have ? What would I be ? I can not imagine existing in a world where someone does not love me the way You do. Your the only one who ever loved and accepted me for who I am. And I think You are nothing short of amazing. Your love will always be life's greatest gifts.

I Lol'd.
From Date Message ACCEPT DENY doctordave1969 (Online) 2009-04-15 13:14:29 wow what a doll !!!! you have to be the most sexy female i have ever in my life seen! you are truly my dreamgirl come to life your eyes , hair , nose , lips you are just fucin perfect in every way!!! please add me ?ill rate all your pics 10s

Broken To Whole
Broken promises - ties that bind - Lies that were told. All rip apart my soul. My heart to never heal - My life so empty - Lies, killed it all. Wounds open - Picking - Bleeding - So sore - Your lies did it all. Innocent - I am not - I have my faults, I admit it. But lies ruin it all. Scream - is all I want to do - Your love - All Lies - Your promises - All Lies. My love - The realest it has ever been. Ripped from my soul. I lay bleeding - Pools of blood surrounding my life. I cut - To take away the pain. The blood flows so smooth and graceful. Soothes the emptiness inside - Fills a void if only briefly. Slowly the wounds heal - Pain becomes less - Life moves forward. Love will rise again - I will become whole.

Thanks To All My Fu Friends And Family..
I really would like you all for being such a great support and raters... Its been fun talking to all of u...But tonight is my last night of being online...I am leaving for my basic training in the air force and will be in Texas the whole summer...Hopefully i will talk to you guys sometime in july... Thanks again for all the ratings and comments... Love, Katie aka YouKnowIt...

Damaged Beyond Repair
TODAY WAS A NOT SO FABULOUS DAY. SINCE I WAS VERY YOUNG I DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING POSTIVE FROM THE PEOPLE AROUND ME. I AM TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY. LIKE THE ODD BALL. THE UGLY DUCKLING. I WAS TALKED ABOUT, PUT DOWN, LIED TOO, LIED ON, ALIENATED FROM EVERYONE, BEATEN AND RAPED BY PEOPLE THAT SAID THAT THEY LOVE ME. I GROW UP ALONE. I CHOKING ON MARY JANE AND DRINKING BY THE AGE OF 9. MY TEENAGE YEARS WERE A LOT WORSE. MEN MADE ME BELIEVE THEY WANTED ME AND ONLY ME. THEY BEAT ME, FORCE ME TO DO THINGS I DIDN'T KNOW PEOPLE AT THAT TIME REAL DONE. ONE MAN IN MIND HAD ME SO WRAPPED UP IN HIM I JUST KNEW WE WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED. I WAS ONLY 15 AND I JUST KNEW. I WAS SO WRONG. HE DIDN'T LOVE ME, RESPECT ME OR EVEN CARED IF I LIVED OR DIED. HE USED MY BODY LIKE SOME COMMON WHORE. THIS MAN I THOUGHT I LOVED HAD SEX WITH ME IN THE BACK OF A MOVING TRUCK OWNED AND DRIVEN BY HIS COUSIN. THEN AGAIN UNDERNEATH A HOUSE ON A DIRTY COUCH. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I PLEADED WITH HIM ON H

Darkness
As I venture off Into the darkness alone The cold night wind Chills to the bone The emptiness I feel Turns my heart blue Although I have tried I know not what to do So I travel this road Fears isolated from view Keeping them hidden Especially from you Strength is what you need Weakness I can not show I lift you up high Though I feel so low Limbs go numb I feel no pain My tears are shrouded By the falling rain No one can tell The loneliness I feel Day after day alone Behind this wheel Like on a deserted island I cast a single stone I understand why I am destined to be alone For who could love Someone like me Like a solitary captain Asphalt, my sea Every morning I wake To spend another day Lost in this world Not knowing my way Searching for that Which will bring me joy When I find my heart To people, a toy My life twisted A rope begins to fray My existence A murky shade of gray I may not be perfect Not in any way Someti

Why S*x Is Like Riding A Bike
1. You have to keep pumping if you want to get anywhere. 2. It's best to wear protective head-gear when going into unfamiliar territory. 3. You can do it with no hands, but it's best not to try it until you have a lot of experience. 4. It's easier to learn with the help of someone who has a lot of experience. 5. You can do it by yourself, but it's usually not as much fun. 6. It's usually hard to control your speed the first few times you try. 7. It's best to have a soft place to land. 8. You don't need any special clothing, but you can get some if you are really into it. 9. If you're with someone who is having trouble keeping up, it's usually best to slow down and wait for them. 10. Most people think it looks easy until they try it for the first time. 11. Once you learn, you never forget how. 12. If you fall off get right back on. 13. If you get a flat, try pumping it back up. 14. Remember to signal before you change direction. 15. Make sure that you've got a firm grip. 16. Sometimes i

I Am Gathering The Family (juggalo & Letts)
listen up everyone who needs to care i am lookin for all juggalo family members. that includes juggalos and juggaletts. pass it on to ur friends everybody. facepaint or none family is family i want to bring everyone together. i am waiting,,,,,

In A Rambling Mood
I found this quote earlier: "We are the perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation." How many of us can look at that, read that and truly understand what it means? It really hit home for me. While circumstances in some relationships make it seem impossible that it'll end in a good way, how many of us simply give up, lose faith and move on? How many of us realize what a treasure we hold and WORK at making it possible? I'm a firm believer that your happiness is what you make of it. Most believe that luck plays a huge part in it. I dont. I'm the one responsible for the happiness in my life. I'm the one that has to work hard to make it stay that way. I dont rely on anyone else. I've realized just lately, that you can appreciate what you have and work on making it better, OR you can sit there and try to place the blame of your misfortune on others and let it go because of lack of faith. I've always believed that each person has their ONE true love. I'm not saying you c

Something I Believe In..
WHEN THE MUSIC STOPPED For those who are unaware, at a military theater, the National Anthem is played before every movie. From a Chaplain in Iraq : I recently attended a showing of 'Superman 3' here at LSA Anaconda. We have a large auditorium we use for movies, as well as memorial services and other large gatherings. As is the custom back in the States, we stood and snapped to attention when the National Anthem began before the main feature. All was going as planned until about three-quarters of the way through The National Anthem the music stopped. Now, what would happen if this occurred with 1,000 18-22 year-olds back in the States? I imagine there would be hoots, catcalls, laughter, a few rude comments; and everyone would sit down and call for a movie. Of course, that is, if they had stood for the National Anthem in the first place. Here, the 1,000 Soldiers continued to stand at attention, eyes fixed forward. The m

A Little More "about Me"
Well I have been doing some thinking as late and while I always new an "About Me" section would never ever be finished, I have determined that its definitely a "living" document that will be expounded on from time to time. Most of the time it's going to grow from some experience that I have had that has affected me in such a way that there is a personal shift in my way of thinking, way of living or way of being and such. Other times it's just going to be updated to include things that were overlooked previously and that should be stated because too many assumptions (a bad thing by the way) were made about me, about things, etc. So... first on the list for some truly dear friends of mine: I do NOT have ESP. I am not Clairvoyant on even a minute level. I do not own a crystal ball, and I am not a mindreader. Honestly, if these are skills that everyone else on the planet has and I don't, then I was apparently wandering around on the day they gave those out. I didn't even see those

Went For A Hike...
Notice that you breathe in and out and that the light in the sky changes all the time in waves and that the sky curves all the way around to the edges or your eyes then behind your head to make a full circle. Lawrence Collins Only In A Little Planet

Pandora's Box
Given within seven depths of time, Listen to me now by using your mind. Give me the attention your eyes can't find, Let go of the weight burying you alive. Grasp ahold of the one thing you can't deny, And face the fears you keep lying inside. ~BJC

Morning Sex
MORNING SEX - She was standing in the kitchen, preparing our usual soft-boiled eggs and toast for breakfast, wearing only the 'T' shirt that she normally slept in. As I walked in, almost awake, she turned to me and said softly, 'You've got to make love to me this very moment!' My eyes lit up and I thought, 'I am either still dreaming or this is going to be my lucky day!' Not wanting to lose the moment, I embraced her and then gave it my all; right there on the kitchen table. Afterwards she said, 'Thanks,' and returned to the stove, her T-shirt still around her neck. Happy, but a little puzzled, I asked, 'What was that all about?' She explained, 'The egg timer's broken'

Do You Care ?
if im woundering , you and me ? today im thinkign alot of things, love is very important isnt it and to care about others ? and who really care about a person ? are you interested then show it more not only for a few seconds dont u agree? its not to a speciell person its only a thought i have that if u want somebody go for it u know if u not show your true feelings u can lose more then to show them? is it true ? ... hmm who cares

I Have The Greatest Husband!
So I am sure that every married lady out there will most likely say the same thing about their husband, and I am also sure that it is true for them. Just like it is true for me. My husband cj also known as the oh so appropriate name of automatic leg spreada in the wonderful land of fubar. He had such a rough life, has been through so much and is dealing with so much currently. You would think that there would come a point in someones life where they just cant handle anymore. Not this amazing man. Yeah of course he is human and at times the stress is to much but he somehow manages to pull it together and be this strong, loving, generous, loyal man. Not one day goes by no matter what he is dealing with that he does not show in someway or another or a million little ways that he loves me. The kind of love we have is the kind that not very many are lucky enough to find. We both came into this relationship extremely hurt from our past relationships, and it was hard for us to both tru

Wth...
Okay... no matter how great we get along... and no matter how nice he is to me... I can't help but wonder, how many other girls does he talk to the way he talks to me??? And why the hell can't I get him out of my mind??? It's not supposed to be this way... and he doesn't know... OR DOES HE?

Lookie, Another One! Wtf Is The Deal?
Dating Question: Can a Guy Be Too Nice? Four ways that single men blow their chances with women and become friend material instead By dating blogger Rich Santos for Marie Claire Updated: Apr 16, 2009 Single women say they want the nice guy. But I'm not so sure. I recently had the following IM conversation with my friend Jill: RICH (11:09:02 AM): punks, and rock stars JILL (11:09:12 AM): pretty much RICH (11:09:21 AM): hence Dave and you will never be together JILL (11:09:27 AM): he's a good guy RICH (11:09:30 AM): haha too clean cut and nice JILL (11:09:35 AM): pretty much Poor Dave! He's losing out to punks, and rock stars! Nothing against these occupations (not that being a punk is an occupation), but the more important part of this conversation is that Jill stated that Dave (who adores her) is too nice. A little more about Dave: He is well-off, takes care of Jill as a friend, and asks her to do fun things all the time... you know... dates? Imagine! I had a friend

Push And Pull
your direction means nothing to those around you. they will push and pull and maneuver and twist the variables for their own ends. you will be the fulcrum the little red flag tied in the middle. if you step to far one way the losing team will let go and while you have fallen on the side of the winning team you have still fallen. tread lightly your path ever vigilant of the things that attach themselves to your well being.

The Storm We Carry
storms are resting on my shoulders,releasing the the power of lightning,undoing the the burdons that are aquired, building the pressure daily,to break the carriers spirit,slowly over time to replenish itself. pelting the skin like rain,corrupting the spirit to break,giving the weak seemingly endless power, the weight forcing the stoppage,gathering the strength to carry on,willing the spirit to great feats. unified the spirit and storms are unbreakable,uncontrollable they are furious and free,never controlled only maintained

What I Learned
what i learned is You can't control everything no matter how much you try You will be hurt, only if you allow someone to hurt you People lie, about everything They think it's funny to toy with people You control your own happiness Only you can decied on what's most important to you Don't make someone your priority if you are only an option to them no one is more important then your kids That i am a better person after what i learned that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger That if no one can accept me with my scars and all they are not worth it I am beautiful how i am , no one else matters when it comes to that. That i am a great mother to my kids I have a great personailty that people take advatage of That no one will walk all over me again That i can do anything i set my mind to That i am stronger then most people think that my children are part of me and i am thankful everyday that i have them.

