OK here it is.
What does that little piece of paper mean when it says you are leagally married?
First off does it mean that your spouse is not going to cheat on you ? NO
Does it mean that they are not going to rip your heart out ? NO
now that is out of the way let me explain somethings that are true with or without that paper.
Every morning when i wake and every night before i fall asleep i think of my love.
thoughout the day i constantly think about her.
When she says the simplest things i am instantly smiling
when she tells me she loves me i get a goofy grin and this feeling that i just can not describe
that she is my best friend and i can tell her anything and the same goes for her talking to me.
That i have unconditional love for her i accept her as is as she does for me also
that she completes me as a person and my soul
without her i would be lost
that i plan on being in her life for the rest of mine how ever long or short that may be. ( i am hoping fo the long part so i can irratate the shit out of her when im 100 )
that i see her eyes and i see a caring and loving and compassionate person that i could spend the rest of eternity with
that i would not change a single thing about her nor would she want me to change
that she always has the best timing to pick my spirits up
that cute little sound she makes when she is sleeping it is just so damn cute
the fact that even asleep we tell each other I LOVE YOU
the fact that we both want to take our time
now this is a short list as i am not good at explaining my feelings but i have all these things without marriage. Yes at some point i would hope that we are living with each other but that is not going to be next month give me a break. But does that mean we will love each other any more just because we are married no it does not. Would i give up my life for hers yes i would. None of these feelings will change this is not some whim of a thing. Becaus eof the distance it has forced us to get to know one another for the people that we are without the physical distractions that so many people let in the way of a relationship in the begining. And what some people would call the worst part which i do not see it as that but when i go to visit i dont care if all i get to do is hold her.
Back on point i found thru 3 marriages that little piece of paper did not make things better, nor keep them from cheating, nor being abusive. If that is what happens when you get married to hell with it i will live in sin and be happy with living with my love. Hell i would even do the ring thing just to keep people away but in the end it is just a ring and that is for other people.
So what i am saying is that I LOVE so much what woudl a silly piece of paper make better about it.
Love You
later all
