what do you do when you realize
it just isn't worth it
when the pain is just to much
and what joy there was, is drown in tears
what do you do when you keep searching
and never finding what you are looking for
or what you thought you wanted
is not what it seems
what do you do when you watch someone
drift away and you have no control
no way to bring them back
what do you do when you know someone loves you with all they have
and you simply do not love them back
what do you do when struggle to take that next step
because you are so bone weary that breathing hurts
feeling so alone
without a center
blowing on the breeze
and praying to find solace
in the angle in your arms
sleeping so peacefully
true joy, true love, complete, and childlike
to be carefree,
to see life from three feet high
and your biggest problem is finding duck before bed
to feel so undeserving of this precious gift
so torn by my heartache
fear and helplessness
tears fall
as they always do
a little bitter
torn and sad
and yes
ultimately grateful
to have him atleast
and him i will protect
my own lil dragone