11 People On A Rope
11 people on a rope eleven people were hanging on a rope, under a helicopter. Ten men and one woman. The rope was not strong enough to carry them all, so they decided that one had to leave, because otherwise they were all going to fall. They weren't able to choose that person, until the woman gave a very touching speech. She said that she would voluntarily let go of the rope, because, as a woman, she was used to giving up everything for her husband and kids or for men in general and was used to always making sacrifices with little in return...... As soon as she finished her speech, all the men started clapping....... send this mail to an intelligent woman, so that she has something to smile about today.

The Gift
I was given a gift so unexpected. This gift came not in pretty packaging, came without a bow. It had immeasurable worth, for we cannot measure what has intangible value. Never had a gift reduced me to such tears, for expressing with words would not be sufficent. This gift I will treasure and cherish above all I have ever received. This gift was given so freely, that I could never repay. The giver knew not of the invoking it would cause. The giver knew onlly what they desired to bestow unto me. This gift I will forever be greatful for. Enternally I will have gratitude to the giver, for this gift was far more precious than they even knew. This gift was love, family, life and the gift of being reliquished from my past and despair. May I be so fortunate to return this gift and become the giver myself.

Come And Bid On Me!
This is my first auction... so let's make this fun! Don't forget to A/F/R the Hostess. She didn't ask for it, but it's the nice thing to do :) There will also be a prize given to the one with the most rates, so even if you don't bid, the rates will help!!! Thank you all in advance!

Last Tear
A man lies in the street crying Cause he can’t stop his self from dying He was stabbed in no helped He was left to die by his self All the people passed him by and all he could is ask the why I would help me if I was you if you were lying here bleeding to as shed final tear he tried to face death with no fear but just then help did come but I guess they could not save this one

A Note From A Good Friend...ty Teresa
IF A MAN WANTS YOUIf a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.If he doesn`t want you, nothing can make him stay.Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that`s not meant to be.Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can`t "be friends."A friend wouldn`t mistreat a friend. Don`t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.Don`t stay because you think "it will get better." You`ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.The only person you can control in a relationship is you.Avoid men who`ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn`t marry them when he got them pregnant. Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends sepa

A Nation Of Terrorists??
This is from a vet on www.fubar.com who feels he now has to worry about simply being a United States Armed Service Veteran. People, if this administration and this government doesn't worry you...I don't know what will, we had all better wake up, wake up fast and see the world through reality based eyes rather than dilluted views through speeches made by a black man with crafty sentences. This president and this democratic run government becomes more and more frightening each day. If you support America, freedom, AND our troops and veterans...Leave me a comment on this garbage you're about to read. The Department of Homeland security has black listed Vets. as possible domestic terrorist. They have informed law enforcement to be on the look out for vets as possible terrorists. So now I have to worry about driving around with my Vet plates I am a target. This morning I wrote a post about a Homeland Security paper that warned about “right wing extremists” and the threat th

It's Been Five Days After My Surgery!
I thought all went well however I'm in alot of pain now and the damn thing is I was bleeding when they had done the surgery and once they placed the sleeve in me I stopped untill Thursday then I started back up, I've been coughing alot an feel this damn thing an it's hurting like hell I don't know if it's normal for this to happen however I'll be talking with the doctor soon. I'm on so many damn meds that I can't keep track of anything anymore, but other than that I am walking alot fasting than what I was before which is a good thing because when I'd go to the store I'd be holding up peoples but hey if they can not understand than fuck em it what I say, anyways I've got 2 more chemo's to go an 4 more interal plus another 10 exteral radations which sucks but for the worst part they are tacking on a few more exteral ones do to the interal which will be 4-5 more, I'm damn near done with all of this and hopefully it has worked by killing all the cancer. I will keep you all up-2-date on me.

Words Of Wisdom
Death: Whoever does not want to drive old love completely out of his heart must bear current suffering continuously. Drive all sweet memories of love out of your heart, out of your senses, out of your spirit, and you will be above grief. Once you lose that which you cannot retrieve, you should act as if it had never been yours, and in this way your suffering will flee and disappear! If you do not do so, even more suffering will await you." To which the complainer responds, The complainer: Human soul cannot lie idle. It must always work either for good or for bad. Even in sleep will it not be idle. If good thoughts are taken away from it, then it would switch to bad thoughts: good out—bad in, bad out—good in. This exchange must continue until the end of the world… Should I drive out of my soul the sweet thoughts of my most beloved, then bad thoughts would come into it. I would rather keep thinking of my most beloved. If great love of the heart is transformed

No Interwebz
im home now, and my wireless card doesn't work and even when it did, it sucked! I hope everthing with my house works out. the landlord offered to sell me the house. I have some research to do and apply for home loans and stuff. wish me luck. as the economy effects so many peoples finances right now, I haven't had too many problems and maybe I can take advantage of the situation this countr is in and get the loan I might not be able to get if the market wasn't upside down right now! as you were.... oh and miss me if you want lol

Fighting The Department Of Homeland Security
Posted: April 17, 2009 12:00 am Eastern By Bob Unruh © 2009 WorldNetDaily Radio talk show host Michael Savage has teamed up with the Thomas More Law Center of Ann Arbor, Mich., to file a lawsuit against Department of Homeland Security Secretary Janet Napolitano. "It is a civil rights action brought under the First and Fifth Amendments to the United States Constitution, challenging the policy, practice, and custom of the United States Government that targets for disfavored treatment those individuals and groups that are considered to be 'rightwing extremists,'" the complaint announced today said. Become part of WND's re-declaration of our founders' intent to be an independent nation The federal agency recently targeted those individuals in its report called "Rightwing Extremism: Current Economic and Political Climate Fueling Resurgence in Radicalization and Recruitment According to the federal government, members of the suspect group of people include those who: Oppose rest

Evil Never Dies For Life....
MY E.N.D SISTERS BEING ONE OF YOU IS AWESOME...I CAN STAND UP FOR MYSELF AGAIN...HAVING FAMILY IS EVERY THING TO ME...WHEN PPL START TO BASH US I PUT MY FOOT DOWN AND TELL THEM TO BACK US THEY HAVE NO CLUE WHO OR WHAT WE ARE...I OR FAMILY WE TAKE CARE OF OUR SISTERS IN NEED ....IF BY PHONE,NET GOING TO SEE EACH OTHER HELL THAT WORKS TOOI HAVE TOLD PPL THAT I AM EVIL NEVER DIES AND THEY JUST GIVE ME A WIERD FACE AND TELL ME TO GET A LIFE...I TELL THEM THAT E.N.D IS MY LIFE PLUS THEY ARE MORE FAMILY TO ME THEN ANY THING..I LOVE MY SISTERS VERY MUCH...I KNOW THAT ONE DAY I WELL GET TO MEET ALL OF MY SISTERS....DAMN WHEN WE ALL GET TOGETHER WATCH OUT WORLD GET IN OUR WAY I FELL SORRY FOR YOU HA HA...WE ARE GOING TO TAKE OVER THIS BIG OLD WORLD NO MAN IS GOING TO STOP US AND FOR OUR LIL ONES THAT IS RIGHT THEY WELL FOLLOW US TOO...

Dude, Seriously
Everyone is up in arms about those Tea Parties. Everyone says that the people who went to them were whiny, snivelling racists who were all anti-obama, anti-america, and anti-cnn. That's a bunch of bunk. Every american has the right to peaceably assemble. And that's what they did. No one got belligerent, no one threw stuff. Nothing bad happened, no riots. The people came out to support something they believe in, and to protest something they don't. So, if what these assholes are saying is true, then only they have the right to assemble and protest. Then they can get all crazy and burn stuff and protest the war at a hero's funeral. A funeral!! There's the right to assembly, then there is just putrescence. And going to a soldier's funeral, someone who fought and DIED to protect these rights, to protest the very thing they are able to do. Is that right? Cannot a group of people get together and protest higher taxes? Can't we stand up and say no to socialism? And to idiocy in the whi

Not I...
Dirty little secrets shrouded by dirty little lies You thought you were a good man Seems the poison inside has been set free Try to remember what you used to be Don't come to me seeking salvation I don't have it in me to be that man Don't come to me for answers I have none to give I care not for what makes you suffer I pray you find the Jesus you seek I must maintain my objectivity these days It is not my place nor pleasure to have an opionion Fly high or fall hard as you will

Life
Life is a journey me must all endure. Either led through it by our hearts or minds. Whether you're lost in the journey or know your destination the trip is always filled with unexpected turns. For some these turns are disrupting but for others they bring a newness to the journey that makes it more worthwhile. Live the journey and except the turns in the road because the road leads to the place you were meant to go. lalne1

My Little Girl
A little smile from my angel goes a long wayit warms my heart and soothes my dayA little glance from my brown eye girl chases away the gray skiesopening my heart even as you wave me goodbyesA little conversation carries me like a sweet tunedancing fever breaks out like a summer night in juneA little hug is always a unforgettable moment in timeas they can always be thought of to help my climbA little love is a whole lot from my girlthere is no doubt she has me in a whirlA little silence still speaks in volumes to meas I cherish every moment we spend together free

People
Why do people have make themself look trashy to get peoples attention? Do they think it's cute? Is it to make themself feel better? I just don't understand. I personally don't thinks its attractive. And then they have pics of their kids up, come on.

The Next Day.....questions For God Part2
when i first saw this i got scared because about 8 years 2001 an angel(im not sure if he was bad or good though) told me im going to get old in about 30 years from that day.he said get old ,but what angel would use the word die' he would use the word get old to explain death.even a really wise monk would not use the word die and hes no angel.after this news, i called to my holy ghost which lies not to deeply inside me becuase i committed a unmorally act of smoking .but i can get him back in 2 to 3 day if i cleanse my heart and mind.i will quit smoke again. i did it before i can do it again to make my mind and body as pure and whole as possible to prepare for a kumadon walk(meditational walk).truth seeking technque.it will be a long walk around the house i dont know how long the walk will take but i must find the answer to this.well my holy host said with the most acurate words as i can remember him saying he said"yes oudawn you must know the truth and full truth ("by now" if i recall

The United States Of Leland
Just saw it. Knew it was critically acclaimed, but irrelevant at the box office. I can't tell you if this is a movie you'll enjoy. If you're at all thoughtful, or educated (I spent plenty of time in philosophy classes, with Camus' "The Stranger"), or just want to know why seemingly good people do bad things, I'd recommend you put this on your Netflix list. There are NO heroes in this movie. Everyone is at least a little broken. All star cast: Don Cheadle, Kevin Spacey, Jena Malone, Ryan Gosling, Lena Olin, Chris Klein, Michelle Williams, Kerry Washington, even Ann Magnuson (where has SHE been lately?) Simple story, simply told: a troubled teen (Ryan Gosling) kills a retarded boy (whom he knows). Its the WHY part that is troubling. We spend the movie unravelling his story in flashback. It's about heartbreak, loss, trust, personal motivation... real human issues. If you pay ANY attention during the film, the climax, especially the last line, will SLAY you. Selah.

