It's that feeling that you get at the bottom of your stomach. There's something that rips and tears at every fiber of your existence. All at once you're terrified, exhillerated, afraid of what might happen, and curious about "What if?" What if something happened? What if nothing happened? What if it went away? What if it was permanent? What if things went the way you had planned? What if nothing goes as planned? What if this isn't anything like I had imagined? WHAT IF?
There's also the question of "Why?" Why did I choose this? Why did I do this? Why am I trying to make this something so exciting when it scares the hell out of me? Why did I take this turn? Why do I want to do this? Why is everything so twisted and confusing when all I want to do is this one simple thing? Why would this happen to me? Why did this happen to me? WHY?
One more question you might want to ask is "When?" When did I get in to this? When did my fate get decided? When does everything come into focus and all of this make sense? When will I know? When will they know? When is it going to happen? When will it all be over? When should I try? WHEN?
I'm not talking about drugs. I'm not talking about smoking/drinking or anything that might alter you in a false way as a person. I'm not talking about stunts, or risks that you might take in your life. It's not skydiving, cliff diving, or any X-treme sport. I'm talking about one thing and one thing only in life. It's love. God's greatest gift to man. It's also his most confusing, charritible, underappreciated, and misunderstood gift. It's all 3 questions that are listed above, and the final, most important question. is "WHO?"
Who will be the one sharing this gift with you? Who wil be the one you decide to give it to? Who will in return give this gift back to you? Who will decide to express it 1st? Who will decide to say it 1st? Who decides who we love? Who wants to feel that feeling if it's been torn out of your hands, once, twice or even more times from you.
Actually, that last question is simple. It's everyone. From the bum down on the corner, to the billionaire in the biggest house, with the nicest cars. Everyone needs to feel God's greatest gift in their life. It's love. It's his gift to you and me and we should Cherrish it every single moment of our existence. Don't let it pass you by, and be damn sure not to take advantage of it when you got it.
