I'm just really pissed off... no wait upset! I got a phone call from my bf at 1am last night and i wasn't a good call... he's down in new orleans doing some training for work. He has no internet access so he can't check is myspace site or anythin... He gave me his password and told me to check it and let him know what the messages say. Well, being that i got out of a bad relationship in January where my ex just hacked into everything on the computer, I'm hesitant about doing shit like that, so i only log on when he tells me to.
The problem is that I have the password and everything saved to my computer. I didn't really memorize anything...well he wanted his password cause i guess someone was gonna let me use his laptop and well I had a hard time giving it to him.
Well because i couldn't, he was like, what good are you...You can't be my wifey cause you don't do anything to help me.. and just saying hurtful things like that. 1st of all, he woke me up at 1am.. i fell asleep at 11pm... he's lucky I even heard my cell phone enough to answer it... 2nd of all, he was in a bar so i know he had been drinkin a lil.
I'm just upset because he acted like I haven't been there for him when I have. I have stood by him the past 6 weeks he has been away.. done everythin he has asked me to do... and the funny thing is that we hadn't been going out long before he even left in the first place.
I really believed that the relationship could work and so i opted to do that for him. I opted to stand by him... I wanted to be there for him.. so he had someone to come home to.
You know, after i finally figured out the password, he hung up on me... I started to cry. He was threatening to break up with me and saying all these hurtful things.. I tried callin him back and he said somethin bout roaming charges and hung up on me again. So he couldn't even have the decency to call me to see if i was ok.
I dunno what the hell is wrong with me.. why do i stay involved with these kinds of relationships? I should have left him...someone that is not that appreciative of the things i do... i just don't know... I am beginning to see the possibility of a very controlling relationship.
Most of my serious relationships have been with controlling guys... I just got out of one in Jan. I dunno how much more i can take to be honest with you. I just would like to meet someone that treats me with respect... anytime i think i do, they end up stop talkin to me, or everythin just falls apart.
But for now i just am stuck.. I love the guy to death but i don't wanna be treated like shit either. He will be home in two weeks.. we are gonna have a convo and if things don't straighten out then i'm gone. I can't deal with this anymore!
