What am i to do while being away from home?
It seems i cannot even win when i am in the right, Over the weekend i fought with my wife and due to her fears of things told me we needed a break, only to find out there had been an old family friend involved.
By family friend i mean hers, Not mine. I told her i wanted him gone from her life i could not stand the thought of him around, And then later on she tells me it was more her fears of all this and not so much the friend.
She said for a moment he looked like an easy way out, But came to the decition that she was too in love with me to ever do such a thing, But should there of even be the need of the decition?
Married is married, and she said yes but you are away and i am lonely , it was only a split second and nothing happened. It was not like she for that split second gave in. I said i had not cared i did not trust it, she then told me to say that meant i did not trust her.
And that if i trust her then i will trust it will never happen again, And that she has intentions of coming and joining me for the duration of my time away from her, which excited me yet i know i have probably till the middle of april before such things are possible.
What will happen between now and april i have no idea. I trust her with all my heart and soul but my lack of trust in males makes it all the harder as well.
I told her i trusted her because i do, And so come the end of the week she intends to return to her sisters to see her family further until she is to leave for NY where i have arranged time away to get her and bring her back with me.
So i have to hold out until april, or until the snow all melts, Which ever comes first. Who knew to be away so long would turn all this in such a way.
I pray between now and april nothing bad happens... I do not honestly think i can take much more.
