first let me say - this is the darkest most negative little 'poem' ive ever written - it was written a couple years ago -
and now i give you
'mr confidence'
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i am like...
a billion fucking people youve never ever met
i am
the upper 1% the eschelon of human brokenness...
i am
the hallmark of intelligence used for its most ignorant ends
i am
mr. confidence
i do not censor
i dont remove
i worship the purity of the crude
i am an absolute mistake
a wasted truth thats developed and grown
more warped and wrong
each and every day
and i am
a carbon copy thats degraded
faded into a black and dirty smear
as worthless as anything else youre likely
to have the misfortune of hearing here
and i...
will fuck you for the joy of knowing i fucked you for the joy of knowing
i will never love you
i will never be the one that wakes up in the morning
with a smile on their face
i will only be the one that wants to escape
to get out of this place
and make a bed in my own undoing
find a room that i can rot in
that i can ruin
without you looking on in distaste
i can only face this alone
and i am
most assuredly the worst that could ever happen...
an antiromance romantic filled with disenchantment
a sickened blighted negative emo kid
whining like a little faggot
a drama queen - a chauvanist feeding off of misanthropy
a purveyor of filth and madness
a fragile black magic neer do well
a manic lattice work of eratic slanted and stubborn lines
bleeding together into something altogether indifferent
and i ...
couldnt give a damn if i ever gave a damn
and you wouldnt get me to admit to it even if i ever have
but i couldnt help but see
that somehow you think you feel the same as me..
and no
that doesnt make us the same
it just makes you a vane asshole that thinks
that somehow they can connect
with someone that cant connect with anything
and what the fuck is wrong with you
is not whats wrong with me
what the fuck is wrong with you
is not whats wrong with me
i am
mr.confidence
