I'm pretty sad tonight. One thing about the internet that's always difficult for me is that I get emotionally attached to people. And interests shift, and those relationships disappear. People move on, leaving me behind, wondering what happened. Unfortunately, I'm the loyal, loving type. And "friends forever" and words of affection and loyalty don't seem to mean the same to others as they do to me.
For the record, I don't think there's a problem with me, or my personality. When these things happen (which is all the time), I am sad, depressed, and lonely, but I don't view it as a reflection on me, but rather on them. But somehow, that doesn't always make it easier to bear when people disappear, or ignore me, or move on.
It was brought home to me today that someone I care a lot about just ... isn't thinking of me as important anymore. And someone else who was once the main focus of my life has completely disappeared. Sometimes such things just get overwhelming.
So, I'll be better soon, but I'm sad tonight.
