Toga's blog: "My Poetry"

My Heart it is my treasure, That I have given away. I've never been able to conrol it Or will my love to stay. My life's been like a rollercoaster, With many ups and many downs. There's so many things that I remember With smles and with frowns I've had lots of times with joy and laughter, And good times with many friends. But the thing that strikes me hardest, Is my loves that always end. My heart it has been shredded, It has been ripped, and has been tore, But spending time with someone special, I can't help but want it more. It's a pain that just gets larger, As I grow older on my own. I want to have a wife, a family, A place that I call home. Lately it's been harder To sit and wait it out, But one day I know that she'll be there, The one I've been without.

There's something very different, about the way that I view life. The way that I view love and relationships, And how I deal with strife You give your trust inherently, and try not to change the person they are. You don't ask them to be different, From their dress down to their car. They are who they are till they die, and that will never change Their life is in their friends and their family, That's something they'll never exchange. If you don't like the person the way they are, Then keep yourself away, Because if you try, and fall in love, Your heart will want to stay. Now when it comes to fighting, what's the point in causing harm? Are you intellectually unintelligent, comparable to an animal on a farm? If you can't sit an talk about it, and have a mature conversation. Then go back to a cave and grab a club, You don't belong in our generation. I'm really sick and tired of the people, who don't like responsibility. Use that little thing between your ears, or at least that general vicinity. Your life is up to you to live and you only get one chance So walk the line and keep your faith, it's up to you to learn the dance.

To leave something as "Meant to be" It's never quite confirmed. Your heart gives out, your body hurts And it feels your soul is burned. You feel as if your mind gives out You're blinded by your fears. You hurt so bad, you just give in And then you shed your tears. Somtimes you see right through your faith And realize it will end. You pray it never happened But it happens over again.

You're not quite ready for it And it happens really fast Your mind takes off, begins to spin Like a race car in a crash Your eyes are now wide open And you're liking what you see It surprises and amazes you Your heart is finally free There's nothing to hold you back But the fear that burns inside You're still feeling all the pain Of the last time that you tried You let your guard down once again And you dive into that world Your passions back, your chest's on fire Your love has been unfurled. So here you are in life's unknown The gift, of all, that gives You want it and you need it It's the reason that you live.

Why am I so lonely, when I'm surrounded by my Friends? They love me, and they would die for me. They are with me to the End. They are the there for all the good times, and embrace me in the bad. They are as close to me as family, and for their kinship I am glad. The cold that's buried inside of me, is hidden very deep. They have hardly ever seen it, but if they do, they start to weep. They say that I'm a great person, and say that I should wait, But damnet I'm so lonely, I can't keep going at this rate. See, once I gave my heart away, and I've fought to get it back. My soul was torn, my mind was swept, my life was thrown off track. My friends were there to pick me up and put me on my feet, But there was something missing, my life was incomplete. She's out there somewhere waiting, but I'm to blind to see, The One that got put on this earth to set my spirit free.