Kassidy's blog: "Stupid Poems"

Have you ever felt trapped in a never ending nightmare when all you did was napped and you woke up to a scare As you slowly realize the nightmare is your life you begin to apologize even though you were cut with a knife Your mind is so far away your body is shaking this was supposed to be a new day but life was just faking The thoughts are endless the hurt is so deep you think to yourself what a mess as you lay there and weep So many things can happen in just 24 hours it has to stop, but when stupid fool you have no powers It hurts more then anything so very deep inside the wounds are all opening nowhere left to hide You can't handle it anymore there are choices to make you are tired and sore you close your eyes never to wake

The pain the sorrow let it rain for tomorrow The hurt the loss in the dirt I carry my cross The heartbreak the healing it's such a fake no more feeling The danger the cry so much anger just wanna die The cut the blood didn't mean it but overflows like a flood The dark the light I've hit the mark gave up the fight The calm the wounds so deep ready to embalm have my everlasting sleep

I knew a girl who would put up a fight but slowly over time she started to give in she tries to use all her power and might but as much as she tries she just can't win She used to be able to sort things out but her mind is so confused she doesn't know where to start so she sits by herself and will just cry and pout she is so lost, she has a shattered heart She feels so unlovable and like an outcast no matter how much she tells herself she will be fine she thinks of her future but its now all in the past she lays there and cries sounds between a moan and a whine No one can save her, she must do it alone she cant get herself together for even a day she feels like death and it chills her to the bone no matter how hard she thinks, there is nothing left to say She needed an answer or even a why she speaks from her heart at whatever the cost she never got her answer just a goodbye This girl is me and I am totally lost

I sit in the dark and shed a tear I feel that I will never understand you one day I feel safe, another I fear I question the things you do If you say I am your friend then why shut me out the mixed feelings are starting to blend I used to believe, now I doubt You say you won't hurt me so what do you call this my tears blind me, i can't even see so close but each time i miss I am giving up, I lost the fight I feel empty inside, nothing is there I am nothing to look at, just a sad sight the sad part is that I don't even care Slowly I retreat in my safe little place nothing can harm me if I keep up my guard It's like I can vanish, without a trace I can't take any more hurt, it's way to hard So go on with your life be happy, be safe, be smart I am still hurting cause it cut like a knife there is no reason to put back together a broken heart

Each day I lose a little more it starts out sunny then starts to pour I try to think about tomorrow but it only brings me more sorrow I try and act like it's alright but I fight between dark and light an endless battle, stupid war I just can't do this anymore There are many things I should live for but they just don't seem to happen anymore no one understands that I am unwell I am living in my private hell The dark, the light which should I choose either way I pick I still lose if I choose the light, I must still fight but if I choose the dark I can say good night I've been pushed and shoved I know I am unloved you never saved me when I was depressed I can tell you were just not impressed I know I was rejected all my attempts you deflected even when i just started talking you turned your back and started walking So as I began falling no one heard me calling I don't have wings to fly I am on my way to die It's now to late to help me I have set myself free I can't feel the hurt as I am buried in the dirt Just remember one thing you were my everything I loved you with all my heart but now we are forever torn apart

I am waiting for that day when he will come and say I love you so much as I feel his gentle touch It might happen out of the blue my love for him is true I make a simple wish now let's seal it with a kiss I will love you with all my heart we will never be apart this love we have is so strong something like this can't be wrong We will explore new things together stay with each other, parting never This dream, I hope and pray will come true one day He holds the key to my heart which is a very big part I trust him with all I got and damn he is so hot! It's rejection that I fear so I hold this dream so dear deep inside my heart just waiting for this to start So until that day is near I will try and hold back my fear I thank the stars above for showing me my one true love

A gentle touch means so much a stolen kiss it's what I miss Great big hugs having fun on the rugs holding each others hand and making circles in the sand A slight caress could lead to a good mess back me up against a door baby I'm yours A kiss on the lips sends me on a trip little loving strokes all my feeling evoked I want you like no other I wish you were my lover can you see how bad I want you these feelings are so true So come follow me we can take each other where we want to be no more time to hide let's take a good long ride One night of hot passion a wild night of actions you don't need to search anymore I will fulfill all your dreams and more

Lies you told were just so cold even though I would cry you would still lie How did it feel to not let me heal leave me so confused I know I was used Did it give you power to watch from your tower as I fell apart you have no heart I cried my heart out but you would only shout and keep telling me a lie as I began to slowly die You are so cruel used me like a fool you are laughing at me now go on, take your final bow So bury me deep I know you won't weep as you hold your golden staff I will have the final laugh Cause this I promise you you will get yours too I will haunt you night and day I will never go away

The pitch black sky it's dark and cold I ask myself why my life is on hold I never reached my goal gave up too soon I sold my soul to stay in my safe cocoon I have fallen so fast into my deep dark place reliving my past in this endless race The battles I tried to win the war that can't be won my hopes and dream in a spin my stupid life is done Nothing to look forward to yesterdays are now the past I ask myself what I should do but nothing in my life will last So I sit and watch my life go by I try to think and let out a moan I am so very lost I just want to cry this is the way it will be, always alone