Steve called me last night .. and i actually had a decent convo for once... i asked him when he was coming home and he said that he was thinkin about leaving this thurs..but that he was goin to take the bus/train and wouldn't be home til this sat... he is gettin a hotel room and wanted me to be able to spend some time with him. But i can't because i have to work til midnight on sat ... and go in at 130pm on sunday... he didn't like that idea.. wants to come home on a day where i have dayshift and the next day off... well that's not until tues when i get done work 430pm and have wed off.. so he's gonna have to stay down there in new orleans a few days longer but i think he can deal with it.
My mom said that i should encourage him to stay and i'm tryin .. but it's another 2 months they want him to stay there for training and i'm not sure if i could handle it ... i want him to so that he can advance in his career and better himself and his future.. esp if there's the possibility i'm gonna be in it.. you never know. But he misses his mom and his daughter.. and me and my daughter.. and he just can't take it anymore.
The thing that sucks is that he's not gonna tell the people that he is workin for down there that he's leaving.. he's just gonna bounce and i dont think that's right of him. I guess he's afraid that they are goin to convince him to stay .. and he doesn't want that.
He's also not gonna tell his mom.. he's gonna surprise her.. well she's full blooded columbian and i know she's not gonna be happy.. she wasn't happy when she came home and found me there one day and i know she's not gonna be happy with this. I'm wondering if i should call her and let her know what he's planning on doin? Maybe she could convince him to stay? I dunno!
I really do miss him and I'm not gonna lie, I do want him home.. he's been gone the majority of this relationship .. and i really wanna see how things would progress when we are together. I have stuck by him.. sometimes i doubt myself for doing it .. but i figured i would try ... I dunno what to do ..
my mom said that if i convince him to stay down there that she would watch dess for a few days so i can go visit ... but that's if he stays.. i dunno ... i need help and advice on what to do here!
