sweet tart's blog: "Just some stuff I write..."

Often, I look at my life...past, present and future. More often than not, I find that my friends, both off and online are more loyal than my own blood family. How disturbing is that? Being southern, you are taught that family means everything. Even when your own flesh and blood betrays you. You learn to keep your mouth shut! I have spent many years, months, days and hours worrying and mourning my blood that has betrayed me.

I mourn no more.

I have been used and abused by my blood. My family that is "christian" have betrayed me more than any other. Let them live with that and pray to the god they worship for forgiveness.

I am a good and loving person even with my darkness, I would never hurt anyone like they have hurt me.

 I assume my own demons have awakened my awareness. So be it. Maybe it is time to stop trying to make things right, that will NEVER be right. Perhaps, those that judge me will be judged by the powers that be, in the end.

I love...I do not ask for ANYTHING in return. I love because I love....nothing more, nothing less. I love...because I am capable of feeling that beautiful emotion. I will not stop loving the family members that have hurt me, it is just more guarded...and will never be the same.

I love....because it makes me happy! I hope I'll have that happiness for the rest of my days.

May my friend's lives be filled with peace and love, FOREVER!

Always your Tart