Bone Scan?
I've been having alot of back pain lately and the doctor in which I see for my radiation treatments believes that it is do to my muscles, however my cancer doctor wants me to have a bone scan done to make sure that the cancer hasn't spreaded into my back? I'm hoping that this isn't the case cause I'm not ready for no more treatments nor surgery although I've gotta do whatever they tell me in order to get myself better. I'm just thankful that I've got family & friends who care about me enough to help out an lend a hand whenever I've needed it the most. I'm really trying to hold on to the faith an keep my head up as much as possible but at times I get so tired & don't want to do a damn thing, my husband has grounded me from everything....lol... Says for me to relax an take it easy he'll do the cooking & cleaning and so on which I'm not use to an feel as if I'm a damn baby at times, though I'm thankful for having him to do all this for me... I'm not like I use to be anymore, the Jaime you

Ceremony Of The Roses
This is a private bonding ritual, that dates back for centuries, and at the most is shared with only one or two of the couples closest friends. I will elude to a basic ceremony but remember that there are many variations on this and it is normally modified with special touches to make it as unique as the relationship that is being bonded. The submissive carries a single white rose blossom that has not fully bloomed. The Dominant holds a single red rose that is opened almost fully. Although both roses must have thorns on their stems and be freshly cut, it is nearly impossible to find a white rose with thorns. If one can not be found the thorns from the Dominant's red rose can be shared as his offering to lead the relationship. The couple stands facing each other and the Dominant removes the submissive's collar. He quickly purifies the collar by passing it through a flame and then returns it to her neck declaring to her that he will protect and guide her for eternity With a

His Love
he sees her standing all alone amidst the chaos of life. he goes to her and takes her hand and leads her to safety she seems puzzled almost as if shes seen him before she sees him smile and she realizes that it's the very person she fell in love with. only he's different some how So he takes her into his arms and holds her so tight and safe, he looks to the horizon and see a battle quickly approching. His wings open and he wraps them around her protecting them. He looks down calls to her and says I love you. and kisses her lips. he feels her push closer to him. he picks her up and takes to the skys. and he carries her to safety. with sword drawn he tells her that he will return shortly and that he loves her more than life itself. he reluctantly leaves her and with a tear in his eye he kisses her again softly and takes to the skys once again only this time to fight evil and despair.

Internal Radiation Tommorrow?
They have me set up to do this @ 7AM and it's impossible seeing I've got the kids to get off to school and the fact that my husband is working day turns which means he leaves here @ 5AM not sure what the hell I'm going to do here. Maybe talk with the doctor and see if he can't find another time for me, then again my husband said to go ahead and keep the time because I need to go through with it, yes I know this however is it going to work out with all the shit I've got to do and with him working early mornings? Anyways he says he'll try & work something out with his BOSS to see if he can't work midnights in order to be there with me & maybe his dad can help with the kids or I'll have to ask my G/F Jamie next door, I don't know... We'll have to figure something out and it'll have to be soon....Oh yeah I forgot that they are an hour ahead of us so this means I'd have to be there @ 6AM my time..... Whew what a damn joke cause I've got to do a FLEET enama? Before they start the procedure,

My Short Fictional Erotic Story
It was a nice lovely evening with the stars and moon shining and the passions that night were hotter than Summer in July, but only one exoctic couple that night had more sweat from passion than humidity in CA. I was celebrating my 1 year anniversary with my wife, I was at work just thinking about spending a lovely night with my wife with chamapgne and a candle lit dinner. When I came home, I entered a candle lit room, and there she was, my wife lying on silk sheets wearing a sexy red lingerie, and holding a bottle of champagne. She poured me a glass as we tosted to our anniversary, and after we downed our glasses, my wife had a seductive look in her eyes. I was nervous, as I have never excperienced something like this before. She lyed me down on the bed and climbed on top of me, she started kissing me with her soft and passionate lips while she put her soft hand in my shirt and started to rub my chest, my hands were slighty rubbing her firm ass. We started to massage eachothers sensual

Ladies, Don't Refer To Any Of Your Body Parts As A Food Item : |
I just love the whole dynamic of social networking sites where the vibe is ALWAYS one of sexually charged conversation and constant flirting. But please, for my sake, stop with the "flavor" comparisons of your tits, ass, or pussy!! It sets us all up for failure. Hey, I love me some chocolate, but I know for a fact that I don't taste like it. EVEN IF I POUR HERSHEY'S SYRUP ON ME, I probably would just taste like chocolate-covered grossness. :| But I swear, damn near every woman on Fubar, Myspace, Facebook, MyYearbook, or whatever other site, tastes like all these sweet treats and confections. Then I lick one of you, and I have the faint hint of pheromones, salty sweat, and the god-awful taste of some strange "Bath and Body Works" body spray (it DOES NOT taste like Country Pears :|). I'm not the culinary guru when it comes to the flavor of pussy, but I've had more than my fair share of oral sex. Dessert doesn't pop in my mind. If anything.....nevermind, I was about to get rather disgu

Returning The Favor...
Originally posted on Tagged Apr 18, 2009, 5:15 pm I've never been one to take revenge on someone who has done me wrong...Instead I go out and do stupid shit to punish myself for whatever it was that I did to make them do it in the first place.... Once again someone has enjoyed making a fool out of me...Actually 2 someone's...And instead of getting angry at them for what they did...I'm sitting here taking the blame figuring that somehow it's all my fault... There comes a time in everyone's life when they have to stand up and say enuf! Take charge of the bullshit that is in their life...And cast off those people who want to keep them down...Because it gives them satisfaction having that kind of control over another human being.... Well...I'm done...As my status says... "I'm building a wall so high that no one will want to climb to the top and come over to my side...Anyone who tries...I'm shoving their fucking ass off...Let them stay on their own side...Because behind my wall...I ca

I Hate It When Girls Lie!
i hate it when girls lie to me about not talking to them, getting or writing back! if you don't want to talk to me just say it. jamar i don't to talk to you because you are a loser and i don't want anything to do you with you. there i can say it why can't you. you know. why make up something like "you didn't send me anything or i left my computer on when i'm not at home" i keep my computer on too! but i look to see who left me anything because i don't want to be an ass to people. if someone rate me i'l rate them back. if some one send me a gift i send one back and tell them thanks. someone send me a message i send one back. i'm not an ass that well make up something. because if you not online i always send gifts to everyone feel welcome or to see whats up. i have names of people on my friend list that make me feel like shit. and when they lie about not getting gifts or messages i sent. over time trying to talking to them or just to say hi. it hurts me inside.

Life!
Hello all. I have not been on much..due to fact of getting a new member in my family. His name is Bruno..hes a great dane. Hes only 5 weeks old..so he needs alot of attn. Especially at night time it seems. He still crys alot..and I am hoping he eventually gets use to his crate at night..so I do not have to hear it. Its been 8 yrs since I had to do the motherly thing. LOL. Anyways..that is why I have not been on much. That and baseball/work. I got new pics of him in my folder. Luckily hes been doin real well at training. Hes only had a few accidents in the house..and he surely doesnt like to go in his crate. Hes alot easier than when I trained my puggle. I traded a cousin of ours .. 2 rabbits and a ferrett for him. I think I came out ahead. There girl loves the ferrett though. Also.. got a call from the library today.. My youngest won the contest..of how many books were in the library. I helped him guess some. That is so awesome to win! LOL. I can not wait for him to listen t

Who Want To Be Blinged
OK EVERYONE IN FU-LAND. I AM FEELING A LIL NICE THIS 420. SO I WILL BE AUCTIONING OFF THIS BLING TO THE HIGHEST BIDDERONE LUCKY BIDDER WILL GET TO CHOOSE FROM CRYSTAL CORSET OR THE DIAMOND BOXERS.SO GO TO MY DEFAULT PIXS FOLDER AND PLACE YOUR BIDS ON THIS LOVELY BLING..

Who Do You Lean On???
Lean on Me I don't know which way to go, my strength is very small. I'm looking for direction and can't hear, God at all. It's taking all of my energy to just get out of bed. And when I try to concentrate I just can't clear my head. But then in total silence I hear my Savior say, "Don't lean on understanding just lean on my Today!"

~*~r-i-p Jamie~*~
This is for my best friend Jamie... I miss you so much... and I love you forever! I'll see you one sweet day. Our friendship was all too brief... A few years just wasn't enough for me. We may not have talked EVERY night... but we talked pretty often... about some funny and crazy things... and it's gonna suck not having you around to talk to. I guess God needed you more than we did... I just hate how things happened. Hell, I don't even know what to say... I cried like a baby when your brother told me, but I couldn't believe it. I thought 'No way... Not Jamie... He wouldn't do that on purpose...' I guess things happened for a reason... just know that you'll always be loved and missed my friend.There are so many stories I still want to tellThere are so many I love you's left unsaidThere are many tears left uncriedThere are many dreams left to fall apartI miss our long talksI miss the nights when everything was alrightI love you like a brother, you were my sidekick,Yet I wonder why

~*~random Thoughts~*~
Alright, this is just some random stuff that has gone through my mind... and I'm just now feeling comfortable enough to share it... so enjoy... laugh... cry... whatever. I'm sure that I'm not the only one that's ever felt this way... but it's when I was all about finding love... so ENJOY anyway! ~*~Amanda~*~ Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to move mountains... steadily pushing but getting nowhere. I know what I want in life... but no matter how far I reach... I'm not getting closer... winning at a losing game in my peak. I never thought it would be like this. I always pictured a silver-screen story book ending. Instead, I'm constantly wondering "what if". I want that stability that everyone talks about. I know that people argue... problems will arise to which there is no solution... but the point is that even though you may argue with someone and run into a problem that's nearly impossible to solve... it's nice to have someone that's willing to try... someone that's willin

Suicide
WOW, Have u ever jsut given someone your heart? NO i mean your whole heart? lol what a waste. I just couldent live with myself .. knowing I just killed myself Least maybe then u will remember me .. suicide always kills 2 people

Unknown Thoughts
Forever caged in sense of no point chains that bind me has now locked forever in darkness the red river flows from the bodies of the guilty sins forever enraged by the ones the hurt like a blade to the wrist feeling nothing but numbness and no pain am i alive or is my soul dead the only way to find out is if i walk on these hollowed grounds forever my soul is condemned to wonder this life time will i find peace or will i find him waiting for me to forever abind my soul its only life after death but who are we to judge what we do.

Ear Infection
Ear InfectionThis is so true! They always ask at the doctor's office why you are there, and you have to answer in front of others what's wrong -- and sometimes it is embarrassing..There's nothing worse than a doctor's receptionist who insists you tell her what is wrong with you in a room full of other patients. I know most of us have experienced this, and I love the way this old guy handled it:A 65-year-old man walked into a crowded waiting room and approached the desk.The receptionist said, "Yes, sir, what are you seeing the doctor for today?"He replied, "There's something wrong with my pecker."The receptionist became irritated and said, "You shouldn't come into a crowded waiting room and say things like that.""Why not? You asked me what was wrong, and I told you."The receptionist replied, "Now you've caused some embarrassment in this room full of people. You should have said there is something wrong with your ear and then discussed the problem further with the doctor in private.""You

Another Erotic Story..by Me..a Lot Longer Though
Every Summer in the city of Ontario,Caliornia, I kept seeing this shy girl by the pool side who looked insecure with her body and looks and rarely smiled. One Summer I saw her by the pool side again, she was wearing a one peace and thick glasses, but still didn't smile. There's something about this girl that I can't stop thinking about. Then in the start of the school year that Fall, I saw her again, it was the same girl, but yet it wasn't, she has gone through a great transformation, she was wearing her school girl outfit, a pair of silk stocking that complimented her legs all the way up to her skirt, a pair of black pumps, golden locked hair that shines and a pair of glasses that made her look sexualligent(sexy+intelligent), she walked by me, her scent was intoxicating, adn then out of nowhere, she said hi and released a bright beautiful smile, it gave me butterflies in my stomach.I just know under this sweet innocent girl is a bad girl just waiting to come out... The Following

For Chewbacca (chewy)
FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT HAVE RATED MY PICS, YOU HAVE SEEN MY PETS AND KNOW THAT I HAVE HAD A PRETTY SPECIAL DOG NAMED CHEWY. SHORT FOR CHEWWBACCA. I FOUND OUT YESTERDAY WHILE I WAS @ LUNCH THAT SHE HAD TO BE PUT DOWN DUE TO HER AGE AND HEALTH ISSUES. SHE WAS THE PERFECT EXAMPLE OF "MANS BEST FRIEND." SHE WAS MY FISHING, HUNTING & WALKING COMPANION. I HAD GOTTEN HER FROM THE ANIMAL SHELTTER IN JUNE OF 1999. I WILL MISS HER AS SHE WAS THE BEST PET I HAVE EVER HAD. OC the MAVERICK (AND LIKE ALWAYS, COMMENTS ARE WELCOMED & ENCOURAGED. THANK YOU)

