" The Wonder"
You love being around her. Does she know it? You try to force a smile on your face whenever you see her because it makes her face light up and smile with you. It's the one simple joy in your life that makes everything else that seems to go downhill so quickly go away. Anytime you see her frown it tears through your soul and if ever there was a tear you want to attack the thing that could hurt her this bad. You've felt this way for a while now and never let it show. You hold it in because of what might happen. She is an awesome person and the best of friends. You enjoy all the time you spend with her, but this you've all seen before. You see the old cliche is that you have to be great friends with someone before you want to be with them...... OK let's go with this idea... last time you watched as they went through hell with their BF/GF's and watched them be torn apart. You helped them through the rough times and eventually got the friend that you knew back. You were there with them when one of their firends/family died and comforted them through the sorrow. You took them out on their birhday, made sure they got a Christmas gift and when they wanted to hang out you dropped anything you had planned and jumped at the opportunity.
How could they not see?? Why didn't they recognise what was in front of them the entire time? If they did, why didn't they act on it? Was it you or was it because you "were to good of a friend." Now wait a minute wasn't the original statement that you should should be best friends before starting in the relationship? So what went wrong? You did everything you were supposed to. The problem was that you were living a more mature and disciplined lifestyle and trying to start a more mature relationship. They weren't ready, not you.It hurt you, but you learned someting very important. You'll never obey the lesson you learned, but you learned never to completely gie ou heart to someone when they haven't given you theirs. Like I said you'll never obey your brain but that's what you've learned.
Life is full of little lessons like these, but will we ever "Learn" to not put ourselves in this position? For guys like me? No. We are a very emotional breed who's livesare full of passion. Our jobs, our hobbies, our relationships, and most of all our love. It is the most prized of all human emotions but something that we give out in handfulls. Will we ever learn? Who knows, but we will always be there for you.
