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I really need some help friends... i have no idea what to do with this situation.. right now i'm crying hysterically because i can't find anyone to talk to about what's goin on .. and i just figured i would write a blog to tell whats goin on and hopefully get some feedback...I'm prayin to find a solution because i dont know how much more i can take. You see the problem is that i haven't dealt with my ex greg in about 4 months. All of a sudden today i get an email from him on myspace... He had deleted his old one i guess.. i dunno cause i havent heard from him in a long time.. well he's saying shit like im gonna tell steve( guy im seeing) what kinda person i am.. and that my mom is crazy.. just stir up a buncha bullshit. You see, he doesn't wanna see me happy.. swears to God i did everythin under the sun to hurt him.. when actually he hurt me so badly i wasnt even sure i wanted to get in a relationship with someone new. From day one of me and greg's relationship, he hacked into my myspace site ... had a holding on me from the beginning .. I ended up deletin my site 5x in the 8 months we dated because of his hackin he did ... then he ended up workin on my computer in the summer time.. which i later found out he had disabled my firewall and put a tracker on my computer.. so he knew everythin i did on the internet seconds after i did it. I was constantly being confused of hiding shit from him when he never even gave me a chance to open my mouth.. if i said hi or talked to a guy friend of mind, he would be emailin me about it a few seconds later... No lie this wa pure hell. I was constantly being accused of cheating on him, lying to him... just screwing every guy friend i had.. he even made up this bitch tiffany who was supposed to be his ex's sister. She emailed me constantly, calling me awful names such as slut, whore, bitch, you name it.. i was called it ... this was throughout the relationship. Come to find out that when the relationship ended, he confessed that she was fraud.... what kind of guy does that to the girl he supposedly loves? .. someone that is sick and twisted... thats who. Anyways, let me tell you somethin ok... I was not a cheater... i didnt fool around with anyone... I was with him the majority of my time.. when i wasn't i was with my mom/daughter or at work.. I dont drive... dont go to bars/clubs... when the hell was i gonna find time to whore around..NEVER! I'm glad he thought ofme that way... nice eh? Don't you think? Oh there was one time at work where i was having probs with a coworker that was sexually harrassing me... i told greg about it in hopes that he would do somethin .. like confront the guy or somethin as some loving caring bf would do. You know what? He accused me of leading the guy on .. having sex in the stockroom. OMG! I would never in my life do somethin like that ... i am in management and i have better class then that ... BUT according to him, I'm low life scum. I also forgot to mention that after we broke up in jan... he placed a virus on my computer where i couldn't access programs like myspace or aim. He simply didnt want me talkin to anyone, or meetin anyone new. I found this out by gettin the state police involved.. and i tried for a restraining order to which the judge laughed in my face... I was stressing .. was really thinkin i was the worst person on the planet... he had me believing i was low life scum. Anyways, i met steve on mysapce, and it took me 3 months of talkin to him to make up my mind i wanted to be with him... I wasn't sure i wanted a relationship and it took me almost losing him to decide that this is what i wanted... and now that i have been with him for 2 1/2 months and have been happy, greg is gonna ruin it. He hacked into my site again.. I texted him sayin to leave me alone... and he said that he was gonna email steve about me... and tell him these things that aren't true.. he doesn't wanna see me happy.. wants to make my life hell... and he said paybacks,.... paybacks for what.. i never did anything to him. I was really fucked up cause of him.. to the point where i dont care... and knowing that he hacked into my site again just stressed me out all over again. I tried to get hold of steve... tellin him what he's gonnna do.. and that he should delete his site and that i was gonna delete mine.. steve actually made me feel like shit on the phone a few min ago.. basically sayin it's my fault... I HAVENT SPOKEN TO GREG IN 4 months.. today out of theblue he did this to me... I don't want the bastard in my life... ive been avoiding him. And because of him, I'm gonna lose my relationship.. I'm gonna lose out being happy... I'm just gonna be a miserable bitch... Somethin im not .. I just wanna move out of NJ... wanna move on with my life.. wanna get him out of my life... i wish i never met him and i'm sad to say that i did love him alot ... he's hurt me beyond anyone ever could... and is still hurtin me no matter how i try to ignore it ... I love steve with all my heart but i really feel that im gonna lose him in the end... I really am starting to feel like no one is gonna wanna deal with this and i'm gonna be alone... I fuckin hate it .. and oh look.. i'm in hysterical tears again!
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