Bad Luck
When will my bad luck end....I just want to scream ....AGHHHHH... Well my vacation was last week..It wasnt the greatest..You live and you learn I guess. Went with a friend. I have 3 little ones she took 3 teens with her. We just clashed. Mine go to bed early teens stay up late. Mine get up early. Having a diabetic we kind of stay on a scedule with eating and gettting up and stuff just didnt work out well. Next time we go by ourselves. Well there and back my van was loosing water we thing oh just a little repair no biggy.. Well of course not its a major damn thing...AGHHHHH. I rented a damn car for 2 days so far. Well today at lunch a rock hit the windshield i think let me just go get it repare no biggy they tell me they cant i have to replace the who F???King thing AGHHHHHHHHH ........ MONEY MONEY MONEY...i am so tired of crying...i keeping thinking I will run out of tears but noooo more just come. I am so depressed and so angry and so frustrated. Between the car rental and the car re

Something I Did When I Had Cancer
HAVE U EVER WATCHED KIDS ON A MERRY-GO-ROUND?OR LISTENED TO THE RAIN?SLAPPING ON THE GROUND?EVER FOLLOWED A BUTTERFLY'S ERRATIC FLIGHT?OR GAZED AT THE SUN INTO THE FADING NIGHT?U BETTER SLOW DOWN.DON'T DANCE SO FAST.TIME IS SHORT.THE MUSIC WONT LAST.DO YOU RUN THOUGHT EACH DAY ON THE FLYWHEN YOU ASK HOW ARE YOU?DO YOU HEAR THE REPLY?WHEN THE DAY IS DONE DO YOU LIE IN YOUR BED WITH THE NEXT HUNDRED CHORESRUNNING THOUGHT YOUR HEAD YOU'D BETTER SLOW DOWN DON'T DANCE SO FAST TIME IS SHORT THE MUSIC WON'T LAST EVER TOLD YOUR CHILD, WE'LL DO IT TOMORROW AND UN YOUR HASTE NOT SEE HIS SORROW EVER LOST TOUCH,LET A GOOD FRIENDSHIP DIE CAUSE YOU NEVER HAD TIME TO CALL AND SAY,"HI"YOU'D BETTER SLOW DOWN DON'T DANCE SO FAST.TIME IS SHORTTHE MUSIC WON'T LAST WHEN YOU RUN SO FAST TO GET SOMEWHEREYOU MISS HALF THE FUN OF GETTING THERE WHRN YOU WORRY AND HURRY THRUGHT YOUR DAY,ITS IS LIKE AN UNOPENED GIFT...THROWN AWAY.LIFE IS NOT A RACE.DO TAKE IT SLOWERHEAR THE MUSIC BEFORE THE SONG IS OVER THE MUSI

Men
I HATE when MEN talk 2 U say they want to see U and when U PUSH IT THEY BLOCK U!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO MEN WHO WANT U TO TALK DIRTY TO THEM AND THEN THEY BLOCK YOU!!!!!!!! WHATS UP WITH THAT????????? BUT WHEN THEY BLOCK U AND KEEP CHECKING U OUT????? I JUST WANTED A FRIEND!!!! SORRY!!!!!!!

Today Sucked
Ok so today the head gasket blew in my car. I made it part way to work and it just died on me. Waited about an hour and it started again so I turned and tried to make it home. Got about two miles from my house and it died for good. Now I'm stuck. If I get someone to change the headgasket (Or attempt to) and it's more than that who knows how much I will end up spending. GAWD I'm hating life right now!

Ex's
Well, my ex husband is being a total asshole to me.. I got some legal papers from him Saturday afternoon saying that he was going for custody of our kids, I was a unfit mother, which im not. He is also saying a bunch of other shit. He is trying to make himself out to be the perfect father and that he has done nothing wrong. Well, I can surely tell you he isn't. He puts everything and everyone one before his kids. When I got these papers my blood pressure shot thru the roof. I was ready to strangle his ass when I got them. He is so scared to even talk to me cuz he thinks im gonna say something to him about it. Everything thing that I do now is thru my lawyer.. I've had about enuff of his shit and im done playing games with him. Well, now im out for blood. He should know me after 14 yrs that when ya piss me off the bitch mode comes out. So, now he's gonna see the bitch in me.. God help him! Im not sure that I can handle much more of him, cuz right now I have enuff on my plate and it'

~actions Speak Louder Than Words!
Tell me where you came from and it also tells me who you are at this point.... Show me your choices and it allows me to see who you are becoming. Each day is an empty canvas for all of us, irregardless of our past, good or bad. And each day, every decision is a path to a new life... every decision leads to one....not the sum total but every single one of them alone.... no one makes us angry or sad or hurt....they only do things in front of us and we decide..again, decision.... we decide what value to assign to their words or actions....... I do not put value in negative, it only empowers others...... I try to grasp onto positive and be positive, even in the face of adversity. Our choices, our decisions tend to become 'Patterns of Action' and in turn, those 'Patterns' become us.. the way we react and view things...they become "Habits". Habits can be productive or counterproductive...that is our decision. Bad Habits can only be excised and replaced by starting a ne

Ingrates
I suppose it's that time again. Yep, time for me to bitch. It's nothing new, but maybe it'll get ppl's attention around here. I AM NOT HERE TO BE USED, OR WALKED ON!!! Is it SOOOO hard just to say thank you once in a while? Apparently, it is. i'm not saying all of you are ungrateful, but a lot of you would have some very disappointed parents, if they saw you forgetting to thank somebody for a nice gesture. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way around here, either. Anyway, to those who know how to say thank you, and appreciate what's done for them, I ♥you. If you're going to continue to be ungrateful, spare me the details as to why you can't take two seconds to say thank you, and just remove me. Don't make me have to guess which of you to keep around.♦Thank you, please drive through. ♦

Who Am I?
I used to be young, trusting, open and naive, but I am different now. My eyes tell the story of a broken soul. There are flashes of red hot anger, moments of quiet blue reflection, and tides of deep purple passion. The bits and pieces of my heart are held together by strings of hope and glued together with determination. I am a survivor, but sometimes I miss that wide-eyed trusting child I used to be before infidelity, lies, and heartbreak took her away. I will never be the person I was and I can only hope to become the person that I want to be. I want to trust again, to love without holding back. I want to throw my arms wide open and fall into our love with reckless abandonment, but I am not ready yet. Will I be ready before you give up waiting for me? I just don't know. I have to be patient and I refuse to rush myself. There is a plan in this life of mine; I just don't know what it is yet. So I keep struggling along trying to find the light switch, hoping that the path will be illumi

The Invitation
The Invitation....It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.I want to know what you ache forand if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.It doesn’t interest me how old you are.I want to know if you will risk looking like a foolfor lovefor your dreamfor the adventure of being alive.It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrowif you have been opened by life’s betrayalsor have become shrivelled and closedfrom fear of further pain.I want to know if you can sit with painmine or your ownwithout moving to hide it

Getting Close
got a phone call today..actually 2.. one from workforce the otherfrom tdi....tdi confirmedthat he sent the information over to workforce and workforce giving me my final steps on monday then tuesday ive got an important meeting with the lady to give me the scholarship money woot!!! so within the next 2 weeks i should be out in sanford doing the school stuff,then off to tn :D for orientation and what ever else..its about to get a lil hectic for a while.... :)

3 Viagra Pills
A guy goes to his doctor and says,"Doc, I have a problem.""My girlfriend is sleeping over this Friday, my ex-wife is sleeping over this Saturday and my wife is coming home Sunday.""I need 3 Viagra pills to satisfy them all."The doctor says, "You know 3 Viagra pills 3 nights in a row is pretty dangerous for any man. I will give them to you on the condition that you return to my office on Monday so that I can check you out."The man says, "You have a deal Doc."Monday morning the man returns with his arm in a sling.The doctor asks, "What happened"?The man answered, "Nobody showed up

Shes Everything To Me
She's a yellow pair of running shoesA holey pair of jeansShe looks great in cheap sunglassesShe looks great in anythingShe's I want a piece of chocolateTake me to a movieShe's I can't find a thing to wearNow and then she's moodyShe's a Saturn with a sunroofWith her brown hair a-blowinShe's a soft place to landAnd a good feeling knowingShe's a warm conversationThat I wouldn't miss for nothingShe's a fighter when she's madAnd she's a lover when she's loving [Chorus]And she's everything I ever wantedAnd everything I needI talk about her, I go on and on and onbecause she's everything to meShe's a Saturday out on the townAnd a church girl on SundayShe's a cross around her neckAnd a cuss word 'cause its MondayShe's a bubble bath and candlesBaby come and kiss meShe's a one glass of wineAnd she's feeling kinda tipsyShe's the giver I wish I could beAnd the stealer of the coversShe's a picture in my walletOf my unborn children's motherShe's the hand that I'm holdingWhen I'm on my knees and prayi

Only If It's Justified...
Don't act like you fuckin know me. What you think you may know is waaay off base. Whether or not you believe I'm capable of so much more is not my problem. Good or bad, I AM capable of so much more. I keep it in check, for those who really deserve it. Good or bad, I AM capable of so much more. I bide my time, I wait to strike. Good or bad, I AM capable of so much more. I don't give a fuck what you look like, what you've been through, blah blah blah, I'm not your cookie cutter chick so don't give me cookie cutter issues. I can smell the treachery in between the games and lies. Don't fuck with me, said in the nicest way possible. No threat, no animosity just a suggestion, some sound advice. Take it. Don't waste your time, I always find out. Good or bad, I AM capable of so much more. While you think you're walking all over me, I'm merely leading you astray. Catch me lookin at you, I'm plotting my next move. This is chess not checkers. Do yourself a favor and just wa

Everyone
Eveyone has regrets things they wish they could go back and change but life doesn't let us do that most of the time. Until the last few weeks I haven't dwelled on the past much although at times I should have. As you get older regrets begin to seem to become overwhelmimg at times. Dreams that even haunt you in your waking hours of the past that shouldn't still be there. But without the past we wouldn't be who we are are now. I have only one regret now and that is that the ones in my life right now haven't gotten what they need and deservre from me. Wendy think about you every day. Ginia sorry I can be an ass sometimes. Friends should be the most important thing in your life next to family and sometimes [depending on the family member] firends are more important. xoxo Wendy

Heaven's Window
I know this isn't really the place to post this; however, I do know people here who have lost loved ones. Something happened that I must share with you. We all need a little uplift in spirit at some point or another. This morning I was on my way to work and saw something truly amazing. For a brief moment, I looked up at the sky and saw Heaven's window. The clouds had formed in a pattern that made a perfect square of light. I just stared at it for a few seconds before the window closed. I thought to myself, wow. All of the people who I have loved and lost to those pearly gates were peeking down on me. So, don't think for one second they are not there, watching over us, because they truly are....and I saw them! I feel blessed today for receiving such a heavenly message!

New Day
Ok today is a new day..... I had a really bad week..I decieded to approach today with a new attitude. Things in my personal life have been kind of up and down but it could be so much worse. I know its me. I can be such a witch sometimes. Yes I said it..lol. Some of it is my meds. My siezure meds sometimes make me just so moody and when i am not eating right I feel shitty. Over our vacation I didnt eat right and being depressed I gained like 4 lbs which seems like nothing but 4 lbs for me is hard to get off. I eat only 1200 calories a day to maintain my weight,,,that sucks lol. But anyways I always said I believe in signs just have to look for them. so last night I said today would be my new day. When we got into bed last night they was a firefly in my window I have never seen one that close and i am 34 years old. We watched it for over 30 minutes maybe longer I felt at such a peace after. One of my favorite songs is firefies by Faith Hill. So i think as silly as this sounds this was m

Blah... An Addition To Last Entry
Here is a little background. I met My Love 9 years ago. He has blown the doors open on My heart and My world. In this past 9 years I have grown and changed and become the woman I am now. I have perfect strangers telling Me that I am one hell of a woman. He even sais that I am amazing, but I do not fit his little dream of the future. He sais He loves Me and wants to spend the rest of his life with Me, but with Me his dream will never come true. It does not matter that I have gone places and done things I never even considered. It does not matter that I have sat a hot red head on his face, or tied up a cute lil hard body and said " Here My Love, have a good time"... Iam so lost .. He is everything I have ever wanted in love and life... I finaly find a man that can handle Me... and I cannot handle him ......

