id like to leave you all with something to think about tonight... this is me.. thinking outloud again.. always a dangerous idea...
but so im talking to a girl... we'll call here - amordea =) i was talking to her briefly about her pics.. and how it saddened me seeing pics of people so in love.. well - that is, if shes in love now still.. who knows - emotions are fickle ever changing things - hopefully she is... but the point is.. it got me to start thinking of a great song by morrissey 'unloveable'... the lyrics are..
'i know im unloveable... you dont have to tell me.. i dont have much in my life.. but take it its yours..
i know im unloveable... you dont have to tell me.. oh. message recieved loud and clear..'
great tune... but the funniest thing about that song is... you can sing it - even when people are dying to have their love reciprocated (returned) from you.... even when there are 5 girls waiting for you to finally fall in love with them... you can feel 'unloved'... because the one girl you want to love you.. doesnt..
its amusing to me.. and sad the way people are.. the way we can be like that --- that someone is practically begging to be with you.. and yet.. we are selfishly sad.. because theres one person we want.. and they wont take us.. and we can actually sit and feel 'unloveable'.
now keep in mind.. i dont actually have someone im trying for... was that too much info.. ? i love many girls on here as friends.. and i want them .. but no.. im not in love with anyone at this moment.. but i remember love - especially when i see people in love.. and i miss it. as much as i hate it.. i miss it..... as much as i think its a futile illusion... as much as i think theres no true love..... i still miss it. i miss pretending that there is. even if its only momentary - love.. is great while it lasts..
nite all.
