Unicorns TearsIronezzz Lady's blog: "unicorne tears and stone dragone"

a long time ago.. what a long time ago since illusions were lost shattered by lifes brutal way sometimes when i am drowning in pain and tears bring no relief anger bearing down pushing me deeper into the darkness to the edge of madness to the abyss i am either going to drown in sorrow or soar thru the clouds watching butterflies dance amoung the flowers, neither here or there just being but until that decision is made i shall dance along the edge of what is my life and think of the lil angels and not so lil angels that have blessed my life and bring the tears to an end by accepting me and my flaws, to learning of a new world and the possibility of a brighter future... another dance, another dream, another day, another time with you........

what do you do when you realize it just isn't worth it when the pain is just to much and what joy there was, is drown in tears what do you do when you keep searching and never finding what you are looking for or what you thought you wanted is not what it seems what do you do when you watch someone drift away and you have no control no way to bring them back what do you do when you know someone loves you with all they have and you simply do not love them back what do you do when struggle to take that next step because you are so bone weary that breathing hurts feeling so alone without a center blowing on the breeze and praying to find solace in the angle in your arms sleeping so peacefully true joy, true love, complete, and childlike to be carefree, to see life from three feet high and your biggest problem is finding duck before bed to feel so undeserving of this precious gift so torn by my heartache fear and helplessness tears fall as they always do a little bitter torn and sad and yes ultimately grateful to have him atleast and him i will protect my own lil dragone

once upon a time a stone dragone was by this unicorne's side i never felt any fear but alas the stone dragone found another place he would rather be and i was yet again left alone to slay my other dragons by myself and slay i have all of the most precious gifts of friendship and love have come from my soldiers and though they are not mine in every sense they are still my soldiers a wolf to guard my door and keep preditors out an infintry man to make sure i was never alone on those special days fast car, and shooting guns, self defence to protect my self my body builder to be my rock in the storms to pick me up when i need it and to make me laugh at the everyday things my soldier to remind me to let loose and have fun and relax, relaxing is something i don't do well and yet my stone dragone somewhere near my heart reminding me to be to true to myself, to find that part of the unicorne i have believed lost but just maybe buried beneath the pain i have yet to deal with the tears flow at the pain caused by each at some level demanding something from me in return some words, some action. and yet i demand the most from them for these five i still trust to protect me and one to love me maybe finally if i let the self doubt go just maybe i will be happy just maybe i will be free but illusions and memories blend together with the wind dancing around me forcing me to the ground and as the tears fall to the ground vision blurry i see the wolf the protector i see the inifintry weapons loaded, ready to kill, my body builder to carry me from danger my soldier to love me and my stone dragone to whisper the truths even when i do not want to hear them these will keep me safe to see another morning when the tears stop flowing and i can see again * for the record, ty dragone, for always searching for me, god bless you and yours