well things have come to an end as most of you might have noticed...it seems like I dont have any luck with men but I think I will try once more...I got a new name lol lost angel and I think I will keep it...
LOL its kind of funny how I put a section in about domestic voilence when I was going through it myself...I saw some red flags and thought geez girl ur looking way too hard and not giving him a chance...but after some verbal threats (then saying he was joking)...u dont joke with someone who was abused about things like that... weather joking or not...we arent the same as someone who hasnt gone through the same thing as we have...I was talking to my therapist about things going on and he felt that I was seeing "the red flags" and I knew what I needed to do...lol I wouldnt let him talk...I talked about everything and when he tried to talk I said no wait let me finish...blab blab blab and finally I told him what I was planning on doing...he kind of snickered and asked me why I was there...I said I needed to vent and talk things out in the open...hmmmm I think if I was at the park talking to myself people would think I was nuts...I'm not nuts...I just wanted to make sure I could handle a "good relationship" (HAHA what a laugh) so I guess I am on the road again...hopefully to happier pastures...
I do have to admit I do feel like a ton of bricks have been lifted and not as stressed anymore...
I have to thank three special people in my life today for all thier support, lubs and understanding without judging me...
my dear sis *hugs* I'm sorry for the distance...I have missed our talks and the closeness we used to have...I still lubs you and ur still my sis...
my dear friend, Joe, for standing by myside and always lending me an ear...Lord knows sometimes I talked it off...forgive me...I lubs ya *hugs*
and then there is John (who isnt on CT YET *hehe but will be soon*) you have listened to me alot and heard me cry yet always was there...ty for being there for me...I lubs ya *hugs*
Tomorrow is going to be a wonderful day and nothing is gonna stop me from here on out...I torn down and now time to start rebuilding again...so here goes world...nothing's gonna stop me now :)