Very Frustrared
I am currently really overwhelmed and frustrated with school. I keep getting jerked around with what classes I should take, and what my major should be. Everything is so complicated, I have to have certain classes to get my AA, I have to have certain classes in order to transfer, and I have to have certain classes for the job I want. I was planning on working next semester at my college but I am not sure how I will manage that one, when they want me to take up to five classes in one semester...all to get done in 2 1/2 years.I also need to finish my CSI certificate program and get the ball rolling with the volunteer position at the coroners office. There doesn't seem to be enough time for me to be able to accomplish what I need to. I need a set plan and a set schedule... not this constant changing of things.. I swar counclers are useless!!! they tell me one thing, teachers tell me another thing, and the people that I want to work for tell me another... I am literally sitting here asking

Repost Bully Please
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Ducks
i was so tickled with the afternoon yesterday -- since the whole i was sick thing most days i strive to see things that will be memories and leave that for the kids ...yesterday we were outside the day was sunny and warmer than it had been in a while ... the kids constance - becca- melody and macy were running and playing while matt of course was on the puter ... go figure ...but all of a sudden these mallards a girl and a boy flew down and began to walk around and quack - the kids went nuts so much so that i had to go get bread to feed them--we tried to get them to walk back over to the apartment but alas they werent buying it ... they did however come up to us very close and then we got to watch them wiggle their butts and quack more -- the girls were in a frenzy and of course becca wanted to pet them but they eventually flew away ... was the sweetest thing and i thought what a wonderful thing --we did the ducky song and talked bout them and i enjoyed that sooo much ... building mem

I Must Be Getting Old And Prudish
I have been in Fubar awhile now, and have read alot of blogs and mumms that just for the lack of a better word piss me off to no end. But what really makes my skin crawl is woman who talk explicit gutter trash. And show pictures of their personal parts . I have been brought up to believe a woman should have respect for her self and a good healthy set of morals. I am aware this is a adult site and its to be viewed as if you were in a bar. You know men are gonna talk dirty to you. Okay most maybe not all and it applys to woman as well I guess. But I honestly dont think a woman needs to lower her self to that level just to get a man to notice her. I think if a woman wants to talk dirty to her man that should be in the comfort of her home, apt. Or if in here the shout box or other means to have a convoe one on one and not for public viewing. So okay maybe I am a prude and my views are not as open and free as most and I dont honestly think they ever were yanno. I when growing u

Maid To Be Taken
She sat quietly at his feet, her arms wrapped around his leg, as he finished his phone conversation. "The game starts at eight. I've arranged for a little maid to serve refreshments." He grinned at her. "See you then." She closed her eyes, involuntarily squeezed his leg, and gulped. Master had just finished telling her what would be required of her tomorrow night. But only after listening to his conversation with one of his poker-playing buddies, did the full impact of the situation dawn on her. Her anticipation, her fears, her excitement, and her need to please Him collided in mid brain. As he set the receiver back in its cradle, he twirled a lock of her hair between his fingers. "What are you thinking, Sweet?" She chewed on her lip. She thought about answering, "Nothing, Master, but thought the better of it. She wiggled her bottom, as she remembered the last time she had avoided telling him her feelings. "Master, my feelings are all jumbled up. You know I want to please you

April 20 2009 R.i.p. Jen
LEE, JENNIFER MARIE; April 20, 2009; of Pontiac; age 37. Beloved mother of Nicholas and Katelyn Lee; loving sister to Rodger Lee, Mary A. Vied, Debra Kay (David) Looks and Michelle Robertson; Jennifer is also survived by her nieces and nephews, David Vied, Heather Lee, Amanda Vied, Andrea Messing and Summer Robertson; great nieces and nephews, Destiny, Faith, and Michael Trowsse and Austin Messing; and friend, Dennis Robertson. Jennifer was preceded in death by her parents, Donald and Donna Lee. Funeral Service will be held on Friday, April 24, 2009, at 8 p.m. at the Pontiac Chapel of Sparks - Griffin Funeral Home. The family will receive friends on Friday, 6 to 8 p.m. Interment Perry Mount Park Cemetery. To share a reflection,visit http://www.sparksgriffin.com/ JEN WAS ONE OF MY GOOD FRIENDS HERE, SOMEONE I KNEW I COULD ALWAYS COUNT ON, SOMEONE I KNEW WOULD ALWAYS HAVE MY BACK. FRIENDS LIKE THAT DON'T COME ALONG OFTEN. I CHERISH EVERY MOMENT I HAD WITH HER. SHE W

Prego At Large
Police are looking for a pregnant woman they say tried to rob a North Carolina bank at gunpoint but left empty-handed after answering her cell phone. Which is funnier the fact that shes probibly blonde (i am a blonde and i even think shes blonde) or the fact that she still got away?

Xoxoxoxoxoxo
Hugs were invented to let people know you love them without saying a word. Nine times out of ten, when you extend your arms to someone, they will step in, because basically they need precisely what you need. A meaningful hug is truly like a handshake from the heart. Everyone wants and sometimes needs a hug, it translates into any language. It's pretty much universal. You can hug your money all day long but I assure you, it will never hug you back. When it comes down to a kiss; here are some clichés. A kiss is a beautiful thing designed by nature to stop speech when words become meaningless. A thing of no use to one, but prized by two. Kiss: is a word by poets as a rhyme for bliss. A kiss can be a comma, a question mark, or an exclamation point. That's basic spelling that every one ought to know . A kiss is something you cannot give without taking and cannot take without giving. Kissing is a means of getting two people so close together that they can't see anything wrong with

Life
hey yall i thought i would put my two sence into this site. i dpnt know how many of you that are on here are like me that are confused about life i want to go back full time in the military but they wont let me any ideas on how to get over this let me know

Scent Of A Woman
Just before dawn breaksThe room greyYou lie awake tranquilWith hopes of more sleepDeep breath followed by a subtle sighOnly provided a stimulating scent to take hold of you With her back to you, she lays, still within the grasp of nights sleepStarring for a moment; taking in the sight of her silhouetted curvesBlanket cascaded along her lower back - teasing you, tempting you The faint fog of sleep has liftedAnother deep breath followed by a subtle sighLifting the blanket, moving inYour arm wraps and pulls her inRemoving the space between youHer skin rushes the blood within youYour head pillowed by her neck melts youThe hold of her scent swells youThe squirm of her hips pressing against you, signals you Her shoulder welcomes the touch of your lipsHer body loosens within your graspYour teeth provide a pinch of desireWarranting the faint moan of your nameHer breast cradled in your handAgain her ass presses against you...leading you Quickly movingSurprising herNow you straddle her backT

Says It All
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKINGTHROUGH THE DESERTDURING SOME POINT OF THEJOURNEY, THEY HAD ANARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIENDSLAPPED THE OTHER ONEIN THE FACETHE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPEDWAS HURT, BUT WITHOUTSAYING ANYTHING,WROTE IN THE SANDTODAY MY BEST FRIENDSLAPPED ME IN THE FACETHEY KEPT ON WALKING,UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,WHERE THEY DECIDEDTO TAKE A BATHTHE ONE WHO HAD BEENSLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THEMIRE! AND STARTED DROWNING,BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.AFTER HE RECOVERED FROMTHE NEAR DROWNING,HE WROTE ON A STONE:'TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSAVED MY LIFE'THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPEDAND SAVED HIS BEST FRIENDASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'THE FRIEND REPLIED'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS USWE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWNIN SAND, WHERE WINDS OFFORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOESSOMETHING GOOD FOR US,WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONEWHERE NO WINDCAN EVER ERASE IT'LEARN TO WRITEYOUR HURTS INTHE SAND AND TOCARVE YOURBENEFITS IN STONE.THEY SAY IT TAKES AMINUTE TO FIND A SPECI

Bunchs Of Thoughts.. Hopefully Yall Get It. But Its Simply Me!
I am simply me. I am Ashley, a bubbly, fun, easy-going, carefree person. But then there are those times. I hAVe my bad days, bear with me. I have mood swings, but please dont swing back at me. I have times where nobody in the world can make me smile, but keep on trying. I am simply me. There are times when i want to cry, can you be there to lend me a shoulder? THere are times when i sit and think, will you give me advice, even if you think i am not listening? (cause i usually am.. even when you dont think i am.. but thats just ME) But the few keys to remember. No matter how sad i am, mean it seems like i can get. I am simply me. If i am a girl you like, keep on liking me. I wont be mad or sad forever. And you may be one of the people that can make me happy. I will always go back to the fun lovin, cares about everyone girl that i am. But most of all, will you be the one to hold me when i feel like my world is just a messy web of confusioin? Can you be there to hold me when the t

Sleep Deprived
I am waking up at the weirdest hour each morning. For the past 3 nights I wake up at 3:45 am each morning. What a way to start my day. I am getting a bit tired of this sleep pattern and may see a doctor about it. Probably will put me on some stupid sleeping pills. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh... I hate sleeping pills.

Its Valentines Day~
Its Valentines Day and I am at work.. As the day proceeds I get several emails from you very suggestive and full of love… A large bunch of red roses arrive with a card that says… “This is just the beginning I have plans for you tonight.. Your Master”. I cant wait for the day to end, the excitement building in me all day. I am wet and horny with anticipation. Finally its time to lock up and go home. You’re there waiting for me and lead me into the bathroom where a hot bubble bath is waiting. You tell me to strip for you as you watch.. I slowly take off my clothes peeling them from my body.. I get to my panties and you tell me to pass them to you. You notice they are wet and you sniff them and smile and say “pet you have had a good day I see, you better not have touched your self.” I assure you I haven’t. You then stand and let the robe you're wearing slip from your body to the floor and push it aside.. Your cock hard and throbbing in you

The Ballad
The Ballad Where the moonlight meets the waterOn a path of light,She was sitting on a river bank,Tears like diamonds sparkled in the night.She already knew without himLife could never be the same,When she heard his voice coming from below-He was softly calling out her name.Come with me,Join the waves at last;We will always be together,Just like in the pastCome with meTake the pain awayLet the river help us meet again todayFirst she thought that she was dreaming,As she looked in from above;To her mind then came his last dying words:“Someday we will meet again, my love.”Since the day his life was takenShe was living in the past.Now that Lord just gave her another chance,She will be with him again at last.Come with me,Join the waves at last;We will always be together,Just like in the pastCome with me,Take the pain away,Let the rive help us meet todayWhere the moonlight meets the waterOn a path of light,She was layng on a river bank,Weeping willows held her body tightShe alrea

When I See You
When I see youI feel like my heart has seen eternityI dream an escape from reality.But after a whileI feel like it's crushed through the walls of deathI realize that we've never really met.This pain seems stuck with me foreverBreathing the air that suffocates meIs the only way that I could ever be.This love that I bear stabs right through meMy knuckles bleed knocking through your doorThese are the only things that I ask of: Do you see me?Do you hear my pulse whisper your name?Sometimes I think it's so loud the fairies hear me rain...Echoeing to the darkest corners of the worldAnd you, not even hearing a word that i sayFor how long this will last, I could only guess. Poem by Tammy C.

