lux's blog: "lyrics (to my songs - theyre on my page)"

crazy to think we could ever be anything anything anything at all given that we're all so small - so weak so pitiful we try to believe maybe someday we'll be somethin more than we are yet we know in our soul thats not logical the truth is frightening - dissapointment surrounds and our happy ending keeps getting more unlikely did all the suffering did it mean a thing? why would we try so hard if we knew it was just another fucking fleeting beating of the heart? theres a place in my chest where my heart use to rest the empty space where you use to be everyone knows - i can get out of this hole but can i get this hole out of me swear to god no ones been so broken sometimes i think im dead with my eyes wide open if theres anything i ever told you anything that means anything at all its that your right and you can be anything anything you- everythings gonna be alright everythings gonna be alright everythings gonna be alright everythings gonna be alright swear to god no ones been so broken sometimes i think im dead with my eyes wide open

Desperation - oh wont you tell me what its like cause its not like id know nothin bout being lost and tossed aside my mind racing - endlessly pacing - i just cant believe ive wasted all my life - on cold hearted liars on people who dont give a damn - whats inside you inhuman excuses apathetic and clueless they live to break you down - because youre alive and they fear it they can rip my fucking heart out - but theyll never break my spirit come on - you will never break my spirit - come on maybe its just me - tryin for something i'll never be maybe its obvious - but its just somethin i'll never see tell me its a dream - oh tell me its just a lie had the weight of the world running through my head - ever since - the day the music died but i just cant believe - its come down to this searchin for a glimmer of hope - in this pile of shit its taken all my life just to know - that i am better off on my own god how i hate you fucking all. oh desperation - why dont you tell me what its like ever get the feeling that your hands are tied like life's caught ya in its teeth and its just shakin ya side to side like a feeling no drug could kill - like a vision of hell well they say - that they - can always tell the smell - of desperation all my life - spent on cold hearted liars on people who dont give a damn- whats inside ya inhuman excuses self absorbed and useless they live to break you down - because youre alive and they fear it they can rip my fucking heart out - but theyll never break my spirit come on -you will never break my spirit - come on maybe its just me - tryin for something i'll never be maybe its obvious - but its just something i'll never see tell me its a fucking dream - a hoax a joke - tell me its a lie nothins made a fuckin bit of sense -ever since - the day the music died and i just cant believe - its come down to this searchin for a glimmer of hope - in this pile of shit its taken all my life just to know - that i am better off ALONE cause i hate.. i hate i hate - oh god how i hate you fucking all.

where are the dreams we were promised? well you dont.. have to wait anymore i made my final decision they wrote my name in... this covenant now ill rip the stars right from the skies like shadows of gods we'll wake up beneath our dead sun to reclaim what was ours all along what they deny us.. will make us theyve chained us to what they believe but ive always known i was the one to release you from the endless anticipation well you dont have to wait anymore but you better start praying be my addict ill be your heroin be my habit ill be your oblivion be my addict ill be your heroin be my heaven ill be your sweet oblivion ive walked the lie backward until the lie was the answer until id proven what i always knew was wrong i burnt the ends to open i cauterized the omen i pulverize the diamonds back to coal i suck the light out of every miracle be my addict ill be your heroin be my habit ill be your oblivion be my addict ill be your heroin be my heaven ill be your sweet oblivion what do i say to escape being nailed here until it makes sense until i have some evidence of a human being beneath this well what you deny us will make us where are the dreams we wer promised where are the dreams we wer promised where are the dreams we wer promised well you dont have to wait if youll be my addict ill be your heroin if youll be my habit ill be your oblivion be my addict ill be your heroin be my heaven ill be your sweet oblivion

set me free - how long can a soul hold on? whats it take, i feel strong but i break so easy let me go - i know i got so much to give but they suck every gift they endlessly bleed me and i - i dont think that sorry is enough i - i cant take this much thoughtlessness and ignorance thoughtlessness and ignorance it was people like you people like you that killed christ in the valley of killers and stars where the demons play the part of the saints and the ones that will save us from all the demons they made in our hearts this foul eden foul eden we find ourselves in some catastrophic antithesis of everything we were envisioning the money is spent the fruit has been eaten the leftover core is this foul eden set me free - i know i could have been so much more but life treats you like a whore you swallow the dirt til nothing quenches the thirst anymore well what the hell did you expect me to shut up i guess well save your breath that hasnt happened yet this wont be the first time believe me cause i - i dont think that sorry is enough i i cant take this much thoughtlessness and ignorance thoughtlessness and ignorance it was people like you people like you people just like you that killed christ

this beautiful but stupid world has had its ugly way with me its cut me down and chewed me up and subjected me to every indignity we shoulda sterilized em wherever we found em cause the planets paralyzed with the idiocy the streets are flooded the maggots overruning the earth a viral spiraling curse corrupting everything it touches well talk is cheap - but not my sympathy ive cut my ties with humanity and ive come to set it all straight to expose the secret wish of us all cause im through im through with the crying and im done denying myself im through agonizing im done apologizing this is where it all ends cause ive been buried up to my neck in it ive swallowed it and wallowed in it til i couldnt take another breath ive bought it and sold it now im just sick to death all i got was nothing more than an infection and the only cure for the condition was to settle the score you better believe you better believe beautiful stupid world beautiful stupid world youll wish you never fucked with me this beautiful but stupid world that kicks at a man because hes down it heaps its cheap injustice on us all it rewards the worst and it damns the best it imprisons the innocent while promoting the rest but the day is coming faster than theyre running and thats why i ask can you hide from the stars from whats inside from who you are dont deny whats in your heart you know it as well as me see we all we have the same wish we all - we just want justice this is more than i can contain and when it comes ill gloat and just watch it all decompose and say never again chorus this beautiful but stupid world its going down its outta luck its bad enough we dont need to see how deep and dark it all can be its dragging us seen better days thats why i say its overdue for a miraculous ice age the stage is set and in the end revenge is the secret wish of us all