YEA BEEN DOING ALOT OF THINKING HERE LATELY. LOT OF THINGS HAS COME TO MY ATTENTION. ALSO LOT OF THINGS HAS CLICKED IN MY HEAD.
MAKES ME WANNA TRY NEW THINGS DOING THINGS FROM A DIFFERENT PERSPECT OF. TO SEE HOW THINGS GO. TIME TO DO THINGS AND MAKE DECISIONS AND NOT CARE WAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THEM CAUSE ALL MY LIFE I HAVE ALWAYS WORRIED BOUT WAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK.
IF I ASKED SOMEONE SOMETHING AND THEY SAID THEY DIDNT LIKE IT OR THIS OR THAT I WOULDNT DO IT THEN IN THE END IM ALWAYS THINKING DID I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION TO PASS THAT UP AND ALWAYS IN THE END IM THE ONE HURT ONCE AGAIN.
SOMETIMES I FIND MYSELF STUCK IN THE MIST OF THINKING AND EVERY TIME I ALWAYS CRY I HIDE MY PAIN I HIDE MY FEELINGS. AND IM TIRED OF THAT NO ONE KNOWS HOW I FEEL PEOPLE CAN FEEL DEPRESSION OR FEEL STRESSED BUT NOT LIKE ME.
i could set here and right a book on how bad i feel on how hurt i feel inside but it wont do know good cause id hear the same response from everybody,
i hide me fear and i hide my pain not sayin oh so well but good enough that no one knows. so good know one can tell if its a real smile or a cover up smile.
but for now that is al i have to say.
