seems to get me into trouble. I hate fighting with people.. or hurting people..etc.
I have always went through life trying to please others. I guess alot has to do with way I
was brought up. Parents were strict..and they loved me there own way but never showed it much.
I started that early at trying to please people..to be accepted.
Anyways.. Iguess i will have to admit.. i have always felt not accepted.. not enough. Some think its
because I bring it on myself. I am sure I do. I have a insecurity problem due to my history.
Anyways.. I am far from perfect. Not sure where I am going with this. All I know is instead of making
people happy I seem to get them hurt or mad lately.
Due to this.. I have decided I will not be getting on here much anymore..or not like i use to.
Friend told me I need to think of my needs..and fact is.. I thought I was when I got on the site.
I thought I was making friends..and feeling good about myself somewhat. but lately things have
changed.. no amount of attn can change me. I need to change. Seems like I am to busy trying to make
everyone happy and losing myself along the way.
If you see me lit up..dont expect me here the whole time.
I will be getting on enough to do the like /rate/ stuff and then be off.