Another night spent crying, I swear I really am trying. To come to terms with my loss, but the bridge is to hard to cross. A night filled with bad dreams, nothing is what it seems. I let myself start crying, but these tears are never drying. I don't care if I never heal, it's easier not to be able to feel. I am alone in my grief, nothing can bring me relief. My losses were too great, the only feeling inside is hate. I will never be the same, and I only have myself to blame. I keep trying to be strong, but my whole life is just so wrong. I see no future ahead, all my dreams are dead. No looking forward to tomorrow, I am filled with so much sorrow. As I sit and think, I take a breath, I realize my only choice is death.