Dad Teaches Daughter A Lesson
(Disclaimer: This story is about incestrial happenings and it is ONLY a story...and if you don't read past this.. I completely understand) Dad Teaches Daughter a Lesson "Ok, Dad. I'm going out. I'll be back by one o'clock," Sarah said as she walked ran down the stairs.Jack put down his newspaper and glanced at his daughter. "Wait a minute! What are you wearing?"Sarah liked to show off her body. She was wearing a black leather corset and silky, black skirt. Her long blonde hair bounced on her bare shoulders as she ran down the stairs. She wore her favorite thigh high leather boots, which she had worked all summer to be able to afford. At the bottom of the stairs, she paused and rolled her eyes at her father."Daddy, I'm 19 years old! You can't tell me what to wear anymore," Sarah whined. "Besides, I'm just going out with Charlotte.""Sarah, your outfit is ridiculous! You can't be dressing like a common whore and expect respect from any man.""Oh, Daddy," Sarah whined. She tu

Touch Me
Touch Me I see you ensnared by my curves As your will melts in my fire Come unto me now my love You will see what my wares inspire My skin like alabaster My scent fills the night air My taste the sweetest honey My lips are perfectly paired As my finger tips stroke your skin My eyes lure you into my lust

Moving Forward
It feels good to finally be free. To finally be able to go on with my life. Letting go has never felt so good. I have spent far too long living a controlled, stress filled life. I have finally woken up and realized who I am again. It feels good. Thank you to the people who have been there to help me get there.

Nihilist The Rainbow Nazi...
Nihilist: I am not putting up with a homophobe ->Nihilist: WAIT! ->Nihilist: thing a person can control - right? that dj might not even have a rational explaination Nihilist: he has got to go. that is really fucked up and making MDC look like a joke ->Nihilist: but there aren't hipocrates in there and i doubt the phobia is some Nihilist: it's the wallpper for the room not for the DJ ->Nihilist: yeah. it is, but each dj uses their own wallpapers...and i dont know which dj is Nihilist: i see MDC flyers in that basement and they are a very pro gay band and I heard there is a DJ that is a bigtime homopobe in there. that is really messed up ->Nihilist: ip ??? why didn't you simply state the reason for asking and you would get help setting up your own or designing the room or wtf ever Nihilist: hey, how's it going ?

[you Must Be This Tall To Ride...]
Man, I kinda stink. At least I think that's me.Anyway, uuuh what did I want to say here?*scratches his head*Oh, a cousin of mine (and I have a HIGH opinion of all [0%]of my relatives) asked me what happened with my last job and I explained that I was working 55-60 hour weeks for 2.50 an hour. Her comment was "eww welcome to the real world" I saidand I quotein front of her second bastard son "what fucking real world pays an american citizen 2.50 an hour?" I was being disrespected, underpaid, and underappreciated, so I denied them the gift of me as a good will ambassador from the american government. Now on to "what I want"... Which was why I started this blog- and I'll be honest. Still no fucking clue. I apped for a porn shop clerk position tonight, and I said to myself "man this will certainly further my goals and ambitions". I don't have a heart anymore. What keeps me up at night isn't heaving bosoms and sweaty thighs covered in chesty gasps I seriously don't give a fuck ab

To The Asshole That Rammed Into My Truck
slight chance of you reading this but we will meet again in court! not only did ur stupid ass total my brand new truck, u fucked me up too!!!!!!!!!!! and i thought id let you know how lucky u wher that that i wasnt able to kick your damn ass!!!!!!!!!!!! If i wouldnt of gottn a good hit like that i would of came out of my truck i would of made you shit your own teeth!!!!!!!! freakin retard!!!!! but it does do justice that you wont be to happy in the future knowing that you handled your cellphone and that caused you to hall ass into my truckyour luck i was the only one really injured!!!!!!!!! Fuckin idiot!!! A BIG ASS TRUCK and u totaled it , the frame is completly fucked up! do u even know how much force it takes to do that? could of been dead!and my luck the incomin traffic wasnt to bad otherwise i would of ran down the damn ditch into the creek! oh man u guys have no idea how pissed i am about this!!!! and my neck, shoulders and back is messed up. long termn shit on my neck

4/28/09 Fluffy Starr Blog
My disappointing behavior, and a New Vlog: "The Cute Bathroom" Hey! Good evening. Actually, good morning. Umm... So how is everyone? If you are reading this, you better answer. Or else, I'll hunt you down like a dog and snap your neck. So today (I guess yesterday) I went shopping with my good friend Jodi. I had a strong iced coffee Americano, and launched like a rocket. Right into shopping. I got some totally rad new gold Aviator sunglasses. The BEST shades in the whole entire world! I am thinking of going back and buying up the other pairs so nobody can have them. (I'm serious. I do shit like this.) I will post a photo or something soon. Also got yet another silly random t-shirt. Now I have 301 random t-shirts. I can't stop myself!!! It's a sickness! And....I got a pink purse. But, I am contemplating taking it back. Because I have enough handbags. But I'll decide over the week if I really really want it. I'm such a dufus, I can't even believe it. It can't be explained. I am kinda

Cousin Part 2
Well for the ones who are keeping up thank you! Just found out that my cousin is doing good and she is recovering very well at this time. Adult protective services let us know that my aunt will never be able to see my cousin again and that she is facing serious charges and is looking at another prison sentence. The APS told us that after 30 day evaluation we could go to court and take gaurdianship. We plan on doing just that too. We are going to bring her here to our town where she will be closer to her family and also to where we can see her anytime we want to. We are putting her in an assisted living home w/ppl like her so that she can interact and make new friends and be more independant! Im happy things are starting to look up and for the real friends who took the time out to read my other blog and say a prayer i thank you very very much!! I will keep you updated!

That Night
That nightYou watched a teardropslowly trace its wayacross my cheek.It hovered a momentat the tip of my noseas if to tease you and make you feel ashamedfor hurting me so badly.Finally it broke itself freeand came to a reston my soft pillowto join countless othersof its kind that you never knew existed.

From A Bulletin - Honor
I put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat down in my assigned seat. It was going to be a long flight. 'I'm glad I have a good book to read perhaps I will get a short nap,' I thought.Just before take-off, a line of soldiers came down the aisle and filled all the vacant seats, totally surrounding me. I decided to start a conversation. 'Where are you headed?' I asked the soldier seated nearest to me.'Petawawa. We'll be there for two weeks for special training, and then we're being deployed to Afghanistan .After flying for about an hour, an announcement was made that sack lunches were available for five dollars. It would be several hours before we reached the east, and I quickly decided a lunch would help pass the time.As I reached for my wallet, I overheard the soldier ask his buddy if he planned to buy lunch. 'No, that seems like a lot of money for just a sack lunch. Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks. I'll wait till we get to base 'His friend agreed.I looked around at the

Mom
Hey everyone! A friend of mine entered me into a contest on behalf of my son for mother's day. Please take two minutes, visit the page and vote. Be sure to enter in a valid email address. They'll send you an email to confirm your vote. Thank you so much for your help! Love, Lish http://www.phoenixflowershops.com/contests/Valleys_Favorite_Mom_2009/photos/index.cfm?entID=143

It's Time To Get Another Bad Girl In The Spotlight
I have decided to once again try to collect enough for SPOTLIGHT... So Heres the deal... If you donate 500k+ I will make you a morph & custom tag If you donate 1 Mil+ I will make you the above + a custom skin & a salute! Any amount is definately appreciated without a doubt and all will get a special gift! Thanks for your support! This Bulletin Was Brought To You By:ÇÚÐÐLÊ GØÐÐÊ§§

I Am Observant...knot
I can read. I can type. I can rhyme. I can cook. I can hear. Oooh Ooh I can SEE. But I am very slow with relaying my observations to that part of my brain that tells me something isn't what it appears to be. Well I am stealing a movie title here LOL I have come to observe and report! You can write whatever you like in your about me. You are only deluding yourself if you think that sums you up. Hahaha. Guess what...I think you are not who you wish me to believe you are. And guess what else....neither am I. So we are even *wink* Well I think thats enough about me tonight. Perhaps tomorrow I might have something more intelligent to say. *nothing I have said is personal or aimed at anyone in particular *giggles* just some random nothingness*

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What To Do, Where To Go From Here...
What to do, where to go from here. I might not have the perfect life but its perfect enough for me. I have great friends and a wonderful family that supports me in all that I do. I'm recently single and looking for that special somone. I thought I've had that special someone many times but I was wrong. I'm looking for someone to compliment me and someone that I can connect with on a real mature and romantic level. Someone to share the same interests with but still have a competitive edge to things. I love variety but at the same time, having a routine that works is good enough for me. Lately I've been running into old friends, making new friends and having my past come back to make me think about things going on in my life. The new friends that I have met, some think that I'm like the best thing that has ever happened to them while my other old friends that have come back, old feelings have come back as well. The new friends, new feelings have come up that I never knew existed. I want

End Of Heartache- Killswitch Engage
Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting This distance, This dissolution I cling to memories while falling Sleep brings release, And the hope of a new day Waking the misery of being without you Surrender, I give in Another moment is another eternity (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart You know me, you know me all too well My only desire - to bridge our division In sorrow I speak your name And my voice mirrors, mirrors my torment (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart Am I breathing? My strength fails me Your picture, a bitter memory For comfort, For solace (Seek me) For comfort, (Call

So True
The top 40 ways men fail in bed... take notes, all you Casanovas! 1. NOT KISSING FIRST. Avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones makes her feel like you're paying by the hour and trying to get your money's worth by cutting out nonessentials. A properly passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay. 2. BLOWING TOO HARD IN HER EAR. Admit it, some kid at school told you girls love this. Well, there's a difference between being erotic and blowing as if you're trying to extinguish the candles on your 50th birthday cake. That hurts. 3. NOT SHAVING. You often forget you have a porcupine strapped to your chin which you rake repeatedly across your partner's face and thighs. When she turns her head from side to side, it's not passion, it's avoidance. 4. SQUEEZING HER BREAST. Most men act like a housewife testing a melon for

The Devil's Dancer
"Make her one of us..." the goblin's voice hissed to the Devil's Dancer. Music flowed, past the darkness of the room, a luminous illusion that held out delicate hands and drew the unwary into a graceful duet. Twirling and swaying, thighs bending, hips curving so tightly to the illusion that the unwary became the luminosity. A fragile flame to comfort the Darkness coming. ... but of course Good triumphed in the end. Nobody knew for sure for awhile though. It came down to a matter of trust in the intrinsic nature of the one that had danced with the Devil. The Devil was driven away, a black coach pulled by a score of shadowy bete noires. The Sun shone again. .... And so it shall be in the heart of me. I chose to reject the temptation to join the ranks of the power mongers. The dotted eye and crossed tea teams. Surely you have seen them. Dealt with them. Perhaps you are one of them. I pity you. I pray for you. I forgive you, because my energy is to be used elsewhere. But I will not for

Saturday May 2nd - In Salem
Saturday NIGHT!!!!SATURDAY, May 2nd starting at 7 pm in SALEM, MAThe Pub Crawl Schedule:Finz - 7 - 7:45CAPTS (Pickering Wharf) - 8 - 8:45Dodge Street Bar & Grill - 9 - 9:45Lobster Shanty 9:45 - 10 (guzzle and go)O'Neill's - 10 - 11Rockafella's - 11 - CloseWe hope to see you all there. Get the word out. Repost this to your friends that you would like to join the crawl!If you have questions, send me a PM.Maybe I'll see you out!Jeff

*blah Day*
Once again, I've become numb to the feeling of emotion. Never again will I feel what I felt for him. The day he left this world, he took my heart and soul. I think that was my one true chance for happiness. It has now become a black hole tangled and intertwined with pain and guilt. Had I ever told him exactly how I felt, maybe he wouldn't have taken his life that day. He was the only person to make me feel like myself again. He was my best friend... I stopped by his grave on the way home from school... and all I could do was fall to my knees and cry. I miss him so much. :( Life just isn't the same without him. No more stumbling trips up the stairs to class while he's tickling me... no more late night phone calls just to let me know he was thinking of me... no more anything. Had he not been with her... he would have seen the truth... that I couldn't live without him... but I had to let him make his own decisions... and I had to put my hapiness aside for his sake. This my frien

Writing
a subtle difference between madness and realityhidden through vacant skiesfalling far from this deitychaotic deafening criesI can't make sense anymoreof this juxtapositionhearing your voice in colorseeing this face through the tasteI can't comprehend my transitionI think I've lost it this timethe bearings bore too looseI've grown comfortablewith this decorative decaydon't know which path I can chooseyour face bears the reflectionof my brickwall enclosurelike playing chicken with a freight trainthese boundaries are soon to breakooooh this light is dauntinga choir of screamsfighting the sandmans chicaneryinterrupting my dreamsI think I've lost it this timethe bearings bore too looseI've grown comfortablewith this decorative decaydon't know which path I can choosemy madness overwhelmed......I'm lost for you.........

Not A Two Way Street
i think its funny i have a friend on my friends list i wont give a name becuse iam not like that but anyways i was asking her what was wrong and she said that she really hate men now and i ask why she said its becuse they treat her like shit and never really talk to her only when they want to pretty much and thats when i told her oh kind of like what you did to me at the time when we use to talk iam not shock thats happens alot to me anyways what i think is funny alot of people on here men and woman alike say there looking for that special person wether it may be on here or offline if you dont want to be treat like a stuck up bitch like tons of people who act like it on here then start treating others the way you want to try walking in there shoes and no there is more to a person then there looks like there heart and personailty you may not have to like them but atlest respect them people of all races and ages still have feelings rember that

Randomness
I've often been the "It's complicated" status. It's usually not a good thing. I have this problem all the time, fortunately I trained it in classical music. I think this speaks for itself. And that should do it for now. :P

No More Bus
Well I finally have some wheels..No more bus for now..Oddly anough as I was riding to work I saw the busses I was taking and felt a little sad..I was no longer part of their community...Oh well life goes on...

I Expressed Myself
My father recently got a facebook account, so i've had to sensor myself on there. Yesterday, however, something happened that made me extremely angry. So I reset my status. My status was something along the lines of an asshole needs to go fuck himself and die or something like that. The point is, I cursed or cussed or how ever you want to say it. I was chastised by him for saying the words fuck and ass....I'm almost 21, I don't live at home, and I am an adult. I think my time has come to where I can say whatever the hell I want. Now, the reason I write this blog is cause I want to know why some words ("curse words") are bad, when words that mean the exact same thing are not. Since I can't say the word Fuck, then shouldn't the words Sex, Intercourse, and Making Love also be outlawed. How about the word Shit, well then the words Poop and Crap should be forbidden as well. How about Ass, well there goes the word butt. And the word Piss is just like Pee. I'm not saying that 8 year old

Deepest Condolensces To My Dear Friend
My heart goes out to my dearest friend, Tracie, who lost her mother today to a battle with cancer. This fight has been so hard for her, and I pray that perhaps now she will be granted much strength and support, like that which she has always shown to me in my hard times. She is the first friend I made here on lost cherry, and we remain the best of friends always. Please keep her and her family in your thoughts and prayers for me. Sincerely, Deb

For Those Who Know Everything...
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Break Ups
I thought our love would grow,but i guess that isn't so.I thought our love was vastTurns out it didn't last.I'm not sure what i didor what i could of done.I guess it was all in fun,the kind that always ends,you were the kind that always pretends.your love for me wasn't real,and im so quick to heal,your love was sure to grow maybe because someone else sowed,her name ill leave out of this,but you i will not miss.you have done me wrong,never treated me right,here comes another fight.I only tried my best But you loved your girlfriends chest.I gave you all i had theres nothing left aroundbroken branches and no sound.soon the seeds will bloom of another relationship hopefully not of doom.the sun is rising high theres a tear in my eye,I watch the last of yourempty lies blow away.away away away.

One More Thing!
I figured that once all this shit is over and know for sure they've gotten it all, I'm going to get a tattoo with the color for cervical cancer put on my neck with I Survived an won the fight! Let me know what ya'll think?

Redneck?
1.Have you ever gone muddin'? nope2.Have you ever lived on a dirt/gravel road? yes3.Ever been swimming in a lake or river? Nope. But I have been swiming in a pond4.Ever been to a bonfire party? No5.Have you ever driven a tractor? nope6.Have you ever been on a horse? Sure have, love it 7.Ford or Chevy? Chevy 8.Kissed someone in a pick up? yep9.Whats your favorite country song? I don't have one10.Ever done 90 miles per hour down a dirt road? no11.Worked / Lived on a farm? No 12.Been to a rodeo? uhhh, no13.Do you own cowboy boots? Nope. I did when I was in 4th grade though, lol. They were blue jean =/ 14.Do you have a cowboy hat? nope15.Have you ever said git r done?

Free Tats
so a roommate that is moving in with me works on cars and a tattoo artis as well and he is going to do some art on my body for free since i help him out with rent and things he is a pretty cool dude who had a fuck up life like i did some what the problem is iam not really sure what i want but since the size nor the color matter i guess i have tons to pick from i also plan on getting a few more pierceings i plan on getting my nipples done althought my friend had his doner and said his hurt like hell for a month i wouldl ike to know if that is true but i am for sure going to get my dick pierced in time

New Flavor Of Ice Cream
New Flavor Icecream!! > In Honor of the 44th> President of the United States , Baskin-Robbins Ice Cream has issued a new flavor, " Barocky Road .">>> Barocky Road is a blend of half Vanilla, half> Chocolate, and surrounded> By Nuts and Flakes.>>> The Vanilla portion of the mix is not> openly advertised and usually Denied as an> ingredient.>> The Nuts and Flakes are all very bitter and hard> to

*spanish Words Of The Day!*
1. *Cheese* The teacher told Pepito to use the word cheese in a sentence. Pepito replies: Maria likes me, but cheese fat! 2. *Mushroom* When all my family get in the car, there's not mushroom! 3. *Shoulder* My fren wanted to become a citizen but she didn't know how to read so I shoulder. 4. *Texas* My fren always Texas me when I'm not home wondering where I'm at! 5. *Herpes* Me and my fren ordered pizza. I got mine piece and she got herpes. 6. *July* Ju told me ju were going to tha store and July to me! Julyer! 7. *Rectum* I had 2 cars but my wife rectum! 8. *Chicken* I was going to go to the store with my wife but chicken go herself. 9. *Wheelchair* We only have one enchilada left, but don't worry wheelchair! 10. *Chicken* *Wing* My wife plays the lottery so chicken wing! 11. *Harassment* My wife caught me in bed with another woman and I told her "Honey, herassment nothing to me!" 12. *Bishop* My wife fell down the stair so I had to pick the bishop!

Relationships That Keep You Happy
To all my friends who have been through hell and back. Keep in mind the more your relationship is full of respect and love and open communication you will be very happy. If it is not then find a way to come to equal ground or just walk away from each other. It is not worth the pain and effort of running back to each other. Always remember that those who you let go and come back to you that it was meant to be. Do and don'ts: Do have friends of both sexs: This helps because you both will understand each other and able to have a healthy relationship Don't make everything about you: This is dangerous especially all you males reading this.. Never abuse or degrade who you are with. Even though it may seem fun at the time it will end you up in jail and possibly probation or more Do take the time and do something romantic: OMG yes this one is a major plus in there book. Number one way to keep the spark alive is to make her feel wanted and needed. You don't need game for this just give you

I Am I
Imagine if everyone communicated like they do online. Very open-minded; as if no rules apply. Granted some are just to stupid to behave appropiately and some be in here being provacative. The attention people feel too need or want is there own. I find, some conversations tend to be with nonsense and anoying. Flirting here & there. Assumptions are still high & unintended statements sometimes arise given communicating online is so black and white being read from one too another. As if in actual public meeting grounds people shy away from it all. If you've read any of my blogs before; you know a little about me. And at the same time nothing of me. My conversations coinside with substance and flirtational behaviors - being true to my flirty nature and just being friendly. Granted sometimes I assume as well: believing you might be a certain way by how you present yourself online. I can take the fault in that; I am human too. Being a guy that I am I think of alot of things too, I do my be

Update On Me....
so umm i'm back sorta.. got my own apartment...going to art school, work, and dating..so i'm doing great..staying busy and living my great life..partyin of course..lol but i'm back sorta...gonna check my shit and stuff on here...post pics..well if i ever level or get a vip..still dont wanna buy one..lol cheap..well now i got bills of my own..so not spending money on here..yea a no brainer...lol new pics:

I'm In Love
I'm In LoveIt seems like I've been in love foreverthere's times I feel like I have to have herI'm in love with so many things I don't know where to beginOK, I'm in love with her milky white skinI reach out to touch her hairI take a deep breath to smell her perfume in the airI'm in love with her delicious kissI'm in love with her sensual blissI'm in love with her touch that's just for meI'm in love with her joyful voice that always sets me freeI'm in love with her soul that's so bright and pureI'm in love with her smile that brightens my soul for sureI'm in love with her laugh that always lights up my dayI'm in love with her eyes that leaves me with nothing to sayI'm in love with the way she likes to playand if I don't want to, she will make me anywayI'm in love with a look that lets me know when I'm wrongI'm in love with a feeling that tells me I belongI'm in love with the way it feels to hold her in my armsI love being with her and all her beautiful charmsI'm in love with a time when

How Awesome Am I? Eh?
How awesome am I? Eh? I like throwing random "eh?'s around. It makes life that much more fun. Any whoodle, I've been bored and poking around Facebook. The quizzes on there get my award of randomness. I crack up at the pure and complete randomness of them *sighs* and yes, I am that easily amused. Oh and any whoodle will be my "word of the day" until I wake up tmrw and am less exhausted, lol. Back to what the whole purpose of this blog is... So I took this quiz titled "What Periodic Element Are You?" I loved the answer so much I had to share it with you. How awesome is THAT for you? I know, you're so lucky. Any whoodle, here it is: Emilie completed the quiz "What "Periodic Element" are you?" with the result Gold. You are true blue. You have the vibrant qualities of Helium but you are not superficial. Your qualities are real and very deep. You are loyal, trustworthy, ethical, all of the things a Boy Scout would be. You are of great value to those around you

Tired Of Bs And Games
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO START OR HOW TO BEGIN, BESIDES SAYIN' IM TO THE POINT WHERE I JUST WANNA GIVE UP AND GIVE IN AND DISAPPEAR FROM THIS LIFE... YOU OPEN UP YOUR HEART TO SOMEONE AND JUST TO HAVE THAT PERSON TAKE IT AWAY FROM YOU..TELLIN' YOU THAT THEY DON'T WANT THIS AND THEY DON'T WANT THAT... THEY WANT THIS AND THEY WANT THAT.. BUT YET YOU DO WHAT THEY WANT AND NOT WHAT THEY DON'T WANT AND THEN THEY GET PISSED AT YOU AND BLOW YOU OFF AND TREAT YOU LIKE SHIT, WALK ALL OVER YOU.. IT'S LIKE YOU CAN'T WIN, ALL YOU CAN DO IS LOSE... SO MY QUESTION I GUESS IS WHAT IN THE WORLD IS LOVE? THEY TELL YOU THEY LOVE YOU AND TREAT U LIKE SHIT! IS THAT LOVE? THEY TELL YOU THAT U ARE THE ONE, THEN LEAVE YOU HANGING!!! IS THAT LOVE? TELL YOU THEY WILL DO EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING TO BE WITH YOU, THEN ACT LIKE U AREN'T ALIVE, IS THAT LOVE? THEY SAY THEY WILL QUIT THERE JOB AND MOVE UP BY YOU TO MAKE IT WORK, BUT THEN IGNORE AS UR NOTHNG!!! IS THAT LOVE? I CAN'T ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS CAUSE

Yahoo Screenname
My Yahoo was hacked into and deleted... I no longer have my yahoo account - I lose ALL of my contacts... Anyone that had my yahoo screen name and wants it again let me know and i'll be more than happy to give it to you :)

Is Your Life Boring?
You Live an Exciting Life You are anything but a bore. You make sure that life is full of excitement. You have an adventurous spirit, and you don't like to sit still for too long. If you feel like doing something, you don't think about it. You just do it. There's no way you could ever live a boring life. There's too much to do and not enough time. Is Your Life Boring?

Just Kick Me, Whydontcha?!!
I should not have gotten up this morning, much less gone to work. I get to work and FIRST thing, I turn on all the computers. BAM! I got no internet. Which means I can't process anything! Sooo I spend the next 3 hours scrambling to get tech support (ugh). The guy finally shows up, dinks around with a few switches, and BAM! I got internet. Great! Wonderful! The guy leaves. 15 minutes pass. All of a sudden there is a HUGE thunder and lightening storm with wind gusts of 60 miles per hour! POURING down rain and hail, which is literally going sideways. then.... BAM! Electricity goes out. I'm in the dark, with 2 perplexed customers. I got nothin, no phone, no lights, and, now, DEFINITELY no internet. I finally said fuggit and closed up and went home. Fuck me crossways!! :P And how was YOUR day? Hmmmmm??? :D

Could It Be True
Could it be truecould these lonely nights finally be thruAs I've found my best friend to hold into the nighta sultry sexy lady that entices me with more then her sightHer laughter fills my heart with joyand one glance makes me feel like a teenage boyLike discovering how love makes his heart pound out of his chestall the while wanting to give nothing but the bestCould it be one in a million chancecould these butter flies continue to dance with each glanceAs I've found my hearts desire all in one placea tantalizing woman who I continue to chaseHer eyes tell me a sincere story listening to her revealing beauties decreeIts no wonder I am captured and entranced with everyday we encompassall the while knowing there is no greener grass

In Hostipal Again
sorry i havent been in contact much lately ive been hostipal since wesnday morning. i had surgery on my right knee again on thursday, but everything im hoping it will look out for the better. doing vidials, dressing changes on my sores, every 4 hours as needed so we are not sure how long i will be in the hostipal. i will do better as trying to keep all of u updated on whats going on. I love ya and miss ya and i hope to come home soon.

Vista: Virtual Instant Surveillance Tactical Application.
u decide , http://www.worldreports.org/news/213_failing_settlement_1st_may_its_war_g_10_warns VISTA: Virtual Instant Surveillance Tactical Application. This should come as no real surprise since the cynical spooks even assert this 'in-your-face' by advertising 'INTEL INSIDE', which says exactly what it means. More specifically, NSA have made great strides in this direction by having a back door built into Microsoft VISTA. Certain computers, especially those labelled with the logo of the 'fully collaborating' firm Hewlett Packard, have hard-core setups which facilitate the remote monitoring and controlling of personal computers by NSA, Fort Meade. We now understand that if you are using VISTA* you MUST NOT enable 'file and printer sharing' under any circumstances. If you say 'YES', so to speak, to 'file and printer sharing', your computer becomes a slave at once to NSA's master computers. DO NOT ENABLE SHARING.

Pissy
I am in a really shitty mood today. I woke up just angry and pissed off at everyone and everything. Nothing seems to be going right in my world and frankly, I just can't take it anymore. Yeah, yeah...bitch because I wrote an emo blog...but then ya know what...just don't comment and go on your merry way. I feel like bitching and whining today and this is my blog, so I can fucking do as I please.

Californication Interlude 2
the hotel .... we went in the hotel and the wydham was as always nice ... i have frequented nicer hotels all my life ... and this was special enuf to want things perfect ... besides a jacuzzi ummmmm yes pls ...we went to the room ... almost didnt make it .... couldnt stop touching and searching ... he closed his eyes for me and let me close mine and i slowly searched his face to memorize it in my heart .... when i am with him i cant stop the need to say over and over " i love you" and i have a strange habit of running my hand over his face top to bottom As my way of expressing it silently .. that light touch that comes from my heart tells hm all he needs to know ... he slides my hair from my face and by my neck when im sad or hurt or he knows i need his comfort and gentle touch ... we spent time learning each other and laughing ... smiles and hearts layed out for each other ... dedicated and in love ... u know that moment when the sex is sooooo good that ur body falls with shards o

North Carolina Bound
im weeping ... so sad and lost without him ....the man who checks ppl in said oh sweetheart did u enjoy california ... i said uhuh with the sound of my misery in my throat ... he said ull be back soon cause ur leaving ur heart here .. i can tell ... wise man ...i got on the plane and had some convos with other travelers and kept my sunglasses on ... so ppl souldnt see my eyes .... i tolerated the flights well and just envisioned being with him on a daily basis ... i got to RDU finally in NC and saw my daughter and smiled ... i missed my children and they missed me ... when i return to HIM it will be as a family .. our children ... jesse and matt and rebecca and yes even daniel... i stop and think bout our laughter and i am conforted .. he would be an offical southerner if while being intimate with me he whistled dixie ... omg he did ... was the cutest thing i had ever seen ... he is now a southerner thru and thru .... 267 baby woo hoo ... my lover my light my heart my soul my whole wor

Her Answer...
she was almost crying, but muttered out a "yes omg yes!" I told her I have had many and all had a portion of what I was looking for, but she was complete, Im such a lucky person to have met her... We went onto take pics of the Hollywood sign.... snuggling talking about the future what it intails, a lot of things need to happen, and all will happen, Im to go and help her move with her kids, set up a new home in Perris California... Set up work office, get the kids schools handled, but as strange as this may sound... Im so looking forward to being happy, I havent been for so long... I find myself daydreaming of her, smiling at the things we have done...looking forward to the things we havent done... When we arrived back at the hotel, we made arrangements to stay in watch a movie... she snuggled, and omg! she crashed on me..lol I woke her up and we whistled dixie for about three hours, then went to bed... mmmm I love her 3am touch Master time.... Went to Hun

Magic Number 69
Magic Number 69 My head between your thighsyour head between mineYes, you guessed it Magic number 69.An act so devilishTrying to please your friend.While theyre trying to please you.As you both climb to the end.Holding back the moansand letting soft screams outYes you are cumming.Its running down my mouth.Now its my turn to releasehot thickness on your chin.Lets just catch our breathAnd start all over again.

Men That Block U!!!!
I LOVE MEN that BLOCK U because they dont get their way!!!! ONE because U have a POOR QUALITY WEB CAM another because HE SAYS SOMETHING U take 2 HEART and a third because HE says HE IS SINGLE BUT ACTS MARRIED!!!!!!!!!

Proposal Condition
Kurt was going out with a nice girl and finally popped the question. "Will you marry me, darling?" he asked. Lisa smiled coyly and said, "Yes, if you'll buy me a mink." Kurt thought for a moment and then replied, "Okay, it's a deal, on one condition." "What is that?" Lisa asked. "You'll have to clean the cage," Kurt replied.

This Is Messed Up
Now how messed up is this, a friend of mine which i was talking to him yesterday was ranked a level 18 and within 10 minutes he was a newbie level 0. He went to the help lounge and guess they couldn't help him out. Im not sure what happened or went on but now he has to start all over again. Im asking for you all to please go by and show him some luv. If we all give him luv he should reach his level 18 within no time. He is a sweet and caring guy and its messed up that it happened to him. Please click the link below to take you to his page. Thanks for everyone that helps him out. He deserves it. http://fubar.com/user/2963702 phillipp@ fubar

Your Eyes
When I look into your eyes I see everything I see a long ago King Your eyes are open to me They are the true key They are the way into your heart and soul This I know I see you looking for the one day when you are right again with the world Just like every man looks for the perfect pearl You have been looking for me as I have been looking for you all my life And I have to sigh My search has been a long search And I pray that this poem works As you see me you look into my eyes And you see to your surprise It is me you have been looking for as well And it is as a crystal bell You reach out and take my hand And you pull me close to you to stand You pull me near And you whisper in my ear "It is you , My Queen! I have searched for you everywheres ." And you look into my eyes and just stare You see everything in them as i see everything in yours We see right down to the very core We see every pain , every hurt , every love we have inside of us And say a

A Good Hose
When you get a hose.. make sure its the correct size. It may not be long enough to meet your needs. If the hose doesn't work correctly.. trade if in for another. Test it.. just to be sure. A hose shoud work properly. And they come in assorted colors too! LOL.. just a point of view from a former Fire Dept. employee. SO sexy...

Hows This?
k so hows this for a shitty day, i get layed off work cuz i refused to work a 28 hr shift twice in one week. the company i worked for even refused to get us shitters on the sites were we on all night. THEn to top it off i cum home to a 3 day pay or quit notice and when i get ahold of the and lord to tel them i get paid on ZFriday an al will be well they tell me i got till 12am tomorrow night to move or they will evict me. They dont even want the rent. Well they got me by the balls cuz due to this economy i was late twice on rent and by law they can do just what they are doing. What a way to start the week huh? The only silver lining is that my parents have a one bedroom apartment on their property that i am gonna move into. Ugh so i'm movin back home an that sux but at least i get home cookin!

My Funeral
I have been thinking about my fureral lately and want a few things done. I want parts of my ashes spread in Yosemite, the Yellowstone and where my heart was the happiest Africa!! and for music I want empty saddles in the old corral, Amazing grace and African sky blue by Jaluka! I just want it to be some of the things I loved in life!! Am I right to plan things now or should I just let someone burn me and dump me in the back yard! that's it for now! it does not really matter anymore!!!!!!!

Why Is It....
Why is it that we are afraid to tell people how we truly feel? I mean is it really that scary to say I want to be with you? Are we afraid that we will lose the friendship? Or are we afraid to deal with the awkwardness that may ensue if the other person doesn't feel the same? Why do we have to make things so complicated? Are we cowards because of past heart aches leaving us bitter?

Happy Go Lucky! (please Read).....
Yesterday was my last external treatment, they all gave me hugs and said that I done a wonderful job.... Amanda gave me a ballon and wished me well with the rest of my treatments, I am just so glad thats over and done with, now tomorrow I have to go in for my 4th internal treatment and on the 7th my last chemo... Then I've got to go in on the 13th I believe for my last internal.... Whew I never thought that this would end however it's coming, I'm going to party like a MOFO...lol.....Anyways I do have to wait at least a few weeks before the swelling goes down in my twat until they know for sure they got it all in which case they better have after all the shit I've been through... Well I just thought ya'll would like to know whats been going on with me, so I'll let ya get back to whatever it is your doing have fun and take care.... Much love always from your friend Jaime!

My Daughters Graduation !!
I'm so excited !! I could piss on the floor like a lil puppy !!! Heading to Kansas Friday for my daughters graduation. She will be the first of my kids to graduate from high school. I am very proud of her for everything she has done. She has been working full time for 2 years now along with going to school and after this she is going to further her education and become a pediatric nurse. I am so blessed to have such great kids !!

Update
Well i've been away from the fu for some time now. And I figure theres a need for an update on me... Well when I first started on this site I never know i'd meet the man of my dreams. Shit what am I saying I never thought i'd meet the man of my dreams (That Bartender aka Jacques)ONLINE! let alone fubar lol. But I did and I couldnt be any more happy. I've made some really great friends on this site people that in due time I plan to meet in real life. One of my closet friends on this site is Fo0ly aka Tee shes more then a friend shes like a sister to me. We talk about everything from men to kids to imagine if's lol. She is by far the greatest person on this site, she doesnt put up with BS so dont try and bring that to her door lol. She has Fu Ninja Skills lol. Hmm gosh I cant believe that tomorrow i'll be 23 in October it will be 2 years I have been on this site crazyyyyy and I made Oracle before I jumped the fubar ship. Now im back and I really wanna make Angel.. so hint hint if u wa